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18th of January, 2012

Quite fragmentary last night. I attempted a couple of WILDs early in the morning and then later on just before I woke up but kept losing consciousness. Anywho...

I was at a university where a whole bunch of interactive science experiments had been set up in a giant entry way. One of them that a guy had was three spinning tops connected to helium balloons (1, 2 and 3 balloons respectively). As long as the tops were spinning, the force kept them attached to the ground. I stopped the top with one balloon in an attempt to see how strongly the balloon pulled it upwards and it slowly started floating toward the roof. I grabbed it and restarted its spinning which made it stay on the bench it was on. Ooooh, dream physics!
After that one, I stopped the top with three balloons and let it go briefly and it shot straight up into the air and onto the roof, which was about 30m high. Oops.

Later on I was writing a thesis with Jono and Ben about how everything is related and made up of the same elements. Our inspiration came from a 2D game that we suddenly found ourselves in where we turned from blobs into fish into weird spiky things and kept changing, floating through blackness with no task. It was incredibly surreal.

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In an obstacle course/race of some description. We had to jump over water and crawl under low trees. I ended up winning even though I felt I shouldn’t have. Mr. Cruwys wrote me a letter of recommendation.

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Nooks and I moved house again* and I moved back in with Colin. It was dark and dank and horrible. Eventually the guys came home and started making a casserole that they’d had “before that race the other day.” I said that I “won that like a boss” in reference to the earlier dream.


*possible dream sign here – have to keep an eye on that.

I'm at my house, when Laura's mum comes in with laura. I ask what she's doing, and they say they're cancelling her birthday party. "Why?!" I ask. "It's all messed up, everyone wants to go, and people hate each other and everything, it's going to be a disaster." Laura says. I really want to go though, so I try to convince her that she should still have it. "That's crazy!" I say "You can still have it on..."
Laura shakes her head, and points to all the presents on the table. "I'm going to have to give them back." I no longer see the point in protesting, so I tell her she can open mine. She smiles, and takes a sqaure parcel wrapped in christmas paper. (Not in birthday wrapping) For some reason I can't remember what it is, so I'm anxious as she begins to unwrap it. She pulls out a book with a polar bear on it that says "Ages five and below" I want to crawl under a rock...
Laura's mum was watching as well.. and she gives me a dirty look. Laura pretends to like it though, and I decide to change the topic before anything worse can happen. "Can we at least just hang out? Rather than have a birthday party?" She seems to think this is a better idea and nods in agreement. Suddenly, we're in a car, driving towards an unknown destination. We're in a dark street in the night time, with no one else around and only the occasional dull street light attempting to illuminate the darkness. Laura, is driving, and reading a text at the same time, so I lean over concerned, because I know my best friend is extremely cautious and safe, and would only be reading a text while driving if it was of the upmost importance. Nope, just her boyfriend. She gets another text however, and it says "I know where you are, I'm watching you, you're next." We both freak out, looking around for someone "watching us." I want to get away from here as fast as possible, so when laura begins to slow for a red light I shout "Go through, go through!!!" She does what I say, and I look around for cops, none. "I was only joking" I lie, so laura doesn't call me a whimp. She gives me a look, and rolls her eyes. Just like she does so much in real life..
Because food is generally our number one priority, we both decide to go eat somewhere. We find a block of multiple fast food restraunts, and restraunts. To the right is things like, hungry jacks, kfc, mcdonalds. And to the left is all these classy restraunts. I'm praying she turns right, because I can pretty much taste the chicken, but of course, being the classy person she is, she pulls into a parking space on the left side. We both get out, and walk to a restraunt that looks the best. It turns out there's absolutely nothing there I eat, being more of a steak, fish, burger kind of person. Laura shrugs, and I ask the lady what she recommends. "We do a nice bacon and egg sandwhich" That's more like it I think...
"I'll take that I say." I look around, to find laura gone. I wake up.

17.01.12- early evening, had a nap, lasted about 1 hr 30mins ish

I was in the flat-though it was set out a little differently to real life-, I was watching TV, C came in then T came in, who I find really irritating in real life, he looked a bit different in the dream, but that's the nature of dreams, anyway, he started leaning against me then I felt him grab my arse, so I pushed him away and told him to go out. I had a rant at C, saying what an idiot T was. Then suddenly, two middle aged people came in who turned out to be T's parents and the mother hugged me and I was like, "hi" a little irritated. The T was all like, "my parents are going to have coffee and something to eat in your room cos there's not enough room in the kitchen" (which was an outright lie, because there was loads). Suddenly there was a large table in my room and his mum came in with the kettle, I said, "look, this is my room, you can't come in here to eat because this is my space." They wouldn't leave and I got annoyed saying more forcefully, "right get out, just get out will you?!" and made them get out, they were playing their faces and I got annoyed as they didn't grasp the concept of privacy and that they were clearly over stepping a line. Then some of my friends cae round and they couldn't understand why I was so angry, then an alarm went off so I went out into the corridor to switch it off. I then went into the kitchen to try and prepare some food, but spilt in on the floor. I was so annoyed at this point, I went into the hallway yelling, "Have this you stupid Twa*" and smeared the food all down his door, C did the same. I went into the kitchen, not caring of the consequences, a girl came in who looked familiar, I think she must be someone I have met in real life, anyway, she said something about that she saw me earlier and that I wasn't properly dressed but I hadn't noticed. I said "oh well, good thing this is a dream then" and climbed onto the window sill. She said, "Really, which one?" but I didn't answer her as I has smashed the window and fell backwards outside into the darkness, (in the dream the flat was on a cliff) in order to wake up. I woke up feeling annoyed. Surprising!

Okay so i just recently recalled a dream I had a few days ago ^^;;;

Okay so what happen...well....Lets start with the scenery, okay so we where in a highly forseted area but the trees where all diffrent colors, that moved and bend and changed as you walked around right...okay and there wehre penguins, ONLY penguins...expcpt some like..took the form of other animals but where penguins...so anyways, the sky was a bright shade of green, neon blue, and bright bright red, almost pink, the sun....was a cookie..Don't ask cause i don't know...okay so anyways to summuraize for some reason there was me in the Middle of all this playing that 3d chest game thing with 23 penguins at once ._____.;.....but every time i beat one....it sorta..like...exploded ino a rainbow....
So yea that was a really...strange....and...just....uhh dream i don't know why it was so weird and stuff....like i said tho it was an acid trip on acid...anyways...yea thats my dream from..last friday i think ^^;?
Yours truely...
Loveless

1-12-12 (non-lucid/lucid): I was on a wooden pier at a pool, in the pool was a circular elevator, but for a few moments I thought it was a boat. Then someone I was standing next to fell in the water and when I noticed they weren't coming back up I jumped into the water to save them. I dove to the bottom of the pool and put my arm around her and hauled her back up to the surface and pulled her back up to the pier. She coughed up water and sat and started crying. The reason for the crying was this: There apparently was a war between humans and dragons, and the dragons won and enslaved the humans. Well a group of free humans (my group) were captured. Anyway I got onto the elevator and I was plunged into darkness, then I saw a city underneath the earth. The dragons were in the visage of humans, from what I saw, and when the elevator landed I stepped off and a man grabbed me by the arm and said surprised "I thought you were dead." I looked up at him and it was Rajin. Just a DC though, not my DG. He took me to his home in the upper part of the city, and I put a red dress on and we went to the orchestra, then the next thing I remember is running down a destroyed section of street and seeing the destruction of the upper world, then I climbed a barbed wire fence and glided through the air. I woke up, fell back asleep and in this dream I was walking in a mall with my cousin and we stopped at a clothing store walked in and I found some steampunk clothes and I asked the store clerk if I could try them on. It was a black skirt and a brown corset with a white blouse. I went back to the dressing room and to get it I had to slide through a very small keyhole shaped door. So I got it and it was a huge circular room, with a spiral, black and white colored floor and brass dome ceiling and dark blue walls. I tried the clothes on really quick and walked up to a second floor and found another door. I walked through it and it led to the outside. I walked through a neighborhood and suddenly realized I was dreaming I jumped into the air, trying to fly, but I only glided, so I used more and more willpower until I hovered, then realized my dream was starting to fade, so I went back to the ground and instead of waking up I decided to not be lucid anymore Then it was snowing but I wasn't cold and I walked into my home and into my room and I saw a man outside that was staring at me...And had a sniper rifle. I panicked and quickly tried thinking. I ran out my front door and sprinted as fast as I could and jumped into the air and started flying and then gliding (I have a bit of a problem with trying to fly ) Then I remember jumping over rooftops to get away from him then I woke up.

14/01/12
My brother had this weird obsession with sex and he was watching a film on tv. I looked to see what he was watching only to see a couple having sex on a golf course. Then I appeared on the high street in my city, there was a circle of people forming a circle around me. It was like a fight ring… it was a fight ring, only a few feet away were two women.One was holding a dog, the other a cat and they were mouthing off at each other. Then they swapped animals and walked in separate directions. I followed one of them, she had blonde hair and her cat had disappeared. I continued to follow for a few minutes until we arrived at some kind of car dealership. She walked into a large glass building with very expensive cars on show and some young children ran over to her. She told them to go play in their rooms because she had some important people coming over shortly. As the kids ran off she got into one of the expensive cars, started the engine and started power-sliding in a tight circle within the room. The car came so close to smashing the glass walls and then I got what seemed like flashes of the different things she did within a small period of time, one of those was very suggestive dancing. Then the important people walked through the door, three of them and all in business suits. They saw her doing these things and were shocked… as was she when she saw them standing there.
Then I seemed to appear somewhere else again, in a place with lots of snow, so much so that it came up to my waist. In the deep snow I found a small baby dragon, it was black and leathery. Then it looked me dead in the eye and I could feel wings growing on my back, it then closed it’s eyes. The next thing I knew the dragon had grown in size and it grabbed me by the wings and flew me home, on the way I found that when I gained alot of speed then the wings turned shiny and multicoloured. The dragon could still sense I was a bit wobbly using my new wings so still kept a loose hold on me. After he dropped me off I practiced with him day after day, night after night until my wings glowed with colour with every swift beat of my wings. One day there was a street parade, I got cornered and decided the only way out was to fly. I took off with such force that the farmers that had me cornered were blown to the ground. Everybody looked up and saw me, before I knew it there was an angry mob about to corner me again. There was no sign of the dragon and then I appeared in Egypt, there was sand everywhere and what seemed to be a golf buggy came shooting across the desert to pick me up.

Dream 2
I was in a shopping centre and was filling some aeroplane wings with expanding foam. I saw my friend H.R who was looking for golf tees because apparently foam and golf tees go in the same section. Then all of my friends were around me trying to make a movie, everybody was arguing with each other and asked me to sort them out. So I wrote a list of who was doing what and changed the ending of the movie a bit. Then the dream ended.

Dream 3
I was on a pirate ship but I wasn’t a pirate and neither was the friend who took me there. The room was full of tough pirates who were drinking and laughing, but you could certainly tell when the captain arrived because the entire room went silent incredibly quickly. The captain’s voice cut through the silence like a knife, he said that he knew there were people in the room who wanted to become pirates. He asked them to step forward. Me and my friend stepped forward as did several other people who looked younger than myself. The captain then requested that we put our phones into this box, I moved forward and for some reason put two phones in the box. My friend then grabbed one of my phones out of the box and shoved it into my hand whispering in my ear that I was going to need it. We were then told to walk the plank and the ones that made it back to the ship could become pirates and join the crew. I looked beneath us to see the we were flying, but we were flying close to a wall. We all jumped and we all fell. Luckily I managed to grab onto something to stop me, unfortunately everybody else continued to fall. Then I grew and grew and grew until I was twice the height of the wall, it was then that I realised that the ship was tiny and I was now normal sized. I grabbed all of the people that were still falling and kept them in my palm before releasing them safely onto a nearby shelf. I looked to my right and saw a massive spiders web with a tiny spider on it an then another one that was the size of my hand, it looked like the big spider was about to devour the smaller one. Then the dream ended.

15/01/12: nothing
16/01/12: nothing
17/01/12
My dad was driving me and my family were driving down a small lane. I looked out of the window and saw three twister tornados heading straight for us! We were driving faster now as the high wind speeds whipped around the car and we stopped just next to a rather large tree. We all got out of the car to see the tornados gone and the sun shining, it wasn’t long before my brother climbed the tree and we all watched him in amazement. The dream ended here.

I am so disappointed that this is all my brain has to give

My mom, Chris and I were at Disneyland. We couldn't stay long, but mom suggested we ride one last ride, the Pirates of the Caribbean, a family favorite since waaaaay before the movies. Me and Chris were like, "Yeahhh!". Mom said, that's in the French Quarter right? I said yes and we proceeded, but then she changed her mind and made us head back towards the gates to go home. I was like WTF. She said we needed to get back home, running out of time for something blah blah. I kept trying to reason with her, but she kept cutting me off and telling me to shut up. She wouldn't even allow me to talk.. so unlike my real mom. I started cussing her out, baaaad. I even said something that sounded like a quote from the Pirates movie, something about her being so rotten and foul that Hell spat her back out.

We ended up on a train, then went to a hotel and I was talking to some single parent about the cartoons that Chris watches that are also funny for adults, like Spongebob, Fineus and Ferb, the old Looney Toons, etc. That's all I remember.

Let me ride it next time Mom.. jeeez.

I was at the mall with my family. We were just walking around, not doing anything in particular. Then I saw a poster advertising the K-ON! movie. Apparently it was being shown in theaters. I told my mom that we should go see it, but she got mad for some reason. She said I got her sick (I'm sick actually). I left the mall and went out into a field. There were rows of plants growing. I decided that this would be my new home, for some reason. Then I met a man there, who was dressed like a farmer. He was going to live with me. While walking around I found a huge tree. I went under it and there was an old man there. He was already living in this field. Mom tried to call but I didn't answer it.

I was at a Chinese restaurant with my little brother. We ordered what we wanted, but the lady taking our order kept getting confused. Mike wanted noodles dipped in frosting, but the lady sent out chicken. My order (sesame chicken) was fine, but she kept screwing his up. It reminds me of a dream I had when I was a waiter, actually.

My dreams seemed to happen early in the morning today.

I was at a technology school. There were all these different floor to the school and I ended up getting stuck on the top floor. There were crowds of people in these hallways and these section of elevators that looked like space shuttles that launched into outer-space. It was dark and dim and there was a greenish sci-fy glow to everything. I knew somehow that I had to get to the bottom of this building that seemed like a school but had some sort of other use, it was really eerie. I somehow got to a less crowded part of this other floor that made me freakout a bit. I wanted out of the building and out of the situation where elevators where the only option to get out.

After this, I ended up in a different situation. I was with someone that looked like my cousin and close friend combined. Somehow this was both of them. We were going to see a movie but somehow there was a confusing situation where we got lost/didn't have any money/and we were just overwhelmed. It was really hot outside. So hot that this person with me who was bi-racial skin turned pinkish red from the heat. This was a reality check, but it wasn't an obvious one. we ended up finding my mom who picked us up and took us home after we had walked around a mall area with a movie theater for what seemed like hours getting nothing done and having absolutely no fun.

the next dream was where there was an event happening. It first started out that this event was run by the military and they were going to shoot missiles on our own country. I was flying around looking for answers to why this was happening. They launched the missiles and I saw the missile explode from a distance, but then it was like I was watching all this in a movie theater. the event turned around, we were celebrating culture. Most of it was very festive and involved people cos-playing as there favorite characters, mostly from japan culture. I was lost, both in my mind and in the situation. I was wondering about why I haven't been dreaming about family and if I have why didn't I stick with them for long (they also didn't appear to be family). After I was done thinking about this I spotted a DC schoolmate that I have no recollection of knowing in RL. She grabbed onto me and told me that she had to find someone else too. We got caught in this crowd/parade of people that were going a certain direction towards an event or something to that cause. I was still very disoriented. This girl held onto me for a very long time making sure I did not loose her. I was thinking about my relation to her. At this time I did not know who she was but she looked familiar. It was like my mind was putting people I have seen before faces together to create a unique DC. It was like we were being pulled by a tide of people passing by. While with this girl things started to turn into a memory, like when I was in elementary school. I lost the girl somehow and was alone on a school field trip with different schools. It was like a school field trip but other schools were involved too. You could tell this was true because every student from a different elementary school wore a certain colored shirt with the school logo on it. I was apparently one of the students, I was in the 2nd or 3rd grade. It was time to leave the field trip place which was like Peter Piper Pizza and a museum in one. It was hectic because people were still hungry after lunch, some people were upset because they didn't get buy anything, and others had already lined up to get on the buses. The dream ended where I was standing next to a counter that had food and beverages while I was looking at kids leaving which consisted of sitting in a chair in a row that was separated by each school and disappearing in thin air while sitting in this chair. Before the dream ended for good, I looked at this shelf that had soda on it. It was separated by flavors but it was all the same brand. The brand was called "Dad's soda" I thought it was a generic brand and thought about how it was different. I then woke up, slowly.

I've trained myself to initiate these states of mind. Where I feel 4D as such. An idea that I thought of like the Pokémon "Snorlax" can completely engulf me, then spit me out until it is a thousand miles away. Then a cats claw completely engulf me and put me into trance states. I am completely conscious, my heart beats aggressively and I breath hard.

I induce these states by using dance/techno music which I am very familiar with. Then I play it in my mind before I to bed, I then speed it up. Then my eyes go f'd up and start spazing up as well with my eyebrow muscles. I begin to hallucinate, ideas begin to engulf me, feels like nothing I've felt before. Makes an orgasm look/feel like nothing.

I've once done it so music plays in my mind without me thinking about it. I feel that I am rising and that the music comes from heaven. I feel this Past 3D like 4D maybe. It's amazing.

My theory for this is that I have trained myself by accident to release dimethytriptamine or DMT in my mind to cause these hallucinations. These completely overwhelming, beautiful hallucinations. As I continue reading I think that the Buddhist monks have also used what I do to enter the Astral plane, and move their spirit body, I can see how they believe in these spirits, though I am not religious.

Also, I have not taken any Psychadelic drugs either.
I think I will try to make an OBE with my technique and mabe initiate lucid dreams. But for now these 4D hallucinations feels so amazing/beautiful,
I would like to show you my methods for any people wanting to. They can be very tiring but really worth it, I feel reborn after the 10mins.

I also can make electric shivering feelings on demand too.

So, what do you think? Do you recon that I can activate my peneal gland to produce DMT on demand? Do you recon with my technique I can go in Lucid dreams or OBE on demand?

I've forgotten to write this couple past days, as I'm going to sleep a bit sporadically. I have barely mantained my recall streak, which now streches to 17 days. I have one long dream from the past picked to write here next, but as I am tired and want to get to bed asap, I'm going to share the short dream I had last night.

Toilet Paper
Date: January 17th, 2012
Lucid: No

I was hanging out with one of my former buddies. He isn't my buddy any more, in fact I hate him these days, but for some reason I was following him around as we walked all over the place. He had a bicycle and I walked along. We came to the center of my home village (it's a really small place, just a church, shop, bank and the post office). One of my former classmates from high school (which ended for me back in 2007) was walking away from the bus stop, as if he had been to school and just got back with the bus. There have been tons of dreams I've had where I've been back in high school despite it ending nearly five years ago. Again this made me think whether I missed the school. Then I remember thinking that it was supposed to be some holiday, but apparently it wasn't.

Anyway I walked past my classmate and kind of felt badass for skipping school. My ex-buddy continued downhill away from the center of the village and I was following him despite not knowing where the hell we were going. He had said to me something before we continued, but I don't remember what it was.

All the sudden some guy with a powerful motorcycle sped past me, just avoiding hitting me. Then he leaned as close to the ground as possible and sliced the bicycle from beneath my ex-buddy. I just watched how the bicycle got smashed and wasn't worried about my ex-buddy - it was a very clean hit, and as it turned out, the guy did it on purpose. Such stunts wouldn't be possible in real life, obviously.

I didn't know the guy with the motorcycle. After making my ex-buddy fall off his bicycle he stopped and came to talk to us. I asked why he did that. Apparently my asshole ex-buddy had taken some of his money or something. Then I had the urge to compliment him for the nice skills he had with the motorcycle, but for some reason I didn't say anything. I guess I was a bit intimidated of him. He seemed a cool, if a bit simple guy.

All the sudden he had some toilet paper rolls in his hands. He throw three of them for me and seemed to gesture like they were the reward. For what? I hadn't done anything. Besides, some reward. Then again, you always need toilet paper. Meanwhile some people had gathered all over the place. Everybody was looking at me with my hands full of toilet paper. I asked if I should juggle with them jokingly, but nobody got the joke, instead I got a serious answer "no."

I accidentally dropped one of the rolls. I tried to look for it in the ground, but I guess the dream was a bit unclear as I didn't find it. I also felt silly for looking for some toilet paper, so I just let go.

Some time passed and something happened. People started moving on. I noticed my muscles being stiff and all and said that "all this standing made me stiff". I soon added "I guess it still beats just sitting down all day". There was some girls in the background. For some reason I seemed to care about what they thought about what I said and wondered about it.

That's about it. That's nothing special really, but just nice to have something more recent here once in a while.

http://http://youtu.be/KXfrqsbMULo


~Most of the dreams iv had prior to the dram journal always seem to have some sort of strong poetic justice, and strong, sexual, and explicit conduct, always with back ground music , or recited poetry underlining in the back ground as if im being guided by some sort of deep higher being, and always leaves me feeling as if im meant to discover something more beautiful, and natural about my self and the world....followed by an intense feeling of sadness and loneliness...and a deep need to make love and and let out bottled up passion...~

~The first ting that comes to mind when i think of my dreams is the reoccurring dream i have had off and on for months now,( the strongest reason for starting the dream journal.) It always has the man with out a face..the man who i feel deep , deep lust for... in these dreams...who only comes to me in my dreams...He makes great love to me , exploring all of the sexually stimulating areas of my body (leaving out sexually explicit detales), and all of the greatest ways, better than i think i could possibly imagine.... although this may seem sensual and sexy for me at the time of the dream....i always wake up thinking of the man with no face...wandering who this man is ...i always wake up remembering, how hot and dramatically sexy he has made me feel...and a strong feeling of lust and longing for him, a man with no face ,that i do not know...
This is the reason i want to be able to become more lucid in my dreams.....and ive even thought that perhaps i may be heaving a shared dream with someone....whatever the case may be, im desperately seeking answers, and control....~

[I]Relatively normal dreaming, I'd say.[/I]

[B]1.[/B]It's another Christmas/holiday party dream. Initially beginning in an old family room, the festivities gradually found themselves to be in more of a large hotel ballroom.

The main detail I recall is approaching a little cousin on "her level" and confronting her about why she feels she can get away with hitting and speaking hatefully to others. Our back-and-forth logical dispute quickly became the main point of attention within the party. It ended with her pinky promising not to pinch people again, "forever," and everyone in the room went nuts like it's midnight on New Years.

That's when I tried to make my way outside the french doors and to the restrooms. The hallway felt a bit like that of a high school.


[B]2.[/B] And as I was writing "her level," I remembered an earlier dream. I was at a friend's place and as I opened her front door, a cat came inside and ran through her living room and out her porch door. Her cat proceeded to follow and also escape outside. The scene consisted basically of me trying to recover her kitty. And then I was giving it a bath in an invented, very tiny space between her living room and porch. It ended with me in the bath myself.

17th of January
22nd LD
Dream.Lucid.Comments/awake

Something about some talent show, I got a sudden urge to run through a dark forest at night. I had a flashlight with me. The forest contained a bears and wolfs, but I just ran past them, even jumped over one of the wolfs. Finally after running for 5 minutes, I arrived to a backyard. The backyard looked exactly like mine. Suddenly two wolves charged towards me, but I started kicking them, then I leaped over them. An afro-american man came to the scene with a chainsaw, but somehow he knew why I kicked his dogs. (The wolves were his dogs) He dropped the chainsaw and laughed, then I suddenly knew it was a dream. Well did a little stabilising, then I (for no reason) pushed him, he flew a little and laughed. He pushed me back I flew way more. I asked him how he did it. He started teaching me about using elements. (Possible DG?) After a while of teaching, my brother showed up and he started throwing logs at me. For the first time in LDs I super jumped. Managed to jump on my roof, but I fell down. Started losing the dream.

Well that was my first DJ entry. I will be posting more of my lucids and awesome dreams.