lucid

So I just started using the SSILD and MILD methods together after waking up at night to see what happens. It was a weird night, I kept waking up, having weird dreams and had some trouble falling asleep. I went to sleep at 23:21 and woke up naturally at 1:08. No dreams yet. Did a short WBTB and tried SSILD. After that I repeated a mantra for some time in my head (I know I'm dreaming), had a short visualization and eventually fell asleep.
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I had a short LD in which I was somewhere (I think in a car) with my stepfather. I suspected I was dreaming and did the glass RC (I press some glass with my finger until it "pops" as if it were plastic wrap, it creates a small hole in the glass) on a window and it worked, however I do not remember anything else from that dream.
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I dreamed I was on a street next to where I live, however the streets were flooded. I was with my family and we saw some kind of big toy whale on the water singing and I tought it was some kind of theme park. We went inside and there was a room with lots of people and attractions. The only one I can remember was a model of some city or something like that. That's all I remember about this dream.
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I was in the middle of some unknow city. The floor was made of beige bricks and looked kinda rustic. I tought it was some kind of post-apocalyptic world, but the city was quite lively. I knew I had to go back to a huge old building because I remember something happened there, on its roof. Along the way I met two kids who followed me there.

When we arrived the building was incredibly huge. We went inside into some kind of lobby with an elevator. I think there were some robots there. The kids said something that made the robots mad and entered the elevator with them. I went outside into an open area with some tables and chairs. It was already night by this point. I looked up and tought something bad was going to happen up there on the roof, then some robot jumped from the roof and landed near me. It didn't break and was sad because it couldn't kill itself. I think it said it would only be happy if it died or if had a frisbee, so I threw a frisbee at it and it started acting all excited like a dog, trying to catch it. I think there was also an actual dog and a guy playing with it there, as well.
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I woke up at about 3:48 and did another WBTB, then I tried SSILD and MILD again. This time it took longer to fall asleep.
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I was in some area with some swimming pools and there were areas that were restricted to girls. I kept trying to trespass, however there was this guy who always stopped me. I eventually became lucid and I think the first thing I did was try to phase through a wall. I ran up to it and kept pushing myself into it, until I completely went through it, but ended up hitting myself on another wall that was right behind it. I also remember trying to fly over a house and trying to become invisible.
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I eventually woke up but didn't record the time (I think it was around 6 o'clock) and did another wbtb. I didn't do SSILD this time however, as I was afraid it would mess with my sleep or something (I wasn't sure if I was supposed to do more than one SSILD per night). I tried to fall asleep, but couldn't. I was also kinda hungry but didn't eat anything thinking it might make it harder to fall asleep. I lied down on my beed trying to sleep until 8 o'clock when my alarm started ringing and I decided to get up.

It was a weird, long night. SSILD caused some interesting results (some weird and vivid dreams as well as two lucids), so I'm gonna keep practicing it, I just hope next time I don't have as much trouble falling asleep.

1. I'm standing on a path winding through a desert. The path is situated next to a low stone wall on my left, and small green shrubs are scattered down the pathway. It's day time, and the few people throughout the pathway tell me I need to change my position to the other side of the path. I understand that a small stampede of animals is about to come through. My body is a bit tough to move, and I think to myself "If I was lucid right now, this would be way easier"I suddenly realize I'm in a dream, my hands come out in front of me, and I say "I'm lucid". I turn to my left and see the low, light colored desert wall winding. My body is very encumbered, and I want more mobility. I tell myself "Eric, this is a dream; this isn't real. You can do anything you want." I gain mobility and get on top of the wall. Visuals soon fade and I end up in the void. I stay here for a bit waiting for a bit
then have a FA with a bit higher awareness. I feel someone is entering the house, yet feel protected by my german shepherd next to me.
I then begin to realize I'm in a dream state, and relax my body.
I'm lucid during an OBE style entry. I’m sliding off the bed and sinking into the ground slowly and see the carpet approaching. I relax my body and mind as I know the typical process I go through in this situation. I keep excitement in check as I come very close to landing my face and entire body on the carpet. I’m preparing to stand up, then feel S nudge my body roughly in RL in her sleep. I feel myself pulling back into my waking body but try to keep anchored. I wake up.

2. I find myself lucid as I enter a void area, and decide to start meditating as I become aware of my dream body. Once I begin, I have the mental image of a silhouette of my body rotating in all directions in a 3-Dimensional plane. I feel the rotations as I continue. I decide focus more on the concentrative aspect, and enter into a shamatha meditation. It becomes grounded and focused very quickly. I then begin demanding clarity and focus verbally and my senses increase. I clap a few times, and hear the sound very vividly. I want to the dream scene to begin, so I ask verbally and await a response. FA waking next to bed sitting in half lotus trying to re-enter a dream lucidly. I soon wake up.

Completed Totm Basic 1 and Advance 1✨🎆🎆✨

Bed around 10 and fast to sleep as am enjoying full on exercise every weekday at the mo and it's making me sleep good

Set intentions pretty strong before sleep ; repeating to myself that
I will remember my dreams, I will record my dreams, I will have many dreams and I will be lucid tonight.
Repeating - "Tonight I lucid dream "many times as I drift off✨

I woke around 2 with some fragments then about 3am ...being chased again but this time I am not as anxious as I have been before - so I know I am clear headed tonight.

I repeat - "Tonight I lucid dream" quite a few times and fall off to sleep as usual and almost jepedise a proper Wbtb - this time I know I need a good wbtb so I sit up for about 30 mins 😉 I sit up resting my self and allowing my body and mind to calm and be at peace - I bring my focus about - I will lucid dream tonight ...as I repeat this regularly and intermidedly see myself becoming lucid and accomplishing goals. I know tonight I have a good chance 🎆🌠🎆

I remember totm tasks and personal tasks also make strong requests to my sub to help me learn and become/realise everything I possibly can -

Earlier dreams include me speaking with my mum about meditation and how I know I haven't realised any big deal stuff but I am very happy I know how to relax and be one pointed and at peace - I know I want to take this further...and will.

Woke at 5.54am with Lucid dream report -
First time lucid was a dild but later had a Deild and a wild as I lay still back awake after waking up a few times.
During the dreams - which are of rich sexual content - I am helping many during war time. It's similar to quite a few dreams I have had now where I play very confident " yogini" in the sense of the word that I would not dare to do in WL - I am a pretty wild DC and very comfortable with my role in the dreams as if I have always been this character ...I also seem tobe training others to be yogini 's this is a recurring theme I am becoming aware of - sometimes I am playing myself and other times it's watching her in 3rd person.
Anyway at some point I decide to do totm basic 1


I was with some DC's and remember to ask one if they have a secret form one of the folks on Dream Views - he shakes his head - so I continue asking " ok what about Dolphin...anything about him?" Nope he says ..." Ok I ask - how about RelaxAndDream...anything about him?" He stops to ponder and says he has a secret about RelaxAndDream

I am intruiged but have a feeling the DC is messing with me


" He's got 3 noses! " says the DC - I laugh and laugh and wake up laughing


So I go back to sleep after recording the above dreams at around 6am - I know I am getting up n an hour and feel relaxed. I lay still and on my back and gently slip in to dreams which become lucid once again.

I am looking at myself in a small mirror when I get lucid - my face looks funny so I start imagining my mouth opening and something coming out even though I know it's shut - the face in the mirror obliges showing a small long thing come out my mouth ... so I continue to watch and see my mouth morphing, disappear completely then reappearing etc for a bit ,this is fun but comes to an end as I go to explore the dream scape -
- I become part of a story - it seems I am the main character and I have been kidnapped ( as its a lucid I go along with it thinking how curious of my sub to show me as such a victim ) soon though I end up as the yogini once again within this powerful group of rebels of the communist regime - it's dark times - I am the one looking after them in every way like food, Heath love and especially in matters of the heart - very dramatic etc ...where at one point I look down at my legs and they are covered in blood - the open, straightforwardness of her love seems to be symbolised by the bloodiness. Difficult dream to explain far less understand completely.

This dream as was pretty long Lucid - going a long with the plot mostly but then doing some tasks every now and then - I met a girl later on and asked her if she would acompany me throught the dream and help accomplish tasks and she said ok - she acompany's me around after that.

DILD #1-I woke up and remembered my intention to do a nose plug. I did one and could breathe. I decided to go down a hall instead of outside. The hall opened up to a big open space with glass ceilings. I quickly found a clock and started rotated my forefinger counterclockwise while saying "time back". As I did this, the hands on the clock went back from 7:00 to 4:00. I noticed the sun stayed in place though. I wanted the sun to go down while I was turning back time as prove I was controlling time and not just the clock. I noticed a couple of ladies doing administrative work who must have been pretty annoyed by some loon nearby spinning his forefinger while commanding "time back time back time back time back time back" Eventually I finally got the sun to lower significantly, turning day into morning. Satisfied, I stopped and woke up.

DILD #2-I woke up and looked at my alarm clock to find the numbers looked weird. Also, I heard some sort of radio. I did a nose plug and could breathe. I went outside, jumped up in the air and tried to transform into a dolphin, but couldn't. I flew over a creek and woke up.

Created Friday 12 August 2016

Spellbee's Summer Lucid Competition 2016 - Entry 14

Today, I recalled two LDs,, each occurring very early and very late into my sleep, respectively. The last one was especially surprising in how much I control I had in it, doubly so given the bout of insomnia I was afflicted with today. Nothing else besides that.

Dream 1 - Repelled a Valorous Ambush

Only remember the end of this. The visuals were very dim. I was in what seemed an altered version of my bedroom. An odd entity accompanied me, an illuminated, red, human-shaped silhouette the size of a child.

Suddenly, another such figure jumped in after the red being, only this one was adult sized and shone in white light. He was a member of Team Valor, I just knew it. In fact, I'm almost certain this was RelaxAndDream. In any case, his plan, I'm sure, was to take off with my unknown companion. However, he missed. With his ambush compromised, the enemy chose to flee empty-handed, and he vanished in a flash of light.

I suspected he jumped through time. So, in response, I called to the Time Gem to keep him in stasis. By this point, I'd caught on to the dream. But, just as I was about to seek out my opponent, I was awakened to a storm. Ah, crud.

WBTB after several other awakenings. A too thorough of an SSILD attempt turns into a few hours of sleeplessness.

Dream 2 - Summer Lucid Competition - Day 14

Scene 1 - Surprising Stability
WILD transition within shut eyes. I'd a very weak grasp of the state, and had to seriously calm my nerves to barely keep things in check. To get things moving, I muttered "deeper" repeatedly in hopes of stabilizing and transitioning the dream. After seeing a few jumbled images, it worked as intended!

Scene 2 - Another Stroll Over the City
The visuals were bright and just slightly blurred. I was floating above a busy cityscape under a clear dawn sky.

I swoop down to get a better look at the streets below. The environment and objects swayed between dated 3D and realistic, including the vehicles, stop signs, pavement, and buildings. There was no sound at first. My voicing a few horns and humming motors fixed that.

Then, I'm not-entirely-willingly pulled out of there to a tour between the skylines in the area. Seen it all before, but another go wouldn't hurt. I'm eventually taken into the construction site of what could only be a vast, wide tower. This drags me near a few cement low walls and window frames. So, for quick points, I try phasing through the walls. At first, a force keeps me from diving in too deeply to do so, and simply takes me past the windows. It takes a bit of finagling to finally hit a wall, from which I clip right through without resistance. To assure myself, I do likewise through a complete wall.

The visuals collapse. Re-anchor, re-stabilize- re-transition.

Scene 3 - A Somewhat Helpful, Monstrous Hand
Similar visuals as before. This took place over the waters of a seaside city at a bright day. I was just an observer.

The viewpoint scrolls horizontally over the water. It then focuses on what's clearly the Statue of Liberty in the middle of nowhere. Several distant shots and close-ups are made. Some 80's tune plays along with this as if a movie credits.

My mind drifts on bringing some huge monster for the heck of it. Suddenly, in some far-off place, such a thing emerges from the depths. This appeared as a gigantic, gaunt humanoid. Its skin had orange, chitinous plates, as well as other somewhat insectile features. Besides two tiny beads for eyes, its face was indiscernible. Furthermore, its left arm was much longer than the right one. The creature reaches its malformed, clawed hand to the "camera", and immediately pulls me into the dream. And, just as quickly, it tosses me to the horizon.

Had to restabilize. When I come to, I find I'm floating in the sea, the city barely visible far in the distance. Numerous others were there with me, including my siblings. Felt it was a casual swim, given how unperturbed everyone was. What's more, I heard Stone Man's theme from Mega Man - Power Fighters sounding in the background, to which I joyfully hummed along for a while.

From there, I thought to control the tides. I motioned and called for a huge wave to emerge. Soon, a sizeable wave arrived, probably about a dozen foot tall. It foamed up a bit, and dragged all of us towards it, only to simply lift us over without incident. Eh, so-so, but I wanted something BIG. I gestured for another one, and, just as requested, brought forth a huge tsunami of a wave. Where the others panicked, I looked on with contained joy.

Once it crashed down, the dream begins destabilizing. More re-stabilization. I witness various colorless images of my wandering some hallways. Eventually, I'm fully transitioned.

Scene 4 - Stop That, Whatever You Are
The visuals were a bit blurred. I was sitting in a small classroom. Couldn't really focus on much, as I needed to put full concentration on keeping the environment in place. Suddenly, something begins tugging at my toes. I'd various thoughts on what that could be. I try bringing as such to being, but this sensation was simply too distracting. This soon awakens me.

Now this is the kind of night I wish I'd be pulling off for the entire comp.

I was talking to Manei and I said to her: "I like taking long hot showers and crying for no reason. It helps me get all my boogers out."

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I don't remember the first dream too well. I was with my cousins and we were going to see some movie. Then I remembered that the movie was in fact some play that I was supposed to have a part in. The movie theatre morphed into this huge coliseum with five stage curtains on a scaffold forming a pentagon in the middle. I don't remember if it was because there were five iterations of the same play being put on at once or because it was all one big play that made use of this unique stage. It also had something to do with my high school graduation.

I remember leaving my family behind and going backstage to make preparations. I had no memory of being in this play or what part I was supposed to play. The director got really mad at me. He said that the play was a Porn-Parody of Harry Potter and made a penis joke about a "wand". I remember there was this big blue prop sign with white letters that said "Lucid Dream". I became lucid. Not long after I did, all of the dream characters except the play director vanished.

I remember becoming lucid and thinking of my dream-goal to do do some kind of acrobatic/gymnastic maneuver. I was thinking about the olympic gymnastics and how very badly I wanted to mimic that in a LD. I also thought about how I might destabilize the dream if I do a flip or something because it would be like dream spinning. In more stable dreams it hasn't been a problem, and I've done it before. (Hence why it's a 10-point goal).

I said I wanted to start easy. I saw this huge paper mache prop tree and ran up the side and did a parkour backflip. It didn't destabilize the dream very much. I then forgot about the goal and started flying and running through the branches of the prop tree. The play director ran and got a clipboard. He said he was inspired to write a new play about Peter Pan because I was flying. Then this really fat guy in a blue track suit came in. He said he wanted to enter me in a lucid dreamers equivalent to the olympics for agility flying since I had a natural talent for it. I told him I would like it, but I wanted to do proper training and not rely solely on natural talent.

(Adds Lucid Dream Olympics to list of dream goals for after comp.)

I remember I was playing Halo 4 (At least I think it was Halo 4. It felt like it.) I remember I had signed into the match by accident and it was 3v1. I thought to myself "huh boy, a 3v1, and I haven't played in awhile." I remember thinking that I should just quit, but that would be bad sport and I should at the very least try and fight them even if they stomp me. Also the place we were fighting in was the front yard of my house.

It was at this point their personalities became apparent. The guy in red armor with the star on his shoulder had Steven's voice from Steven Universe and was the leader. There was a guy in white armor who was an idiot and a guy in pink armor who was a coward. They tried attacking me. I remember having three weapons avaliable to me (when in Halo, the most you can normally have is two.) I had a shotgun, assault rifle and the 3 round burst rifle from halo 3)

It's not like I was playing to my fullest. In some weird way, (even though there the video game context was ignored) Controlling my character felt lethargic. Sometimes I would think to move a certain direction but wouldn't actually start moving half a second later. Aming was difficult too. More than once, I shot in a different direction than I was looking.

I remember the white armor guy and the pink armor guy were pretty terrible and I was able to kill them pretty easily. For the most part they would just stand in one shot and try to shoot at me (and miss) The Steven guy was a bit tougher, he actually fought back and used cover. I know he killed me at least once. At one point the white and pink armored guys came after me driving a minivan they had stolen from the neighbors garage and I blew it up by throwing a grenade underneath it.

When the score was about 10-1 the Steven guy said he was going to use a hack to transport us outside of the map. He did and we were now on a freight train that was moving. I killed the white and pink armor guys again and apparently when using the hack, they forgot to set the spawn points outside of the map boundaries too, so this was my opportunity to lose these guys.

The train began going around this large lake (actually I think it was a bay) following a curved path. Because of the way the tracks curved I could see the Steven Guy way down at the end of the train across the lake. There was a (googles Halo vechiles) Banshee on one of the last train cars. He got into it and flew across the lake towards the front of the train where I was. I started shooting at him but kept missing. He shot a missile at me and blew apart the train car. I very nearly fell off but I grabbed this bar on the end of the train car and held onto the side. I swing around to the backside hiding from him.

Dangit I'm lucid! Can't I just use VATS?

I swing around once. I tried to stop time and target him, but nothing happened. (Well I got hit with a few spare lasers) I tried a second time and it worked. I focused in on him and got a HUD just like VATS. I set all my shots to target him (Think I had about 5 shots) I even got the 3rd person movie style of me shooting them and blowing the guy out of the sky.

After that the train stopped, presumably because the match had ended. I think my armor dissolved and gave way to my regular dream self. I still had the gun but I threw it down in the sand and sad "gah! I hate using guns!" I saw one of the little ATV things from Halo and decided to hop on as an easy means of transportation. I got stopped by this fisherman guy who said that the ATV was his and it was a present from his mom and had been stolen from him by the Halo team that I had fought. I said he could have it back and he was very thankful.

I somehow found myself in a parking garage looking through the back of my dad's old van and I found a fluffy white blanket. I was talking to my dad about something and said that I had to return the blanket. I went back to the fisherman's house and gave him the blanket too. When I did he hugged it and started crying. He asked what he could ever do to repay me and I said that it was nothing and I was just trying to be a more positive influence on my dreams.

The dream phased from the beach where the train and the fisherman had been to the family beach resort. I wanted to go back and talk to my dream dad but I wanted to move in a way that wasn't flying. I remembered how in old lucid dreams I would move my feet like I was ice skating and gain super speed across the ground. I tried it but nothing happened. (Maybe because I was in sand... )

What if I tried actual ice skates? I looked down at my boots. I felt like I could feel a button where my big toe was and wiggled my toe in to press it. (I also noticed, when I focused on the sensation of my feet that I was wearing no socks and had a lot of sand in my boots.) But when I pressed the button, an ice skate blade popped out of the bottom of my boot. I was a little bit awkward at first because I couldn't get the one in the other boot to come out because there was no button. Eventually intuition made me realize that I had to press the button in the right boot twice.

I started skating down the boardwalk at high speeds. I remember thinking that I should use these more often and call them the "zero-friction skates".

I arrived in this collection of oriental style buildings and a boardwalk. I find the fisherman character again sitting and eating a basket of fish and chips at an outdoor eating area next to a buffet bar. He thanks me again for returning his things to him. I think he was actually in tears this time. I thought it was funny. This guy really looked like the tough sailor type, even though he wasn't very big he looked tough, but here he was, balling his eyes out for me. He said he didn't like french fries because they were potatoes and the association with the phrase couch potato and laziness, so I ate some for a realistic taste, but no salt, and I couldn't find any, and didn't think to reach into hyperspace and grab some.

He asked me how strong I must be to return two of his most important stolen belongings and beat up a gang of supersoliders that were apparently local bullies. He said he wanted to arm wrestle. I remember I accepted but it was this weird form of arm wrestling where we were standing and we tried to pull away from one another with our arms bent and whoever's arm went straight first would lose. The fisherman struggled and struggled, eventually cheating at his own game to try and bend my arm straight. I told him that "I'm the Dreamer." He didn't really understand that so I explained briefly that it was my lucid dream.

I then remember making a point that my strength doesn't come from musculature because in the dream realm, that's meaningless. What's more important is your level of confidence. I decided to test something by using spear finger on a tree. (There was a large tree growing up out of the boardwalk several feet from our table.) I expected my strike to reduce the trunk to wood chips, but I don't think I was fully confident. (I was in the same mindset when I'm doing board breaking in martial arts classes.) I still drove my hand about halfway through the tree making a sizable hole and coming out with a fistful of wood shavings. The Sailor guy had a fish stick in his mouth and it fell out when he saw me do that. Priceless.

I then saw the sky getting dark and decided I would do some flying. I said goodbye to him and activated fire jets out of my hands. In the reduced lighting the blue and reddish-orange contrast of my flying flames was exceptionally apparent, the colors really popped against the DW. There was even a "fwoom" sound as they came on. Sometimes my flying jets are very small and compact (or nonexistent), but this time they were like big bright colorful blooms of fire. I didn't take off right away and I was worried I'd set the boardwalk on fire. I took off and did a spiral around this pagoda building as the dream faded out.

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I went into something about driving with my dad, in the van again, going camping. I think it was actually a false awakening, explained that I had been asleep in the car this entire time and just woken up now as we were arriving. (We're actually going camping the day after the comp ends, no wonder I didn't catch this.) He said something about father son bonding.

I woke up. I seriously thought about just getting out of bed and starting my day. (I did get up to go pee though.) I've had foul luck with reentry and mostly mucky WILDs. But I realized I was tired enough that I just might be able to pull of another short lucid and started doing counts.

I was with my dream-mom. I remember telling her that this was a lucid dream and it can be utilized as a playground to do anything, even things that are not necessarily acceptable. She said she wanted to rob a bank. I remember also there was a plot about me being some kind of secret agent and I walked into a bank when there were robbers in it and everyone else was running away. The dream got scrambled pretty quickly where I was someone else and I saw my mom running out of the bank pushing a baby me in a stroller.

I went into the back of the bank. I think I was with Manei now and we were planning how we would do this. Marcus had given us this little baseball sized shaped charge that we could supposedly use to destroy the vault door in the back of the bank. We walked in, climbed over the counter and went into the vault. I remember I tried figuring out how to make the bomb detonate. There was a really long red string wrapped around the bomb with a little pink plastic toad on the end of it.

I then decided we would hack the computer instead. I remember trying to log in on the user account of somebody from the bank but I didn't know any passwords. Then I went to another computer terminal and saw that without logging in I could just enter the password to the vault directly. We tried a couple different passwords. The only two I remember us trying were "HoneyMoney" and "BigBenjamin31". I think Marcus was talking to us over radio giving us more password suggestions, but I ignored him since none of them worked.

Me: "Alright. If I was in the prim and proper adult culture of banking, and I wanted to pick a password that nobody could guess, you wanna know what it would be?

"boobfart69"

GLADOS sounding computer: "Password Accepted. Opening Vault."

A woman came out of the bathroom and saw the two of us. She said she had been woken up by the Glados voice and had fallen asleep on the toilet. She was a little bit suspicious that we weren't supposed to be here even though the bank was closed, we were dressed like ninjas, and the dream guide behind me was stuffing money into a bag (Humorously stupid and oblivious dream character.) She somehow became convinced that we were a husband and wife pair and Manei was username "HoneyMoney" in the bank's employee registry.

I woke up.

Scoring: Since I've never had multiple lucid dreams to score I'm not sure how to do it. I think you can count dream control twice if you have it in multiple dreams. (But not necessarily a chain, like what happened last night.)

Frag 0.5pt*1=0.5
NLD (counting the nonlucid portion for each DILD since it was substantial.) 1pt*2=2
DILD 10pt for first +5pt subsequent*2=15
WILD 10pt for first=10
WBTB 2pt*1=2
Old Personal Goal (Gymnastic Maneuver)=10pt
Basic Flying=5pt*2 different dreams=10pt
Time control=(I'm counting my use of VATS as this.)=10pt
Use an ordinary object to preform dream control (I guess it isn't 100% normal to have ice skate blades that pop out of your shoes, but I'm taking it and running.)=5pt
Super Speed (From the skate blades)=5pts
Eat Something (A few Potato Planks)=5pts
DC Interact 2pt*all 3 dreams=6pts
Super Strength=5pt
Elemental Control=(Them big blooms of fire in the second dream should count. Such pretty colors (◕‿◕)) =10pt
Use electronic Device=(Bank computer system)5pt

Total: 100.5!

A very profound dream, but unfortunately another "non-lucid lucid".

It all started quite normally. My character was in a prison cell behind bars. It all had a somewhat medieval feel to it. The place was NOT on ground level, it as at least several floors up in a fairly high building in the city. In the hallway there was a lot of commotion. A fight of some kind. During the chaos, the barred cell doors opened, allowing us to escape. I vaguely remember a small crossbow? There was so much more to this dream that I forgot.

I somehow got out of the building on ground level, and found myself in the city. It was night, and it was raining. Fortunately all the cars, buildings, street lights and colorful shops lit up the place quite well. I ran, and jumped to take off. I somewhat floated, then transitioned into flight. I was afraid it wouldn't work for a second. I flew through the city rather aimlessly. I was wearing my long, black leather coat and I notice how badass it looked during flight. I was trying to show off to someone on the ground. They didn't look at all surprised to see someone fly. I somehow KNEW this was because they were DC's, yet I wasn't lucid. I kept flying until I caught a glimpse of another person flying at a lower altitude below me. He was dressed just like me. I followed him and landed next to him (actually, I think we were bot hanging on to the side of a building). I immediately saw that he was me. I somehow understood that he was the manifestation of my subconscious, the ultimate dream guide. I said that he didn't look as ugly as I thought, and that this conversation wasn't as awkward as I had expected (I hate myself). We compared abilities, and he could do everything I could do and vice versa. At one point, we were standing at a table (still outside). I stared forward, and saw him to my left in my peripheral vision. I figured that if he is my subconscious, he should be able to hear my thoughts. I focused my thoughts on him (while still ignoring him, he didn't know about the experiment), and thought "if you can hear me, tap your fingers on the table three times". It took a while, and I had to repeat the thought several times, but eventually he did it- he tapped his fingers on the table as I had asked. We exchanged a knowing look, and left (now that I'm awake, I realize he didn't hear my thoughts, he was a DC, and as dreamer I made him obey by focusing what I wanted to happen). Later, we found ourselves seated in a little restaurant. The place was once again located pretty high up in a tall building in the city. The waiter came and served us our french fries.

*I woke up with the initial thought Focus on Buddha's form.

*I remember being in a dark apartment complex while being followed by some scary man. I became sort of lucid at this point and flew away. I remember sitting in the car of a parking lot thinking what I should do next.

A dream begins to fade a bit, and I suddenly have a thought that I can become lucid if I imagine my hands in front of me. A faded visual of hands comes in front of me and I become lucid as the dream transition into a transition phase/gray void. I can't see anything at this point besides gray, and figure I have the best chance of tping to another scene if I dream spin. I begin spinning, but no visuals appear at the onset. I lose lucidity.

I have a thought about lucidity soon after, and have the thought once again that if I visualize my hands next I'll become lucid. My self awareness doesn't fully come through at this point, and there is a short period of time in a gray transition stage.

For those new to lucid dreaming, I don't wan't you to read this entry and think that WILD is hard or that it is difficult to stabilize dreams. It will only poison your mind with bad expectations. WILDs are normally much more vivid than most lucids, actually.

I again took 8mg of galantamine, 600mg of alpha gpc with one scrambled egg. I did SSILD after half an hour and then started WILD.

08.11.2016
08:30 AM

Bad Schema (SSILD WILD)

I start to have imagery of the game dwarf fortress. It must have a really good graphics pack because it looks almost intelligible! It is adventure mode and I am in a dungeon with two companions. There is an enemy coming at me and it is actually multiple tiles across! I am sitting at my computer in my room and can feel the chair now. What version of dwarf fortress is this? I look and see it is part of the masterwork mod. For some reason I hear my sisters voice coming from my roommates bed. I wonder if the dream is stable enough for me to do anything and try and look over. I have a weird sensation and everything beyond my desk is very blurry. I look back now and the main monitor is off now. The second monitor has the dreamviews irc. I try to turn on the main monitor with the button but it does nothing. I type "Hi, This is a dream." into the chat and notice that everyone's names are abbreviated. Mine is MM. Other people reply but I don't really read what they say. I will the main monitor on with my mind and navigate back to dwarf fortress. I load the vanilla version because that is what I prefer. I play around with it for a bit but wonder if I can get on with the dream now and try to summon a stability potion with my left hand. I don't feel the potion though. In fact, I can't feel anything with my left hand. I try and stand up but my right eye flutters open for a split second and I see the wall by my bed.

I am laying in bed. This was probably a false awakening but I wasn't sure and could hear my roommate walking around and don't wan't to disturb him. Actually, I could hear a ton of voices talking with him. He left to go somewhere this morning. Is this him and his friends stopping in to get something for their trip? No, this has to be hypnogogia. I can even feel their footsteps vibrate my bed. After a few minutes I hear the door open, close and there are no more voices.

A new dream starts to form. I am at work with a coworker. I am going through the motions of work even though I am not actively controlling my body yet. It isn't terribly vivid but I hang on and I'm patient. I do a nose plug RC and it works but the dream isn't getting more vivid. I try and summon a stability potion and it doesn't work. I see a blurry green bottle on a table and think it may be the potion so I pick it up and drink it. It tastes a bit weird but it's not so bad. In retrospect, I was drinking window cleaner without realizing it. Bleeeeegh. I walk outside expecting things to get more vivid but things still don't seem right. I have tunnel vision and feel really weird. I waddle around and realize I am at the school I went to as a kid. I walk onto the playground and while I don't feel vivid I might as well get on with it. This is probably just bad schema making me unstable and I should be fine if I engage with the dream. I stick both my hands back and imagine FireFlyMan and DreamCafe11 both grabbing hold. I loose my balance a bit and my face feels really swollen. Nothing happens. I try again and again just loose my balance. I start to wake up and try to DEILD but it seems to be taking a long time. Maybe this is an FA! I do a noes plug RC and nope, I'm awake.

I went ahead and wrote this down so I would at least get points for a WILD and tried again.

08.11.2016
10:30 AM

Muh-Nems (Semi Lucid)

I go to the store so I can buy a comfortable chair to take a nap in in the hopes of getting a WILD. I am semi lucid but clearly not all there. I look at the price and even though the lawn chair is on sale I don't think it is worth the money. I go outside the store and fly to my car and go home.

I am with my girlfriend and we have some guests over. We have some snacks and I am eating M&Ms and find one that is extra large and oval shaped. I try and read what it says but it is smudged so I eat it and find another oval one. "#Special 1/1000 M&M" It says. My girlfriend says that who ever finds the 1/1000 M&M's has to pay for all of the drinks. I eat all of them without saying because they are more chocolaty than the other M&M's!


Even though this didn't go so great I am making progress with WILD. I tried specifically to wait for the dream to actually form before moving but I still should have been more choosy on what dream I actually let form. If I didn't engage I could have waited for a vivid dream or false awakening and started my lucid from there. That is what I will try next time.

Created Thursday 11 August 2016

Spellbee's Summer Lucid Competition 2016 - Entry 13

Numerous dreams recalled today, including a surprise DILD at the end. However, besides the LD, all dreams today are just fragments.

Scrap Group 1
Wandering in an urban environment. Go into dingy, a roach-infested apartment room. Meet up with a few familiar people there.

Uncle Gary talks about going from selling automobiles to owning online wholesale outlet. I wonder if he's even savvy enough to use a web browser.

At home. Various friends (including a fictional dark haired woman I've never seen before) and family members were there. I was embarrassed to be in my bedclothes. Went to laundry to look for shoes and shorts. I accidentally slammed into the dryer, causing others to shout at me. Overheard more guests arriving, and met up with even two more unfamiliar "familiar" figures. Later, two short, middle aged half-Asian people showed up. They rudely ignored everyone's greetings and walked straight to dad. Guess they were only there to visit him.

Some Steven Universe related dream. After many silly antics, Greg and Amethyst decide to get engaged. I wake up wondering why I'm still thinking of such things.

Watching a heavily re-edited version of the Nappa fight in DBZ Abridged. Nappa's Explosive Burst attack is far more destructive. As the others dodge, Chiaotzu is killed by Nappa tackling him.

More thorough, unintended WBTB. Took a while before I got to sleep.

Dream 1 - Summer Lucid Competition - Day 13

The visuals were clear. I was working at my old job in the gas station, out in the lots at a bright blue day.

A customer soon complains of identity theft occurring right from pump's card readers. I'm at a loss for words. On glancing at the display, I find a wire sticking out from within. I dread how this situation's gonna get handled.

I go into the convenience store, where it seems no one else was attending the lone customer there. As I'm heading to the register, I realized I've not worked there in a long time, and thus, gain lucidity. I calm down, and mutter "deeper" to anchor myself. At the registers, I see Gerardo and someone else lingering around. Both me and the former coldly greeted each other. I peek at the main register, and find the menu's a weird hybrid of the original and of the nearby lotto machine's interface. Almost got distracted with getting the sale done. As such, I walked out with no concerns of getting yelled at.

Once outside, I remembered that Infinity Gauntlet task I set for myself. So, I tried the basic remove/return hand from view trick, and, to my surprise, found the gauntlet donned on my hand... mostly, as it was partially faded in both sensation and visuals. Seemed only the green Soul and violet Space Gems were placed on it. I raised my fist, and called out for the Power Gem to summon it. Instead, the visuals immediately collapsed. I relax, and mutter "deeper" until the environment is restored. I repeated the summoning trick numerous other times, with fluctuating results, it's presence either getting weaker or stronger.

This went nowhere. So, I tried getting the Chaos Emeralds instead. Did the same trick, but nothing happened. I did so a few more times while sounding an appropriate jingle. In a few instances, when my hand returned, a bright jolt flew out of it, but no stone was there.

Tried another basic summoning attempt, this time for my dream guide, E. I reached back, and said "I know you're around here somewhere" to myself. I waited until I felt something. Once I did, I pulled whatever it was in view. What I got was a smaller, lighter-skinned hand, partially discorporated, and partially melded into my own. It twitched and moved around autonomously. Surely, just part of her form. Unnerved, I shook my hand until the other one vanished.

I cut that out, and walked down unfamiliar hilled street. Had to restabilize the dream, and I demanded the dream keep stable until I reached the top of the hill.

Then, I took a detour into a long, arborous apartment building entrance. Thought to phase through a tree. When I tried, I simply bumped into it. So, I pushed my hand on it, and waited to partially phase. Instead of that, scalding liquid seeped through tree. I reeled back. Better try somehwhere else. That red painted brick wall nearby seemed a good spot. I put hand on it, only to have similar liquid emerge. No matter. I continued onward. But then, to my horror, my skin began to melt. I yanked it out, and wondered how painful this all would have been if it were real.

Well, I tried again, and thought to melt myself purposefully as well. So, I placed my entire front side on wall, and felt myself slowly turning into melted flesh. This as taking far too long for comfort, and the disturbingly warm, sizzling sensation didn't help matters either. Abort! Abort!

I wake up immediately afterwards

DILD #1-I'm staring at my closed eyelids but can see my room. I wonder whether my eyes are really closed or not, so a do a nose plug and can breathe. I look around and see a screen door to go outside. I phase through the wooden door frame. I say hi to Brad (from Luann comic strip), as he walks past me. I walk to the street and put my hand behind my back to summon a bottlenose dolphin. I feel a beak, turn around and it's there. I float beside it to check how big it is and find it's about the same size as me. I wake up.

DILD #2-I wake up and find that I'm on the floor in my grandma's family room. I'm under a sheet and struggle to get out of it. I try to phase through the floor while sitting down which works. While I'm in the void, I try to imagine being under the ocean. I start moving forward and my grandmothers family room appears again. I go into the backyard. I go into a tight corner to try to summon an orca, but I'm optimistic it will work. I put my hand behind my back but down feel anything. I turn around and watch a bear about 8-9 feet tall fade into view. Its teeth are all bloody. The bear says "You'll help me find the exit, right?" I say "Sure!" I struggle to decide what to do. I wake up.

I did another one of my accidental WILDs. (Not expecting it to happen either. In the WILD, I false awakened on my bed. The thing that tipped me off that I was dreaming was the fact that it was sunny out (in fact, I think it was snowy). I did stabilization by touching blankets on my bed, but I was thinking about waking up and the dream was really not that stable at all. I went downstairs and got ready to go outside for dream control when I woke up.

I could feel myself back in bed. But I didn't open my eyes, or move, or anything. Reentry was easy and happened very quickly.

I was in a basketball court, but it also felt like I was in my kitchen. I think the fridge and stove from my kitchen were in the corner and there was a window where there's a window in waking life. I took off and flew around. At one point I thought it would be funny to try and fly through a basketball hoop but I figured I'd probably get stuck. I looked down and saw my flying jets weren't visbile. Weird because I was hearing the 'flamethrower' sound that is usually attributed to them.

I had a second awakening where I returned to being in bed. Reentry was just as easy and happened just as fast.

I was still in the basketball court. I figured this time I had to think quickly to get points for the contest and thought of my dreamcatcher shield goal. I thought of making one and I actually got one to appear on my right arm, just like I had imagined it to look. (It was kind of small.) For some reason I was disappointed that it didn't make a cool sound effect when it appeared. I thought about testing it out but I would need someone to try attacking me.

I woke up bigtime after that. I couldn't get back to sleep for a long while but I guess eventually I did because I remember this:

I was asleep in the back of my grandmother's car. There was a 6" rat walking around on my body and there were a lot of flies and wasps in the car. I woke up when the rat started crawling on my face.

WILD:1pt*10=10
Chain 2pt*2=4
Basic Flight: 5pt=5
Basic Summon=5pt=5
Old Personal Goal: 10pt=10
Frag 0.5pt*1=.5

Totes: 34.5

I feel kindof dirty taking points for such a bad attempt at a personal goal, but I've been kinda hard on scoring myself up until now...

to bed at ~22:30 - first awakening 3:45 SSILD and tactile senses, problems falling asleep because of sounds and thoughts...

wake up at 5:15 with this:
FA: i stand up leave my room and go into the kitchen, i see a pot with some noodle soup in it that starts getting moldy. i turn around and see a chair with some towls on it that are wet and the whole ground is wet. i am pissed and leave the kitchen again and enter the bathroom. here i fill up my glass of water drink some and go into the corridor [the whole apartment has a different layout]. just before i enter my room i see my roommate at the door of my other roommate and wants to silently enter. i drank a lot of water and for whatever reason i ehm.. puke him a waterfountain in his neck. i find it a little funny but i am also uncertain if this might not be a dream. i lift my hand and see and show him this is a dream. at the beginning i cant say anything because i feel still water in my throat i move backwards and show him that the lightswitch doesnt work. then i run backwards and phase thru the wall. while falling i wake up. [after waking i noticed that the dream wasnt that stable, everything was dark and with not too much detail...]

i am pissed because of the bad sleep quality and the poor lucid. this time i put earplugs in and try again with a little less effort to faster fall asleep. i wake up at 6:30 with this:
[dont remember the non lucid part] i move down a street and realize i am dreaming, look at my hand to confirm. i want to summon sivason behind my back, feel a hand and turn around. "ah you look different, you are sivason?" he nods but says "only my upper part looks different ... bla... my name is so and so" "wait so you are not sivason?" "hmm" i instantly put my hand behind my back again and summon again sivason. i ask him and he nods. the first guy wants to keep on talking but i softly push him and point him to go. he leaves. i turn to sivason and tell him: "i know now how you do it and i have to channel my energy in my hand. i want to try it do you have any further advice?" "ah i think you get it its not that easy to explain its like this" he puts both hands together and they look veiny and strong. but no fire appears and i focus on my arm i feel some energy run down and as i look at my hands i already see some flames inbetween. cool! i throw it at a tree and it starts burning. i shortly try again but its not working instantly but i am satisfied. the fire disappears from the tree and i want to uproot it with TK. it starts shaking a little and i concentrate on the fact that there is no weight or problem and its easy. i hear some cracking and pulling sounds and the three fly up. i throw it on the ground and i want to make it disappear in front of my eyes but it doesnt work and i feel it not that important to try longer. i turn to sivason and say "hey you are an pharmacist right? i want to put my personality into a pill and make it a DC swallow it. can you help me? what do you need? some hair or something?" " oh thats easy i have done this often, you can give me anything, a 50cent coin for example" "a 50 cent coin?!" a DC that sits around on a bench says " ah you will have a problem because you need very clean water and you use normal water" while we talk sivason changes into a woman and i get a BJ. while this happens i pocketsummon a candy with eucalyptus taste. there are two candy in one foil. i take one and offer the other to the girl noticing that she is busy. i enjoy it for a minute and then she moves away. i walk behind her and she approaches a bus and wants to enter. i hold her and tell her "we can go there soon but first i want to do the TOTM. we have to fly and find a plane and look inside or enter. like we wish" we start flying hand in hand and the sky gets really bright like when you look into the sun and then somewhere else. i feel like the dream destabilize and i start to fly straight down to accelerate to the ground but before i reach it i wake up.

i note the dream and just try to fall asleep with mantra and looking at the back of my eyes.
i have a dream and then again a FA that i catch:
i wake up and feel that a tooth of mine is loose. 'oh no not again' i carefully touch it and i feel that it fall out. i carefully put it out of my mouth and its a small corner one. i put it next to my clock and lay back and try to fall asleep. i move my tong and notice there is more and i pull out tooth after tooth and i feel the sound of loose tooth moving against firm tooth... i see this is a dream and plug my nose. now i have my sleepmask on and try to put it off but every time i take it of there a a new one underneath. i repeat this atleast 5 times and then i start so see in very bad quality and wake up.

I was walking around with a monk. The monk said "Be careful with what you have in your hand, that is a spirit lantern." I look down and see that I am carrying a lantern. I snap into realization that this is a dream and become lucid. I become very confident and pick up two more spirit lantern and start to balance them and have fun, I do this extremely well. I then remember my lucid goal of meditating while in a dream. I close my eyes and take a few deep breaths. After the third breath I start to levitate. I open my eyes and become surprised and happy. I laugh, cheer, and wake up.

WHEN I WOKE UP I FELT ~20 POUNDS LIGHTER. AFTER ABOUT ~1 MINUTE OF LAYING IN MY BED, I FELT AN INVISIBLE THING COME BACK INTO MY CHEST AND FELT LIKE MY REGULAR WEIGHT AGAIN!