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June 28, 2010 - Part Two
4:30p-9:30p
I had to do a night shift tonight, so I settled in for my nap at just after 4:30 this afternoon. Actually, it was probably closer to 5. I had decided to do a WILD attempt, since I read and got some instructions on two very neat-sounding techniques. Essentially, if one didn't work, the other might.

As a side note: I forgot to deprive myself from caffeine, so unfortunately, I didn't do a proper CWILD. But, I did find out that Tylenol Ultra has caffeine in it, but it's 65mg to 500mg of acetomenophine (spelling?). I remember reading that anything less than 120mg of caffeine wasn't really enough, but I didn't want to take 1000mg of acetomenophine, so... that's why my CWILD failed.

Note: CWILD is a technique I learned from another site. It stands for Caffeine Withrdrawl Induced Lucid Dream. It can be combo'd with any induction technique, including DILDs and has no direct relation to Wake Induced Lucid Dreams (other than it can be combo'd).

Anyways, so I settled in and got to work on relaxing each area of my body. I don't really have a set relaxation technique (like the 61-point. That is a brutal tech). I just focus on each area, like feet, calves, thighs, etc and imagine that with each exhale, there's energy floating out of my focused area. It works like a charm, for me). I felt good and relaxed and decided to work first on the "anchoring" technique.

The gist of the technique is to find something to anchor your consciousness/awareness (passively) as you're falling asleep. Normally, I would use my clock, because it ticks really loudly, but today, I was using earplugs. So, I twisted my fingers in a weird position. It... kind of worked. Not really as well as the tick-tock works. I talked myself into sleep and did notice that I was losing focus on my hand and becoming a little too involved in the dreamlets. I noted I was experiencing some visual hallucinations in the form of yellow swirly light playing across my eyelids, but I didn't really pay too much attention to it. Some dreamlets rolled in... again, noted, but not focused. I drifted like this for a bit. This was all set up to be a good start to the WILD.

Unfortunately, my throat was a huge distraction for me. I had ate a grilled cheese sandwich before sleeping, cos I was super hungry. So this made a horrible mucous-y feeling in the back of my throat, which, once I started drifting into the HI, got a bit easier to ignore. But, it certainly delayed the whole process; triggering my body's constant need to swallow. I found breathing through my nose helped bypass that, for some reason.

The other problem was that I'm a bit sick, so my throat started getting massively tickly. To the point where my body decided to say, "Fuck you, I'm coughing," and it wasn't something I could control or supress. It did this twice And wrecked my efforts, twice.

Rebuilding the SP wasn't too difficult, but I will note a few interesting sensations.

1) At one point, the strongest point of the SP, my legs felt all hard and brittle. Like, if I moved them, they would break and crumble. I thought this was pretty neat. I decided to try wiggling my toes, and it took a lot of mental effort to do so.

2) It seemed like each time I "shifted" into a deeper phase of the SP, my heart would race. I had to do a little mental focusing to calm it back down. This was accompanied by my light hallucinations pitching me into complete blackness (each time I shifted). It actual resembled a light being shut off in the room (even though I wore a sleep mask).

3) I noticed some very subtle vibrations. Unfortunately, they were so subtle and weak, that it was difficult to use them of an indication of falling asleep.

So, once I hit that deep stage of leg-brittle, I decided this anchoring thing wasn't helping, nor did I seem to dive into a scene. I began to wonder if I had done the same thing in all my other WILDs... I'm already asleep, and trapped in a mental prison. I was chatting with someone about this a few days ago, who had the same problem as me. He'd get to this point and move, but he kept moving his real body. He said he had to learn how to separate his dream body.

So, I gave up on the anchoring, and I instead tried to activate my dream body's senses. This... pretty much didn't go very well at all. Not much to say other than I couldn't float out or move any dream part or anything. Ughhhhh.

Anyways, once I was wracked with my second bout of coughing, I decided maybe rolling over would help alleviate my throat. I rolled over, got myself all re-relaxed and passed out! I hadn't really intended to pass out. I'm not entirely sure what happened there, to be honest. I never consciously decided to give up and pass out. In fact, I was quite keen on being successful.

Anyways, so once again, I'm thwarted by the ever-elusive WILD.

Hospital Audit
I was in a doctor's office. They asked me to do an audit on the place, like ensuring the equipment was working and such. At this point, I was too tired to do the audit properly. I was half-assing it, walking around the building and not really paying too much attention. I decided to leave it for now and went for lunch.

[Lunch]
I was in a Safeway, which had a mall-like food court in it. But only the KFC was open. I didn't really want "Kentucky Fried Suicide," but seeing how my options were forcibly limited, I got some food.

[Back at the doctor's office]
I got lost in the building. Also, my clothes were now covered in some-foul smelling liquid and I had some dirty yellow stains on my clothes. This part is choppy, but I remember finding my way into a dark room, and watched a movie on the big TV in there.

I left the room when I remembered I was supposed to be auditing. I walked along hallways and wandered into a ward. It seemed to be a maternity ward. I felt like I was trespassing, and left before anyone saw me.

I continued to walk down the hallway and came upon these small cubby-like lockers. There were pink on one side and blue on the other. Then, some nurses appeared. They asked me why I'm covered in stained clothing. I don't remember what I told them.

I completed the audit and snuck out.

Game Show
I was competing against my mother in a game show. We each had to run these obstacle courses 5 times through. Although I didn't know which course would be the harder one, I was in the points lead, so I got to choose the course to run. I chose the one on the right. As our host was explaining the course, and what constituted as a win, I woke up.

I wanted to at least hear the rest of the instructions, or run through the course once. I started a DEILD and was near-successful at chaining back in, but I dragged myself out of it cos I really did have to get up and get ready for work

this wasn't a dream so much as me going through my memories.

I was laying in bed, sorting through my matrix of memories. I found myself in the area where I store the memories of my ipod's email.

there where 3 memories sorted in "actually happened" (for lack of a better way to describe it) that I know for a fact didn't actually happen, or are impossible.

One of them was a message when I opened the email, it popped up and said, "Email cannot be opened"

another one, when opened covered my ipod in blood splatter.

the third memory was a bit more disturbing to me, It appeared to be a message from my subconscious, I didn't even have to open it, the mail description said, "You are engrossed with yourself"

I'm not sure if it read engrossed, or obsessed though.

I don't know if anyone elses "dream world" is like this, but if I change something in one dream, it tends to stay the same in the dreams that follow. If it doesn't it's just in a different area of the world. I'm not saying my dreams are linear or tell a complete story, but things carry over.

Anyway, the point of this entry is to tell the current state of common locations and people in my dream world.

Average Dream Charactors: They don't dislike me, but they lie to me about random things. Like what their name is or
or what day it is.

Important Dream Charactors (IE: IRL friends and family): Nothing special. They act exactly how they act IRL.

Homeless Guy (possible DG): The only DC who can fly, tells the truth consistantly, and is aware that its a dream.

The City: A large, unnamed city where most of my LDs occur. My current goal is to destroy it. I have not yet figured out a good way to do this and I usually get sidetracked.

The Shivering Isles: A location in a DLC for The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion. A very fun place to go to in a LD. Look on wikipedia if you haven't played it.

Well that's about it. I will update if anything substantial changes.

Entry from 4/30:

No recall today. Though it had something to do with family guy.

EDIT:might try a WILD tonight. Wish me luck!

I dreamed I was asked to be the leading lady of a Canadian production of TLM (The Little Mermaid) since the director wanted someone to be perfect for the role and the casting director was in my neighborhood and heard me singing Ariel's song "Part of Your World", but I wasn't even in my part anymore but 2 streets over delivering catologoues-so he was like Prince Eric trying to find me in the town. But he did find me. But I was worried about a couple of things:
1) being kidnapped (they had hired body guards)
2) what would people think of a leading lady coming out of the blue from nowhere?

When I went to my first practice the people playing the mer-sisters, maids and princesses (all the same people) were jealous saying that since I didn't audition I shouldn't have gotten the part. So I showed them by singing "Part of Your World", then they realized that the casting person was correct.

I was so astonished about the person was going to play Prince Eric in my dream was a boy I grew up with that I fainted. Because when I fainted when there was commotion around me, some tried to kidnapped me and locked me in a closet where I came too (sp?) and people were looking for me but I heard the boy who I grew up with voice so I shouted "Limmer" his dog's name so he could find me.


So I could have some experience being in a rowboat with "Prince Eric" he and I went to a nearby pond and practice (well he practiced I should say since in that scene Ariel can't 'talk").

Somehow my body guards were knocked out and both he (boy I grew up with, playing Prince Eric) and I were kidnapped

I'm going to make a habit from now on to "question everything" and "feel everything" in my everyday life, see if that makes me have more lucid dreams. I figure, if I get in the habit of asking myself, "Is this real? How do I know?" it'll carry over into my dreams. DILD's here I come!

Major Dream Sign Discovered!

Something I really have to look out for in my dreams from now on is getting my phone wet. I know it's not in any dreams here, but the past few years it's cropped up excessively. I'll be swimming, or fall into a lake or something, then find to my horror that my mobile phone was in my pocket the whole time. When I check it, it works fine! This has actually happened about 12 times in dreams and never in real life. I guess it must be something I'm subconsciously paranoid about... So far, every time this has happened, I've merely gone, "Phew, thank god!", set my phone somewhere safe, then gone swimming again!
I'll have to look out for this in future.

Nothing solid the past two days. Too much stress in waking life, I guess. I remember snippets of things here and there - running with a bandana around my neck like a bandit, playing a game where the avatars only had normal heads, but the rest of them were skeletons...nonsensical mixes.

Woke up last night to an owl hooting around 3 am, figured I'd try to DIELD (or DILD? I get them mixed up to be honest)....but I couldn't focus on anything but the noise of the birds outside, and my knee decided to twitch constantly, also distracting me. Eventually gave up, put in ear plugs, and passed out.

Meh. Here's to having better dreams tonight, hopefully.

Success, after 3 days I remember something of a dream I hadn't realized just how much I wasn't remembering dreams lately...
Only a fragment, but here goes.

I'm playing a game, but I'm in it... I'm playing against 2 other people, one of them is B. The scenery is remarkably blue, but I don't remark on this. I make my way to a ramp and spot B. I take aim with my sniper, but noticing the blue laser pointer coming from it I point the gun down and change to my sniper, I don't want B to see the laser before his time comes. I don't get this, I did have my sniper, but I changed to another one. I take aim again, he's seen me and is lining me up. He's too late, I take the shot and head shot him. This is very odd as in any game I've ever played there's no way I could do this to him. He would see me first and I would just see him as I die. Later I wake up while feeling that my girlfriend is upset for some reason.

A fun dream, oddly blue, with a curious end... I have no idea why I dreamed about her being upset, she only featured in the last half a second of my dream, and that was her being unhappy. Also about about 8000 km away from her.

I remembered another really fun dream I had one time, amazing sights.

I'm walking between the flats at my house, it's night but seems unusually bright. I look up at the sky and my breath is taken away. Thousands of slowly spinning asteroids fill the sky. Sparkling in a myriad of colors. I explain to the people around me, a small group, 2-3, and they weren't there before, that the earth must be passing through the asteroid belt.

That view was absolutely amazing, one of the most truly amazing looking things I've ever seen in a dream. Very memorable. A bit scientifically inaccurate, but who cares. Science is for wl, not my dreams.

I've been trying some methods to gain lucidity, mainly WILD's, but also for DILD if I can. However this has been I think a bad idea, as waking up in the middle of the night when you have to be up for school at 6 am and you're in the middle of semester end test week... Well I've been fairly tired. I think maybe this has been causing me to fall asleep too easily too, and hence not being able to transition into lucidity. So I've just been interrupting my sleep for no reason effectively.
So I'm gonna start on my dream recall for a while instead of trying for lucidity atm, as that evidently needs work.

Nothing last night. I recall wondering why my boyfriend's goatee had split into three equal parts. I woke up over and over throughout the night - just couldn't get comfortable - and kept trying to WILD, but I feel like it just made it worse. Normally I can remember my dreams pretty well, but not from last night. I think I actually stressed myself out so much about remembering them that I forgot. Reading more about WILD to make sure I'm not doing something wrong today, and trying again tonight.

Most of my dreams last night were meh. There was one interesting one, where I started a lucid fight with a DV member, but if that person doesn't remember it, then I won't bother recording it.

At the very least, expect a BEoD tonight explaining the origins of that Shadow Monster I mentioned in my last entry.

Aids- I didn't take any melatonin or vitamin B6 last night to see if it would effect my dreams. I think it might have because I only remembered one dream fragment throughout the whole night. It wasn't very vivid either. I did drink a glass of apple juice last night, but I did not do anything. I have concluded that apple juice just has a placebo effect on dreams.

WILD- I tried WILDing again last night after about 4 hours of sleep. I cannot figure out how long to stay up for my WBTB. Every time, its either too long and I can't sleep, or too short and I fall asleep too quickly. I think I am going to stop attempting the WILD and just focus my efforts on MILD/DILD.

I really don't have much to say... I don't know what's going on. I don't know if I'm just not dreaming or if there's a problem with my recall, but I'm getting really frustrated. I don't think I'll be posting until this dry spell is over.

Sorry to anyone who reads this, but I'm gone until further notice.

-Ryan

Hello everybody!
This is my (new) online dream journal.


Bold letters are the lucid parts
Tilted letters are fragments
^ marks dreams in which I have developed in. Mostly learning new skills.
Feedback is welcome

Here is my previous DJ. I had so many entries so I'm not going to copy them over here.
http://www.dreamviews.com/community/...ht=banana+king

I might add something later in the comments.

Aids- I took 3mg of melatonin and 100mg of Vit. B6

WILD- I attempted to WILD late at night but was very tired. I didn't get out of bed, so I was very tired. I was going in and out of consciousness and eventually fell asleep. This might be because of the Melatonin, but I also took medicine for headache pain so this might have also cause me to be tired. I also attempted early in the morning after I woke up. It was probably about 8:00 A.M and I got up, read a few things on dreamviews.com, then tired to WILD. I was close while attempting WILD, as the first few onsets of sleep paralysis started kicking in (things such as very numb body, a very light feeling etc.)

Other notes: My dreams were very vivid, and followed a good story line. I cannot distinguish whether this is because of the Vitamin B6 or just that my recall is improving. I will try again tomorrow night, but without taking any aids and see.