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#440 - DILD - 3:31AM

I am at work lying on the floor. Bob is talking to someone, but I can't make out what he is saying. I stand up and notice how blurry the environment is and decide that all of this means I am dreaming. The dream feels very early like I nearly did a WILD. I look at my and then feel object to stabilize. I end up feeling church pews and I am in a small church from my past as the dream clears up.

Everything still feels unsteady, but I see my Mother-In-Law praying in her seat. She has a cup of coffee next to her so I decide to test how real it is for me. The temperature is lukewarm and there is no taste or sensation. I see my MIL has moved to kneel at the alter. I follow and put the coffee down next to her. She then moves back to her seat. I think about leaving the church, but I feel the dream would crash so I just play this out the best I can. I get up on stage and sing Glory Glory Halleluiah. I get the first line out, but I'm just not feeling religious right now. I have a false memory of wanting to ask a DC a question about the meaning of life (or was this a really old TOTM?). I rush to my MIL and ask, "What is the secret meaning of life?"
She looks confused and slightly afraid, "I have no clue!" She runs away from me and I shout after her, "Well, there's and honest answer!" I am really glad I didn't get some gibberish that I wold have to try to decode. I wake up.

5:13AM - There was some conversation with Vinny then, I find myself wrapping gauze around my head chin to crown. After several seconds, I feel someone tap my chin sharply which wakes me up with a startle. I have no clue if it was a dream sensation, my own hands moving with the dream, or a ghost in the room! I wasn't scared just really curious what happened. I still am.

5:56am - about to do some drugs with a group of teenagers. We have a lot of conversation about it. I try to look up some information but I can't get my password to work on my phone.

I'm in a hospital, speaking to a doctor. There was some information I'd wanted to get from him, but he's assumed I'm here about something else, a person who's been checked into the hospital with a specific condition. I hide my surprise and go with his assumption, only expressing my surprise that he'd known about this patient, since the ward they're in isn't his responsibility - has he kept an eye out for this condition since the last time we met? I'm privately thinking that if that person's developed that condition, then this both simplifies my job and complicates it; I no longer need the information I'd come here for originally.

I'm discussing this development with three other people in an empty hospital room - a man with a shaved head, a teenage girl, and a person whose gender I'm not completely sure of but I'm going to go with 'she'. Black hair, ragged like she cut it herself, short in the back and long in the front; pale with bad skin; and a grey hoodie zipped up, making her look heavier than she is.

Talking about that patient's condition, the guy with the shaved head had just been saying something about how dreamers have it rough. Talks about how badly things can go wrong just from being interrupted at the wrong moment; talks about people traveling through a dream being dumped back into reality wherever they happen to be at the moment, and hoping you're lucky enough not to be overlapping some physical object at the time; and that's just the passengers, the dreamers themselves get it worse.

The person in the hoodie shrugs this off, says at least if you can heal people, no one cares what nastiness you've got going on; they're content to leave you be in your swamp.

The guy with the shaved head is disgusted by this, says yeah, you enjoy making yourself the worst person you can be.

She says to him that she learned in prison, "There's no such thing as letting go of vanity, Wade."

+(f) going into a shack to find my (small, lightweight) handgun and load it up

+(f) in a large building with dark corridors, flying around outside, team-based conflict

+(f) I see my current-day cat climbing up the driveway of my childhood home, I'm standing just past it on the street

+ (LD #123) I'm on an upper level in a large indoor structure like a mall, and climb up to the railing to jump down, get lucid, and say "woohoo #123!", walking through large crowd of people, look for a female, brief sexy time

+ I'm sitting at a table with friends, my "girlfriend?" is there and I encourage her to come sit with us at the table

+ Observing a variety of sex toys in a store, comparing what is available in one country to what is available in another (on different shelves)

+ My older son S1 is in bed I think he's fake sleeping, I creep closer and peer over an obstruction and see his (creepy) open eyes staring back at me, he's playing a sort of on-line game with younger son S2, S2 is using S1's name for the game, and S1 is trying to "hide" his pieces from view so S2 doesn't cheat.

Two dreams from one night! But recalling them still takes me some time and isn't perfect. I'm still waiting for a LD, which didn't come yet, despite practicing awareness during the day... OK, let's go to the dreams:

1.
[dream]
I've had a birthday party and my mom brought the cake. It was very little. She said it's not normal size, because it would be too much calories. I've gone mad at her and sent her to the bakery to buy a normal one.
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2.
[dream]
I have met someone who said that he hates real life and ran away. My dream vision went after him. He went to his home and turned on the computer monitor. There was some text on the screen. He wanted to play some online game. When a commercial appeared, he got really angry about the delay. He started walking back and forth, waiting till it ends. The commercial was about a new season of Code Lyoko series.
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With my school class we drove on a school trip. On the way we stopped in a shopping mall. Everyone ran around looking for something to do, I just walked around and looked for something interesting. Suddenly in the antique store I saw a kitchen cupboard.

It was made of dark, oaken wood and ornamented with brass, silver and gold elements. There was something wrong about that cupboard. I came closer and started to search through it. Inside I found pans, pots and other various kitchen equipment.

Then in one of the shelves I found some old documents, and old money. Suddenly I realised that it belonged to my grandma, and it was my legacy.

There was something in my dream. I don't recall actually seeing it, but I knew it was there. It wanted something from me. What it wanted was for me to dream of things I was very attached to, it loved these and couldn't get enough. I don't know if it was feeding of them or what, but that's what it wanted, and it did it's best to encourage me to provide them. It's absolute favorite thing was children, and the attachment parent form to their children. I don't have any kids, but it was encouraging me to have some, just so I could bring it it's ultimate prize...

I was contemplating my relationship with my parents last night.

Ive just fallen asleep, and I notice the dreamscape is still kind of dark and shadowy, not fully formed yet. I realize this means I'm dreaming!

I see that I'm at work, so I try to levitate into the air to begin flying, so that I can use the power of momentum to solidify the dream. Only instead of my body rising into the air, a ghost or spirit form of myself rises out of my dream body. Close enough. I completely ignore the spit that just happened, and focus completely on flying, and even looking back at the "body" I just left behind.

I dip and dive, building speed, my flight control gets better, and I randomly float down to the ground. While wondering what do do next, I spot my new co-worker. I get the idea to try and somehow leave a mark on his real physical body by messing with this representation of him in the dream world. I had read of people waking with red marks from doing this, and I wanted to try it. I figured I'd put my hands on his arm or something, but then he began walking right at me.

I throw up my hands and push against my co-worker's chest, but I have no traction, and he just keeps walking, pushing me along until he plows me into some work benches and the impact wakes me up.

I was in a train which seemed to be going through the woods. After one of the stops, the doors nearest to my seat were left open, and that caught my attention. Before I could ask myself if I was dreaming, the railway came to an abrupt end and we fell down.

The scene changed before the impact. All of a sudden, I found myself on top of a small hill, it seemed like I still was in the same woods. I was fully lucid and observed the scenery. On my left and at the foot of the hill, there was a pond of calm water. Ahead of me, on top of another hill, there was a castle tower, but it was only a huge frame (like, the tower was just a frame). The sky was bright blue and there were a few fluffy clouds. The grass and the leaves were of a glossy green. I started walking down the hill towards the tower and I couldn't help but cover my mouth in astonishment. The scenery was unlike anything I've seen before and it was extremely vivid. My mind was clear. I remembered the list I had written the day before about the things I had to do once lucid. I started by looking at my hands to do a RC. I held both of my hands up in front of me and I was taken aback because they were an exact replica of my real hands. I kept staring at them but they were very stable. I was fully aware that I was dreaming, so I stopped with the RC and did what was next on the list: I looked up at the sky and shouted "clarity now!". The scene was already very vivid, but I did it anyway. Then, I shouted "all of my dreams are lucid". While I was doing all of this, I had got down the hill I was originally on and up the second, towards the tower. Once there, I decided I'd attempt to fly, still following my list. I thought I'd run in order to take off, but I finally stopped and let the wind lift me. I lifted pretty high and then took control of the flight, which I had never done before. I started flying at high speed, exploring the whole scenery. I did a looping and it felt as if I had done a backflip underwater (so to speak hahaha). In fact, I the whole thing felt like swimming, but the feeling of speed was stronger than that of a roller coaster. I kept flying for a little while and then landed, and the scene changed.

I was in some building with a lot of people, it was like an office building. I remembered the other list I have, called "Insightful LD", in which I list things to ask the dream while lucid. I wanted to ask DCs questions, but I was having a hard time choosing who to ask. I seemed to recall having read that it didn't matter who you asked, so I approached a random man. I said "tell me something I don't know about myself". He stared at me, but didn't say a word. I moved on to another DC and was about to say the same to him, but he interrupted me saying that question was too much for him. I complained, telling him he hadn't let me finish and I moved on. I thought I'd try something different, so I approached a woman and asked her "what can I do to improve at lucid dreaming?". Again, I didn't get an answer. Then, a classmate appeared and she wanted to go elsewhere. Before going, I turned around and shouted to the DCs: "you guys suck ass!" (so polite hahaha).

I went on with that classmate to a place which looked like a school corridor. She was talking about a mental illness, but I wasn't really listening. I thought the dream was already long enough and I opened my eyes.

Black: Non-dream
Blue: Non-lucid
Red: Lucid

Dream - Running downhill

I remember there being some kind of story before becoming lucid but I can't recall it..
I was standing in the middle of a road facing downhill, it was pretty steep, and I became lucid randomly. Knowing that the past few times I've had a lucid dream I've avoided doing reality checks, I decided to do them this time as a way of trying to stabilize. I pushed a finger into the palm of each hand a few times and keep my eyes moving, I should also mention that I was running downhill too. I decide to set a goal, finding a certain girl who I have to ask something to find out my opinion on something ***super vague***
I run around shouting the name of the person I'm looking for, but things got bumpy... As in I started bumping into things, like cars. I woke up in the end, my intentions were pretty pure in that dream (no caveman mode! woot!), and I remember that one of the cars I bumped into was my parents and it had the baby seat which my daughter sits in, but I decided in the dream to avoid following the dream story. The end.

I was in a really nice mall with my friend Dylan. It was just us two at the moment, and we were just walking around. It was extremely quiet and at the moment there was no on in sight as we just walked in. The floor was made out of a shiny white marble tile, and the walls were painted white with buffed hardwood along the walls in some places. Me and Dylan continued walking forward until we came to this odd elevator. The elevator had no top, it was only a platform that you get on and after you pressed a button it would go up. We got on this elevator and closed ourselves in for safety. The floor of this platform was a solid dark gray. I pressed the button and suddenly the elevator started to go up. However, it was going up extremely slowly. "Wait a minute, it should be going way faster than this" I say out loud.
I then walk over to where the button is located but by that time the elevator has already reached the second floor and it stops so I just go with it. Me and Dylan look for a place to get out of the elevator and onto the second floor itself, but the elevator for some reason, is placed a few feet away from the actual floor itself. So at the moment, the elevator is hovering about 3 to 5 feet away from the floor itself. There is some type of weird accordion-like pathway, so we go across it to get to the second floor. Dylan goes first, and I follow. Nothing is separating us from falling besides our mere balance. As I cross over, I realize that other people are waiting to get on the elevator platform to go down. The people that are waiting is the girl that I liked since 8th grade all the way to sophomore year, and next to her is an older lady. "Holy crap, why is she here?" I think to myself. I am stunned that she is in this mall because I haven't seen her in forever.
I ignore her because of some embarrassing past moments that we've had, and I continue on. On this second floor, the interior design is basically the same except for that the floor is now gray carpet. I walk over to a lounge area where Dylan already is and I look around. I see 2 or 3 orange-ish tan chairs along with a table. All around these chairs and table there are small items scattered all over the floor. I spot a golden watch and a knife not far from me, so I walk over to these items and look at them. The watch is really shiny and looks completely new and the knife is extremely sharp. I go to pick up the knife, but something inside of me tells me not to as it belongs to somebody nearby and I don't want them to think that I am stealing. Dylan is looking around as well.