lucid

On the night of the 28th, I went to bed at around 2 in the morning and so I set my morning alarm for 8. In that first period of sleep, I remember very little dream wise. I got up to use the bathroom and read over my dream journal for the past few days. Then I very quickly fell back asleep, but not before doing a bit of the MILD technique. I fell asleep chanting "you will know when you are dreaming."

So I was in my basement. This was a dream of course, but it was a very realistic representation and I accepted it as reality. I looked out the window and saw a group of individuals who I can only describe now as super-villains. They were wearing weird costumes and I could tell they were up to no good. This should have been a good opportunity for a reality check, but I missed it. I ran upstairs and told my parents that there were evil people trying to blow up the house. So we all found weapons around the house and got ready to fight them off. This would have been another good opportunity for an RC. But nope.

I had found a weapon which was a combination of a kukri, a gun, and a camera lens. One super-villain struck me as very dangerous because I could see that she had a sniper rifle. So I shot her three times in the head. But she did not die... So I ran upstairs and asked my dad "how do I kill that lady?" And he responded: "Just shoot her in the head!" Well I already had. Three times. Finally, this struck me as strange. All of a sudden, she was in the house and coming right for me. At that moment, I became lucid.

I remember spinning around with the kukri and chopping her in half. But I was way too excited and my spinning motion sent me right up into the air and literally through the roof. So I was flying. I knew this would be difficult to stabilize. I sort of levitated, and then would drift over to things as I focused on them. But all I could really focus on was clouds. Eventually i lost lucidity and woke up.

I did have other dreams that night/morning, but this one was cool because of the lucidity and the flying. I thought I would share it.

Technique used: MILD
Length: 30+ min, 5+ min lucid
lucid non-lucid not a dream

Not a very eventful dream. Although a lot of stuff happened, I tried too DEILD back into it, and forgot the whole thing

Some stuff happened with my little cousin, she came into my room, she really liked me, we hung out for like 10 min, she disappeared.

I did a nose RC, I became lucid. I first tried to fly up through the ceiling, but was having trouble getting through, so left through a closed window instead.

I flew around the street a bit. I went to some business building, and found a nice looking girl. I think I was going to have sex with her, but she disappeared. I roamed around the building instead, seeing a lot of people, some of which looked like the businessmen from the Tool music video of Parabola.
A lot of other non-lucid stuff happened for a long time with my cousin (she's like 7, I haven't seen her lately, and don't really like her.

Before I slept, I decided to just do a MILD where I repeated "I should do a reality check". It seemed to work, and I think I'm gonna use that mantra for my other MILDs too.

Too bad about the recall though. I'm pretty sure some fun stuff happened in that building... I wonder if I tried the TOTM?

Have to share my Lucid Dream this morning! I was lying on the couch after having been up a few hours and decided I want to try to go into a dream aware. I started getting sleepy and I knew that was about to start dreaming so I start saying to myself "Stay aware. Stay aware. Stay aware" and then I feel this startling vibration like I'm being shaken up and down really fast. This has happened before right before Lucid Dreaming, so I just breathe and I'm still aware that I'm lying on the couch, but I'm also falling down into the dream and then...I'm dreaming and I know it! During the entire dream, I was, for the first time, fully aware of my waking environment, what I was lying one, the house, etc.

Here's what happened:

Big library, I was flying around and seeing and talking to different people, it looked like a huge children's library and I did see different aged kids walking and flying around. I knew I was dreaming and tried to manipulate the environment, but had a lot of trouble. I could fly easily, but had trouble controlling direction, speed, etc. Then I wanted to change things and thought of woods and forest, but it kept turning into a baseball diamond, then a big pool and once I tried to fly but fell into the pool which really scared me because I thought of sharks (I'm weird!) then it did turn into a semi-secluded wooded area, saw a beautiful little girl in a flower-like dress (looking closer, the dress was made of these beautiful exotic flowers!) walk by, she looked at me, but looked away, she looked like a pixie, very beautiful blonde hair with amber streaks on the tips...then saw a square-shaped enclosed wooded kind of area (shrubbery made up the enclosure), with those kinds of dolls (like the pixie girl) set up in shrubbery like cabinets all around, I went around looking at all of them up close really close because they were so beautiful and delicate and I thought this place was important for some reason...then this little Eastern girl about 8 years old came up to me and said something, I can't remember what, and then I just hugged her and started crying because of who she was (who was she?) and what she said...and then I remember that I could smell her hair and it smelled dirty, like she hadn't washed it in a while. First time ever remembering smell in a dream! The smell of her hair bothered me, but I didn't say anything because I thought it's not really important...and then saw a room off to the side with a bed in it and a dresser with a mirror. I walked in and asked her whose room this was....she said something that I can't really remember then I saw the mirror and wanted to look at myself, but she kept trying to stop me for some reason. I tried and then she kind of playfully kept pulling me away and I kept leaning toward the mirror and I finally got a brief glimpse of myself in the mirror and I saw myself sticking my tongue out at myself (first time ever seeing myself in a mirror in a dream). Somehow I thought that looking at myself in a mirror in a dream was not a good thing to do, I turned around and this kid walks up to me and swings something in his hand and whacks me and BAM, I'm awake. But, it's a false awakening, but I didn't know it! I'm on my couch and suddenly Joey (my son) comes out of his room screaming at his sister (he doesn't have one!) who is lying beside me on the couch and they start fighting and Joey is about 5 years old and he's screaming and crying at her and trying to hit her, he was having a horrible temper tantrum, something he's never done. I become furious with him and slapped him really hard and then got up and grabbed him by his hair and then I slapped his face. Suddenly, it dawns on me that Joey is not a small child (he's a teenager) and doesn't even look like this child...and BAM...I wake up for real...and this was like 15 minutes ago. I had to type this out really fast before I forgot it.

10/11/2009

Shane in the Pool

So I had a lesbian's wet dream last night. I was in a pool with Shane from the L Word. I'm totally not going into details except that when I was underwater I could totally breathe which was very beneficial.

Lucid in Tennessee

I was driving around pretty fast through a neighborhood. The houses were all different, then they started looking similar, then a bunch of them were like smurf blue. I slowed down and stopped the car to get out and take a better look at one of them. I approached the house and all of a sudden, I realized that I was in Tennessee. I realized I was dreaming and in that instant it began snowing and I felt very cold. Everything just became crystal clear. Then I thought that I'd rather be in California and it was like a blip in a movie reel where a picture of some palm trees flashed in front of me, then I was looking at the Tennessee house again. I noticed a big spider about the size of the palm of my hand crawling on the house. Then I lost it.

Fund Raising

I'm in a van with some people and we're getting dropped off one by one. I'm really excited to be in this neighborhood going door to door. I get out of the van and someone hands me a plastic bag with papers in it. I walk up to the first door I see on what I think is an apartment building. I knock on the door and a girl answers, opening the door pretty wide so I can see inside. There are three other people in there, two girls and one guy. There are bunk beds and desks and it's just a room, it's not really an apartment. I tell them who I am and that I'm collecting money for the Juvenile Diabetes Research Fund. I start fumbling through my bag to show them some proof that that's what I was there for. They all seem very interested in what I'm saying and are very supportive. I try to go into a spiel, but I realize that I have no idea what I'm talking about. The people I'm talking to tell me to calm down because they see that I'm getting flustered. I bullshit my way through and tell them something about trying to get new equipment for research. I don't remember much after that.

Hotel Pranks

I remember walking down the hallway of a hotel on my hands. I'm really pleased with myself because I've figured out a way to do this really fast without falling down. I've got my legs over my head in such a way that I have perfect balance. I see a girl from high school (Christina R.) in one of the rooms with an open door and I walk in there to see her. Then I bump into something and fall down.

Andrea woke me up getting back into bed at like 6 in the morning. She couldn't sleep so she had gone downstairs and watched a movie at like 3am. I couldn't concentrate on anything after that because she was talking to me and all I wanted to do was get back into lucidity again!

Just got up from this one...

House shopping, with friends, deal fell through in my apartment or some such. At some kid's house, selling cages for lizards, along with the lizards. It feels like freshman year again, for a moment. This house is a mess, but we'll buy it and fix it ourselves, it's so cheap. Outside the kid's father is building a massive sculpture out of metal, beer and soda cans.

Mom and this guy are talking on the porch, and the yard's muddy and our three dogs are outside going to the bathroom. I can see my little sister in the sun room, and the house is looking more and more like my parent's house. I take a second to reflect upon all this, the end of summer, the dogs... Wait. Two of those dogs are dead in real life. And I last woke up at 6:30. I reality check (not that I needed it by then) to confirm I'm dreaming. My sister wants to join me, but I still don't see the point of bringing people I know in real life with me on my escapades. I tell her to stay and draw, because things are about to get strange.

The sky deepens to a rolling grey, and the backyard curves and stretches, bending upward such that I can see the forest slope into expansive, pristine wooded valleys. 'Bout 70% conifers. So I fly, and it's easier than ever. I push myself off the ground and pull myself higher. I'm not focused at all on the tactile of the flight, but on the unbelievable control I have, in these three dimensions. I take one last look at my house, with its muddy yard and mangled dead tree, my mother, my sister avidly sketching, and then I look forward, and ascend even higher, farther, until they're gone and I'm somewhere completely new. I want to know how high I can fly. I want to know if the scenery will remain realistic. I ascend to the edge of the atmosphere, deep, blue, glowing, curved. Then I dive, using the dive's momentum I level out with intense speed. Parallel flight, I reach a city. It's like my college town in that I feel welcome, among people who share similar values, but the people here are more willing to show how developed they are. There are no roads here. The clouds are dusty and cumulus now, golden-brown against a backdrop of glowing grey. I want to reach them, so I spire climb. I grab onto apartment buildings with my eyes, and fling myself around and past them (like a satellite breaking orbit), grabbing onto the next highest, and the next, building speed and confidence. Eventually I reach a clock tower, the highest building. I'm at the top, admiring the view, and a man grabs my ankle. He's on The Drug, can't leave The Drug, but is fine on The Drug and has a good honest job (he loathes) which pays for The Drug. I'm dreaming, so what will it do to me? I take a pill, yellow and blue, from this young blond, and feel the weight of my body. The scene becomes metallic, and there are people after us now, people belonging to this new place rather than the one I flew through. We must run, but I'm not sure if I'll take him with me. He won't move on his own.

Construction noises goddommot.

10/05/09

OK, so school, life, etc. happened. But I was in Spanish class the other day and someone mentioned having "one of those dreams where you wake up and go to the bathroom and go back to bed and then you really wake up." Yes, totally, a false awakening, right? Yeah, that's what it's called! So I realized I totally miss my DJ. Here's some catch up dreams:

Lately I've had a few dreams where I've been really pissed off at my dad. In one dream, I recall he had something really hot and pressed it to my face and was burning me with it and I was screaming at him that he doesn't even know what he's doing!!! In other dreams I'm just frustrated and mad at him.

Last night I dreamed I had a fight with my sister on the phone. She said she was moving to Quebec. I told her I don't believe her because she lies all the time (true), I can't trust her (true), and I wish I didn't get stuck with a shitty sister like her anyway (also true)!!! It felt so so good to get that off my chest, even if it was only in a dream.

I had a lucid where I couldn't gain control and I just remember it being a strange situation so I just rolled back into normal dreaming.

OK, here's a weird one: I'm in a pet store like digging hamsters or guinea pigs out of the dirt in the floor... but they're in habitats and they're really hungry because they've been underground for so long. I try to get them some food when I walk by a wall of aquariums of various exotic fish. They look prehistoric. One tank has the lid off and there's what appears to be a tiny shark spitting water at me!! Then I hear a voice overhead saying that the end of the world is coming and there's nothing I can do to stop it.

I have some more dreams of being in the bathroom and people walking in on me as usual.

I had one last night or the night before about being a bird... and having a bird buddy with me watching some other birds hunt for worms. We decided they were from the Philippines. Then one little bird who was hurt was looking for some worms and I felt like he was scared that the other birds would attack him. So my bird buddy and I went and scooped him up and brought him to safety. The little hurt bird thanked us and said we should smoke with him. So we started smoking what looked like some thorny stems of plants and I don't even know how we lit it but we were smoking it! (I love the uncomplicated nature of dreams sometimes!)

Anyway, I've had some pretty bizarre dreams as you can tell, and I hope to get more into my DJ on a regular and get into have more memorable lucids!

It's good to be back!!

3/26/2009

Lucid School

have to actually *get* to school. more on this later:

money at the cash register

money on the floor

lighters on the floor

stupid boys

magazines on T

I'm sad I never went back to fill in this entry. I remember a little bit about it, but I don't know how I became lucid. I know I sometimes find money in my dreams and pick it up and put it in my pocket. I think I was finding money everywhere, and then I was selling magazines in a neighborhood. I really wish I could remember.

I went to bed last night stating my intention: I will have a lucid dream because I will recognize the dream state.

It worked!

I am taking a test about Star Wars, or something. I put my test in a book and put it aside while the teacher talks. Then, I take it back out, and the answers are filled in and it's graded with a B! I am distraught by this so I call the teacher over. She doesn't understand either. Later, I am outside a house on the opposite side of my block, talking with my girlfriend. She tells me about her 'neighbor,' a girl whom I went to high school with. Following that, I go to some weird dinner party where a bunch of my friends are sitting at long tables. I see my friend Jeremy, and he tells me that this is a dream. I am ecstatic! I jump up and thank him profusely for telling me that I am dreaming, for I am now lucid. I try to spin around, but I forget to close my eyes, so it doesn't work; I'm still in the banquet hall. I look up at the ceiling and try to float through it, but I notice my mother and float over to her. I start dancing with her, and she says something like "Don't you think this is a little inappropriate?" "No, mom, I'm dreaming!" I respond. I spin her around and kiss her cheek, telling her I love her and I'm so happy about this. I rub my hands together and the dream feels more intense. Then, I look up to the ceiling, and determined to fly through it, I wake up laughing. It's a false awakening, though I fail to realize it. I was impressed, though (with myself), because my first thought was at least to write the dream down. So, I woke up downstairs, which should have clued me in, but I turned off a bunch of lamps because they were too bright, which did not serve to alert me to my state. I grabbed a weird notebook which happened to be full of drawings of 3 guys doing goofy stuff, and I wrote like a damn 3-year-old (should have recognized that, too; I wrote the word 'dream' as 'dreem'). I then 'went back to sleep' and had another dream.
I'm walking through some strange caverns that lead to my old high school. I see the Avatar and other strange floating characters; I observe that each of them has some weird spirit guide floating next to him/her, but Aang's is a copy of his own foot. Weird! I meet some people from work out in the lobby and we go sit down at some tables and eat vegetables. But then it feels as if I am driving and I'm at a dark intersection; I see 'French' to the left and 'British' to the right; I head left and run into some strange spy-sniffer person, but I'm not a spy and have nothing to fear.

wake up, try to MILD WBTB, no success

I'm in my neighbor's back yard, and they're setting up for dinner. I don't know why I'm there; these people hardly ever talk to me. It's even weirder when they all say hi. I start petting a dog that they don't have. I let him off the leash because he's whiney. The father wants me to put the leash back on, so I do. They invite me to sit at the table with them. There is a lot of random food, and I don't really remember eating anything. A belligerent grandpa figure comes to the table (he's not there IRL) and tells us about a movie he played the villain in recently. It looks like it's going to rain, so we go inside, and I help them put the food away; specifically, I clear some vegetable scraps from the counter, and then I put some pizza in a box to go in the fridge.

I realize am i lucid right at the beginning of the dream. No RC no MILD or anything. Just a sudden lucid dream. The dream looked clear but my field of view was narrow. Once again a first person dream. I give shared dreaming a try and go to summon a friend in my dream.I get into a park, crossed by a wide street with the trees on the side almost as tick as a forest. I try to summon my friend but fail miserably. In concentration i closed my eyes and when i try to open them back the dream is gone.

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Note: My first goal for the night, the one I used my WILD for, was to go meet MoSh and then we were going to go back and view a dream he had a while back where he was speaking to don Juan. In this dream don Juan had told MoSh he had a message for me, but I would have to find him first, and the instructions for finding him were in that dream if I could get them. Other goals are the same as other nights. I fell asleep with my light / sound machine and slipped into an unusually vivid WILD…

I was in MoSh's inner world. I surveyed my surroundings and saw everything looked like it always does, nothing seemed out of place. Sometimes it is difficult to keep the beginnings of these dreams separate since the dreams where I go to get MoSh before doing anything else are starting to merge together in my mind. I found MoSh, and we went through a portal back to my inner world.

MoSh and I emerged from the portal into the living room of my house, the first thing I saw was a cat running when we appeared suddenly. The cat, Amber, peeked around a corner as if to see if it was safe to come out, and seeing it was MoSh and me, she came back out right away. I booted up the laptop that was sitting on the couch and logged into the dream journal program right away. I searched through the list of MoSh's dreams and found the correct one, which was labeled "Don Juan At My Picnic Table," and clicked on that one. Everything was working smoothly as the hologram started up and we were transported to a virtual recreation of MoSh's dream.

I looked around the area, nothing was remarkable, what I was looking at was a park of some kind with a picnic table there, MoSh was sitting on one side of the picnic table with what appeared to be an Indian shaman sitting across from him. The present day MoSh and I got closer so we could hear what was being said. I actually sat on the left side of the MoSh at the picnic table, and the present day MoSh was beside me, and there was a dark specter floating over the shaman… wtf? There was no dark specter… the day was bright and sunny, a great day for a picnic, and there was no sign of anything creepy… except for the dark fog seeping out of the… gopher hole?! That wasn't dark fog… it was a cute little gopher baring it's razor sharp fangs as it tore the head off of a small lizard and swallowed the thing whole… um… ok… my mind was running away from me a bit here… I focused my attention on the shaman, who I knew right away was don Juan, and listened to him and MoSh talking to each other.

Don Juan was talking to MoSh about getting a message to me regarding how to find him, when don Juan said that he took a glance to MoSh's left, directly at me, as if he was looking at me. But that couldn't be, this was a hologram, it wasn't even like we'd traveled through time to view it in person. Don Juan's gaze strayed to the present day MoSh and then returned to the MoSh he was speaking with. MoSh said something about me not having the power to reach don Juan, but don Juan said it has nothing to do with power, what I was lacking was the belief in myself, I have too much doubt about myself to find him, which I thought was odd since I was now sitting across from him… I snickered, which somehow seemed to get his attention again… don Juan looked at me for a bit longer this time, I had the distinct feeling I was actually being watched, so I silenced myself, I wasn't here to interfere, after all… but I wasn't here at all! I put my attention back on don Juan right as a large black form with huge razor teeth reared up behind don Juan and was preparing to bite his head off, or that's what it appeared to be… I instinctive stood up and yelled at don Juan to look out, and right at that time don Juan leaned over to pick something up from the ground… the creature's teeth clamped down on nothing and the thing dissipated into the air like smoke.

After that, the other MoSh was still not paying any attention to me, the present MoSh was looking at me strangely, and don Juan also seemed to be watching me… was this not just a hologram? Were we actually there? I didn't have any answers to those questions for certain, but it definitely looked like don Juan was responding to my actions… so now I just straight out asked don Juan if he could see me, was he actually looking at me like it appeared he was looking at me. He didn't say anything, but he focused his gaze right into my eyes briefly before looking back at the past version of MoSh. So he was seeing me! I had no doubt in my mind of that now, somehow he was seeing me, which would indicate this was not just a hologram.

So the dream went on this way, the past MoSh and don Juan spoke a bit more, don Juan said something about telling me things then I could write them down… at the same time as I was seeing don Juan and MoSh talking in a park I was seeing someplace much more disturbing, a dark and dreary place with strange mutant creatures crawling through the shadows, often coming out and feeding on one another… I couldn't hide a look of 'yuck' when a smaller creature jumped on a larger one, tore into the stomach of the larger one, ate the soft tissue within, then ran off leaving the larger creature still alive, but inevitably dying an unpleasant death, and making the most horrible noises as it died… this caused me to not hear all of what don Juan and MoSh were saying to each other, but don Juan seemed to find my reactions interesting, as he looked over in my direction several times. Smaller ant like mutants, mouse sized ants, came out and began eating the creature before it had finished its slow demise, creating the loudest and most horrible cries of pain yet…

Once the pathetic creature was dead I was able to return my attention to MoSh and don Juan, the latter of the two was looking back at me… I saw movement off to my left and looked over just in time to see MoSh disappear from the picnic bench, that must be where he woke up, and now there was something else there… sort of a version of MoSh, but it had razor sharp fangs and teeth, talons on his hands, and the eyes of a goat… meaning his pupils were horizontal and square shaped, looked really kind of creepy. That version of MoSh hissed at me like a snake and then made to bite me with his sharp fangs, I held him back from biting me, and then he disappeared just as the normal MoSh had done. I looked over at the present day MoSh, and he was looking over at don Juan… hadn't he seen what had just happened? Hadn't he seen the really creepy version of himself? I was getting the idea he hadn't, which seemed really strange that he could have missed it…

Don Juan was looking directly at me now, no longer trying for the illusion that he couldn't see me, it was obvious to anyone looking that he was looking right at me… both of him were looking right at me… There appeared to be two of him, one lying barely beneath the surface of the other, creating a somewhat blurred image of him… I wondered if there was another don Juan within the inner don Juan… I looked closer and could see there indeed was, and another… and another… and another… and then I stopped looking deeper because it was starting to give me a headache… like looking into infinity. I felt like the dream was going to slip away from me, but that was the last thing I wanted to do… I looked away from the many dimensional don Juan and looked at my own hands, trying to stabilize my dream, and I did a double take… I had talons?! Or at least one version of my hands had talons… another had long red fingernails, another looked normal but had blue skin… ok, enough of seeing all of this, to stabilize the dream… I closed my eyes and used the time dilation method Allura showed me, and as I dilated time the dream stabilized.

With the dream stabilized, I looked back up at don Juan, I asked what the message was that he had for me. He said nothing for a short time, and then, "The fact that you are here proves you already understand the message." I was sitting there looking at him with what was no doubt a blank look, the different versions of don Juan were responding differently, one was snickering, one had no expression, one was frowning, one was outright laughing his ass off, one was shaking his head, one was nodding, one was… ok… that was too many don Juans again… I was getting disoriented. He asked exactly what I thought I was seeing, I figured he meant the fact I was seeing many versions of the same thing, so that's what I answered, that it was different versions of the same things from multiple planes of existence. He said I was only seeing a few of the many ways that things are, but let's see if I was really seeing anything at all…

Before I could put meaning to that, however, the scene around me changed. I surveyed my new surroundings and saw I was standing in a forest clearing (barren desert landscape) where there was one person there beside myself. That person looked like an Indian shaman (weird crazy old man) with long white hair hanging down to about the middle of his back (sticking out in every possible direction) and an old wizened face (with wild colored paint all over it)… I was seeing two versions of this person at the same time…

Version One:
I was in a barren desert landscape with very little sign of life anywhere, and the crazy looking shaman was staring at me with an insane look in his eyes. I focused on him for a bit, not sure what I was supposed to do about this situation, he attacked me with a wind spell, he formed a tornado and basically sent it at me. I jumped out of the way and flew over to the other side of the crazy shaman, looking at him to see what the best course of action was… and his spark was something I couldn't miss, so I would heal him. The song I thought I needed to use was Touch My Heart, so I focused on that while evading another wind attack, this one had wind blasts compressed so tightly that they were like spears, the song played through and golden energy flowed through the shaman, I had directed the spell to match the shaman's own energy. The song finished playing, the shaman looked normal now, he nodded at me and was gone.

Version Two:
I was in the forest clearing, there was an Indian shaman looking at me with a calm expression on his face, he also had an evil glint in his eyes. I wondered if he was up to something, I thought there was something strange about his aura, it seemed ice cold. I heard him chuckle, and then there was an explosion of activity as animals charged from every direction attacking me, they seemed to be under the shaman's control. They were innocent animals, I didn't want to hurt them, so I took to the sky to avoid an assortment of birds dive bombed me from the sky, to free the animals I would have to deal with the shaman quickly. I searched him, I figured I would find the spark, but I saw nothing… could that be? I looked a little deeper, still nothing, I looked as much as I could… I was attacked more, and I had still seen no sign of a spark in this man. Since I could see nothing to heal in there I just went for straight defending myself… He was attacking me with a staff that had a blade on each end as the animals continued attacking me from behind, I saw no choice but to counter attack with my Witchblade sword, and I ended up killing him. Once he was dead, the animals dispersed, then I saw a ghost rise from the body and both were gone.

Ok… now things looked normal again, what had that been all about? I was going to say something to don Juan, who was there in front of me again, but I didn't get a chance to before everything changed again. I was inside a room now, that looked like the interior of an old type building that might have been used by native Americans… There was yet another shaman standing in front of me, he had long braided gray hair (long black hair pulled back into a pony tail) (I couldn't see his hair because of a hood over his head)… I was seeing three versions of things now…

Version One:
I was looking at the shaman with long gray hair that was in braids on both sides of his face. He attacked me with fire, forming a fireball in each hand and throwing it at me. I countered the fire with a blast of ice, to extinguish the flames so the place wouldn't burn to the ground with us in it… though this man was attacking me, he had a spark… so I would heal him. A ring of fire formed around the man, expanding to burn all in its path including me… I focused on the song Touch My heart, which felt right for this situation, and the healing energy flowed through the man. He nodded, then disappeared.

Version Two:
The shaman had long black hair that was pulled back into a pony tail, his eyes were creepily red and looked a bit crazed… He was attacking me with ice, throwing icicles at me like spears, I shattered them with my Witchblade sword while checking this guy for a spark, which I saw burning inside him, so I focused on the healing spell that felt right, and that one was the song Frozen by Madonna. The song played and golden energy flowed through the shaman, having the intended effect. This shaman also nodded his head and then disappeared.

Version Three
I was facing a shaman with blood red robes on, his face was mostly concealed within the red hood, but I could see his eyes, and they were burning like they had fire in them… it sounded like he was growling from inside the hood. I'm not sure if it was real or imagined, but I thought I saw fangs inside the hood, the light glinted off his fangs… He was attacking me with dark energy, it looked like his base energy was dark energy, he was throwing balls of dark energy at me. I deflected the energy balls back at him and he absorbed them back into himself. Now I could clearly hear he was laughing at me… I was about to start fighting him, but no… he also had a spark… I needed another healing spell… I focused on the one that seemed right for the situation, and that one was Until It Sleeps by Metallica. The song played through, and the healing took its effect as in the previous two situations. My Until It Sleeps spell was using dark energy, which was clearly the shaman's base energy, and the spell had automatically matched that energy. The stable dark energy flowed through the shaman, bring about the healing effect. Once healed, the shaman removed his hood, nodded his head, then disappeared.

I was now back in the park with the present day MoSh and the don Juan from his dream. MoSh was looking at me strangely, I wondered if I had been gone very long, I wondered if it had even been noticeable that I had been gone… I looked over at don Juan, I was going to say something, but I didn't get a chance before five spirits appeared, the five from the shamans I had encountered, they were all standing in a circle around don Juan. One by one, the shaman spirits merged into each other until there was just one left, and he was no longer a spirit, he looked very solid. And don Juan seemed to know this man, it looked like they were friends. I wondered who this new man was, I wondered how he (they?) had known don Juan. The other man turned around and disappeared into thin air as he walked away, and then don Juan turned back to me. I was wondering what the message had been, I asked him… he said that if I was to examine the events of this dream more closely that the message hidden within would become clear to me. He said now it was time for me to wake up, I had been doing a lot of dreaming in just a single hour of sleep… just an hour? I wondered if that was possible, and then I woke and found I truly had only been sleeping for an hour…

Note from the author
Hey guys. I've had a couple of very personal goals of mine come up that I would really like to focus on. This includes attempting some shared dreams with both my brother, but also my best friend. The ones with my brother are top priority, as they are leading to something else much bigger. We are trying to get a message across to another brother of ours who we lost contact with, some time ago.

While I won't devote ALL my lucid time to this (since that'll likely burn me out, and I like to do fun things, too), it is rather the top priority at the moment. Don't worry, Kraftwerk and Mosh! I haven't forgotten about you, I just really need to focus on this, now that I've got a fairly decent amount of monthly LD totals rolling in...

July 29, 2010
Jack and i entered someone else's apartment. False memory told me it was our old apartment, but it didn't look like ours.

I needed to have a shower, so I went into the washroom. There were towels all over the place and in the tub.

I started throwing them all out on the floor. The door was slightly ajar, and i started feeling a little horny. I clued in at this point that I was dreaming (probably because of the random, sudden horniness). I thought maybe someone could walk through the door right now...

A very average looking guy came through the door. He'll do I guess, it is just a dream. "Take off your clothes, we're going to have sex!" I told him. He looked shocked! "Oh, get over it, it's just a dream," I told him

He seemed alright with that, but then his looks changed. He became old, bald, and was missing teeth. "Ugh," I thought. "Change back, change back!"

Then, Jack comes in. He starts quizzing the guy on having sex with me. He's not outright asking, and the guy is dodging the answer. I was trying to will Jack to go away (poor hubby!). Then, I could work on morphing him into something hotter...

The dream dissolved, but I managed to chain back in, sort of. I was still lucid, but in a new room. I was staring at a phone and I remembered my goal of phoning Naiya for the DV TOTM.

I held down the 3 on the phone for speed dial (I have you all on speed dial!). "Hello?" a girl's voice answered.

"Hey, Naiya, it's Serenity."

"Hey, what's up?"

"I'm just calling to remind you to dream share with Walms."

"I did that already!" she answers.

"Oh. Alright then, talk to you in chat later!"

"Bye!"

That was short... Right then, well, having not satisfied my dream horniness, I thought about another guy coming into the new room I was in. This one was so much better with very nice abs and arms

Dream ended before we could get down to it though, and I couldn't chain back in.

I woke from the previous dream and rolled over in bed. I had to go pee… damn. I didn't want to take the time for that, I'd just had a dream and I needed to take notes on it before I forgot anything. I sat up and grabbed my dream book, using my cell phone as a light, I took a couple rapid notes. Blake, moon bus, you're dreaming, bullshit. Ok… hopefully that would be enough there. I got up to go use the bathroom, patting the cute little kitty on my bed as I made my way around the bed in the dark. It seemed darker than normal. I opened the bedroom door to head for the bathroom… and there was someone standing there! I jumped about three feet, very surprised to see someone there at the door. I tripped over some crap on the ground and fell backwards onto my bed, great… there's an intruder and I fall backward onto my ass… not a good start. The guy in my doorway didn't hesitate at all, he seemed to be in a hurry. He called me Raven, said something about being in a hurry… the cat on my bed meowed… the man seemed to be staring at me for a bit, then he reached out and grabbed hold of me and pulled me through a portal. My first reaction might have been to resist, but in spite of the greeting, I wasn't sensing hostility, so I didn't resist.

The man and I emerged from the portal in a desolate place, the only visible life in the area were a group of individuals right around me, one of whom was the man who had grabbed me. I looked at the others, one of them was a beautiful white dragon… that one caught my attention so much that I didn't really notice the others as well as I could have… the dragon was pure white and so beautiful that she almost seemed to be glowing with light energy. I was staring at her, I had the feeling it was a female, when the man who brought me there said I was dreaming, do a reality check, and choose a better form unless I intended to meet Xildron as a cat… I finally recognized the man I was talking to, it was Walms, and apparently this had something to do with healing Xildron, so I would be using a healing spell on… wait a minute… hat he just said something about meeting Xildron as a cat? Who was he calling a cat? I looked down at my own hands… um… paws? Wtf? I was, indeed, a cat… not a panther… a kitty cat… so I transformed into my Assassin form, not needing to do a reality check to realize this was a dream. Walms said something to a couple of the others and then he was gone.

Ok… so what now? I looked around at the others there with me, none of them looked familiar to me, but they were clearly my allies now. I scanned the area for Xildron, and I found he was really quite close, he soon came into view, he was a dragon, and what a dragon! I can't really describe him, but here goes… I might be able to come up with a pic for later… he was a large dragon, shiny black scales that looked like flawless impenetrable armor, huge wings that looked like they were made up of many faceted jet black gems, four arms that ended in huge razor sharp talons, and heads… one, two, three, four, five… no more time to admire the dragon, he was attacking. I took flight and evaded the initial attack, as did everyone there with me, I remembered that I wasn't really here to help with the fight, I was here to focus my energy on the healing while the others took care of the attacks, so I just evaded the attacks and saved my energy to use on the healing spells I would use when the time felt right. Right now if I used a healing spell I knew he would just block it, and it would be a waste of energy. I could see the others had erected a force field of some kind around all of us, maybe to keep Xildron from leaving? Maybe also to keep enemies outside the force field from coming in, it appeared Xildron really did have an army out there trying to get inside to give him backup…

So I was staying out of the way as the fight was going on, which seemed like kind of a waste not to be helping in some way, but I didn't want to deplete my energy fighting when I would probably need it to heal Xildron. So instead of attacking Xildron, I used my first healing spell, I focused on Silver and Cold by AFI, and its effect of drawing some of the unstable dark energy off of Xildron into myself. I was getting large amounts of the dark energy now, it certainly wouldn't deplete my energy, I would have more than ever, and I was focused on stabilizing the energy as I received it. At first I thought Xildron was going to respond to my energy drain, but he was quickly occupied by attacks from the others. Unstable dark energy was something Xildron had an abundance of, and I was well into a third rendition of Silver and Cold before it started to become too much dark energy that I was absorbing, I would have to get rid of some of it somehow because I was having trouble keeping up with stabilizing it all. I couldn't safely do that here, though, because while my allies, Walms' kids, could absorb and use the dark energy, Xildron could also absorb it back into himself which would be counterproductive to the healing process. I absorbed more of his energy until it was at the point where I couldn't control any more, and then I did a quick portal, focused on locating a Templar base. The portal opened…

I emerged from the portal right over a Templar base, I could see the Templars below me going about whatever no good business they were currently up to, but I didn't take the time to watch the Templars for long. Instead, I just released a massive blast of the unstable dark energy on the Templar base, focusing it out as a blast of black flames that took the form of a huge fireball. The fireball descended on the surprised Templars, and before they even had a chance to fully register what was happening, there was a massive explosion of dark energy and their base was left as nothing more than a large crater in the ground. I wasn't sure if any of them had escaped, but if they had, they were surely looking at the crater gong, "What the hell was that?!" I had no time to survey the destruction of the Templars, I went right through the portal back to Xildron, which I hadn't even bothered closing when I had first arrived.

The fight was still going on when I got back, and it made me wonder if anyone had noticed I had disappeared for a bit there. I closed the portal and went back to draining excess unstable dark energy off of Xildron, the less energy he had to fight the others, the better. Since I had vented a large portion, I was once again having no difficulty stabilizing the dark energy as I received it. Xildron seemed to finally be weakening, the attacks of the others were getting through much more often now. It looked like they were trying to restrain Xildron, most likely so he would be unable to block the healing energy so easily. I saw the beautiful white dragon again, flying in towards Xildron, she was using some light energy to try to bind the huge black dragon. The others moved in and managed to immobilize Xildron, but it didn't look like they would have him immobilized for long, I got a telepathic message to heal him already, the message was from a woman, she said she didn't know how long they could hold him.

Ok… need a healing spell… but Xildron's base energy is dark energy, so the spell would have to just stabilize his dark energy, not purge it out, if anything it would be helpful to purge out any incompatible light energy for now… The first song I thought of was Touch My Heart off of the Devil Hunter Yohko soundtrack, but that normally uses light energy… so what if it normally uses light energy? Feed dark energy into the spell, it would use dark energy. All of those thoughts flew through my head in just a second or two, then I was focused on the song Touch My Heart and also on feeding dark energy into it. The song was playing loudly in the desolate land, spirals of energy erupted around Xildron… he tried one more time to get loose from the others before the spell had him surrounded in healing energy, and I saw one of Walms' kids, a male in a human form (I don't have them straight, so I'm unsure of this one's name), was hit by a blast of energy and knocked out of their formation, he was slammed to the ground where he made a large crater. I focused as much stable dark energy into the spell as I could do, and that energy, a dark flow of energy that looked like the normal golden healing energy with the one exception that it was dark instead of light flowed into Xildron. It looked at first like he was going to try to block it, but maybe he saw it was energy he wanted, or maybe he just didn't have the energy left to resist, but the healing energy got through.

The healing song was over now, and the others I had been fighting with were standing around Xildron, who was still an impressive looking dragon even though he looked a bit worn out. I looked to see if I could find the one who had been nailed by Xildron during the healing, but I couldn't see him. I wondered if he had been forced to leave before the fight was completely over. I also wondered where Walms might be, he would surely want to know that the healing spell on Xildron had been completed, though there would be no way of knowing for sure that it had worked until Xildron recovered at least some of his energy. He seemed calm now, but he might just be tired… The feeling I had was that the healing energy had done its job and Xildron would be ok now. I didn't have a chance to even try to check to see what effect the healing might have had on Xildron, this was the point when I woke.

INTRO:
For the past 2 nights, I 've been having this dream. Now I'm a lucid dreamer, but every once in a awhile something weird enters my dream and sortta like try and to mess it up but I always have to fight it out of my dream. But this one is different, like my dreams are trying to tell me something, but I dont know what. Oh yeah, somethimes my dreams are like a tv show, like a cliche' sometimes.

The Black Cougar:

My dream started off in the woods, of course it was dark, it wouldn't be fun if it wasn't lol. But anyway, I'm out in the woods with my trusty companion, mans best friend, my dog yogi, he's a pit-bull/boxer. We're walking back to my house by cutting through the woods, but it's not like a National Park Woods, just a ordinary park in Philly. Then, me and my dog heard a noise to the far right, yogi started growling and then i could see yellow eyes, in the dark between some trees. At first I thought it was a ninja lol So I told whoever it was to come out and fight me. It just roared and dissapeared. Yogi calmed down and we continued walking back to my house. We came to a corner of the block from were the park was, the park is big mind u, and I live right across the street from it. We walked down the block to my house, my dog ran up the steps, waiting for me to open the door for him, then It felt like I was being watched.... So I turned around and looked at the woods again, witch is directly in front of my house, and I didn't see anything. I turned back around and was about to open the door when I heard that same roar from earlier, I quickly turned around again and yogi started growling. I looked into the woods once more, but I couldn't see anything, yogi still growling by my side, I kept lookin but I didnt see anything in there. Then I started to focus, and then I saw it. It was a long black figure, I could see it looking up into the full moon aand roaring again. It looked at me with its bright yellow eyes, then ran away.

And that was my dream from last night. But I dont understand it. any suggestions?

Type: DILD.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

CAUTION: Contains spoilers from the 1996 film Primal Fear.

A movie character makes an appearance in my dreams once again. I can't believe I forgot what my old dream goal was though, especially with the level of lucidity I had.

EPIC FACEPALMZ

At the start of the dream, I walked through a door and into a science lab that had cream-colored tiles, no grout, and pure white walls. This lab was clean and uncluttered, but perhaps that was because all the shelves were up against the walls, facing outwards into the room. Beakers, flasks, and textbooks lined the shelves in a rather unorganized fashion. In the middle of the large space there was a courtroom-like setup, although it was much more simplified, as I have drawn in the image below.

Every chair was occupied by a person, and there were two to a table. Most of the occupants were dressed in suites and ties, but a few were dressed more casually. Unlike a regular courtroom, there was no judge at the front of the room, only the defendant and the prosecutor sitting at the same desk. The defendant was to the left, and the prosecutor was to the right.

The defendant was Roy, probably on trial for feigning an illness, but I didn't know for sure. I knew what I was coming in there for, though. I was going to get him out.

The door made a slight squeaking sound as I opened it further and stood at the back. A few of the people sitting in the chairs turned around to see me, but then turned around after a brief look. Roy looked at me, interested in what I was going to do. I briefly gestured to him to ignore me for now; and as I did, I became lucid. I was still standing at the back though, knowing I wanted to further complete a dream goal involving Roy. But I couldn't remember what it was!

The rest of the room went quiet and froze as I thought hard as to what it could have been. I spent the rest of the dream trying to remember.

The exact moment I woke up, I remembered.

Few years back, after a tedious work schedule extended upto the midnight and feeling much tired, I went with my friend to sleep in his house. He offered me a room with a single bed and window. Through the window I was seeing the street light and I told my friend "Hei, I cannot sleep with this light pointing to my eyes" and tried to sleep.
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I was sitting upset in my bed and called my friend. He came and inquired what happened. I complained him about the street light. He told me that he will finish it off and picking up a stone he broke the street light. Still, the broken bulbs and the entire street lights which were hanging down were lighting in the full bloom!!!! He climbed up the electric post and disconnected the circuit, once he came down, all the lights climbed up the post and begun to light!!!!
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