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Original entry dated April 13th, 2002:

My friends and I were battling giant robotic ponies in the mall. It was a sort of laser-tag type setup, only less fun and more deadly. Our foes looked like giant My Little Ponies with googly-eyes that shot lasers, so they were REEEEALLY creepy.

*THUD THUD THUD* "AAAH! GIANT ROBOTIC PONY! ...aww... it has a butterfly on its butt!"

In the battle all of us had skills, MUD-style, that we had to use and train to develop proficiency in. There was a kickass hoverbike with cannons on it that I couldn't ride because my Cycling skill was only at 20%. So instead I had a sorry-assed excuse for a pistol that did about as much damage as, say, a squirt-gun.

I don't remember the rest, I think the dream just sort of fizzled out, and then I had a really sad dream but I don't remember what it was abou

Okay, too much internet.

I could only remember one dream last night, and it was a brief dream of Lil' Bub.

For those of you who don't know who she is, Google her; she's the tiny, adorable kitten with the tongue sticking out of her hilarious face. Specifically in my dream, she is from the picture where she is laying down, and her paws are folded in front of her so it looks like she's having a serious talk with you.

Now, in this scenario, she is gigantic, her head floats in the sky like the sun (maybe she WAS the sun), and she is staring right at me.

She speaks human in this dream, but I'm not sure what she said. She also sounds like she comes from a Saturday morning cartoon.

Anyways, I surrender, internet. You win.

This dream was rather confusing....

It started out in a very sunny Autumn wooded area. There was a large tower made of scrape metal that was piled and welded together. There I was looking for something but kept finding replica or incorrect material....

Then the tower is getting torn down/apart by a giant man. I'm glad for this because at the base in an alternate access that is blocked off. So i'm waiting as the metal sheets are being torn off the structure.

There was a sort of celebration. A kid was the one leading/organized it and had a bunch of girl scouts to help. The performance was for an older black lady who was teared up. She was very emotional but I don't know if it was Happiness or of mourning....

I woke up on a plane (or maybe a rather large train) beside someone. The attendent asked which meal i wanted. I was some dish i cant recall or chicken. I told her i would take option B. I started walking around and my sister was there. We were laughing because we had hung a bunch of paper christmas decorations (cut out trees and snowflakes) but we also hung cut out sharks and jellyfish randomly.

I headed back to my seat, but apparently it was the wrong place. A guy shoved my off and pinned me down when his foot. I felt really weird/feeble in that I couldn't get him off. I thought then to club him with something I had in my hand, but that made me realize i was dreaming and wake up.

It's been about a week since I actually had these but this is what I can remember from my notes:

1:

On a frozen lake, at night, it's dark (no recall of the sky but have clear recall of the texture of the ice). Running/skating across the ice back and forth with some friends - one of which is somebody I went to school with IRL. Not seen or thought about here for years, nothing romantic or anything in the dream, she was just there.

2:

In a castle cellar, there's a party going on (or maybe it's a bar?). There's a few pool tables which people are playing on, and it must be cold out as everybody is dressed for winter with thick jumpers and jackets on.

3:

Find myself in the kitchen of my parents house where I grew up. At this point I think I dreamed about being lucid, as I was like "Wow, this is amazing! Look at the detail I'm dreaming here..." and found crumbs on the counter, dust on some speakers etc.

I was having a non lucid where I was floating on a giant bag of ice on a river. I suddenly became lucid and continued floating toward a waterfall. I wasn't scared about it. I passed a waterfall on the way to the other one. I ran my fingers through it, it felt so nice. I lost vision but did t care because I could still feel the water. I thought of the basic task and found myself in a library. I asked 2 women what they were thank for and got useless answers that I can't recall. Then I saw a guy sitting at a computer, and I asked him. He put his hands in front of him, and cupped them like he was feeling a pair of invisible breasts. He said "I'm thankful for those giant, white, soft, fluffy...... Flying kittens."

I patted him on his shoulder and lolled. Then I felt like waking up for some reason, and so I announced that I was leaving. As I did, a cute guy in the computer lab said "no wait wait! I wanna play too " I knew I did t have much time, so I just grabbed him and stuck my tongue down his throat. He had a massive amount of really old soggy chewed up gum that he swapped into my mouth! It took forever to get it all out, but when I did, I just spit it all in my hand and then shoved it right back into his mouth. Then I woke up.

My dreams are mostly jumbled and nonsensical.

I dreamed that I found a DVD case. It was for a Disney movie. I was worried I was ruining a collector's item, but unwrapped it anyway. There was a children's book inside, sort of a young adult's book, that was missing the first three chapters. It looked like they'd been ripped out. The subject matter of the book was Arthurian legends.

I opened another DVD case, and Minnie Mouse hopped out. She got into a fistfight with a Disney Princess (Tiana) over who was the best. Tiana won. Minnie was still pissed off over getting her ass kicked, so she challenged me to a duel to the death. I refused to fight a cartoon mouse, though. I picked the book back up and now the chapters were back.

I woke up, scratched my head over the dream, and lay back again. I woke up and dozed a few times while trying to visualize. I try the cottage from last night - no luck. While I am doing the visualization, I actually lose awareness as I fall asleep, but I must still be thinking about it, because as soon as a dream starts it's me sitting down in front of my laptop. I manage to link this to my prior visualization and realize that I am not actually awake, because the last thing I was doing was exploring an imaginary cottage, and I never got out of bed, but I am not in the cottage either, so I realize I am dreaming.

I forget to stabilize. Instead, I dive into the laptop screen, trying to use it as a portal, but everything goes gray. Not black... gray. I wander around in the grayness. I can see vague forms, and I can feel my feet shuffling along the ground while I try to conjure up a dreamscape... I'm afraid to open my dream-eyes because I'm worried I'll wake up. I open them, and I do. Still... it wasn't pitch blackness, so I guess I'll call that progress.

All I remember is a violent scene in which I grab my mom by her throat in anger... I felt disturbed about this when I woke up.

I dreamed I was with a bunch of people in Barstow CA. Some other things had happened in the dream which I no longer remember. But at some point we looked up in the sky. The evening sky was almost dark, but there was still a little light left after the sun set. The clouds parted and we saw a huge aircraft. At first I was sure it was a UFO--something from an alien world. But a guy next to me said that it belonged to our military that he had heard rumors that they were working on these, but didn't know that they were completed. It was flat with a couple of brighter red lights, with some dimmer yellow ones around the edges. It looked like a flying aircraft carrier. We stood there for a moment and watched it. Then all of a sudden it started shooting down missiles. Everyone screamed and scattered.

I had this dream this evening about cheating on my husband. We recently got married a month ago on the 12th, and his dream really disturbs me. The dream starts where I'm with my family and my husband at this Summerhome. There are a few other people there that are not related to my family, and I have no idea why they were there. We're standing outside talking about something when I see this little girl and her father. Something I was talking about caught his attention, and we start arguing because he thinks he knows more about the subject than I do. I start saying how I definitely know more about the subject because I've had three years of classes on it and since it's been a while since I've had the classes, I have had years and years of experience on the matter. He asked me if that is true, and when my mother backed me up he seemed impressed. We start getting along a lot better after this and his young daughter and I become quick friends. We hang out throughout the rest of the day and things keep happening that needed me to resolve them and he seems like he is becoming more and more impressed with me. Suddenly, he gets serious and asked if he can see me inside alone to talk with me. His daughters watching like she's really excited and knows what's going to happen, and I follow him out of curiosity wondering what's going on. We go into a room where he stops and admits to me that he is falling in love with me. I realize that I'm falling for him too, and he becomes very happy that he has finally found someone that he could be with after his wife passed away. That's when I realize something: I can't be with him because I am married. He can tell that I have become incredibly sad and asked me what's wrong. I show him the ring on my finger and tell him that I am married. He seems taken aback and becomes upset telling me that should not have let him on. I did nothing of the sort! I was hanging out with him with every intention of just being friends and he was the one he was interpreting something out of nothing. We go our separate ways, but I cannot take my mind off of him. I suddenly become very sad that I had to be married and cannot be with him and realize that I may like him more than my husband. This thought upsets me because I'm very deeply in love with my husband, and henceforth become very confused about everything. I start wondering to myself why me and this man can't have an affair? He seems much too honorable for something like that, but I keep wishing he will come to me and tell me that he wants that. I go back outside when my husband arrives From wherever he was beforehand. We walk around, hanging out, all the while realizing that the guy who likes me is watching me from a distance. I realize that the only reason I am hanging out with my husband is because I feel obligated to. We go into a room and start talking when the man enters because he needed to get something out of that room. My husband starts talking with him, because he's just one of those people that likes to be friends with everybody. The entire time me and this man are looking at each other with heavy intensity and I suddenly send my husband out of the room to get something for me that I know will take him a while to get. As soon as he leaves, the man and I start making out until my husband returns. He said he could not find what I wanted and continues the conversation with the man. I start talking to my husband to distract him from the looks that I'm giving the man which indicate that I want him and me to have an affair. The man nods and I realize that it would be hard because we live so far apart but it can still be done, and I get him to give me his number without my husband knowing. I feel incredibly rotten about everything thats been going on and the arguments with myself inside my head never seem to cease. suddenly, my husband wants to go to the park and the other guy asks to come along, so we take separate cars and start driving to the park. When we get there we meet an old dream ex of mine. She keeps talking about her lingering feelings for me and the only thing I have to say to her is I don't know who you are over and over again. My husband is becoming upset that she's there when suddenly she sees the look that the man is giving me. She asks me if the man and I are seeing each other, and of course I deny it, but she keeps insisting so intently that finally everything becomes revealed. She gets upset and leaves and I realize that my husband now knows everything. I am so ashamed of myself that I can't even turn to look at him, but I know that he looks very betrayed. The man, seeing how I treated my ex so badly, decides that he doesn't want anything to do with me. So him and my husband get into their cars and leave me stranded at the park. I don't know how I got back, because I'm suddenly back at the Summerhome, but I got the feeling my mom picked me up. I am incredibly upset realizing how much of an idiot I was and that the only reason I wanted to be with the man was because I wanted to be a mother to his daughter and felt sorry for her being so young to have lost her mother, and that I should never have tried to cheat on my husband, when I see his mother sitting down against the wall looking at an iPad. I ask her if she knows where he is and my mom says that he went to one of my old hometowns and is going to live with another woman who has the same name as me. I ask if he is going to be involved with her and she says no, the woman already has a boyfriend. I feel relieved but then I suddenly become very intent on getting a hold of him and ask his mother if she has had any progress finding him. She says not yet and I start freaking out, screaming find him! She smiles and says that she has found a number that she believes is his and calls it, handing me the phone. Somebody answers and I realize that it is him. I say his name and he suddenly becomes very hurt sounding and says he does not want to talk to me. The rest of the dream is me begging him over the phone to forgive me and trying to explain to him the situation, when I wake up. I become incredibly relieved that it was all a dream, but this really confuses me because I know I would never ever do this in real life and I'm wondering why I had this dream.

non lucid
*Me and a dharma friend were laughing because someone showed up an hour early to the dharma center. For some reason that was funny.

*I looked at my mother thinking how beautiful she was and why is it so hard for to find love when she appears so lovely. Then she left me and brother someone because she wasn't up for going into town. I could tell the more we saw each the more nervous she became.

I was using King Yoshi's Wild Guide but i failed., but I shall never give up.
So I decided to just go to sleep.
I don't remember how but somehow I became Lucid in my dream.
I looked out my window and saw one of my girl classmates in high school and the other two, I don't know.
They were dressed ready to go to prom night or something.
Was talking to them (forgot the topic) got bored and went into my brothers room.
For some reason, sometimes my reality checks, in my dream, won't work when I'm taking to my brother.
Did a couple of reality checks to make sure that I was still dreaming. Bingo, I was dreaming.
Then it occurred to me that if this is a dream, then I can summon anything I want.
I made sure that only my brother was in the room and then I went out.
I repeated this phrase to myself "Behind this door is (girl classmates name)" two to three times.
When I looked inside the room, There my brother was sitting on the bed playing games.
But next to him was my girl classmate.
I took her to the bathroom.
We were about to do it but then I woke up.
Got too excited.

i was gunna go to the beach with ryan but was nervouse cause i didnt wanna smoke weed
his family turned into the jajeh family
they drove to some basketball center
later i drove there by myself where a cop made faces at me

Lucid dream AND TOTM!!!

I was at this sort of fancy party. The hosts were incredibly weird. They were like vampires, as in they were OLD, and yet they looked like a normal family. They just seemed out of time, I guess, like they were dressed and they spoke as if they were from a different century. They hadn't done anything wrong, but I KNEW I had to kill them.

So I went upstairs (we were in a sort of a fancy building/hotel) and I killed the mother (not sure how, I just got there, saw her and next thing I know, I'm hiding her body). Then, the scene changed, but I wasn't there, I was just watching. There were two sons of this family and they were just outside of a palace in India. They got a phonecall and I couldn't hear anything that was being said, but they took the cellphone, listened to what the caller was saying and started crying. So I knew that they had found out about their mother.

Back to me, I was running on the streets at night, my family is with me. We were all running as fast as we could. We kept having to avoid the cars, because, for some reason, we couldn't just run on the sidewalks. My parents were ahead and then there was a train line in front of us and the train was coming. We stopped, but my parents kept going and I expected the train to hit them, but they managed to cross it before that happened. The train was tiny and just the main car, so we kept running after that, but my parents were way ahead of us by then.

There were some holes on the street and I was going to say that we should probably go around them, but my parents kept running and they jumped the first one while holding hands. I was sure they were going to fall, but they didn't. They jumped over the second hole, but my dad didn't make it. My mum threw herself there, wanting to be/die with my dad. I started shouting and all I could feel was despair. Whenever I have a nightmare like this and I feel this feeling, I tell myself "FINE TIME TO WAKE UP" and I do wake up. This time, however, I thought "FINE IF MY PARENTS ARE DEAD I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE I'M GOING TO WAKE UP THEN! Oh, no, wait, I always do that and I miss the chance of having a lucid dream... AHA I'M LUCID!"

And since I knew my parents weren't actually dead, I felt much better. I then told myself that I WAS going to get the TOTM done, cause... seriously? I can't even remember the months in a dream? That's stupid, of course I can! And so I started: "November! October! September! August! July! June! May! ...oh, shit, what comes before May? Okay, hold on, Janeiro, Fevereiro, Março, Abril, Maio... OH YEAH APRIL! Okay, so November! October! September! August! July! June! May! April! March! March? Yeah, it's March! February! January! I GOT IT!" and wow, that was hard! I was also counting on my fingers. Fortunately, my hands were normal and I didn't have extra fingers.

After that, I was sure I was going to wake up, so I decided to fly and see if it'd keep me in the dream. I started flying and, at one point, I could feel my real body. I focused on the flying, though, and that got me fully back to my dream. So that made me feel super confident about myself and my lucid dream abilities. I decided that I could totally summon the main character of the story I'm writing. I started shouting "EFRAIM!!!" over and over, until a voice answered. It was a kid's voice, in fact, it was the voice of a character from Dragon Ball Z. He said that I had to let him lead me. I said okay, started flying again and I followed some golden leafs that were in the air.

When I got to where the leafs led me, it was a weird place. It was like it was made of clouds, everything was so white and fluffy. There were lots of shelves, kinda like a library. So I landed on the floor and started looking for Efraim/kid from Dragon Ball Z. This is when I lost lucidity.

I kept walking until I ran into my family. They were going through some stuff... I got closer and I saw my grandmother holding my notebook. I got really mad and told her that she couldn't just take my things like that. I woke up.

I arrived to a classroom late after some papers were passed out it seemed like a college class unable to determine about what. Once the class is about to end the professor gives another student and I the papers needed for the course. Afterwards when the class is emptying out I stay with about 3 others that are sitting in front me and then this girl approaches me and starts playing with my hand which I immediately start playing back with her. Dont see her face since Im focusing on her hand moment which was mad cute so I just let it be playing it cool.