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It's late in the evening, I'm super tired because I studied for an exam all day long.
I can't think clearly anymore and take a break listening to "Two steps from hell".
I lean my chair all the way back and close my eyes for a few minutes.
I'm just really tired, I don't even think much.
At some point I notice HI. I didn't even try to WILD, but I certainly didn't move either.
I decide to just keep going, like I'm too tired to open my eyes and do something else.
I don't try to visualize anything, I don't try to go somewhere specific...

I feel odd, like I'm not alone in the room. I assume this is related to SP.
But then I hear someone moving VERY close to me and it scares me quite a bit, even though I know I don't need to worry.
Still, I'm uncomfortable and I open my eyes.
Everything is wrong. My pc monitor is filled with void and the corners glow in a purple color.
Even though everything on my desk seems to be where I left it, I cannot see the walls of my room.
My desk is properly lit, but the further things are away from it, the darker they are.
And then I see her, right to my left, a girl from e previous dream: Encounter with a Succubus
She's wearing some sort of corset and long gloves, it's a rather seductive outfit.

I do not feel any immediate danger so I decide to wait and see what happens.
She pushes my chair back a bit and sits on my lap facing me.
Her face is very close.
She starts inhaling my energy. It moves slowly from my mouth into hers.
I notice that the amount energy she's absorbing is ridiculously small though.
It isn't dangerous whatsoever, she isn't hurting me.
However, I do want answers.

I put my arms around her, so she can't get away, and interrupt the energy transfer.

"We meet again, young succubus."

She's scared, but she doesn't try to escape.
Her disguise vanishes. I can see small wings on her back now, and some sort of horns on her head. (Not the pointy devil's kind, more like animal horns)
She's young, I'm guessing about 16-18, assuming she ages the same way we do.

"I don't understand... why do you know?"
"Because I'm a dreamer, obviously."
"... but... even dreamers don't know..."
"That you are a succubus?"
"That I am a succubi, that I charm them... everything..."

So I was right, she is a succubus... but what exactly is a succubus?
I don't think she's actually trying to hurt me, so I keep my voice calm and try to keep the conversation going.

"Why do you steal my energy, young one?"
"What do you mean? ... I need it ..."
"What for?"
"To live? ... I don't understand... why would you not know..."

She's about to cry, I believe she thinks that I'm about to kill her.
I look deep into her eyes, feeling her thoughts to see if she's telling the truth.

"Calm down. Explain to me what exactly it is you're doing.
You steal energy because you need it to survive, but you seem to take very little?"
"Of course!!! If I took more I could hurt people."
"Wait... what? I thought you were a demon?"
"That doesn't mean that I'm a bad person!
Not all demons are evil!"
"Oh..."

She's being absolutely honest, I can feel it.
I can sense that she's never hurt anyone.
She cannot regenerate her own energy the way I do, so she needs to take small amounts from other people.
The amount of energy she absorbs could never hurt anyone.
I let her go.
She is very surprised.

"You're telling the truth, so I shall let you go.
Next time instead of sneaking up on me, just ask alright?"
"Yes... sorry... thank you..."

Plans: For this night I had plans to meet up with MoSh and make sure Asuka is ok. I am also hoping that Avalon will start working again now that I have retrieved my key to Avalon, I have noticed it hasn't been doing much of sending me where I need to be lately. If I haven't come up with some kind of plan ahead of time, I haven't had much in the way of dreams. Even when I did plan something out it often hasn't worked. I fell asleep normally this night, not using my light/sound device to induce a WILD, since I'm not sure how well that tends to work with Avalon.

Fall Out Boy: Dance
I am in a forest, it is a very pleasant place to be, and I am walking down a trail and enjoying the nice weather. Enjoying the birds singing, the breeze blowing, the loud cursing from a bunch of men not far off… what? That doesn't sound normal, so I follow the sound of the men and look into a hidden flat area, or it is flat now. It looks like the group of men trampled everything in the area down to make space for them to gather and curse. Most of them are complaining that they don't want to wait around, they want to kill someone, to attack now and take what they want, no one in that pathetic village can do anything to stop them. All of the men are dressed in leather armor and are carrying weapons such as swords, spears, and a few of them have bows and arrows. They are doing a lot of cursing and arguing, and finally a woman's voice calls out over the rest for everyone to shut up. I look towards the woman who spoke, and I recognize her right away… it's Callisto! The first thought to enter my mind is that I haven't seen Callisto for a very long time, my next thought is that I have never seen Callisto IWL at all, and my third thought is that I might possibly be dreaming. (I wish my thoughts would go this way in dreams more often!) So I do a RC and discover I am dreaming, so now I know exactly what I have to do.

I start by doing a quick scan of all of the people out there, but it looks like the only one with a spark is Callisto, it seems she has surrounded herself with some of the most violent and least intelligent people she could find. I am about to attack the group when I remember something I had been thinking about the night before, a song spell I have never used before, it was an idea that came to mind when I was reading something about a technique used by Walms and then Hukif that he refers to just as 'dance.' I look around and see no one has noticed where I am, so it seems like a good time to try something new out, back out in the clearing the men are now arguing with Callisto. One of them draws his sword and says he's had enough of listening to this crazy woman, then he makes a move against Callisto… only to get cut open by Callisto's sword as she draws it and cuts him in one smooth arc. He collapses to the ground, bleeding copiously from his wound as well as coughing up blood. Callisto asks if anyone else wants some of that, but none of them do. The man on the ground who had been struggling to breathe goes silent and still now, no doubt he is dead.

Ok… now to test out the song spell I had been playing with, which is actually the song "Dance, Dance" by Fall Out Boy, with the focus on the main chorus, "Dance, dance, we're falling apart to half time. Dance, dance, and these are the lives you love to lead. Dance, this is the way they'd love if they knew how misery loved me." The part that says, " Dance, dance, we're falling apart to half time," seems particularly appropriate. So now I summon up a dagger in my left hand, focus on the song, and actually teleport just the hand over behind one of the rudest and sickest sounding men in the group and bury the dagger up to the hilt in his neck… he was talking at the time, and ended up with, "After I'm done having my way with those bitches, I'm gonna… *glurg*" One of the men close to him chuckles and asks the target of my attack if he is really planning on raping the women and then puking on them. He suddenly stops laughing as the man I stabbed falls over, dead, with a gaping wound in the back of his neck. Then there's the strangeness that happened on my end of things… when I teleported my hand away, my internal penticon computer responded in the same way as it would if I lost a limb in battle… it dispensed a healing sensu bean directly into my bloodstream. The sensu bean resulted in the almost instantaneous re-growth of my missing hand. Then, as per the way I have seen the technique work, the other hand teleported back… and attached itself on my arm just above the new hand… um… ok… that's not normal. So now I am officially a freak of nature.

Back out in the clearing, the men are freaking out a bit, trying to figure out how their companion got that wound and died when there was no one there, I decide to try again. I form shift to get my body back to a normal form, and I look out at the group of men, who Callisto is trying to get to pay attention to her, she is insisting one of the others must have killed him, but she doesn't care as long as that person is equally merciless with the people in the village. So I focus on the song again, this time specifying that I don't need a sensu bean… and I repeat the process with a man on the other side of the clearing. This time I guess my hand doesn't go unseen as last time. As the target I stabbed falls over and dies, a man very close by is now yelling about ghosts and haunting, saying he just saw a disembodied hand kill Talbus. Another man says that's bullshit and he kills the man who saw my hand, saying that is the price to be paid for such treachery. Callisto is clearly getting very impatient with her people first attacking her, then keeling over dead from unknown reasons, and now killing each other. Their reaction is rather amusing, though I am more interested in what has happened with me. As soon as the hand was teleported away, the sensu bean is not released, but Witchblade grows down over the wound and forms into a replacement hand, a hand made entirely of Witchblade material. The other hand returns, is unable to attach to the Witchblade material, so it falls to the ground, completely useless.

There is a man there with me, and he seems to find the situation a bit amusing, I try not to pay any attention to him being there. Though I do think the fact I now have a hand made entirely of Witchblade to be very interesting. Witchblade retracts and it turns out it created a new hand while it was there. The man with me seems to find that interesting as well. He asks me what I'm trying to do, I tell him I am trying to replicate a technique I have seen a friend do in dreams. He asks if I could use some help with that, I say no, I have to be able to do it, damn, I've already asked too many dumb questions about it, which means even now it won't count as figuring it out on my own, which means everyone is going to keep looking down on me as an incompetent fool, damn! I use the song again, but this time my entire body explodes and teleports away to different locations, leaving me as a disembodied consciousness, a non-corporeal entity, and all my different body parts appear around enemies and do various things to kill those people… arms and hands grab daggers and stab, a leg tripped one of them while the other stomped his face into a bloody pulp… A disembodied head tore open the throat of one of the men like a wild beast would… then there was a limbless torso hovering in the air and freaking everyone out. Callisto goes to cut the floating torso down, it also explodes, then a whole bunch of parts come back to my location at light speed, going through anything in their path… more dead people… then I am reformed right where I was before, spitting the one man's blood out of my mouth… YUCK!

The man there is staring at me really strangely, now that must have looked totally insane… I look out into the clearing, or at least I try to, I am feeling quite disoriented, and the people still alive in the clearing are all going nuts and running off into the forest yelling about vengeful spirits and having angered the gods somehow. Most of them are dead and lying all over the ground in bloody messes, Callisto has completely lost any semblance of control over her people, and soon she is standing there alone in the blood soaked clearing. Well, as weird things have been up to this point, it is time to heal Callisto's heart. I am about to do that when a really big and nasty looking guy strides into the clearing, looks around at the blood and bodies, then says it looks like they got the fun started without him.

She glares over him and says he is late, he says that is obvious, she says everyone else is gone, either dead by some strange intervention of the gods, or run off in fear. She is clearly frustrated, well so am I, I want to just do the healing and get out of there now. Something pops into my mind and I do it without even thinking, it is really disgusting, I teleport directly to the big guy, materializing inside him and then tearing out from the inside, which is sooooo disgusting… If it was a FPS, I would have just scored a telefrag! (One character teleports into another or spawns into another.) Callisto stares in stunned silence… I feel disgusting… But I still focus on the song "Until It Sleeps" to heal Callisto, the energy flows and seems to have the desired effect. I head back to the cover of the forest, I want to find some water and clean the crap off of me… instead the guy I saw earlier is still there, staring at me strangely, and then I wake up.

Non-Lucid Lucid Further Notes

I am on a large sailboat with about ten other people. We have been drifting through an endless sea for several weeks trying to find land. We are the last known survivors of the human race after an apocalyptic flood that has left very little dry land. Among the people on the sailboat are two or three guys in their thirties, a 50-year-old man with a gray beard and beer belly, his ten-year-old son, a beautiful black woman in her late twenties and her baby, , a beautiful blonde-haired woman in her mid twenties and lastly but far from least Natalie Portman. It is a babe fest on this boat . I am very happily married to the blonde-haired woman. We are newly-weds and couldn't get along with each other better. The black woman and Natalie Portman are also paired up with other men on the sailboat. Although all may appear to be full of love, the 50-year-old man and his son are hiding something. The 50-year-old man is planning on getting us all killed because first of all, he is jealous that he doesn't have a woman to be with, and secondly, he basically hates humanity and wants it to end. He has brainwashed his son into believing the same thing that he does. From now on I will call these people the humanity haters. They act like they appreciate our company but beneath the surface they have a plot to get us all killed. I am the only one who knows their hidden motives and am waiting for the opportune moment to tell everyone else without the humanity haters noticing.

For what feels like days, I pass my time by swimming, enjoying the company of others, having great meals, and making love to my wife in the sleeping quarters every night. Looking back on this dream, if this is what the post-apocalypse is like, bring on the apocalypse! The entire crew and I always have our meals gathered around a foldable table on the deck of the sailboat. Despite it being the post-apocalypse, the weather is always nice and the sun always shines down on us whenever we are out on the deck. We have elaborate meals for breakfast, lunch and dinner because we apparently have an endless stash of food that is stowed away below the deck. One dinner we have scallops, steaks, meatloaf, potatoes and other tasty dishes. I reach for the scallops, but the man who is hooked up with the black woman tells me that the scallops are specifically for humanity hater junior. All the woman of the boat are topless during this meal for some reason, and although I am turned on I still keep my cool ha ha. The man who is dating the black woman asks my wife and I how our marriage is going, and we start talking about it excitedly. As we have this conversation, the humanity haters leave the table to have a private conversation on the other side of the boat. While they are gone, I tell everyone that they are planning to kill us all. Everyone is very shocked to hear this news. When the humanity haters return to the table, everyone is silent and giving them suspicious looks. The next day, we are all talking out on the deck and humanity hater senior suddenly asks if he could have all of our attentions. He says that there is a place that he knows of called "God's Thumb". He tells us that we should sail to this place because "it is the most amazing place of the ocean" and that "if we are looking for adventure, we have to go there". Everyone likes this idea except for me. I know that this "God's Thumb" is a dangerous place, but for some reason I keep silent (I have no idea why).

Suddenly I receive an incredibly disturbing vision. In this vision, humanity hater senior and all the women of the sailboat are in a small, dark room. The black woman, my wife and Natalie Portman are all hanging naked from the ceiling by chains that are connected to their wrists. Their legs are cut off and there is blood all over the walls. The humanity hater is laughing at their agony. The vision fades and my wife is standing right next to me on the deck. She asks me if everything is alright because I look pale and I tell her that nothing is wrong. This is a lie because obviously I am very disturbed since this vision may be a glimpse of what could happen in the future.

Next thing I know we are sailing through the part of the ocean known as "God's Thumb". We are all looking over the railing into the waters below. The water is so crystal clear that we can somehow see the ocean floor. One of the guys points out to me that he can see a land mass covered with trees and small buildings about a mile beneath the surface. I realize that this land mass used to be a coastline of an ocean before the flood. While we are looking at these land masses, we see a black and white speck that looks like it is moving at an incredible speed. It appears to be moving closer and closer to our sailboat, and the shape is growing bigger as seconds pass. After about ten seconds, we realize that it is a giant whale and it intends to ram our sailboat. We panic and try to get our life jackets on, but before we can do so, the whale hits the bottom of the sailboat. The shock wave of the impact sends us flying into the air and landing in the water. Now I finally think to myself, "Why didn't I tell everyone how dangerous this place was?". We are all watching our sailboat from the water, hoping that it won't fall apart so we can get back in it. All of a sudden, Derek, Eric and a few of my other friends appear on the deck of the ship. It looks like they are playing Texas Hold Em' around a poker table. This action somehow causes the ship to tip over and break apart. Humanity ends because of a poker game. I wake up.

Level of Lucidity: 3/10
Sounds and Scenery: 7/10
Feelings and Emotions: 4/10
Recall: 8/10

This is a fragment of a dream I had a while back where I became semi lucid.

I'm in the principal's office. She looks very mad at me. I know I've done done something wrong (I can't remember what it was I did). She spoke to me as if I did something serious. I'm scared at how this will affect me in the future, I feel like the wrong I have done cannot at all be fixed. As the principal lectures me I notice something. The room I'm in, it's not a part of my school, and principal I'm talking to, she isn't my principal.

"Am I dreaming?" I think to myself.

I decide that I am.

"Are you listening to me?" She asks.

"It doesn't matter what I've done or how much trouble I'm in, this is a dream isn't it?" I say this with a smile on my face.

The principal with out saying a single word gives me a dirty look and walks out the office door, probably pissed at my outright ignorance to her very existence.

I'm pretty sure after this fragment I just lived out the dream as normal, forgetting that I even knew I was dreaming, but then again I wasn't glad I was dreaming because I knew I could do cool stuff, I was just glad that I wasn't really in trouble with the principal at all. That sigh of relief was enough for me to just not care. Oh well, hopefully next time I actually take control of the dream.

So, this dream consists of myself, my best friend and 5 boys that we know, but don't - as in we know who they are, but thats about it- for now I will keep privacy of these people by simple refuring to them by their first initial. my best friend is C and the boys are T,J,O,K, and M


Originally we were all playing by/in a river, or creek, a long narrow bed of water that wasn’t deep at all (ankle depth maybe a bit deeper) and we were all just playing around in the water, but at some point everything changed, almost in a split second. The bed of water was suddenly deeper, as in way over our heads, the width was much larger, but still could see the land on either side, and the river had become rapid and quick as if before a waterfall, there were some sort of floating devices, (I don’t remember them well at all) O was alright with one, And both C and I had one, and we were trying to help the other four. C had succeeded if getting M and J onto one, and I had managed to get K, however T was still missing, and for a few moments, no one could even see him, and during these moments, I was terrified of what may have happened to him. Now I don’t remember how, but eventually,T did show up again and was rescued, on my floating device thinger. Then I woke up before seeing what was at the end of the waterfall.

strange little dream. Next is a sequel type thing that involved the same people and another girl I know who I will refer to by A for reasons that will become obvious.

Now, the eight of us were all wandering in this building. it was like a gigantic child's playroom almost, but dark, and felt abandoned. and I have problems with A, so I keep trying to keep her away from the others. with just me, I don't mind, because she annoys me and can cause some mental damage to my self image or what not, and she puts me down all the time. But I don't want her around the boys or C, because I'm terrified of what she'll do to them.

that one is pretty self explanatory, but if you can see something extra in there I missed, take a jab ^^

as another fact, most of teh time, like in these, my dreams tend to be either physicly dark or just feel that way

Dream Non-Dream Lucid:
Part 1:
Im sleeping..... And for some reason I wake up, and I breathe hard. Then, I actually DO wake up the same way... Which was weird.

Part 1:
I spawned in a cabin of some sort. Again, I was asleep, then woke up. There was blood, blood everywhere, one a DC dressed as a camper said, "GET UP THERE'S A FUCKING MURDERER!" So I got up and ran into the forest, I felt the dirt on my bare feet. I saw this mine looking entrance that led underground. The dream character and I sped into it. We found asians in there, and I also found my friend also known as "Aprilade!" The Asians were all scared... For some reason I wasn't scared, at all, in fact it was kinda funny in the dream! Aprilade and I remained calm, even when the killer came in and went,"RAAWWGLGLGAAAGRRAAARRUUUGGGHH!!!" And slaughtered us all! :3

Part 3:
I am now at my house! Outside. In the front yard. My older sister gets out of her car, and laughs,"BLWAAHAHAHAH!"
My dad replies,"GET INSIDE THE HOUSE!"
We go in the back yard through the gate, and the backyard is in this.biodome square, its huge, its just grass, and in the east and west sides, there are pine trees, thats it.. big blocks begin to fall, then i AWAKEN

Yeah, so I changed my mind. Instead of posting some of my old journal entries, I decided to just leave them be (there were way too many that I wanted to bring over, lol). So, from now on these will only be new entries. Hope you all enjoy.

Late 2010
Lucid Dream 172: Aqua Riders
Series: Friends, Episode 1
in the A.M.
DILD

Category - Action/Light Mischief

Though I haven't been recording my dreams since I have been away, I do remember a few of them quite vividly. This is one them.

I am in a large school building with a couple of my friends (JT & Zach G). I could tell the building was old, but had been renovated several times. We are running to class when the late bell rings and we all stop and let out a few expletives. JT looks at us and says, "Dude, f*** this, I'm not getting b****ed at for being late again. Let's just skip today." We agreed and took off stealthily down the hall. After dodging a few authority figures we exited the front doors. We immediately stepped out onto a dock. The school was located in a small cove right on the shore of the lake. The dock we were standing on was quite extensive for the small cove area.

There were many rows of boats anchored around the dock. We decided to hijack one and take a ride out to the main part of the lake. I spotted a boat that looked perfect, but once we got closer, the motor was gone. Most of the boats looked like floating ottoman's with motors. Finally after the third motor from an actually boat disappeared, I suspected I was dreaming. I looked at the school and saw a large crest depicting a man slicing off another's head. The words, "For the Greater Good" were enscrawled a at the bottom. Huge letters that read "Warrior Academyy" were written above the crest. I laughed at the thought (and the two "Y"s). I knew I was dreaming.

As soon as I realized I was dreaming, I heard a crash, and the front door to the school had slammed open. The glass in the windows shattered and rained down onto the dock. The sound was magnified and sounded awesome. I began hastily searching/trying to summon a boat, as Mr. Greer (my old high school history teacher) came running across the dock after us. I remember thinking, "Damn, everyone is so fast in my dreams." He was closing in on us as I looked at the surrounding area. At the end of the dock was a large, half submerged, wooden shed. We hauled ass and leapt from the end of the dock and grabbed the ladder that attached to the shed. I climbed into the upper most level of the two story shed and saw two dirt bikes. As I got closer, I saw that they had ski/wheel hybrids instead of normal tire wheels. I told them to take the bikes and I'll find another one. The bikes had pull-string motors on them. After JT and Zach had taken off, I pictured one in my mind and began searching. I pulled a large piece of board off a pile of junk and saw one of the bikes. I picked it up and notice it was a bi-pedal one and didn't have a motor. I cursed as I heard noises from behind me. Mr Greer had made his way up the ladder...his nice clothes were soaking wet (I take it he didn't make the jump to the ladder, lol). I hopped on the bike and pedaled off the top floor and splashed into the lake. I was traveling at about the speed of a big wheel when I heard engines start up behind me.

I glanced back and saw 5 or 6 guys on some crazy looking souped up bikes that had the words, "Aqua Riders" in shiny gold letters going down the sides. They all shot off the top floor at the same time and flames shot from their tailpipes. I thought, "Where the f*** did they get those!" I began pedaling as fast as I could, but was now going "nursing home wheel-chair" speed. I put my hands up as I was soon surrounded by the riders. They all had on black leather jackets and were each armed with mp5's. Mr. Greer was on the coolest bike of all. It had chrome spikes jetting out of the sides and the handle bars were twisting horns. I started to imagine a way out. I focused my attention on the water behind the men. Suddenly, the area I was looking at erupted and a huge sea dragon surfaced. Some of the riders were knocked from their bikes and the others were terrified. I leapt from my piece of shit bi-pedal and drop kicked Mr. Greer into the water stealing his bike in the process.

His bike was fast a shit. I caught up to JT and Zach. The lake had now become a large "Wave Race" style course. The waves were huge as we raced around the track. The rack was marked, complete with short cuts and everything, lol. Several times I caught massive air on the waves. A couple times I flew so high that I wiped out upon landing. The handling on the bike was superb and very fluid. After racing for a while, I awoke from the dream.

Series Details
In the dream series, "Friends," I join the DC counterparts of my waking life friends and tackle the dream world. You never know what we will be up to next, but I guarantee it will be one hell of a time. Stay tuned for more entries to the series!

I felt people walking. I lived under the ground. It was in the middle of the woods, long long time ago. Everything i did was for my own amusement. The people were getting closer. There was a girl, i could sense, that was walking in front of them. She finally stepped over the ground which i lived in. I let the sand go loose, she fell in. The ground swallowed her up. This was funny to me, she was right next to me, unconscious. I could let her free any time i wanted, fully alive and okay, but i didn't want to. I wanted to see what would happen. A man stood above my ground, he was pissed. He looked like a knight. He was shouting to me and cursing, but i just laughed. He begged me to let her loose.

"Why should I?" i asked him, glad to have communication with another being.

"I love her." he replied.
"how does that affect me?!" i demanded.
"If i guess your true name, will you let her go?"
I thought about this. Considering it had been hundreds of years since i've forgotten my own name, i thought this was pretty safe.
"Okay." i answered.
He then said a name. I don't remember now what it was. It brought back feelings and memories, i felt it could possibly have been my real name. I, however, was not about to let my little fish go. Not when it drew this knight to me.
"That's not my name!" I laughed and drew the girl farther into the ground.
The knight was so pissed. He argued with me for awhile and walked off. I was indignant. Did he care NOTHING for this girl?! I decided to follow him and harass him.
I followed him to his home town. I followed him to his little house. I followed him into his kitchen. He ignored me. I felt that Autumn made him think of her, so i changed the season (yeah i was super powerful, but i hardly used my power) to Autumn. I saw the leaves change. I saw the sky change. Everything was beautiful. The knight was angry with me, and continued to ignore me.
I woke up.

This took place a few days ago, but I forgot to record it. I had an interesting WILD experience that took me in and out of the dream world as I struggled to stay lucid, it went like this:

I wake up and look around my room with a great sense of heavy sleepiness. I decide I'll try to WILD, so I close my eyes and in seconds I feel a huge rush and hear a loud wave of white noise consume me.

I see nothing but darkness but know I've entered the dreamworld, so I breathe gently and relax and wait for the dream to form. I hear my dad in the distance, he's calling on my brother and his wife to come over to the living room because dinner was ready.

I begin to feel the dream... space... but I try to open my dream eyes, because it feels like I have them closed.I open my actual eyes very slowly and see my room and quickly shut them. I try again but again I keep opening my real eyes, so I decide to keep them closed again.

His wife says "aren't you coming?" and he says "no not yet, I'm waiting". He didn't specify he was waiting for me but I knew that's what he meant. She leaves the room, not that I can see anything, I just hear them and feel their presence.

I decide to try one more time to open my eyes and suddenly visuals come in and my brother sees me, "Hey there you are!" he says. I'm stunned at how this is unfolding, because although I was lucid, it was odd to see how he reacted to my entering into the world.

"Hey! I'm lucid dreaming, how cool is this?!" I say, and he just nods his head agreeing with me, but doesn't seem entirely convinced. I describe further "I mean, you aren't real! This is just a dream, but man it feels real" I remember to try to enhance my lucidity by touching the carpet and feeling the walls, to enhance my senses.

When I look up at my brother he looks disappointed, and I know why. "Wait, I didn't mean it like that! You're still real... I mean you have a real version of you in waking life, but you're like a duplicate! We can still fly around and stuff!" I was saddened a bit too that I hurt my brother's feelings even though I knew he was a DC, it made me upset because he was the one who told me about LDing in the first place.

The more I try to explain to him he just seems to lose interest and become more and more depressed of his only virtual existence. And before I know it my words begin to slur and mix up, while he barely seems to be listening, and the dream fades and I wake up.

It was very interesting going in and out of the dream and waking reality, it's a fascinating feeling. I'm glad for once I tried a new technique to stabilize the dream, but was quickly outwitted by my subconscious to spend too much time convincing DC's that I was in a dream. Oh well, good experience all around.

Dream - Lucid

I had some really weird dreams last night, but I can only recall bits and pieces. I know the first one was much longer than what I remember.

I was at Hogwarts with some friends, 3 of which I remember vividly being Courtney, Stephen, and a girl I was acquainted with in high school, Ashley. We were outside, overlooking a lake. We were all herded, by what I can only assume to be Death Eaters, into these carts with hard, dark red plastic seats. We were crammed in there, waiting to die. They were picking us out one by one to kill us. I was crammed between Courtney and Stephen. We were supposed to be quiet, but none of us were. There were actually a lot of people in cheery moods, which didn't make sense, because we were all there to die. I looked at the few rows in front of me, and saw Ashley laughing with her friends.

I knew what had to be done to kill the Death Eaters, and that was to create a tornado with some sort of spell, and it would wipe them all out. I knew Hermione was supposed to do it. Throughout the dream, I was concerned that this wouldn't be done in time to save us.

Then, I was in the middle of the lake, hanging onto this huge rock formation. All the rest of the people that were previously crammed into carts were in the water, brutally killing these huge fish. I was being forced to be in the water with all of the fish remains. I tried to stay atop the rock formation, but I fell backwards into the water, and saw all these huge fish eyeballs and fish heads.

Then, I think my brother casted the tornado spell, possibly with Hermione's help but I can't be sure, and everyone was fine. I remember a female death eater in the middle of casting the death spell on someone. "Avada Keda-" is as far as she got before the tornado hit her.

Not sure if this was part of the same dream or not, but...

I was in my middle school gym in my old volleyball uniform. I was standing by the door, waiting for the star player of the team to get out of the car. I was relieved that the Hogwarts incident was over. The star player pulled up in a white car, got out, and entered the gym. The coach, my old high school volleyball coach, Mrs. S, was dressed in one of our uniforms. She was talking to the star player and I. I got tired of listening, and since I wasn't going to play anyway (I'm not sure what the situation was, I think it was the last game or something), I just walked away. The coach broke off and just watched me walk away. I found my mom.

So this was disturbing. It was a nightmare not in a fearful sense, but the contents of the dream caused me great discomfort, even upon waking.

I had a dream that for reasons unknown to me, I was supposed to move a dog and 2 cats from a cage they were in, to a blanket outside on the grass. It was horrific because they were sliced in half, yet still ALIVE AND BREATHING, their two halves only hanging on by their spine, which was not cut. So as I'm holding the cats i feel their two halves in various weights shifting up and down in my grasp but they're light so I kept them pretty steady. At one point when I returned for the dog, one of the cats got up and was trying to walk and his guts were slowly drooping out. The dog, being heavier was insanely disturbing and depressing to move because I couldn't seem to find a balance in his two halves, they just kept shifting up and down between my arms and his wiggling was not helping.

I wanted nothing more than to kill them to put them out of their misery, but I just couldn't sum up the ability to do it. I woke up feeling nauseous and with a greater sense and urge for living with a vegetarian or vegan diet. The dogs whimpers still haunt me.

Date: 1/2/11
Lucid
Non-Lucid
No lucids... But still ecstatic about my second one!!!
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I was ina large undercover but outdoor area with my entire grade. We were all eating lunch in our little groups when one group suddenly ho9pped up and ran out. They left behind all their stuff. One of our teachers, Miss H, picked one of the lunch boxes up and started auctioning it off... for free. She gave away all of their items and then proceeded to bring out a bunch of clothes. The first shirt that I got I showed it to a girl called Daniella beside me, "Oh! That's Chloe's!" she said.

"I thought so, that's why I got it," I lied.

I gave it to her and went up to get another item. Then I got a third. They were pooh bear pajamas. Apparently the teacher didn't like it when people got three items so she made me stand on the table and hand cuffed me to it.
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I was with my mum in a little kids clothing shop. I looked at all the frill dresses they had and a pink one I saw was $200! I was so surprised but I looked at the one next to it.
"That one looks so nice," I said. Then I looked at the price tag - it was only $30.
"I could get that for you," my Mum said.
I hadn't been expecting that but I still wanted the dress. I laughed and told her I was completely sure that that was the one I wanted yet and continued looking around the stoor.
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I was at Shelley's house, I was going to go swimming. I knocked on the door and she opened it (this wasn't her real house). She showed me a room with a closed door, "You wanna look at the giant moths inside?" she asked eagerly. I declined and we found the living room. She then went off into another room to change into her togs. I changed out there in the living room and I didn't notice until I was done that her Grandmother was there sleeping on the couch. Her grandmother had a funny expression on her face, but she was still asleep.

Suddenly my sister Laura came around the corner and asked me something. I replied and then she left. I stood up to go look around the house while Shelley finished getting changed. I found a room and I didn't know what it was, but I opened the door and saw Shelley's mum in a red shirt, making her bed. I quickly shut the door and ran away. I came to the door which Shelley said the giant moths were behind. I opened it, expecting them to be all over the wall, but the room was more like an art studio. On a countertop were figurines of all different kinds of moths that Shelley had made.

Last night's dream was so weird. I remember I went to a meeting where I was being honored for something. Girls were screaming my name saying nice things to me about how they have always liked me and how I have always been the cutest boy and such. Later, girls began to hold up cards or something still giving me compliments.. don't remember too much of this dream and don't understand what is was about.
Anyways, non lucid

In this dream, I live in a small uphill village. It reminds me of some strange merge of a Swiss and Czech village. Swiss for the surrounding nature and Czech for the structure of the village and the type of architecture. There is a curvy road running up the village and old houses scattered around.
I know that there is some sort of voting taking place. I am not sure what for. I remember getting an information (I think on TV) said by a man, that "there are two parties competing for our votes - Christmas and Easter". I am laughing at this in my mind! :-D thinking 'what a nonsense' (strangely don't realise it is a dream!).
I am walking up the street, when I notice a girl and a guy. He is wearing green shirt and a green some other green top over that. I see them running across the street, running into a house and then out on the other side. I am standing dumbstruck there, trying to make some sense of it (yet no dreaming realization). I carry on walking up the hill. I get to a village train station. There are several lines. One train passes by fairly quickly.

Then I am still in the village. There is Dustin, the dog we used to have. Small, sand-like colour, really cute dog. I remember that he always runs away as soon as he is off the dog-lead. We are taking him for castration. I think it has something to do with it. We are coming from the vet-hospital. I am looking at the wound. It looks just like a small white spot.

January 31, 2011
NON-LD
Dream I; I am a secret agent and we are on a mission to save animals from the forest. There are Mankeys (Pokémon), trying to steal away some animals, so I go out and be brave. I hide the animals behind a tree stump and stand in front of it, looking at the Mankeys. “Hey there. What are you looking for?” I ask them, trying to get on their good side. “An animal about this big and this wide, it’s blue and small.” They reply. I shake my head and make a small, “Tsk tsk” noise. “I think they just got taken away to a zoo.” “Oh, okay. Thanks for your help.” They reply and walk back to their van.
Dream II; I smile and walk back to where I came from, looking at a street. The agent bus was there, so I got on it and looked at my friends. “I warded them off, I’ll try to catch up to them later.” I say, sitting on a small seat. A few minutes later, we can see a small town. “Hey, I think I see them!” I shouted. “Go get them!” Everybody cheered. I smiled and hopped off the bus, going toward the bus that had the Mankeys on it. The bus stopped and I climbed aboard, holding a small burr I picked up from the ground. “Hey! I think you dropped this a while ago.” I smile. They chatter in confusion. “You know, when you were looking for that animal? It’s a weapon that can be thrown and it sticks to the enemy.” They all nod and smile. “Thanks!” They respond. I get off the bus and walk back to my own bus.
We arrive at the town and I get off. All the kids from my school are there! I smile and look at all the buildings, looking around. I saw this guy named Richard; he was sitting on the roofs of people’s houses. I approached my friend and asked, “Why does that guy always sit on the roofs?” She responded, “I don’t know, he just does.” I shrugged and entered a building. I don’t know how I got up there, but I appeared sitting on the window sill outside. I stayed there and looked up at the sky. Richard appeared sitting next to me and he smiled. “You know, I was thinking about getting you two a birthday and Christmas present.” I didn’t say anything and stared into the sky. “I was going to get you fdklfjdhglkdjsair and pehgislfjbeng.”
[That’s what I heard him say, all gibberish to me. I woke up in the middle of the sentence, how rude am I? :-)]