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Right now I'm reading "So You Want to be a Medium". I was in this section at the library looking for Lucid Dream books & came across this. It has really good meditation technique's & visualization excercises so I highly reccommend it to others who need help w/ meditaion & detailed dreaming... Never discard a book by its title. Instead look into the table of contents. Here's the link to the book. https://g.co/kgs/Okucr

29/3/16:
Dream 1: I went to a window near the back of my house and saw an owl outside, looking at me with big yellow eyes. I marvelled at this as I had never seen an owl IRL before. I then noticed my cat was next to me, hissing and spitting at the window. The owl and the cat got up as close as they could to the window and starting taunting each other. Somehow the cat got out though, and the owl was no more. My brother came and asked me what was going on but I told him to go back as he didn't want to see what was going on.

Dream 2: There was a gun which shot backwards, a sawn of shotgun which sprayed pellets everywhere out the back end of the gun, so a guy was going around tricking people into thinking they were safe before he shot them.

Dream 3: I was at a high school, not my own, in class. I was on my computer and playing a game, something star wars related I think. The bell rang and class ended so I ran outside to get to my locker. I passed a cafeteria and then got to my locker only to realise I had left my computer and books and stuff in the classroom. I decided to get the rest of my stuff from my locker first before going back for that. While at the lockers I bumped into a friend discussing with some other people how he had royal/noble blood. His mum was related to the second most powerful family in Malaysia, however they were under threat of attack from the most powerful family so they had to defend themselves. Their house there had an extendable spiral wall to protect them at night, which he gave a demonstration of at his locker, pulling out a wooden spiral fence around it that grew and grew. I went bac to the classroom to get my stuff, passing someone I knew on the way, only to find there was an after school art class going on in that room. I went inside and saw my stuff was still there, so I began packing it away but the art teacher stopped me. She tried to get me to join in with their activities, making a big balloon sack thing, so I went along with it a bit before just packing my stuff away and getting out of there.

This one was several days ago. I was in my old apartment in the livingroom. Kuvira (a military dictator/conqueror from The Legend of Korra) was there. I can't exactly remember what happened, all I remember is thinking that her next move was going to be her calling her army to catch me, so I jumped onto her and covered her mouth. I remember seeing the front door as well.

A couple of days ago I had a dream that I and a group of survivors were hiding in a severely damaged house. It was a good-sized one story house that looked like it had just been through a hurricane. Walls had been knocked down and about half of the ceiling was torn off.

The house was our only cover from a T-Rex that was trying to kill us. I never saw the T-Rex, because I stayed behind the walls and went the opposite way that I heard it going. Anyways, I cautiously go through the livingroom and kitchen into the garage. There are other people evading the T-Rex as well. A guy told me about a gun that was somewhere. All I remember was that it didn't have ammo or had some other problem. I back track through the kitchen and into the livingroom, evading the T-Rex. END.

#9 LD - Low quality vision
As always my room. I was laying on my bed with my bf. I was looking at the wall and thought that I shouldn't be there (I wasn't at home in RL then). I did RC and get lucid. It was dark. I tried to make some light by commands but I only had some strange quality vision. Sth like that: [KLIK]. I didn't write it down but I think that I saw also some disco colours and I said that I didn't mean this kind of light. I wasn't calm much. I went to the shelf and took a red figure. I touched some towel. I went to my mom's room and tried to fly through the window. I heard an alarm but I knew that it's still a dream. I saw on the phone that it's 2:10AM. I flew away and on purpose I was falling down spinning. I thought that it was a bad idea. It started to be dark and my dream changed to NLD. Some bird or 2 were falling down on the hill.

With a slight delay...

Non-lucid parts
Lucid parts
My comments

#8 LD - Wardrobe
During NLD. I was in my room and I saw purple flowers behind my window. It was a day. I thought that they shouldn't be there. I did RC (nose plug) and get lucid surprisingly. I flew through the window near the trees. I did a flip and I thought that it was a bad idea. It started to be dark. Fortunately I teleported to the kitchen, still lucid. I went to my room again. I opened my wardrobe (I wanted to see some magical scape). I saw a blue picture, there were some things and characters. When I started to look more carefully it was less and less pretty. The wardrobe was like computer. I skipped to the next picture and another one (with woman). I didn't draw them then and I forgot how they looked like. I started to lose lucidity I think because I was thinking about saving these pictures by screenshots. I tried to flew through the wardrobe and I stuck. I rubbed my hands (?). I went to the bathroom and thought about summoning my bf but I didn't do that. I recalled a TOTM (basic II, DC's favourite dream) so I went to my mom's room. I wanted to ask her about her fav dream but during talk I wasn't sure if this is a dream. I tried to fly but I couldn't. I think that also nose plug failed. She told me that I should go if I don't want anything. So I did. I don't remember anything else so I probably woke up.

It was late afternoon. I was in a huge mansion, sneaking around the rooms. I held a pistol in my hands, it was silenced. I tried to sneak past cloaked figures and take something out of the mansion. I moved really carefully as I felt immense danger. I moved between rooms and floors, finally I found some book and jumped to the streets through a window. Suddenly all the robed people, police and soldiers appeared and started shooting at me. Someone called me from the other side of street. It was a black man, he said "Run bro! I'll keep them away!" and took a pistol, then ran to shoot at them. I ran away to a square, it was getting late. I saw two girls from my class park a small car. I stolen it to escape. I barely fit inside, I was driving in a small alley. A thought about lucid dreaming went through my mind. I looked closely at beams of light falling on the cobble road, then everything went black and I woke up.

I died. I don't know how, I don't know why. I just knew that.
I found myself hovering in void. A few hundred of metres away there was other man hovering. It was absolute darkness there. I felt that I'm stuck there. It didn't matter to me. I observed my surrounding... unattached observer. No will, no want, no need of anything...
Then I saw that that man started to glow stronger and stronger until he dissolved in blinding white light. I remained there alone, not that it mattered anything to myself. But I started to be curious- what happened? And I got answer. That man started to show humility. He was taken away. The place where we were was purgatory. And I felt that I have to do the same to be taken too.
So I tried. And I failed. And I failed again. And I asked- how can I feel humility, when I feel nothing at all? When I feel total peace? No answer. But I started to feel inadequate. With that I started to feel many different emotions... the peace I was in was taking cracks. But I observed it and concentrated on countermeasures till I was again in total peace and timelessness. I felt that I do right thing. I can't be dependant of outside forces, it is way of slavery... I concentrated... on transfer... Actinic flash and I vanished.

Remarks
The consciousness was really strong in this dream, much, much stronger than in waking life. Although I didn't know that it was only a dream. Therefore I marked this as nonlucid dream even if level of lucidity was so strong.
This dream got me thinking about my life philosophy. I deviated from what I learned from my parents... we are roman catholics... But I took quite different philosophy as time went... my experiences are stronger than any books or speeches of priests... It got me thinking whether my way is right. Whether I'm not lead by other, darker forces. Away from "god". I was unable to feel regret... I felt regret that I can't feel regret for a short time until I found what I do. But that doesn't feel right in light of what I learned from my parents. On other side... what is right and what is wrong... I need to research this in fullness, in changed state of consciousness.
I had this dream probably because of discussion I had at previous dream.

[comment] sleep pattern messed up, since I programmed myself to awake after each dream, now I awake approx 3am which would be ideal time for mild or something but instead I am finding it nye on impossible to get back to sleep LOL

Awoke about 7am after fitful sleep, any recall i had evaporated and I decided to just see what I could see while in hypnogoic sleep state.
Friend of mine labelled this my trance state as I do this fairly wide awake also but i'd never tried it on waking before Oo
Each scene in trance exited into the next without any morphing, much like
cards being turned to reveal a new scene.

1) scene that came into my mind was of a large tree on a skyline, tree totally black due to lighting,
picture was in smokey watercolours, dark storm clouds in a purple and yellowy sky.
I can't remember which way round it happened but the tree which had appeared densly foliaged
had all its deep blackness turn into a vast swarm of black birds which swept into the sky
becoming like a million tiny black particles forming themselves into a cloud.

2) Again in watercolours, a shamen lay taking up most of the bottom portion of the scene.
He was old and wearing full feathered headress layed out on the ground.
In the sky was a yellowed figure, half cloud half face of a indian spirit.
I could not tell if the shamen was sleeping or dying or being brought back to life?

3) A close up of a group of elven face lit by a bright white light, also hues of green and yellow.
They were smiling with bright eyes.

4) A photo realistic scene of being on a small island, with gravel paths and tended lush foliage.
A very sunny day with the sea sparkling, flashes of light from reflected light on the waves.
As I grow closer, I could smell the sea and see that a part of a gigantic lizard the scales a dull grey,
was raised above the water. The island itself was an amphibian of some kind.

5) Another photo realistic scene, outside a house, my eye was drawn to something near the roof
I zoomed in on part of a scene, within a triangle, was a viscous liquid
golden dark brown, inside it was moving, it was alive, inside was a man.
i could tell but not see.

6) I see myself sitting in bed awake. The bed has a metal back.
Next to me I cannot see who is there but I am stunned by the mirroring
of my circumstances, after the other seemingly abstract scenes and its realism.

7) Against a darkened blue, night sky. A large circle is being held by the
hand of some unseen person. Within the circle they're are to forms, one is me
another on the other side a woman, we are both held in an energy field. The currents
of which can be seen zigzagging like lighting strkes, binding us together.

8) The symbolic outline of a man is on one side of the scene, his is in the figure
of a anch sign, his legs angular and stylised. His shadow is thrown forward to
the other side of the scene. Large reddy, orange dried leaves are grouped
pointing away from him. In the distance a swarm of black birds flys towards him
out of the orange tinged sky. They turn to black dots and stream into him
I am hit by a surge of energy, like a sledghammer. My heart starts to race.
Leaves turn into phoenix feathers, with flames on edges.


my dream journal sketch of ankh man.

I awake and sketch what I can remember.There were some dreams as well inbetween
but I can't recall them, now.
I go to make coffee for my daughter (humble servant that I am)
As I look into the coffee jar, the granules are alive like a thousand
moving people.
I add the sugar and they appear to move before my eyes like the swarm of birds.
I look down at the work top and its texture moves like clouds on a large stormy
sky.
A pattern to my right again looks like many people moving and another birds.
I sit down on the carpet and the room rocks, the floor looks and is moving
like the sea, a thousand waves set in motion.

Thankfully things calm down after that. I have the reverlation that everything
is alive and in motion, time is the thing that stops us from seeing this.
I laugh as the clocks hand moving, makes me jump thinking it is another vision (?)

I open the french windows, and a large plant pot of earth is hit as the door
is caught by the wind, it scatters earth like a million black birds across the
ground Oo

Bed time 3.30 am - 11.29

I already had ciggarettes but I wanted more so they could last me so me and Ryan ( my friend in reality) walked to the shop. Once we arrived to the shop it looked weird as normally the cigarettes are behind the counter and they weren't. They where above head level. I stood there for quite some time trying to pick which cigarettes I wanted but I couldn't tell the price on them as much as I wanted. He offered to sell me some Cigarette lipstick and ciggarette drinks ( what the hell ) this man look to be from India, mustache and black hair. I seen an old friend out
side the shop and It made me feel uneasy so I hid in the shop. I seen another friend with him and he use to be my best mate In reality. He came into the shop and we started chatting, he said he was enjoying secondary school. I eventually bought cigarettes and disappeared from the shop ended up on some roof top! Someone from my past was there with me that I really hate but nothing happened, we seen Windows( it was my old friends place ) and I just hear the noise of Windows smashing mentally because I really wanted to smash it, the dream carries on and I get my ciggaretes out and it seems like i smoked about 4 or 5 when I didn't even really touch them, but I give one to Ryan and one to my other mate, he shows me that he has 2 but I still give him one anyway.

I missed a part out.

the shop kind of extended and I was looking at magazines and I acknowledge too workers that work there. She moves the rack so I can see clearly but all of them are all about wrestling, I don't know about her but I had that awkward feeling.

1) A triffid plant was eating people in the top floor of a building. Then I was standing ouside the entrance to the building with my wife and children, they decided to go in becasue it was actaully a department store. Then they were showing me pictures of the plant and it was grown every year from seed and produced wonderful fruit and people loved it.

2) I was sitting in the lounge of an old peoples home. We were talking to my grandmother but she was completely demented. There was another man and his son sat talking to another old person. The there were several young people in the corner, not sure where they cam from, but I could tell they were very intelligent, we talked to them. Somehow the subject of playing musical instrumetns came up and someone told my brother to get his trumbone so he went off to get it and everyone else got out their instruments. I felt a bit stupid because I didn't play anything.
Suddenyl we were outside and I saw a very old friend from school ride by on a bike.

3) Vague memory: wanting a nice drink and looking through very old grotty bottles for a drink, lot more to this one, can't remember.

4) In a house, walking between rooms. The outside with my father in law and a friend of his, looking at the back garden, explaining that they couldn't dig any deeper because of all the rubble in the ground. I went to look and remembered that it was like that when I tried and explained how I used a pick axe. Then I realised we were trying to dig a swimming pool and wondered why they hadn't dug where I had marked it out. Then I was having a conversation with his friend and he had trapped me into coming to his house to do some work and was discussing where I would stay. We got onto a train in the back garden just to go one stop, suddenly we were coming back, my wife was chattering and we missed the stop and I got very annoyed with her.

1. I was in the parking lot of the Freshman campus of my school. I couldn't tell whether or not the sun was setting or rising, but either way 75% of the sky was orange and there were no clouds. It felt as though it was morning however. I had just gotten into my car and started it up. As I did so I looked to my left and saw my friend Connor in his car. I noticed that he had a gray mustang which he doesn't have in waking life. "What's up connor" I said as I rolled down my window. He smiled like he always does "Whats up Cory". Just then I notice Alex's car parked on the row behind me and connor were parked on. It actually was his car. I see Alex, Trey, and a few other of my friends who I forgot walking towards me. "Yo Cory what it do bro" Alex said as he walked up to my driver window along with Trey. "Not much dude just finna go home and chill" I told him. "Aright cool bro. Were gonna go smoke some loud" he said. "Nothing out of the usual right" I said. We all laughed.
After that Alex and my other 4 friends that were with him all walked over to his car and got in except for Trey. "You riding home with me Trey?" I asked. "Yeah man" he replied as he opened the passenger door and got inside. "Aright lets get outta here" I said. I backed out of my parking spot and started making my way out of the parking lot. Suddenly a school cop got in my way and stopped me. "What the fuck" I thought to myself. I looked over and noticed that Trey was now gone. I stopped my car. The cop got out and walked over to my driver window. The cop was a woman with blonde hair put back, and she was wearing opaque black sunglasses. "Trying to skip school are we now?" she asked me. "What are you talking about? School is over" I told her. "Get out of the car and come with me" she said. I got out of my car and followed her inside of the Freshman campus.
The freshman campus was set up differently than usual; the front office was now in the back near the parking lot. Before we walked inside of the school the cop pulled out a list. "Where's your name on here and the time you signed out?" she asked. I looked for my name on the list and found it. I saw that I had signed out at 19:11(Earlier in the dream before I had even got to my car I remember signing out and distinctly putting 9:11 a.m.). I noticed that the time I had put down had changed, and this was really bad for my situation. I looked further down the list and saw my name again and earlier I had put the sign-out time for this entry for 1488(whatever that means) but now it read 4881. "Yeah you're getting a referral for sure" the cop lady told me. We walked inside the school and she brought me to the front office.
As I walked into the front office I noticed that I could barely breathe out of my nose as though I had allergies or something. I was sniffling constantly. The carpet in this office was a nice soft brown and the walls were a yellow that actually complimented the carpet. The office was rather large considering that there was an entire section of it that was basically a library. I followed the cop and she brought me to the middle of the office where a large brown wooden desk was. My counselor Ms. Hawk(she's really hot lmao) was sitting in the desk. "Hey Cory" she said. "Hey Ms. Hawk" Standing next to her was my friend Tori from PreCalculus class. "So you need help with your project for Mr. McGinnis' class in Economics huh?" Ms. Hawk asked me. "Yeah I can't figure out what to do" I told her. Just then Patrick walked in from the door behind me where I also walked in. "What's up dude" he said as he came over to where I was standing. Ms. Hawk then proceeded to show me how to do the project

2. I was laying in bed(False Awakening) in my room. The lights were off but I could tell it was still daytime outside because of the amount of light coming through my windows despite having shades over them, and plus my door was open so I could see light in the hallway coming in from the huge window in the foyer. I was laying on my back when I suddenly heard a ambient voice. "This is the beginning" it said(what lmao). It was a man's voice and it echoed throughout the whole house it seemed. Everything was quiet after that. There seemed to be no one in the house but me. Just then I heard another voice, but this one belonged to a girl, "Cory!". It was just as ambient and it too echoed throughout the entire house. I then realized it was the voice of the girl I had always been trying to find in my dreams. I then woke up.
^^ No idea what really happened in that false awakening or what it really meant; especially "This is the beginning" lol.

D₁-Really more of a fragment. All I remember is a phrase about British and American history

Dreamskip

D₂-I'm swimming in a pool. The water feels amazing. Every few seconds I'll dive under and swim to one side and then go up for air. I'll just kinda float once I'm done, then repeat the process. Finally after a couple of times of this I look over and a VERY well-dressed guy is sitting by the pool in black dress pants and a perriwinkle-ish color button up. He's smiling just kinda gazing at the pool. I dive back under the water. Whenever I go up for air I realize I'm in the shallow end. Shit... He gets up and starts walking down the steps into the pool. Before I can dart under the water he grabs me and starts pulling me foreward. Instead of fighting I decide to see what he wants. Our faces are inches apart whenever I realize its Donnovan (my reoccuring dc) he smiles,"MINE." I wakeup.

I... I don't even know how to approach dreams like this... If dreams are a measure of the mind, I certainly hope people are willing to judge me on more than these...

I'll go get the dream sins.

I remember (This was two nights ago) a dream about being on my college campus. I was in my digital media class and for whatever reason we were walking around campy. I remember there was this girl in our class with very pale skin, gray eyes and long black hair. It didn't seem like anyone else in the class really paid much attention to her. We were walking by the rec center when, with absolutely no provocation (I didn't even say anything to her or even look her way, I was largely ignoring her.), the new girl proceeds to walk up to me without saying a word and slap me. (1. Dickhead DCs strike again.)

My immediate reaction is one of anger, where I proceeded to kick her down into a mud puddle. She started crying that her clothes were ruined. The weird part was everyone took her side and was mad at me for what I had done. (2. That's unfair.) Apparently the underlying moral was that the girl wanted attention but didn't get it so her first instinct was to just hit someone and see what happened. Apparently what I was supposed to do was comfort her her loneliness. (3. How was this girl in college, this behavior wouldn't fly in a kindergarten...) (4. Also, what kind of rancid moral is this? Someone has an emotional problem and their first resort is hitting a random person, yet they're not at fault...?)

FFWD to last night

A dream about Johnny Test (5. Johnny Test). I remember the episode was about Johnny developing anorexia (6. PULL OUT! PULL OUT! We do not need a 'Very Special Episode' from this show, especially not one in a dream!) and growing his hair long. I don't remember the exact plot but it had something to do with him not wanting to get a haircut and Johnny had his hair really long in a ponytail. (7. Johnny test steals my waking life ponytail hairstyle.) He then stopped eating, and as soon as he skipped one meal his body got replaced with a realistic ribcage. (8. It was disturbing...)

He then ran away from school with the dog, who also had a realistic ribcage and spine. (9. Stop doing that!) Some police came and talked to him. Overused joke about how the dog is a kid with a hair disorder. (10. Okay, one, I'm sinning the fact that I even REMEMBER that that was a recurring joke on the show.) (11. That joke, and by extension, my subc makes fun of kids with disorders. Srsly WTH?) He then hid out behind a dumpster that was in the middle of the woods. The environment around them was realistic now though they were still animated characters. Then some random bad guys showed up that I think were duplicates of themselves. (12. What? Why? Gonna explain anything here? Well I guess the show never did so why should the dream?) Go to random fight scene, but because they hadn't eaten lunch, they didn't have the energy to fight. So Johnny pulls two giant (like car sized) sandwiches out of his backpack and he eats one and so does the dog. We get that cartoony effect where their stomachs are in the shape of the sandwich and then you see the inside of their stomachs and the sandwiches change into big laundry bags full of clothes. (13. WHAT? WHAT? Why did food change to clothing? What is the connection there?) The clothes for some reason gave them the energy to start fighting off the evil clones.

Okay, so then I became a character in the dream rather than just an observer, and there was a duplicate of ME wearing a black leather coat and sunglasses that proceeded to attack me. (14. Boo! Pick a plotline!). Then came the main reason I'm being so hard on this dream and breaking out the dream sins... Because when the duplicate me proceeded to jump and kick, I turned sideways to evade, but I also suddenly rolled sideways in waking life. Apparently my cat wasn't too happy about me suddenly rolling and waking up in my sleep because she flew about three feet into the air and made a yowl that woke up everyone on the house. (24. Dream causes problem in waking life. 10 sins for that.)

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I remember a lot of very distracting sounds and imagery as I was going back to sleep. (HH/HI when I wasn't even trying to WILD... ) I remember I kept hearing sounds like somebody was walking into my room. It was completely non-threatening but it still caused me to wake up because I thought it was someone coming into my room. There was a part where I was in SP and I couldn't move. I didn't freak out. I was just like "Oh, I'm in SP..." In fact it was almost because it was so non-threatening that I ignored it. If it had been a menacing presence, I would have done my darnedest to ignore it. But because I thought it was a parent or cat nosing the door open, I woke up. (25. HI doesn't resort to its usual grim reaper and monster with 8 heads and 12 necks routine when I'm actually prepared for it.)

At some point I began to get hold of a dreamlet where I was driving home from school. But as soon as I realized a dream was starting to form, I woke myself back up.

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I got a test back in my earth science class and saw that I had 89.5/100 points. I remember all of the tests were laid out on this big round curvy table. I remember someone (I think it was my dad) was carrying me around on their shoulders walking down the curvy table like it was a road and stepping on everyones tests. Someone was upset that their test now had a dirty footprint on it.

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I was drawing some rather... risque art in Photoshop. I remember a pair of breasts that I couldn't get to look right. The shading was always off no matter what I did. Don't remember what else was in the painting though.

Dream Sin Tally: 25
Sentance: Covered in Mud

I used the Keyboard Technique w/ my fingers & had a dream that I was aware of being in a dream & could change things but I did not have the higher state of consciousness hence, I did not open my eyes when that ah-ha moment occurred which makes the LD not genuine. True lucidity has to have this. For some reason, a lot of ppl don't seem to get this concept. My dream was about my son who's home from college & we were in a house arguing & he hit me.... I have a good relationship w/ my son & this would never occur but do to bickering over my new cat who is being territorial & relieving herself on his bed, this has made for some tension lately but totally normal & understandable.