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05-08-11 I am in holland again, I am outside and I am sleeping, though I am partially awake. There is chatter in the background and I believe they wouldn't actually wake me up, due to me having specified having an interest in dreams and sleep.

I keep waking up and looking out down towards the garage. At one point Ant comes over, I hear him before I see him and he intends on waking me up in a rather funny, but unpleasant matter. He intends to pour a glass of pickled cucumber over my face.

As he approaches I look up and laugh a bit, he doesn't seem to want to stop so I look at him, still smiling and start making some physically impossible move and tell him to lay off or “there will be violence”.

He lays off and we decide to head out. We head towards a supermarket at first and I am quickly left behind. I think about Ida who is standing a bit ahead and I think it is fair enough she doesn't want me anyways, I have little interest in her anyways. However it does spark a hint of emotional discomfort though no way near as much as usual.

As I am climbing over the wall I look down and I see a blue beetle that is best described as a mixture of a lady bug and a LEGO Duplo piece, with legs. I hear Ruth shouting to the others “He is coming I have just seen him jump”.

I notice how gracefully I jump both down the wall and past a couple of people over a pool of water. I notice my dream sign that I am capable of parcour. I become lucid.

I start looking around and fly a bit. I am in a city that seems like a crossover between Århus and Amsterdam. The rest of the crew is in a warehouse on the top floor and when I see them I start flying up towards them.

On the way up there I decide to try out some spider man stuff instead and I procede to crawling up the wall. Close up the wall is mostly redish with a lot of black to gray texture in it. The way I am stuck to the wall is remarkable in the way that I don't seem stuck as such, but it feels like my hands and feet are magnetically attached to the wall.

I start thinking if there is somethng I am supposed to do. I have decided to give the confidence issues a bit of a rest and decide to go playful. What is the TotM. Get a DC to sing and go to the chocolate factory, right.

I let go and drop to street level. I burst out in song in order to get the rest of the many DCs on the street to join me. I think I am going with “Dangerzone” off top gun, but no one seems to join in except a guy from behind me across the street and he just shouts Danger!

That won't hold up and I get a bit annoyed.

I ask to ladies walking by if they want to sing for me, but they refuse.

I think at this point the dream starts to fade and I command it to come back verbally. Things go blank and as the dream comes back it feels like I have one eye open in waking life and one in the dream world. I have felt like this before though and this time I decide to just ignore it.

I command the dream to stabilize and between that and ignoring the open eye syndrome (Coined!). I get the dream back on track. I run into a tanned guy wearing a yellow sports T-shirt with a sports bag over his shoulder.

I ask him to sing for me, but he only looks at me briefly before he turns sround, take on an arrogant attitude and tells me that he won't. Now I am getting angry so I grab hold of him place my hands on both sides of his face and looks him in the eyes. I briefly think of vampire compulsion, glamour or whatever you want to call it and start talking to him.

He stares blankly at me.

“God damn, this is my dream and I am sick and tired of getting refused”
He reples with an astounding empty stare.
“Now you will sing to me!”
He starts singing “Happy birthday to you...”
“Yeah yeah that will do” It is boring and not my birthday, but task accomplished.
“Why do you need me to sing for you?” he asks
“Don't worry about it, you have done your part thank you”
“You keep information tight, don't you”
“As I said, this is a dream, so once you have been integrated with my consciousness again you will understand”

Now to the chocolate factory. I immediately think about doors. I have to find a door and expect the chocolate factory to be on the other side. It is getting darker, but I find a door inside a building and try and will the chocolate factory on the other side.

When I open the door I expect a portal to be there, though I only find a white canvas. I try it out and try and walk through it. It is difficult in particular my head doesn't really seem to be willing to. After a couple of minutes of faffing around inside a door that isn't a door the dream starts fading.

I pull the move I tried out before and when I come back in the dream again things have changed slightly. The scenery is darker and I am not sure what is going on. I am pretty sure I am dreaming, but I am uncertain so I pull a hand RC. Sure enough.

I was trying to open a portal to the chocolate factory, right onwards. I spot something that looks like a hotel up the road. I walk to it and prepare for the door to be a portal.

Now unfortunately the front door is made of glass, so it will be difficult imagining anything but the hotel I can see through the glass door. So I decide to walk through it and find another door I can try with.

As I open it there is no portal behind it, but a small passage way and a mirror at the end.

A mirror, that is interesting. That could be used as a portal, but first I observe my self reflection flicker in the mirror. It isn't like anything is missing, but my reflection is there one moment and gone the next flicking on and off.

I decide to hop through it and having learned from the first experience I go through head first. I manage to get my entire body fully through and then I just hover there. I start falling a bit and I figure that will work, never done portals before I don't know what to expect.

I keep falling and eventually looking up I see a door, I reach up for the handle and try and pull myself through, however I wake up just as I get the door open.
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I am with some superhero crew. We are gathering some black obsidian bars, that are to be transformed into a single adamantium bar. I proclaim to someone that it is stupid to try and do that since adamantium can't be altered. I wonder if Stark can do it seeing as it is him collecting.

Notes: Third night in a row with a lucid. The technique of awakening from a night of dreaming, trying to recollect them and then go back to sleep seems to work wonders. Though I didn't have many dreams to recollect this morning the Obsidian/adamantium dream was fresher in my mind, but I have spent much time with my niece while writing down the dream, so memories have faded a bit.

Fragments
A van, some guys lasers and brown stuff. Like sand or something.

Kat Slater from EastEnders was arguing with Megan Fox on the Square.

My Mum made me some pie. It looked like cherry pie and it was kinda cartoony which led to this dream. She doesn't usually make pie.

I was in college and my friend was there and one of my least favourite friends was there.

Dream 1

I was somewhere in a forest or something and my mum was there and she had been kdnapped along with the families or friends and it was up to me and my squad to get them back (my squad had family members and friends in that group that they wanted to save) It kinda turned into Call Of Duty as I started shooting bad guys. I eventually found the people and then woke up.

Dream 2
A family was watching as a father and his sons entered the formers car.
I think they were high ranking people so the other family let them take there car. The Dad thought that the other family would damage his car when they got in but they were really careful. The odd thing was this family was white and I hadn't seen any of the before.

Side Notes

I was attempting Sleep Paralysis and I kind of got there. I felt my arms shutdown and my face went numb and it kinda felt weird as if someone's hand was on it. So I opened my eyes and nothing was there. I was ignoring the need to move and roll over into another position but I couldn't keep it up and moved.

I tried to remember my dream, but only got fragments. Worse is that I woke up with trouble breathing, so I wasn't able to write down the fragments. Now they're all gone.

It took me three nine-counts of deep breathing last night, hoping for a MILD, but I just felt out-of-breath. So I decided to visualize the beach scene, but it keeps jumping into aliens and stuff, and I fell asleep.

I did not the alarm that's supposed to wake me up for a MILD. I better change the sound of the alarm, or turn up the volume.

Dream Fragment

I was a TIE Pilot I was flying. I think I was in battle.

Dream

I was in the body of Hey Arnold it was like I Quantam Leaped. Something bad was going on and I waved to some guys whn I left a bank. Then a police officer said "Hey, kid!. Don't wave to them,there bad people!" He had some kind of speech impediment.

I then went home and it was different instead of a board house it was an average house. I went to the kitchen and talked to Grandpa (Arnold's Granpa not mine) He was still crazy and spoke in his usual voice.

Side Note

During the Hey Arnold dream I was partially lucid.

It took me like 4 hours to get to sleep.
Before I got to sleep I was in a park and my friend threw a ball at me and it woke me up.

Dream Re-call issues.
I start meditating last night to no avail. I woke up this morning with nothing but a blank memory where my dream should have been so I tried to lay as still as possible with my eyes closed and asked myself what I was dreaming about but nothing came to mind. If I'm correct it may have something to do with how long it takes me to fall asleep. I'm not under stress and I get around 8 hours of sleep every night so I don't understand why the dreams disappear upon opening my eyes. I used to be able to remember my dreams very well but the ability has gone away. I think the next step will be self-hypnosis and I will try my best to find some way to fall asleep quicker. I know it's unlikely but I'm hoping that the dreams may be so vivid that my brain is keeping them away from them. If anyone has a way to help me with self-hypnosis please feel free to PM me.

non-lucid - Notes - lucid

03-08-11 I am on a big ass boat. There is supposed to be some frisky entertainment going on, but it doesn't really cut it and people are getting impatient and annoyed.

That is until three ladies decide to take matters into their own hands. They decide to start stripping. I know two of them. Carmen Electra, Goldie Hawn and a small slim woman who I don't know and doesn't generate as much attention.

We are all (on the boat) sat in the main dining/entertainment room. And it is when the apparent lack of entertainment becomes clear that Goldie decides to go on stage wearing a white, fairly elegant dress, and start becoming naked.

After this the dream turn into a montage of stripping sessions, bar the third woman doesn't really ever show anything. Carmen Electra has huge nuts (no surprise really)´, but Goldie isn't far off and has a certain spark in her eyes.

At one point she is sat at the end of the stage crouching down with her breasts out looking out over the crowd fairly happy.

At the end of the dream all three of them are on stage wearing some stripping uniforms receiving an award from someone important that might have something to do with the ship, due to their commitment and brilliance in delivering the shows.

Carmen is the first to pop a balloon, due her wearing something on her nipples that make them look a foot long and pointy. At first I think it is just her nipples, but after seeing this I notice they all are wearing these.

My point of view shift so I am now staring at the nipples from the front and here they start looking really absurd and bizarre. They sort of still look like nipples, but it also seems like penises are coming out of these long pointy things.

I wake up.

(Thank you whoever arranged for that!)
…

I am in Hornslet and I am talking to Mikkel N. He is sat on the floor watching telly and tells me I am supposed to go and pick up Anders. I remember this and call Anders.

He answers his phone though he sounds horrible, really ill and this has some sort of implication on when and where I can actually pick him up, though he is still intending on coming, which I didn't expect when first I heard him.

I don't have a car so I am going to have to find alternative sources of transport. I hop in a trailer driven by a tractor. The driver appears and it tuns out to be none other than Darth Vader himself driving, though he has lost all of his terror since the last time I beat him.

Now he is just a grumpy old man (in full Vader suit however!!) driving a tractor. We head for the road and I try to keep my head down in order not to get noticed by Darth Tractor. I don't want to get thrown off. I briefly wonder if I am even sure to go in the right direction seeing as I am not in control of the vehicle, but I decide to faith it.

On the way out I am trying to fix up this fishing rod. I have already gotten the line through the rings the first time, now I just need them to go through a second (Huh!?). It is my old fishing rod, red and black.

After a while on the larger country side roads we get to some narrow town streets. Here it turns a bit hairy as Darth Tractor has to avoid certain obstacles, such as road side stairs sign and people. He keeps looking over his back as if he has seen me, though it could be because he wants to see if the trailer is acting OK.

At one point I know he notice me and he is obviously not happy to have me on board seeing as he puts his tractor into reverse and drive the trailer AND tractor through a concrete stairs standing on the side walk.

I go straight through and Darth Tractor ends up looking the fool as he is still sat in the rubble of the stairs (the frame still surrounding him, relatively untouched) unable to move.

I pick up a glass oven tray, think it still has food bits left in it, walk over to DT and smack him in the face with it. He is stunned for a while as I try to remove his mask to hit him a bit harder. I end up getting the back piece off, but can't remember if I manage to hit him before he sinks into the ground.

I follow him down and there is a hide out of sorts where the overall layout is designed as our old basement from 1993. There is more furniture though and it is designed as a place to live, not just a basement.

There are two guys there goofing around. One of them is Jack Black and he obviously feels like he isn't getting enough attention so he storms off and comes back wearing some trousers that allow him to hook himself on to rails of stairs and escalators (it is an escalator leading down to the hideout) and ride them down or up at incredible speeds.

We calm him down and tell him that he nearly got himself killed, due to wanting attention.
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I am supposed to go to Northern Denmark, and I don't particularly fancy driving with my parents so I decide to drive up there on the bike.

The problem is that I don't have a drivers license for bikes and I need that to drive the particular bike I have in mind.

I contemplate driving up there anyway under a veil (a magical cloaking veil, Dresden style, not a bride style veil), but don't know if the veil will be powerful enough or if I can even drive the bike, which looks fairly high tech, red and extremely fast.
…

I am visiting Marie (I think) and I am sleeping on a couch under the window. I keep drifting back and forth between the bed and packing my stuff to leave. In other words probably 3-4 FAs.

In one of these I am walking down some stairs listening to a Danish rap band. They are rapping about Gyro Gearloose as a metaphor for students not really doing anything productive in society as well as the benefits for western culture to finally have hooked up with China.

I sort of like the band, though I am personally a bit offended about the Gearloose part, but decide to investigate. I find out that the band is called “Anus” and that a CD is currently playing. The CD and cover is completely black.

I wonder to myself why a band that actually has some decent lyrics decide to call themselves “Anus”, but then again I don't understand modern Rap culture that well.

Another FA. I wake up and see two identical copies of my wallet lying about. I need both of them as they contain cards I need, both in general and the upcoming travel. I try and consolidate the contents into one.

Another FA. I wake up and start looking around. The bed is in the wrong place and the windows are on the wrong side compared to where I was sleeping before. I am dreaming. My sister is standing by one of the windows and I sort of do the commentary to her.

I realise I am naked and I look at her and point my hands towards waist and proclaim “clothes”. I don't particularly feel like something appear, but I decide not to look and just believe enough in the pair of shorts I have wished for.

I tell my sister “Now let me show you something cool!” and jump backwards towards the roof window. I close my eyes as I am about to fly through and I bump my head against the window. “Now that is uncool” I laugh and try again this time keeping my eyes open and fly through. My sister seems to be smiling all the time without actually saying anything.

At the apex of my flight I extend my arms and envision a forest behind me. Then I turn around and to my surprise it is actually there, though not as “piny” as I had imagined.

I start falling, the sensation starts scaring me a bit as I keep falling, but I remind myself it is a dream and I can't get hurt. At some point I shout “stop!” and I stop falling.

The dream is dark and the only light I really have is the moon hovering just over the horizon straight ahead. I start flying over the forest and ask for help with dealing with my confidence issues (not in dreams, but waking life). Nothing particular happens, except a road appears a bit ahead of me.

I start becoming annoyed about the lack of visual details and light. I shout out “Increase brightness” nothing really happens except some bright spots appear further up the road on both sides.

I land by the road and is a bit annoyed of the lack of people. A car drives past me and I decide to stop the next car that is coming towards me so I walk out onto the road and look to my left.

Soon enough a car appears, and I hold out my left hand in a stop gesture and verbalise the command as well. I decide to try out something fun I visualised prior to going to bed. I push down the hood telekinetic and the car starts flipping over, though compared to my visualisation it is trying to get around me and I don't have it in a firm grip.

The car turns over and as I try to grip it towards me I can't really. However in the back ground I see shadows of motorcycles starting to fly somewhat towards me somewhat out over a forest.

The car, which is yellow does hover over the ground a bit, but not enough to say I had control over it.

A bit later a woman appears walking from the car wreck. I start making my way to her and ask her name. She is wearing a turquoise top and she is smiling. She tells her name is Anne and she doesn't seem to concerned about me wrecking her car.

I feel the pulling sensation of my physical self (My dream body being pulled by the position I am lying in physically, until they match and the dream has disappeared) and I awake.

Notes: I didn't spend much time stabilising the dream or engaging my senses. I was always afraid of my ability to sustain the dream as well as slightly sceptical of my abilities of within dream control. The dream mimics my life in a sense that I am in a hurry all the time because I perceive a limit of time much closer than it necessarily is, which frightens me and makes me impatient. Second attempt at dealing with confidence issues went really bad, next time spend time really stabilising the dream before making any such attempts.

I woke up and tried to remember a dream I couldn't so I sliped back into adream which is what I usually do. Maybe I woke up during a REM period I don't know.

Dream

I was a Green Lantern in a Petting Zoo fighting someone it looked a bit like a desert (like Geonosis in Star Wars). I vaguely remember Wonder Woman being there. I was aware I was dreaming the whole time I don't know if that means I was Lucid.



Dream Fragment

I saw my friend walking past my window and heard my doorbell, when I went to answer the door two of my friends were there. I need to up my awareness.

relax dude

everybody has crazy errotic dreams

you should see mine

it doesn`t mean that you want to f*ck your mom, that`s a wierd guys theory who was a crack addict, yep Freud was a cocaine addict and suffered from OCD and most of the psychology today is based on his imbecilities

History House: Freud and Cocaine -- The Deal

it suggests you want a sexual partner, that can give you emotional comfort just like your mother, a feminine woman, a nurturing women

most men prefer that, I do too

I just go nuts for a cute woman, that can comfort me emotionally and I can just f*ck the sh*t out of her

if you want to read about crazy wierd sexual dreams, that involve black octopusses with penises on their tentacles, S&M, dogs, a postman and Jesus Christ all in the same environment at the same time, then I suggest you this book, which is filled, with womens sexual fantasies

your craziest Lucid Dream is chicken bollocks compared to this stuff

wiki article:
My Secret Garden - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

the book itself
Nancy Friday - My Secret Garden (Women'S Sexual Fantasies)

ummmm

are you 18 by the way?

if not, well don`t read the book pls

sleeping to much can get you tired, that`s a paradox but that`s reality

on the other hand, our subconcsious tends to help, protect or sabotage our life

it might be that you don`t really like the thing you are studying, it doesn`t get you excited and you don`t have any general idea what you are going to do after you finish, so your deeper mind tries to protect you and that`s the only thing it can do at this time, pull you back from the world

people who hate their jobs become depressed, that`s a protection mechanism telling them "this sh*t just isn`t for you, I make you feel miserable, so you will go and find something else"

but some people are too smart for their own good

nope, not trolling, talking from experience

I had a bunch of jobs, I hated all of them, I just couldn`t wake up in the morning and make myself go there, slept over 10 hours still was tired

I hated university too and slept a lot, but in my case it envolved partying and drinking almost daily


so there is no undermotivated person, it`s more like you don`t really give a rats ass about your goal, regardless of what you tell to others or yourself about it


the main message is at 5:24 minutes ... feel free to watch the rest if you like it




ps: if you ever wondered what creepy means, that`s that reasercher guy in the video

because people think like this: "Now I am awake ... Now I am at sleep"

better question "Am I???"

they forget that most of the reality they experience on a daily basis is not solid, it`s littered with their expectations and biases

example: If you hate money, and there`s a 100$ bill in front of you, whether you believe me or not, you will not see it or if you see it, you`ll not pick it up out of pride or some other masked negative emotion ... some researcher guys did an experiment on this, while combining this question with a positive/negative perspective of the people


on the other hand, I have this theory that Right-brained people are far more likely to become Lucid Dreamers, then Left-brained people

I mean by that, they focus more on that hemisphere

left-brained: engineer, doctor, anything tehnical, business guy, stock broker

right-brained: actor, musician, graphic designer/painter, somebody who is extremely good at people and allways was and never learned that from anywhere

so just check out the link here:
http://controlmind.info/human-brain/...rain-functions

and notice stuff on the list like:
• Prefer visual instructions with examples
• Follow Eastern thought
• Like to read fantasy and mystery stories
• Like to write fiction
• Fun to dream about things that will probably never happen
• Enjoy making up own drawings and images
• Enjoy creative storytelling
• Prefer to learn through free exploration
• Good at recalling spatial imagery
• Solve problems intuitively
• Dreamer
• philosophical


so if you are a tehnical guy, you should be focusing more on right brain activity and that might get you better results

so try this test to see it
http://www.wherecreativitygoestoscho...ht/rb_test.htm


I am even, that means I use both, most of you are probably left-brained and exercised the other hemisphere wit this stuff, because a right-brain individual would abhor an only text based environments

warning this topic can and will be considered offensive by some of you

so is it possible that the religious visionary guys, from shamans to prophets were actually natural lucid dreamers?

religious texts are full with archetypal stuff and you meet most of those while you are dreaming

Dream interpretation - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

watch and listen to this guy, talking about his laptop telling him it`s God and turning into a heart burning with a purple flame

talking ,burning bushes, anyone?





a rephrase:
are we f*cking m0r0ns for killing each other over hallucinations, that can be induced into every human being with the right tehnique?


just a thought, please don`t shoot me, I am a monkey in the forrest, who recently learned how to type at computers, you don`t shoot monkeys, that`s unhuman, right?!

Still working on lucid dreaming. Seems I can't focus enough to do WILD each night.

Been feverish and sick the past few days. I'm sure you know how dreams are when you're sick. Mine are full of deja vu.

I'm in a store in the mall. This store is very simple, white walls, shelves, nothing decorative about it. The products they seem to be selling are all fancy shampoos, conditioners, lotions, colognes. I'm looking at the colognes, wondering what to get T. I pick one out, but I keep looking. I see someone I knew from high school, Z, he acts reluctant towards me, like he's not that happy to see me. I just wave, and continue to look. I realize I'm running out of time and I cannot decide what to buy. I put my items back and decide to leave. I ask Z if he remembers where I parked, he just looks at me. I go outside and notice I'm in an unfamiliar place. I see my car suddenly, a few rows away. I'm crawling on the ground for some reason, I thought it would be faster. I get to my car and try to figure out which way I'm supposed to go. I started driving, and thought I might be driving on the wrong side of the road, but I didn't care. I wake up sometime after.

When I'm sick, my dreams are more emotional.

Lost more than 24 hours of sleep yesterday. I decided not to try LD last night to make way for enough sleep.

Unfortunately, my sister had to wake me up. I'm grateful that I have a stress-free job and boss, but it was easily replaced by family. Sheesh.

I was fooling around on the asfalt with two guys from my elementary school class, by Strandgårdshøj in Ebeltoft. It was dripping with rain and very foggy. I felt the asfalt. It was cracked like a very strong earthquake had struck. And it was warm. One of the guys - Lasse - turned to me and said;
- Mikkel, it's 4:00 AM. Why are you not in your right place?
- Because the asfalt feels nice.
His body language expressed that he was tired of me.


I got woken up at 6AM to go to work, and felt surprisingly fresh, even though I only got 4 hours of sleep that night. I'm glad the REM state introduced itself fast so I could get some rest