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I believe I remembered the dream that I forgot earlier tonight, and I remembered the Significant Insight that I had reached before. This dream is actually about dreaming even though it may not appear to be!

In my dream I was an actress in theatre, just starting out. And an experienced actor had taken my under his wing and was showing me the ropes. During a break in rehearsal I had been chatting with another less experienced actor. My self-appointed mentor saw this, and afterward took me aside and reprimanded me, saying "Why are you wasting your time with that nobody? To succeed in this trade, It matters who your connections are. It matters who you are seen with, and he is not someone you want to be seen with." I rebutted him with "I am not in this for the usual reasons: I am not in it for the money nor for the fame, and I choose who I hang with."

While analyzing this dream after it happened it occurred to me that this dream was about why I am putting this effort into dreaming now, why I want to lucid dream, why I am here at DV:

I am not doing it for the usual reasons. Or maybe these are the usual reasons for some people, who knows. An important motivator for me is to regain my self-dignity and self-respect, to regain control of my dreams so that I do not do what my subconscious tells me to do. I get to choose who I hang with. For me the an important motivator for lucid dreaming this time around is moral reasons: I want to do what I perceive as being right (which of course does not mean I won't do something like shoot someone in a lucid dream because it feels right to do so , I need to do empowers me, and I need to not let those more experienced than me dictate what is right for me. This is what attracts me to DV is because it seems to be a place where people generally support this kind of attitude, and do not try to impose their way on others.

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Friday March 1 2013 I took NyQuil for my cold, and went to bed early. Around 8:30pm I woke up. I remember having some profound insight into my dream recall or something like that. I remember feeling very self-satisfied with my progress and how it was not just a fragment this time. After all this patting myself on the back, I almost fell back asleep without writing anything in my dream journal. I startled myself back awake in order to write it down, and it was all gone, except for this.

I was with my mom. She tells me something about some guy building giant generators and doing things with the earth's gravity that periodically have fluctuations that may reverse gravity or make things fall sideways or in any unusual direction.
So I was just sitting at the breakfast bar and gravity inverts as you would expect after what I was told. I fell onto the ceiling and then back onto the floor.
I suddenly realized how outlandish this was that gravity was altered. BAM get lucid! This is a dream. For some reason I decide to do some flying, but I stink at flying.
I step outside onto the front porch with the expectation that I will rocket into the air, but nothing happens.
Then my mom says that she is going to the gym and starts putting duffel bags into her car. I lose lucidity and decide to go with her. I start packing too, then I wake up.

In my dream, there’s this little bitty town called Lacey Spring Alabama. I was walking down highway 231 with a sawed-off 12-guage shotgun. The town was destroyed. It was just like Fallout 3. It was so similar. It was wasteland. I was headed south from Huntsville Alabama which was only 10 kilometers north. There was a storage warehouse, to my right as I was walking off a hill. I walked about 4 kilometers on this highway to where the road starts to go up a mountain. At the base of this mountain, there was a building to my left. I walked to it to check it out. About 6 people with guns rose to se if I was a zombie. They walked out. I wasn’t a zombie luckily or they would have shot. But they were friendlies. There was a beige Chevrolet that pulled up. There were more people. Then all of a sudden, there were a bunch of zombies that came out from behind the building and attacked. Everybody was shooting. I got in the truck with other people and drove all the way to a place called Redstone arsenal. It was a military installation. There was a space shuttle there. We all got in it and got off the planet and went to Mars. We landed. This concludes my dream.

There was an asylum in my dream. Mom was in there, and had no clue that it was an asylum with zombies in it. I knew i had to go in there and get her out. I did so and
when i went in there, it was old and beat down with a bunch of vines everywhere. I got her and got out. surprisingly, there wasn't hardly any zombies at all. I just heard them in the distance.

Saturday, 2nd of March.

Once again I have failed to recall any dreams.. I am going to keep at this though, I don't know what's preventing me from remembering my dreams but I will find out and hopefully brake through it! Also looking for a seed to help me out (based on the Schema theory.)

-I awoke at 3 AM for a shor period of time, I considerd doing a WILD But I don't know what happend, I think I fell asleep.

-Feeling enthusiastic as I wake, trying to keep the frustration of not remembering my dreams at bay.

Yay, recall is back for now.

Dream 1(Fragment):

I recall something about some sort of game and that i had some problems progressing through some levels. There was base of some sort and also some sand place.

Dream 2(Fragment):

I was playing some Terraria mod that according to comments was made to make game harder. Also it was glitched so post endgame stuff was spawning not only right off the bat, but the hardest biome was apparently right on the starting area.
It looked light-brown and there were huge chunks of ground floating around and attacking player character, they were instakill. Soon i managed to generate world where it was simple enough to escape that biome, but the area next to it was corruption, and it had floating bone constructions/traps that were moving and damaging on touch, also there were huge worms(Bigger than Eater of Worlds!) and bone dragons were spawning there as well.

Dream 3:

I was in some weird house and i was watching some Lets Plays, and there was one of apparently Dota 2(Haven't seen gameplay of it yet IWL, i think it appeared because my friend LV was mentioning it recently), it apparently had absolutely legit modding/cheat engine for some reason that worked on the principle of combinations of secret words, lets player was seeking combinations to get some secret characters.
Suddenly i was now checking that modding/cheat engine by myself. I use option to change sounds but it spits out warning that this feature is unlikely to be usable due to it's complexity, i click to use it anyways and it shows the indescribably huge block of options that can be zoomed in and out, I attempt to figure it out but unsuccessful at it. I close it and just play around with other options.
I was also watching some sort of really old cartoon, but can't recall much of that.
Later on i got annoyed by dad and room became pretty dirty, i left the house. Dream skips.
I was different person now and i was in some sort of group of bandits, we were exploding stuff and searching for something, can't recall much until we were in some abandoned house discussing something about last raid. Shortly some detectives found us and most of bandits were caught, but i managed to escape.

Sleep: 12:00AM
wake: 3:00 AM
Sleep: 6:30 AM
wake: 12:00PM

1. It was a dream about a game similar to call of duty except it involved more tactics. It was a 1 on 1 game and each person set up a team of about 5-6 people who had different guns around a map. There was a moderator who started the game after both people were done, and as well we both had a character in the game, usually behind the rest so our own character was our last resort. The person I was versing and I, we both kept going even and all of our other guys killed each other off so at the end of the game it was always his character verse my character. I think I remember winning.

2. The first part of this dream I remember is Me Adel and Trey going somewhere to eat. Me and Adel used to work at this restaurant called On the Border. He kept suggesting we go to Mcdonalds and I was like what about On the Border and he kept talking about how On the Border was disgusting and I kept saying how can it possibly be more disgusting than Mcdonalds? When we went in of course the furniture and architecture was all messed up and my old coworker Jen was hosting. We always used to do this thing where we would both say Hi back and forth to each other over and over and thats what she did when I walked in the door haha. We sat down at the bar and for some reason I kept saying racist things and I kept saying the word nigger. Then I noticed a black person sitting near me and I stopped talking about it. I looked at the menu and I couldn't recognize anything on there. There was one type of food called "archs" lol. Our friend Maia met us at the bar and she sat away and her and Adel were talking but she kept looking at me. Then I realized she told me to interview at Genghis grill at 4 the next day and I looked at my watch and it was 3:22 and I felt dissapointed because I had almost let her down.

Filled every nook and cranny of my dream journal again so I'm back to using this until I get a new one.

I'm still struggling to recall this one so I'm going to move backwards. Last thing I remember is my family was hosting some sort of reunion on the same day as halloween and I was planning on skipping it because I had already made plans with my friend to dress as a tranny. This is a slight detail change from earlier because original I was going to dress in drag because we got kicked out of a house and she wanted to go to a lesbian bar and I wanted to hang out with her. I don't recall all the details of us getting kicked out of the house but I do recall that we were going to go on a massive adventure. She asked me to go with her and I thought "fuck that" but then I asked if anyone else was going and she said no, so I said I would be her company. There are vague memories of preparing for this trip and planning to meet up, it's a little sketchy but I think we were going to meet up at some antique store but she never showed or something and before you know it I'm back at the house we were at and she says she changed her mind about the adventure. So I'm fucking pissed. I didn't hit her exactly, but I was infuriated and displaying it. That's all I really got.

I tried something new last night when as I fell asleep I constantly repeated: "I will remember every detail of my dreams!" while it did not give me total recollection, I do believe it helped. I also started using my dsi as a dream journal, on an app called flipnote studios where you can write. The benefit of this is that I don't need to turn on a light. I remember at least two non-lucid dreams but with much more detail than usual.

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I was in a movie theatre with my cousin/best friend, Davis. I was showing off a curved knife* (that I have IWL) to nearby moviegoers who were surprisingly impressed for some reason. Instead of a movie, random trailers for low budget indie films were being projected. One of these was for a movie called "Warrior" about ninja and samouri working together, and it actually looked pretty cool. This inspired me to use the knife to cut a shuriken out of my coke can. Once I had it I was throwing it at the screen, but it would come back like a boomerang and stick into the (empty) chair next to me every time. Soon an announcer said, "Intermission time! Feel free to utilize the 'napping holes' provided for your convenience." (What.. 0-0)

At this time my cousin and I went for snacks I guess, because We were in a room with a vending machine. it was like those coke machines with the touch screen, but instead it had the choices red, green, and blue. I think it dispensed paint, because the walls were painted with random streaks of paint, and there were a few paintbrushes lying around. Davis pushed one of the buttons and suddenly there was a very large man who was getting angry at us. he was yelling and pointed at the machine. Davis walked out the door and I said, "Fine! I'll deal with this."

The man tried to punch me out with his large round fists, but I kept ducking under his blows. eventually I actually started laughing and (even though he was the one attacking me) told him, "Look, I am not bullying you. if you stop, I will leave you alone." He stopped, and I unselected the color that Davis had pushed and apologized. (at least I think I apologized) This made him happy and the dream faded.

*note: I had been looking at that knife before I went to bed. I actually wondered if I would dream about it

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I was in my room playing my Xbox360 with a Wii remote. Aparrently this was a bad thing to do because when my mom opened my door, I threw it on the floor and grabbed my Xbox controller. Mom came in and sat on my bed and asked me some stuff about video games (very unlike her) and then watched with interest as I played Halo 4. (Again, something she would never do) I also remember something about downloading a "cute" version of a cheap indie game I have.

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Fragment or maybe part of first dream: I am sitting on a fence, looking at a generic back yard. I have my dsi and I am drawing yard decorations on the dsi that are becoming real in the yard.

I was suppose to drop off my brother at school. We ended up at McDonald getting breakfast. We were at the front, my brother asked for a drink, and the cashier started to fill up a big cup of with coke. She then stopped and said he could only get grape soda or something else I forgot, because he's a kid. My brother picked the grape soda, and the cashier pushed the coke to me. I looked up at the menu and there were all kinds of flavored pancakes. It was 7:38 and I urged my brother to hurry up with his choice since we're running late. I really wanted the berry ones. I think we didn't order, we just ran out the store in a hurry. We had only a few minutes till 8. I completely believed that we would make it since the school's like a block behind. My car was missing, and p.w. told me to use her car. I got in the driver's seat, backed out but got back out to ask her to drive instead. I didn't want to crash her car, or get fined for this. She drove, and drove right passed the school. I told her it's ok, and to just stop right now.

Sleep – 11:00pm
Wake ups – N/A
Finial Wake up – 7:15am
WBTB – N/A

I woke up late so I didn’t get chance to write the dream down I remembered. I forgot it before I got the chance to do so. I do remember it being quite a weird and freaky dream though.

I had 2 dreams today i can't recall all of them but i remember parts of it so here i go

My friend had a birthday or something special i don't know but he had this new gadget that looked awesome. The gadged was something like in Men in Black the thingie that erased their memories my friend had a similar one only that it did not erase memories it only showed videos when you point it to the ground or air. As we are walking we enter a mall and jump this tiny fence. There were people waiting and the fence they did not look happy. Once we jumped the fence they started fallowing us speaking in a foreign language. I was getting creeped out so i turn my back and say "fuck off douchefags" as soon as i said that my friends(now they were 2) started running and left me there with these 3 muggers. As soon as i reach out to throw a punch someone punches me in the face (it did not hurt at all i did not even feel anything). At this point i wake up and think how can i miss the chance to become lucid again. So i go to sleep again trying WILD.

In the next dream i remember we were with the same 2 friends and a girl i dont know we were in the metro making a joint like litarary inside the metro while it was going (the marijuana was weird it had this beige color) i start to notice the weirdness of the dream so i look my self in the reflection of the windows and i seem much younger i actually did not find it weird. So we exit the metro and start walking out. As we walk out we enter a school of some sort. I was sure i was here before but did not make any effort to remember. As we walk out of the school the girl says she needs to go to the bathroom so she asks the secratary if she can use it(at this point we are the entrance of the school). She let's her go and we wait for her on the stairs. As we are waiting this two women were at the stairs waiting for something too they were dressed in nurse uniform. So i turn to them and say "You used to work at my school as a nurse" and they both say "We sure did" (i actually remember one of them from my childhood she used to work as a nurse in my 1st school and was really cool and all)

Hope i can become lucid this month i lack motivation even though i watch Waking life (2001) every week at least one day Inception (2010) motivates me too!

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it was snowing

it w as the 4th of july. i was with izayah and we went to some parties. the cops showed up orginally and i somehow talked my way out of getting arrested.

later we went back to party and cops said they were coming on megaphone.we got the hell outa there, and down the streetwe saw mark and hella people.i was suprised to see him i said hello

later i was in a carwith him and he asked me to be his sponsor, i was like uhh yeaa... then we went into my house and matt j was alreaday thee. imember mark and the other person were a lott taller than him and i went a talked to bailey as they got accuainted.

then

i drempt i was watching the best butt saddest movie in the world

i was in the pits with thes huge giant rihnosoraus hippo patomaus thigngs and they were all playfull. trying to nibb at me i would grab on to them and hold their nose and stuff. they couldturn into birds and stuff it was pretty cool,

then somehow i gotno a river boat and i remmeber seeing the same profound image of like rochele pointing saying "you need to get out"

and thy showed a white hat like 20 times and we camem to this small bridge crossing and one guy was like iii made it i made it!!! and then the bridge knocked his head off

I made breakfast for two of my brothers. Just some bacon and pan fried toast. Forgot what we were talking about, but one of them started cleaning up.