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2 Jamie dreams. one at the start of the week and one at the end. First one was just audio only as I was slightly waking up she said, "I'm not mad at you." Well that's good to know. If only she knew kidding. Second dream was we were just hanging out. maybe sitting on a couch talking and smiling. feelings: very loving. Seems like we are more at peace with one another. Just maybe not enough to actually communicate...

Crazy Dream.

could have almost been semi lucid since I used dream control. Started I was flying over a hill by some library or something. I saw a strange shape rolling on the hill. Looking closer it seemed like 3 people meshed together rolling around in a blob. Two older people middle aged and their daughter, who had chin length brown hair and eyes. She seemed really pretty too me. I went at the blob of 3 people and somehow pulled the girl out of the blob. I flew and carried her away.

We landed in an empty apartment building. she seemed really friendly, but she was also really strange. I feel she wasn't a human but some creature that looks human. We are in my basement, and the dream reminds me of the basement suite i lived in when I knew Jamie in 2011. We seem to get along well but she has some odd twitches. She starts complaining she is hungry. I go upstairs to find her food. I search floors and rooms for about 20 minutes, but find nothing.

Back downstairs I open the door to my suite, and see the girl transforming or something. It looks like the back of her head is to me. she is RAGING, and throwing things, and knocking things over and claiming she is hungry. Her back hair flips over to the front of her face revealing in the back of head another face. it's like the same face but twisted and super angry. She accuses me of lying to her. And after witnessing her great strength of thrashing the room I become afraid. I sit on the couch face in hands and start crying. I say out loud, "She has a personality disorder!!" and I cry later. Her mean face goes away and she goes back to normal. She apologizes and pats me on the back gently.

Scene shifts to outside the apartment. All I see is snow falling on the apartment. It gets really heavy and practically buries the apartment. I realize I am now trapped inside with her with no food to feed her.

Wake up. I am intrigued by the dream and try to re enter the dream. all that happens is HH imagery of her mean face. She is munching on a roll of stickers to stop her hunger which also appears to be driving her insane.

girl or creature?

Jamie 1

Only thing from this dream I remember is standing by a fridge. Jamie comes up and kisses me.

Jamie 2

I'm sitting on a couch and jamie is around. I'm nervous because I remember how upset in the dreams she seemed last week. I'm trying to get something out of a freezer. I am shuffling through things in the freezer. I find what I'm looking for and Jamie grabs my arm and says we should go. I am thinking this is the first time i've seen her in years and i am shocked she is being so nice.

Sounds like someone was trying to cheer me up :-)

Jamie

She showed up once. Found myself on a couch with her and she wasn't looking at me or talking to me. She eventually got and left without saying a word. Yeah, our dream friendship has gone pretty downhill over the last few months . I have pretty much given up hope I'll ever hear from her again. Sounds like whatever hope was left in her is pretty much gone also. I feel it.

Nightmare

Walked into my living room and saw my dogs head on the ground with his face twitching. I was shocked at that site and ran into my bedroom and my dog's severed head was there also. This time as well as twitching there was blood all over the floor. I went into the next room and asked my aunt what happened to my dog. She had a crazy laugh and said, "Well, He just looked so depressed I just decided to cut off his head! HAHAHA."

Car Crash.

Was walking around with riya from work outside ina field. We somehow ooka ride from someone. At a strange turnpike He lost control and the van slid into a super deep ditch. We hung on the edge for a second, and i said, "That's far down we're going to die." The driver said, "No we won't."

We fell in and no one was hurt. I got out of the van and riya followed me. I realized i left my gloves in the vand and went back for them. Back at the van a board in the van was pushing upward. I lifted the board up and a small dog got out. I found gloves that weren't mine and ruffled through things until I found the right kind. Riya was behind me talking. We left the scene and wound up back in the same field.

In the field I passed a blond woman with poofy hair. But she had really weird colours to her...

Jamie 1

Just a flash of her putting a parcel together. Is she going to send me something?

Jamie 2

Being on a street during the day with jamie and she is being distant saying she is looking for another boyfriend... Wait I thought she wanted to get married. I'm still waiting, pining and hoping. But she doesn't reach out to me at all.... If I wing up marrying someone else, it's because I had to settle for someone else under duress... anyway i see she is on a dating website. She then messages me through the site saying "LUV U!!!" I swear at times she is two separate people...

I'm still waiting for that message for real tho.

Jamie

just had a dream I was in a bedroom and jamie was really smiling at me. I heard music playing, it was my guitar playing again. Vivaldi stuff again. She must really like that stuff huh? I was thinking of doing more of that kind of stuff again...

Spock

Totally random but vivid dream. I was somewhere at night in an open but kind of wooded area. Snow piles were all around me nd I was walking my dog. I saw some wolves and was afraid at first but they left me alone. I tried to find a fmiliar trail out of the area, but ran into bigger piles of snow. I went back to a cabin that I was in earlier but don't really remember. Spock, the leonard nimoy version was there. He looked exactly like he did in TOS... I haven't even been watching that show. I told him he should start a youtube channel or something and it would be a hit. He actully agreed with me in a logical way lol. cool.

brief HH of holding keys in my hand. I just remember the keys are from work and i use them to open the compactor room door. However IRL the keys went missing.

I did have a jamie dream but i remember nothing about it.

Vague sense of a longer dream but it eludes me.

I'll have to figure out a better sleep cycle. Working nights 5 days a week really sucks. It's like jail.

Jamie

Dreamt I woke up in bed and Jamie was there already getting busy with something naughty. Won't give any details either than she likes to make comical faces.

Dark

Strange dream. I was in a room with a young girl maybe 8. This was a FA on a particular day where i was having trouble sleeping. So while I'm trying to babysit this girl i am trying to sleep in bed and the room is small. So i get her to go to sleep as well. But I tell her to go to the corner of the bed and not beside me, I don't want anyone to walk in and think I'm a pedo. She's restless though and is hard to convince to go to sleep. There's a part where we were also playing video games on a TV.

FA, i'm in the same bed but have sleep apnea, or paralysis. I look at the ceiling and see an evil face in the pattern of texture spatter. I immediately feel it's a demonic presence. I can feel it trying to take over my mind. I let it in for a while, but I only feel it's pure darkness and fear. It wants to spread fear because it FEARS eternity in hell, which is whee it will wind up eventually. I call out to Jesus a bit and...

FA, back in the room with the girl. I ask he if she fell asleep yet. She says no. I say, "Me neither." I get up and apperently her mother is there but she's talking about demonic things (maybe the same demon controlling multiple levels of dreams???). We get into an argument about eligion and I say I am saved by Jesus. She tries to retort and says we won't get along.

good to have a nice jamie dream though.

This week made up for the lack of jamie dreams for sure. Difficult subjects to deal with here...

Jamie 1

I was in some elevator with Jesus and Jamie. Sounds like the beginning of a bad joke actually... Kidding. He just tells us, "I want you two to come together NOW!"
the door opens and Jesus is gone I walk out holding someone's hand. It's no longer Jamie, but eleven from stranger things... We walk down the hall and I'm confused. We pass another Elevel from stranger things in the hall... Walt 11:11? Clever girl... I ask who the other girl is and the one holding my hand shrugs.

comments. Jesus said the same thing last year. and Last year I sent a message and invited contact. I don't know what else I can possibly do here. I can message her until I'm blue in the face and she will always find a reason never to message me back or get a hold of me some other way. I can't force her to contact me and I won't try. It's up to her I guess...

Jamie 2

Jamie shows up at my inner world house with that sterotypical bad boy from the dream from a few weeks ago. She's being generally mean to me. I forget most of it. I'm on a couch and she sits down for one second and hands me an ipad or something with porn on it. And she tells me to stop looking at porn, then storms off with that guy and leaves the house. I find myself outside by the curb a while later talking to some guy who asks me if she was supposed to be my girlfriend. I said, "I dunno looks like she's with that guy now."

No, comment on the porn issue other than if I were doing that, How would she know? Hacking my computer somehow? or some Twin flame/ alien love bite telepathic phenomenon? I'll try to fix any issue, but you can't expect a single bachelor to live like a saint all the time.

What?

Dream is like a movie. some woman goes to a recovery meeting like AA or NA or something. She meets a woman there the leave to have coffee, which is typical for being social after recovery meetings. But they wind up going to one of their homes and have a lesbian encounter. the whole dream I have a feeling this dream has to do with Jamie but can't be sure.

Jamie 3

Jamie approaches me in a school parking lot and tells me she is actually a MTF transgender. Which I know is not true. But she seems to think I might like that.

Interesting, Jamie is now lesbian but also a transgender

Can we go back to dream hugs now that we got it all sorted out? Or how about a real one!?!?!?

Long dream

Well it was long but i forgot most of it now. I was walking through some city but had to go inside a large building like a bank. Everything started shaking and i Thought ,"Earthquake". I'm looking for desks to hide under. A man in a suit and some other people there tell me it will be over soon. I hear a scream and look out the big glass window. The building is floating on water and a huge wave is coming toward us. I look to the man with a suit and he says we won't get hit by the wave. The building shakes and then turns onto some land and stops.

I find myself on a bus or something with a Muslim woman who is supposed to be Saad's wife. Some guy is telling her that her husband is a jackass. I cut in say, "Really me and him do get a long at times but yeah. he is a huge asshole for sure."

His wife says to me, "Maybe i agree with you. But hold on You smell like piss and shit." (she's just insulting me back). "You remind me of a muslim story i know. A mother got up one day and went to her daughters room and she said, 'wake up now my child, we are going to have pancakes for breakfast...'". I woke up from that.

Dance

I'm at some weird high school like dance, dancing with some girl from work...

Jamie

She was really absent this week. I did have a brief one sexual related. I finished too fast and just left, and she looked upset. I hope that's never a problem IRL...


Jesus

Just Him standing by a building looking inside but he's like 40 ft tall. He's looking in a window.

Jamie Dreams

First dream was an audio dream only. Just Jamie saying, "Robert." Her tone seemed serious.

Next dream was a bad dream i guess. I was working and jamie showed up with some stereotypical bad boy. They threw and ashtray all over the restaurant.

Some days later i had another dream where she flashed some text to me saying, "Love you." Not sure what to make of all this. Still missing those dream hugs.

Tunnels

I was in this dream where i discovered all these hidden tunnels around big cities. Inside many of the tunnels you could go fast, like going down a water slide. Someone was with me, not sure. I wanted to do youtube videos on the tunnels... At one point there was a bad guy behind some glass. I pulled out a really old western pistol and shot him in the head. I shot him again trying to aim for his eye and missed, but then on the third shot i got his eye. He sort of just stood there shocked and frozen. The person with me might have been jamie, not sure.

Jamie Dreams

I had two dreams where I was in an office or something and jamie was coming to see me...

another dream where she had lived with me for a week and then took off like she was missing. Me and some friends would run into her randomly around town.

Skyrim

A dream about being in skyrim with Captain Picard. He drank something which made copies of himself. There were like 30 of him and he said, "There's too many of me."

I hope for better Jamie dreams next week.

Also had a brief lucid somewhere but i totally forget it....

Remember last week when i was ranting about how unhappy i was that i had a 13 reasons why dream? Well, season 4 just dropped on netflix and I had no idea. Precog? I of course binged watched it inone night on my days off. I made sure to have a coffee from mcdonald's in my hand. and i toasted andtook a sip everytime Jessica was on screen. haha.


Jamie dreams.

I had a dream of maybe kissing her? I don't know it was really fleeting.

Another dream we were in my house but we came from a crawl space in the ceiling and fell into a ball pit. Like we were kids having fun.

Last dream was I was standing by my old street where i live when i knew Jamie. But where the library should be was a highschool where jamie was attendting... I was waiting for her at the end of the street. That's all of that one.

Hypnagogic Images

A flash of Captain Picard in a black space giving me the middle finger? I wonder why. Also it's very odd that i considered him a mv role model while growing up and i recently noticed his character has the exact same initials of Jamie... if anyone wants to know a little bit of where i get my sense of right and wrong from. It was from watching him growing up on TNG.lol.

Flash of asuka feeding me some strange dream japanese food. I was wondering if she's still around...

Jamie dreams

Big contrast in Jamie dreams. In the first one all I remember is crying about Jamie, like she had just done something horrible to me in the dream. The next part I am talking to Data about it. He is being very stern with me, not sure about what, but he implies that I am doing something which is greatly pissing her off.. I have no idea what i could be doing that would piss her off. Maybe I do, but that implies (assuming she has some sort of uncontrollable psychic link to me.) she can sense vividly what I do in my day to day life even though we have not spoken in some years <--- I am having a very difficult time believing that at all. Since she doesn't talk to me personally, We have no real friendship or relationship, therefore She has no say in what i do or not do in my spare time. and I did message her a year ago asking about these dreams and if there was a connection. She has not written back so i have no confirmation of anything and believe well... nothing. I do however sense a change in certain desires in me, almost like a feeling like she has been praying for me?!?!?!? If so, please continue.

Next dream I run into her on a street and she is with a group of friends. This dream is 2 days later and she is all happy to see me like nothing bad had previously happened. This could be just me remembering how she really was sometimes...

Last is an audio only dream. she is talking into my ear and asking if we are to get married. Her tone is very loving. again. i still have no idea if these dreams are me going insane or if it is in fact her. Again my answer is: If I have to. And my answer also is: Not going to happen if she never actually talks to me.

Also had some annoying reminders of jamie. Mainly her birthday, these are not dreams. Years ago bad room mates stole basically everything I own ( including my entire set of anime DVD's "Maison Ikkoku." A series i watched years ago and said to myself If a woman can sit through this entire series with me and watch it I would marry her. So.. it's a rare series so i looked on ebay... and found that japan has released and all region blue ray, for a hefty amount. the delivery date was of course her birthday. I was almost tempted to buy it. But my budget has been horrible lately. Second reminder is: Season 13 of fortnite has been delayed yet again... Until her birthday: Damn you fortnite!!! I still play once a week, can barely stand it.

Crazy

I was in a highschool cafeteria, and I pulled out my mcdonald's coffee cards, ( i have currently around 30 free coffees.). And Jessica, from 13 reasons why was there and started flipping out at me. She thought me pulling out the cards was somehow racist. I was really confused. And really I've been watching star trek reruns and even dug into the TOS (60s hippies in space) for the first time. and this is what I dream about? come on!!!

also varioud flying dreams that don't make me lucid.

Not much to report this week.

Recall has barely improved.

Do remember 2 Jamie dreams. They were so fleeting it's hard to tell if they were good or bad. Regardless, it's nice to have any Jamie dreams. I'm still surprised to this day that she shows up almost weekly in my dreams for over 2 years now. I've never in my life had a consistent dream sign like this before.

Jamie dreams

First one is I get a long email or message from jamie.

Second dream is we are together overlooking a city on a porch. She is dressed fancy. I am holding her from behind. the feelings seem good.

Mall

Dream of going to a mall or something with my family. We go to a strange food court. One of the restaurants is vegetarian but you get fed based on your astrological sign. Doesn't interest me so i wind up in a chocolate shop or something. I'm craving hamburgers and stuff like that so I leave. I find no other restaurant. I walk with my family down an escalator and I wake up then.
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dead pet[/B

I had a very strange dog like pet... but it was small. It was trying to sleep on my bed. but I didn't want it there. So it tried to sleep on my electric piano. The one end of the piano fell off the stand. and the pet fell down and hit something on it's snout. it was bleeding. I didn't know what to do.