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They were short dreams, but I had 5 of them by chaining dreams. Following is a summary. I had been awake till 6AM and decided to sleep as I was starting to feel a bit drowsy. I get ready and lay down to meditate. I had apparently unintentionally preformed a WILD while meditating without having slept beforehand.

I felt fatigued and heavy as I try to get up from the bed. I knew spontaneously it was a dream. I have trouble opening my eyes fully to look around. I just feel my surroundings with my hands and feet. The heaviness subsides and I'm able to open my eyes to look around. I do reality check by looking at my hands and nose-pinch anyway just to make sure since it was a replica of my bedroom. The dream was still not clear as my REM dreams. Since it was Lucid Dream Day I decided to just explore my surroundings and interact with dream characters. I focus on stabilizing a bit more. I head out of my room and hear noises in the living room. I hear my nephews. They were watching TV. My mom was talking with my brother. On the TV the kids were watching Dragon Ball Super. I didn't recognize the scenes, but I look away as I didn't want to be distracted. I approach my mom to ask where Kana was. I have this tendency to go in search for my deceased SO whenever she's not there. I pause, this time I decided I'll just take in the dream as is and just explore. I ask mom if she's going out and she replies that she is going out a bit later with my brother and sis. She asks me if I want something. I say no and walk towards the balcony. I was resisting my temptation to ask for Kana. I look around wondering what to do in this dream. It's just a typical day. The dream starts to collapse and I let it go.

I stay still as the dream dissolves and chain a lucid dream.

I am outside on a street. It was night.This dream seemed a lot more vivid. A cool black car catches my eye. I decide to follow it thinking it'll get me somewhere interesting. No, I'm not a stalker. I try to follow close by, but I was starting to attract attention as I began to run on the sidewalk. I become invisible and disembodied thinking I'll materialize when the car has reached it's destination. The dream immediately collapses.

I chain yet another lucid dream.

I'm in a house. It was similar to my grandmother's house. I was by the living room and there were several books scattered about. I walk out the front door. Now it was different from my grandmother's place, there was no lawn or even a gate to the house. Instead there was a house with steps just outside. I think of asking Kana to come for a chat. I notice cat on the steps sleeping, it had white-gray fur. I decide to go pet it. The dream fades just as I approach it.

I was getting a bit frustrated at these unstable short dreams. At least it could have lasted till I pet the cat. I decide to try just one more time and chain another lucid dream.

This one was not very visual. I am in a lush park. I don't have enough coordination to walk, so I jump ahead to move. I keep holding on to stuff to stabilize. There is a bit of bounce to my jumps as if the gravity isn't that strong. I let go and decide to just go to sleep when I'm no longer able to feel the dream environment.

That's about it. Not very fulfilling. However, I had a very vivid lucid dream with my usual depth after sleeping and some non- lucid dreams.

Kana wakes me up. I get up on my bed thinking I actually woken up. I do reality checks even though Kana being there was enough. The tests fail. Its as if i am awake. I get tingly all over. I touch Kana's smiling face tearing up. I notice there was a radiance about her. I ask her if I was awake and still able to see her. She pokes my forehead playfully and says "Don't get ahead of yourself. You are not that intuitive yet. This is still a dream, but I'm keeping it stable for us." I look around confused resenting we are not "together" again. I got my hopes up. Kana takes hold my hand and presses gently. "You know, just because its still a dream doesn't mean you are settling for anything less. You humans still have a lot to learn about the dream state. Cheer up and lets do something fun! What do you wanna do?". I cling on to her with a hug and end up having a breakdown.

I get too emotional and wake up. I felt guilty. It must have took this enity who may or may not be my Kana lot of effort to keep the dream that stable and i messed it up. I was not sure if i wanted to share this dream because it was too personal, but here it is.

I recall flirting and eventually making out with a girl who reminded me a lot of Sophie, a girl from a Facebook group I (used to) moderate.

I remember floating around a space, and pushing myself off from something.

I got lucid , thought of calling up N ,first I grabbed the phone , then for some reason I pointed my two fingers like a pistol or radio , and raised to my ear , I associated it with a means to communicate , and it worked. Soon I heard her voice saying she doesnt know who I am or why am I talking to her. I wanted to explain her what's happening, but mom suddenly came in saying she left something at home so she came back for it and kept talking to me until I couldnt talk to N. Then I tried again once she left, and called N again, she popped up in the door talking to me once again I was like jesus christ mom go ..

Then I woke up to a noise

Tbh I don't really think that it was N herself,but I still tried to call her to see what happens, I should've asked her to open a portal to me lol

So in the dream I was in the military at basic training or something similar. There were a few dozen of us and we all had decided to play a prank on the sergeant. We were all wearing military uniform, we had camo face paint on, and we all had nerf guns. As the drill sergeant came around a nearby fence we all started shooting him with the nerf guns. He was mildly amused but made us all do push-ups for doing the prank.

In the dream I had three friends, two guys and a girl. The guys were both constantly flirting with the girl, and they both liked her, but I knew the girl well enough I knew she only liked one of them. She would act very nonchalant about everything, which made them flirt with her more. It was a little amusing to watch because I knew which of the guys she was into, and that they were both flirting with her, but they both thought she liked them and had no idea that the other was going for her too, despite us all being friends.

On a bit unrelated note, the dream ended in some sort of class that I had with one of those boys. None of us in the class were paying attention and most of us were pretty bored. My friend asked this other guy if he can go get him a hot dog and asked if I wanted anything. I said I would go for a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. So he wrote something down saying "just so you don't forget what to get us", and then handed him a note. When the guy came back he had three pbj sandwiches made with hamburger buns on a plate in one hand and a hot dog on a plate in the other. He handed us our food, I said "thank you", and then he put down the note that my friend handed him on the table. The note said "Justin is a man, Julie is a woman". I am guessing that Justin was the name of my friend, but I didn't know what this note had to do with getting us food. I took a bite of my hamburger bun peanut butter and jelly sandwich. It tasted pretty good, basically what you would expect a well made sandwich with good peanut butter and jelly and really soft white bread to taste like. I don't get to taste things in my dreams very often, so this was a treat.

Im in the queue waiting for the teacher to come ots grey outside and everything looks normal. Theres this new very pretty girl in our class thats rubbing my back slowly, so I look at her and she goes away to the toilets. Were going away from the building but the rainroof thing seems to get closer and closer to the ground. Its not the roof getting closer to the ground but me getting bigger. Were on the playground now and Im about 15 meters tall. Everyone is laughing at me and all of a sudden I realise, Im in a damn dream. So I go to the other school building and shrink again. My dream control was very very limited.
I went in the building and started roaming the hall to check for the girl but no luck on the way a teacher asked me. Are you asleep and I said no because I think she wanted to know if I was lucid and shes my worst teacher Ive ever had. After a while I go back outside and start flying. The flying was way better than last time and worked pretty well. This time everyone was clapping and cheering all over the place as if I was the most famous man on the planet. I flew to the big building and 30 were climbing up to the top. I went and flew around it and hid for a miment trying to change my cloths but drream control was too limited. I just went with it and flew a couple of times across the building and high fived a guy. But he grabbed me so I took him straight to the ground safely which was a struggle. I went back out and I didnt hear anyone cheering anymore I looked and there was a giant piece of road on the place where they stood, I accidently did that... i went back down and everything was different.
There were a lot of soldier. Like were in thus military quarantine thing. I saw a gate that was pretty old and flew trough. Im on a car and went in. Guess what. Chewbacca, old princess "layde" and hans solo were in the front. Im in the back they started driving at full speed till we crashed. Im in spectator mode viewing my dead body with a sort of timer. I thought okay this is the end of the dream but no. The timer finished and Im in a new body. Im at a beach, still lucid and there are these mermaids. Theyre trying to kill me and they got me stuck, after a while of fighting and my company got captured to we defeated some and made a sort of golfbal machine to shoot us out. The end. Feeling sensation of waking up.
Quick notes:
Con: almost no dream control.
Pros: I was very deeply in so I wouldnt be waking up anytime soon and I met chewbacca.

Nothing much to report on the days leading up to day 61. Exams really did a number on my 'mental stamina', so to speak. I was too mentally drained to even think about my awareness practices. I didn't even remember any fragments along the way.


Day 61:

Fell asleep at: 11:30 PM

Woke up at: 6:40 AM


Dream 65: Who Turned The Ego Off?

I'm walking through a dark, gloomy version of the band hall. The lights were either not on or emitted some putrid shade of green. My friend shows up wearing a tank, look like he's been working out. Immediately I start judging myself, feelings of inadequacy loom over me.

I break away from the conversation, and head towards the restroom. What I instead see is again a dark, twisted version of my surroundings. There's a HUGE row of bathroom stalls, but all but a few of them are unoccupied. I walk into the unoccupied one in the middle, and the dream ends soon after that.

I find myself walking down the staircase to the basement of my M--- house. It occurs to me that this is a place I only visit in dreams—and so I must be dreaming right now.

The room is dark, so I try to brighten it up a little bit by clapping as if the lighting there was the kind that responded to that. But that doesn’t seem to help, and the visuals, though still vivid, have an indefinite quality to them that tells me the dream isn’t very stable. I decide I’ll cut the visuals off altogether to stabilize it through other senses, but wake up first—right around the time I ordinarily wake up, which explains the instability. I seem to have completely lost the ability to sleep in nowadays.

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