non-lucid

[12:19:40] <TehDalek> So..In my first dream There was me, my bro kris, my mom, and my dad. We were delivering newspapers to random people, but we went to their doors instead of delivering to tubes at teh road
[12:19:56] <TehDalek> We deliver to 3-4 homes, then go inside one for some reason
[12:20:04] <Coolb3rt> whoop
[12:20:11] <TehDalek> We go to the table, start eating some food, waiting for something
[12:20:17] <Coolb3rt> rofl
[12:20:31] <TehDalek> Then the owner of the house comes down from upstairs, and starts yelling at us.
[12:20:43] <TehDalek> I pull a gun and bring him to the kitchen
[12:20:44] <Coolb3rt> alo hathor28
[12:20:47] <hathor28> i had a stressful dream lol
[12:20:49] <Coolb3rt> omg
[12:20:56] <Coolb3rt> that escalated quickly
[12:20:58] <Coolb3rt> xD
[12:20:59] <TehDalek> I tell him to wash a certain dish, that we need it
[12:21:14] <TehDalek> He does so, then I tell him he washed the wrong one, and that I needed a frying pan.
[12:21:37] <TehDalek> He washes the frying pan and I take it and whack him over the head with it, knocking him out

Alright, gonna try looking over my IRC chat logs and I am going to post dreams I actually remember or ones explained in good detail. Most of my DJ entries will probably look like the one above.

My dreams continue to be zombie/apocalypse/driving/shooting-related.

I've been up for over twelve hours, so I can't really recall all that well, but I remember this part clearly: (red parts are funny parts where I was aware it was a dream without actually being aware)

I was watching a film about this guy stuck at a supermarket. People were going crazy there, sorta zombie, but others were afraid of the zombies and REALLY going crazy. They had guns and they kept shooting everybody. Then, the guy ran a little and ended up on a calm part of the supermarket. Suddenly, everybody was normal and he realised he had been hallucinating the whole time.

My dad, who was watching the film with me, I guess (I just heard his voice and knew he was next to me), said "they're just pretending to be normal to trick him" and sure enough, as soon as the guy took a deep breath, everything was pure chaos again.

At this moment, I was there. I started running and I thought "well, this is a supermarket, I should take everything I'll need". I blinked and I already had a bag full of stuff. I remember thinking "I don't remember taking anything, but I'm sure I got important stuff" and I also had a car key with me.

I ran to the parking lot and I used the alarm thing to find which car I had gotten. It was a cool jeep. I got in and the security guard of the parking lot somehow knew that wasn't my car. I realised I wasn't sure how to drive that, but then I thought "duh, this is a dream, I can totally do this" and... nope, lucidity is a luxury I cannot afford.

The guard was in front of the car and I shrugged and started driving fast, asking myself why the hell the dude was worried about me stealing a car when there was zombie apocalypse going on. Seriously, security guard, priorities, okay?

I drove away, as fast as possible, but I heard the cops around and I knew the idiot had warned the police. Again, I asked myself why the police would be worried about a stolen car in the middle of a damn apocalypse, but I guess they take their job very seriously in my dream.

I realised it'd be too much hard work to drive away from the cops while also being careful with zombies, so I decided it was time to wake up. Why be lucid in a dream when you can just give up on the dream altogether, am I right?

(This is from September 17.)

I was attending some kind of UFO/conspiracy convention with Cory. There were lots of people dressed as aliens and stuff, and just general alien items everywhere. It was kind of embarrassing for me, because even though I wanted to be there, I didn't want him to think I was some kind of crazy conspiracy nut. So when we were sitting together at this long lunchroom-type table with a bunch of other people, I would whisper to the others around me so Cory couldn't hear what I was saying. I remember telling a guy next to me, who said he was an alien from Orion, that I wanted to get the Pleiades tattooed on my stomach. Then one of the convention leaders put out a stack of pamphlets about a Bigfoot-like pig creature, and we all went up and looked over the pamphlet. After a while, Gordon Ramsey appeared and had a small MasterChef-style competition right there at the convention. Cory and I joined. We had to do a tag team thing, and I decided to give Cory the moose meat because Gordon said it only had to be cooked a few seconds, so I assumed we could do that easily. Cory didn't hear him about the cooking time and left the meat in the oven during his turn. Then when my turn came around I raced to pull it out of the oven before it overcooked, I was so into it that I even grabbed the pan out of the oven with nothing but a towel and endured the heat, even though normally I can't get near an open oven because of heat intolerance. Unfortunately, it was too late, and the moose meat started dissolving before my eyes, and we lost because we had no dish since the meat completely evaporated into the air.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was playing some rts.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some shmup and was at final bosses, one of which was huge battleship that was also flying and had various attack patterns on different sides. Then there was some kind of core boss which turned into robotic girl apparently, attack patterns were tough but i apparently already knew good tactics and positioning vs them, also my ship was firing like Infernal Sabbath shot type from Hellsinker.

9/21/2013, 10:00-5:50

I went to sleep, and meditated before doing so for like 15 minutes.

Dream 1:

I remember a giant monster-like creature. I was in Star Wars: Battlefront 2. I was trying to kill the creature.

Wake-Up:

At like 4:50, I wake up for a piss and drink. As I fall back to sleep, I try to mantra, "I will realize I'm dreaming when I'm dreaming."

Lucid Dream:

After about 20 minutes of laying in bed, I suddenly drift into sleep, and awake lucid (WILD! ). I don't really feel like getting up (figures), so I just try to make a sound. The thing I end up doing is trying to hear someone behind me say "Boo!" I think about it, and I hear a very high-pitched "boo" sound! I get frightened that it actually worked, and end up closing my eyes and waking myself up. I'm happy about this, because it's the first time I've managed to do something in a WILD!



9/22/2013, 10:00-7:00

I read Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming and meditated before sleep, and remember one dream:

Dream 1:

I was with Leela (and maybe Fry) from Futurama. We were trying to get to a base. There were these challenges we had to do. There was a hole we had to climb down with a ladder, which landed into a "wave pool" contraption. We made it to some markers and the waves suddenly stopped, revealing ladders to inside the complex we were trying to get to. I then remember going into the complex and into a large, white atrium, where there were two directions at the end; right and left. Me and Fry went left. We found our way to the owner of the complex, who we talked to, a bit aggressively. He said something about going to check the other room. We went over to the other room, where Leela was on a bed, dying from old age. There must have been a time warp. This made the dream sad.

I may have just had my first lucid.

In the dream, I was in a first-person video game. The backstory: I am an old, undead man whose wife is afraid of him and I need to catch her. I could see myself (well, my undead, dream self) in a mirror in a bathroom. The bathroom looked like my grandmother's, but nothing else did. Eventually, something happened and I was in front of the mirror again, but I looked like an Asian man. I said, "Wait, we're Asian now?" and, "Wait, am I dreaming again?" I plugged my nose and could still breathe (though it felt strange), so I knew I was dreaming. I closed my eyes and said, "Clean slate," and the dream world became a blank, white space. I closed my eyes and said my crush's name and she appeared. I immediately started having sex with her, but it felt strange. I felt detached. It didn't feel like I was *ahem* thrusting. In fact, the dream switched to third-person and ended quickly. Unfortunately, I wasn't tired enough to re-enter the dream.

Now, I'm not entirely sure this was a true lucid. I didn't feel truly concious and felt detached, as I said before. Also, the sex part didn't go as I had planned it; I had planned to do a bit of romance and foreplay, as opposed to mindlessly diving into it.

I think I either a.) was dreaming about being lucid or b.) attained lucidity, then lost it. Either way, it's progress!

Dream recall from today's WBTB/nap.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was on my PC and there was something about picture of a golden dragon.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was at home and i thought about doing RC, so i looked on my hands and they were rather normal. Dream faded out seconds after.

Dream 3(fragments):

Some stuff was going on at home again, also something with BSODs.

Dream 1 :[COLOR="#800080"]I was in a dungeon and there was a person near me who put on a mummy costume.[/COLOR]

Dream 2 :[COLOR="#800080"]All I remember from this one is that It had my best friend in it and that it was night outside.We were supposed to go somewhere I don't remember but she refused to come and I told her to at least get on the YM.She nodded then she left,I entered on the computer, opened kvirc and started to tell everyone about my mummy dream :/ .[/COLOR]

1. Kazemaru and Hiroto (from Inazuma Eleven) lying on their backs fully clothed in a made-up bed. It was kind of like they were on stage, you could ‘feel’ the audience’s assumption, but when the characters open their mouth and say something deadpan, it turns into a comedy when you realize what’s going in, and everyone laughs.

2. I thiiink the setting was like in a cave on slab-like beds and maybe it was in a game. We were ‘watching’ some Saw-like horror movie. When I saw a character holding a device that cut out tongues (looked like a tongue cleaner), I had to bury my head under something. I remember at one point I ‘swam’ through the tunnels. I think I realized there was no water, and that’s when some seemed to appear to carry me. That’s when it seemed like in a game somehow.

3. Rane came in while I was on the computer, asking for help. I scrolled through an area in Firefox like ‘Group Your Tabs’, only I was scrolling through my tab pages like a picture slideshow. I was trying to find a ‘safe’ page to open and leave it on. Near the beginning, I passed by a page thumbnail showing a chest-up hentai girl with orange hair. I remember thinking that how would Rane know that was one of my pages, I could be anywhere on the net and it could be someone else’s content.

~Dipping a finger in creamer and tracing it around text on a yellow sticky note. Rane says “you’re weird”. I realize that I had used my dad’s French vanilla creamer instead of my own.

I walk into a new room and realize that mom is the one who needed the help. She wanted me to get her some corn, and ‘milk instead of water’ (or the other way around).

I just spent the last two day hiking at the Grand Canyon. The only dream I remember while sleeping at Phantom Ranch at the bottom of the Grand Canyon was a brief fragment involving a cat.

(I'm pretty sure the reason for this is because my friend and I saw a ringtail cat before going to bed.)

Actually I know that I had a couple more dreams right as I was waking up, but I no longer remember them because as soon as I woke up my mind was completely on the fact that I was in the Grand Canyon.

I was at a random house with Big Brother contestants(BBC). I was trying to squeeze a long air conditioner duct through the top of a window, in the bed room. I'm not too sure what we were using it for. There was BBC on the roof at one point.

We were all sleeping in a bed room. I was on the floor with others. I could see BBC dancing outside of the window. I decided to get involved and bob my head to the music. Tully (BBC) put her hand out for me to hold, so we could have a dance. I held onto her hand and that's it. I didn't know what to do.


Big Brother - Tully

We were all sleeping again. I must have been uncomfortable and decided to move my legs to the opposite side of a BBC, and must have woken them. Someone next to them said something about ''Was it juicy, Carrots?'', they said YES. I remember putting my feet in a pile of carrots.

I was at my old house in blacks land. I must have been sleeping with my dog and I decided to jump out and sleep on the other mattress which was on the floor. I left the room and heard that Dad was still on the PC. I went back into my room, and Dad came in and mentioned that he was playing shit because he has been angry. Mum came into my room not long after and told me to jump back into my proper bed.

I was now sitting at the dining table at stone hill house. I was trying to flatten a bag of brown sugar, so I could get all the air out of the bag. The air wouldn't leave the bag. I spilt some of the sugar on the table, and was trying to sweep it up back into the bag.
I saw Dad kneeling down in the kitchen with my Mum. Dad looked upset and I think Mum said to him that she was going to leave him. He mentioned about my brother moving back in. I didn't want Dad to lose everything he worked for and was considering giving him 60,000 to help out.
Dream ended.

I was at Burger King but it was a night club. I was with a Ashman, Sugar Sisters(SS) and Mikkayla.
I was waiting at the bar and the SS gave me a condom. They offered to put it on with their mouth. I don't remember putting it on, but I know that I was embarrassed for them to put it on me in case I got on an erection . I was standing at the peeing tray having a piss, and I noticed that the condom was on my penis. I saw others standing next to me having a piss also.
I saw the the SS come in with a guy, they must have offered to put the condom on him. They went into a cubical and I peaked through the open door and noticed the guy have sex (Doggy Style), with one of the SS (Katie). The other sister (Lucy) was a bit embarrassed because we had seen what was going on in the cubical.

Big Brother - Sugar Sisters - Katie & Lucy

Big Brother - Mikkayla


As I left the toilets, I noticed that the dance floor was empty and I wanted to get this party back up and running. I started jumping around and having a good time, to hopefully get others to join in. It worked, a lot of people gradually started coming onto the dance floor. I remember seeing Luke B.

I noticed a couple workers, cleaning and packing up the area which sold food.

We all had to leave due to the place shutting down for good. I was bummed out because it was close to home, and could get home easier. I heard that there was going to be a club taking over, except it would hold R&B nights. There was have a sign saying ''RB Nights''.

I was now with Ben F, and a few others. We were headed home, and I offered to walk home because it wasn't too far away. They insisted to take my home but I wouldn't let them.

Dream ended.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some shmup which was horizontal and had lots of organic enemies and hexagons, there was some scoring system with collecting energy orbs and an player weapon that was like aura from Hellsinker. I almost went lucid at one point.

Dream 2(fragments):

Some kind of management game followed by brief false awakening.

Dream 3:

I was with someone and we were traveling through forests, then we came into some city and there was some virtual tournament we entered or something. We got some points that i spent on various things, some weapons and upgrades, also there was weird card system where one could pay fee and see half of the cards in selection and then get random one of those which gets turned into proper item and one could buy it, i've got some special ability 'card' from it. Then i looked through gamemodes and noticed one that haven't gotten played much, who i was with explained that it was pretty unbalanced. I got into one game and it was class based combat on pretty big arena in fog between two teams, there were also alot of mechas.
Upon returning i've used the rest of points and we went infiltrating some very guarded place for some reason. It was building with alot of expensive looking stuff in it, like home of some millionaire. We were going through some rooms and there was one big open room with lots of seats and a bridge. The building was guarded by guards in black suits, who could be roughly split into three types: Rather short ones with melee weapons, average ones with some throwing weapons and fat ones that fired pool balls of all things from his hands and they were pretty quick and bouncy, but i could deflect them back, but they could too. We were mostly going stealth, though fighting at times, i've used claws and apparently some cannon while the person i was with used sniper rifle or some kind. Soon we were found and rather outnumbered, so i had to use some power that transported us between dimensions or something.
Now we were in small enclosed area with tons of garbage, we have lost our inventories, but i've still had power. I managed to turn some garbage into generic 'matter' that looked like multicolored spheres and then caused some reaction making it multiple at rapid speed, turning into rainbow cubes, each of them had 999999 'matter' and i just kept multiplying them until we had infinite 'matter'. Then i've managed to craft some weapons out of that, teleporter device for myself and ultimate sniper rifle for person that was with me. Then i've teleported us somewhere, which were ruins of some city. I told person that it's too dangerous and that he should get out of and that i can finish this mission alone now, but he decided to be with me. Some huge mechas attacked us and i started using teleport device to summon armies of various creatures that rushed the mechas.

A newly-made vampire is sitting in a car parked in a garage early in the morning, and is refusing to get out of the car because he's afraid of the patches of sunlight in the garage, he's sure he won't be able to avoid touching them. He's a full-grown man, blonde, bearded, looks Scandinavian in ancestry. The driver, his maker, a dark-haired woman, is calling him a big baby and telling him he'll just have to take his chances.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

IRL friend S. is working with a theater company connected to a shop, which stocks videos of their shows although those videos are out of the way and most customers don't realize the shop and the theater company are connected. They're talking about having to close down (not sure if this refers to the theater company or the shop or both).

A traveling woman reporter is commenting on some serial killer with an MO related to books, and observing that his trail coincidentally matches up with her travel patterns, she's joking about being suspected herself.

A man and his daughter in a forest, the man had some oath with a bird, representative of the forest, and now there's a deer leg wrapped in parcel paper lying on the ground by their camp, violating that oath. He didn't kill or butcher the deer, that was someone else, but the parcel paper was his, borrowed, and this is going to lead to misunderstanding and enmity between him and the bird. The man and his daughter are leaving, she's objecting because it's not their fault but he insists that they don't argue, just go.

I'm in my IRL mother's home, and ranting to her about that previous scene, which is now thought of as a Bible story. I'm opposed to its message - the final moral and point of the story is different, but this scene here, designating man as something separate from nature, is something I'm deeply frustrated by and I don't care that it's not the focus, I consider it irresponsible storytelling.

My mother's deeply religious Christian IRL neighbor is visiting her with his two sons (the neighbor does have two sons IRL, but these two DCs bear no resemblance to them). Although he's not offended, he says that I should focus on the main message of the story instead. I had no intention of starting a religious debate and am happy to let the subject drop. His youngest son, on the other hand, has gotten angry and wants to prove the point to me. I find fanaticism attractive on him. I'm aware he's both attracted to and deeply uncomfortable with me, thoughts about queer issues and gender issues on my mind. He comes to the window where I've been standing and lifts a rock outside and throws it into a tree. (With his mind, apparently - there was some awareness that this was dream logic, and that if we'd been outside he would have just used his hands.)

The conversation moves on to safer topics but I pull him aside, ask him what that was meant to prove. We go outside so he can finish making his point. He leads me over to his father's yard and shows me a hedge covered in red berries concealing a small tunnel leading underground. He seems afraid, but he says he's determined to make me a believer. He's so worked up about this I don't have the heart to tell him I'm already a believer, just not his variety of believer - this isn't the atheism-vs-theism debate he thinks it is - but that's all right. I'm still thinking about queer/gender issues when I get into the tunnel ahead of him.

In the tunnel, I'm a girl (who, in the dream, I thought of as resembling the oldest Narnia girl - she doesn't particularly, but this scene reminds me of 80's fantasy movies in general) crawling on my hands and knees, while the boy with me is sitting on the grass outside, worrying. The dream 'camera' briefly switches to 3rd person, allowing me to see the boy, myself, and just around a bend in the tunnel, a door, open just a crack, showing a dimly lit room with a woman dancing inside, the Queen, and it's the inhumanly beautiful Queen I want to get a glimpse of, although the boy is convinced this is a bad idea. Back to 1st person, I reach the door, peer through and see an image as if the dream 'camera' has zoomed in, focused on the Queen's lips painted so dark they're nearly black, her throat, her decolletage, and an awareness of ornaments of frozen drops of water or tears, telling myself I must remember every detail of this.

There's either a false awakening or a partial-awakening where I'm lying in bed 'recording' this dream, only to realize that I'm not physically writing anything, after which I actually did wake up and 'continue' writing right where I'd 'left off', the part where the boy threw the rock.