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December 24

Bed time 22 PM

WBTB 3 AM. I remembered two fragments: the first was about my friend who caught a flu and the second was about David Duchovny being a guest in some TV series.
I then took 4 mg galantamine and went back to bed

4: 50 AM I woke up from an epic journey. I remained stunned for a few minutes.

The dream started with a false awakening, although I couldn't realize it. I woke up because someone was grabbing and pinching me. Nervously i got up and went to check my phone. It began to glitch. My phone started showing some old message conversations with people I knew long time ago. I decided to go to kitchen. My mom is there. She is making coffee. On the counter I saw a Snickers. I was going to eat that for breakfast.
-I don't feel right, something strange is happening to me. -I told my mom.
-Don't be silly. -she replied and continued to twist in a kitchen.
I went to take something to put on. I opened a drawer and took a shirt. As I tried to close the drawer it stuck in the middle. I couldn't close it. I went back to kitchen to announce that the drawer doesn't close. My mom went to check it. She tried to close it and succeeded from the first time.
-What a scatterbrain... -she mumbled.
"That's strange" i thought. I checked what time was that. It was 8:52. I had to be at the bus station at 8:50 to arrive at the university for the first lecture. The first lecture was Psychology. As I couldn't make to the bus on time, I decided to pass the first lecture. I felt kind of drowsy. I felt like drunk + smoked out + tired. I started to wonder what the fuck is wrong with that drawer? Tried to open and close it again. Everything is okay. However, I always got feeling that something is wrong. The atmosphere was Matrix'ish or Inception'ish - everything is okay, but sometimes little glitches happen which make you doubt whether this is real world... AND I DIDN'T realize I WAS DREAMING. STUPID ME!


Then really weird shit happened. Some kind of dark angel appeared in front of me. It looked like that angel from Digimons, only it was black. It was female and very tall. With confidence I went to my Mom and asked:
-How would you explain that a fucking black angel is in our home?
-Look, what is wrong with you? Do you use drugs or something? -she asked.
I crumpled on the floor in disbelief that my Mother talks to me like this, that she doesn't believe me and can't help me... As I was sitting on the floor i saw the black angel becoming bigger and angrier. Her smile became evil and she laughed at me. I looked up at her and somehow it popped to my head that she feeds on my emotions. I got up, smiled and tried not to be sad. I tried not to care about "my mom not believing me" situation. And voila! The black angel became smaller and normal looking again.

She came closer to me, kneel down and showed me a silver pendant. I recognized an eye of Horus in that. Although it was more complex. The pendant was lying on the palm of the dark angel. Her palm was burnt out with that symbol. Her hand was dirty and the skin was coarse. I remember her hand in very great detail.
-One, who has this pendant, lives forever. -she said quietly, -I live the fourth time already. -added the angel. She told me she will wait me in the church and disappeared... I was thinking "damn..I am definitely not drugged or something, I am sober, I guess every in-some-way-spiritual person begins to see something more than normal people. This angel will be like my imaginative friend, or maybe my guide...."


I am at the church. There is a huge castle model inside. I see mini soldiers participating in the castle siege. Like in a video game, they survive an enemy wave and then goof around shooting team mates. It was strange because some soldiers used very modern machine guns. I saw empty golden rounds all around. My attention was caught by a lady in black. That's her! The black angel! She has changed her clothes. She was wearing a shiny tight corset expressing her waist and breasts. She didn't wear a mask. I saw her face. She had long dark hair. The black angel was beautiful and sexy but somehow not my type.

A thought came to my head: "I don't know...I don't know why I came to the church, I don't know who that black angel is. I must be careful. I can't trust her so bluntly. What if she is a demon?" I was watching her and made a cross sign with my fingers in my pocket. "If she's a demon, that should generate some reaction from her." However she didn't even looked once to my side. I saw how she pulled out her Iphone and began to talk with someone.

There was a little boar on the floor. It looked interesting. The boar was size of a foot. I came close to it and that little bastard suddenly jumped on my arm and bit me. The boar toothed to my sleeve and didn't let go. I was trying to shake it off - no luck. I started running around and shaking my hand to get rid of it. I tried to get the boar off with my other hand, but then he would stick to that hand too! Finally I found a way how to get rid of it. " I need to make a double shake off." When the boar toothed to my sleeve I grabbed it with my other hand and immediately shook it off the floor. That fury bastard didn't give up. He was running after me. And he was faster! He jumped and got his teeth in my ass. I screamed out of pain and woke up! I felt a real sting in my ass for a few seconds

I took noted about this dream and went back to bed.

8:50. Remembered one fragment about me being the only white guy in a group.
Also remembered one dream about me participating in a beatbox battle, then struggling to find a place to eat, my friend spending lots of money on alcohol, me buying him a conference ticket and so in..

15:00 I took a nap and remember one fragment about talking with my grandparents.

I heard galantamine stays in system for 48 hours, so I hope it would help me tonight too!
All in all I am very happy with such a cool dream. However I am disappointed I couldn't become lucid

I am standing in a garden floating in space and realized this must be a dream, and become lucid. The garden had a small walk way leading to a tree shading a fish pond. I can see many types of flowers and plants covering this chunk of earth. Since i was in space i could see stars and such,along with a large planet resembling earth. Only this planet had more of a green hue than a blue hue, and the land had more of a redish color.
I am amazed by the beauty of this place. It blew my mind.
I call out, ''what is this place?"
The clouds lit up with a purple color (my favorite color
and a womans voice spoke so softly, "this is a dream, you are looking at your dream world. You call it Starlight." I am so shocked to speak with her again so i take this moment to ask this all knowing entity about parallel universes, she said dreams are similiar to parallel worlds, then told me not to ask too many questions that go beyond my personal existence. So i just ask about how we can help this planet. But she didnt answer, I had fallen into the pond trying to get closer to the purple cloud. As i struglled to get out of the water ( at this point losing focus) I thought how amazing it would be to see her. But i just floated on down into the water.
The next thing i know i am on the planet i was just looking at. The earth had a red/ yellowish tint and everything felt familiar, like it was another form of the town i lived in. Only everything had been set up around the factory instead of general stores or anything like that. I walk up to some people heading in for work, i pretended to work there to get inside ( following the story of the dream kinda deal, still lucid, just like going with the flow.) and see what it looked like. Someone saw me and started talking to me, I asked him what this place as and he just gave me the planet name. which was different than Earth. I began to tell him i was from earth and he just freaked out, his eyes filled with blood and popped out, revealing alien android looking eyes. His flesh began to melt, uncovering the metal and organic flesh of the alien being. Its hands grew longer and body began to get taller. I realized i need to confront this dream monster head on...only physically confronting it, i didnt ask its purpose or what it meant. I just destroyed it like Neo, lol. grabbed its head and sholder and just severed the head. Other people also turned into these aliens and i just knew i was going to kick some ass. So i destroyed the group of aliens and i got so excited the dream scene changed into me in the inner city having a gun waved at me, and this is where i lost lucidity. I just began to get scared by the gun and tried to defend myself. But as i threw a knife, his wife got in the way and she dropped. He kind of just stopped and said accidents happen, so he took me to his house and showed me his other wife...idk. It was a cool dream at first, just got stupid near the end.
But it was the second time talkin to the woman in the clouds...i just had to get that out there.
soorrrry for the lousy typing and grammar. REALLY TIRED!

I Remember gaining my conscious during a dream even though I didn't do any RC at all. I just gained Lucidity somehow and started messing around with things. I started summoning all kinds of people/things like walls and people. I tried to just outright summon something but it failed. I've found that the best way for me to summon things would be to have something block the place where u want to summon the object. I Had to use my hand to block the area first before I Summoned a wall to block the door so my brother can't get out. I did it a couple of times and got bored so I just went around and summoned a whole bunch of people (some of who I don't even know). But the dream ended soon and I just wanted to test out Summoning.

12.25.13

Last night bed around 1am - 8:50am
Last week or so, I have been going to bed around 11pm, because I have started new work. It's very hectic and tiring as hell.

When I have recall, it's about this new work, and also working on DV. I'm off today and tomorrow and ready to do some serios sleeping and dreaming. And remembering.

EDIT:
OMG, just as I clicked on save, I remembered a crazy dream from last night. All about sex. I think I was disturbed by reading somebodys comment in chat last night. Oh, and also something about what my friend OP said, hahah.

DR:
So, I'm in a group of 5-7 people. I and one other person are older, and in position of authority of some kind. We are both same sex. We are walking into some building. Not really hotel, because rooms are free. It's in the near future. More modern than today, but still very familiar and not too futuristic.

We are in the hallway and by touching the door, it opens. It's made out of translucent glass. Three of us take rooms right next to each other. We know we are there to have sex. We just not sure who with whom, or if some others are coming. I'm sitting with this other adult, I think it's my favorite teacher, and I'm wondering if she is thinking to do it with me. Because I'm thinking "NOT". We are there to only supervise.

DR:
Could be same dream, but now it's only me. Same sexual athmosfere.

I was talking to a DC about a list of subjects and decided to use my hand to be easier to remember what i was saying. when i notice, i am touching my sixth finger and, then, notice there's a seventh finger. Oh, i am dreaming. I don´t stabilize, just go to a bald head DC and try to write something in his head then returned to talk to the first DC but i lost my lucidity and my recall is poor. I remember when the dream faded, i tried to DEILD, which means i retained some lucidity until the end. But, besides the feeling of becoming lucid, nothing special about this dream.

Morning of December 25, 2013. Wednesday.



My dream (or dreams, as it seems to repeat at least once, possibly twice) has at least two sections that are nearly identical or possibly “resets”. I go into a large room from the north entrance, apparently in the early afternoon, that is somewhat like the buildings at the showgrounds near here. A large rhinoceros is lying on his right side and seems slightly injured. He is on a seemingly concrete circular platform about four inches up from the floor and about six or seven feet in diameter. I pet him and move my hand over his wounds and he seems to get healthier and healthier until he is able to stand up and move about on his legs a bit. I almost sense a sort of human-like gratitude from the animal. My dream repeats at least once from here, but with a longer gap of no dreams between, it seems. There are a few other people in the background (mostly female, likely veterinarians and park attendants) that seem to be happy about my presence and my apparent special abilities to help the rhinoceros. I have a good feeling and my dream is unusually clear in imagery and orientation considering I have not seen many rhinoceroses in real life, especially up close.

(There is ambiguity in one version of my dream; it is possible it is a pregnant female, though this is not at all certain.)

Morning of December 25, 2013. Wednesday.



In my dream, my family and I seem to be living in a composite house that is half of our last address in this town (Barolin Street) and half the address in Brisbane in Wavell Heights (Stadcor Street). The first part focuses on the last address’s house’s section, which is mostly the porch that faced east. There is a woman there (as well as my wife) but I do not know who she is; perhaps she is a relative of my wife’s (though that seems unlikely). When on the porch, she is talking about her concern for all the cats that will cease to exist that night. Apparently any cat that is outside at a certain time is captured by the local government and euthanized. She seems to be planning on how she can rescue and keep one cat of her own. It seems to be fairly late at night by that point. There is a lot of clarity and vividness at the point where I stand on the porch looking out into the semidarkness.

A little later, I am in a part of the house that is more like the one in Wavell Heights. We call our two cats in, and they run into the house, but seven more cats soon come into the house - cats that we have never seen before (recurring). They are all different breeds, including a calico. One of them is a very strange fictional breed that is somewhat like a miniature lion (but with tiger stripes) and also reminds me very slightly of a silkie chicken regarding extra hair that hangs back from its head and mid-body area. It is an odd sight. It is possible that this is the cat the unknown woman will pick (because of its unusual appearance and likelihood of being gotten rid of quicker because the government does not like diverse traits in anything of any kind), but it is not certain. I start to contemplate how it will not really be possible to keep all these cats (eight, if the woman leaves with one) and am not sure what will happen.

First OBE

I am laying on my side, facing the wall. I decide to pull the covers up and adjust my position. I open my eyes and look out the little hole my blankets give me. I feel a mild fear sensation, but I’m safe in my blankets. Then I start to hear noises and the vibrational state come on. I hear this loud voice of this male voice narrating, like an audio book. It’s like tuning into a radio station. I can’t hear or make out individual words or phrases, but it was pretty loud I was worried Kim could hear it!

Then I start to sink down and down. I let go even further and drift through my bed. I start to feel the loud “jet engine” sound come rushing through my ears. It’s mildly painful, I kind of wince as it’s getting louder. But soon I’m opening my astral eyes floating above my bed in my astral body. Boom, I’m out.

I end up jumping out of bed to my left, I look back at my body and I don’t see it there. I see the sheets open where my body should have been. I gently make the bed, but I don’t move out of that position. I say, “awareness now!” and “turn on the lights!” But nothing happens. I’m not even interested in leaving the room for some reason. I feel like I’m too tired to do anything. I end up phasing back to the physical.

What was weird was I woke up and opened my eyes, and I wasn’t in the position I thought I fell asleep in. I think I ended up in a lucid dream state identical to my physical reality right before I had the OBE. Crazy.

Second OBE

I don’t remember how this one happened, but I eventually got out of body and went out the front door. Lucid, I walk outside and see a van with two male drivers sitting in my driveway. I was going to just keep on going, but I purposefully walked over to talk to them.

The window rolls down, it’s Bob from my high school in the driver’s seat and another dude I didn’t know in the passenger. We said hello, and I interrupted and said, “Hey, do you know I’m dreaming?” And Bob said, “yes!” and seemed like, "obviously!"

I said to him, “Why am I dreaming of you? I mean, I hadn’t thought about you in years!?” Bob looks at his friend, both smiling as if they know something I don’t. They seem to be debating how to explain it. I’m excited with anticipation. I start to lose focus and things grow fuzzy. I desperately try to hang on and try staring up close at the details on Bob’s face. It helps but not enough. Before Bob gets a chance to tell me his answer, I phase back to the physical and wake up disappointed.

But I’m still satisfied I went lucid and even had the opportunity to ask my first dream character what they represent. That’s a success in my book.

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00:00 Wednesday 2013-12-25 comp #16 night #13

00:00 bedtime

03:03

F1) I said "bullshit bullshit bullshit..." about the flying man, flying around with a (something?)

04:39

F2) fighting

05:27

F3) someone's trying to get me in trouble

07:22

1) "ship battles & potstickers"
On a ship at night in the Mediterranean sea, one guy is swimming in the warm water, the crew is on board, one of the guys is playing the classical guitar, suprisingly well, I hear it clearly and follow the melody for a while, he's not playing perfectly but still very well, I'm quite astonished such a rough/low-brow guy can play so well.

It's daytime and the ship is moving through the air, we've taken on a huge cargo lot of rugs, piles of rolled up rugs cover the deck, I'm concerned we have too many rugs on board.

Enemy scouts ahead of the path of our ship have spotted us and recognized our ship. I'm in a team to kill the scouts. I try to chop the head off of one guy by hitting his neck from two sides at once with a blade in each hand. It's not working and I'm squeamish about continuing.

Attack scene: inside the ship, the enemies were attacking, the enemies were approaching the doors and shooting in grenades that bounce around inside around corners and exploding. I also shoot some bouncing grenades back at them.

I'm DO: 2 from my team are retreating back to our ship, one, an infantry, makes it inside but stops to help/watch the flying mech partner, which is caught by another flying mech in a strong stream of machine gun fire, I watch the steam of fire, it is ripping our mech to shreds, pieces of metal are flying everywhere, I think our guy won't survive.

I'm in a high place, and a woman is gesturing/calling to me from a platform about 100 feet down a hill from my position and asking "what happened to the potstickers?". There are a few people on this small platform (about 4 square meters). I can't understand what she's saying so I mimic holding a telephone up to my right ear with my right hand so that she will call me. She doesn't, so eventually I fly down to the platform. They're asking me where the potstickers are. I conclude that someone threw away the potstickers which were boiling in the water when the attack began, so nobody knew there were still there in the water and probably threw them out with the old water. I put them in the water initially, then was distracted by the attack, I tell this story a few times. I then see a frying pan with some potstickers/dumplings cooking in oil and ask "hey is anybody going to have these?"

08:31 took 30 drops mother's wort.

F4) DO flying over a map of the US, I was trying to figure out a route to the West coast.

09:59 BTB

11:13

2) "amazingly real imagination" (all but lucid: vivid, active, but without "I'm dreaming")
Swimming in water, I see up ahead some people, I go to them, still in the water, they're talking about what happens when you fall into a pool of juice (different kinds of juices), I say I swam once in a pile of sliced kiwis. I have trouble saying kiwis it comes out like "kee-vees", and I repeat it again, the woman looks at me funny. I swim away from them and see a girl nearby. I say to myself "if this were a dream I would get with her," I reach for her and then my vision sharpens and she comes very clear, it was like becoming lucid without the acknowledgement that I'm dreaming. I'm amazed that my "imagination" is so powerful, 3D, and realistic. Vivid high definition clear visuals, and I have good touch sensation. She's naked and I touch her for a few seconds before the scene changes.

3) "coffee with the drunk blonde"
I'm in some kind of a bar, there was someone I knew there, a beautiful blonde-haired woman in a black evening dress. she was very drunk, I did not want her to try to go home by herself. She starts walking out, I go to her and say "let me help you home, let's go get some coffee." I felt attracted to her. We're starting up some stairs, I said "turn around," she's ahead of me on the stair and turns around and I pull her into a light hug, and I kissed her right cheek through her blonde hair. We continue walking around looking for coffee, I'm holding her closely against my side with one arm around her waist, I feel her against me and I feel my hand on her waist very clearly, it's soft and a wonderful feeling. I imagine some people are looking at me funny (isn't he married?) my answer is "hey she's just a friend and I'm helping her out". I said "let's go for a coffee in the hotel, it will wake you up," she says ok, we're in a restaurant she starts to sit down in a regular open area, where other people also sit down at the same table, I say "no no let's go back here," I indicate a sort of lounge with couches, there's an even darker more intimate area to the right but we don't go there. We enter the lounge area with couches and she says "now this is more like it," there are a bunch of black kids playing games on another couch, and she really likes kids so she went to play with them, I think "oh, great," sarcastically, I go to sit with them.

4) "gangster casino & the mayor"
It's night and I'm standing outside on a sidewalk, I'm next to a business / office building with black shades drawn down over the windows, there is light inside, there are people moving around, I think a security guy is watching me through a window. I'm standing there watching something on the ground. Another guy appears standing next to me and watching me. I'm wearing a robe with nothing underneath. I think it was a bank at first, but later imagine it's a casino.

And older woman was reelected mayor. She was whooping it up in celebration, skipping through the crowds and waving her arms in the air and whopping in delight. She had prepared a gift for the city upon becoming mayor, and she was working on a building-sized banner to proclaim this gift. The gift is a full day of no government regulations, including not having to pay taxes on that day.

I'm inside the casino, it's very small, just a few tables, this is a private/gangster casino, I'm looking for a blackjack table. I see a table with a young skinny sneaky looking Italian looking male dealer, I imagine he's a card shark and very adept at cheating. I find a table but i can't see the table limit sign. I'm poking around the table looking for it eventually find it and see it's a $5 minimum table, I'm turned off by this I only wanted to spend $20 but still play for a while. I'm playing a hand, maybe I lose a hand, the casino chips are huge about the size of a pancake. I give the dealer cash and wait for my chips. I have a bunch of cards in my hand I don't think they're from the table. If these are my cards I could follow the play along with these cards and know exactly which cards are still left, no reason to count cards.

This whole sleep cycle was on my stomach, head to right of pillow, normally I sleep only on my side, sometimes I sleep on stomach in late morning briefly if both hips/shoulders are a bit sore. Quite an amazing dreaming night given the fact that I had a hugely stressful evening last night with a lot of drama. I didn't expect to sleep not to mention recall anything. But I was very tired as well. Got to sleep earlier than normal, I really need to keep my to-bed time around midnight for better dreaming.

I live near the Baikonur Cosmodrome.
A soyuz lifts off as I watch, but fails shortly after and the crew escapes. I get on my bicycle and rush towards the launch pad. I ride through a village where I find out one of my old friends lives in an underground house. I take him with me to where the soyuz capsule is. The astronauts turn out to be my classmates. they're injured but they run away as soon as they see me.
Scene Change::
I'm on a paraglider flying over the launch pad. Here's where I go semi-lucid, but immediately crash into a bus and I wake up.

After a dry spell of a year or so, I have been able to become lucid again, my dreams are extremely vivid with the help of lateral Kava Root imported from Hawaii.

I have been asking DC for a gift, it was a challenge. SO far 2 have given me something, but the first I can't remember upon awakening and the second gift I couldn't understand. My last dream was about flying through a valley with undertones of reminiscence for the 90's. The hills were singing and the songs where beautiful. The colors were deeper, richer and brighter than anything you would see on earth. Still I am having a hard time reintegrating into the lucid landscape again. Hopefully it will come back again as strong as it was a few years ago.

I had experienced a WILD and "teleported" to the outside of my house. The warmth of the sun felt amazing on my skin and the wind blowing through the trees made me really think about the reality of things. Anyway. I take a step and just think, " who wants to walk in a dream?" so i bolted to the sky. I notice below me a couple of people i know from school standing around a gas station. I land right next to one, namd Jeremey. I begin to shake him and tell him its just a dream, that he has to wake up. He just gives me a crazy look and i just say goodbye and fly off.
Two or three months later, Jeremy came to my house and told me about this dream he had and almost blew his mind, somehow we shared a dream and i woke him upon within the dream, he said as i shook him, he realized he was in a dream and was the most vivid dream he has had in his eniter life. LOL.
Crazy things are possible.