A few fragments from the previous nights. Was talking to the Jamie voice in the middle of the night. Many in the Twin Flame community report hearing their partner's voice in their head. As well as experiencing their presence while going to bed. For me it's like experiencing physical sensations with a phantom body (hugs, kisses etc.). I think her voice wanted confirmation of this. Specifically we both mentioned that we both felt safe during this nightly experience. Also I fall into HH or micro dreams which usually reflect the experience. Jamie 1 A dream where Jamie was in her house. My vision zoomed out and her house was in a toy box or something. Jamie 2 We seemed to be getting married in this dream. Jamie confirmed her vows and then it was my turn. I began stumbling my vows and finding it hard to speak. Someone started yelling at me for this. Jamie 3 Brief sex related dream. Last night: Jamie 4 HH during talking to her voice. I was seeing a hallway in n a hospital filled with equipment. I heard Jamie's voice say, "I love it when you kiss me down the hall." I woke up and asked her voice what she meant. Her voice said, " it was my dream, it made sense at the time." Jamie 5 Jamie was in a rage or something. Not sure what about. I grabbed her in a hug to calm her down. She struggled and maybe swore at me, but I held on. She stopped and I just let her cry. I woke up and her voice said, " Thank you for calming me down." Annoying. I was working in a strange place as a chef. I was in a bathroom and saw something gross in a toilet... Whoever had left it there, was dying from colon cancer. There was blood all over the floor. I left and passed by a door leading to a room where someone older men were sitting. One man was dying and bleeding... Maybe the cancer guy. Went to the kitchen. But didn't know what to make. An older east Indian woman was trying to get with me while I was working. Kept force hugging me after I told her to stop. Went back to the room with the men saying I was going to quit because of that woman. I came there for work and nothing else.
I dream of the [X] library again. I've dreamt of it before, I'm sure, and it was like trying to recall my other dream - I struggled to remember where everything was. I slip out of my house from a back door (white, frosted glass pane) into a narrow cobbled alley, and head towards the library. Soon enough I'm there. Entering the large double doors of the library I see a huge neon red sign, below which is surely a bar - tables clustered together, people clustered around them, moving, a long bar at the back wall, and everything is dark in there, as if it's midnight already, although the sky is bright outside. I turn and head down some corridors towards the library. They are all white linoleum, white walls, windowless, winding - but somehow I find my way. At the end of a corridor are two curved white doors, leading off in different directions, where I know the library should be. They have circular porthole windows at the top. I push each one open, look inside, rush around searching, but all I find is more white rooms and offices. They are all empty and so quiet - it feels like I shouldn't be here. Finally, whoever knows how, I find the library. I peek through the round windows in the door and see, set against purple carpet and dark green walls, shelves and shelves of books throughout a moderately large rectangular room. Children and (a few) teenagers mill around and stand and sit reading. I realise that this is the children's library and I need to find the larger one, and I turn back to search once more. When I reach the large library, it is almost outside, a large glass wall facing onto a paved courtyard, accessed from a semi-covered walkway. I can see, through the full-length windows to the courtyard, the huge room filled with books and a few people walking around. But there is no door in sight. I proceed along the walkway, following the library wall, looking for ways in - I find none. When I at last come across a door, quite a ways along, I peer through its window and see just another corridor; narrow, curving, dark, empty, dimly lit with yellow lights here and there. It gives me an eerie feeling. I retrace my steps to the courtyard and wonder how this can be. A woman in uniform (looking like an employee) marches briskly towards where I am, turns sharply to face the library wall, and shouts out an admonishment to the people inside while raising and bringing down her arm, just once, in a forceful slicing motion. The courtyard window seems to pop out of the walls a few feet, revealing hidden side walls which are also full-length glass - and then, as I watch from the side, the whole library slides forward out of the concrete at a dizzing speed, while shouts and protests come from inside - I see people leap up from their desks and gesticulate angrily towards the now departing woman. The library comes to a stop with a glass door now in front of me. I enter. This is a library I used to visit often as a child. Not anymore, however - when I was 11 I lost a book and was too ashamed to go own up and pay the fine, so I never went back. The guilt has never gone away...
CaseOh let's play I was watching CaseOh play a hack and slash game, the enemies were huge twisted looking monsters. After taking down the first one, several more spawned in front of him. In an attack on titan esque way he launched himself to them, they deflected him sending him straight to the end boss. An epic animation of the boss played where it crawled out of a summoning circle. After some fighting CaseOh managed to beat it, unfortunately because he didn't kill the other enemies it sent him back to the beginning of the level. In shock he said "I found the way out!" "There was only one way forward." I thought to myself. *I woke up after that and I was asleep on the couch with him on the TV playing minecraft, he found his way back to the start of a cave he was lost in and he was talking about how he found his way out.* *I wonder if I can use audio more to become lucid more often.* Pretending to Sleep I was at my parents home in one of the bedrooms watching TV, I could hear my mom enter the front door yelling for everyone to bring the groceries in. I turned the TV off and put a pillow over my face to pretend I was asleep, I could hear a couple of my family members enter the room and they decided to leave me alone. FAs to Lucid FA *there was at least one dream before this one of m telling my brother again the CaseOh dream* I was telling my brother how weird it was that the video I was watching influenced my dream so much when suddenly I found the dream fading away into a FA. I'm now in bed still believing that I 'm awake and slightly annoyed that I'll have to tell my brother about the dream again. It's totally dark and I'm just laying there but I sense my brother in the distance and call out to him. "Hey J2!" A sudden fearful realization hits me. "I'm still dreaming, J2 doesn't live with me." Some incredibly fast and frantic music starts playing very loudly and it doesn't help that I'm already scared. I can sense what comes next in the music before it happens and it keeps getting faster and faster. "I have to slow the acceleration." In an attempt to calm the music I slowly change my expectation of what comes next. Slowly but surely the music calms down. Eventually all that's left is the rhythmic base that you would hear from hardstyle. "Why am I even still laying here?" Now completely calm I stand up and do the nose pinch test just because. As the test passed I feel myself lose my sense of balance for a second , I regain it and do the test again just to feel it again. I go to my bathroom and look into the mirror. I see only myself and no background. I look distorted, green and metallic, my reflection is pulsing in and out of the darkness. I strike a pose pointing at the mirror then smack the wall a couple times and it feels decently real. I decide to teleport to J2 by walking through the door while imagining my parents home. As I'm walking through the door I think about how I didn't think of a specific room, there was a brief fade away before I found myself in the hallway. Straight in front of me was J2's room. I walk through it and see him sitting at the desk, the room looks just like it did from my childhood when my older brother J4 lived in it. I say Hi to him and he mutters something before going back to the computer. *I have 7 brother and my parents named us all started with the letter J*
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