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1. I was walking around in a garden type of area. There was an abundance of plant life around me, all being green along with some red and pink flowers. This garden area was rather large, and it was enclosed by a gray wired gate. I continued walking around when I suddenly got this weird feeling, a feeling I can't describe. I always get this feeling when I become proficient at Lucid Dreaming and I have them every night. Anyways, I got the feeling and immediately knew I was dreaming. Just as I became Lucid my vision got fucked up and everything looked fairly blurry and static-like. It was as though I had my glasses off or something. I look at my hand just to confirm that I'm dreaming and I count my fingers. "One, two, three, four, five, six" I counted out loud. Its always interesting looking at my hands in dreams. I noticed that my hand was pale and my fingers were extra long and really crooked, it looked very odd.
Just then the dream starts destabilizing and everything becomes hectic to say the least. Dream characters start running around and an earthquake starts. At this point the entire ground is shaking and I am completely disoriented. I wake up from the dream into that period between awake and asleep, which is basically a black void, or that's how I perceived it. It feels as though I'm floating here. I then decide that I want to go back into the same dream I was just in, so I focus, and the exact same dream forms. Next thing I know I am back in the garden. "Aright, lets get some stuff done" I say out loud. I look where an opening is at where there is no foliage, it seems to be the exit out of the garden. There are 3 girls standing there leaning on a metal rail just to the side of the exit. I remember one of them wearing a scarlet red dress. Beyond the rail and the exit of the garden I could see a huge city in the background that seemed fairly far away considering I could see the entire city. Despite how far away it was, the skyscrapers I saw literally still reached far far into the sky. Seeing this I realized just how huge the buildings were, they were enormous compared to any skyscrapers in waking life in both height and depth.
"Lets find her" I think to myself. I then yell out "[Her name] where are you?" I thought that she was surely one of the 3 girls leaning on the rail, but none of them responded. "Aright, I need to secure myself in here" I say out loud "Time to create another time dilation watch". I start walking around the garden while simultaneously creating the watch. To my convenience I already had a watch on my left wrist, so all I needed to do now was modify and upgrade it. I take the watch off and start configuring it. Only a few seconds into doing so the dream starts to destabilize and once again everything goes hectic. My vision started messing up again, but the rest of my senses stayed. I'm not sure as to why the dream destabilized.

Note: during the entirety of technically *both* of these dreams, I reminded myself to maintain my self awareness, and I did so perfectly.

Video Games are How I Dream Lately... Apparently

I am in the middle of beating a video game with my wife, we get into a dungeon that reminds me of a desert temple from Zelda.

I am actually playing an RPG, but we run into an amorphous blob, none of our weapons can seem to fight it, and nothing it is doing is making sense. I start attacking with my sword, but find that I have very few attacks and that they are very limited against the thing that I am fighting, especially since Laura had hit it with her sword and it had passed right through. I think that this thing is not actually in the game, but in the reality behind the game. I change weapons and pull out my white Samurai sword. I jump decide to stay in one place and just watch to find it. It is really fast, but it doesn't seem to be doing much damage. I watch and watch and it appears in front of me and knocks me over and disappears again it is green and is in the shape of a man, but it seems to more like a lingering memory than a person. I stop and hear my wife scream, I don't know if she can defend against it, but not a big deal, this is a dream. I hold my sword in the ready position above my head for a quick down strike, and wait for it, I get hit again, only in the front, like it is a warning. I put my back to a wall and hold my sword far back so that I can just stab when I see it. I see it and I stab, it dodges and knocks me down, my health is getting low, I find that funny.
"Come at me again!" I yell, this time holding my sword in front of me, across my chest. Like so.

He appears and I just push forward, as soon as the broad side of my blade hits him, it sends him to the ground and I strike him down, I liked the weight and swing of it! It is nice to have the same blade in different dreams. We go past the pillars, and I realize that we are underground and that we are entering the boss room. It is a huge version of Ifrit from FFX.


"I got this" My wife says, and I am interested to see what she does to kill him. She summons a water thing (I didn't pay much attention to it) and had it use "Waterfall" or something similar to gush a huge waterfall on his head. It didn't do much damage, but it stunned him. Laura keeps spamming this and I get bored. I fast forward through and it takes like over 200 hits to kill him, we get out of the dungeon and don't get anything for it!

I get out to Hyrule field and check the map. There is only a little bit of unexplored territory. It looks like we are going to be beating this game soon. I see three entrances to caves and my map doesn't say that they have been explored. I use some fake memories to figure out if I have, and one of them looks brand new. My wife is no where to be seen. I jump in and a loading screen pops up (just a black fade) and I wake up.

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Spellbee2's Spring Extravaganza Competition 2016

(I always date my DJ entries with the new day at midnight's number)

2016-04-10
20:00 COMPETITION START
22:00 bedtime

2016-04-11
00:00 (night #1) asleep
05:00 wake with recall, room is stuffy, nose is blocked, get up

+(D1) battle in a large rectangular open stairwell with stairs running up/down all around the walls [DREAM SIGN], I'm flying and jumping between the levels and battling the opponents. In the end I win and chain the opponents on a large ledge next to a big drop-off, one opponent is just a head with hands popping out, there are two more opponents sitting dejected on the left two positions. The chained head is in the 3rd position on the right. I direct the chains to flex and push out the head over the abyss and so it will fall to its death. I'm thinking the other two guys are totally at my mercy and hoping I don't do the same the them but they didn't like the head guy, either. I jump out and float/fly down and the head is still alive. Then the head turns into a hot girl and I get a bit bold [DREAM SIGN]

Spoiler for bit of a sexy time:

I go up to the girl who's sitting there leaning back with legs spread and dress hiked up and panties exposed, and reach for her (ahem) and rub it a bit on the outside of her panties. I ask her in a sexy voice, "Do you like that? Can I do this?", she's spouting a stream of talk and takes a quick aside to say "yes" before continuing her nonsense. I then reach inside the panties for direct contact with her (ahem) and it's all gooey and greasy and oily and I say/think we need to get you cleaned up.

+(D2) I'm driving towards my neighborhood [FALSE], approaching an intersection, and turn right. My old place is just ahead on the left, and I now am DO and someone else is driving, some people who don't like me and are wondering if I still live there. As the car drives down I look to the left and see the row of low bungelows including mine, the front door is open, and inside are large desks, it clearly is uninhabited, I've moved out. The people will probably be happy that I'm not there any more. Going forwards, it's like a typical CA apartment complex with parking spaces arranged all outside the low buildings. I'm looking at the spaces and see they're all empty. Where are all the people? Away on vacation still? [a bit of beginning critical reflection, I'm thinking about the experience]. Up ahead there is an apartment with some decoration on the outside, at least someone is still living here. I'm looking at the car ports, some of them are covered, and some are not, some are reserved for apartments I think, and some are not. The covered single space carport doesn't leave a lot of room for you to get out on the side. The view turns 90 degrees to the left and heads in to an open uncovered spot but it's right in front of the stairs and this is probably not a free spot.

+(F1) blue sky and sun, I'm outdoors with my wife daylight (by a motel swimming pool?), I look up at the sky and notice it is a pure, even, cloudless blue with a single bright round white/yellow sun in it. I remember the sky was like this earlier. I point it out to my wife.

+(D3) On the street outside childhood home [DREAM SIGN] with my kids, there is a lot of firewood here that needs chopping somehow. I don't know how I'm going to do this. Ah well, might as well man up, get an axe, and do it. It'll take a while because most of the pieces are too large still for just an axe and need further heavy splitting by a mall or wedges. I have an axe with a small very sharp head but it doesn't fit well on the axe handle. My son is also setting chopping wood with axes, and is setting up next to me. I make sure we separate farther apart so that we don't hit each other. I'm trying to fix the axe head on to the handle and it's not working [DS]. I try to put a little metal wedge in the head of the handle but that causes the handle to splinter and split. I'm reading the instruction manual for the axe head, which while of foreign manufacture, has its instructions in English [DS]

Spell's comp begins tonight (For me, it's meditation, big glass of water for wee-back-to-bed, and bed). I still sort of can't believe I actually am trying a competition. (Well if I don't like it, I won't do it again...) Anyways, since I tend to reside in the dream journals section more often than the forums, I'll drop these here so I don't lose them in the gatling gun of posts that are abound to happen on Spellbee's thread.

And as my crappy luck would have it, I came down with a fairly bad headcold the day the comp starts. So I might be a couple days late before lucidity kicks in.

OLD: Waterbending
OLD: Firebending (Outside of flight)
OLD: Become Female

NEW: Earthbending (Reasonable Scale, move a boulder at least as big as myself)
NEW: Airbending (Reasonable Scale, Strong Gust of wind, Mini Tornado, etc.)
NEW: Encounter/Confront tsunami dream. (May overlap with Waterbending)
NEW: Teach Manei (My dream guide) how to defend herself/fight. I will consider any length of instruction (Even if it's just a single move) a success.

Three Step Task: (Mmmk I wanna challenge myself with things that haven't worked in the past. But doing all of these in the same LD... whoo...)

-Element Manipulation (There might be overlap with personal goals. If there is, I will take whatever score gives more.)
-Teleportation. (I think there's a dream spell that I can use. Tesser-A-[Destination])
-Basic Summoning. (I've done this before, but I'm out of practice...)

...

Also, dream frags and stuff. This is from the morning of the ninth:

I vaguely remember something to do with a pair of mice or mice like characters. They lived in a large castle lived by an evil greedy king. There were these two mice with long fur, that looked like little fuzballs. They had tiny swords too. Supposedly the mice were actually enemies of the kingdom that had been transformed into mice by an evil wizard. This was a punishment for attempting to rebel against the kingdom. There were more and more of the long-haired mice over time. Eventually they plotted to poison the kind and all of his men, and were successful.

...

And from this morning:

I remember I was walking outside with my dad. I remember looking up at the sky and noticing that it was yellow and green, with a huge anvil shaped thundercloud. This prompted me to do a nose pinch reality check and become lucid, but I forgot what else happened after that. I was happy I got lucid though.

There was more from this morning. Some of it was sexy. (I think I'll be omitting all sexual dreams for the comp.) Some of it was just bland muck about school and an old bully.

I had a very long dream, sort of based on the movie They Live. I was in an old school that had been painted over to make it look new and there was a principle there trying to convince me that it was a new school. I was looking at the lockers and the dates on them said 1960, at this point i realized the people were lying and I kept trying to convince the other students this whole place was some kind of prison. The dreamed then changed to take place in a super market and I asked the cashier if he heard that weird signal, he looked at me and laughed. The signal was coming from Saturn. It hid the aliens from view, they were really tall and had long fingers and were sort of driving the herd of people like cattle, or a crossing guard telling people where to shop, and what to buy. I saw them, they saw me and tried to choke me, i ran and got away, and then saw the whole world was a prisoner of them. They were everywhere and in total control. We were just fat little pets, running in a maze, easily controlled. But if you block the signal, you could escape, then i woke up. I waited all day to type this, because it was so crazy and I didn't really want to post it.

Non-lucid – Notes – lucid – Interpretation

I am in a basement. There are a series of 3 rooms next to one another, used for sexual activity. We are 3 couples coming out of each of these, though I am unsure if I am with someone at this point. From the 3 rooms we enter into a larger room and head towards a door on the right hand side.

We are talking about a larger sex assemble which is to take place in a bit. I know I won't be participating and I think there is another woman who won't either and so while I am exiting the room I look over my left hand shoulder to spot and make sure that the woman is leaving the room with me.

4-5 people go back into the room, while the woman and I remain in the adjacent room. This room is darkly illuminated. There is a sofa and an oblong coffee table next to a dividing wall that separate the larger floor plan into two major rooms – where we have just been in the other one. From the point of view of the sofa, which is located at the centre of the dividing wall there is a small kitchenette up to the right, right next to a door that leads into a room I never see, but notice that a fairly bright white light is flowing from it.

As we all walk out for a break the woman who is also not participating in the group session – she is very skinny, with shoulder length hair and is wearing loose beige (?) trousers and a dark green t-shirt, she is a head or two shorter than I – tell me in an asking tone “Is it ok if we don't have sex but just cuddle up a bit.” “Sure” I reply, a tad disappointed, but not a lot.

We sit down in the sofa in our separate corners. She lies down with her head in my lap and flick on the television, which is over right next to the kitchenette on the left hand side – opposite the door with the white light. The first channel is a two way channel – which is intended to show the other room what is happening in ours and we will be allowed what is happening in the other room. The woman tries to flick through the channels – at first we seem to be stuck on the channel we start out with – but when we finally get going there seems to be porn on all the channels. After having flicked through a couple we settle on the two way channel.

At this the woman turns frisky and direct her attention towards me, she turns her head upwards and kiss me, gently at first but with increasing vigour. We both start opening our mouths more and more and eventually I feel the cold sore at my left corner of my mouth rip open, a typical searing pain and a slight sensation of moisture, but I don't care I continue to dive into the kiss – feeling excited and horny as hell. Eventually I start adjusting my body posture, trying to roll with the woman into the motion of getting down into a laying down position – thinking yes, nice a sexual encounter is in the making. She reacts fiercely standing up in the sofa and starts rearranging the pillows in the sofa. At first I think she is making more room for our endeavours, but I soon understand.

“Traitor!” she proclaims “We had an agreement!” she continues.
“Yes, and I was going to keep it, but..” I reply.
“You can't be trusted!” She interrupts. She doesn't seem to understand that I really didn't mind not engaging in a sexual encounter but that I was fully open to do so if that is what she wanted. The situation had evolved from her desire and her initiative.

Feeling it is a lost battle I simply place myself in a tailors position in my end of the sofa and look her in the eyes – she has deep brown eyes. She starts talking about something that happened to her with her dad.

Sensing that it is a recurring pattern I ask her;

“So did this or something similar happen with your dad before?” I ask, sensing there is something like a fear of flying.
“There was an accident” she goes on – at this point the conversation is blurry to my memory – and she explains that either something similar happened at the age of 6, or later at the age of 21 – but essentially she is either saying that something happened before or after, with the other age representing the first event we were talking about. She starts looking rather pale, and slightly taken aback, I can see the surprise in her eyes that I am willing to sit back and talk therapeutically with her despite her recent judgement of me as being a traitor – which might actually refer to a generalisation of men she has developed.

We are interrupted at the conclusion of the sexual adventure happening behind us. There is a large window, with large black curtains obstructing the view. I start becoming aware of sounds from inside there, just a few moments before they enter the room we are sat in. I get a feeling of some sadomasochistic adventures happening and feel a slightly forced disinterest in knowing about the details.

When the people come out and start making their way towards the kitchenette, Jackie comes over to sit down, as well as a black man with long dreadlocks, though his hair isn't as greasy as you would expect from this hair style. I feel slightly embarrassed as I am no longer wearing my trousers and pants, though I still have my long woollen socks on. The black dude knocks me on my shoulder, and Jackie comes over with a glass of Orange juice and playfully say “Ahh it is good to see you asking for so much to drink” referring to it being a typical expression of recently having had sex and also to the glass of water I had drunk just a little beforehand.

I have a blanket covering my genital area, which helps with the embarrassment, but I also feel deceitful for the others misjudging the activity me and the woman were engaging in. From the kitchenette they start talking about their fascination with a flail-like whip, which is what they plan on using next.

I feel a strong urge to get out of there and I start making my way towards the doorway out, which is on the left hand side – leading into a small stairway, which is gloomily lit and dark green.

There is a slight skip.

I am now outside. I am walking down a road, there are trees and hedges along the side walk, and it is sloping downwards as I am walking down on the left hand side. It is dark outside, it seems wet and somewhat windy as well, it is raining. The light from the street lights seems gloomy and contains no warmth.

I continue walking downwards, having a conversation with Ronan, though he isn't actually present. We are talking about the option of setting up a company each, for 5 kroner, and then swapping companies – somehow this is relating to the treatment centre I am about to start up – and I am surprised he agrees. I recall something about a Facebook conversation where we were chatting and we came to the conclusion that the only thing we might have in common is Aesthetic taste, but that this might be cause enough to meet up anyway.

- this is relating to an earlier dream I had, the conversation took place at a street close to where I lived previously, lots of yellow building about, during the daylight. I recall the trouble of typing during this dream.

As I am walking along during this mental/technological conversation I come across a tent. It reminds me of the attached tent of a caravan. It is dark blue and from behind the plastic windows a greyish and eerie light shines through. I am aware of the strings that hold the tent in place, as they are extending out to the road blocking the path of the side walk forcing me to walk around them.

I am still heading down the road when I become aware of my shoes – they are getting wet and I wonder why I am wearing my slippers outside in this god forsaken weather. I look up and to my left and see the state library – rising above the darkness of the tree lines, with only a hint of the light of the street lights reaching the top like an ominous tower. I feel an increasing sense of unease, but carry on downwards.

Not long after this the water levels are rising and I feel like I know the bottom of the road will be completely flooded, blocking path to get home. I look up and back over my right hand shoulder and spot the road I can take which will also take me home. I turn around and start walking backwards. I feel like my vision is starting to slip – like fade completely – and I become increasingly afraid that I will loose my sight completely. At the same time I start feeling intoxicated, like proper drunk and my movements become erratic and unbalanced and I desperately reach out grasping for the strings of the tent for support. And while I find them and grab them they can do little for me as my balance continues to deteriorate. I think it is a bit weird as I didn't drink a lot back at the porn complex, but I can feel that I have definitely breached all levels of safe intoxication. My conscious perception seems to turn into a series of broken mosaics, as if invisible lines of fractures appear before my visual and spatial perceptive capacities.

I become so scared at the rising water levels and my continued diminishing balance and think to myself “Shit I could actually drown in this state. I am a poster boy of how not to get drunk.” While entertaining this thought fear levels keep rising, and then boom – I step into a pothole that is maybe a metre and a half deep and find myself too drunk to get loose – fear becomes panic as I struggle to get free.

The rain keeps falling the water is murky, brown like the colour of mud and there are multiple pieces of foliage, sticks and branches adrift on the watery road.

Finding myself terrified and sure of my death, I wake up.

Immediate interpretation: The cold sore bit was hugely disturbing to me as I woke up and is referring to a situation with Karen recently, where I knowingly kissed her before telling her that I had it. I became immediately aware that I am not completely free of selfish tendencies, which is also related to the knowledge that when I am practising so much self control during sex, I am liable to release more pre-cum, which of course increase the risk of pregnancy during unprotected sex. Knowledge I have kept to myself. It symbolise how I have been willing to put my own selfish needs in front of both her and our needs, a tendency I was deeply ashamed of upon awakening.

The black curtain shielding the view of the other room in the dungeon represents a boundary – black, the colour of nothing – meaning that while I am intrigued with exploring new aspects of my sexuality there are still areas I don't find meaningful to explore. Only if I fear exploring it does it make sense to do so, though this is not a fear based response – it is simply not interesting to me.

My interaction with the woman represents some of my concerns with Karen – that she asks for space, and then also take initiative for sex. It represents my confusion with it all, but also my willingness to take up the role required for her personal growth. The tad dissapointment could represent my feeling of repressing my sexual advances towards her to accommodate her need for space.

The interaction with my embarrassment regarding the others who assume we have had sex, while we haven't I believe represent the uneasiness I have felt in describing my relation to Karen to the outside world. I am trying my best to avoid putting labels on it, and while I don't find this a problem in our personal relation or when talking to people who frequent Tantric environments it is difficult to describe this mode of being in a relation to “old” friends and family who are not participating in this new-found spiritual journey I find myself on. I am somewhat afraid of what Karen thinks – if she would prefer I don't mention her at all, though that would violate my need to be open about what is important and meaningful in my life.

The drowning in the puddle represents – I looked this up as well, I was aware of the meaning of water representing unconscious emotions surfacing – that I might be forcing the issue. Before looking up the theme I thought to myself “Hmm now you have invited her into your inner most private world, of course we dive straight into the dark side – as represented by the cold sore bit”. I then looked it up and it could mean that I am forcing unconscious feelings to the surface prematurely, which makes sense against my immediate thoughts on the matter. It might make sense to keep certain dreams or aspects of my dreams private – it is ironic that we have talked so much about giving and asking for space and we then end up attempting to dream share, effectively eliminating space between us entirely – however as I was awake and praying for the spiritual purification of selfish tendencies I also felt that it made sense to dive into this, as she could help me face the issues and as such transcend them.

Having looked up a variety of dream themes I am increasingly aware of the truly wide variation of what people interpret stuff to mean, which has led me to the conclusion that it is primarily the immediate interpretation that matters. When I am baffled by a theme, object, colour or person I will look it up as and when needed and find the one that resonates most clearly with me. I also think this is a great way to start working on making symbolisms of dreams more translatable and better capable of communicating clearly between the two states of consciousness. Also regarding the privacy I spoke with Karen, and it dawned on me that some dreams can only be understood when analysed against other dreams or contextual events, which might necessitate “sitting” on them for a while as already mentioned.

10/4/16 (Lots of long and vivid dreams tonight)
Dream 1: I was travelling around Sydney road and all of the old churches around there. I saw there were two next to each other, one on either side of a road. One was an old, crumbly one made of dark grey stone, while the other was newer and made of orangey-brown stone. I decided to investigate the dark grey one and went inside, then climbed up to the top. I went back outside, this time in the belltower, and surveyed the view from up there. I think I then did some research about the history and significance of this particular church.

Dream 2: I was at home and one of my favourite bands, Ne Obliviscaris, were there for some reason. They were doing a show nearby but had decided to rest at my house. My dad seemed ok with this, and we somehow organised for them to play a little show out the front of our house. Unfortunately some of their members either weren't there or were injured, so my brother and I had to take up two of the positions. I think my brother picked up the bass and I chose the violin and singing. We set up the equipment and speakers and stuff out in the driveway and a small crowd gathered. My brother and I were busy rehearsing and feeling nervous, but soon enough we were on. The rest of the band started playing and I tried to keep up on the violin. My brother was having issues with the bass, and before long he actually snapped a string and the performance grinded to a hold. The two other members actually arrived then so they could take back their instruments. The bass player didn't seem too upset by the broken sting, more amused than anything. While the band was setting themselves back up again my dad made me run and fetch some bee for the crowd waiting around. I then found a trumpet somewhere and tried playing it, but I couldn't get any proper noises out of it, and the crowd laughed at me a bit.

Dream 3: I was at a sort of museum with my family. The museum had a ton of different media there; books, posters, tv, movies, art etc. displaying everything significant that had happened for the last 50 years. We walked through there for a little while before emerging in the gift shop. My dad was looking at something and my brother found all of the game of thrones books and showed the size difference and stuff o me. My dad asked if he wanted them but he replied no, saying he would never read them.

Dream 4: There was a guy giving a speech, like at a media conference, where protesters interrupted him by showing a baby cow in his way. The protesters were vegan, and I'm not sure what the guy had done to earn their wrath but he certainly seemed quite uncomfortable around the baby cow and started to panic as the protesters screamed at him.

Dream 5: I was a dinner party with another family in an oldish wooden house. We played a bunch of little games to decide who would be sitting where and who would first and things like that. I remember it being quite intense and the verdicts were final, there was no escaping it. I think my grandparents were also there, overseeing the whole thing.

Dream 6: I was at university and had just finished a class. I went to a KFC with my brother and some friends. They ordered some big bucked of chicken and I got a pie, which little did I know turned out to cost $45000! Anyway we went outside to eat, and somehow we ended up on the banks of the Nile river. I told them that unless this pie was the best thing I had ever eaten I wouldn't pay for it, but realistically I wasn't going to pay for it anyway. We sat over the edge eating, then after a little while two of them started to go into the river, however they said the air was incredibly hot over the river so they returned to sit on the bank. My brother told a story about how Iron Man wasn't allowed in Sumeria and so they had a laser protective field over the river to stop him from entering. As we finished they began to talk about how I was going to pay for the pie, but I told them I had a plan. As we went back inside the KFC I approached the guy who served me and began to shout at him. I told him how unethical he was to give me the super expensive pie when it was obvious I wanted the normal one, and how I demanded a refund. He got really angry but could see he was in the wrong and only made me pay for the regular pie, but I could see he wanted revenge and he took down my name and stuff. We went back university for the next round of classes, me feeling slightly worried and guilty, and sat down waiting for the lecture to start.

Dream 7: I learned about how apparently "pussy" Is a vulgar contraction of pussifiliation, which is where music changes due to the accent differences between different cultures. I was then transported to a rocky beach with cliffs around me and ancient stone structures forming pillars around me and a huge circle to my left. The sky and water were both grey, and the water's current was strong. For some reason I jumped in and began singing a four-line song in the 'proper English' manner and swimming to the beat of it. I made some headway against the current, but was going sideways, closer to the giant circle. I then switched to the American way of singing, and suddenly the current was buffeting me back as the timing of my strokes changed. I was forced back for a little while before I changed back to the previous method and slowly but surely made it back to my original rock. As I clambered up I realised how freezing the water was and now I was shivering uncontrollably, soaked through my clothes.

I titled this take me to church because it was fitting & ironically my ringtone, lol.. Dream 1 was just a dream fragment about a boyfriend I had in middle school but that's the extent to which I remember it which was a bummer. Dream 2 was more vivid where details were concerned but not very colorful except I noticed curtains that were a form of deep red which are basically the color of my own curtains in my living & dining rooms. So anyway, I was in this very large cathedral type of church w/ a lot of big winding stairs. Kind of like the ones in the school in Harry Potter, but they didn't move. I was taking care of a bunch of kids, mostly teens & we had to complete 3 tasks that were on these little pieces of paper. I didn't seem to do any task, this was just a given it seems. But we ran out of paper & I sent some of the kids down the stairs to gather some more paper slips w/ tasks but they came back empty handed. So, I decided to go myself w/ a few of them. One of which seemed like I knew them somehow & felt very connected to this older boy. But when I went down the stairs I was told that there weren't anymore available slips but that since it was lunch we could have lunch at this time. Someone led us into a cafeteria where they were starting to put the food away & we started to fill our trays & then I woke up.... It was almost like the dream was supposed to symbolize my quest of learning new information & the tasks represented the TOTM somehow. Like it I did, A B & C, I'd get the answers I was looking for. I woke up w/ the feeling that I should watch some video's on YouTube or something of people playing spin the bottle to trigger it in a LD. I'm hoping I find some because dreams of all sorts tend to have snippets of movies I've just watched or things I've just seen or memories that have fluttered through my brain during the day, etc.

Mild/Dild🌺🌺
Bed around 10 - tiny melatonin and some b6
Listened to book GIS for a bit
Had wonderful dream early but didn't write - epic 💃it was a mission and I was requesting an " Extraction" 💥

Did get up around 3 and sat up properly in bed - stayed awake- drifted off after about an hour and had first Lucid of the night -

Lucid🌺
Walking around ...and I see a crowd and it came to me in an instance
" This is a dream - you guys know this is a dream right?"
I walk over to the crowd they look friendly and happy to hear my words..I am about to invite mischief and I remember I have some important goals - I want todo something useful ...find stuff out ...use this lucid dreaming... So I call out to the dream it's self and look into the space infront/above me
" I want to achieve my highest potential ...How can I do that? Tell me!"
As I call out, a space starts to open up infront of me - a gate way - I focus on it intently...maybe too much ... as I wake - the opening looked similar to the one a few days ago
BRIGHT COLOURS OF YELLOW AND CORAL - ✨✨✨shimmering in the distant sky like a gate way or beautifull place ✨✨✨
was now waking into dream of WL

Had a dream about a guy - he spoke about himself and how he was an amazing swimmer... But he gave it all up and that meant he could help us - me and others listenng, achieve our goal...I say it again and agin the same thing ; and eventually say" I realise I keep saying you shouldn't have given it up but actually you had to give up inorder to help us at this very moment"... its like i finaly realise somrthing about giving old things up to persue other new things ...
He said " Yes that's right - I did it again from scratch -that is how I became able to help you now"

After back rolling and bed set up around 7 laid back down🌺🌺 Sunday lie in is always a joy 🌠
2nd Lucid
I am with some folk and realise I am dreaming as we are coming out of a stoor - MM. Was trying to get my attention - I needed to carry on getting on- I see a red car and remember the totm to drain the colour from an object
- "drain the red colour out of that car" I shout out to the dream
All colour drains out and I see a pale looking car in front of me- its got an open top so -
I look inside on the dash board for an object ( false memory of a totm coming up I see a Rubix cube and reach out for it. Holding it in my hand for a few moments I move it around checking the different coloured sides. My task is to change it into something else - " I see a small yellow ball in my hand now" I call out to my dream ...and sure enough the cube has turned now as i watch into a small bright yellow ball- I am happy( not realising at the time I had forgotten the " eat something non- edible task!)
Feel the dream shifting so jump into flight and fly fast through space and time ...past many colours and spaces I fly and fly. My WL body begins to stir ...I fly and fly and do some acrobatics and land very suddenly poised in cross leg position bolted upright , next to a window...I half wander if I realy am still in the dream or am I in my room sitting cross legged next to the window- I scan myself and realise I am dreaming still- my body is still half asleep - my mouth feels all mangled and I do feel half in the dream world still ...my mind is very active and awake so it's hard to get back in... I lay like this for quite a while enjoying the peace of the inbetween worlds✨

Thinking now in hind site i should have comanded my dream body to move ...maybe it would have worked 🌸

D1 - At school class is doing cookery lesson, we are using home grown produce from our school garden. The main ingredient is cabbages.
I am feeling inadequate as ever whilst S is so confident that he is playing football happily with the kids at break time,
they are using the cabbages for footballs. Oo

D2 - I am in some kind of temple, all is dark except a central pool.
I'm naked with a woman I do not know her and cannot see her face, she has long black hair and her skin is almost iridescent (its shinny and silken anyway).
There is a rush of silvery white light, it streams upwards engulfing her. Then I am entwined with her, we are both bathed in a swirling vortex of white energy. Its all very hawt.

D3 - In the countryside on a muddy track, children are going on a hike up through the hills, some have abscondid to go swimming and are being berated. I wonder why they were swimming as it is freezing weather.
Me and some others who were looking on head back into a great manor house. All is dark, and I am alone. I feel someone is going to break in.
I have some kind of weird robotic gun/bow which I spend ages trying to put together.
Then I go into the main hall and try fiddling with a tiny key to lock the front doors. I peer out over the moonlight gardens, scared half to death. I fumble with the lock but it won't work.

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Dream 2 has a serious sync with other things and has me quite freaked out. Which is not like me :/
I have been listening to a series of novels, the latest is serpents kiss, which is about vampirism. The vampire in question is many hundreds of years old and lives life on an unemotional prod pro quo basis. She is intoxicated by the energies being released by her oncoming death.
Tarot today, death card fron rosetta tarot



It is the serpent, also kundalini, and card reading putrificartion process leading to new incarnation

I also had an experience that left me totally blissed out today, I could not move sitting in my car for a while,
this track was playing was Gorillaz - clinteastwood
Now the gorillaz video made me look at this, as it popped straight into mind Oo



Twin serpents, and lyrics of song
Spewing putrification again

Oh and this is the year of the monkey, in which I was btw born.

#justsayingrunforthehills

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First dream

I was sitting in a green coloured bus. It had only three seats for passengers. It was courising around the city, taking random passengers - only I stayed inside all the time. Once it took a fat and a bit ugly girl wearing dark blue hoodie and jeans trousers from a station. We were driving in silence, until I said "So... It's a nice bus." She replied "Yeah, it's quite good."

Second dream

I was a disembodied spectator. I've seen a dude enter his car and drive. On the crossroad he saw two pretty girls in their sports car and decided to follow them and get a date with one. They drove on. The road was surrounded by grassy hills with trees growing sparsely. There was a small, abandoned village nearby. They were speeding up greatly, suddenly they hit each other and I got into body of that dude. Seatbelts were too weak and I flewn out of the car - first hitting the front window with my head, then hitting the ground and skidding down.

Somehow I survived and got closed in a cage by a strange cult that was just searching for sacrifices for their dark god. In another cage there was a strange cat-like creature. It's tail was ended with a mace. In another cage there was a raven-like monster with spruce alike needles protruding out of it's feathers.

Suddenly I found myself in my house, in my own body. There was a long desk that took half of the kitchen's space. There was one computer with old RCT screen. I tried to write my DJ post, but for some reason strange words only appeared. There was one of my classmates sitting nearby. He asked if I'd want to summon someone. I tried, but for some reason it didn't worked.

I decided to leave posting DJ entry for my classmate and entered a club. As soon as she saw me, a tall, long haired blonde woman wearing a white jacket, black blouse and black trousers decided to hit up with me. For some reason I couldn't see her face. We danced for a while - at first I was dancing badly, but after a while I did pretty good. Dancing with her was really turning me on, everything went black and I appeared in the middle of a street in my home town.

1)
A married couple who are friends of mine and my wife have been separated for some time, and have now reunited. They talk about having a child, he does not want. She has been out traveling for a while and now we want to go to see her, but we are not sure that we can see her. We decided to wait on the street, while she appears. I see several people walking and all wear sunglasses, I see a girl wearing glasses that are too big for her face, she is very thin and looks very sad.

2)
I am in my work, comes a couple to ask for information. Then I realize that the girl who has entered seems sick and call my wife to come with a car to take her to the doctor, but when we got in the car not find Dr.

Dream One (1hr into my sleep): I kept seeing a washing machine or some kindof appliance. There was a whole in the ceiling which looked like it had been just made with an ax. The bits of chip board were falling off. It was making a deep impression on my body and particularly my heart. I felt like there was someone communicating with me but I was not sure what to do. I thought this might help me do well in the competition but then I woke up and was confused about what messages I was getting. I had some food in IWL did a reality check and went back to sleep.

I woke up again at 4hrs into my sleep with my alarm got cosey and went back to sleep again.

Dream Two: (5hrs into my sleep): I was looking at a computer screen obviously at dreamviews but I almost seemed to be inside the computer. I was very excited about what I was doing but did not know how to do. The dream competition was complicated and I did not know how my mind was going to be able to enter as if it went its usual way I would not be able to participate. Then i got a tip through dreamviews which affect my whole mind. I was able to experience lucidity and it broke my serious mind which was blocking me entering the competition. This was very experiential. As soon as I went on with my usual schemas they would instantly be broken and it would be brought back. A bit like a massage on the mind. That is how I was experiencing it and it was keeping me present. It was very much about how the computer and dreamviews works with my mind to keep me present and prevent me from dreaming and instead being lucid. I was very happy about this and felt including and understood. So instead of just dreaming in a non lucid way I was present.

Dream Three: In the third dream (7hrs into my sleep) all the dreamviews people were there and we were all comparing our dreams. There was an atmosphere of togetherness. There was joy and lots of colour. We were all sharing our techniuques for dreaming which were slightly different but we were all learning from each other. People were very happy with what I had learnt in dream 1 and 2 but I was not sure 100% about exactly what was happening.

Woke up afte 7 and half hours sleep confused as to why the dreams lacked vividness but had lucidity. I guess I never realised I was dreaming.

Morning of April 10, 2016. Sunday.



In my dream, I am in an unfamiliar building which seems to be in Japan, or at least I am aware that the building is Japanese. (I have only been in Japan for a short time for one day in my life in reality in my move to Australia.)

After a time, a tooth on the upper right (which I do not even have in reality - which is ironic) feels slightly loose. I move it with my tongue. I end up pulling it out with my fingers even though it is not that loose.

After this, I am aware of my mouth bleeding from the area I pulled the tooth out. I go to the sink (which is illogically in the unfamiliar bedroom I am in, on the opposite side of the room from a large window) and keep spitting out thicker blood. After about five or six times, I start to wonder how much more blood I can lose (it seems like a lot) before I start to feel differently or even pass out. No one else seems to be around at that point. It slowly dawns on me that I am dreaming, which I find somewhat amusing in that my dream self fell for the losing teeth scenario yet again (though it was more common when I was younger).

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Other than when it is relevant to an actual real-life focus (such as recently having a tooth pulled or having an actual toothache), I sincerely believe that dreams of losing teeth have no “interpretation” at all as it seems a common waking transition component, which in actual cause, is simply the dissolution of the dream and the cessation of the dream self (since using one’s mouth is a main way of acknowledging one’s consciousness and wakefulness to others and the unconscious self cannot speak - so the dream renders a focus on the fictional dream body’s mouth as losing teeth - pretty simple), just as falling, rising into the air, or suddenly tripping, or even seeing something falling from the sky is (of which also typically have no “interpretation” and are simply a natural form of the waking transition). Still, I think this bleeding may relate to acknowledgement of the energies of my internal dawning consciousness and physical form in a similar way that tripping over in hypnopompia is acknowledging the dream setting does not physically exist during the waking transition. The color red also dominates a dream when I have been asleep a bit too long.

I will note however, that when I was younger, most such dreams proved to be precognitive of which teeth I would actually be losing in a specific order. The only way to explain this would have to relate to some sort of foreshadowing regarding body awareness that is presently not understood (which of course does not explain all the other types of more detailed literal and visual prescience). This one is the reverse though. That is, it is the literal memory of already having lost the tooth, though assigned to a common hypnopompic distortion.

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Date: 10th April 2016

Total sleep:8 hours

Daytime Techniques: Mainly Just reality checks

through out the day.

Lucid Techniques:MILD

Recall Techniques: "I will remember my dreams" and laying still upon waking to make it easier to recall.

Fell Asleep: 1.50am -- 2.15am

Dream Title: recall boosted up! Long vivid dreams.

Dream: i awoke 3.58 I was in a jungle with a bunch of random people, didn't know what I was doing there, probably just roaming a little bit. I had this sense that my body parts where peices to another world, like there was another world to experience. I was then transported to a place, you as was limited on what you knew, if you was ever successfull you could carry on, I was approached by many Muslim deaths on the floor but didn't think of nothing off it. I was with sensei, I couldn't see him but had that "knowing feeling". We was doing some experiment on him and suddenly he starts shaking. Next thing you hear is "don't - wake up don't wake up." Then I woke up.

I remember going down to the store to see if I could find any books on Ouija Boards or paranormal experiences books, I could see my old friends luke and immediately shot over to him and said hi, and Ryan appeared to, he said that he has been sending messages to me so I get my phone out and check so I do. (I already knew that he has). We started talking about the past how I use to get jealous of when I use to shout at him for speaking to a certain someone's so I drift of looking around the shop, I stumbled upon the book section and a bunch of books showed up, can't remember names sadly.

I remember then just being on the bus with my girlfriend, we was going somewhere but I don't remember, but there was this girl I was arguing with and it was like some sort of fake memory as I don't think it really happened. She got me off the bus to distract me, what for? We find out soon enough. So as I'm sitting on the bus I cannot even make a single word without complaining. But as I got to say something my sister from reality is there! I was made up because I don't see her iwl, but then there was hell on earth I felt my skin burn up, goin red and about to cry with anger that she didn't tell me she was pregnant (she didn't tell m iwl) and so I get off the bus, and so did they and I got tricked, you know how i said about the fake memory? Yeah i feel like i taken off the bus and put back on, but it never really happened. It turned out the bus number was wrong. It was pitch black it looked as real as reality, I was brought to some park and was locked inside. Lots of people where there, the place has a nasty vibe to it, I didn't like ir one bit, but it turns out that I know the owner! He got a steel bar and let me out, it's a big tunnel, I didr know it was a water slide until I get in! So I get ontop off it and nearly fall down the whole lol, so I jumped carefully! And off I went, there where challenges though, going under water in alcohol, I didn't like it! Then as I carried it the dream wanted me to show a message from me and girlfriends chat so it pops up, clearly to read and bam awake I get!

This dream was long but I might have a clue where to start, I might cut it short as these detailed one take me like 15-20 mins to write up. I feel like I've had the same part of the dream before, weird. I was with a house with some sex freaky pest and some hot women, we where all alone, so you know, she ripped her pants, and well you know we had sex, I don't think I need to go indetail on the details. But I ejaculated so quickly that I didn't even feel it! She ran off and now I remember being back in some room, it must of been back in time because a man was locked in a horse cage haha. His brother comes in, and says she he doesn't want to help him and gives him a key secretly and pulls out a gun. .... then I wake up

I walked home and seen that that a few boys at my door, I excuse the lads and walk in, Tony (my support worker) wasn't there so I looked at the tv, it was stuff on a certain lead (for example example HTMI) and I see a laptop on the table, suddenly he walks in and complains that he cant find the house remote.

Awake: 3.58, 5.48, 8.21, 9.30

Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness)

Awareness: (1-10; or lucid)

Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) like an hour, second dream felt like over an hour

Emotions:

Dream Signs: the whole dream world

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