lucid

[Wednesday, 19th, 2012][12:30 PM]
I'm in a giant open house filled with clutter. The lights are very dim and there are two main rooms. On one side of the house there's just a
windowed wall that overlooks the sunset scenery of trees. The house is slowly getting darker and there are no lights. Alex had just left me- I'm
alone.

Nothing is wrong, I'm just alone. I sit down and start to just relax on the couch. I slowly drift off to sleep... I wake up a minute later, a noise
springs to my attention. On the dark side of the house, where the shadow's hugged the corner, I heard a noise. I figure it must have been my
imagination. I shrug it off, but feel a strange alien thought in my head. I feel so alone... so... so alone... I just want something to hold on to- or talk
to-

I slowly trudge over to the shadow side of the house... I hear dull clicking noises, reminiscent of Amnesia. In the far right corner of the dark side, I
bend down to pick up a stuffed animal... there was a lot of them, but I choose one that I'm most familiar with. It was a cute patchwork animal-
yellow with purple and green... Alex had gotten it from the claw machine. I pick it up and hug it- and look at it. I could have sworn I saw it move.
I let it drop to my side and I pick up another... I set them back down and watched them come to life. I was amazed- but didn't think anything of it.
I must be seeing things, but nothing too out of the ordinary. It's just little movements, like an arm twitching, or an eye blinking.

I bring the patchwork with me into the other rooms and set it on a table. Walking into the other room, I see shadows flicker and move, and things
shift around the room. I'm convinced I'm going crazy. But I'm okay, I accept it. "It won't be forever. And this isn't so bad. It's kind of interesting.
It's like I can control what I see." It reminds me of a lucid dream. My hallucinations started to become more real and vivid. Now I'm hearing
whispers. The patchwork shakes violently in my hand and drops to the floor. It begins crawl around... Oh my... then it stops in its tracks... and...
and it turned its neck to me. It whispered, "Don't be lonely. I'm here for you." I blink a blank stare back at it. (My subconscious didn't know how
to react.) I dismiss it- and forget about it.

With an empty mind, I drag myself across the house, like a ghost haunting eternity. I had no aim or goal, just to exist. Minutes passed and I knew
that I was fully insane, and descending extremely fast. Everything was talking to me now. More stuffed animals were alive, but only ONE at a
time. Next thing I know, I see a human in the room. It's- a waking life friend of mine that I know fairly well, but I don't remember who in specific.
I know it's just in my head, and I'm making him up though, so I'm not exactly freaked out. I'm just so interested in the fact that I have this much
"control" over my reality- I start to talk to the hallucination, "What's up, man?"
"Not much." He replies.

I take my attention off of him and he vanishes, and I begin to search around the house... playing with my hallucination power.
I could stare at something and focus on it, and it would begin to move. I have "control" over this at least. I scan the back wall again, seeing
stuffed animals that I recognized from real life and some that I did not. The house had gotten pretty chilly in the last few minutes. I can feel the
cold wrap around my skin. It's very very quiet. Dead silent. Not a noise in the place, save for my breathing. Out of the corner of my eye I see the
hallucination take a human form again. It's another person who I know. (but don't remember. I wasn't paying extremely-close, conscious attention
yet at this point. He follows me around the house as I start to pick things up and clean the cluttered house. He watches me closely like a hawk. That's when the
dream becomes extremely real. In fact... It ISN'T a dream anymore. There's no way something this real is a dream. It's a full-blown reality. I can't
tell the difference one bit anymore. I'm semi-lucid too... I have control of my body- but without realizing it was a dream.
I look back up at my hallucinated visitor and he smiles at me.

That smile... it's the most horrible evil fucking smile I've ever seen. One that stretches across the face and make me choke back tears of impossible
fear. I'm descending faster into the deepest and darkest corner of my mind. I'm very uncomfortable
"I can't believe how insane I am." I reach into my pocket and pull out my phone to call Alex- the only person that I want to talk to right now...
even if I was bat crazy, she would talk to me. I call, with my eyes on the hallucination that was smiling so wide, his black eyes were chinked
behind his grin. Straight to voicemail- "We're sorry... the number you-" I hang up.

The hallucination now has a long boning knife in his hand now. He's at my neck before I even have a chance to react-
"Do... you know who... I am?"
"No-" I sob.
"As long as Alex is... gone... I get to... come out and... play."
He casually drags the knife loosely against my neck. He vanishes when he finishes the knife's trail. I'm shaking uncontrollably. But at the same
time stilled by my muscles. Everything is frozen in fear. My open eyes scan the room and notice new stuffed animals that I don't recognize-
countless of them. The sun is almost gone, the light choked by the horizon. I turn around slowly 'til I'm facing a third room behind me. I watch the
opening for a whole minute... waiting... swaying back in forth in silence... then-

I sprint to the third back room... I jump into the room and stop... panting for second. This room closely resembles my old room of my Mum's old
house. The TV is on and static lights up the room with white noise. I slowly make my way to the far end of the room, where I put my phone on the
charger and try to call again- that's when I saw Alex had left her phone on the charger. I won't reach her at all now. My heart sinks so deep into
my chest. "Oh my god... I just want to talk to Alex... I just want to talk to her... please oh god..." I cry hysterically

My head feels very hazy, and I'm having trouble remembering the situation. What had just happened? I remember a stuffed animal... I'm crazy... a
man in my house... I took in a shallow breath- and walked back out of the room.

A body flickers into existence and blocks my path. Nathan appears very suddenly in the doorway, like a scream piercing silence. He has a
wicked grin on his face. He cocks his head to the side, and smiles more, almost saying, "Where were you?" Then he vanishes again. I push my
eyes closed to blink a few times- they were getting dry from holding them open so wide for so long. The house is caked in twilight- but this time
I'm back in my Mom's old home. I emerge from my room into the computer room. To my left is the futon. I walk into the kitchen and hear,
"Unwell" playing by Matchbox Twenty.

"I'm not CRAZY, I'm just a little unwell- I know, right now you can't tell- but soon enough of you're gonna think of me, and how I used to be." I
listen to the words and begin to sob. "This is so real. I can't do this...

The music stops playing and Nathan is there again. He's right behind me, smiling his cold smile. It shocks me again how suddenly he appeared. I
keep my eyes on him and slowly backtracked... then I stop. I'm suddenly filled with HATE for this DEMON. HOW DARE HE USE THE IMAGE
OF MY BEST FRIEND!? Tears slowly well up in my eyes..

...until I scream and lunge for his throat. I use every bit of my strength and force him onto the futon and begin to choke him. I shake and shake
and squeeze as hard as I can. He just smiles. I choke him for a full minute, letting my hate seep out onto his neck, before I realize there is no
effect. I stand back up and take a step back.

Suddenly, the futon vanishes and so does he. It repositions right where the computer used to be- to my immediate left... where we had moved it
the second time, when we lived there. Now, Tyler sits there on the futon with a smile on his face. The lights flicker in the house and then the
power fails. It's pitch black, but I can still see his black eyes. He can change form, but he can't change those beady black eyes.

Alex had gone away and wouldn't be back for three days. Three days of hell... My soul was going to rot here
<I woke up.>

(I cried for 10 minutes upon waking. I called Alex right away.)

Last night I had quite a few dreams, but my recall has been lacking lately and I remember the main themes of two of the dreams.

In the first scene, I was visiting my friend Marykate and her mother Wendy in a trailer home of theirs. In the dream it had been about seven to ten years since I had last seen them. It was a very pleasant visit. After a while I began to wonder where Marykates younger brother Kyle was. In real life he's currently in elementry school, we used to be somewhat close in a psuedo older brother type way when I was over at their house a lot- and I wanted to say hello. I asked them both what Kyle had been up to, to try to gain some information about where he was at. Marykate didn't say anything, and her mother's face went dull. Wendy leaned in a little closer and said, "You haven't heard what happened?"...
"What do you mean?" I asked, and became a bit conserned. They both paused, and Marykates expression became very strained. "He died, Zech." She said, and began to cry. Wendy chimed in, "He had an accedent on a nature trip, he got attacked by an animal."
"Oh my gosh..." I gasped... I couldn't believe it. It was so horrible, I sat closer to them and began to tear up myself. "I'm so sorry, I didn't know." I added. It was a terrible moment in the dream, but my dream turned it around thankfully. Wendy then flipped a swhich in emotion and said, he's in the other room- we were just messing around. (Now, in the dream they weren't at first. But the dream made a swhich, that meant they were all along.)
"No fucking way you guys just made me think Kyle was dead. You guys are dick wads, major ones." I said relieved and pissed at the same time. An older version of Kyle then walked in the room and said Hey. I got up and hugged him and said Hey man, what's up- thank goodness. He said, "Yeah, they're assholes." and sat down with us. That was as much as I remember from that dream.

The next dream I became lucid in some random place, walking down a suburban sidewalk. I remembered that I wanted to find out how well I could actually 'Hear' in dreams. Because I usually remember conversations and people talking, but I don't remember the voices or hearing their words after I wake up. So I yelled "HEY!... I'M DREAMING!" I could hear it loud an clear, it was pretty awesome. It made the dream more life-like. I began to float around checking things out, still yelling on the occasion. Then I got an idea. I've been curious about these things people call "Dream Guides", and I wanted to see if I could find one for myself. So I began going around, realizing there were no people around. I found a few people in the distance and cars driving by, and yelled at everyone "Hey! Where is my dream guide!?", "Hey you! Where can I find my dream guide."
While doing this, I was playing around , trying to make little 'Resengan' like energy balls from that show Naruto. It worked like once, but my attention wasn't all the way there. I continued to fly around for awhile, and... I thought I might have found someone who knew something about my dream guide, but they got in a car and drove off. I was going to hunt them down, but my dream dissapated shortly after. I'm sure other things happened but like I said, not much dream recall lately. I'm hoping to fix that somehow. But that's it for now.

*Lucid*

I got at least 3 lucid moments last night but lost it before I could do anything. The first one that I was in, it was really blurry and fading away so I tried to say "Stabilize lucidity" but I couldn't even move my mouth without trying really hard. I woke up but I was only then slowly fading back to reality, I think I could've go back if I focused.

09/23/2012
10PM-1AM
3AM-10AM

This was my first encounter with a hostile, physically violent DC. Great learning experience, I think. I also wound up giving an LD mini-seminar in dream, which was interesting to say the least!

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #18: DC Wants a Piece of Me

I hurry into a grocery store to pick up some items, passing my friend R on the way in. (The only IWL friend I have that regularly LDs.) I say hey and we catch up about the time he's been spending in Seoul, South Korea. I'm in a hurry so I tell him I have to run.

As he's leaving, I call back to him and ask, "R, what city are we in right now?" He thinks for a moment and then says that he doesn't know. How can we both not know? Something's off. "Buddy, aren't you supposed to be in Seoul? I've never been to Seoul." We agree that it's strange neither of us know where we are and I realize that I'm dreaming. "I figured out what's going on, R. I'm dreaming. Well, one of us is, I guess. Probably me." He congratulates me and agrees that it's "probably" me having the LD and not him. I clap him on the shoulder and head into the store.

I walk through a set of automatic doors and casually explore the store, taking my time marveling at the items on the shelves, the level of detail, and the sheer number of dream characters buying food for the week. I spend several minutes just enjoying the people and texture in the place. One DC, a bulky man in a football jersey and baseball cap, gives me a slightly unfriendly look, but I ignore him.

A more serious confrontation is next. I'm approaching the frozen foods section when a fat, enormously tall man locks eyes with me. His many chins quake with rage and his fists are balled up for a fight. The huge man strides toward me, flaring out his arms like an obese grizzly bear. I hear him grinding his teeth. The sound is awful, like ice cubes being crushed against one another.

My own temper starts to smolder but I catch myself and say, "Wait. You're not upset with me. You're angry about something else. What can I do to help you?" He stops and drops his arms to his side, mouth hanging open in surprise. Sheepishly, he says, "Drumstick." I point to one of the cases in the freezer aisle and it begins to give off a warm glow. "The ice cream's in there," I tell him. "I made this place. That means it's my fault it didn't have what you needed. I'm sorry for your trouble." He smiles broadly and waves, turning toward the ice cream.

I walk further down the freezer aisle, studying the ice cream and shelves full of frozen dinners. (My subconscious seems to mostly produce lasagna and meatloaf.) At the end of the aisle, I come to a door that leads into a hotel banquet hall with a view high above the city. (What city? Still don't know.)

I'm barging in on some sort of convention and the well-dressed DCs act shocked to see me. They protest at first but I inform them that all of this is my lucid dream, so they'll just have to be patient until I'm through. They become very interested, peppering me with questions. A small crowd of well-dressed young professionals gathers around me, asking me why I keep rubbing my hands together and prodding at my arms. I explain a bunch of LD concepts to them, starting with stabilization, going through how I enter an LD, etc. None of it feels like a waste of time. If these DCs represent some part of myself, what could be better than reviewing the basics?

I tell them that I have to find the Cretaceous sea. I hold my hands out and will the Cretaceous sea to illuminate. A chunk of the horizon starts giving off a warm glow (just like the ice cream!) I try to push through the window, which fails, and then try to punch it. It acts like plexiglas, wobbling and vibrating but refusing to break. I finally grab a chair and knock out a smaller panel.

I squeeze myself through to the outside of the building. The wind is fierce, tugging at my clothes, and the ground looks far, far away. I cling to the building, suddenly more afraid than I was prepared to be. I start to calm myself but it's too late -- I'm awake.

For the past few years ive been dreaming about this guy, i dont know who he is and ive never seen him before, and every time i dream about him he arrives the same way. Im standing on a little walkway on the side of a house the walk way is prolly 2 feet wide, then in front of me is a drive way and to my left is a fenced yard wih a willow in the middle of the yard. i continue to walk and this car drive up, and in every dream its the same car, i cant see who is driving, the car pulls up next to me and there he is, sitting in the passengers seat. This handsome guy, blonde hair green eyes, perfect smile, the first time i saw him we were hiding from someone, in a hollow tree, i dont know who we where hiding from, just hiding and he said i was in danger and that he was protecting me, after that dream i didnt dream about him for a long time, but when i did it was the same house same tree and the same car, he would say to me" i havent seen u in soo long, how r u, i missed you"... sometimes i wonder what if when we dream we enter another dimension into someone elses world. He remembered me...ive never been able to forget him but wheneever i would try to ask wat his name is, he would hove this look on his face, he'd get serious and looks at the driver ,which i still to this day have no idea who it is, and tells me its not the right time, and he kisses me, says till the next time....and i wake up.........................

Non-Lucid
(Sidenotes)
Lucid Dream
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(Holy shit...TWO lucid dreams in one night? Wow...I'm getting lucky!)


Well this is how it starts -

I was at school waiting for a delivery. A Teacher was preparing a pizza and chinese food my mom and I. Apparently "Casper" (the friendly ghost)
had ordered it. I remember said Teacher came out all "casper! Casper, where are you?" And I thought it was funny. Then she tried to give me the food and I for some reason, freaked out a little and left. I was wandering around the parking lot upset and wanting to go home then I heard the Backstreet Boys and "remembered" that they were there for some reason. I walked to where I thought they were, couldn't see them...so I turned around THEN I realized "I am dreaming! This is just a dream!" Which immediately led to a false awakening.

I woke up in bed. It was dark. I knew I was dreaming and I was clam for once. I sat up (and sometimes in my LD's, things seem...heavy...or slower. Like there's a resistance to my movement or thought process.) I decided to do a reality check and instead of my typical poke-finger-through-palm, I pinched my head and it didn't hurt. It felt numb, though. I got up and decided to walk THROUGH my bedroom door. I focused really hard in my head that I'd walk through it and stared at it all while keeping my breathing even so I didn't get too excited...

AND I WENT THROUGH! There was a tiny bit of resistance and heaviness, but I walked through my door!


The living room was dark and there are some really nasty bits that happened regarding a random dog but I will leave those out.

I made it outside and hopped into the car. I drove off my road and to a bridge near where you turn ONTO my road. I decided to summon someone. I was feeling a bit tired, so I did have random moments of rubbing my hands together and spinning in a circle outside the car to prolong lucidity.

Even though i couldn't see from my peripheral, there was a guy sitting next to me. I guess my dream-self felt frisky because I remember grabbing his crotch and he said something like "woah, kid" or "watch it, kid" and I got scared thinking I was somehow a little kid...

Then he like leaned in and started kissing me. And it ended.



I ended up waking up for real and looked at the clock, then went back to sleep.

I believe this LD was also from a false awakening, so i just hurried and went outside. My neighbor across the street was out and I remember feeling paranoid she was studying me. I hopped in the car and it wouldn't start. I sat for what felt like 10 minutes trying to start it and feeling annoyed because I wanted to continue with the dream.

Then I remember going to the lawn and there was an old station wagon there, so i got in. There were people I didn't really know in it but they felt as if they were supposed to be family. I looked in the rear-view mirror and I did look a bit odd, so i decided I wanted to be pretty. I changed my looks. I stared into the mirror and focused as I like...morphed my face. It wasn't working too good cuz I kept looking really weird, so i decided I wanted to base my looks off of ariana grande, so i got a picture out (and she didn't looked quite the same as she does irl, but still pretty) and took a few minutes to help get a face I liked.


(I ended up waking up not long after. I have had some random and short LD's these past few months that I never bothered to post. I am really happy and proud of myself though! I get them without even trying, really. They are slowly lastly longer and I finally am able to do things or have "powers" in them. I am excited and can't wait become even better at this! xD)

Party and Cops Lucid

This marks at least the 4th Suggestion Induced Lucid Dream I've had very recently. This time, Mojoe brought it up. If anyone reads this, let me know if you think SILD is an appropriate name for this.

I think I was dreaming for a while, but I only remember the point where I became lucid. I was at an out-door party. I was not mingling or anything--just kind of watching the scene. I had done something wrong and the police were after me. They were dressed as civilians, but they were cops.

Somehow I realized I was lucid, so I decided to beat the shit out of one of the cops. I went to punch him in the face, but I had quicksand punches. I tried to relax and just let the punch fly, realizing I was lucid and it shouldn't be a problem, but the closer I got to his face, the harder it was to hit him. I decided to just fly away to get the fuck out of there.

It was night. I flew up knowing that the higher I go, the heavier I get, so I tried to focus on a star and just fly towards it. I started flying really fast, but that only lasted a few seconds. Then I saw an airplane. I started flying up towards that. Then the plane was flying down instead of horizontally and it whizzed passed me, though it wasn't big. It remained like the light of the plane from far away as it went passed.

I continued to fly towards the star, but it became pointless. I then went back down to the party and found a girl. She was pretty cute, so I tore into her top. I felt her skin, but I didn't really get her boobs. DAMN! I have a hard time with my lucids. It was still fun.

Some guys from the out-door party came around and the cops came back, so I picked up my girl and flew away with her. I landed with another girl. She was tan. I put them side by side and started going into both of their tops. Again, no real boob, but it was nice.

I don't know what happened then, but something disrupted the scene. Probably the fucking cops again. Anyway, I ended up jumping through a picture. I was transported to another place. Cool! Teleport. I have KristaNicole to thank for that probably.

I tried to land in my childhood nightmare which has been a dream goal of mine for a long time. I sat cross legged to mimic the position of the Dreamons in my nightmare. I closed my eyes and put my fingers in meditative pose, but it was a fail.

I opened my eyes and found no scenery at all. I hate that shit! I decided to jump back through the picture and change my scenery. It worked, though I think I also just started acting like some shit was there or something. Parts of the dream are foggy and maybe I'm telling it out of order or something.

Anyway, I ended up flying to a hill where some people were hanging out. There was a girl lying on a towel or something about 30 feet from a couple doing their thing. I flew to this blond girl and started in with her. I didn't really do anything with her either.

The success of this dream was mostly length of the dream and teleporting and overcoming my stupid empty-space dream scenes.

so i don't really remember what was going on before i became lucid, so i'll start with what happened after. I became lucid when me and DCs were hanging at my dads house. I've been lucid a few times yet i havn't ever tried flying so i thought i might give that a go. it was pretty amazing. though i know its a bad idea to go really high on your first time flying i ended up doing it anyway. i flew up towards the clouds (that for some reason looked more like wall paper than a sky) but i soon lost control and came hurdling towards the ground. when i crashed into the ground my surroundings had changed and i was in this swampy type area(it was actually really cool) i then found the head DC and he said he'd show me around. we got into a boat which teleported us to a city. it was pretty cool except for a huge ledge that led into a vastness of nothing.i looked around and i then thought it would be cool to maybe turn into ironman and fly around the city to see this place. for some reason the dream turned my into spiderman so i swung from building to building instead(still pretty cool). upon returning to the edge of the city from my sight seeing i noticed a DC showing his friends he could fly, except he was really close to the edge and for some reason my only thought i could muster was to stop this idiot from killing himself. so flew over and grabbed him away from the edge. when i put him down he suddenly turned into a giant monster, and the only defense i could think of was a kamehameha. so did that while he shot crows out of his hands(wierd right?), but of course the giant laser beam beat the crows and vaporized the monster. after that i don't quite remember what happened it was just alot of going back and forth from the city to swamp. and after a good 2 dream hours of doing this i somehow wound up in a computer room in the swamp, where i met some cool kid, we started talking(i dont really remember what about) but for some reason i thought this kid was just awesome. but then i said "it sucks these people wont show me any other place except the swamp and the city" the kid then responded "be careful what you say" and then all the DCs i had seen at the swamp swarmed into the room and tied me and kid up, and then killed us. i woke up right after that.

[Wednesday, 19th, 2012] [After Midnight- before I had fallen asleep]
I turned off the lights, turned on the LSD dose from iDoser (a binaural beat that induces a drugs effects), and lied down with headphones. I folded a shirt over my eyes and I zoned out and began counting down from 847. After awhile I became more and more relaxed, letting my mind become numb... I would recount numbers and forget where I was and restart at random numbers- this is when I knew I was in a trance. I felt detatched slightly... and tried imagining something.

I imagined myself in a blank white room. Suddenly a potted plant appeared in the center. It grew and grew and grew until it became a Venus Fly Trap plant of giant proportions. It ate "me". But it was just the body, the vessel, for my consciousness- I understood this and made a new one, and walked up to the plant. "You are simply a creation of mine and you cannot hurt me. I love you because I created you." The plant did not try to hurt me again. I walked through the wall to the left with such force, it shattered reality. The scenery outside the white room was a beautiful beach scene; the sun just setting a dark red velvet and vibrant orange against a dark navy sky and ocean. I was high in the air, far above the smooth sand or the water, but I was walking on air, on invisible pulsating steps. I walked a distance and then decided to travel along the pulsating steps like monkey bars. I dropped down so that my hands could hold on to the level where my feet just were and I pulled myself along as if they WERE monkey bars. Still pulsating a clear crystal light.

At that moment I reinvented the scenery. I was in a blank room again, but this time I was seated behind a table. I invited my subconscious and/or dream guide to appear and they did. Four figures walked in through the door instantly and each took a seat on the opposite side of the table. I made note of their appearance first... on the far left was a fiery feline female with fiery-colored hair, a mix of orange, red, and yellow. Second, was a huge muscular, black-iron-armorered figure with a fiery green skull with flames licking high into the air. Third from the left was a human walking-stick. Almost simply put, a bamboo man. Just a stick of bamboo going straight up into the air. Last, on the very right- I couldn't make them out very well. It was as if they were invisible, and I could only sense their Galka like presense.

I announced the reason for this gathering first, speaking in a pronoun that was mixture of I and We: "I/We are in a state of great confusion and despair. I/We are broken and must do something. We must become one, and work together to solve the problems we face." I stopped after the sentence and asked if anyone would be willing to finish my sentence due to how cloudy my conscious mind was. The 1st aspect chimed in and tried to finish, as my conscious mind jumped into her body- I saw from her eyes and began to talk... but trailed off, most likely because I, without meaning to, took control of her. Someone else chimed in right after, it was the 4th invisible Galkan aspect... I don't remember what he said, but it was full of force and meaning... and it made perfect sense. After he finished I stressed the importance of lucid dreaming: "It would be beneficial to US to lucid dream. We could solve a great deal from it and the daily link between all of us. We need to lucid dream." I was conditioning all of us- we all knew that I was hypnotizing the whole room. I was strengthening the importance of my conscious mind being present in dreams. After this I asked: "Okay, so who are you?" I was referring to each individual aspect of me. The first, the female aspect spoke up immediately: "I'm your female side, and I'm the one who emits light! I keep you on track and keep you afloat with joy!". I believed every word she spoke. I turned my attention to the stick. It radiated the answer: "I am your intellect. Your intelligence. The one who collects wisdom and shares it with everyone here." I couldn't sense a strong color from him. The next to speak was the ghostly presense of the armored man. He spoke something like this: "I am the one who keeps you alive. I know what you need- I make the hard decisions that benefit you, that you don't want to make." I understood. He was the line that knew when he was crossed. I looked at the invisible aspects seat- but never got an answer.

"Are you my dream guide?" There was no reply.

I was thrust back out of my imagination and into reality. I could feel a slight tingling sensation all over and I felt slightly detatched from my body. Thinking about this re-inforced my attatchment and I was back in my room again, listening to the vibrations in my headphones. I lied there for awhile and until the crackling in the headphones that's ALWAYS there kind of made my neck-hairs stand and I had to sit up. I sat up slowly and looked around. I could DEFINITELY feel something. The room was dark, but I could see exceptionally well. The clock on the wall was stretching and breathing. The whole room was stretching and breathing! I put my hands up in front of my face and I can't explain how alien my movements were... I felt like I was viewing from far, far away. I looked down at my blanket and it resembled a tangled mess of brain. The light coming under the door pulsated gently a light green mixed with turqoise. The patterns on the pillow moved like vines- just like in Fear and Loathing's Casino Carpets. The wall to my right was Tiger striped; shadows dashed ever-so-carefully across the white. The entire room was a calming, breathing dark mess of storage- it was new to me, as if I had never been there before. I brought my hands up to my face again, not exactly sure what I was doing, and I drew a cross on my left palm with my right index, then drew a circle on my right palm- then I clasped my hands together gently.

The dose still going on- I got impatient and took my headphones off. I heard a noise that did NOT exist in real life. My computer was making it... it sounded as if it was some sort of alien technology... making vibrating laser beam sounds. Like a woobawoobawoobawooba, but much faster and much higher pitched. I knew it was just my brain being confused from the binaural beats, but it was still fun to listen to. I crawled across my bed and crawled into the computer's chair and turned the screen on... after a few seconds of another strange feeling, I sobered up and typed this.

I cannot remember anything about this really. I remember other dreams from the night, but this was further back, and instead of writing it down I just went in for more sleep. What I do remember was that it was short, and I didn't do much. I remember thinking it was a dream, not that sudden realization I love, but more of just a transition into knowing. I felt my body and thought that I was only imagining it, but then remembered that wasn't the position I was actually sleeping in. I made sure I was in a dream, and that I knew it was a dream so I could count it as lucid, then faded out. I should start remembering what to do once I get lucid, rather than just hoping for a lucid, otherwise I will ruin the few I have.

I dreamed that death had to come on a journey with me, at first all i saw was a hooded figure in a white cape with a scythe, he tells me he is the grim reaper, but for some odd reason i wasn't scared. he walks by me and takes off his hood, then i get this feeling like i know him from somewhere, i just cant shake the feeling how familiar he is. he was beautiful...tall, fair skin, jet black shaggy hair, toned, i asked him to look at me, and he wouldn't, so i grabbed his face with both hands to make him look at me, and .....those eyes...those deep blue eyes............i feel in love instantly. he hugged me as if it had been a hundred years since he last saw me.... a warm embrace and i never wanted him to let go. i felt this strong connection on like a spiritual level with this guy, a deeper connection then i ever thought i could hope for. it just felt like id known him my entire life and then some, like a past life

The first dream I had was of very little importance. I don't remember much of it, literally the only piece of it I can recall was Mulder from the X-files was gay. It didn't really make sense.

The second dream that was actually memorable started out with me and my sister Rose at the park. I've been chanting a reminder in my head the past few days to attempt one of the DreamViews monthly challenges where you shrink your perspective down to the size of a tiny bug and explore the world. I finally remembered to do that in this dream, but it didn't last as long as I would hope. So, back to the plot.
Rose and I were walking around with my niece in a stroller, like we have actually done in the past- nothing seemed out of place. I actually visit this park frequently in real life, it's down the street from my house. We walked along the pathway going through the grass and saw a small commotion over by the Park&Recreation office building, that's also next to the main playground. We made our way over to the side of the building and saw what everyone was buzzing about. There was a strange red-orange orb of energy hovering next to the sidewalk near the street. The orb had a dark ominous larger field of energy surrounding it, but you could tell the it the dark energy was radiating out of the smaller red one. I began to analyze my setting, trying to figure out what that could possibly be. It felt dark, and foreboding. I started to become lucid just then, I'm not sure if it was out of luck or if my critical thinking during the day is just paying off.
I decided then that I wanted to get rid of that energy in the park. I attempted to create a orb of white and good energy to blend with the red one and nullify it but my white energy didn't seem to last very long. This is the part where it gets interesting. I decided to take an alternate route. I wanted to harness whatever this orb was, it obviously was of great importance in my head. But I also was reminded of my goal of shrinking, so I decided that if I DID get to explore the world of a bug or bacteria, it would be a well precaution to absorb the energy of that orb before going under, incase of any potential difficulties. I calmed my mind and focused on the perspective of my size. I wanted to make focus on both making myself smaller and the things around me larger. I focused my intent and closed my eyes for a technique that I usually use to summon things in front of my vision, but instead- I opened them to be standing next a forest of grass!
I made my way just through a few blades and onto the side walk. The building next to me was much, much larger than it had been before and the projectile of my vision made the dark orb look like a red sun. This new light made the orb seem even more ominous, and what happened next- I guess I should have left undone. I began to expand the orb in my mind before I attempted to absorb it. I made it grow in size about twice as large as it had been but then, it ripped appart my dream. I guess it turned into some sort of black whole, the world went dark and I saw shapes of space and matter flying into it's spot until everything went dark and the dream ended. I woke up later, excited about the incredible visuals of the explosion but... it was unfortunet that I didn't get to roam around as a tiny me a bit longer.

Thoughts
Lucid
Non lucid

I was so hung over this morning I went back to bed after being up for 3 hrs. I decided to attempt WILD. I didn't really care if I got any sleep I just wanted to lay down. I started on my left side. I watched a lot of HI. I have been getting too excited in SP that I wake up. Some people don't have the SP and I have notice before that sometimes I just transition with the HI. Well that doesn't work well for me most of the time but I was trying to tell myself that I could do that and not get excited. So I really focused on the visuals more than the physical sensations.

I picked "get lucid" as my mantra and focused on HI. I hit SP and got way excited I started a lot of inner dialogue. "Oh yes this is it here we go ya omg ah shit" I woke up. I then I got up to pee and went back to bed on my right side and started the WILD again. I basically dropped the mantra and just meditated and watched HI until SP kicked in.

This time I stayed relaxed. Instead of transitioning out of my bed like usual I just visualized but didn't have much clarity of thought. It was more like strong HI. It was something like me looking at a video game and I was trying to move crustations that looked like little grey balls in the water with my mind. I wanted to shrink them but couldn't. I guess I had TOTM on my mind

Then that visual went away and I had a FA. I was so disappointed with my LD that I just rolled over from my left to my right side. I thought about the lucid dream and thought "Well that one sucked" (I didn't catch this until I actually woke up but I wasn't on my left when I started the WILD. I was on my right the whole time!)

So being in the dream still but not knowing it I noticed I still had residual SP vibrations. I thought it was really odd that it came back so fast. I checked by rolling my eyes to the back of my head (Sometimes that makes the vibrations more intense.) I was glad I was in SP and I just relaxed but I think I fell non lucid after that. I don't really remember much after that. There's just a fragment about seeing my dad.

The last time I actually WILD I had a lot of confusion but I my awareness we a lot better. If I wan't hung over I probably would have had it. Oh well, at least I was able to get lucid. I was starting to think that I was in a bit of a dry spell. Plus my hangover is gone! Now that I have more confidence tonight should be a good one as long I don't drink

Commentary-
After a usual WBTB, I tried to WILD. I think I got close as I couldn't feel my body but I got no vibrations to let me know I was successful. After about an hour, I gave up and went to sleep. I woke up again, this time with my eyes closed and tried to DEILD but was unsuccessful again. I inadvertly went back to sleep on my back not performing any techniques and, wouldn't you know it, got a DILD out of it.

Lucid#5-
I knew I was dreaming when I woke up in a room that wasn't mine. I was in a dorm room of some sort. I got up, examined my hands as I read in a tutorial and said "stabalize now". After I stabalized, I tried to spin to try teleport myself to work but wasn't successful because I couldn't spin fast enough. It was as if my sleep parylsis was weighing me down. I was looking for a particularly attractive co-worker of mine I don't get to see too much. I walked outside and saw what looked like a receptionist desk. I asked the receptionist if the girl I was looking for was there. She said she was and started to lead me to her. We walked through what looked like a computer room where lots of college age kids were studying. "Here she is!" she said. She directed me towards a computer two ladies were sitting at. After taking a look at the ladies I found the receptionist was mistaken as she had just led me to two random, unattractive, geeky girls. My frustration caused the dream to end.

Commentary-
It seems like I still can't directly perform a WILD or DEILD if I try to. I will have to continue to focus on MILDing and use to former as a backup. It also seems like I have to get out of the room I wake up in before trying to spin to teleport myself.

I think this might be the first time I got lucids on consecutive days! I'll hope for another one tommarow so I could try teleporting again.

I had two lucids during my nap this noon!

The first one was a false awakening, and the interesting thing about it was that in the FA, I had sleep paralysis. Until now I can't be sure if I had it in real life, or if I had it in the dream. Either way, it felt really amazing. My chest was so tight that I couldn't breathe. I realized that I was in sleep paralysis and I calmed down. I am also proud of myself for remembering not to panic even though I couldn't breathe or move. Of course I think it kinda helped that I have asthma irl, because I knew how to maximize my breathing when I have trouble with it. Anyway in about 2 minutes, I opened my eyes and found myself beside my mom on my bed. I reality checked via noseplug, and I could breathe! I also pushed my finger through my hand and really observed. It went through, and it felt really cool and strange. I looove catching FA's!

Went out and remembered something a DV member mentioned on here. He was wondering what it felt like and if it was possible to have four arms in a lucid. I gave that a go. I closed my eyes and imagined two more arms sprouting indian goddess style on my hips. When i opened my eyes, they were there, and I could control them the same way I would any other body part. It's hard to describe because it's similar to how you control the movement of one eyebrow or making your ears move – it's something you can't really teach or explain. But it was so cool nonetheless. I did a little indian goddess pose, the one with the arms in diffent directions while squatting. Hahaha. Then walked around and lost lucidity.


The second lucid was spontaneous, and it was one of those "lucidity via dream atmosphere", as I would call it. Just something about the atmosphere that's a bit off, even though everything looks realistic. Kinda like when you go away on a long vacation, and when you come back home, it feels a bit odd at first, if you know what I mean. Anyway, I was outside, and decided to fly with angel-type wings. I've only used those kinds of wings once in a previous lucid goal, but I wanted to try it again. And so I did. I ran on the ground for a few meters, then jumped up and imagined unfurling my huge fluffy wings. I looked to my side and I could hear them flapping every few moments or so. I felt free. I flew back down after a few minutes, and got tangled up in some wires. Lost lucidity some time after that.