lucid

Date: 22 May

Total Sleep Time: 8 hrs

WBTB: 120 mg gingko

Dream quality and recall: dreams were vivid, but I was very sleepy today, I guess that has affected my recall. My prospective memory and concentration during the lucid were not at their best either.

Fragment1: the dream involved Xanos, no other memory

Dream2: A class meeting again. It is late at night and we are discussing with the girls where we are about to go. I feel like dancing so I am totally fine with any place they suggest. I notice that they have put on some weight. My dad is over-protective and follows me around. I arrange to secretly meet with my best school friend and take her to a concert. I will buy her the ticket. On what I think is the next day, we meet in the morning and take the subway. She has moved to my city, it seems.

Fragment3: We are eating some mix of bacon and cheese, tasted very realistic

Fragment4: the office is closed, my dad is looking for something

WBTB: Took gingko. Recalled dreams and did some dream incubation during which I have fallen asleep.

Dream5: I am watching some trees from above, and want to change their color. It feels a bit like I am observing using google map. Soon I am at the place of interest, in the middle of a lake. There is an old wood-made ship close to the also quite old and dusty quay. I have a game like attitude and want to rearrange the whole place. I succeed in making more space where I want to. Then I am in the water, swimming forward, but it is not very pleasant because this lake is a bit dirty. There is also a fish nearby, and I don’t like that.

Dream6: Instead of the normal section of a restaurant, I decide to follow a DC and go to another part. I am climbing some stairs to reach my destination, but the place is very hard to get to because the doors are smaller. I reach the third floor, where I talk to the waiter – a friend of mine. Three other DCs appear. One of them tells me that he has a Japanese geisha girlfriend and that they are in an open relationship, they are dating some other special girl. He shows me a brochure where all this is explained using some strange Japanese words. I think that he expects me to join their little arrangement, so I say no thanks.

Fragment7: I am in a car, and the waiter of another place we were in, is now John Malkovich. He comes in, bringing my favourite sandwiches. They are perfect.

Dream8 DILD: I am in an interesting looking town, but pay little attention to it at first. I am with four friends, one girl I clearly know, two DC friends in the background and another girl. The other girl is the girlfriend of a friend of mine, and she has come to meet me. At first, I don’t feel at ease with the two girls, even though they are friends, so I fly to the level of the first floor, and follow everybody as they are walking down the street, just above them. I think of why I am doing this and then fly back down. The new girl has brought me some presents – she hands me two notebooks, with school notes, chemistry and other stuff. Then another one with patriotic poems translated in a foreign language. Who would want to read something like that, I am thinking to myself.

At some point which I cannot remember, I become lucid. I feel I have spent a long time exploring around. The next more clear lucid memory is me, still in that city, which looks like a medieval city, feeling happy and going for some tasks (which I don’t remember at all). Then I look around and enjoy the place, the walls of the houses around are made from a dark stone with a hint of green. It feels like an Italian city during Middle Ages. It also reminds me of a number of other dreams I had. One more recent one was in a modern Italian city. The Colosseum should be somewhere to my right, I am thinking and desire to go to that place. At the same time, I try to engage a few DCs to help me on my quest. I look ahead and see DCs passing by, I try to stop them, but they are moving really fast, strong momentum, so I cannot stop them. (The second time this has happened). I look at a DC in front of me and notice how beautiful, elaborate and medieval/renaissance-like her clothes are. I get closer to a DC woman that is not moving, she is some kind of monk, and ask her for help/directions, but she is not helpful at all (interact with DC).

I continue and find another male DC, a peasant, he looks a bit blurry. I know that this dream has been going on for really long, so to avoid it ending I come up with the idea to stabilize the dream by kissing him. He is not really ugly, I find him rather unpleasant, but still, I kiss him. I realize that I am doing something objectionable to me, yet I keep doing it. The dream feels much more stable (stabilize dream), but then someone tells me that as a result of my behaviour, I have now two children and that man is my husband. This place is my home now. It all suddenly feels so realistic to me that I lose my lucidity. I begin to fret about those responsibilities and that I won’t be able to leave the place now. At the same time, I know that this city is special and that there are wormholes appearing every now and then, so I can use one of them to escape. I look at a live city map, which shows the location of the currently active wormhole.

I continue sleeping and have another dream that I cannot recall. I wake up and feel frustrated because I have no memory of the last few dreams. Then fragments start to emerge.

Comment: Although I managed to recover some of the memory of that lucid, it is upsetting that once again I am unable to remember a part of the experience. And yet, it is much better than not remembering anything at all.

Blame it on the menthol.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #98: Menthol and Marriage

I'm watching my son E perform some kind of a play with other 3-year-olds. At one point he's supposed to pretend a wiffle ball bat is a magic wand, but of course he goes waving it around dangerously close to other kids' heads. I run over to intervene but another mother gets there first. "I'll take that," she says, plucking it out of his hands.

"Sorry! Thanks for grabbing that from him," I say, embarrassed that she got there first. The woman gives me an unfriendly "where were you?" look. This annoys me, but as the father of the kid who was going nuts with a wiffle ball bat, there's not much I can say. I look back over at the play and E, laughing merrily, leaps over a low stone wall and goes running off God-knows-where. I take off after him...

...and have a false awakening in complete darkness. I hear Wife stir in the darkness and she asks me why I'm awake. I tell her that "I had this crazy dream where [E] almost hit a bunch of other kids in the head with a wiffle ball bat." I move to settle back against the pillow and realize that it's way, way too dark in here. "I'm dreaming," I tell her.

"Mm-hmm," is her sleepy reply, and I hear her roll over.

"It's super dark in here," I say. "I can't even see you." She doesn't respond but she rolls over again, leaning her head against my shoulder and putting her hand on my chest. I'm feeling really frisky and I think about asking her whether she wants to "make out a little bit."

Before I can unleash this suave line on her, she exclaims, "God, your breath!" and rolls away in horror. As she says that, I notice that the inside of my mouth feels nasty and vaguely thick, like my pre-bed dental care has totally worn off.

My confidence is a bit punctured, but I respond, "This is a dream. I can't possibly have bad breath in a dream."

"Okay, if you're sure," she says.

I move toward where her voice is coming from and try to kiss her. I wind up just finding her feet, which start flailing around when I touch them. "Why are you facing the wrong way now?" I ask, confused and a little exasperated.

"I don't know!" she responds. Holding on to an ankle, I very clumsily sort of turn her around. Since it's dark, I can just imagine that she's now facing the right way. As I do, the light in the scene increases ever so slightly until I can see her. I've managed to put my "death breath" from earlier out of my mind, so we kiss.

As they say, "one things leads to another", and the dream ends with roughly 4 minutes of very vivid LD sex before I wake up. Describing this part in detail would be a little too personal and graphic, but even after having a fair number of lucid dreams, the realism and detail of LDs still amazes me.

Last night I kept having dreams that occurred in the same area, but different places around the area. I ended up getting lucid three times!
Lucid Non-Lucid

This is just a fragment of a dream. I was in my house. I became lucid, and RCed. I decided to go outside and fly around. I jumped off the deck, put my arms out, and imagined floating. I ended up gliding a bit, and then landing face-first on the ground. I got up, and tried to fly again, and this time I floated a bit.

I was in a large hotel which looked like a mansion with my entire school I went to last year. My friend and I went in the pool, but then this dark cloud appeared right over it in the corner. It formed into a tornado, so my friend and I ran inside to go hide. Another friend was in there, and he told us to come lie down by him. Then, the tornado came in, and a huge part of the building fell right where we were thinking about sitting before. After, everyone in the school got up, but then we all had swords, and everyone was trying to stab eachother. I stabbed a bunch of people, and then my little sister came up to me, swinging a mini-sword at my face. I grabbed her hand and told her to leave. After that, it was night, and I couldn't find my room at all. Every room I went into was wrong, and I kept going into the same rooms. Eventually, my teacher told me to sleep in this one room which was really big and dark. So I walked in, and the lights were by the door, so I had to walk to my bed in the dark. Then, this slenderman thing came up, and started following me. I woke up.

I went back to sleep, and ended up in the same room, non-lucid. This time, I was sitting on the counter by the stove with my computer, but it was daytime, and there was a large window in the room. I became aware that I was dreaming. I thought 'Oh crap, this is where I was before. I'm getting out of here. I grabbed my computer and jumped and smashed through the window. Luckily, there was a massive lake, so I landed in the lake instead of on the ground. I swam to the surface, but then I woke up.

I fell back asleep again, and ended up right outside in the front yard of the mansion. I could tell I was dreaming, so I thought of tasks for Checker's competition. I saw a really nice car, and I tried to teleport myself into the drivers seat, but whatever I was trying didn't work. Eventually, I ran up to the car, and tried to get in it, but the person inside drove away. Then, I ran down towards the lake I had jumped into before. There was a huge cliff in front of me (going down). I was going to try and fly into the lake, but then I decided not to. I saw some cheetahs (again?!? They were in an earlier LD), and decided to try transformation for on task. I got down on all four, and ran towards them. I could feel the transformation, but my clothing was still on. I reached them and woke up.

Then, I fell asleep and was back in the mansion, but in a different room. My dad and sisters were there. I became aware I was dreaming, and RCed. I went up to my dad and said, "Dad, you're dreaming! Here, plug your nose!" Then, I demonstrated flying to him. I jumped up and hovered a bit. Then I landed on the ground and looked at him. The scene went blurry for a second, then unblurry. I decided to stabilize, and rubbed the couch a bit. Then I showed him flying/floating again, and I woke up.

This is the last one I remember. I was in the mansion, and my friend and I had to stay the night. We went into the basement, and found a cookie factory! We crawled up into the machinery to sleep, but there were a bunch of other kids. Then, we got plastic containers full of cookies from the machine, and a worker said we could have as much as we want.


Four lucids in one night

Dream recall from today's naps and yay for 100th lucid!
And yay for successful full transformation, even if it lasted only for seconds and form was unplanned.
My dream recall on talk with DCs is still not good, hmmm.
Still need to work on dream control.

Dream 1:

I wake up at home and look at hands , i can't straighten fingers no matter what i do and they are angled weirdly, which means i am dreaming. I look around and room is different, it looks somewhat like it was ages ago, and my bed is the old bed. Family is in the room as well. I walk up towards balcony door but for some reason i decide not to leave. I recall a few goals and attempt summoning and transformation a few times but it does not works well. Then i talk to family DCs about something while walking around the room, but can't recall what. I noticed pants changed color from time to time and one time i looked i had alot of pants on me for some reason. Dream fades out.
I am in the bed and mom tries to wake me up for whatever reason, i get annoyed a bit and get up, then look at hands i still can't straighten fingers, so i am still dreaming. I walk a bit and then i have got a completely random thought about dinosaurs. I see room door opening and i decide to try summoning one, no result. I walk out of the room into the corridor and decide to try transformation, i pretend to be rawr'ing and i notice some mirrors in the corridor. I look into them and i am apparently some humanoid dinosaur-looking creature, at the time i see it i feel some sort of change, and my legs felt different(I think my awareness was low again or something so i didn't felt the transformation entirely). Also my rawr pretending sounded more 'actual'. For some reason i decide to walk back into the room and on the way i become back normal. I notice dream destabilizing and i rub hands, dream becomes more stable. I walk towards balcony door this time intending to go outside, but shortly dream destabilizes again and then fades out.
I lay still with closed eyes intending to DEILD and shortly i feel someone touching me.
Dream 2:
I wake up and notice that mom was trying to wake me up again, i ignore and check hands, they are still weird, also i look around and notice that i am in my room from previous dream, i get up and try to summon some things again, but it does not works. I say something to mom DC and go towards balcony door again. I suddenly remember about expectations(Finally my dream self remembered that properly...) and decide to try summoning again, but the dream fades out.

In the school yard, it's break time so the yard is crowded. I realize I'm dreaming 'cause I've just back to sleep. I find Tùng Anh in front of my classroom (he was my crush 4 years ago but now we're good friends, and I always meet him when lucid). I want a shared dream with him so I use Ignore test to make sure he isn't just a DC (like in the previous lucid dream I thought he was real).
And as I turn back he is still there.
I said to him "Wake up! You're dreaming!", he gives me a look seems to mean "I know!". I kiss his lips, he doesn't kiss me back but smiles to me. We hold each other's hand and start floating up. We fly around. Our friends down there, they look up to us and shocked "OMG THEY'RE FLYING!!". I'm a bit surprised "Why are they so fightened?". When we reach the ground I see our French teacher (At Junior High) hurry out of the classroom. I tell T.A "She isn't real, I'll show you". She look at us for a second and back to the classroom. When we have lost sight of her, I take him into the room. No one's there.
As we back to the yard, we saw a group of boys. One of them has blue hair (IRL his hair is black like all of us). I reach another boy and use magic to change his hair to rainbow color. Then I give him a mirror. He doesn't like it.
I wake up, but it's just a false awakening. I run downstairs, my mom is about to go. I try to recall the previous dream, and back to the dream scene with T.A.
We see our French teacher again. As we fly up she pull out a gun and shoots us . Luckily no one hurt .
We're still in the sky. I look at him, he seems upset. I ask him why, he said "This is boring. We don't have anything else to do?". I show him the whole city beneath us, he says "No". I change the dream scence to a beautiful, romantic night sky, he shake his head. I take him to the ocean. There's a huge iceberg. I say "We can build a city and put the residents in it". He agree (but still seems hesitate, I don't know why). We start carving the ice.
While working and talking to T.A, I have a change to look at him more carefully. He wears jeans and yellow shirt, and very detailed appearance...
Wake up. Write in DJ. Go to dreamviews.
Note: So... I'll start building a city on ice. I suck at drawing, design, architect... But who knows?

All I know is that I was in some kind of hotel and that I was in an elevator, and then for some reason it suddenly dropped down and I realized this kind of danger is unrealistic so I RC'd and became lucid. I tried to "zone" out of the elevator but to no avail, for some reason I didn't have much control, it was much like my visualization attempt fails. Even though the elevator just went up some 30 or 40 meters the drop took about a minute or so after which I at least got the elevator to slow down, but I wasn't really any much lower than before (when I turned around I could see out through a glas wall).

After that I already woke up because I was freezing as hell in my tent...

i dreamed that i was in this movie theater were the seats faced away from the screen and towards the audiencve. i started hearing this basseyloud vibtattion through my head an realized shit this must be a dreame. i staid chill mostly and enhoyed it.. my ahnds were invisible and i rubed them together trying to envision them as appearing they slowly did.


then i jumped on some stairts to an imaginary rail but i said im dreaming and bam there it was it was so scoooooll

Its been at least a month since I last logged in. I've been busy taking care of my husband Adam. Its been 3 months since his stroke, and he is healing in every way! Starting from the spirit and working down to his toes!!

9 days ago Adam was baptized right here in the campground where we live, just outside our door. it was 2 days after that, that I had the dream I will remember til my last breath.

I was driving my car, me and Adam were going to the bank. I parked outside our bank and we both got out. Outside the entrance to the bank were 4 street musicians, each playing an instrument (I think 2 were stringed, 2 were flutes). They looked well dressed and normal, like you would see performing on a street corner,except these men all had red skin. Adam ignored them and walked straight into the bank (he would never in real life ignore a musician, because he is one). But it was like he didn't even register that they were there. I walked up to them, stood close to them. Up close I could see that their red skin was covered in rolls of wrinkles, boils, and blisters. I knew what they were, but I wasn't afraid. The one closest to me leaned forward, still playing the stringed instrument he was holding, and began to speak to me. Deafness washed over me. I didn't hear the music or what it said to me. This was a band of demons, expelled out of Adam when he was baptised. I calmly but firmly said "Get back - Jesus has him."

Instantly it was pushed back from me, and I was 30+ feet from the entrance of the bank with an angel on each side of me. I was surrounded by their light and I could hear the lights warmth (I know that sounds weird, hearing warmth, but I cant describe it any other way). I wanted to be with Adam,so I was instantly in the bank. No walking required. The inside was simply a white room. People were walking around, some with their head down, some talking to their self, others interacting. Very few were talking to other people. Some people were in line, some were at the front of the line. I found Adam in line and joined him,and from there, he wrapped his arm around me and we talked about what we needed to do while we were in town.

The white room I think, represented people who love God. Some of them were quiet and not talking to others, instead keeping counsel with their own self, refusing to let go of the self....walking head down,ashamed to be known for their love for God. Others in line were waiting for direction, listening and following in obedience, living in tune with God, they knew their old self was dead. It was sad to see how many Christians were wandering with their head down, hiding, hoping not to be seen.

This was the most powerful dream I've ever had. It was lucid, and at the same time simple and clear. I'll never forget coming face to face with the demon that once inhabited my husband. it wanted him back....it spoke to me because Adam wouldn't acknowledge it - which is because Adam COULDN'T see it after he was baptized. I know when the deafness washed over me,it was pleading with me -- so it could get Adam to make him fall, make him doubt....

WE'VE GOT NEWS FOR YOU, SATAN.... YOU CAN'T HAVE HIM OR ME ANYMORE!!!! God's building Adam up from scratch since his stroke, and building me up as well - and what ever comes of it will be for Gods glory,so BACK UP!!!!!

1st Dream(Non-Lucid):

I get out of a bus and take a look around. Wating at the bus station stands someone i immediately recognize but his name will just not come back to me. Anyways i knew that he was from a camp i attended a year ago. I approach him with: "Hey, i know you!!" but since i didnt recall his name i knew nothing i could talk about with him. We stood there in awkward silence til a second bus arrived and he got in.

I got moving again because by chance i was on my way to a camp simular to the one i have been to a year ago. When i arrived a couple of people were already there and i proceeded to tell them what i just expirienced. I then went to the bathroom ad at some point noticed that my front tooth was kind of loose. I pressed a little against it and in horror i felt how it crunched and i held a piece of my tooth in my hand. A look in the mirror showed me my bloodstained mouth and a part of the tooth that was still in there.
I ran out in panic searching for a dentist of some kind but after some time running through the building i remembered that this camp was located in a dentists office. So i went to the second floor and really found a dentist whom i explained what situation i was in. He told me to clean my mouth like they always do and what i spit into the sink apart from some water were more, smaller parts of some teeth that came loose.

2nd Dream(Lucid):

i was at a friends and it was getting late but i knew my parents were out so they couldnt complain. But suddenly i saw my house and my parents unlocking the front door. I was following them in a ghost like state up to my room and inside. At this point i declared this a dream and started to recall the tasks from the competition. First thing that came to my mind was moving through a solid object so i walked straight through the door to my room which my mother had closed. She said something to me what i dont remember but i continued to think of tasks. Since interacting with a DC was one of them i imagened there was one of my buddys at the door so i rushed down and opened the door. When i saw noone there the dream started to fade away but a second later someone called me from the side. A friend i had a long time ago stood there and i was a little bit disappointed i coudnt summon the guy i initially thought of. When i looked at the guy again a turtle was in his place. I didnt really care and said something along: "Lets be awesome" patted the turtle its back and started running. i was worried that the turtle might not keep ut but it was right next to me and said its fine. As i ran down the street in front of my house at some point the obvious came to my mind and i pinched my nose to perform a RC. Obviously it was a dream and i was able to breath. I contiued running and saw a pool in a garden. and as soon of element manipulation the pool started to freeze. I let it be and went into a small sideway. i decided to try eating something and imagened some bacon in my pocket. It took one or two seconds until i felt a soft package apart from my cell phone i tock the package out and found some bacon(raw but still). when i finished eating i eventually woke up.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #97: Just a Misunderstanding

I'm walking down a dark, endless hallway. All I can make out in this darkness is that the left side of the hall is set up with this endless series of art tables down its length. I'm moving slowly, afraid that I'll run into something unexpected.

A woman jumps out at me from the darkness, teeth bared, and a raised knife clenched in her fist. I jump back, terrified, and try to gather my wits to fight or run. The woman's demeanor suddenly softens and she throws the knife onto a nearby table where it lands with a clatter. I look at it, and the knife is even more frightening-looking than I'd thought at first -- it's the shape and size of a short sword!

She smiles at me, promising that "This is just a misunderstanding." She walks past me and I see that she's wearing very revealing lingerie. She looks amazing and as she brushes past, my hand grazes the skin of her torso. My feeble mind offers no resistance. I bet it was just a misunderstanding... She grips the fingers of my right hand in hers, leading me behind her down the hall.

I'm very excited about what's going to happen next. But something just doesn't feel right, and I suddenly remember that I'm married. As soon as I start thinking about Wife, I feel weak, rotten, and guilty following this scantily-clad stranger down a dark hall. I yank my fingers out of her grip, and she just keeps walking, disappearing into the darkness ahead. What the hell was I thinking? How could I be so stupid? And it hits me that this has to be a dream. I immediately feel grateful and relieved to have figured this out.

I'm someplace different now. Some kind of wood-panelled attic. It's dark and the picture looks a little grainy, almost like I'm viewing everything through night vision. There's a little toy fan on a railing nearby and I take it, turning it on. It's the kind with soft foam blades that are safe for kids. The fan blows a pleasant breeze in my face and I can will it to move faster or slower as I see fit. My hair starts blowing crazily around as I increase the wind speed.

I'm worried about overall stability in this scene, so I let the little foam fan blades buzz against my arm as they spin round and round. Then I run the little fan blades against the skin of my right cheek for a bit, surprised at how realistic this feels.

I play with the fan for a while as I hunt around the attic for some kind of interesting scenery or exit. There's a metal grating in the floor and a soft, white light is pouring out of it into the attic. The grating is slammed shut but I know that I can phase through it. I beging working up my will for a phase, thinking There's nothing there. Nothing at all. Before I can try the phase, though, the grating swings silently open. Well, that was easy.

I move toward the light, stepping into it and... wake up, seeing that the light and grating was really just my eyes seeing a light outside our hotel room filtering through the blinds.

I hadn't thought of lucid dreaming for a while (like a year) then I saw a reddit post about someone who just discovered lucid dreaming. Here is the post if you're wondering. I recently discovered lucid dreaming. This was me, becoming aware of my dream for the first time. : funny

Anyway that night I went to bed. Had to wake up for work, then it got cancelled so I went to bed again about an hour later.

Dream:Lucid:


I was at caveman's expensive looking house. He and Ahmed were working in something separately. When I entered Ahmed's room I found a little building that was like my robot from science Olympiad. I thought wow he made a 360 change in school. I go to cave man's desk looking at stuff while sitting. I start to feel weird the. The desk and house change to my room and desk. I looks behind me and see my bed and am confused because I didn't remember coming out of bed. I then realize I am dreaming.

I immediately stand up and jump through the window to fly. I'm above many houses going fast. Then they start to repeat so I turn around. I was losing lucidity. I see a woman in jeans and a pink shirt with brown hair and ask for help. i grab her hand and i gain some clarity again. we immediately begin making out. l, oddly, I can taste her mouth while kissing. The dream begins to fade and I can't do anything so I let it.

The second of two LDs from the morning of 05/18/2013. This was a big, big dream, and this dream and I did not always get along. This was my first serious attempt at meeting NewArtemis for a dream sharing attempt.

I also got into a big fight with a powerful DC that escalated into a me against the world situation. I could have handled this a lot better. My self-control wasn't what it should be... but it was still kinda awesome.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #96: Clash at the Alamo

I'm Marty McFly from Back to the Future, driving my DeLorean on a set of rails that stand hundreds of feet over a bay. The DeLorean starts to shake as it picks up speed and before I can make a time jump, the rails end and the car goes plummeting toward the sparkling water.

I brace for impact and the DeLorean flies to pieces as it strikes the bay. Miraculously, I'm unharmed, and I thrash about for something to hold on to so that I can get my bearings and figure out what to do. One long, fin-like piece of metal from the car bobs to the surface and I grab onto it. The moment that I do, an unseen engine roars to life and takes off like a jet ski.

As I'm racing across the bay, I realize that this has to be a dream. After riding for a moment, I'm perhaps a hundred feet from shore. I leap off the impromptu "jet ski" and fly the remaining distance, landing in a stone plaza that stands at the water's edge.

I remember that I'm planning to meet NewArtemis at the Alamo for a shared dreaming experiment. I turn toward the water, raise my hands up in the air, and make an announcement to all of the DCs. Most of the passerby stop and turn to look at me. "The Alamo is right behind me! That's right -- Alamo right behind me!" I imagine it in detail, rebuilding my mental map, forgetting and scrubbing out the buildings that were there before and replacing it with my image of everything that I remember about the Alamo. I continue this until I can think of nothing of what's behind me except for this image of the Alamo.



I turn around, expecting to see the Alamo... and there it is! The stone's a little darker and the construction looks a little too new to be quite right, but it's more than close enough of a lookalike for me. I walk around past the front entrance to a courtyard. The geography is different in this dream from that of the real Alamo, and I come to a stone wall with a little alcove and a bench. There's a woman sitting on the bench and we look at each other immediately.

She gets up and approaches me right away. She doesn't look like NewArtemis' DC has in the past, but I'm not sure of anything yet. She speaks first: "I'm here to meet someone. How about you?"

"So am I," I say, studying her. She's roughly the same height as Art's DC but her skin is paler, her hair curlier, her build heavier, and her face is different -- broader, different nose, different shape... just different. "But you're not her, are you? I don't think you're [NewArtemis]."

She smiles noncommitally, but I continue. "That's okay," I continue. "Let's still do the passphrases and gestures." I speak my chosen word to the DC and perform my chosen gesture. She doesn't bother speaking a passphrase in return but she does perform a gesture. (These have been reported to a 3rd party who is not NewArtemis just in case she's able to guess them.)

"Well, I need to go!" the woman says. She walks out of the alcove and passes me. As she goes, she becomes a much older lady, blonde, mid-50s. She grows to an enormous height, probably close to 8 feet tall. She's wearing shorts and I see that her legs are covered with a crisscrossing patchwork of scars.

I contemplate following, but I'm distracted by a man who's sitting at the top of a stone wall nearby, staring at me with a malicious grin on his face. He's in his late 30s with close-cropped reddish-blonde hair. The guy keeps staring at me with that joyless grin and I know that he's looking for trouble with me. I want no part of it, so I turn and walk away.



He hops down from the wall and grips my right forearm with his right hand, twisting my arm around so that my hand is near my head. I try to pull my arm out of his grip but when I yank, it doesn't budge. He laughs, shaking his head as if he can't believe that I would bother trying to defy him. "You're never leaving here," he says. "I mean it. You are never leaving here." I yank my arm again but I feel as weak as a kitten.

I know I have to turn this around fast. I grab him by the back of the head with my left hand and begin to imagine my adversary as frail and lethargic. "You're so weak and tired," I tell him, trying to sound compassionate, even though I'm boiling with rage. "There's just no strength left in you at all." And I gently move to lay him down on a nearby table. I think of him as totally weak and barely able to move. His grip slips from my arm and he flops backward onto the table.

"And small," I say, pressing on his head with one hand and his feet with the other. He begins to shrink. His hair has turned jet black now, and his eyes close. I squeeze him together, thinking of him as so tiny, and soon he shrinks to the size of a child, then to the size of a baby, then disappears into his clothes entirely. My self-control cracks and I ball up his clothes, throw the bundle on the ground, and give it a vicious stomp. I wonder for a moment whether I've gone too far and hope for a moment that the bundle was empty. I walk through a nearby archway, not sticking around to find out more.

I emerge in a cafeteria. A table of 6 or 7 teenagers immediately looks up from their meals at me. "It's him," one of them says, and they all get to their feet and come after me. I fly through a nearby doorway and emerge in a large, empty room with a skylight. I fly up to the skylight, intending to phase through it, but something seems to restrain me from getting high enough. I run through a doorway into a drugstore that dead-ends in a frosted glass window. I vault toward it, phasing through onto a street scene.

There are police everywhere on the street. I know that they're looking for me. There are strange little ball-shaped hoverbots scanning the streets with cameras, also trying to track me down. I sprint up to one and kick it against a nearby wall. With a pop, it breaks into two smoking, fizzling halves.

Everything seems to be happening too fast for me to control. I run down the street, looking for some way out of this fear. I want to buy time to calm down, so I phase through the door of a nearby house. Cops are turning the place over while the family, a husband and wife and their little girl of about 8 are glued to the TV. One cop notices me as I walk in, but I swoop in on him, grab him from behind, and choke him unconscious. The other two cops don't seem to notice any of this, and the little family stares obliviously into their TV sets.

I watch the TV for a moment. It's some sort of political propaganda which claims that the moral code of their "great society" is built upon a foundation of classic arcade games like Centipede, Pac-Man, and Donkey Kong. I'm torn -- on one hand, I find top-down, statist morality codes repugnant. On the other hand, I sure do love classic arcade games.

I phase out through the back of the house into the yard. The cops yell at me as I pass and I hear them calling for backup. The back yard is peaceful for a moment before the wail of what sounds like an air raid siren fills the air. I look up at the sky, feeling helpless, trying to find peace for a moment. But all I can think is They're coming for me. The dream ends...

First of two from the morning of 05/18/13.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #95: The Garage

I'm backing our SUV out of the driveway. As always, it's a little tight so I'm focused on what I'm doing. I catch sight of a bearded, creepy man advancing up the driveway toward the car. He makes me nervous, so I pull the car back into the garage.

Once I'm safely back in the driveway, I look back out to find that the man has vanished. Relieved, I get ready to leave again. But now Wife's car is at a funny angle that blocks me from leaving. Come on, [Wife], why would you park me in like that? I try shoving the back half of the car so it'll spin around and get out of my way. Amazingly, this works! I'm immediately sure that I'm dreaming.

I try turning Wife's car back and forth a few more times. It spins as smoothly as if it were on a turnstyle. I think about picking it up and flipping it over but realize that there are other things I need to be doing.

I remember that I have a goal of getting to the Alamo for a shared dreaming experiment. I try to look outside and see that the garage door is closing. It's only about 3 foot away from shutting completely. Even though I should know that this doesn't present any permanent impediment, it feels important that I don't let it shut on me. I hurry to the garage entrance, flop down on my side, and log roll under the garage door.

Outside now, I get to my feet on the driveway and look around. It's a cool, clear evening and the street's quiet. No weirdo in sight. I plan to Hulk-jump to the Alamo but as I begin to make my move, the dream ends.

Total sleep time: 6 hrs

Dream quality and recall: Dreams were vivid, dr2 was very long, reviewed in mind to commit to memory.

Fragment1: I had adopted the same avatar as checker and am wondering what people will think if we post one after the other

Fragment2: My mom insists on buying expensive gifts for one of her friends. I don't think she should.

WBTB: had a natural wake, decided to use as WBTB, was out of bed 6 mins, it was perfect, but when I came back, some kind of....nervousness took over, and I had trouble falling asleep for a long time. I really need to do something about my WBTB behavior.

Dream3: Me and bf are in an old but beautiful hotel. The room is very large, and later it turns to a huge apartment. I look outside, see some people arguing, decide I don't want to get involved, close the windows. It is late so I want to take a shower. I go to the bathroom but it is made all wrong and I start flooding the place. I turn the water off and go to look for the other bathroom, near the entrance, it is elaborately decorated . I also have a camera with me, to take a pic, but the camera is all wet, I try to dry it. I go to the other bathroom, but then the door to the apartment opens. We are sharing the place with other people, and they are coming in. I am naked, so run back towards our section and quickly close and lock the door behind me. We go to sleep.

Dream4 mini-LD: On the next day, my bf is leading me through some unknown streets in that city. We reach our destination. I notice some interesting things to eat, but we pass them by and enter a building. We go into a room, where a number of women are around the table and one of them is selling shirts. I don't want to buy any and just want to go out, and we get into a conflict with the woman. The women have totems on the wall, they begin praying and making strange movements with their hands as if casting spells. I close my eyes and inspect my energy field to check if everything is alright, also push a bit of energy forward to cancel out their influence.

I try to leave the room but it gets larger and there are more and more people inside they want to talk to me. I finally manage to go outside and enter the store where they sell the food, the man working there greets me in a foreign language. Those chocolate things are expensive, but look really nice. I end up ordering some ice coffee with something edible inside. The meeting of the people in the room is over, and everybody is now outside. They all pass by me, like a river of people, and I get a lucid-like feeling. They insist that I join them in an overcrowded car. I am in the car, annoyed with them and want to leave the car, but it is moving at a very high speed, so I decide to wait. I then notice that a bus nearby is driving really recklessly, destroying everything on its way. I figure this can only be a dream and become lucid. I think about how long this dream has been going, really very long, and I would really like to have some more fun. Then the dream fades and I am back in my real bed, eyes closed, lying on the right side. I am very awake and worried that I will forget the dream, so I remain absolutely still, reviewing with closed eyes, risky but didn't fall asleep or DEILD.

Comments: I am now a bit upset that I didn't become lucid earlier on. May have had a better chance to do some tasks. Yet, my dream self was happy!

It's hitting me pretty hard. And still hitting me when I enter the dream. I'm having issues getting out of the bed. Forces are pushing right back into a sleeping position. Eventually I get out of bed, and everything is rose coloured. I step out of the room, and I see "why aren't you dead!?" written on the door. Ugh, lets just wake up, because this is horrible.