lucid

In the lodge of sorts. In my room I put too much stress on my red curtains. The section comes down. I hold the bar, attempting to fix it but soon come to believe it is a lost cause. A piece is broken/missing. I see a cat who I realize is Nala.

We come face to face and I begin to remember that she is dead. In my room I am in bed naked and Alexander crawls in next to me also naked. He spoons me and I can feel his smooth skin and th great warmth radiating from it. Suddenly I remember that his sweetheart is just outisde my room. The room with one missing curtain. I mildly panic, worried she can see us. Alexander doesn't seem a bit worried. I spot Kova. I pick her up and take her to the long couch where Alexanders' sweeheart sits. I give her the cat to play with and she seems very pleased.


Note: Kova is my cat, sister of Nala.

Wow... It's started happening again... My bed randomly floating around and flying and whatnot... (Explained here -> http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/sup3...ays-fun-36861/ )

So it happened again... Only this time, it was a bit worse. It kept occurring multiple times as opposed to just one, which used to be what it was like. My bed randomly floating off the ground, not being able to see it happen generally, but I could feel it as usual. It happened 2 or 3 times, then it stopped and I was awake. I woke up multiple times. Almost every time I tried to go to sleep, I would get that sinking feeling. I couldn't go to sleep for a while, Maybe about 2 hours. Keep in mind that this was at about 4:30 AM already.

There is a good side to this though. I was able to see things happen, only once however. I looked up and saw that I was floating. I didn't see my bed floating, but for some reason I could still feel it beneath me. I floated up a bit and was then launched at my wall. Then it went black for a fraction of a second and I was back in bed laying down. Eventually, I was able to get to sleep. This was terrifying, but in the dream, I knew I was dreaming... I'm now starting to think that these dreams are maybe a weird type of Lucid Dream... And if they are, then that's good because they're pretty easily accessible to me.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

Bedtime 11:30PM

4 16oz Coors Light over 5hr period, 3x 595mg potassium gluconate, 200mg B6

WBTB additional B6 200mg WILD with MILD mantra "Look at the sky" and counting

WBTB time 4:00am-4:30am I didn't technically stay but a few minutes but I had a hard time being awake enough to focus. I got really uncomfortable so I moved to the recliner after 30min. It took a few more minutes to get comfortable on the recliner. I eventually forced myself to lay still.

Sky Painting
I find myself in a small room sitting in what feels like a folding chair at a small table. I am painting a picture with professional water colors. I remember I made blotches of dark blue and added blotches of black. For some reason my black was applied with my operator stamp from work. I add some crimson and other light hues. The paint was undiluted so I loaded a larger brush with water only and swiped the whole painting. It blended into an abstract but beautiful early dawn sunrise. Then the water turned into a baby blue color and everything got runny. I tried blowing on it to dry it up an the baby blue only moved and the color underneath was unchanged. I messed with this for a bit.

Then it dawns on me that I am painting the sky. I remember about the sky and that I was trying to WILD. I fall backward in my chair in to an abyss. I hold on the the small canvass for stability but it is of no use. I get a flash of other people posting thier versions of my painting on the forum. Some just added an overlay of a bright object like a building other were abstract. Then I become engulfed in darkness. I stop fighting and relax. I let whatever wants to happen happen. This was the perfect mindset for DEILD.

I lie still for DIELD. I almost immediately feel vibrations. This time I am completely calm.I even think to check myself. Heart rate and breathing feel relaxed and normal. I am pleased. Before the vibrations end I begin the familiar process of imagining my feet connecting to the floor. It takes a few tries but I finally feel grounded. I am now standing in the living room. It is really dark. Just as dark as it is in real life.I think about how I want to make black fire. I don't know how but I look at my hand and try to visualize. Nothing. I feel the dream fading so I stop and look around.

I see the mirror in the room and jump on the couch to get up close. I look at myself and can faintly see my left eye is brown and my right eye is green I am really annoyed that it is dark. I say out loud, "I need some light." My voice sounds weak and raspy. I say it louder, "Light please." Still nothing. I go float up to the ceiling fan. I still remember the chain broke yesterday so I reach up close and pull it. The light doesn't work but the fans are spinning. I say, "Fuck it." and head out the front door.

I am on my front porch and floating. I feel the wind shifting me slightly. It is really dark outside too. I can see a few trees and decide to try some advanced flying. I think about Robert Wagonners book. He says to focus on a place and your dream body will fly to it. So, I look at the top of a very tall pine tree. I zoom toward it super fast. The strange thing is I notice that even though I flew fast, the transition was jerky and not smooth like a badly encoded video file. Maybe my brains computer couldn't render that fast. HA! I see another tree even taller and I fly the same way. Super fast with the jerkiness.

Now I am grasping the very tip of the taller tree. I look around and try using expectation to create some light. I tell myself that the sun should be coming up now. I look to the east and see the sun beginning to rise like predawn twilight. I smile because it looks like my painting. I think that is good but its still too dark. I am out of ideas now. I feel the dream fading. I learned from the NLD just before, that I should just relax and let it fade away and get ready for DEILD.

I feel like I am in a black void so I rub my hands together to stabilize. I partially open one eye and can see as if I am back in my bedroom. I see my hands rubbing together and almost dismiss it as a real awakening. I think I am in bed next to my wife but on the wrong side. I almost get up but pause. I think no I will wait and see. This might still be a dream. I think I must have really moved my leg because with that thought I really woke up.

WBTB 5:00AM-7:40AM

WBTB WILD with sky mantra and counting. The same as previous dream

Black Fire Fail
It take some time to get comfortable and relaxed. About 20 min. I am doing the dive when my wife wakes up and snuggles with me. I tell her I just got back to sleep since Riley woke up. She rolls back over. I am comfortable and let my awareness become a dim thing while counting 1 sky to 10 sky and repeat until I lose track. Each round of 10 I feel myself getting more and more relaxed. I think of it as very old self hypnosis technique I was doing several years ago. It's still effective.

After 20 min I see SP vibrations. Again I visualize and imagine tactile sensations of my feet connecting to the floor. This time it was not instant. I had to feel my feet walking and stomping before I felt out of my body. Then it fades and I relax. I get a crazy high speed spinning sensation and go back into sp. I remember to relax. I try to get up again. I really struggle to get up and I start to get annoyed. This time I roll fast to the right. I am now face down on the floor with my legs stuck in the bed like my body is stretched. I feel stuck. I remember the last time I did this I felt the crazy cold thing that became a lucid nightmare. I get a crazy idea and try to make it happen again. I feel like there is something under the bed. I smile and shove my hand under. It feels blocked like there is stuff under the bed but its clear in real life. I go in to a very convincing FA. I can hear loud country music. I think its some sort of phone alarm. I feel like I am awake in my bed. I start to turn to my wife to tell her to turn it off. I am very annoyed. Then I remeber to watch for FAs. I think about and I realize there would probably not be country music playing next to me. I stop myself and before I even look at her I realize it is a dream. This time I am well into a dream and I quickly get out if bed. I feel weak and drunk. I stumble out if the room. There is way more like in the living room this time. I smile at that. I think its funny how I know the sun is up now and my subC goes with it. I still want to create fire in my hands. I concentrate. I see a breif flicker of normal fire but when I try to go into black it fades. Now, I can't see the fire but I see the room glow. I lose focus. I wake up for real. I look at my wife and smile. She is awake on her phone and looks at me like I am crazy. The clock says 8:40

I had this short lucid dream during a very brief mid-morning nap. Lucid napping is a first for me. I didn't perform at my best in-dream and I allow the dream to end much too soon. Also, I get beat up by a little kid. But hey, lucid is lucid! Always learning.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #22: Unwelcome Houseguests

I'm holding hands with my two toddler-age sons, preparing to go outside for a walk. Before we reach the front door of th house, twin boys with curly blonde hair open the door and scurry inside. They look to be about eight years old and are complete strangers to me. This feels strange, and soon I'm lucid.

I decide that I don't want these weird kids running around in my house so I start ushering them out the door. They seem to cheerfully accept getting kicked out so my thoughts turn to lucid goals. I remember that I wanted to do the Task of the Month and replace my head with a pumpkin. But what was the other one? Ah yes, get a vampire, werewolf, or zombie to bite me. Now I remember.

Just as I'm thinking this (and probably because I'm thinking this), the twin on my left suddenly lunges at me and bites me hard on the left pec, right by my armpit. He snarls like a dog, whipping his head back and forth. I'm taken completely by surprise, both by the suddenness of the attack and by how much it actually hurts. I try to shout some kind of command at him but all that comes out is this pathetic yowl.

I blank out for a fraction of a second and my perspective switches to the top of the stairs, looking down at the scene of the attack. I have no dream body and everyone (me, my kids, the twins) is now gone from the scene. My view is turned on its side, as if I were lying down. I try to move, try to RC, but with no body there's not much that I can do.

I imagine that I'm lying here because I passed out and I'm just waking up. This seems to work! I have hands and a body again and I slowly get to me feet. Just then, I hear the sound of my alarm clock and voluntarily wake up. But when I wake up, it's only been 15 minutes since I laid down! The alarm wasn't anywhere close to going off and I fooled myself into waking up for no reason.

This was my shortest dream of the night but the most significant.

I find myself in a pine forest, an unknown setting for me. People are around but they seem to be keeping their distance as though they're waiting on something or afraid of me and the people closest to me. It turns out they have good reason as mystical powers are being worked with.

The teenage girl closest to me is dressed like Shiro from Deadman Wonderland.

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She is standing near a wall about three feet high that may be made from old railroad ties. Her arms are in front of her with her palms down as though to summon something. Beneath her hands are two white bars, each about six inches long, two inches wide and just over an inch high, stacked one on top of the other. My perspective is from slightly below her and in front of the low wall. Looking up at her I can see light bathing her from below as though the bars are radiating light...but more than that...waves of energy seem to be all around, as though power is being unleashed.

The girl is not as experienced as I am but I can see she definitely has power and potential. As her hands hover over the bars waves of new energy are released, enough to affect the very air like a strong wind. I'm eager to see if she will fully release the power from the bars.

The truly significant thing was the source of power in the bars was dream-power, something I knew to be known as Regional Dream Stabilization. The stronger the power of a dreamer the larger an area they could stabilize and control. The effect was radiant so worked in all directions from the source. I was really eager to see how the effect of her powers unfolded, and I wasn't alone. The others in the forest grove were also on edge waiting for something to happen.

And then I woke.

First I had a nightmare that my dad killed the dog with a shotgun and then was going to kill my cat, and my mom was trying to kill herself with a pistol but I kept stopping her.

I woke up and fell asleep and had another dream that I'm this loser guy on a bike and I find this ticket or eraser or something like that which is the only thing left of a little girl who is looking for her daddy, so I put the object in my pocket and swear that I'll find her Daddy for her. Later, I'm in this office building that has a skate park outside and at first I was using the skate park, then I was trying to hide from this one very angry businessman because the walls of the building are see-through, then when I was in the building, the guy orders me to turn on something because he thinks that I work there. I don't know what he told me to turn on though, so I just go in the direction he points and look for something to turn on. I find myself in a classroom with some students, so I leave there. Then, I find myself in this big medieval-like chamber with a handful of people all forcing a wide half-circle around a human!GLaDOS from Portal, who is giving them orders.

Apparently the rival company has stolen something from us, I can't remember if it was an object or a person. GLaDOS selects me to go back and get it, so I walk out the heavy wooden double doors and down the hall which is now also medieval-castle-looking. I feel cool to be doing something like this. Then, GLaDOS sends a bunch of other people down the hall too and I don't feel as cool knowing that I'm working as part of a crowd.

Later, I'm on my journey with my small group of about 4 other people, and one of them tells me that the rest were sent to do other things that will slow down, hinder, or distract the rival company, but we are the ones who will get the thing back from them. Matt Smith (as the doctor? as John Smith?) is one of my companions. We are camped out on the side of the road, similar to a place I know in real life. A cart belonging to the rival company passes by us, and they steal my glasses and one of my companions. A companion that wasn't stolen shouts, "they stole the kid Wheatley!" and I think Nymph from the Portal fandom might have been with us, but that was the first time I realized it. I see a white blur which is presumably Nymph in the cart as it leaves us.

At this point I am a little bit lucid, because I go back to our vehicle thing and materialize some contacts and try to put them in (but I can't - I'm really bad with putting in and taking out contacts, that's why I don't wear them). But then, the Doctor comes up to me angrily and accuses me of working for the rival company, because I never wear my contacts or go anywhere with them, but today I brought them because I knew that the other cart would steal my glasses. I don't have any real way to refute that.

There may have been a chunk that I've forgotten, but later, I'm maybe half-way lucid and I tell my group to follow me. Along the way I practice manipulating things around me. When they all get to this drive-way thing with trees around it that I was leading them to, I start waving my hand back and forth straight through a thick tree branch, and explain to the Doctor that all of our companions besides him weren't real. They evaporate when he realizes this. Then I call him "Matt Smith" to see if there's any reaction, but he's too busy focusing on the fact that his companions that he cared about weren't real. Then I possess a tree because I want to see what it feels like to be a tree, but I can't get myself to and I'm disappointed when I still feel like a slightly stretched-out version of myself. Presumably all Matt sees when he looks at me at that point is the tree, judging by the way he looks at me at that point, but he saw me fly into it to possess it, so his eyes are searching the tree when he asks me a question that is very important to him, I think he might have asked me, "am I real?" but I cannot remember for sure.

Whatever the question was, when I came out of the tree and told him yes, he was so happy that he grabbed the sides of my head and kissed me multiple times. I was very happy for him. Then we were teleported to the Ellen DeGeneres show where there were two rows of teenage girls on thin pillows, facing each other, bent over with their face and torso facing the ground in the adamantine pose. At the end of the row of girls was a throne-like chair that Ellen was sitting on. We were in the middle of the row of girls, about a girl or two away from Ellen's throne. Presumably, we were her next guests? One of the girls looked up and made an angry face at us.

I wasn't really sure what was going on, but I was still so happy for Matt that I sneaked a quick kiss with him again before I woke up.

(I think I'm not recalling the real beginning of this dream, so I'll start from where I start remembering the dream)

I was sitting in a bus and it was night, I think the bus was driving through some kind of tunnel. I was looking up and there was a hole or window in the bus there and at some spot we were driving through I could see the sky and the stars. It was just for about 2 seconds that I could see them and the first moment they looked normal but the next moment the amount of stars I could see started to heavly increase and they were forming a shape, a little like a magical seal. I was literally thinking "WTF?" and pinched my nose, and I could breathe perfectly, making me immediately lucid. I got up and looked around me (there seemed to be some random stuff in the bus) and told myself "all this is not real", resulting in some energy coming from me (I think) which dissolved everything to a more clear state, as well as helping me to stabilise.
Like usually I teleported to another place, I was left in a rather empty room, pretty dark but with some blue and purple colors. Looking out of one of the windows I saw space, looked like a blue galaxy. I wanted to go there so I went closer to the window with the intent to pass through it, but when I came closer I saw a reflection in the window, caused by the lamp in the from, preventing me from going there. So I simply opened the window and jumped through which worked well, I told myself "there's no gravity in space" so I only fell a few meters down and then I started floating. The blue part looked a lot like it had been painted to a wall because I could see a cube like shape from the inside (like when you are in a room). I turned around and went to a more red part of space, there was a sun and a bunch of asteroids around it. I thought about a certain track called Nebula (EBF3) which I then heard playing. The details of the stellar objects were going down a lot though and I only saw them in polygons. I was lightly jumping from one asteroid to another and tried to raise the details but I woke up.

I was trying for days but finally I made it, a successful but anorthodox WILD.

Once I started to feel the vibes inside my head, I felt the room turning red. Once they stopped, I raised myself effortlessly from the bed and looked around. Everything was indistinguishable from reality! As I was up sitting on my bed, a big floating screen approached me showing ladies with their boobs exposed! This screen faded after a while when I got up.


After that, something weird happened, I saw my school bag on the corner of my bed and I reached it to see how realistic it was, and pull random things out, I heard it's easier to visualise an object through a bag/pocket etc. But by touching it, I saw my hands, they looked weird and then my dream started to fade. I stood up and started spinning around but I got wrapped with the fan's coil which was exposed on the floor. The main problem was that my eyes closed and I couldn't open them to see.


So I stood still and waited for the scene to stabilize. It finally did! I raised myself again and performed a reality check :shadewink :nose plug works everytime and it worked of course, I could breathe right through. Without much thought, I opened my bedroom's door and decided to fly.

At this point, I tried not to screw up because I saw many reports of people having difficulty in flying but I flied naturally and effortlessly to the living room, which is about 40 meters away. I saw my dad sitting on the sofa, which was placed differently from waking life and I said good morning. He told me to shut up in a kind way because my mother was talking on the phone with a business partner. I ignored him and walked to the balcony to fly.

I jumped out and floated naturally forcing myself anywhere I wanted like I was 0.1% of my weight! So I explored the neighbourhood a bit and then I went straight up to reach space or something, I reached the clouds and woke up suddenly because the dream faded.

I'm sad it lasted that little but happy I finally made it to a 100% pure WILD, without doubts. Now that I convinced myself this works, I only have to analyze and master it.

I'm in a house with my sister and we are almost hiding out. I can feel that there are very few life forces around. Maybe a few other families on a big, sandy colored suburban block of Las Vegas style, upper-middles class houses. There is a war/fight going on in the sky. It is night time. Out of the large living room windows I can see formations of flying fighter crafts deploying to some unknown mission. Are they on our side? I don't think so. I know it's not safe here and at any moment we could be attacked. It seems my sister is unaware of this or doing very well do ignore the threat. A man knocks on my door. He is a shorter brown man with black hair and a moustach. I think he's Indian. I immediatly and suspicious of him, and he invites me to a meetup a short distane from here at an abandoned Taco Bell. Here we will learn about the threat and current conditions. I don't believe him. He leaves and a short time later, his wife knocks on my door. She is brown like him and she has some thawed out bags of meat to give me; tilapia, shrimp and something else. I take them graciously even though I don't eat meat. I understand that food is sparse. She asks me how I am and I feel I must mention the meeting with her husband. She acts as though she doesn't know what I'm talking about but I can tell she does. I can see her husband watching us behind her through the door.

(I remembered to stay still and do the DEILD technique. I try to release whatever tension that is in my muscles and soon I felt the vibrations. They go off and on and I try to curb my excitement, I don't remember rolling out but I did get lucid.)

I am in my room now. I am lucid. I see my grandma sitting in her chair and she is talking with my mother. I hear my name mentioned but that is all I hear. I take the time to ground myself by rubbing my hands together and touching the objects around me. As I touch the wall I notice how cool it felt. I look at my hands and nothing is wrong with them. All of a sudden I 'wake up' and now I am in the same place again. I am still lucid but unsure if I am dreaming so I do the nose plug RC and it confirms I am dreaming. I then go up to my grandma and slap her in the face. I run into the hallway. "I hope she didn't get mad" I say. I return and she is sleeping (like she always does in real life). I feel like I am being 'pulled' and then I wake up.

I am outside sitting at a desk that is facing the house. It seems to be getting dark. I have no shoes on. I check my phone to see what time it is. It is past 3. I know my mother comes home at 3 so I open the garage door and push the desk inside. I then stop what I am doing and take a moment to look around my surroundings. Nothing is out of the ordinary but even so my awareness had increased enough for me to realize I am dreaming! I rub my hands together. I look around my dreamscape again but I feel like I am fading away. I close my eyes and wake up...

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

Alcohol before bed

Bed time 12:30Am

Angry Father DILD 8:00AM

It's strange but I am at my ex-in-laws house. It's just me and my parents. I am playing with a new phone. It looks like a Note or galaxy SIII. My dad is ranting and raving about how something was evil and of the devil. I was getting really annoyed listening to him so I start to make fun of him. I tell him things like how I love mammon and I worship the devil. I show him little demon animations on my phone. It was straight sarcasm.

Then for no real reason my emotions turn into near hatred. I look up from the phone and I see him walking into the living room. I say, "I am going to punch you in the face!" He passes the ceiling fan and I can see the light shine through his head.

Then it dawns on me. The emotion and the light. All my anger fades instantly. I get overly excited and say, "WE ARE DREAMING!" He just looks at my funny. Then everything gets white washed with a bright light. I think I am waking up. I don't realize that fading to black is waking but the fading to white is something else. I sort of panic and think about the task I wanted to do. I try to visualize but I get nothing. I remember CanisLucidus and how he reentered by saying I am dreaming. It's all I can think of so I say, "I am dreaming." a several times. But then I give up way too easy.

I should always always always remember DEILD especially when the LD is so short. I guess I was taken by surprise in this dream. I am usually so involved with the emotion that I don't become lucid. Thanks, CanisLucidus for pointing out that strong emotion is a dream sign!

I didn't wake up after all. After the white goes away I find myself back in the dream non-lucid. I am sitting in the same living room playing with the phone again. I am scrolling though a bunch of text that I can't focus on. I click a link and see a picture of Howard Stern with puffed out lips hold a microphone. He is next to either some woman or it was Steven Tyler with puffed out lips holding a fake dick. I laugh at this and shake my head. All the time Spencer from work is talking to someone in the room. I never look up to see and I don't know what he is saying.

"Punch you in the face" I think this is the 3rd or 4th time this month that has been said in a dream.

Fragment
I remember being at Wal-Mart. I lay down in shopping cart and try to sleep.


New dream signs: Strong Emotion, Trying to sleep, "Punch you in the face".

CAN WILD SUCCESS

So, this is a lucid failure, but a success for technique. The DV CAN WILD technique uses the Easy MP3 alarm. You can set it to play only once, so you can hear it, but not have to turn it off. Instead of a sound which is discussed in the CAN WILD tutorial, I talk to myself.

I track dreams where the morning news infiltrates my dreams, so for this technique, I run an alarm like a news cast stating that I was seen flying all over town, and I have other suggestions.

At one point I say, "So do a reality check...reality check...reality check... ...reality check."

I figure three times will really let it sink in, and the fourth takes longer to say it, so I throw myself off, but it's the same word, and that should really hit me.

Well, last night, I heard the word in my sleep. I counted my fingers. True to form, I see five fingers, but really count them up, and now there are six and they are kind of deformed.

I got so excited in my dream, I started trying to tell someone that my technique worked.

I very quickly lost lucidity, but the fact that the technique worked is awesome.

My dream continued and Percy Lucid was making fun of the rest of what I was saying in my alarm. "He was seen flying all over town." As he was saying it, I saw his little heart icon.

I didn't really mind he was making fun of it. It was really all in good fun.

Maya and I are in a house. Mom. This house is long and narrow. There is a yellow white lighting to the place like there are a lot of lamps overhead and about. It is crowded and cluttered. We are playing a game. I cannot recall how we entered the game but there is a dark, authoritative figure present and the game begins. We are chased and harassed by two huge dogs. Like pit bull, greyhound, wolf hybrids. They have snarling teeth and dirty mugs.

We are scratched and bitten but never mortally or even severely wounded. I spot a large stuffy sofa below and open window. I look to a bite/scratch on my finger and see it bloody and bubbling with pus. Out the window is another row type house and and average neighborhood. Now I am lucidly aware that this is very much got the feel of my birth house on Alberta. We jump out the window onto the stuffy chair.

Note: This is the first dream I remember having in my life. I must have been three or four years old.

I'm in the living room of our first house on twenty-sixth and Alberta in Portland, Oregon. I'm not sure of my age but I can see my skinny little girl legs dangling down from my dad's lap. So I figure I'm three or four. We're in his light blue reclining chair. The sun sheds light on the chair and on me and on dad. I feel safe. Then it is dark. Not completely dark but the dark of a dense cloud covering sun. I am in the lap of Beetleguise. His black and white striped pants in place of my dad's blue jeans.