dream fragment

I remember sitting in my room with a glass. I put some fish in it and some aquatic plants. The water level was kinda high. One fish, brownish in color turned into a ray and jumped out. I needed to find something bigger to keep it in and save it.

I'm in a submarine with several others, and we become aware that the ship is about to lose its balance/twist at a crazy angle underwater, such that the inside of the ship will be subject to massive pressure changes. (We'll probably all survive, though, for some reason.) I have this vision of a row of rivets that pop loose with a loud metallic clang one after the other.

Later in the dream I'm walking around a mall with Heidi. I could have been attending Mike and Andrea's wedding during this time, but instead I'm here pretending to be Heidi's husband while she has a lesbian wedding ceremony. Not that the ceremony is actually taking place or anything; we just seem to be wandering around the mall aimlessly. I get bored and start looking up information on Natalie Merchant. I learn that in her early career she and her husband had separate musical acts; she headed a group called Natalie and the Merchants. I wonder whether I'll find any information on her fake British accent, but I don't come across anything.

At some point I meet Mike and Andrea and we exchange photos on our phones. Apparently their wedding consisted of them and some friends hanging out in an apartment while everyone dressed up in some sort of marching band uniform. The whole thing had the atmosphere of a college party rather than a wedding.

I don't remember anything at all.

I often remember large portions of my dreams as it is....

Last night I was with two friends (not known in my waking life) and we were stranded atop a cliff above a river. I saw a boat in the river and ran to the bottom of cliff (not sure how I did that) to get there attention to save myself, I left my friends behind. I couldn't get their attention and I swam out into the river with a rope attached to the shore. The edge of the boat was just out of my reach so I let go of the rope. When I touched the boat I somehow caused it to begin sinking. It was at this point that the people (Three of them) on the boat realized I was there. It was actually myself that turned and looked at me. I assume that the other two people on the boat were the same two friends that I abandoned on the cliff, although I never saw there faces. I cannot remember a portion of the dream or perhaps the dream ended because I realized I was dreaming when I was looking at myself. I vaguely remember afterwards being in a house with an elderly woman serving me and the same two friends a drink (I believe something like hot chocolate) I know this occured after the boat, but I am not sure if it was the beginning of a new dream or the end of the first.

I laid back down after my boyfriend left for work and had another dream. This one was so intense that even though I had intended to only take a short nap I ended up sleeping until noon. I often wonder whether I am controlling my own dreams. Sometimes in my dreams a character (usually fairytale like, but in the evil witch way) tells me I can. And then I try and fail and then I try again and succeed. It always happens that I fail first.

My second dream was a lot more unrealistic but more real at the same time... I was younger than I am, and with a group of students like I was in High School or something. I was in what seemed like in parts a haunted house and in other parts just a museum. But it was all a maze. The other people with me were taken by the character (evil witch of some sort) because they had no souls. Somewhere in the middle of the dream I became a teacher (which is what I want to become in my waking life, but instead I am becoming an accountant because it was more convenient). Becoming a teacher made me lose my soul and she was after me. I had to find my way to the room with my teaching diploma and destroy it in order to gain my soul back. I was trapped in a room where she stood there and told me I could make that room the room with the diploma. Like I said I tried and failed it became another room with posters of diplomats (A room I know I had previously visited in the dream) I tried again and succeeded, but I felt as though she might have helped me. I then was able to make the "maze" easy and left.

After more than a year of slack, I've decided to start keeping a DJ again.

Video Games
Non-Lucid

NonDream Non-lucid Lucid

The scene is a COD Black Ops map. I know I’m playing a game, in fact, at one point I realize that pressing LB and double tapping A make me sprint. I do not know how I had a controller, it was as if I had dual consciousness. I could feel my ‘in-game body’ , as well as my ‘player’ hands. I play around with sprinting for a while. There are mammoths walking around, and I attack one from atop a stone column. The mammoth chases me into a small house, all the while, I’m whacking it with a minecraft sword. I close the door of the small house in the mammoth’s face, but I can see that it will not hold for long. The top hinge breaks, and the door falls partially over. I can see the mammoth pressing up against the door. Somehow Gandalf appears in front of the mammoth and starts banging on the door with his staff and shouting at me to open it. Finally he gets mad and shouts to some deity “AKATOSH MOVE THIS DOOR!” Several times he shouts “AKATOSH MOVE!”

I'm not sure why I had so many video game elements in this one, I haven't had time to play in weeks.

I remember that I needed to buy something. For this party possibly? My recall has been terrible for a few days now.

7th Dream of 2012

NON DREAM DREAM LUCID

Okay, so this is just a bunch of dream fragments that I remember last night...wish I could remember more, because from what I do remember, it was a pretty awesome dream.

FRAGMENT 1:
I'm sitting in my sister's room, on the computer. I get the sensation that someone is watching me from behind. I turn around, and, sure, enough, sitting in the window, is Stewie from Family Guy. He scares the crap outta me, so I run out of my sister's room and into the bathroom in the hall.

Of course, that doesn't help, because now I can see Stewie's silhouette through the curtains as he tries to open the window from the other side. I run out of the bathroom and fall against the hallway wall, sinking to the ground. Now I know he can't see me. Suddenly, it all turns into a game, and I decide to scare Stewie. I stand up and turn my head into the bathroom. I start screaming.

Stewie, who has turned into my little brother, screams and runs away. I feel satisfied, because I know I won.

FRAGMENT 2:
I'm in what looks like some sort of souvenir shop (like the one from the end of the Spongebob movie...anyone know what I'm talking about? Anyone? No?) but instead of souvenirs, there's a bunch of tanks with fish and other coral reef life in them. I'm walking around with my mom and she sees some sharks in a tank.

She says, "How much do you wanna bet Matt Smith is gonna be around here somewhere?"

Sure enough, as we continue walking, we find Matt Smith sitting on a wooden crate, completely lost in his thoughts as he picks up and examines some fascinating coral. He smiles to himself. There's another woman sitting next to him, but I don't remember who. Maybe it was supposed to be his girlfriend?

FRAGMENT 3:
I'm at my mom's house, and instead of having just one dog, we have two. The new dog is a big light brown mutt, with short hair and floppy ears. He's really friendly and sweet. My mom asks if I can take him on a quick walk around the block. I agree and attach a leash to his collar, walking him out the front door.

As we step onto the front porch, his leash comes unattached. But he's a good dog, so he waits for me to put it on again. It's wet and rainy outside, and as I continue to fumble with the leash, the dog starts...melting.

This goes on for a while, but suddenly he turns solid and whole again, and the leash is attached. I start walking around, but he pulls and pulls and we don't go very far. He picks up stuff out of our recycle bin and starts throwing it around, right as the garbage truck starts rumbling down our street. I frantically try to get our dog back to the front door to get him inside, right as the mailman walks up.

The mailman says, "That's a beautiful dog! What's his name?" I can't remember his name, but my brother appears and pipes up, "Mackenzie!"

FRAGMENT 4:
Monsters are taking over our city. Me, and two other people, are the ones who bring justice to our town. We're like superheroes. I remember going through this whole dream slaying all these monsters, and everyone was so happy we were around.

There was one monster who was like a giant bug, but fluffy and pink, and I'm pretty sure it was wearing a dress. Anyways, so this bug was trying to steal humans to keep as pets, but we wouldn't allow it. We distracted the bug, and the three of us started running for our lives up a set of stairs nearby. (Heroic, I know.) Turns out the other two people on my monster-fighting team are two characters from Doctor Who, Donna Noble (Catherine Tate) and the Doctor (David Tennant). Donna and I hide by crouching down behind this cement block at the top of the stairs, and the Doctor starts flying around trying to mock the monster and make it feel bad about itself.

Apparently, it works, because the monster leaves and the city is safe.

So, those are my dream fragments from last night. More like mini-dreams than fragments, but, whatever.

I'm really starting to think Matt Smith with sharks is a dream sign. This is the second night in a row where I dreamt he was around/with sharks. It's completely random, but hey, whatever works, right?

Was really cold last night and I gotta thing about sleeping with space heaters. Didn't remember anything and I don't think i had much sleep.

edit: Remember something about my pops telling me my uncle got a DUI....

Sunday, Jan.1,2012

I'm shopping in the grocery store on H in NZ. I have a shopping cart thats taller than the other carts. I think it's ours, but I give it to another shopper anyway. Then I'm looking for my dad to ask him about it, but he left from the store and I can't find him. Finally I find him and mom in a pub on the corner.

Monday, Jan.2, 2012

I'm taking a shower in a huge open design apartment. The shower is right by the big glass window. I notice someone on the street looking, while trying to look innocent. So i drop to the floor and continue showering.
- I'm trying to get some kids to pick up the toys
- someone is offering me a taste of salad. he puts some vinegrette on it and I swear, I can taste it and I say I like it.

Poor sleep, not much recall.

1) I was with two other people, in a small box-like room, and one was instructing me how to squat press a weight. Other person was going after me I think...

I saw a man and knew he was 'a second Jesus'. He wanted to go to the top of a mountain. His friends were worried about him because lightning was going to strike at the same time he arrived. After he resurrected, I saw Jesus (not sure if it's the guy or actual Jesus) holding onto a rope under a spaceship. It pulled him upwards into space.

My mother revealed to me that while I had been visiting her, she found my IUD in her house. Apparently, it had come dislodged and fallen out. She kept it for months, deliberately not telling me, so I'd give her grandchildren. I looked at myself and saw that indeed, I was pregnant. I yelled angrily at my mother, flabbergasted that she'd stoop so low. I asked her if she understood that I'd been drinking and doing drugs the past few months, unaware of her schemes, and that the baby would not be well. I screamed with despair, and the noise sounded like a baby's scream.

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The setting is a sterile, white, minimal, hermetically-sealed floor of a skyscraper. Small boys and girls, all aged around 10-14 and all blonde, live here, each in their own small room. They're overseen by adult minders and have never been outside of the building. One girl is curious about the outside and manages to leave. She finds she can fly. The building the children live in, she sees, is surrounded by nothing but high-rises in an endless dystopian cityscape.

The girl returns and develops a love of dragons. She orders (or I send her?) dragon toys from the internet, which appear in her sterile room in Amazon boxes.

The girl meets a boy, and eventually both escape. They end up at an art gallery with experimental electronica playing and a circus-like atmosphere. How should the story end, I wonder? Should they live happily ever after? No, the story should end in tragedy, I think. They should meet someone - maybe a tattooed lady? It's been done in Stranger in a Strange land, I remember.

There was three tubes. Each was made out of a red tinted metal that glowed. Inside them was three people I recognized. Then I woke up.

6th Dream of 2012

I was in a ruined house inside a dark forest. I had to kill this zombie things. After that someone from the FBI came and I went into another dram fragment.

5th Dream of 2012

With a broom in the right hand I jump in a deep ocean to swim to my friends which try to jump from the water surface to a flying platform. As I was under the platform I try to dive deeply so that I have enough bounce to reach the platform with my broom .

[Commentary]
As I dive I though that my art to dive is not physically correct, but I don't reliaze that I'm dreaming .