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Non-lucid – Notes – lucid – Interpretation

I am guiding an Ayahuasca ceremony. It is not at Strandgaarden, but a different abolished farm house.

We are in the ceremonial room and I am trying my best to relax, while still paying attention to the needs of the travellers. I am the last available guide and so I find myself a little nervous as this will be the first time I will deal with an intoxicated participant. Soon hereafter a parson raise her hand and I go to her.

Jocelyn Girala – I think – would like to go to the toilet. She is an experienced traveller and she seems like she can manage her movements, but I still make sure I have an arm close by to support her in case she should slip, though she seems interested in keeping her own balance. I feel slightly awkward, not entirely sure about how to compose myself bodily, but I center myself and relax my nerves.

I guide her and we are headed towards the toilets. The toilets we are headed towards are the outside ones next to the Sauna at Strandgaarden, however, Jocelyn insists that we carry on and head towards the next ones out. There normally aren't any further toilets further out, and I find myself surprised when I find out that there is.

There are two toilets, but with two separate entrances to each. I ask Jocelyn which one she would like to use and she considers the question a short while, and indicate she would like to go to the one furthest away.

“No problem” I say.
“But you have to go into this one” She responds, which makes me slightly suspicious and unsure of myself as I want to be available to help her. I enter the toilet however and notice the door is lockable with a padlock. And so I stop up and turn around. I see malice and mischief in the eyes of Jocelyn. I am not far enough in that she can actually lock the door, but I know for certain that this is what she intended and as I realise this she smiles wickedly.
“Who are you?” I ask, and we switch positions so she is now furthest into the entrance. We are now in a cosily orange lit stables, with open rafters in close to our heads supporting the roof structure. There are a lot of girders about, all brown. Jocelyn Is hanging from one of the support rafters with one hand, while she is trying to attack me with the other, which I prevent her from doing with my left hand.

I find myself singing – icaros – more chanting than singing, I feel myself interfering at the level of intellect to start out with, though I manage to let go of this. I also “purr” at her, to manifest whatever needs manifesting at this stage. I also find myself out of my depth slightly, but I do what comes naturally to me.

Jocely no longer looks like she does when we entered the toilets. She looks like a mulatto and she looks a hell of a lot younger – maybe 20-25 – and she stares at me, venom, hatred and anger burning in her eyes.
“I can't hold back” Jocelyn whimpers from behind this new entity. It is Jocely who is holding back with her left hand in the rafters – while I support her figure with my right hand and keeping the hand of the entity at bay with my left. I feel a tinge of nervousness, but also a sense of calm confidence as I tell her:
“Maybe you should just surrender and let go, we can explore this together” And after a brief moment of hesitation Jocelyn lets go and let the entity descend on me – full force, which necessitates that I protect myself with both hands. All the while I keep up my chanting, and I place my hand (not sure which one, as I am also using both of them to manage her flailing arms) on her chest and apply a slight pressure moving my hand upwards – which fuels her rage.
“Who are you?” I ask again and get a vague answer presented intuitively.

Rita – Lita… somewhere mid 19th century – a black woman, maybe a mulatto, who has anger problems.

There is a brief skip, maybe someone helps her back into the ceremonial room.

I find myself standing in the stables talking to an old lesbian friend from England.

She has been hurt by Jocelyn. We talk a bit and I hug her and we find acceptance in the fact that Jocelyn is a racist, but that she cannot really help it – it is karmic – which helps my friend find a sort of forgiveness for her. It is as if (R/L)ita has somehow carried it though this incarnation and forced it upon her. I remember saying something along the lines of.

“So there was racism in the past”
“Yes” my friend replies, sobbing slightly.
“So Joecelyn...”
“Is a racist” my friend completes.

Then Saman and the other guides call me back into the ceremonial room. (R/L)ita is causing havoc in there and a few of the other guides are holding her against a wall.

“We can't seem to control her” Saman is telling me. It is as if (R/L)ita is refusing to leave the body of Jocelyn now that she is there again. “I think only you can finish this” Saman continues. And so I walk over to Jocelyn and start preparring to continue the chanting and acupressure moves I have recently learned (will soon learn IRL).

I am finding myself unwilling to jump the gun on interpreting this baby here. It seems like there is a message coming through that sort of needs to dissipate through sub-conscious reflection and conscious conversation. I had forgotten about the dream until I was in the toilet during the morning routine, and having put on some Bob (which frequently makes me sing) and returning to jog down anther dream I remembered -”Singing” and the chesty feeling of chanting – “There was something about singing” and in that instant the memory of the dream came back to me

4.9.16

I am with my class on some vacation. We are in a one story glass building. I see in the distance that wind had picked up and I point it out. Within seconds it hits us very hard and brings sand clouds with it. I'm wondering how we will be able to find our way back to the hotel, even though I know it's nearby.

Later me and one of my friends are wandering through the town. It's night time and lots of pedestrians. Buildings are rather small, it's not like NY or LA. We are walking through some streets, trying to go someplace and trying to recognize streets and stores we have already walked through. We know the general direction but we don't know the exact route.

I walk into some building. Somehow I gather that it's a porn studio. They think I came there to act, but I'm just trying to get through the building.

They tell me to change into short shorts and lay down on an exam table. There are 4 women around me. All older and they seem educated and professional. One is closing the blinds while another one comes to me with a book of script and she is going through scenes with me. I am all just looking at her in amazement, baffled by what is goin on. One of them starts "prepping" me. Somehow I'm told that I will be with many others. I ask how many is "many". They say something like 20 and I'm like hell nah. They say well 5-6 is nothing, so 20 is a good number and not to worry.

There are cameraman, other actors, bunch of film staff all over the place.

I'm standing in a corner and some women walk in. They all start talking casually to each other and others in the room. One of them slowly walks up to me and I figure she is ther because of me. Then she starts fondling me while talking to me. I try hard not to laugh and I see she is barely containing a smile or laughter.

Another scene - I am in a corridor and Brad Pitt looking like in the movie Troy plus 2 other tall blond, long haired man are there, waiting for a scene with me and them to start. In a dream I knew all their names and they were demi-god looking hot like hell famous actors. Oh, they were shirtless and as I'm typing word "shirtless" I recalled that they pulled their equipment out for me to see and for them to get ready and one on the righ hand side was.... just wow. I couldn't believe the size and it was changing shape in front of my eyes.

Next - I walk into a large, almost ball room sized room and I'm looking around at what's going on in amazement. Someone talks to me and I look in that direction. It's a woman with a very old type video camera at her face, filming me. Telling me to turn my head a bit to the side and she is thrilled when I act like I just noticed her and I'm surprised and kinda scared. Even though I wasn't acting about that.

Now I'm in front of a camera man. He tells me to lift my shirt a bit. I do it and start posing. I'm so surprised because I don't pose and I don't know how to and I don't care to know how to. I know I'm bad at it but hey! if they like it, who am I to argue with?

Next there is a bunch of other female actors all gathered in one room, discussing something. I feel like impostor there but they seem to have accepted me.

Now I'm taken by car to some remote parking lot. I'm suppose to be with more guys but I'm not suppose to know details. I watch other cars arriving and drivers getting out. They are a far cry from Brad Pitt and if I had a choice, I would not do it with them.

I woke up at 3.40, remembering the strangest feeling...... A DV member, I think Spellbee, but I'm not 100 % sure of that, was telling me something about how to get lucid.

Woke up at 8.00, remember nothing (failed WBTB)

Highway
It's daytime and I'm with my girlfriend near a transportation terminal. I think it's the backside of Amsterdam Central Station, but it's different from reality. I'm walking on a small bridge. It's one of those rotating platforms they used to make a train change direction. It's been built a few metres off the shore, above the canal. It starts rotating about 90 degrees while I'm still walking on it. It causes me to tumble a bit. My girlfriend laughs at me.

We enter a bus. It's not a regular service bus, but more like the type you'd use for an organised group trip. We sit somewhere in the middle - back at first, but my girlfriend wants to sit more to the front, so we take the seats directly behind the busdriver. I wonder if we're gonna run into any trouble. Perhaps police stopping us because there are refugees with us. We've gotta take a pretty sharp uphill turn on the ramp towards the highway. The driver messes it up a few times. Man I'm not feeling too confident about this driver. He decides 'fuck it' and just goes straight ahead, dropping the bus at least 5 metres down to the highway underneath. The whole time I'm holding on to my seat and screaming like one would in a movie. I don't feel the impact, but I do think I felt the 'butterflies' in my stomach. I (and some others too I think) want to get out.

I'm cruising down the highway. A lot of people are doing so on their skateboard. I'm not sure what mode of transport I'm using. I'm careful with passing people, so I'm probably using something bigger and more stable than a skateboard. I'm wondering if I would be allowed to join with a longboard. I'm liking this part of the dream.

Room session
I'm chilling in what's supposed to be my room. I've got my 2 laptops (a Mac and another black laptop) on the ground. I'm using my skateboard and going off the tiny ramp I've got here. I haven't taken the effort to move my laptops out of the way. I just skate around them.

Mopeds
I'm with a few of my best friends, all guys. There's also a girl, who is the girlfriend of one of them. She looks way different than she does in reality. We're in Indonesia. We decide to ride out on our mopeds. We're going to a dentist's house. He's quite rich so he's got a home office. We chill there for a bit, get offered a drink. One of my friends decides to leave for a bit. Another one asks for a different drink.

Kite
If you haven't seen Hunter X Hunter, there could be some spoilers ahead.


So, I realize I am dreaming. I think that it is because I went through the entrance of the water fortress, graphics are similar to minecraft, all of the glass actually 100% minecraft, all the people are real looking, including Kite.

There is a huge beast of a monster in front of Kite, like a Bull, but with a huge lance sword. I can't explain the lance sword much... At the hilt is was like a lance, but as it went out, it came together like a sword. Super heavy, I am sure.

Like this, but wearing brown, almost jedi like clothes and a black, almost sith like robe. He was bad.

Anyways, Kite tells us to leave, and I am debating what to do, I don't want Kite to die, but I kind of want to see the fight, I figure I shall rig the battle in his favor a little. I send a copy of my body out and make myself invisible, I get close enough to the action that I am about 4 meters behind and to the right of the bull, so that I can't be hit by the sword accidentally and I can see the whole battle unfold. Kite pulls out his sword, I am a little surprised that he doesn't have his weapon, but whatever, it is still Kite. He pulls back a little and time seems to stop, not in a way like someone stopped time like I can, but in the way that Netero can (sorry for the spoilers!!!) without the huge golden thing behind him. I quickly throw Kite out of the way with TK and then take control of his body, he is nowhere near as fast as he needs to be. I have him move extremely fast and attack the bull. Time stops almost and Kite loses an arm. I pull him back again and pull out as many stops as I can, putting Kite into full on beast mode, Teleporting Kite into the beast and slicing right down the middle. Right before the strike hits, I notice that the lance blade has completely impaled Kite... oops. The lance part is so big that it is taking up the entirety of his chest and stomach and he must have no more functioning organs. I am getting ready to actually fight the monster and I wake up. I would say that maybe I shouldn't have fooled around and I should have fought him myself, but fooling around in dreams is what makes them fun!!!! haha.

Yes!!!! 1.30am and just had my first EVER proper lucid dream, it was amazing

Too excited to go back to bed, so this is a sort of WBTB.

Did a good WILD before sleep. Lots of movement but couldn't fall asleep.

1) I was behind a schoolboy waiting to use a cash machine. It was my turn I was messing about and the woman behind was being impatient. Then I was in a garden it was dark, I put my right foot into a ditch but it was a pond, I was wearing slippers they were then very wet. I went up a set of steps (more sort of floated) and was looking at a computer screen, the pointer had a really bright dot of light on it I looked away it was so bright and looked behind myself to see if it was a laser beam causing the bright light. Then I walked backwards I think I felt like I was flying so I immediately thought that I must be dreaming. I looked at my hands but they looked normal, I checked again, still normal, I thought what the hell I know I'm dreaming!! I flew into an open room and pushed a window open to go outside then thought why didn't I just fly through it? I was slightly worried remembering that sometimes people can't fly when they first get lucid and wondered if I might fall to the ground but felt confident. I felt like I was flying in a vertical position so went horizontal. I flew out of the window and out into a dark night. I could hear an old friend calling me in some woodland a way off so flew that way. I could feel cold air blowing past my face it was so realistic! I started to wonder how long it would last for and could feel myself breathign so I rubbed my hands together, then tried to spin. It was working but by now I was thinking that I was bound to wake up. I spun around again then I was stood by a BBQ in a garden. The lucidity was very poor and I knew I was starting to wake up and gave into it, in fact I was so amazed by this point that I wanted to wake up to write about it.

Added in morning:

2) In a vegetable garden of some sort. I was looking at a dense hedge of some sort of fruit plants. Some parts were covered in black plastic. I noticed that there was a blueberry bush growing at the back, as I pulled the black cover off some of it I could see the flowers opening as the sun hit it. I walked off down a path.

3) I took my car keys into a shop and hid them behind something on a shelf, can't remember why, I told the shop keeper what I was doing he seemed ok with it. Then I was on my motorbike, I was in Japan, the road was a about 20 lanes wide and I had to get into another lane, I think I was travelling into the city. I was with someone else on a motorbike, it was a woman. We got in the wrong lane. It all went slow for a moment she was explaining to me where each lane went to. Two of the lanes led to big metla structures I think they were cablecars, the one we went into I knew was arong. We got to the end of it and there was a boat. We stopped and looked the boat and there were lots of naked people stood on it. The woman drove away very fast and I said something like 'it might be fun!' then got on my bike and followed her.

9/4/16
Dream 1: I was playing in a football grand final. It was the last quarter and very close. I think they were ahead by a few points with only seconds left and the ball came into our forward line. Everyone flew for the mark but no one got it and the other team managed to snap it up off the ground and kick it out. the siren went and we had just lost. Everyone was shattered as we left the field, each feeling it was our own fault individually some way.

Dream 2: I was at some sort of festival thing with my brothers. They separated off from me so I wandered around looking for things to do. I walked for a bit and saw a bunch of waterslides (dream sign doh) but didn't feel like going on them so I went into a building nearby. In there I bumped into my former maths teacher so we started talking. She showed me a bit of paper with all of these peoples signatures and stuff on it and asked me to translate a thing in chinese. I said it was something about being silly at lunchtime, she seemed satisfied and then we parted ways.

Dream 3: I was in the kitchen trying to find something to eat when my dad walked in. He said that we didn't have any cans of tuna because the main supplier had been forced out of business. I asked him why and he said they had way too much dolphin in their food and had to shut down. We were both disappointed about this so I went and got some noodles instead to eat.

Dream 4: My brother told me about this card game competition against an ai which learned from its previous matches, so it would get progressively harder to beat. I decided to have a crack in it, and saw that one of the ai's was supposedly weak against 'unenchanted gravity eyes decks' or something like that. I looked that up on the internet and found a decklist which I created to take on the ai.

Meesha cat totally wouldn't let me remember dream number 1 by meowing the entire time while I was getting her food at 5am.

Dream #2 was Me & my husband Mike. We woke up & got dressed to go out for breakfast & to go to what seems like a mall/flea market. We went there first before we decided to eat & in hind site would never occur in this order. But never the less we are walking through this place & there all kinds of different things to buy for just about every need you may have, yet it also may have been used, which in some cases is also just fine. We initially were looking for children's toys for our grandchildren because it's always good to look for special buys on these items to save money. Grandchildren are expensive! We found ourselves looking over these back pack wagon things. They were like the rolling backpack concept except it was a fold up wagon with cute themes to them for girls & for boys.... After not purchasing anything, we wandered into some bizarre sweets buffet. There were rows & rows of decadent sweets galore. We went down the rows just grabbing random things but I don't remember how they tasted or if they had a taste. This was odd because we specifically were conspiratorially trying stuff so we wouldn't waste our money & by the end, we were full.... We somehow got home, but not our home in real life & we were in our bathroom, which was also not our real bathroom & suddenly the tub was filled w/ flies crawling out of the drain. We were talking about what to do about this when Meesha woke me up.

There's a party on a terrace in a bar on the beach that I go on vacation. I'm sitting at a table with several people and I know that at least two are vampires. One vampire is a woman and I can see something strange in his mouth and I fear that at any moment she starts to attack, but then I think that until the night comes no attack will occur. Beside me is the other vampire, he is a man and I also know that he is very powerful. At that point I decided I have to go from there to somewhere else and find some shelter when night comes.
Again I am overwhelmed, feel fear and then I wake up!

Nothing recalled.

I was the leader of the army who rides horses. For some reason I was riding a saber tooth tiger. It was a huge fight and I won but it made the whole kingdom covered in rats. Then somehow we got rid of the rats and there were just a few flees.

I just had a dream that is kind of fuzzy but this is the general gist of it. The night before I had a dream where a school was aimed for by missiles but somehow they missed. Well last night I had a dream where I was captured by some high school teachers. The old time faithful ones too. Because I found out that it was they who tried to missile the school. They forgot to duct tape me so I ran off to find some one to tell. I ran through the school, but could think of someone who would believe me. So I found my middle school teacher. I told her I had something important to tell her, but not here. So she lead me to the bathroom to discuss it. I told I knew who tried to missile the school the other day. She asked who did it. Then I woke up.

I don't remember much now, but I do remember a little boy Eargon swimming in a hotel pool and he start to dream! It showed memories of the day in the background in front of them was a golden baby dragon it got bigger and older and scared him. He woke up in the pool covered by something similar to cling wrap. He was panicking to get out. He yelled for someone to turn on the lights. When they flicked on it looked like my home pool. I woke up. That's the first time I dreamed about someone else dreaming.

I am a girl who lives in a village near water. I am part of the head family. Only a few in our family have horns on our heads. There is this thing that comes out every night, and if you stare it in the eyes for too long it can control you. My friends and I run from it ,but get stuck in a corner of a industrial basement. We try to hide ,but it finds us. I make the mistake of looking at it. I start to feel my body move towards it, feeling more in its control. I quickly close my eyes ,and it walks away. I look back to the corner I was hiding in and find a pack of gum poison. I start chewing some. I'm suddenly back at the village. I look at the cave where it comes out of. I start seeing its eyes from a distance but none of its body. The eyes are moving closer to us left red, right blue. All the villagers huddle into a circle with adults on the outside and children on the inside. It only takes children ,but kills adults with its horns. I'm inside the circle, I look around and see the monster. Suddenly I feel my horns growing and I explode with rage. I break out of the circle and run to the monster. I stop a few feet away from it. I throw a piece of poison gum at it. The gum sticks on. I start trying to spit at the piece but my mouth is full of the gum. I end up blowing a bubble. The monster laughs at me. I spit out the gum and charge the beast. I trap it in a corner but two jerks from school walk in front of me. I scream at them to move and they run off. I start ramming my horns into the beast. I stab it a couple of times. It teleports behind the circle and runs up the tunnel that leads out of the town. Suddenly there is a table with a blue and red old fashion phones. The jerks answer the unringing phones but I hear what the phone says. In the voice of the monster it says that I should be the leader of the village. Stunned, I walk away into the monster's cave and find jail cells. I wake up.

My brother and I are being chased by a Tyransuarus Rex. I ask it to stop and it agrees. It leads me to a jungle. There is a stone walkway on a lake. I walk from the end of the walkway to the jungle. I start talking to a girl. Then she collapses to the ground, dead. I see a flash of an image, a spiky armored person and a white wolf. Someone sees me and leads me to a bunch of Japanese houses. I'm in a group of random kids when an adult starts talking to us. Each kid got assigned a place to live. I walk forward, finding myself at a wall with stone walkway with water below. I find a section of the wall marked 25. I press a button on the corner of the walkway. The section opens up to a nice looking room. I walk around the walkway trying to find a way to the door. I fall in the water in a dress. I start swimming towards the door. I round the corner ( looks like _|―| ) to find a start line and two girl kneeling on the line. I start kneeling I'm now wearing black camo pants, a black t-shirt, and a army green jacket. We start two meters from the door. The richly dressed girl wins and goes through the door. It closes, and the woman who was watching the race starts talking to us. Suddenly I'm shopping in the clothes section of a store that belongs to the academy. I am walking through the main aisle of the store and start following a white wolf. I stop at a pet area where pets are stopped in midair. I look at familiar looking Barcuda fish. I see my sister with a shopping basket, she grabs my arm and I start walking with her. She tells me she's being followed. I stop us by some dairy and two guys walk by. One glances at us while walking, the other keeps walking but turns his torso around and stares at us hungrily. I ask which one it was and she says the second one. We're walking toward the check out area. Abby asks me which one she should buy. She holds up four different open cans. One with carrot slices, another with silver looking coins, green stuff, and I think fruit. I tell her not to buy any because they're for pets and that she doesn't have one. I wake up.