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Date: 2 July

Pre bed: SJW, 100mg B6, 1 p.oil capsule

Total sleep time: 8 hrs

Early LD (+2hrs after falling asleep): Unfortunately, I don't remember much as I feel asleep after the LD (even though I thought about it briefly) then woke up some time after that to visit the restroom therefore managed to put some key words. Obviously a very exciting to me LD, somewhere outdoors like a yard with lots of DCs and had something to do with TOTM.

WBTB: p.oil capsule and some latte. I was very sleepy and did not spend the necessary time out of bed, I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow. I have very little recall of the dreams that followed too.

Dreams: related to classmates again. Back to school for some event.

OBE/FA/LD: Just before final wake and I guess after some dream I can't remember, I end up in the void. I concentrate on my hearing and notice sounds that most likely come from outside. As I do that I end up in my room. There is some confusion because the part of the bed and room that I see totally looks like my room and everything is very clear. I start some maneuvering to fall asleep/ld?, change the scene, move my dream body while having no idea which body is moving after all. After these dream body movements, I fall on the floor with some bedsheets. While the fall is not physical, I am still slightly confused and think that I may really have fallen down, so continue with my efforts to project somewhere else. Then I notice a toy of mine is on the floor as well, but it is transparent and there's two of it, so that finally works as a plausible RC, but before I could react, I wake up for real and of course I very suspiciously look around and RC.

Comment: Yeah, I definitely prefer those types of WILDs/DILDs where you just enter a dream somewhere else. These in my bed/which body is it type of situations are just so confusing. Also I should increase time out of bed during WBTB even if this means some insomnia, because I have been sleeping so deep lately that recall and LDs suffer. Well, at least I get some nice sleep.

Okay, last night I failed badly because I got no sleep. I went to bed at the usual time but I wasn't able to fall asleep until like 1 AM.
Tonight I'll fall asleep instantly though because I did parkour for 4 hours today

I also noticed that ADA is becoming a passive process in my mind, I don't even need to put in effort anymore. I actually enjoy being aware all the time because life is more intense that way.

Comment: A bit behind with updating

Date: 30 June

Pre bed: 3mg mel

WBTB: Some latte

Total sleep time: appr. 6 1/2 hrs

Early dream1: I am posting to our conversation in DV

Dream Fragment2: There is an old apple pudding that I try to throw away in the sink but the apples won't dissolve.

Dream3 Irritating Kitten: I am on the street where we live and there is a grey kitten that catches my attention. We play for a while but as I leave it starts to behave like a crazy cat, always coming back to me faster and faster. Its claws and little teeth are sharp, I want to get rid of it. Finally, I toss it aside and as it lands on the other side of the street, it turns into a dead rat, with its insides open. I have concerns of what will people think about hygiene, having a dead animal on the street, but then some guys come pick it up.

WBTB: I was initially worried that I am not wakeful enough, so headed for the latte. It was not the best morning to do so as there were lots of distractions and I ended up very nervous, struggling to fall asleep for an hour and a half.

Falling asleep/LD: I can't even remember where, it was a dream forming around me but I woke

Falling asleep/LD: I appear walking down the street of my hometown. Some people are passing by, I try to hold on to a big tall guy but the dream slips away and I wake up.

WILD (Nyx style): I find myself in some room with soft light, as the dream forms. For some reason, I attempt to control the dream by using a touchpad screen? I stop doing this and look around. The dream is unstable and I try to engage whoever is around. There are three-four DCs and I immediately recognize my parents there. The memory of quickly phasing through the walls comes to mind but I dismiss it, then run through some tasks that I remember and decide to ask the DCs there including my parents how to find Xanous. Unfortunately, these DCs are totally dumb, so I get almost no reaction from them, no matter how many times I ask. They go to sleep on the few beds that are in the center of the room. The dream is still unstable (possibly because I am super wakeful), so I start jumping on the bed (white bed sheets) to engage myself a bit more. I find it quite pleasant and I don't have to worry about breaking anything. I am bounce-walking now, trying to stabilize this way, as I notice the instability is still here to an extent. Then as I am jumping in front of a wooden desk, my leg hits some small item on the floor and it even hurts a bit. I find this strange.

Finally, I calm down, look around the room and ponder my next action. The light in the room is very soft and pleasant, as if coming from a lamp. Lots of the furniture that I barely notice is wooden. I remember three wooden doors on the two walls in front of me. They are all closed. Initially, I decide to stay in the room and explore it, but then the door in front of me is open. It is dark but I think of playing a bit, open the door with TK, nice! I go forward, now there is light in the room. As I am slowly and carefully moving forward, I notice that there are windows showing the reflection. Very interested to check it out, I concentrate on it and worryingly see someone else's reflection there. So behind the door as I am entering is another DC that obviously corresponds to this reflection and she just...well I just didn't expect her to be there, so got a bit scared.

I fully enter this new room and look at the DC in front of me. At this point the dream is super stable and vivid. I carefully examine her looks and try to memorize as much detail as possible.Ok, I now try to talk to her, but as she replies there is no sound. I continue asking her questions but can't understand anything, just that she answers "no" about something and she moves her head in negation. My speaking is more like thoughts and without sound, but she understands me. I truly start to believe that I have crossed into another multiverse and that this is the cause of our inability to communicate. I ask her if it is because of energy? Does she see me at all? Her mother comes around as well,I continue questioning them - do they see me, or can they only hear me? I realize that I am spending way too much time and concentration on this apparently useless conversation, and orientate myself in the room so that I can report in what kind of room I was. It is a kitchen, no, a dinning room. There is a large table with some chairs.

My attention is caught by another reflection in the window. It is day outside. I am curious to see how I look so move closer and notice a white T-shirt with some red flowers on it, find the clothes interesting. These DCs are all around me still in another section of the room, now that might have been the kitchen. Going through tasks again. Ok, let's do "lucidity DC" just in case. I don't believe I will see these DCs ever again, but I still tell them that if they ever dream of me and see me they have to tell me it's a dream, etc. Since the dream is quite stable, I once again I think I might try to find Xanous. I ask the DCs to help me find him, pause for a moment and listen. There is no single sound in this dream. They are still trying to interact with me, saying something but in vain. The mother holds a roll of blue paper in her hands and I come up with the idea that they write down whatever they want to say. They take too long and as I wait doing nothing, the dream dissolves. I do a lousy DEILD attempt then impatiently wake myself up.

Maybe I should have been more persistent with my attempt to go back there but I was way too awake and overexcited.

I was at my home when I saw these black cars pull up outside my house, they came out with guns and I ran downstairs and told everyone to go out into the garden quickly as these people with guns were about to break in. My dad pulls out an ak47 out of nowhere and starts shooting at them, I wasn't sure of what to do so I stayed in the garden. There were more of them coming. My dad pulled back into the garden and apparently they were going upstairs, we remembered that my mother could be upstairs so I jumped on top of this wall thingy and climbed up onto the window, I pulled a ak47 out of nowhere lol. I was aiming at the door to see if someone was going to come in and I saw someone rush in but it was my Dad. I then remember we all ran away from the house, I remember running through some cave and going under some crack on the wall, they were after us and were shooting at me, the crack on the wall led to these rooms, I kept sprinting through them, being shot at. I ended up in some shopping centre. There were these 3 girls whom I knew from school that were spraying ak47's at me, I went up to them and took their guns off them, I remember talking to one of the girls asking why she was doing this, and she was saying how she needed the money. I told her that she was doing wrong and I forgave her. We walked out of the shopping centre to some bench were I met up with some of my family. I remember talking about what happened as though it was nothing. I also remember saying how I felt invincible, and even said that it's because i'm in a dream.

Last night, I had a dream that didn't really make sense:

Apparently, in the dream, a fan that is painted the color red can cause someone to pass out or something.
So then this "war" started between me (with some friends of mine) and some other team or something. I don't really know.

Anyway, a "war" took place. They attempted to raid us a few times, and we attempted to raid them a few times. I don't remember how exactly the raids worked, but I'm pretty sure that they involved the red fans. After a few raids, things turn a bit different.

The dream suddenly turns into some weird form of the Civ Stage in Spore. Their "base" is a bit more detailed in this part. It looks like a small restaurant that sells burgers. Anyway, my friend launches an ICBM that destroys their restaurant thing and then the war is over.

Then I woke up.

So I've decided to do a 30-day challenge of using the SSILD technique. I have experimented with the technique before with somewhat mixed success. So this time I'm going to use nothing but SSILD for the next 30 days and record how many LD's and FA's I get. So here we go:

Day 10
(Note: This should be day 11, but last night I fell back asleep before I even started the cycles, so I decided not to count it. I don't even remember any of my dreams that night anyway...)

I went to bed about 12:30 and woke up at 5:45. In order to keep the night before from happening again, I got up, went to the bathroom, and played games on my phone until about 6. I then fell asleep just before my final cycle.

The only thing I remember is that I had a dream. I don't remember any part, aspect, scene, emotion, or anything about the dream - just that I had one. My theory is that I'm having one of my recall droughts that I have every few weeks where I go from remembering 1-2 dreams a night to remembering about 1-2 a week. Hopefully, this will only last a few days, maybe a week, but in the mean time, I think I'll take some B-6 to bring my recall back to normal levels.

Day 10: LD - 0, FA - 0
TOTAL: LD - 5, FA - 3

Dream 1- I was sitting in a restaurant at Walmart eating spaghetti. The texture and taste was very vivid. I was chewing with a mouthful when I was approached by a beautiful black woman. She sat down in front of me and I finished chewing to say something to her. I woke up before it went anywhere.

Dream 2- My roommate put a giraffe design rug in my room. It was hers she didn't want it anymore so she dumped it on me. I didn't want it either and was going to throw it away.

Dream 3- I was walking around a mall looking at pretty women. One or more were walking a floor above me.

This was yesterday morning. I woke up around 4 am from a lucid nightmare. In it, my husband Adam and me were at a place getting the car fixed, but the mechanic shop was not a 'shop' it was a huge dumping site, excavated land, recently emptied of trash, people were walking around scrounging for the last usable pieces of trash they could find, they were wearing zipped up haz-mat suits and wearing goggled facial masks as if they were walking in a place unsuitable to breathe in, but the air was fine. I remember 4 people dressed like that. They were spraying something on the ground. I was near the car and talking to Rosa, an internet friend of mine, and Adam was outside. Rosa touched my arm and told me "Adam is dead, I think he's been killed." I fly to the dump site, land and i'm next to his body, hes laying on his back, looking asleep and peaceful, but clearly dead, hes got no pulse and hes not breathing. The 4 masked/suited people look at me and i look at them, no words are exchanged but they know that i know they had sprayed toxic fumes and Adam breathed it in.

Dream changes and I am transporting adams body in a casket, by hearse-bus (a huge bus built just to haul a funeral casket in reality this does not exist im sure), to somewhere up north for burial. im meeting his dad. im at some school building, sitting on the steps just outside of the building, and then Adam (who is dead in the casket on the bus which is parked near by) walks up to me and sits down beside me, and we talk, as we normally would if he were alive and well. we talk about what needs to be done, our happiness and thankfulness for life together, how we wanted more time, and how he hopes i am ready to live life without him, but he also says that he is still there, and always will be. suddenly i run to the casket inside the bus and open it and there on adams chest are 3 black feathers, like from a raven/blackbird. i pick them up and run back to where adam is still waiting for me at the steps, and show them to him, and say 'Look. These are the gifts you gave me.' he said 'yes. i hope you keep them.'

backs story - Adam is in reality, struggling to stay alive. he's been deathly ill for months, and has had multiple strokes since February of this year, which have left him partially blind, unable to use the left side of his body, agoraphobic, and unable to track time/think clearly. he was saved and baptised in may of this year, so i wonder if the death in the dream was of his old life before Christ.

the blackbird feathers.... 'Blackbird' was the first song he taught me to sing, the first one we performed live as a duet, and the first one he taught me how to play on the guitar.

i also have to wonder about the 4 suited hazmat people who 'killed him'. see, back in may, right after he was baptized, i dreamed of 4 demons who had been cast out of Adam, i posted this in my journal its titled "Will never forget this one!". i wonder if they attacked him, or this was simply to make us aware that they are still close by. in the first dream, they were all highly charismatic, enchanting musicians, just like Adam. they were trying to get MY attention, to get adam to come back, because adam was either unable to sense them/ignoring them. in this dream, they were hidden behind masks, in essence, attacking him unseen.

after his stroke, adam could no longer play or sing - after a lifetime of being a musical genius, songwriter, stage performer and recording artist. he mourned the loss of that more than anything else. i remember the woman who did the baptising (another musician, bless her), praying over him asking God to heal him of his afflictions, release him from his addictions, and if God saw it fit for adam to ever be able to pick up his guitar and play again and sing, that God would use him for His work in whatever way God deemed fit. its taken 4 months, but adam is finally able to use his left hand well enough to chord the guitar for a few minutes each day before the pain of using that hand becomes too much,and the strength in his voice is coming back slowly as well. he had another small stroke a few days ago, and since then his right hand (the good one) wont stop shaking, and the left one feels numb. its another healing process, another reminder of why he and i both need to be strong, together and as individuals. he blew me away two days ago when he asked me to google the lyrics to Amazing Grace, a song that until he came to know Jesus just 6 weeks ago he never thought much about. and he belted that song out, with all his strength. his voice that was left withered and cracked after the stroke, sounded like crystal, resounding such healing energy.

I spoke to Rosa about the dream, and she said that she believes that north is the direction in which healing comes from. She also said she believes the blackbird feathers are healing, as is any combination of the number 3. She's Metis (NA).

I've changed my methodology and I'm using the principle of the parlour -game "Battleships" to find the REM "sweet-spots" both day and night. Given that there's so little real hard facts about REM cycles I'm trying 20 minute WILD sessions from 12.00 pm to 8.00 pm and 12.00 midnight to 8.00am

I've pinned down some night-time dream-ends. (That's assuming that waking with strong dream-recall is a good sign that the dream was recent) I still need lots of pre-conditioning re automatic wake-ups and I'm cutting out night-time WBTB + WILD's for now while I concentrate more on the cycles, the mantras and ADA sessions

Still loving it....

As far back as I can remember, my friend and I were at a camp ground, carrying huge axes. I believe we were waiting to play hide and go seek. After I have a false awakening, I am at the bottom of this hill. I suddenly become lucid, and I yell out "I'm Dreaming!" I clearly remember hearing like my name or a bell ring in my mind when I became lucid. Everything started to turn kinda clearer, but it was still kinda blurry. I became calm, and yelled increase lucidity. Everything got clearer, and then I grounded myself in the dream, by rubbing, licking, and smelling my hands. My friend quickly told me that we were about to miss the bus. I told him to jump on, and we started flying towards the bus. We made it there, and on the bus, I decided I wanted to teleport somewhere. I imagined transporting to this place, and suddenly this very strange interface came up. It had little monsters on my screen, and then I pointed to a place on the map. I then went there. I appeared at this apartment building, and I started walking in. Now, everything started getting blurry and I tried to get it back to normal. Everything got clear again, but then I woke up.

I remember virtually nothing. I vaguely remember telling someone I love him/her -- possibly my crush -- but that is probably just from my regular thoughts.

I attempted FILD a few times, but failed. I was never tired enough.

I am going to keep thi one short as the dream as it is far too complex to write without being far too long and a bore.

In sort I am Ina. Supermarket , I m searching through the aisles with my twin. I gain luidity to sor degree and marvel at the complexity and speed of my dream, how quickly I an prepopulate the items so fast that I consciously can not best it.

I am searching for fish and have lost luidity however right at the end of the dreM I find what I am looking for and then gain a massive spike in luiity and recall the whole detail of the dream and how it was far more complex than a normal supermarket .

Sorry for the typos I am on a tablet. Will need to fix this later

No recall today, but it was a restful night. I woke up feeling refreshed and well.

Dream recall from today's nap.

I was in some kind of outdoor place and was talking to somebody.

cant remember last nights dream but had small nap earlier on so heres that one
in acar with mum an dad he keeps calling her red rose
were at a family party me and my cousin are in a sort of paganet there we dont win
mum and my sis sis is very young are dancing at party mum picks up sis they fly in the air i think no wonder they like going partys

a friend of mine is in a relationship with a married man shes heavily pregnant to him she has left a dvd at his house and wants me to go with her to get it we sit in car outside house when the woman {his wife] goes out we go in then she my friend says hes put the dvd onto an old video tape and took it to his allotment which was far away she needs the toilet and goes upstairs the wife starts to come back in trying to open patio doors i run out hope my friend hurrys up i wait outside the wife and her friends pushing pram come out front door when there gone my friend comes out then its darker the husband is there he gets my friend and starts to kill here shes shouting my baby she has turned into giant dragon like creature and the man looks like some kind of devil creature but has same face and wings he has the baby still attached to imbellical cord still attached to my friend he is holding baby up