lucid

1/20/11

Really long lucid last night. I know that I only had 45 minutes left to sleep, yet the dream felt like it was around 2 or 3 hours. Time dilation was obviously involved.

1- I Attempt to Visit the Antechamber of Insanity
((There is a lot that happened prior to this point, in which I am non-lucid, but I can't recall what it is. Something about packing to go on some sort of vacation. I make a point of packing my laptop in case the hotel offers free internet. Somewhere along the line, I become lucid. I think of my goals, and decide to visit the Antechamber of Insanity. I wonder how to get there.... A portal might be useful, but there's no guarantee I can even make one, and I have limited time. Instead, I stand on a chair and climb through the ceiling (I've learned my lesson about flying headfirst into solid objects), willing myself to end up in the AoI.

When I pull myself through, I feel that I am on a wooden floor. However, it is too dark to see anything. "Does this mean my mind is filled with empty darkness?" I ask myself, half-jokingly. I think I sense Madison nearby, which is a good indication that I'm in the right place, but it doesn't count if I can't see. Madison tells me something, but I can't hear her.

Suddenly, I'm on a shelf above my future step-mother's kitchen, looking down on her and my dad while they're cooking. I feel like a ninja.

Jilda looks up and spots me, nearly dropping the pot she's holding and letting out a startled shriek. Without a word, I drop down and go outside.

As I'm walking, I pass by a dog that is in a cage, yelling at me. (Not barking, yelling.) Wanting to test out my dream control, I point to the dog and tell it to turn into a human. It changes from a quadruped to a biped, but retains all of it's dog-like features. Interesting. I tell the dog it's stupid for not being able to transform, and show it how easily I can turn into a wolf. I begin to run, forgetting about the dog and taking joy in being a wolf, when the dog (who is now completely human) jumps on me and starts attacking me.

I instantly turn back into a human as the dog boy painfully rips my stomach open. I feel blood begin to pour out of me. Angered, I pin the boy to the ground and start tearing at his throat and stomach. Although he is bleeding profusely, he's laughing as if this is just a play fight.

I stand up and examine my wound. It has already healed completely, but my stomach is still red with blood. I wipe it off...

...and have a false awakening. I am in the back of a truck with my dad and brother. We seem to be going on that same vacation from earlier in the dream. However, I begin to notice that some things are a bit... off. First I see some things that I KNOW were in my dream, then I see islands floating in the sky. It seems normal, but a part of me says that it's not.

I begin to read the signs as we pass, to see if they change or say strange things. A sign that should say "speed limit" instead reads "cookie monster." Okay, that's definitely not normal. I examine some billboards, and find that I'm having trouble reading them. That's strike two against reality; time to RC.

I become lucid with a nose pinch RC and exit the truck. I go off exploring, but most of that is lost in memory.

Non-lucid again. My brother is watching a video on YouTube. "What are you watching?" I ask.

"This really cool thing with Justin Bieber in it!" he exclaims and shows me.

"Justin Bieber?" I burst into laughter. "Why are you watching THAT?"

"'Cause he's a really awesome singer! Uhh... just don't tell anyone I told you that."

My mom walks up and I become lucid again. I am trying to prove to her that this is a dream, but even though I stick my finger through my palm she doesn't believe me. Stupid DC...

Later, yet ANOTHER false awakening. My brother is still going on about that Bieber kid. "I thought that was a dream," I mutter to myself, confused. I am contemplating telling my friends about his strange behavior, or saving it for when I need dirt on him.

I am in a bus. There are also other people it, including my classmates. We leave the bus. In front of us is a building of which I've dreamt before. We enter the building. The next thing I remember is my friend chasing me with a pistol that has a RPG attached on it. He shoots at me four times with it until he runs out of ammo. I leave the building and become lucid. I had decided to do the wizard of Oz part of Task of the Year so I teleport to land of Oz.
There is a road in front of me so I stay where I arrive and wait for Dorothy. Soon she arrives, although from a direction I didn't expect. I spot the slippers. I follow her and soon she takes her slippers off. I sit on the ground and start stuffing my feet into them (for you trying to do the task, Dorothy has small feet ). Suddenly I am in my bedroom, stuffing my feet into my little sister's slippers. I fear that I woke up but soon the scene changes back to land of Oz. I manage to get the shoes on so I get up and go looking for Dorothy. When I find her, she has become a tree.

Of course I didn't remember to tap the slippers together, or if I did tap them I don't remember it.

At first it wasn't lucid. I was surrounded by school people; teachers students etc. and there was a tower that two people had to climb. I was just spectating at first, then I became one of the two people. It was kind of like a tower from Assassin's Creed, but don't let that put you off the rest of this DJ. The other guy beat me by like 0.1 seconds. But the top was a trap. It wasn't stable and soon, the other guy fell off and died

I struggled to maintain my balance as the top of the tower was constantly changing and shifting. I eventually fell off, having a classic "falling" dream. But I think that by the time I hit the bottom, I realised that IRL, I never fall of high things, so this must be a dream.

After a memory gap, I found that I was lucid with LostInLA and our friend from church, "B". We were having an awesome time, taking huge leaps and floating down towards the ground again, 200 metres away. We kept doing that, and we passed lots of different scenery. At one point it the ground was a dull grey and there was a castle ahead of us, but it didn't matter. We stopped just before the castle. I said "Why don't we fly?" I then proceeded to jump really high and will myself to fly. But I just hit the ground again. The other two just laughed. We went off to the right, away from the castle.

I remembered that there was something important to do, my dream goals, but I couldn't remember them. Just as we leaped over a massive, green, mossy rock, B said "Let's go to Italy!". She then teleported us all to a really small area that just had 5 buildings that were were standing in the centre of. I jumped up high to see where we were, but outside the 5 buildings, there was just blackness for the ground, and surrounding us in the sky was just a bad quality wallpaper of Italy.

While in the air, I remembered about how I'm supposed to help my cousin with her nightmares, so I shut my eyes and tried to teleport to her house, but it only half worked and I slowly faded back to the Italy place. I hit the ground next to the other two. I said "I need to help my cousin (S) with her nightmares," as I tried really hard this time. I saw a small white vortex when I shut my eyes. Eventually I was at my cousins house. The two bedrooms are opposite each other in their house. The two boys in one, and the two girls in the other.

I arrived in what was supposed to be S and her sister's bedroom, but it was really dark, and there wasn't a bed in there. Just black coloured tables and random things around the room. A second after I arrived, LostInLA and B appeared too. I guess they didn't want to leave me on my own. LostInLA mentioned about waking up since we had been jumping around and talking for a while now, and I said "You want to wake up now?" and she said "Nah, I'll wait."

I then asked them both to say "I will remember my dreams tonight." LostInLA said it like it was a bother to say it, but B said it with enthusiasm. "Alright, I'm going to find S now," they nodded.

I looked out into the hallway. The end of it was blocked. In front of me was the boy's bedroom, but inside, it looked like it had been changed into the girl's room; pink walls etc.
The sister was sleeping, but she looked strange, almost Asian (not that Asians are strange, but it was strange for her to look like that).
S was supposed to be sleeping, but she was just sitting at her table by the window, with craft in front of her. She wasn't doing the craft when I was there.

I walked around so I could see her face, and said "Hey S". (I said her name). She turned and said "Isn't it weird when you try to burp twice in a row?" I was confused by this response, but I tried it and said "Wow, it IS weird "
I had to try and get into her actual dreams, and find out where she is, but I didn't know how to go about it, so I placed my hand on her head, but nothing happened. I just ruffled her hair and said something about how she isn't having any nightmares tonight.

Out the window, there was a massive field of plants, they were growing strawberries and lemons from waist-high grass plants.

I let myself wake up.

My arm was the most dead it has ever been in my life. I sat up in my bed, and my arm just dragged along after me. It was completely dead. As the circulation returned, I ran out of my bedroom and texted LostInLA, saying I had just had a long lucid with her, does she remember?
She texted back that she didn't remember her dreams.
I then rang up my cousin. This was the phone conversation:

Me: "Hi, may I speak to S please?"
S: "Hello?"
Me: "Hey! It's Kevin."
S: "Oh hi!"
Me: "Did you remember your dreams?"
S: "Kind of. They were good dreams."
Me: "So you didn't have any nightmares?"
S: "Nope "
Me: "Well, I had a really long lucid dream with me and my two church friends, and at the end of it, I went to you..
(I described the bit with her in it)
S: "Yeah, that's basically how mine went too."
Me: "Really?! And also, outside the window, there were strawberries and lemons growing."
S: "We actually ARE growing strawberries and lemons out the back. Grandma cut some lemons off a tree and we put them into pots. I started growing strawberries in pots too."
Me: "Seriously?! Wow! What were you doing just before I rang?"
S: "Getting ready to go to Timezone."
Me: "Okay then, have fun!

I then texted B, and she said "Really?? I remembered my dreams when I woke up, but now I can't remember them."

Big Man, Small Town (lucid)
NON-DREAM NON-LUCID LUCID
I had exited a building, finding myself on a concrete field of nothing. I turned around, and the building is gone. I did a reality check and became lucid, but then the dream suddenly destabilizes. I rub my hands and try to observe the details of the nothing around me, and I see a city in the distance. I realize I have several tasks to do before the month is done. I decided to ignore the LPTC tasks and the DreamCatcher tasks, because they seemed to challenging for me right now. I settled on trying to do TOTM, but I couldn't seem to get a thunderstorm to come by, so I decided to do the Advanced task. I filled in the space in front of me with obstacles and ledges to free run on, as parkour could get me more focused. I swing around the bars and fly across the large gaps that my mind had auto-created, and I came across a busy city. It brought back nostalgic memories of when I lived in the city up in LA. I couldn't bring myself to grow 10 times larger for some reason, so another thought popped into my head.

I walked away back to the concrete nothingness and simply spun around. When I focused again, the city was about the size of a sheet of paper. I trampled on it, leaving only a small area which looked like water behind. I dived into the city and it became normal sized again, and I landed in a pool. I seemed to lose most of my lucidity, as I realized all my friends were staring at me underneath some shading. Jenny and my brother had pistols and were running into my house, but they were caught and arrested. I climbed out of the pool too, and a pistol fell out of my back pocket, and I got caught too, but all I had to do was go inside my house. I checked the kitchen counter and noticed my brother's work was on there, with scribbles of "I shouldn't ever point a gun anywhere again." I wrote something on that paper and walked into my bedroom to go to sleep.

I wake up, and realize, 'I'm still dreaming!' I run into the kitchen and my brother and my mom were discussing some sort of research topic. "Wanna hear what I'm researching, Mike?" "I already know, whatever, I gotta go!" I burst out the garage door and sprint down the street, trying to tear open a portal to get to somewhere. I dodge the cars and start yelling out location names while trying to rip open the air with my hands. "Apocalypse ship for 2012! Uh... Halo 3's Last Mission! No... Pyramids! A-" My mom stops me, "Hey! You're not dreaming anymore! You're wide awake!" "No, I'm-" "AWAKE!" she interrupts. "Really... Oh." I walk into one of the alleys in the street and I notice the moon is freakin huge on the horizon. I turn around and a man with a pigeon resting on his shoulder is muttering to himself. "It is pretty beautiful... It'll be even more amazing when the two moons combine... heh..." "Wha..?" I ask. "Look behind you." I turn around and there is a second smaller moon rising in front of the first one.

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I wake in a bedroom very reminiscent of my bedroom back home. It's now unclear to me when exactly I became lucid because I fell back asleep shortly after awaking, clouding some of the detail. I do remember it to be a snap of realization. I am in the room with somewhere between two to four figures; the dream would fade in and out (without me ever fully waking up) but the setting would change slightly upon fading in. One of the characters was a young child, daughter of an middle-aged man who I recall to be a famous actor in real life. A third character was a motherly figure, who I also remember being a famous female actor in real life.

The fourth and most constant figure was a beautiful young blond woman, probably no older than 23. She had vibrant dirty blond hair and large crystalline green eyes. She was absolutely stunning. I vaguely recall thinking of her as a famous actor as well or maybe and image of a woman I'd seen browsing the internet before. I walked toward her, grabbed her hand, smiled, and imagined her with her clothes off. We proceeded to have incredible sex with me in a sitting position and her riding me. I remember thinking how I may be looking in real life, masturbating while sleeping. I couldn't care any less ; D

When I was done (I never fully finished) the dream began to fade. I remember grabbing her hand and holding it in front of my face next to my hands in order to focus. To my surprise and excitement, it actually stabilized the dream quite a bit. I decided I wanted to be free from this confining environment, so I attempted to open a window. After an unusual amount of effort I was able to get the window open and squeeze myself through it. I jumped and tried to fly, but I just glided to the ground. My disappointment was completely forgotten when I peered toward the distance to see a clustered ribbon of stars in the sky above. It was magnificent.

I made another attempt to fly, but to no avail. So I started off toward my right where I found a large grouping of dream characters wander around aimlessly around a large cul-de-sac. I decided to attempt the lucid task of the month by becoming a giant and squashing dream characters. Unfortunately, this proved to require more than the dream control I had harnessed at this point. The dream broke away.

If anyone has any idea who this mysterious green eyed woman might be, I would love to hear from you. Post links, pictures, or names in the comments section of famous actors or simply images that fit my description. If you post the woman I'm looking for, I promise to handsomely reward you with Community Hall points!

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I went to sleep with music playing on my MP3 to see if it would be a good anchor. I fell asleep but shortly awoke because of a loud song that had started playing. I did not move or open my eyes and shortly experienced vibrations. After they stopped I opened my eyes and got up from the couch. I did a RC to confirm I was dreaming. Then I spun around picturing the collesium in the dilapidated city in my dreamworld. I wanted to figure out what everything in my dreamworld meant. When I appeared there I was in the middle of the arena. There were people sitting in the stands watching a lion tamer or something. They shouted at me for getting in the way. I asked, "What does this place represent?" Some random guy from the audience answered, "It represents the death of theatre in modern times," or something like that. I left thinking that it didn't make sense, but thinking now it does. Then I lost lucidity and followed the dream.

so now I know what the arena meant: the death of theatre in modern times

Non-lucid Lucid

Dream1
I was driving to my home along a street. I parked the car in front of my house, when suddenly a woman and her daughter started stealing everything they would from the car. "What you think you´re doing?", I asked while taking back my stuff. "We´ll come back", the woman said, "and if you call the cops bad things are going to happen!" Then they ran away. I went inside and started writing a text message to the police, when I heard a knock. I climbed up a ladder (where did that come from?) and opened a door. Behind the door stood a man who apparently was the womans husband. He attacked me and my father, pushing him to the ground and starting to hit him. I jumped on his back and put my arm around his neck, pulling him backwards. It worked and my dad attacked him. (I´m not sure what happened here). I´m in my room playing some game, (something else happened too, but can´t remember it) when I realize I´m dreaming. I remember my task from the serial dream RPG thread and try to look into a mirror and turn into my character (my avatar). I turn around, expecting there would be a mirror there, but I fail. "Oh well, theres a mirror in my room anyway." I say to myself. I walk to the mirror and look into it. My skin color has become greyer and my hair is black (can´t remember did my eyes change. Probably), but I still have my normal clothes. I try to change them, but wont succeed. Something else happened, but can´t remember it and soon after that I woke up.

Dream2
I was in a mine. I had some pieces of the sword of darkness. There were 3 pieces: the handle, the hand protection-thing that is attached to the handle and the blade. The handle was made of steel, the protection-thing was golden and the blade was purple. I re-assemble the sword and it possessed me and I started killing people. Then something/someone makes me drop the sword into a bottomless pit. Later it turned out that it wasn´t bottomless and the sword is wating there for me to go and destroy it "after the awakening".I wake up.

Since my normal dreams are in red and my lucids are in blue, lets have semi lucids be in purple!

I just had a FA from a previous lucid dream i had, but at that time i didn't know it was still a dream. I rolled over in my bed to face my dresser and noticed my DJ wasn't there. I snapped my fingers and said for a pen to be there, and it was! Howeverr, this only got me semi-lucid. I could still use all my powers, but i couldn't control anything. Now that i had my pen, i said out loud, "Notebook!" and one appeared. However, when i opened it up it was already full! I had summoned a filled notebook, great. I said out loud again, "No, Notebook!" and another one appeard, this time a bit smaller and not as rigid, and seems like it was held together by tape. I opened it up and noticed that this time, there wasn't as much writing, but it was still used. It looked like notes of a scientist or something, lot's of jumbled up texts with a mix of funny symbols. I repeated one more time, "No! BLANK NOTEBOOK!" and so it appeared yet again. This time, i eagerly went through it and finally, it was comepletely blank. Nothing written in it. I smiled a little and started to write down key words about each part of the lucid. Here's where the sucky part comes in. I CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT I WROTE DOWN!!! This pissed me off too, because i could tell that it was a really long and epic dream. Infact, the only thing i remember from the lucid itself was thinking of how awesome it was and how i couldn't wait to write it down!

I was at some sort of baseball game in the stands. I didn't know who it was but i did know that i wanted a better look, so i moved down closer to the field. I eventually just walked onto the field and sat on the 3rd base side near the edge of the fence (on the field, mind you). /a fan told me to get off, but i told him to go away because i wanted to get a better view. Just as i said that and turned back a foul ball flew right past me, within 1 foot of hitting me! I figured that I didn't want to get hit, so I moved, right behind home plate. Not a good idea.

For somereason, while walking, the inning changed and all the players started running by me into their dugouts. One of them gave me his glove for no apparent reason. I was like, ok! I moved behind home plate and then the game started up again. The first few pitches were normal, ball, strike, but the catcher caught them. After like 5 or so pitches, one got past the catcher and raced towards me! I ducked down just in time and wasn't hit. I decided to put the glove on just in case that happened again, and then, right as i got the glove on, another pass ball! This time though, i had the glove, and, instead of catching it, i just deflected it as if it were a hockey puck. An umpire started jumping by 3rd base and blowing a whistle, but didn't say anything. I was a little scared to see if he was going to yell at me or not for coming on to the field and then hitting the ball and interrpting play time, but he didn't. He just sat there and blew on his whistle.

After another minutes of watching the game i decided, "screw this, I'm hungry!" So I started to walk down the 3rd baseline towards 2 big door i saw at the end. I walked through them the same time as another person who seemed to be working there. "Looking for food?" He asked me. "Yeah, preferable ice cream." "Here's the freezer room where we keep our ice" he said, pointing to two more big steel doors. I could see some of the mist from the cold leaking out through the bottom of the doors. We starting walking up a staircase that was just past the ice room. Once we got to the top, the mysterious man said, "Can you feel the cold under your feet?" And sure enough, i could. "Yeah," I replied, "It's kinda weird." Keep in mind that i had shoes on the entier time, but now i didn't We got to two mroe big, steel doors and the man said, "This is where we part our ways. You will find planety of food in there." I thought what a thoughtful, kind person he was, but when i turned away for a second, he was gone.

Being as hungry as i was, I quickly walked through the big doors into a Wal-Mart type store. Something that sells a little bit of everything. I walked around a corner into the first room on my right and it turned out to be some model vehicle shop. There were huge boxes that ahd pictures of helicopters and planes on it. I even saw a kid with his mom walk out of the store with one. There were about 6 people in the store in all, but none of them had food... So i walked out. I quickly saw a place where you can but ice cream! There was tons of it, but no really good kinds. There were your standards like vanilla and chocolate, but there were also really weird ones like peanut butter and jelly, and dirt, none of which sounded very apetizing. But then, I saw the mother of all ice cream inventions. The create your own sundae stand!

I looked for the bowls but there was only this small, funny shaped one that was made of plastic. There was a sign above it that said, "The all new POP bowls! Put your ice cream in the bowl, pop it, and made it into a delicious lick-to-eat cone without the cone!"
(Great, now my mind is starting to advertise to me in my dreams. I mean come on, WTH??)I looked closer at it and noticed that the prices of the ice cream were there. It was something like $2 per type of ice cream, $.50 per topping, $1.00 for hot fudge. I figured that, instead of using these funky looking bowls that i would grab one of the ones off the other stand with just the plain ice cream on it. They were a bit bigger and i figured that they didn't charge on size, right?

I looked in theice cream selection part and only saw vanilla, strawberry, cookies and cream, and that peanut butter and jelly. I took some vanillla and a little bit of cookies and cream. I walked over to where they sold the pints and gallon tubs of ice cream and opened up a peanut butter one. The sign didn't say we couldt do that! I grabbed a scoop or two of peanut butter and that went to get toppings. I picked out peanut butter cups since they're my favorite and piled them on. Then, i picked hot fudge, and boy did I put a lot of fudge on it! So much so that it started to leak over the edge of the bowl! I quickly grabbed a spoon and started eating. For some reason, there were bananas in it! But i didn't mind, and i just kept eating. Then, once I was almost done and there was only a few bites left, i figured that i should probably buy this before I eat it all. I walked over to a register and started wating in line. Then, everything started to blur and i could tell the dream was fading, and that bumped me into lucidity. I quickly finished off the ice cream and started spinning, but eating what was left of my dessert made me lose too much time, and the dream faded away.

[INDENT][RIGHT][SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"]19.01.2011[/COLOR][/SIZE][/RIGHT]
[SIZE="3"][COLOR="Black"]Timewarp Road[/COLOR][/SIZE] [SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"](DILD)[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"]NON-DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#800080"]DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#00008B"]LUCID[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[COLOR="#808080"][/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"]After a few weeks of NO recall, I got something :)

[/COLOR][COLOR="#800080"]I was in a McDonalds, waiting in line and everything seemed normal. Though, suddenly something didn't add up and I pinched my nose and [/COLOR][COLOR="#00008B"]could breathe.

I was trying to recall my goals and remembered my goals to go to the past and future. [/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"](remember this) [/COLOR][COLOR="#00008B"]Before I could attempt it, something caught my eye, I saw 7 Year Old Blue-haired quadruplet girls in robes lining up. I remembered another one of my goals was to ask a DC for inspiration, or for what they might want. I went up to them and asked them what they would like, they said they wanted Santa Claus to show up this year, they're a poor family. Before I could try to accomplish their wish...I woke up...or did I?

[/COLOR][COLOR="#800080"]I was in my bed, thinking, "Why'd it have to end there, I was just about to do something." I though that I should check on my plaster cast I just needed applied when I [/COLOR][COLOR="#00008B"]became lucid, the reason...I don't have a cast. I looked around and I was in a hi-tech house with automatic everything that had a very nice view though. [/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"](My SC helped me with my goal...) [/COLOR][COLOR="#00008B"]I had a look around my home and peeked outside where there was a big excersise ball in a bush. [/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"](this likely showed up because my one popped, I like to sit and bounce on them) [/COLOR][COLOR="#00008B"]I attempted to shatter the window by punching it, which didn't work. I continued to try punch it to no avail and then tried a jumping cliche' kung-fu kick. I failed to even make it to the window. [/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"](even in my dreams, I still suck) [/COLOR][COLOR="#00008B"]Giving up hope, I just went outside and followed a sot of Cyber-road. As I was walking along I felt the dream fading by stabilized it, I also noticed the road was sort of slowly losing it's techy look. I eventually came to a big hill. By this time, the road was only modern, I went up it and saw the road turn to big slate bricks like they wee a long time ago. When I got to the top I was overlooking a moonlit village. It was the most beautiful thing i'd seen in a dream, It was so realistic, I saw a simple village with people walking around, I felt the dream fading, but satisfied I completed 2 goals, I let it.[/COLOR][/INDENT]

This was another lucid from several days ago that I didn't have time to journal. I don't recall much now, but the lingering emotion makes it memorable.

Jennifer
I become lucid somehow. I am in a house. It's vaguely familiar but I don't know specifically. I try to recall my plan. I think to summon my ex-girlfriend (which wasn't my plan, but it's something I've thought to do, but feared it might be dangerous). I seem to be in the living room of the house. I sense that around the corner and through the hall is the kitchen. I take a breath and prepare myself to meet Jen, who I haven't seen in 3 years. In those years, I have only dreamed of her once or twice, and even then only briefly. But I am haunted by memories of her in waking life.

I finally muster the courage and start walking toward the kitchen where I expect her to be. As I enter the door, I call to her loudly: "Jen?" Then I walk in and there she is. I stop, shocked that it worked. There she is after all these years. I take a moment to really look at her. She doesn't move and doesn't say anything. I look at her face. She seems a bit older. He face a bit worn and no makeup. She is not ugly but she is somewhat... undesirable. I silently thank my subconscious. I thought this would be very difficult and painful. But somehow, now that I see her, it's not so scary. I am not overcome with desire, or anger, or sadness. I just see her and she is just a person.

I talk to her briefly, but I don't recall any detail of the conversation. I only recall my sense of relief that I saw here and I didn't totally freak out.

This was a weakly lucid dream for several days ago. I didn't have time to journal it at the time. I don't recall much of the dream, but my interpretation is memorable.

Father
I am in my apartment living room. I see my father. He is sitting at the couch. He is bent over, writing something on the coffee table. I notice he is writing with his left hand.

Interpretation: My father isn't left-handed, but I am. I am the only person in my family who is left-handed. It's something I identify strongly with. When I saw in the dream that my father was writing with his left-hand, I realized that this dream character actually represented an aspect of myself. This made me think of when I look in the mirror in waking life. I see myself and, as I've become an adult, I look a lot like my father. When I look at my reflection, I see my father. This upsets me because I have a bad relationship with my father and a negative opinion of him. I have collected all my own negative character traits and projected them on to an image of my father. But really, it is myself. I can't reject and avoid the negative aspects of myself. I must accept them and work toward a holistic personal goal.

tried this last night but did not dream I did tho manage to develop my WILD method to the point of almost exiting into my non physical body! ah well It may have been something I did wrong. I will try again tonight!

I was sleeping when I heard someone playing drums downstairs. I went out in the hallway and yelled, "STOP IT, I"M TRYING TO SLEEP!". One of the guys replacing the carpet on the stairs said, "oh, sorry" and I went back into my room and laid back down. Then my cell phone rang, it was on the bookshelf, which is strange because I never keep it there. It was Jake(who I never talk to and don't have his number). We started talking about smoking weed or partying and I noticed all my bottom teeth were loose. I started to feel nervous. Then one fell out and I panicked and thought about how permanent this was. I told Jake I had to call him back. I looked at the tooth, it was dark blue, like a piece of candy and gritty. I went and looked in the mirror and I had to rows of bottom teeth. Then I remembered that my teeth falling out is a dreamsign. I flipped the lightswitch on and off and nothing happened. Then I went to the batheroom and did the same. I was extremely excited and wanted to run around shouting, "It's A DREAM> MY TEETH ARE OK!" but then I thought about the guys replacing the carpet and didn't want to freak them out. But then I realized they were just dream characters so I ran down the stairs(they seemed to have disappeared). I decided that I wanted to drive around in a red corvette and smoke a joint(I tried smoking a cigarette in my last dream and was unsuccessful). I walked out to my garage. It was empty, so I decided I'd close the door and when I reopened it there'd be a corvette in there. I closed it with my mind and turned around. I was getting spun out from being so excited and was starting to wake up. I tried to look at the sky and focus on the details to keep myself grounded. The sky was a dark, a tannish light brown color, and the barren trees looks ominous and depressing against it. I tried to pull a cigarette case full of joints out of my pocket but don't remember what happened next, must have woken up.