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- I was walking home and there was an old man behind me. I got to my house and went in the porch, and while looking for my keys, I thought of the possibility of him following me. Sure enough, I heard someone walking up the steps. I was like 'oh shit oh shit' and ducked down, then saw the man's face appear in the window looking at me. He was smiling the whole time and waved at me while knocking on the door. I found my keys and unlocked the door, thankful that he hadn't just burst in, locked the door behind me and ran upstairs. The thought crossed my mind that he might have had a legitimate reason for being at my house, but I didn't really care as I usually don't answer the door anyway. I can't say exactly why I found him creepy or why I was so scared of him.

Soon afterwards, though, I was boarding a plane, and as I got to my seat, I saw him sitting a couple rows behind me, smiling and waving at me. That really creeped me out.


- I was in my living room asking my mom if she had the di.fm iPhone app. She said no, and I said that it could also be used to listen to sky.fm which plays non-electronic music (she's not interested in it). She didn't care, lol. I'm not sure if they use the same app or not irl.

I didn't remember any of my dream when I first woke up. Then I thought about it in the shower and I thought of one thing, and the rest came to me.

I was in my college dorm, which looked nothing like my actual dorm. My roommate's dad and sister were there. For some reason his sister wanted me to drive my truck around so she could take pictures of it. My stupid response was "Only if I wash it first." My roommate has a terrible allergic reaction to peanut butter. He walks in the dorm and has a rash covering his whole body. He can't talk at all and he just simply points at the Epipen and looks at me (obviously wanting me to inject him with it for his reaction). His dad looks at me and shakes his said as if to say "no." Obviously this would never happen, but I just look at my roommate helplessly. So he just walks to his bed and passes out face down on it.

The dream then skips to me hanging out with J and C. (Me and C had recently hooked up with 2 girls from our college). The girl that I hooked up with was texting him and flirting with him, which pissed me off. So I left with J. J and I were walking through the campus which looked nothing like my actual campus. While walking, we saw the two girls. I said to J, "Bitches." and we kept walking. We met up with J's friend who I've never met before. His friend is in a car and we get in.

The dream skips again, but we are still in the car going down the road. We come up behind this car that just had a creepy look to it. I can see through to the rear view mirror of the car and there's a symbol hanging down from it. I don't remember what this symbol looked like, but in the dream we knew that it meant that they were mexican drug lords. They were there to kill us! They look back and see us behind them. J's friend stomps on the gas pedal and speeds around them. The whole time we were going through town going fast as hell trying to get away from them. The whole time we didn't say a single word to one another. We didn't have to, we all knew who they were in the dream.

Then the dream ends to my alarm waking me up for class.

March 13, 2012
When I woke up this morning I couldnt remember anything. However, when I took a nap today I had one dream

I can't really remember how this dream started. The furthest thing I can remember is that I woke up in my bed. When I looked at the clock the numbers kept blinking, and I didn't know why. I messed around with it for a while and found that when I turned it a certain way, it stops. I was curious as to why that direction was so special, but I went back to bed (in my dream). When I 'woke up' again I saw that the clock was still facing in that direction, only it was facing another alarm clock located on the other side of my room. I remember thinking, "wait, I don't have that clock anymore!" but I never became lucid. I think I just dismissed it as some weird phenomenon

The dream is jumbled so I can't recall when the pink slime came into the picture. All I know is that the pink slime was some sort of alien substance that was everywhere. It disguised itself as different everyday objects. Apparently, the extra clock that was in my room was made out of the pink slime. My dream skipped to a new scene of me watching the news. The news lady on the TV had an update on the slime.

She said something like: "Imagine this. Your five year old son drops a tomato on the floor. When he goes to step on it it doesn't squirt tomato juice, but turns into a thick, pink goo." (while she says all of this a scene of a little boy stepping on a tomato is playing). After she says all of that it goes to show more footage of things turning into pink stuff. The news lady says nothing after that, and I remember feeling annoyed that the news went through all of that trouble to tell the public nothing about what was going on. After that I wake up

1. These 2 ladies were knocking at my door, looking all irritated with me because they were in a hurry to get inside. Dumb me let them in (they were soooo rude), and they each carried a crockpot to the kitchen table. One pot had some cooked chicken bites, and the other one had green beans. Basically they were welling their own brand of all natural canned foods with no preservatives. One lady shoved a forkfull of beans in my mouth, and I had to agree, they didn't taste like they came out of a can. I was about to try the chicken, and contemplating actually buying some, when the dream changed.

2. I had to repair a cake at work. It was supposed to either be a nativity scene, or a beach scene. Whoever had started the cake, made the whole thing with blue icing, and built a fondant structure on top that was shaped like a pentagon. I had to whip up some more buttercream first, and while that was going, I thought I could make a pretty good beach scene. If I got some rainbow colored buttercream going, I figured I could make the pentagon structure look like a beach umbrella. I woke up from that dream after they put a bunch of ladders up at work in place of the stairs, and I kept falling from them.

Dream Fragment - We had these candies which I perceived as weed brownies but they were more just like chocolate chunks with sprinkles, and the sprinkles were varying shades of green and strategically placed with the candy shaped to look like a nug of weed. I also remember A smoking some legal weed mimic, but that's about it from that dream....

Backwards Crab Walk Through Time [DILD]

I'm with M and some random guys pull up in my car so I tell them to scoot over so I can drive. We drop one of the guys off, and then as I'm trying to figure out where to take the other guy he keeps talking about this book he has that's part of some new cult he's in, and there are lots of bizarre religious illustrations in it. I remember one of them was a woman leaning back and staring up in euphoria and she looked like she'd been 'healed' or something, and she had like claw-shaped lips and at least ten or fifteen eyes scattered all over her face. It was really odd.... While I was staring at the book the scene changed from my car to a high school classroom. I tell M we need to leave, and I don't remember who this was but this random woman started chasing us back through time. Like, I would run out of the classroom and it would take me back into a classroom I had from the previous year (I'm not sure if any of these classes were classes I actually had, though). Eventually I started doing a backwards crab walk as I was being chased. During this time I became lucid but was a bit too flustered to make much of it other than to keep moving and watch how insane all of this was. It seemed like I was stuck in some kind of environment loop where the class was just repeating over and over again, and then it all collapsed into whiteness and I woke up.

Dream 2:

There was a huge tornado coming. I was running and trying to find a place to hide. I was in the downtown area of a big city. I first ran into a building, but then saw that it was full of tools including chainsaws that I decided that I didn't want to be near when the wind blew them all around. So I ran out again. I decided to find the biggest building I could find to hide in. I figured that would be the safest. But then I turned and saw that the tonado was just a few blocks from me. It had ripped out a huge skyscraper. I then saw the building, full of people, come crashing to the ground. I felt sick. I had just witnessed the death of so many people. I ran again to find a place to hide.

At some point I had found a little girl that I was trying to protect. She had dark blond hair and was maybe 6 years old. I wanted her to be safe more than anything. I finally found a building and ran in. It was a library. I didn't like the thought of the books flying around and hitting us, but I knew that we had no time left to find a better place. I decided to remove the books on the bottom of one of the shelves and then crawl in. I had the girls squeeze in with me. Then I had this sudden fear that when the tornado came that the girl would be pulled away from me. So I unzipped my jacket and pulled her close and zipped it up again around both of us.

I don't really remember what happened after that. This dream seemed to last a very long time. I do remember at some point talking to my friend Shannon about the tornado.

Later I remember that I had taken care of this little boy, dark haired, around 4 years old. I had finally met up with his dad who looked like Robert Downey, Jr. I remember sitting on a bed with the boy while he was in the bathroom shaving. It seemed that the world was in total chaos and we were trying to find a way to survive.

Dream 1:

I was moving things in my yard around. I suddenly felt a sting and looked and saw that I had been bitten my a black widow. At first I felt quite alarmed, but then I calmed myself down and went to grab my homemade healing salve and "poison kit" I always carry in my backpack when I hike in rattlesnake country. I knew I would be okay. And I was actually a little excited to give this a try since I had worked so hard to put the kit together.

The night before last I didn't recall my dreams at all. Last night I can only recall a couple of fragments.

Fragment One: Playing Skylanders with my son, and found an area he had not unlocked yet. Got to show him all the secret areas in the level, like hidden passages behind bookshelves and stuff. It was awesome, but then I woke up thinking how off secret bookshelf doors were for a game like that, lol. Probably why I remember it so well.

Fragment Two: I woke up with the line Mischief managed stuck in my head. I don't recall the dream, but wondered if I had been dreaming of Harry Potter stuff, lol.

Fragment Three: I was returning from a field trip of some sort for a college class. In the dream my husband was part of it (he's never even been to college, so that was really odd, lol) as were a bunch of my friends from college that I haven't spoken to in years. I entered the college building through the library, and noticed I had an ass load of books and my daughter and son that I was trying to carry. I find a rolly chair, and I sit in it, putting the books in my lap and sitting my daughter on top of the books. My son holds my other hand and pulls us through the library. I briefly find myself searching the crowd for a man with long dark hair, but don't see him so I relax a bit disappointed. In the class room my son lets go of my hand and runs to his father, and my daughter jumps out of my lap to do the same. When she jumps, the books fall and I stumble around trying to pick them up without getting out of the rolly chair. When they're picked up I roll over to a table with my husband, and old friend from college, and two red haired twin boys I don't recognize as someone from RL but knew in the dream. I drop the books in the table, then stand up and tell my husband that I've got to take the chair back to the library where I got it from. He says he'll watch the kids, so I take the chair back and notice the long haired man isn't there still. I set the chair down at a computer and go back to the class room. IN the classroom I make the comment that the twins look like Weasleys and I need to take a picture with my phone and send it to my best friend A, because she'd love it! I think I might have tried to joke around and call them Fred and George but then I woke up.

I "wake up" in my mom's house. Immediately I know I am dreaming but I am not completely lucid because I feel like I still live there and fell asleep in my room there (even though I have already moved out). Everything is so realistic that I think I am actually there. I walk to my bedroom and can see the shape of my body beneath the sheets of the bed. I consider the possibility that I might actually be in my "spirit body" looking at my physical self. (After waking up I now know that wasn't the case.) So..Just in case I actually am, I protect my body by casting a white light to surround it. I feel like I did a good job so I walk downstairs into the kitchen. I think about this being a good opportunity to make an experiment. I grab some red oven mittens out of a drawer and put them in the oven. I take a dish towel laying on the counter, and put it on the exercise bike in the living room. I wonder if I am actually doing this and tell myself that when I actually wake up I am going to see if the items really were moved to these locations. Suddenly I hear someone walk into the kitchen behind me. I turn around and see it's my mother. She looks a little scared.

"I've been seeing you do this kind of stuff a lot at night lately Nick," she starts crying, "You never remember it. I feel like it's dangerous and I'm afraid of what might be happening to you. What if you have a mental disorder? I think we need to take you to therapy."

She hugs me for a moment. I feel shocked. What if she's right? I don't know what's going on. I am an inch away from completely believing her - because the dream felt so life-like. But I look at her closely. Her hair and makeup are completely unusual compared to how she normally does it. Then I look back at the exercise bike I had placed the towel on. It completely disappeared.

"Ha! This IS a dream!" I say. My mom looks infuriated. I couldn't believe my brain almost succeeded in tricking me.

"Leave me alone," I tell my mom," or I'll..."

"Or you'll what?" She snaps back.

"Or I'll summon a fiery demon to come after you!" I couldn't think of anything better to say. I put my hands out like I am casting a spell, and think about summoning one. Nothing happens. (-.-)'

My mom laughs hysterically. "You want to see a fiery demon?" she says as her eyes begin to glow red.

She starts casting fire all around her. I don't want to feel the pain of being burned in my dream so I leave and try to focus my mind on something else. Somehow that works to get rid of her. I am back in the kitchen. A decorative tree on the counter starts shedding it's leaves. A bright white light - similar to a search light - shines on the house. Then everything turns black and I wake up.

Now I'll try continue write on my dream journal here as I haven't done it much.
Yesterday I came home from my GF after being with her in like 2 weeks straight, so therefor I haven't been on MSN chatting with all my friends as I use to do daily. So yesterday I saw a friend named Nina who lives in Netherlands, she was on MSN and we chatted some as we haven't done it for probly 1 month.

The dream:
I was in a house, it was beautiful house with furnitures and walls made of wood. The kitchen was big and everything looked like new technology. It was around evening time and I was alone with Nina in the house. My GF was gonna come over in a few minutes or hours, I wasn't sure when. However I'd a weird feeling, like me and Nina were very close to eachother.. not like lovers but more like friends or if she would be a sister.
Weird though, we both had to take a shower, so we went together to the shower. (we did not touch eachother or any perv though!).
Later we went out to a small livingroom that was quite dark, we listened to music and waited for my GF to come. After a while of just listening to music and looking on eachother, I heard my GF comming. She came into the room we were in, and she looked abit differently of what my GF irl looks like. But still beauty.

And there the dream must been faded away.


Also I've had some fragment about me being in USA on a beach, with my systemcamera where I took photos of big waves that formed figures.

I woke up around 6:30 A.M. this morning, got up and went to the restroom, then went back to bed. I laid down and closed my eyes. The next thing I know, I felt a presence in the room and I shot up looking around frantically. The room looked kinda similar to this one, however, there were several differences.

The room was illuminated as if it were day time and the room door was wide open, however, I couldn't see anything inside it because it was pitch black. I looked up and saw a large sign that said "Happy Birthday! Ashley Beagan!" I also noticed these rings hanging from wires which were situation around my bed. I felt as though somebody was there and I said "hey!" in a scared female's voice.

I didn't get a response and I screamed because I knew that somebody was there before I woke up and those rings that were suspended from wires were scaring the living crap outta me. When I screamed, it was the scream of a girl, however, it sounded more like what a poltergeist sounded like in the movies. But it was my voice....

I awoke again but this time for real. I drew a sketch of what the room looked like (what I can remember) below:



I've never heard the name "Ashley Beagen" before and I have no idea what those rings were but they scared the crap out of me. If anybody knows anything about them, then please enlighten me.

Attempt 13:

This time I actually managed to stay aware for a little time longer, but I still fell asleep unconsciously, but this time I also regained awareness again. The problem this time was that the guided mp3 meditations I were listening to was on repeat so I had to move to turn it off when it got on repeat. So I will fix that and make a new attempt this night.

I did not remember any vivid dreams this night and I wasn't as aware as in the dreams as I have been the previous nights.
But on the coming attempts I am not going to focus on going into the dream, instead I am just going to aim for conscious sleep and let the dream come to me.

Now some minutes ago I actually had a breakthrough in meditation ;) I managed to stay aware for 50 minutes without falling asleep, which I usually end up doing. What I did was instead of focusing on an anchor like my eyes or my breath I focused on the awareness of my location. Close your eyes now and just think of where you are, you can somehow "sense" it. And everytime it felt like I was concentrating too much on my thoughts I focused on that.
Next time my body fall asleep and my mind is awake, I will try this meditation and maybe I will find myself being aware of a completley location! :)

Just a little motivation for you:

It took Stephen LaBerge, Robert Waggoner and most of the other lucid dreaming authors 25-30 to learn to frequentley lucid dream and to control the environment, so if you are struggling just remember that you are still doing better than what they did. And for me, it took the guy who learns from Don Juan about 2 years to focus his attention to anything he wanted in his dreams.

I am going to shorten this time span!

03.13.2012

Call of Duty: WAW simulation, Meeting Someone (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Call of Duty: WAW Simulation

Okay, I was playing a match in Call of Duty: World at War, the only thing different, is that I'm actually IN it. I was picking a choice between which attachment I should pick for the MP40, and I believed I decided to go with the Silencer.

I can't determine if I'm lucid or not, but I AM feeling everything, I'm feeling the gun, I'm feeling the tension, I'm feeling the sense of having to kill or be killed mentality rushing inside my mind. So for this one, I guess I'll say I was semi-lucid.

I'm within the Makin map for Multi-player, and I already start having plans of knowing where the other teams are going to be. I stay crouching down, and only dashing when I need to in this dream.

It's really dark, so I had to pay attention most only my vision for any kind of movement, and my hearing as well since the map mostly consisted of sand and concrete, with the mix a little grass as well.

I throw some type of grenade, like a testing grenade to see if the opposing team is over there, and it the test verifies that because like in the game, I heard that sound when your grenade or weapon made an impact to another player.

Then I realized I had to become even more serious since they probably knew which direction the grenade was shooting, and since I know I would have more attention coming towards me, with the high chance of dying and re-spawning again, I threw another grenade for the hell of it.

Then the dream shifts where I'm in this shallow water, and something is covering the area I'm in to where the small fire sources emitted a tan-yellow or an orange type of radiance.

I think I'm moving backwards, since I know no one could be behind me in this path that would lead to a dead-end. I just knew it would lead to a dead-end. I continue moving backwards, and I start to feel more enemies coming in.

I crouch done on my right leg so that my knee makes an L position to the ground while my leg left has its foot, but is making an upside down L position so that I can support the weapon I'm holding.

I already know the direction the enemy is coming, which has to be a left motion from my view, and try to spray and pray me. (Spray and Pray is basically shooting like there's no freaking tomorrow with an automatic weapon, and hoping that it hits and kills your enemy).

Then as I see the enemy, I start shooting immediately, and I back up a little as well while we're both shooting at each other.

I'm wondering which one of us is going to freaking die already, and I'm in the moment of thinking if I'm going to die along with this random enemy.

I think I killed him even with the feelings possibly dying. I know I did more things in this dream, but it was most likely just a shoot-and-run type of thing, which is a bad idea in a dark environment.

That's all I remember for that one.

I know I had more dreams despite how short I slept last night/early morning (which was around 3-4 AM lol).

Dream 2: Meeting Someone (dream frag)

I met someone, I know I did, I would like to believe it was someone familiar.

Maybe it will come in time, or just fade away, but it's better to jot something down than forget.

I don't remember much, but there is one piece..

E., my childhood friend, and his mother came bursting into my house. He had tears in his eyes and his voice threaded with despair. They gave off a panicked energy.
He said I would have to come.
His mother said "E. had a dream, where you died." I understood that they were trying to save me.
Basically, they were messing around in my house, before they dragged me outside.
We were getting away I think, but I don't know to where.

Indigo: Dream Signs and stuff
Red: Petty remarks
Everything started out stupid, i was in a war of 100k people vs 100k people, that was ok, but the fact is that and elephant unleashed all her might in the grond a couple times and the war was over...Just hitting the ground.

Now back to me,

Dungeon Crawling

It wasn't my usual kind of dream, i wasn't lucid and everything i remember is that it was WoWish speaking of grafics, that was before i hit the ground with my fists just to catch some gold(?).

I end up in a hole in the ground, i whine a bit for my friends to help but they ignore my plea.
When i look back, there is a ghost behind me, a silly one, it was like a old stained sheet floating in the middle of the darkness.
No joke, it was really scary, so i keep on diging. Now i'm lost for sure, i can't see the outside anymore and there are these...Signs on the walls...They are EVERYWHERE, look a bit aboriginal and have the following colors: Lime Green,Magenta, Indigo andYellow.
I keep running inside the dungeon, almost pissing in my pants, running away from the unknow.
A party of 4 people just pop in the dungeon with me, i'm not sure if they are friendly, i'm not sure they can see me, but they are 2 boys and 2 girls, all using white tunics, they walk fearlessly inside the dungeon and i realize:
"I'M DREAMING"

i don't know why but i made a poem in that moment, i think it will be useful sometime

"I'm the fear
Made of death and tear
Beware thy living
I'm GOD fearing"


Woke up.