lucid

I've had a lot on my hands lately, and haven't given much thought to dreaming. I only remember a couple of dreams from the past week.

First

There is blue, and I decide to make it the sky. I fly over the earth and look down on it. It looks plastic, painted on. I decide on a spot and fly down. I wish to meet a guide there.

There is a man and a woman. The woman is around my age and the man is a bit older. He is explaining things and we are listening. I don't really get anything new out of it.

This relates to a sense that I'm having at the moment, of moving forward quickly and effortlessly, and not getting anywhere.

Second

Back as a University student, waiting for the time to go to a lecture, playing a game with some friends.

Lucid. Found a kitten in my basement. I asked it how he got in our house. Said that the door was left unlocked a few nights ago. The kitten then turned into a boy and that triggered lucidity. Usually when I turn lucid, I have tasks I want to do (conjure someone or talk to my subconscious) but this time I just wanted to see where the dream would take me, so I just went with it. He was a boy, but I still regarded him as a kitten and wanted to show him something fun, so we went flying. He kept turning older. We flew through an unknown urban neighborhood and was looking for a place to stop. I tried to "draw" a house in existence but that didn't work. We found one and it was dark and dirty. I found a mirror and kept willing my reflection to change on command - that was fun. I then saw myself aging - from now to 30 years in future. It looked incredibly accurate. The boy/kitten ended up rejecting me. Somehow I get the sense that maybe it is representative of desires that I don't allow myself, while my life is slipping away.

Color-coding: Non-lucid, Semi-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]
Bold text indicates a “dream within a dream,” meaning any dream scenes that followed after I dreamed of falling asleep

I wake up in my current bedroom. I can hear the couple who lives downstairs in the master bedroom arguing. The woman says something like, “I have to get up now and get ready for work!” I can't sleep with them arguing, so I decide, “Okay, I guess I'm up for the day now, too.” I get up and start trying to take a shower, but the hot water keeps turning cold because the woman downstairs is taking a shower at the same time. After I'm done, I'm still feeling so sleepy that I decide to go back to bed and try to get some good sleep while I still can. It's still only 4:15 AM, after all. So I get back into bed and go to sleep.

[All of the above paragraph was a completely convincing false awakening that I failed to catch. I've never heard the couple in question argue like that, plus, in the dream, the residents of the master bedroom were the parents of the girl who actually lives there in real life, and I thought nothing of it. :/]

I'm visiting EM and SM's house in Omaha [something I did in real life recently]. It's morning, and we're all getting ready to leave the house for the day. They have a gigantic, elaborate house [way bigger, fancier, and more high-tech than their real house]. While we're in the kitchen, SM says something like, “You haven't had a chance to eat today.” I answer, “I know. That's why I always keep bananas in stock.” I show her that I'm carrying a banana with me, which I intend to eat for breakfast. SM has an eyepatch over her left eye socket, with a cool outer-space vista on it. It's embedded into her skin, and I can see muscles twitching underneath it. It's kind of creepy.

We get outside the front door when I realize that I don't have any shoes on. I say to EM, “Could you unlock the door for me, so I can get back into the house? I'm not wearing shoes, only socks.”

EM takes out a door key and uses it to unlock a lock in a wall, which opens the front door. “The front door” consists of a zig-zagging wall of metal panels that cross a wide, concrete courtyard. The panels that are parallel to the house swing open, toward the house, when the key is turned; they're the doors. I go into the house and run up the stairs to the room where I'm staying, to get my shoes.

When I come back outside, I find SM sitting on something in the middle of the tall, light-green grass on the wide front lawn, waiting for me. She doesn't have her eyepatch anymore; both of her eyes are normal. [This is the case in real life.]

“Wait just a ding-danged minute here...” I say. This discrepancy has caused me to begin to suspect that none of this is real. To test whether I'm dreaming, I turn to face a low rock wall nearby and start walking toward it, willing myself to pass through it intangibly [something I know very well that I can do in dreams]. I find that I can't pass through it; I just bump into it normally. In the moments that follow, I'm very acutely and vividly aware of the world around me, of my own self-consciousness, and of the fact that I'm not sure whether I'm awake or dreaming at this very moment. [I finally started watching the TV series Awake a few nights ago, and this is what the protagonist experiences all the time, a fact which is reiterated at the beginning of episodes 2 and 3. That is so cool, that I got to experience that personally in one of my own dreams! ]

After another moment or two, I do realize that I am dreaming. [I don't remember specifically how or why.] By definition, that means that I am getting some good sleep now, I reflect gratefully. I smile and decide to enjoy myself here while I'm getting that restorative sleep I needed so much.

As usual, all I want to do is explore the dream world, so I start flying up and away from the house. I see SM's car driving away below me, and wave goodbye to her. From up here, I can see the entire city spread out below me, covering the gently rolling hills like a blanket, and it's very beautiful. It's also very windy up there. I think to myself: I've got brains in my head, I've got feet in my shoes, I've got levitation powers in my mind. I can steer myself any direction I choose. [This is a reference to the Dr. Seuss book Oh, the Places You'll Go!, from which one of my contacts in Omaha read a passage to a graduating class while I was there. Hmm. No idea why I thought of them as “levitation powers” instead of “flight powers.”] I try to fly into the wind, which is coming from my left, but can't find the strength to fight against it. I decide to fly with it instead. I think, Why not? When you're going bicycling, you'll probably choose to ride with the wind, if you have a choice.

I end up flying through a neighborhood filled with lots of cute little houses that line narrow, old, little streets that wind around every which way. [Just like in the real Omaha, or, at least, the neighborhood where EM and SM live.] Every front yard has big, tropical-rainforest-looking trees in it that reach across the street, forming the beginnings of a canopy, but not a very thick one. There are exotic, tropical birds in every tree. [Um... not at all like in the real Omaha. ] I fly along, following the streets and admiring the beauty all around me.

[Dreamskip - I don't remember getting from one locale to the other.] I'm still in Omaha, but now I'm in a gigantic, elaborate, multi-story library and bookstore. It has lots of glass walls and ceilings that let in the sunlight, and they're arranged in a square geometric pattern, just like this library. It's filled with lots and lots of shelves of books, and there are plenty of people walking around. I'm still flying to get around, instead of walking. I fly up from one level to another, in search of the section where the most popular books are kept. I want to check one of those books out, but I don't have a library card yet, so I'm limited to buying it. I definitely intend to get a library card when I move there, though. [True in real life, too.]

When I get to that section, I land and start walking. I'm looking for the second book in a series I'm reading. I have to think about it to remember which one it is. It's not the Twilight series; it's the Hunger Games series. [Which I haven't even started reading in real life, but I would like to.] I look through the neat, white, bright shelves and find the book I'm looking for. I pick it up and start walking away with it, reading it. There's a computer kiosk that beeps at me as I walk by. I look on the screen, and it has a written message directed at me, chastising me for cracking the spine on my book. Doing so somehow disrupted the operation of a pacemaker of somebody in the immediate vicinity. [I don't recall seeing that somebody there, though.]

I continue exploring the library, and decide I want to go down one floor, but I don't want to fly because there are lots of people around, and I generally try to avoid using any of my dream powers when there are people around to see me. [Yes, they are just DCs, but I always think like that in my lucid dreams anyway. I don't know why, but I do.] I see a wide, steep, carpet-covered ramp leading down to the level below me, and decide to roll down it.

[Dreamskip. I'm not 100% certain that I was still aware that I was dreaming in this scene, but I may have been.] I'm walking along a city street and see a restaurant that is closed. I'm disappointed to discover this, because it had belonged to my friends. I wander through it, looking at all the debris left in the abandoned building. I walk to a side entrance and go out through the patio, where I see that people have begun seating themselves at the patio tables. I realize that they must have seen me walking around inside the restaurant, assumed it was open, and sat down. I feel bad about it, but I start telling them, “Sorry, it's closed.” They get up and leave.

[Side notes: Heh. I love how my subconscious has turned Omaha into this perfect tropical paradise with an awesome library, a place where everything I saw around me was incredibly cool and gave me nothing but happiness and joy. Omaha really does have a gigantic central library, although it doesn't have that cool architectural design. That part came directly from the library at UC San Diego. I didn't go to school there, but EM did - a fact which I had consciously forgotten about until I told my mom about this dream later in the day. Hmm. Omaha also has a zoo that I didn't actually see, but that everyone tells me is pretty awesome. Okay, subconscious, I get the message: Don't give up on Omaha yet. You may still be able to find happiness there.]

The following is a true story of a near-death experience I experienced today...

I won't go into details about the passing out part because it really isn't important.

Today I passed out from low blood sugar and while unconscious i dreamed this:

I was on clouds, I was surrounded by endless mist and clouds. I had no idea how I got there, where I was before this, and no knowledge of ever falling asleep. It felt real as real gets. I was floating above endless landscape but in the clouds only, no closer. I thought, I was just living how did I get here? Am I dead? I thought I might be due to the odd circumstances and that I couldn't wake up from this dreamlike world.

Was I ever living? What am I now? Am I still human or some sort of spirit-being? I then heard voices, "it will be alright." Who is that I asked? No answer. Then I walk around questioning what is real and what is imaginary. Then everything goes dark and I see light and a face but I can't make it out. The person says, "stay with us, wake up, you're going to be alright."

I thought, is this still imaginary or is this all real?

The face goes away and I am back in the clouds.

What is going on? Then I felt like I was dieing of thirst and I was soaking wet.

I was cold.

Then I give up thinking and just relax and it all goes dark again. The light comes back in a few minutes. Now I see flashing lights on a firetruck and 3 paramedics. Then I blink and now there is only 1. Then I close my eyes again rest. I try to figure out what had happened.

I wake up and now realize I had blacked out. It takes me a couple of minutes to realize what had happened. I had low blood sugar and blacked out in my truck while backing up a trailer into the driveway. Thank God it was in park when it happened.

It takes me at least an hour to remember the whole story from the little bits and pieces of memories I could remember from before I passed out.

It was a very scary feeling, to be awake an active to dream state in a blink and no memory of what had happened.
This is a first time for me when it comes to passing out.

I went to bed at 10:00 pm
Woke up at 4:15, drank aj went to bathroom and back to bed at like 4:15.

I was at this nice autumn dog park with my friend Mike. It was a really nice day and there was a nice lake there. I had been to a similiar place a couple days ago and used that setting to dream incubate when i first went to bed, so then I realized I was dreaming and decided to do the finger through palm tech. It took a couple of tries, but i eventually got them through and yelled out "Yippie!!" (kinda dumb I know) I told myself alright I have to calm down. I was with Mike and we were at a picnic table and I remember trying the breathing through nose tech just for fun and it also worked! I remember me and mike were getting excited so we started to stick our hands through the picnic table (like the palm tech) and after countless failures for both of us (just two kids hitting their hands on a table ) I told myself, "this is a dream I can do whatever i want." and concentrated really hard and finally stuck my hand through the table! The whole top part of it! I cant remember if it went through easily or if i straight up smashed it, but w/e i did it. Mike was pumped and hooting for me. There was also an old man who kinda reminded me of morgan freeman sitting on a near by log who had witnessed the whole thing, and was shaking his head like he approved of my concentration. Some other people were walking by saw the end of the event and were looking dumb founded by what we were doing, so i tried to show off and do it again for them, but i just couldn't do it, i couldnt concentrate, so i rammed my fingers through the table so hard that the wood broke in half. The DC's were impressed and started clapping, but i knew it wasnt the same and said screw off to them. I then walked to the water with Mike and we were up to our nips in really cold water, but we didnt mind. I did another reality check and said "hey mike lets waterbend!" and i morphed some water into a ball and tossed it in the air, it hit the water with a HUGE splash. mike then made a water ball and threw it at me, it was so on! he swam away but i created a whirlpool and tried to suck him in but he got away. I decided screw this, this is a dream so I stood up on the water. It was awkward at first like trying to walk on jello but i got the hang of it, me and Mike fought for a long time and it was on eof the most amazing expirences ever!

It then faded into a non-lucid dream, must of been because i got too caught up in the water fight

I spent the majority of the dream in my house looking for it. Every time I would open and close a door there would be a different set of people in the rooms. Sad to say, but none were plan b-able. I couldn't even think of some random chick to summon, so I just headed outside and reset the house and tried it again. Maybe it was difficult because I could hear waking life bleed into my dream so I know I was going to wake up.

I guess it's now clear that I need some goals. Recall needs to go up a bit because I have no clue what I was dreaming about earlier...and I need something to do besides look for sex.

became lucid. decided to find the hollow world in The Earth. I 've read that gates are in the norhth and south pole. I flew in the space but couldn't see our planet. i saw a lot of stars and something very bright - i thought that its The Sun and the Earth is behind it. I wanted to land and landed. tried entered in the ground but only could through my hand. something was with vision and i saw a woman in the red dress in the yard, he came to me and i awoke

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Figured I might aswell write down two lucids I didn't care to write down last week in here aswell as two I had last night.

Sith training with Nito DILD
I'm semi lucid in a dark room with a Sith Lord, an apprentice and Nito. "Relax and seethe" the master tells us. I close my eyes and relax my body whilst letting the rage within me flow freely. I start to levitate with my legs crossed. After a while I leave the room. I realize I'm dreaming and head up some stairs. "Nito! Where are you?" I ask out loud. I run up the steps. "You've got ten seconds to answer or else!" I say. "I'm coming dude, hold on!" he replies from below. I continue up to the top of the stairs and arrive at an attic. I wait for Nito there. A few seconds later he appears with my youngest brother. "Okay so, we'll play a game. Hide and seek in bedclothes" I say. They look at me confused. "Bedclothes?" Nito asks. "Yeah, you know you can hide in them." I hear something outside and walk over to the lone window. I look out and can see a fountain in a courtyard and a few people around. I throw myself out of the window and start flying right away. I fly around them in circles before I land and the dream fades.

Highway mayhem DILD
I'm lucid right away and I'm with a few guys from work. We're near a highway and there's a big bus next to us. "Everyone get on the bus!" I say and as soon as we're all on it it takes off. We go down the highway and have a blast in the bus. Everyone's laughing and joking. I stand up in the middle of the bus and look ahead. We're on a two lane road and there's another two lane road going the other way on the other side of a fence. I reach out with my hand, palm towards the cars. They all start sliding away from us, even the cars on the other lane. "Hey guys, check it out, I'm the one doing this!" I say and push even harder. The cars start piling up and flying over each other.



We arrive at a big building. "Stop the bus!" I say and the bus stops. We get out, only one coworker follows me into the building. It's one huge room painted in white. There are balconies all around the room all the way to the top. I start flying around the room doing loops and just chilling. After a while I figure I've had my share of fun and decide to wake up.

22.00: Sleep

06.15: Friends house
I'm sitting at a table at my friend Jonas's house. His mom is there with my friend G. "I can't believe the five of us has a girlfriend now, a few years ago we were all single" I say. G has shaven his head and looks ragged. I grab a black pen and intend to write something. "Don't waste too much of that ink" Jonas's mother tells me. I grab another one instead.

06.15: WBTB 10 minutes

08.00: At work MILD
I'm in my dad's car just outside of work. I realize I'm dreaming right away and I smile at them as I close the door. They smile back and head off. I've been dropped off at the same place I'm always dropped off at. 'This'll be interesting.' I cross the road and head for the fence surrounding the establishment. I can't walk very fast and figure I'll have to stabilize a bit. I focus my eye sight on a cinderblock a few yards away and the clarity increases tenfold. At the fence I jump lightly and float over it. Two guys are heading inside. "Hey guys!" I say and go in before them.

I sit down at my usual spot around the big table and just relax a bit. People are joking and I go along for a little while. "Bah, I won't waste a lucid at work" I say and get up. I fart at my coworker and then jump out the window. I land on my stomach but it doesn't hurt. I hold out my hands to the side and start to levitate. With a mental push I shoot straight up into the air and the establishment beneath me shrinks to the size of a dice. I change the push so that I fly towards a bit city.



I gain some speed and the wind is roaring in my ears. Ahead I see a huge white building and realize it's "The Globe", a big domed structure in Stockholm. I focus on it as I fly but suddenly a few clouds block my line of sight. I descend a bit but when I should see The Globe I can only see the regular city houses. 'Okay dream destabilizing, time to land.' I shoot straight down into the city and just as I land everything goes black.

I end up in SP and decide to go straight into another lucid. I lie still and wait for it.

Give me your car! DEILD
I'm standing in the woods next to a road. There's someone next to me. "Time to steal a car!" I say and walk out on the road. There's a bunch of cars coming towards me. I hold out my hand and the first vehicle, a truck, stops. I get in. "Get out of the truck!" I say threateningly. "But, I'm a midget, surely you don't want to hurt me?" the tiny man says. "Oh, yeah ofcourse" I say and jump out again, who'd hurt a midget? I let the truck pass. An older sportscar comes up.



"Stop!" I yell and the car stops. I recognise the driver, it's a guy from my hometown. "Get the fuck out!" "Please don't take my car!" he says and tries to get away from me. I grab his legs and drag him out of the vehicle and throw him down on the ground. I get in and hit the gas pedal. The car accelerates and I'm really enjoying myself. The windshield is in the way however so I punch it a few times before it breaks apart. Not all glass falls away but enough for me to get my arm out of it and rip the rest away. "Wohooo!" I scream into the wind. All of a sudden I'm sitting in the passenger seat and my brother is the one driving. We arrive at a ghostly house. 'Oh damn, this schema can get nasty' I don't really feel like being near a ghost house in my LD so I start to wake myself up just as we park outside.

10.00: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 12 hours

Supplements: 1 x Lucid Dreamer and 100 mg L-Theanine at WBTB

That's it! Had a whole bunch of non-lucids aswell which were pretty cool, but I can't be bothered to write them all down.

Keep on dreaming!

DJ Log: June 13, 2012 – 5:00AM (USA Eastern)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

(Note: I woke up around 3:00AM and decided to get up for a bit. I poured a tall glass of organic apple juice with a little elderberry concentrate added, and then I sat at the computer reading some posts on the DV forums. I read a thread titled I returned to bed around 4:00AM.)

I find myself standing in a small bathroom in an unfamiliar house. The walls have a dark floral wallpaper and the ceiling is covered with decorative square copper tiles. There is no toilet, but there is a tall urinal along the wall. The bathtub is an antique copper claw-foot tub. I look at the fancy copper trimmed mirror and I do not see my reflection. I immediately become lucid and jump into the mirror.

Once on the other side of the mirror, I am standing in an old musty root cellar. The walls are covered with sagging wooden shelves which are full of old dusty wine bottles. There is a single light bulb hanging by its wires in the middle of the ceiling. I walk over and pick up a bottle and I struggle for a second to read the label. I try to pull out the cork, then I reach in my pocket and pull out a cork remover. The wine smells like pungent cheese but it tastes like water. I take a second taste and the flavor slightly develops a sweet rose wine flavor which fades quickly.

Thinking that my lucidity is fading with the flavor, I look up at my surroundings and see that the root cellar has changed into a dungeon. There are rusty chains and shackles hanging on the walls and there are torches on posts sticking out of the floor. I walk over to the wall and feel one of the chains. The rust is gritty and the metal is very cold. There are thick sheets of cobwebs covering all of the walls. When I pull the chain away from the wall, another mirror is revealed. I see my reflection for a split second, then I decide not to get stuck in the mirror. I pull the chains away and take a step back, then jump into the mirror.

On the other side of the mirror, I find myself standing in a small dark bedroom. There is a small dim lamp on a table next to an open window. The curtains are hanging out of the window, blowing in the wind. The bed and dresser are antique Victorian style and there is scratchy music playing from an antique phonograph in the corner. The hardwood floor is dusty and creaks as I walk. I stop and look at a painting on the wall of an old farm scene when I hear someone cough. I look over to see that fOrceez is sitting on a chair next to the phonograph, reading a book. I take a couple of steps toward him and he lowers the book and looks at me over the top of his reading glasses, then he asks me, “How was your flight?” I reply, “It was quite fun, but I'm not done yet!” I quickly turn around and see that the mirror is still on the wall where I came through. I take several steps back and run into the mirror. The surface does not give way at all and I bounce off and fall on my ass. fOrceez laughs as I stand up, dust myself off, and glare at the mirror. I cannot see my reflection, rather just a dark gray TV static pattern. Deciding that I'll just find another mirror elsewhere, I jump out of the window and fall into the ocean.

(Note: For the first time that I can recall, falling did not wake me up or trigger a FA. I'm marking the last part as non-lucid because I think my lucidity was lost during the fall, but I'm fairly certain that I remained in the same dream.)

I hit the cold water and struggle for a moment to swim back to the surface. Once I regain a couple of breaths, I find that I am swimming in a very stormy ocean far from land. Just as I turn around to see if I am near anything, lightning strikes the water just in front of me. I suddenly wake up with the sound of the thunder still rumbling through my head.

[This dream was at around 8:40AM or so]
[Haven't had a single LD for almost a week and half before this, so it was time ^^]

I was just escaping some huge ogre and it's bandit friends who were coming out from our outbuilding, when i decided to fly away from them. When i flew up into the sky, i just thought to myself "Oh... how can i fly up here? Oh yes, i'm dreaming!"
Of course i got lucid and really happy, the dry spell was broken

I descended down to the earth and just looked around a little. It was night and i was standing in our garden. Some things were shining a little, so it wasn't totally dark, but dark enough to get lost in it.
I wanted to create daylight immediately, so i looked up to check out the sky.
I found the Moon, which was pixelated, just like in an old videogame. I held both of my hands high above and focused on moving the Moon with telekinesis... It happened surprisingly fast, i was able to move the Moon back and it disappeared behind some clouds.

Since it wasn't enough to make daylight, the next thing to do was bring up the Sun.
I held up my hand again, but now pulled towards me. Soon the Sun showed up and it was moving quite fast towards me. Even while it was on the sky, daylight was nowhere, so i was focusing on that, but it didn't want to happen.
I let go of the Sun since it was coming at extreme speeds towards the garden.
After a short while it just crashed into the wall of our outbuilding and destroyed it. It looked more like a huge pulsating yellow ball.
[At that moment i thought to myself how disappointing it was. I expected a real sized Sun ].

Well, i didn't really want to check out the Sun from close, since it was that small, i lost interest in it.
I looked around yet again and was thinking about that i surely need daylight if i want to wander from there... I noticed a pink-yellowish beam coming down from the sky to the earth in the landscape. It just lighted up everything around it, but it was too far and i didn't want to go through the darkness to reach it.
I decided to fly up to our house's roof, since it was somewhat lighter, but when i was about to do it everything got dark. [I thought to myself that it can't be the end of the dream yet, it didn't feel like when my dream ends].

I realized that it was a tricky darkness, to make me think that i woke up, but no, i stood still and waited, focused on getting to a lighter place, when suddenly my vision blurred and when it got back to normal i was in a new place already.
It was some kind of bazaar and it was daylight finally. I started walking and let out a "Whooohooooooo!" because i was happy that it's not dark anymore. [The daylight here was blue for some reason].
I looked around the bazaar and it was really surreal, the vendor booths were placed in different levels on all sides and even above me and some of them looked like they were floating.

I flew up to check around, when i noticed a vendor that was selling different kinds of desserts and things like that. Someone was just buying something from him and in the meanwhile i reached out for a little biscuit like food. While reaching, i thought to myself that it must taste sweet. Just as i thought that, the biscuit suddenly had a chocolate cover with some sugar on it.
I took it and started eating it... it tasted good, but nothing extraordinary...

I looked around and at the other side of the counter i noticed a HUGE cupcake

Similar to this, but it was flatter and had a cherry on top.

It just looked so good that i couldn't leave it there. I took it with me and flew away. I immediately took a bite and it was just sooo goood
I decided to try and find Lucy, but even while i knew i should think about her positively, so she won't attack me, i just couldn't. I had negative thoughts just as i thought of her name and i got scared that she'll just trick me again.
I flew up higher from the bazaar, where then i noticed a flat transparent blue surface floating above. I flew higher and descended onto it. I had no idea what it was, but i didn't really care either.

I was thinking about Lucy, to summon her somewhere near, while still nomming on my cupcake time-by-time.
[Maybe next time i'll even bring a cupcake like that for her ^^].
I noticed a virtual picture of a brown haired girl on a wall and i immediately knew that it must be her picture, but for some reason i expected her to be blonde now... not sure why.
As i was just about to go there, the picture slipped down from the wall and disappeared into the ground...
Then suddenly a huge iPad-like screen appeared at that same wall. It had MSN Messenger open on it.

There were all kinds of unknown to me contacts on the screen, but i thought that maybe i could talk with Lucy on it... So i typed in her name in the search bar and her picture popped up, but she was blonde now.
I clicked on it and sent her a simple greeting:

- Hi.
She answered in almost a milisecond:
- Hey?

I was just about to ask her something, when suddenly i felt my left leg itching, so i reached to scratch it, but my real hand moved for some reason... I woke up...

[I didn't even expect my real hand to move at that time, it never happened yet that i was still seeing the dream, but my real hand moved instead :/]
[Somehow i should get over my fears about Lucy... but it's harder than i thought]
[At least the cupcake was tasty ^^]

In the night I tried FILD one time with no success.
In the morning I woke up at 6:10 naturally, wrote in my DJ, drank water, went to the bathroom and performed a SSILD about 6:50. I woke up again 8:30 with no LD yet. I changed of position and put my hand in the middle of my knees. I tough "why don't I try the FILD again ?", I started "playing my piano" and in about 15 seconds I felt the SP coming, heard that loud sound on my ears and there I am, inside my 8th LD ;D

Lucid Part:
I'm in a place where everything is drawn. The people is drawn too.
I feel all my dream powers weak here, and everything is a little scary.
I do a "Kame-Hame-Ha" in the sky and open a passage to the "real world".
I fly and pass trough the passage and it leads me to a building. I fly near to some ATMs. I try to go through a wall but I only knock my head on it.
I have to admit that I felt a little of doubt if I was really able to do that.
I try again saying "pass through" and it works.
There are really big rooms in this building and they look like offices, I continue to go through all the walls in the same direction, after 2 or 3 rooms I start to pass near some people.
I realized after waking up that there were only women in that building.
I get near to two women and give one of them a big kiss. I ask how are they doing.
I can't say why everytime in my lucid dreams that I want to greet a woman I kiss her, I'm sure I was still lucid but don't know what I tought there, I only know that it was a great kiss xD
I start to fly again in the same direction. I pass beside to girls and understand that they are choosing place to some friends of mine to work. I speak with them for a while.
While I was speaking with them I seemed to lose some of the lucidity, I was becoming just a character in the story and not the director, but after the talk I said "it is a dream" to myself sometimes again.
I left them there and start to fly again the same direction. I pass through a huge glass window that is in maybe the 30th floor of that building. I can see the city very far from me. I start to fly fast and just appear over my aunt's house in Catuji.
I jump to a wall and from there I see a cousin of mine when he was 5 years old, and near the wall I see Ruck.
I jump to the floor and start to play with him.
Ruck was dog and died some months ago, I knew that during the dream, but felt happy to be able to "play with him a last time".
I hug him a lot. I felt a reaally huge happiness while doing that.
I am going with him to near of my house and I see 2 more "Rucks".
After playing with him I try to get out from there, but ruck does everything to keep me there, some puppies appear and try to keep me there too.
When I say that they were trying to keep me there, it's cause they were running after me, kiding with and that things that our dogs do with us.
I start to run away from there and a black dog appears and tries to stop me, I start to fly. It almost gets me but I get to "escape", but I wake up.

I am only sure that that was a dream when I was doing the FILD because I woke up in the same position that I slept. I never imagined that FILD could be so powerfull

Dream Stats:
Went to sleep: 00:30am
Duration: ~20min (only lucid)
Woke up at: 9:00am

Briefly became lucid during a much-needed nap, but I ended up waking immediately. In hindsight, maybe I should have had lunch before taking my nap, seeing how hungry I was in the dream!

I'm in a room, watching a cabinet member talking to reporters. There's something important I need to ask her, so I hang around and try to look busy by looking at a map. When she's done, she comes over to me and asks, "Was there something that you needed?" For the life of me, I cannot remember the question I needed to ask her.

I head out of the room and down a hallway. There's a stand selling food that looks really good, but there's a long line. I'm salivating as I wait. There's a case with crab legs, and I can't wait to have one. While I'm waiting, I spot Rachel, a friend from college. We talk about making plans for dinner so I can meet her husband and she can meet my boyfriend. She suggests place near Yorktown. For some reason, the name makes me giggle. She asks if it's because my boyfriend is from Yorktown, Virginia. I say yes, but something in the back of my mind keeps nagging me, reminding me that it's not true. I can't seem to remember where my boyfriend is from.

I finally get to the head of the line. But it looks like I'm too late. There's no more crab legs left in the case, but they have raw tilapia. I pick out a filet, but the cashier tells me how expensive it is and asks if I can afford it. I hesitate, not really knowing how much money I have on hand. The cashier tells me that he has a solution to make it affordable. Then he rips off a ridge of fat, puts it on a skewer, and tells me how I'm getting such a "bargain" on this special cut. I think I've lost my taste for seafood, so I move onto another case. There's something that looks like meatloaf muffins, but I pick out something else. I take my food and the next thing I know, I'm at home. I want to sit in front of the TV and eat, but the couch is missing. I see that it's moved off to the side, so I go to drag it into the correct spot. It's much lighter than I expected. Apparently, it's because my couch has become an armchair, and it's upholstered in the same fabric as the couch I threw away years ago. Again, something about the situation is nagging me. I sit down and dig into my take-out container, which has cauliflower and potatoes cooked in some kind of spices and masala. I'm biting into a piece of cauliflower when I realize this is the same meal I had last week. It startles me enough that I immediately wake up.

dream : comments : lucid

13th of June, 2012

There were several smaller dreams last night but I'll just stick with the main one:

Nooks, Acka, my parents and I were visiting the US. The dream became really clear when I was standing out the front of this house looking over the city at sunset. It looked kind of like San Francisco but more... European. It was really pretty with lots of ornate houses huddled together on hils. I tried to take a picture of the scene on my phone coz it was such a nice view but it wouldn't change from the reverse camera so all I could see was my stupid-ass dream face doing that goofy smile it always does.
Anyway. The sun set really quickly after that and then I went back inside and realised after seeing a sign that we were in fact in Ohio and I should go get some Skyline Chili (which is this franchise that only exists in Ohio and I didn't really care for that much when I had it last time I was in the States anyway...)

But find it we must! So Acka and I went on an adventure to find a store which involved walking through schoolyards and this zanily large shopping centre. After being lost in there for what seemed like an eternity, we took an escalator up to a movie theatre lobby. Walking through there my legs suddenly stopped working properly and I told Acka not to worry coz "This happens pretty regularly, but only in dreams..."

I almost missed what I'd just said, but something stirred inside me and it suddenly hit me;I was dreaming!
I played it cool as a cucumber and told Acka to hang on while I did this Reflex Dream Stabilisation I read about yesterday that involved clenching certain muscles to ground you. It definitely worked as the dream became way clearer and more stable but with two drawbacks:
1. It made my legs work even less well somehow;
2. It put me too deeply in the dream and I kinda lost my consciousness a bit

So I did a little Lieutenant Dan style stupid-walk over to an escalator and basically fell down it. That crap continued for a while until I think I woke up. BUT! It's a DILD, so that's what's important.

I was in a Red River type place that was actually in Kansas, with Matte and some other people I couldn't identify. We were tornado chasing, although on foot. Mostly it was just a nature hike because it was a clear, sunny day with no clouds whatsoever, much less tornadoes. So we caravaned to a large picnic that was set up for our lunch. It was a nice looong table, shaded by beautiful cloth gazebos in bright colors, which flapped slightly in the wind. I was kinda looking forward to sitting by Matte, because hello, muscles. But he sat down by some people and there were no empty chairs next to him. Bummer. I don't really remember eating, but I remember they were grilling burgers, and I saw the smaller table with burger add-ons, like slices of tomato, and red onion, ketchup and mustard etc. Anyway I was walking a bit past the table into a huge meadow, where the horizon was blocked by huge trees. Suddenly the wind blew alot harder, and I heard thunder and saw lightening. I looked up at the tops of the trees, and a tiny little dark gray cloud appeared, sparkling with little flecks of lightening. It was really cute, if such a thing could be called cute. Then a tiny little gray tornado formed just under the cloud, though it was really high up in the sky, and miles and miles from being close to touching the ground. I screamed "Tornado TORNADO!!!!!" and a group of people rushed toward where I was standing. I immediately did the finger through palm RC, the one I always do when I see a tornado in dreams. Which is gay because it nearly always fails. It failed once more, and I thought to myself, "Well, I guess THIS time it's for real." Then I remembered how I ALWAYS say that, and it's NEVER real. So I just said "You know what, fuck it I MUST be dreaming." And then the fact that I realized this cloud was completely silly, and Matte, a guy from Sweden whom I've never met, was in Kansas with me, hunting tornadoes, confirmed that I was dreaming. I felt like I didn't really care that much. Don't know why. So I didn't really do anything special. I just kept watching the sky with the others. The little cloud sauntered along the sky, all by itself with it's little tornado tail. I said "That thing's too small to reach the ground." Other people muttered "yeah, lame." So we just walked off to continue the day nature hiking instead. As I turned to walk toward the trail, Matte grabbed my hand. So we held hands the rest of the way. Also there was a big hug in there somewhere, but I can't remember if it was before or after the tornado.

I'm laughing as I'm typing this because it's so gay!!

The transition was extra weird. When I felt the vibrations, I felt something or someone push me a few inches into the bed. Then they said something, and put a barrier over the bed and threw me and my mattress into the next room

I was looking at a sunset and the room I was in didn't have a wall. I thought about stabilizing and waiting a moment but it was clear that everything was ready to go. I was gonna head into my room to see who slung me into my dream and said " eh, let's leave it a mystery".

I really had no thoughts of what to do, I started flying off randomly. Each time I would come back near my house but things were different. More water, more random stuff. I went swimming in a newly formed lake and there were all these sea creatures in it. I got out after a few minutes because I had a "watch something tries to kill me and I spend the entire dream owning it" feeling.

Nothing else to do...maybe I'll see what kaomea is up to. I tried making a few portals but they weren't working. some sarcastic girls came up and started asking what I was doing. By this time I had 'she loves me not' out and it really took some restraint it to chop them to bits with it. We went for tic for tack while the sword was materializing, but this time, it didn't fully appear. I think part of it was stuck in another dimension. Anyways, I stuck the sword into the remenants of a portal I tried to make, and the asphalt turned into liquid and gave way to a portal.

I jumped down it and out the corner of my eye I could see The World That Never Was. Damnit, I know I don't have enough time so I continue on down. I arrive at an airport terminal and Kaomea is there waiting on me. She has her arms crossed like she's been waiting for a while. I played it cool and outstretched my arms and she hugged me. She told me that "she was mad at me" when I asked her how she was doing. "Who's mad at you?" I asked. Then she went back to having that grumpy look she had before and said "you should know".

The damn dream snapped (i had no clue that it was going to end and everything dematerialized instantly) and I had a FA. I was reading my DJ and Dreamprofessor replied to my last entry saying that it was too early for me to transition and that's why I never got into the dream. I was figuring out how to say "I know what the hell I'm doing" in the nicest way and when I got out of bed, my boxers were soaked....wet dream soaked. I was looking down and saying "what the fuck....I didn't even do anything". I started thinking about the previous dreams and ran them through my head. Nope, no plan B action what so ever. Well I was really hot, maybe it's just sweat....nah, this ain't sweat....fuck. And I woke up.