non-lucid

This marks the first vivid dream that i will be recording on this website and let me just say that it was a good one.

Firstly i would like to emphasize the intense detail and chronology of this dream. This dream was filled with complex characters whom some i have never seen before but whom I knew to be certain people.

This dream was set in a world of weird geography. The characters and the geography do not match up. As it was set in an evergreen, amazon-like set of woods and that the overall theme of this dream was for the emperor of the sith, Darth Sidious, was trialing me to become a sith myself. He was also wearing his hood but was in a black tuxedo.

The tasks he set me involved:
1. Building a car-like device that would carry me with sufficient speed to clear a set racetrack but the car was made of cardboard and lego parts.
2. Chaining a white bunny to a pole so that he can see what I am doing.

A real sith lord showed up that was the same race as Darth Maul. His lightsaber was made of rainbow colours although he looked really badass and malicious.

All the while through this escapade, a character who i knew as 'my father' (but did not resemble my actual real life father) was trying to escape me from this situation. We would carry backpacks and dive into bushes and behind trees to evade our assailants; which coincidently was my real mother and sister.

There were teeny details that would just make up too much to write in this journal but this wraps up the dream.

Now i ask the obvious next question: Whar does this mean?

I was Dodger (Eighteen years old, or close to that age any way). What I remember was that I was scoping my next pickpocket job out, getting close to my next target. Before I went for it though a teenage girl crying caught my eye (she looked a few years younger than me).
I stepped over to her, giving her a snow globe that I recently stole to cheer her up. (Eh!? I'm somehow romantic Dodger xDD!) She looked at it quizzically for a moment, as though she'd never seen one before, but was happy to take it..! After she said thank you she then dashed off, and I was left on my own to go and carry on my work, where I remember not being into my work at that point, and needing to make a quick dash for it xDD!!

Daytime.
I was at range bank school, and I saw 2 famous people which were doing a comedy act on the basketball court. I think one of the guys was topless, holding a guitar. I was lining up with other people, trying to get out of the school. We were all shoulder to shoulder.

Night time.
I eventually got out of school, and looked to see where my Mum was parked, to take me home. I saw Luke B, and figured that Mum could take him home as well. He ended up leaving me and went across the oval. I started to walk back, thinking that I may have missed her car, as it was dark.

Scene changed.
I was trying to get out of a place and was faced with a large ramp, which was about 50 metres high. I pressed the button and it fell backwards on top of me. I crawled out from under it, I was pretty scared of what just happened.

There was two guys which saw what had happened and figured they would take advantage of me. They started to chase me on their bikes, so I made a run for it. I think I had a bag on my back and a wallet in my pocket. I reached outside, which was the car park of the main shopping centre in my home town. I saw people in the distance and ran towards them hoping they could help me out. The path I was running on looked strange looking. Luckily, the bystanders helped me out, and chased away the thugs.

I saw the ramp in front of me again, and tried to figure out how to bring it down, without falling on me. I had to figure it out quickly, as the thugs were in the distance and noticed me and headed in my direction. I heard a voice telling me how to do it. I was nervous to try out the controls, but took the gamble and it worked.

The thugs were very close to me and I had to run to a safe location. I reached a petrol station and noticed I was naked and had only my back pack on.

Dream Fragments 1(Daytime)
I was in a computer game called unreal tournament 99(UT99), playing Instagib (1 hit kill).


I was with Jamie S, he was playing UT99 on Dads PC. Jamie was eating cake. I think Jamie was Josh D.

I was in a scene with others fighters.

I was on a train and everybody had cake. I was going to get some but I don't think any was left. Jamie knew I wanted cake previously?

Dream Fragments 2
I was at my house and noticed that there was poo on the carpet in the 1st lounge room. I went over to the sink, and cleared the dishes out of the way, so I could rinse the rag out.

Saw my Dad

Daytime Dream.

I was with Josh D, Trev and his brother Gary.

I'm at blacks land house, outside in my backyard. I remember playing ball with my brothers girlfriends dog (Peppie). Peppie got a little too excited for the ball and bit my hand by accident. I had placed a hand full of tennis balls up on top of the shed roof.
I remember hearing something on radio that was talking about cricket.

A girl came out into the backyard to tell me to come inside for something (I think she was friends with Holly A). I came inside, but it wasn't my house. The girl handed me something (something wrapped in a cloth?). I think it had something in it that she owed me.

I went out the front, which was now Marlz front yard. I walked up to a car which was parked, and it was Holly. She didn't recognise me.
I had thought she mentioned something about blood on my face, and asked if that's what she said. She laughed and said no. I told her that I picked a pimple on my face. Some people walked up to me, and we started chatting. Holly decided that she may as well leave, as I wasn't talking to her, and started to drive off.

I saw Josh D outside. He looked a little different, his hair was a bit shaggy looking.

I got inside and myself, Josh, Trev and Gary were about to head off to sleep, in the lounge room.

We were all stuffing around not long after. I tickled Gary's foot, and he freaked out and jumped on top of Trev. Trev wasn't too happy that he was jumped on.

I was now in a car with, Josh, Trev, Luke B and Gary. Gary was driving. I saw a guy on the side of the road, he was hugging a huge boulder, and they were both covered in tar. He rolled himself into a puddle of liquid which was gold and bubbling, as if it was lava.

I said something witty, and got no response. Luke mentioned that there must be 2 drunk people in the car, to not get what I just said.

I was now holding my hip, and was feeling around for a lump. I thought I may have had a tumour or something. Someone said to me, that my side which had the lump, wasn't functioning right. I looked down and saw that I was in blue shorts. You could see the outline of my penis, as if my pants were sticking to my body. Gary said that I had a massive penis. I think I had an athletic body type also.

Side note:
As I woke up, I saw imagery, as if I could have turned it into a DEILD. The image was a computer screen, which was pretty vivid. I could even see the clock in the bottom right corner. I tried to open my eyes but the image would fade away, so I closed them again and it appeared again. I then thought I would try opening my eyes again, but this time it was gone for good.

I was with Daz and Josh D, at a nightclub.

The next day, we wanted to do it all again. Except this time, it was only myself and Daz. We were walking around town, and noticed a few groups of people.

We walked into an outdoor pub area and saw a group of 3 - 4 guys, sitting at a table. Daz asked where some good places were to go out on a night like tonight, and that we went out Friday night as well. They had seen us the night before but we didn't realise it was the same people. They were acting as if we never met and were mocking us and acting dumb to our questions, and not mentioning that we actually saw each other the night before (I don't remember seeing them on the Friday night). One of the guys said something about nick names. Daz got embarrassed by the question and walked off. I asked the guys, ''Did we see you all last night?'' and they said yes.
I went over to Daz to see what was wrong, and he said that he felt like an idiot, as they were mocking him.

I remember being near range bank.

I was with Dad and we were at blacks land house. He was using me for he's dirty laundry. I overheard the convocation Dad and Angry Anderson (AA) (AA is a Australian music artist, lead singer of Rose Tattoo. He looks the criminal type to say the least). I was going to be used, and set up into doing a trade (something illegal), which would fall through and make me the target, when things go wrong.

Angry Anderson - Lead singer of Rose Tattoo

I was at Drew's old house. I was given a suit case.

I was now at blacks land house, and I was thinking of making a run for it, so I wouldn't be involved. I decided to man up instead and tell my Dad face to face of what I thought was happening, and why I didn't want to do this trade.

We were in the car, and Dad pulled over so he could talk to AA on the phone. I overheard his convocation, and heard a mention of sending a package through Star Track Express (A courier company).
I said to Dad that I didn't want to be in debt to the mob.

Star Track Express - Courier company

Dad said something about ambulance and the city, so we could go see the My Kitchen Rules winners (Cooking competition). I think we were related to them, from what Dad was saying.

Still going, but my period started and it's been rough. Stress/moodiness, tiredness, waking up too early and not being able to focus on recall, etc. :/ Still doing DILD stuff as I can.

Sunday:

1. Walking up to a strange house

2. Some kind of contest where everyone is given something to use. The last person got cement and poured in on top of the other people’s stuff into a ziplock snack bag. She did that so she’d have some advantage.

3. Being chased through a house, I make it to a basement (at grandma’s?) (chased by Annie from SnK?),

Inspiration: Watched a certain episode of SnK with Annie.

Monday:

Something about a girl.

Tuesday:

1. Someone who looked like Cher but that I just ‘knew’ wasn’t was singing a song that I thought was out of her usual genre.

2. People getting kidnapped, including Jenna ‘Brown’ from my childhood. Rane was in disguise as she talked to the Mansons, Jenna’s family.

3. Pouring chicken noodles over the singing scene. There were so many we only filled a few white containers full and left the rest for others,

Inspiration: #3 probably comes from me thinking about chicken & dumplings since they’re so tightly linked in my head.

Sometimes when I fall asleep I become aware of the in between sleep and not sleep stage, and I get stuck. Frozen it feels like... I actually feel like literally stuck in vibration between two worlds. The only thing is that it's painful. Almost seizure like pain... It makes my head feel like it's going to split in half and my eyes roll back, and I also loose the ability to breathe. I'm afraid! And my body has no control. And the longer it last the more pain I feel and I come out of it... But in some situations I'll be stuck in this paralysis. I've heard voices once, and in another situation also felt a beam of light shining down on me... Very weird.

So I do some research on this "sleep paralysis", never even heard of it, and apparently many people go through this... But it gets creepier... They say it's demonic possession and or they see shadow people and see an evil thing sitting on their chest suffocating them.... This all seems like a horrific drug trip. That you can't sober up from. Unless you wake up.... But the fucked up part of it all is that you are awake... Your body is just asleep. I have yet to meet anyone else who has gone through this... I almost told my doctor until I searched it online and now I know it has a name and similar stories... And it hasn't happened anytime recently... So... We will see if it returns. I'll keep you all posted.

Sweet dreams~

This is just the first of many to come, just joined today and lost my previous journal. I've always been told that humans see dreams that have a direct/indirect meaning or guidance on the conscious world and I am coming here to seek help of interpreting these.
P.S. I get de ja vu but instead of it being something I've done before it's nearly always something that I've seen in a dream months in advance, if anyone has anything to say about that let me know :). Thanks in advance for replies.
So here it goes.
"An asian woman came up to me just on the verge of tears. Her long black hair was moved out of the way so her face was easy to see. I was sleeping at the time of the visit and awoke to her standing next to me. She told me that she could feel the beat of my heart and that mine and hers compleated eachothers and that I was the other half to her heart. I put my hand on both my chest and hers simultaneously to compare and get a grasp of what was veing told to me. Her heart and mine were on the same beat no matter what and they were always matching/finishing eachother. I thought it was a romantic scene so I leaned in for a kiss only to have an akward moment of out lips touching, even with the exact match for my heart it was lacking passion and now it comes to me that perhaps she was crying out of fear rather than happiness. Later in the dream I reconnected with her and her friend while my friend Mike tagged along with me and we were all in her 1 bedroom apartment. She had Mike move over when I was the only person standing and looking over the 3 bodies crunched up on the tiny bed. We layed and after awhile she sat up to me and tried to give a kiss, I initially accepted it but shortly after I pushed her away just enough to make her stop. With a feeling of guilt and relief I told her,"I know our hearts match but I am not...." and at that moment I was stopped by a calming and confident "I know." and like that Mike and myself got up and left to be on our way.

Keep in mind this is just one story from last night's dream, I usually have 1-3 stories but it is hard to grasp all of them so usually I can only write down the most recent.

Got random lucid during normal sleep, low awareness though, couldn't remember goals and stuff. The part of dream before it though... quite an experience i should say.

Dream 1:

I was playing a game and apparently it was some kind of MMO, i've just created character and had just starting equipment, which was some kind of dagger. I was playing with somebody and he knew a number of things about the game, and i couldn't even figure out the HUD for some reason. We had to fight through various enemies and during looting i've found random dagger, which looked almost exactly like mine, but i've decided to use it instead. It was dealing massive damage to enemies, even more so than any weapon of who i was playing with.
After some more fights we came across a shop, which was still full of enemies. After cleaning it and accidentally cutting shopkeeper a few times, which he ignored due to being mostly invincible NPC, we checked shop itself. I had like 10k ish coins while other player had like 10 million. He bough some stuff and i've bought custom dagger crafting, menu appeared where i could select a few options and elements and then i've got new dagger, it costed 10k though. Testing it on nearby enemies i've found out that it's much weaker than the one i found, then i figured out how to look up stats. Well the dagger i've found had like +250 to attack, of attack base of dagger being 10... Waste of 10k coins.
We went on further and soon reached some sky island/castle area, we went through a few jumping puzzles and soon were in. There were no enemies here and it was kinda empty. I found two big tall areas with spiraling staircases, one of which had sky embedded in it somehow, looked pretty cool.

Dream 2:

I am at home with family and we are talking about some things, that continues for a while until i hear someone announcing something through speaker from a helicopter passing by, it was something about incoming nuke. Everyone but me starts panicking, and then a minute later, i see a huge missile coming, it hits somewhere nearby and there's sound of huge explosion. More people panic, but i just stay and say "Well then... good bye, this world". It starts getting really hot and soon the 'wave' of explosion itself hits. Everything turns into rubble and people burn to bones. My body is in pain and quite burned, but i am apparently still mostly ok. I slowly walk through rubble, still in pain, soon i reach the 'edge' of explosion, which is still exploding, and i jump out of it. Some random person comes and then suddenly i am in a room with lots of tables, there are other people who survived apparently, or something.
Confused for a second, i think, it could be a dream or something, i ask that person and he says something along the line "Only you can know". Yeah ofcourse, i should do reality check, so i do it and look at my hands, they are pretty weird and different number of fingers so yes, this is dream. I try hard to think of what to do but for some reason not much comes to mind... Then thought of dream food comes and i just go 'Well, why not?'. I ask nearby DC to get me some food of his choice, he goes away and i wait for him sitting near table. He comes back with a glass of what looks like milk, i drink a bit but it don't tastes much, i ask DC what's that and he responds with something along the line of "You should know". Then dream quickly fades and i wake up.

Dream recall from WBTB/naps that i couldn't type here before due to DV plugin crash.

Before actual dreams, three times i've almost managed to enter dream via WILD, but each time it was not stable enough and still felt like HH and faded once i moved. Two times i was at home and another on in some place with a windmill.

Dream 1(fragments):

There was some story, some guy came to mountains and was visiting the place were dragons were, he talked alot to them, one of them was black color, another was purple. Can't recall most of talk but there was something about the leader and 'War that never happened'. After that guy went on traveling further and soon found the elder dragon, who was white/grey-ish and was guarding an egg, dragon didn't wanted to talk with him until he mentioned that he talked to others and knows about 'War that never happened'. Dragon was quite surprised and apparently transformed into smaller form then dream ended.

Dream 2(fragments):

Something about dragons.

Fragment involving Ben Affleck and people complaining about a Fantastic Four movie.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

X-Men fragment involving Erik and Charles (as played by McKellan and Stewart) having an argument about something involving a young man, a mutant who lives with them; one of them leaves with the young man. Scene changes so that this is a movie I'm watching, I'm explaining to someone who just came in that this was the last time they saw each other for 9 years. On screen, it's now some kind of opening credits for the Avengers showing various backstories, some actual Avengers characters (Loki, Banner, "Hawkguy", deliberately misspelled - nothing for Iron Man though he shows up later for the fight sequence), mostly characters made up for the dream, one guy with a Buddhist hell motif, leading into a fight sequence in New York, complete with a very dramatic soundtrack featuring classical singers.

Scene changes, ditches the TV framing. Dream's now following a man in a suit who's standing on a New York street, looking up at the Avengers flying around fighting each other, when this woman says to him, "But do they care a touch for the wedding of the moor folk?" Moor here meaning the type of land, moor folk meaning faerie folk. They hold each other's gaze for a moment, she grins, he laughs, low and strange. She continues, "You weren't thinking, were you?" She's a red-haired woman with an Irish accent, wearing a veil, though the wedding she mentioned isn't hers, and looking very out of place on the streets of New York with a bunch of flying lunatics duking it out in the background.

(Woke up. Reflected that this was obviously inspired by a conversation yesterday, about the spin-off show starting today and how I still haven't gotten around to seeing the Avengers movie, and how that must have made me subconsciously remember the X-men movie that I also haven't gotten around to seeing - completely forgetting at the time about the Affleck dream which seems to have actually kickstarted this whole superhero thing. Although I haven't seen the latest Batman either, so I guess that still fits the theme. Anyway - decided to finally get around to watching that movie before the spin-off airs, went back to sleep, and making that decision seemed to do the trick, no more superhero dreams tonight.)

Fragment involving driving to the beach with IRL acquaintances and seeing Iolaus on the side of the road, looking out over a river.

False awakening - don't remember the actual waking up part, but I was in my IRL home talking about the previous dream scene as a dream, and went on to talk about skinny dipping and Xena (separate topics). Over-steeped the tea while I was talking and went to toss it out, outside.

Outside I'm on a city street, and the trash can I use is right in front of a bookshop. Looking over the books in the window display, I start thinking about idolizing people and forgetting that they're only human, and eventually seeing their flaws and feeling let down, although you're the one who put them on a pedestal in the first place. Thinking about viewing the work and the writer separately as a balancing act, being able to see a writer's flaws as a person and to love their stories without the one contradicting the other. And the flip side of that, thinking about the stress on people who are idolized.

As I walk back to my apartment, I pass a cafe where a writer I know (a DC, no resemblance to any IRL writers I'm aware of) is sitting at a table with two women young enough to be his daughters or granddaughters. I stop to talk, and I say to him something along the lines of, yeah, you're idolized and you're only human, but the way you use your young, impressionable groupies is seriously creepy. One of the women gets up and leaves. The other stays.

But when I'm back in my apartment (which no longer bears any resemblance to IRL) and making a fresh cup of tea, I turn around and find that the woman who'd stayed is now sitting in my kitchen. I offer her a cup, she says no. She tells me haltingly that she's thinking about getting a job to support herself - maybe working for a political campaign, maybe going back to college, getting a degree and working in publishing - instead of relying on her writing.

non lucid
*I am in a book store with my friend samuel. Then I notice allot of korean friends from the past. One of my friend brought up a memory how I got this bad ass lap dance from some kid. This memory actually doesn't exist but in the dream I agreed. Then I ended up at a strip club drunk as hell. This fine ass strip with a fat ass asked if I wanted a lap dance. She asked me if I was mexican and I said no my dad is white and my mother is black.

My friends and I were having one last get-together before I moved away from the area. They were my old friends from my last few years of high school, and we were all sitting at this big picnic table that was out on the very edge of a wooden pier in the water. To get to the table, you had to cross another huge loading dock that was covered in shipping containers and fish, and also a a swinging wooden bridge that connected the two and was very wobbly. My friends were asking why I had to leave so soon and suggested I stay a few more days, but I knew I had to leave. I was staying in a big RV in an empty grassy field next to the dock, so technically I could've stayed as long as I wanted, but I really wanted to leave. We ate food and talked about the past for a while, and then I headed back to my RV. As I was crossing the wooden bridge, I heard them talking to each other, saying things like "He didn't have to leave so soon!" and "Well, he's never coming back, he never wanted to live in the south anyway." I went into the RV to pack up and secure some things, and noticed someone had put bacon in my pantry instead of in the fridge/freezer. It was still cold so I put it back in the freezer, and then took something else out of the freezer to put in the pantry. Then I realized I'd forgotten something back at the picnic table, so I ran back over there. But when I crossed the wooden bridge, the table was no longer on a pier anymore, it was on a hardwood floor with shelves in surrounding it. This didn't seem strange to me, though. I walked up to my friends but they didn't say anything to me, and that's when I looked at my reflection in the glass covering over one of the shelves and realized I was invisible and nobody could see me. I thought, "If I can just scare them, they'll be able to see me!" so I grabbed a little figurine on a shelf, broke off its ears and turned its eyes black so it looked super creepy, and then made it move in front of one of my friends. She screamed when she saw it, and immediately afterwards was able to see me. Then she told the others I was there invisible, and they all in turn let me scare them so they could see me as well.

It was late at night, and Cory and I were out looking for a place that would rent us a steam vacuum. I guess there was a huge stain in our carpet and we couldn't wait until morning to clean it up. We came across a stip mall that had a Stanley Steemer store, but I said they wouldn't be open and we should just go elsewhere. Cory said we should go check anyway, and it turned out they were open, but when we went up to the service counter, he immediately asked to reserve a copy of the new RoboCop movie on DVD. I was totally shocked because we only had the money for the vacuum and he'd just wasted it to reserve a movie that didn't come out until next year, so we went home vacuum-less.

It was the first day of school, and I was sitting in art class. The teacher had assigned us a project involving mixed media, and I'd chosen construction paper, highlighters, and colored pencils. I was trying to make a portrait of Yinepu, and worked very hard on it because I wanted it to be perfect, but I couldn't get the pieces of construction paper I'd cut to stay properly and had to resort to using the pencils for his head, and I was disappointed. I wanted to go back and fix it, but the class was over. As I was walking through the halls, everyone kept looking at me and giggling, and I had no idea why. After a few minutes of enduring it, I grabbed one of the gigglers and asked her what was so funny about me that made everyone laugh, and she pointed to the area above my head. I reached up but there was nothing there, and I realized they were seeing something I couldn't see, so I ignored them. Then I realized I had a lot of books from all my different classes, but I hadn't rented a locker yet, so I went up to the office and asked to rent one. The lady said it would be $65 for the year but when I paid the money, she said lockers wouldn't be assigned until tomorrow. I said "But what am I supposed to do with all these books?! I can't carry them all everywhere!" but she wouldn't help. Then I went to gym class, but the teacher wasn't there yet. There was a magazine rack next to the bleachers that had a copy of a Superman magazine with a drawing of Wonder Woman dressed in a Superman outfit. I was the only one there, so I just went out onto the middle of the basketball court and started rolling around like a cat. Then another student came in, a man with glasses who looked too old to be in school, and he asked me what I was doing. I told him "The teacher said today was act like a cat day." to see how many people I could get to join me in my silliness, and he actually believed me and started crawling around the floor. Soon, more students came, and the whole class was on the court acting like cats.