All DJ Entries

This is the beginning of my salvia recordings. First I meditate for about 30 minutes. I load the salvia into a water pipe and take a big hit using a torch lighter. I let my body and mind get used to the feeling I get from the salvia for a couple of minutes and meditate on it. I load another bowl of salvia and take another big hit. At this point my adventure begins.

The experiences below all happened on the same day with a female friend of mine. They are a little hard to remember because it happened a couple of days ago.

Trip one:

I had some meditation music on. I took my second hit and sat there looking at my tv. It started doing 360s in mid air and I fell back onto my bed. I don't know if my eyes were open or not but after a couple of times thinking about it, I realized it felt like I was looking through my third eye. I slid out of our dimension or reality (Its all really hard to explain) and looked up to see an orange energy. This was an entity and he was talking to me saying that I was not ready for this. He kept saying this over and over. Its really funny because when we re-listened to the audio, I called him a bastard. He kept saying things to me and I kept trying to comprehend what this other dimension was and couldn't. The best I can do is describe it was a parallel dimension. Its almost life the shift between waking and sleeping. Your consciousness shifts and your entering this dimension at an impossible angle.

We slowly started coming back to consciousness and decided to take another giant hit to reenter that dimension.

I remember looking at the TV. It broke into a thousand pieces. and I entered the oddest state I have ever been in. My perception completely changed. I felt like I left my body and I was suddenly back with the orange energy. This time there were several other energy's around me. They were talking to me and I had a long conversation with them. I had music on and I don't remember even hearing the music playing. I was on outside of 100% out of reality and the energy's were telling me that I can't be there and need to slide into one of the other reality. I remember arguing a little, but in the end conformed. I started sliding into one of the little cracks of reality and slid back in. Once I was back in my perception changed again and I was back in the other dimension. There the orange energy waited for me and started telling me stuff. I don't remember now, but in the audio I called it an asshole and bastard. When I said that both the woman I was with and I started laughing uncontrollably. I don't remember the rest.

2-8-10 Dream about the Host (by Stephenie Meyers). I was “Wanda” and the “souls” were taking over the earth, I was accepting it, except for the fact that they were hurting/killing my friends and family. I tried to remember the book, and I’m pretty sure they were not violent in the book. I was stronger than my “soul” so I could be myself but still pass as one of “them” I tried getting my people off the planet in a spaceship, but my plan was foiled over and over again. I kept waking up and going back into the dream trying to fix what went wrong the last time.

Also back in the 5th home, but it was very different. Again I was in some book. The description of everything was very book-like. Apparently people were dying (my friends and their boyfriends) and maybe I was the killer.

Dream from my blog 2-12-10:I’M ON THE LOST ISLAND. MARIE’S THERE AND KNOWS ALL THE SECRETS AND KEEPS SAYING THINGS LIKE “SHOW HER THE BARN” I’M IN THE BATHROOM AND I’M VERY UNCOMFORTABLE, TOO MANY CLOTHES. I OVERHEAR A CONVERSATION OF BEN’S. WE’RE TAKING CAMERON TO ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW. WE’RE BUYING PARTY FAVORS. I LEAVE THE RESTAURANT ONLY TO HAVE SOME VERY CREEPY GUY TRY TO APPROACH ME, I SAY “NO, LEAVE ME ALONE” I GET OUT MY MASE AND START SCREAMING. MY VOICE IS WEAK AND HIGH PITCHED. I WALK BACK INTO THE RESTAURANT AND SOME PEOPLE THAT ARE IN THE LOBBY HEAR ME AND COME TO MY AID. THIS LARGE BLACK MAN ATTACKS THE CREEP WHO HAD FOLLOWED ME INTO THE RESTAURANT. YAY! I’M SAVED. OK BACK WITH THE LOSTIES AND MARIE. THEY TELL ME THE ANSWERS ARE IN BEN’S BIG TOE “BEN’S BIG TOE HOLDS THE KEY” I THOUGHT IT WAS SOME SORT OF METAPHOR BUT THEY LITERALLY WANTED ME TO PUT A KEY IN BETWEEN HIS TOES AND TURN IT. I PANICKED, GOT ALL LIGHT HEADED AND FAINTED. BEN SAYS “SHE’S FAKING, SHE ALWAYS DOES THIS. GET THE KEY.” MARIE COMES TO HELP ME OR SO I THINK BUT THEN SHE HOLDS ME DOWN UNTIL SOMEONE TAKES THE KEY. BEN USES IT AND THEN DROPS IT BACK IN MY HAND. I’M UP AGAIN NOW I AND SAY “HEY THIS ISN’T THE SAME KEY” HE JUST SMILES AND KEEPS GOING. NOW WE’RE GOING TO FIND OUT THAT THIS WAS ALL JUST… AND THAT’S HOW LOST ENDS.

3-28-10 (Preface: brother had given me this memory/dream pill [galantamine] and told me to set an alarm for 1 1/2 hours after I go to sleep because no one wants to wake up after sleeping for 1 1/2 hours, and it makes you angry and you just want to go back to sleep, so that's when I should take the pill and go back to sleep. the pills give you very vivid dreams and help you practice lucid dreaming. so 1 1/2 hours after I fell asleep I woke up to my alarm and because he said I would be I was angry and mashed all the buttons on the alarm, but didn't actually take the pill, but remembering what he said it would do had very vivid and lucid dreams, so basically it was like taking a sugar pill)

At our old house on D. Brother's baby was a tiny white mouse with red eyes. I was giving her a bath and she was so slippery. The mouse jumped on my shoulder then onto the sink then on the floor then into the toilet. PANIC! but then it jumped back out. i get her all dresses and she's a baby again. I bring her to my brother and lay her down next to him on the bed. He says "Watch how fast her hair dries" and starts rubbing her head.

Cut to me waiting for Matt to pick me up to take me to my first dr appt (apparently I'm pregnant) and after I put the baby (brother's baby maybe?) in the car seat I climb up to the front seat of the mini van and matt's gone. I see him get into a black sedan and drive off. WTF? So I'm crying and I cant' get a hold of him so I call my dad who comes and gets me. Finally i talk to Matt. I tell him I missed the appt, and this is really important I want him there with me. He says he'll make another appt. I have him feel the bump in my belly and I hope it's not a tumor. Later I see him in the back yard (at D) and ask him about the appt. "He says I'm going to later" I say "Never mind I'll do it!" Meanwhile we're at a dance club/clothing store and I keep running into people from my old schools. The next day we all end up back at my second HS. I've been taking classes there for the last 9 years and have graduated twice? There are all these people from my past there for this weird assembly where we're doing relay races

3-28-10 (nap time after getting up and writing the very vivid dreams from the night, i saw the pill was still lying there and thought about it's effects again. I got up and tended to my dogs, ate some food, watched tv, then decided to try it again and take a nap. I turned the tv on white noise and felt myself dosing off)
My brother is sitting on the hope chest at the end of the bed telling me about this dream pill and his lucid dreams, but I'm dosing off, can't stay awake, and he gets mad that I'm not listening. I get up out of bed and walk down the hall I look to the left and see a lounge with a huge fish tank I'M DREAMING!!!! I turn back to brother who is still sitting on the chest, his eyes light up with the same awareness, but he can't see me because he's still awake. He looks at me lying in bed asleep and starts to say "dreaming, you're dreaming." A total out of body experience, reminded me of Freddy Kruger, but not scary. I'm totally lucid and try talking to brother about what I'm supposed to do, but what I really want to do is fly! I open the door and whoosh out and up the brick wall. I could smell the brick and feel the wind and it takes away my stomach like a roller coaster.

I wake up, still in bed, brother still sitting on the hope chest. I start telling him all about it! He's elated and we're hugging! but then he gets really mad and says "there's no way I could have seen you or you could've talked to me if u were really dreaming!" I her (Amanda from grade school?) put on this dress which she says it's so old fashioned. My room is like it was when I was a teenager (pics of Gavin and what not) so it must be 1998 the dress is perfect for 1998. but she's all mad and storms out. So I tell brother "WTF?" as I write the same thing in my dream journal (remembering I wrote that about a dream I had the night before) "first you're all happy and hugging me and all of the sudden you're mad. Take your stupid dream pill back! Apparently I don't need it!" I through the pill on the floor, but then put it in my bed side table so the dogs dont' eat it. Outside Mom is moving cars and hits dad's. Dad is driving my car and I start to cry knowing that if he wrecks it he won't fix it, he'll just lie and take the ins money like he did with grandma's car. Mom gives her car to an Asian Rapper kid who can't hear us because he's wearing head phones.

Ok, haven't got online in awhile, but I write most of my dreams in a notebook when I wake up. So here are the dreams from the last couple week (if I can read my own, half asleep handwriting):

3-15-10 Corn feild colonizing a planet? or some sort of undeveloped land. A nurse to be on our staff gets skewered on this long pole used in harvesting. We can't remove it because she'll die but we can't just leave it because she'll die so we try to save her but she gets very week and suchable(?) wants to talk to John C Grims and Kevins. She still has feeling from the waist up and wants a kid.

I'm at school in the shower go back to class with no pants. Decorating lockers in a very El from legally blonde way. The school was a combo of my grade shool and two high schools.

3-20-10 Stealing a car pop start... gas pedal stack... crash through theater... taken to basement. Godspell like people (a commune, cult?) big dogs (like the size of grizzlies) Time travel... crime destiny... collections of stuff forgotten... shhhhh don't talk about it.

The Office party Michael Scott sitting Jan's baby. Pam and Jim MIA for the whole episode.

3-27-10 We "stole" / "borrowed" a flower van for a company I worked for. We out up to no good (girls partying) Amy collapses and i have to save her. She's not breathing! I took first aide, gimme a pen! We've got to get a trachea line, I put the air bag thing (from the first aid kid) on the tube in her trachea and start pumping, and pretty soon she's ok, breathing on her own. We gotta get her to a hospital. But no one else agrees Amy sits up and takes off the breathing bag thing and pulls out the tube and puts a band aid over the hole in her throat and says she's fine. Some how it was drugs we did that hurt her so if we went to the hospital we would all get in trouble.

Dad's ex girlfriend (T) was pregnant with my new baby brother or sister. She's like 52 and I feel her belly. Weird. We were all living back on 5th.

Yay Lucidity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't remember much up to the moment I became lucid, but at that point I was climbing out a third story window telling myself "I am dreaming, I am in control" I falter just a little, but after reminding myself again that I'm dreaming, I start to float. As I'm floating on my back across the field, I feel the warm sun and I think "I created this, what should I do? What is it Zac says to try to do?" Can't remember so I just fly up to the roof where there is a nest of baby gargoyles, the mom is regurgitating food for them, and I go to pet one, but he snaps at me, and I say "No, I created you!" and he backs off.

Next a large number of women are called together for an unknown reason. We all have cancer/known people who've died/have died themselves/dance (I wasn't very clear on that part) it started out as Brian from Family Guy and he made some snarky comment about some famous person who showed that explained the relationship between all these ladies (something like: "You too Karen Carpenter" therefore the common denominator was anorexia) anyway the scene reset and it was Peter and of course he's an idiot and couldn't make the same explanation, so I was just very confused. I remember telling one on the women that I wish I had cancer because I'm so hairy and the chemo would help that. We all end up driving to a graveyard, still not really knowing what's going on, am I supposed to date these women (Oh yeah, btw, I'm often a lesbian in my dreams) Dad's there he's organized a meetup, there's a fat pit bull in a cage at a zoo, I ask a police officer if there's anything we can do to help him. Everyone's dancing and watching the show. A girl from my high school died and this is the memorial, but no, she's not dead, is she? I go to the wall and see all our faces in icing. I smash my face into in and run around showing everyone my icing covered face, hilarious.

Thanx 4 the welcome. Traveling to space is pretty much awesome!

Dream last night:

I'm with a group of people (Matt, Cousin Lindsey, Joe W., Zac, and some other randoms) There's a large event in this church basement (fish fry?) and we have to control the crowd we start open firing into the crowd. I have a machine gun. People come at my trying to reason with me, but I just shoot them. It reminded me of "The Crazies" because the military has to try and quarentine and the control the crowd there, but end up shooting them because they're "crazy"

I rum out of ammo and wonder how our small group is going to enforce the quaretine on the massive group without guns? I go upstairs and outside, and I start to realize what I've just done. I shot and killed people... innocent people. Is this how soldiers feel? Then I think "wait, I wouldn't do that! this is not normal. I must be drea..." in the parking lot trying to start my suzuki sidekick and can't get it going. Matt jumps in the car too and says "lets get out of here!" finally it starts and I peel out. Did I forget how to drive a stick? No matter, we make it to the water park, where my Aunt Nancy, Uncle Jeff, Cousin David and Cousin Lindsey are swimming. But I forgot my suit. Swimming in jean shorts is very chaffing.

I'm in the shower getting cleaned up. I'm trying to dry my hair. I probably should finish my shower first, because I still have to wash my face and that will just get my hair wet again. The blow dryer isn't working right and keeps coming unplugged so, I get out of the shower still dripping wet and plug it back in. I figure out the reason it's not working is that it's sucking instead of blowing. "That's not right... I think I'm dre..." I'm at work, where Joan's talking to me in the lunch room about getting pizza for lunch (ugh) but she's my boss -ish so I gotta do it. Lunch time comes and I totally forgot. I see her leaving and I grab my purse and coat and run after her "so imos, or cici's, or what" and she looks at me like I'm crazy, and then I realize she must have been on the phone with her husband and not asking me to lunch at all. So I go back inside and bitch to Susan.

Damn it! I was so close to lucidity. I recognized the "dream signs" (things that were "off") but still got sucked into the dream and then woke up

We’re all getting together to pile into a hot tub / spaceship. Something has gone horribly wrong on the earth (plague, zombies, war, etc) and they’re setting off the nukes. So, we’re going to the moon and then gonna come back once everything was straightened out. There was a settlement on the moon and we’re gonna stay there. It’s a really short trip, but I wanted to bring snacks and blankets. We get to the moon settlement, but no one is home so we head back to earth where the destruction has left it unrecognizable. I remember being vaguely concerned about the fallout, but since we weren’t there during the bombs we should be fine, right? So we are talking to all the survivors. The small orphaned children and pets broke my heart. I try to meet up with everyone, there’s completely calm chaos like the volume is down. We have to get back to the spaceship.

First of all, I'm not sure if this was actually a year long dream, or if there was just a bunch of time skips. Anyway, here it is.

I had lived in a large house with the people in it for at least a year. the people knew me well, and I knew them well. you could say we where a family. there was a benevolent spirit in the basement fireplace, he took the form of the face in the magic mirror from snow white. he had helped me on several occasions.

It was time for me to return to the belfry spirit (the bell tower of a church, not sure if I spelled that right). it was a malevolent spirit that I had been working for. I traveled to the belfry and climbed to the top of the tower, he gave me my mission, kill everyone in the house that I had been staying at. he materialized a screwdriver and a rectangular piece of metal to use as the tools that I would use. I told him, "an eye for an eye makes us all blind" and I threw the tools out of the window.

This infuriated him, the next thing I knew, I was in the back seat of a car that was speeding to the house. when we got there, the spirit of the belfry wanted to do battle with the spirit of the fireplace. I ran into the house shouting, "EMERGENCY!" everyone started down the stairs and leaving, I ran downstairs, there was one more person, but she wouldn't budge, so I left her. I ran to the fireplace, but I woke up before I was able to contact the spirit.

The first thing I remember is doing a RC. I had a FA, but I kept doing the nose RC, so I realized that I was actually still dreaming. unfortunately my eyes were closed, which is a recipe for disaster for me. I relaxed and tried to DEILD by pulling myself into my HH.

Eventually I made it into a dream, where I was spinning around in dark water. There were a bunch of glowing red bubbles around me. I surfaced and found myself in a cavern, where there was a line of gods and their animals. I talked to a few of them, asking about their powers and whatnot. One of them, which had a raven on his shoulder, said that his raven served as an extra brain for him.

Entry on 5/4

I don't remember how it started, but I was in a room sitting at a desk with Malcolm from the show "Malcolm in the Middle." We were just sitting there doing math when we needed to save something like on a computer. A window popped up in front of us, like it would on a computer. I started to save, but I dropped it. We were scared it was broke and he told me to pick it back up. I have a little bit of a gray spot here. Then we went outside and his two older brothers(Reese and Francis) were sitting there in a van. They were cleaning it out so Malcolm and I decided to help. In it Malcolm found a fuzzy basket ball stuffed with half-filled cans of what I believe was Sprite. He threw it at me and I punted it across the yard. Then we all kicked it around for a bit before I woke up.

Really wish I'd gotten lucid.

Back to last night's dreams.

A bunch of my classmates and I were travelling by broomstick. I waited in line for the bathroom, which turned out to be just a little plastic toilet seat with water in it. Then I went to look up a map, but I didn't end up using it. Instead I just traveled with my friend, who said she knew the way.

At some point I became lucid. I thought about going to Shibuya, but instead I was like, "ehh, screw it, this is fun" and kept flying around. I told myself I'd go to Shibuya later (and of course I didn't). There was something about my cousins too. This dream went on for quite a while, but I can't remember the specifics. I do remember tying balloons to my bed so that flying would be easier.

Entry from 4/30:

No recall today. Though it had something to do with family guy.

EDIT:might try a WILD tonight. Wish me luck!

I actually don't remember the non lucid part of this dream, but here's what I wrote down...

We were refugees in a western city/town. We had horses, and my friend's horse almost died, but she fed it some essential equipment instead of letting it. Apparently we destroyed buildings...

We went to a little gazebo. As a bunch of other people came in, I floated up and flew out the window. I came to a roof where there were tons of shooting stars. A bunch of couples were sitting on the roof either kissing or watching the stars. One of the guys (a rather ugly guy) got down from the roof. I followed him, but he got away. I thought about going to Shibuya again, but decided that I would do this first. A bunch of horses trotted by. I hid behind a tree to avoid getting trampled.

I have no clue what day this dream happened, but...

I was walking down a hall when I did a random RC and became lucid. The dream was surprisingly clear. I remember thinking that it was like I was wearing contacts. I came to a room with a window and a closet. I decided that I should go to Shibuya, so I pictured it and opened the closet door. I was a bit shocked when it worked, although all the buildings were made of wood.

I went through the door and ended up at an ice cream stand, where I stole a cup of vanilla and mint chocolate chip ice cream. The police hunted me down. There was one guy I was particularly scared of. I reminded myself that since this was a dream I could kick ass, but I kept freaking out and ran back through the door.

I flew out the window and ended up at a stadium filled with people where they were holding my trial. I flew over the stadium, but then I started getting heavier and fell. They caught me, put me in a chair in solitary confinement, and gave me an experimental drug that was supposed to cure me of my disobedience. I felt weird, then I woke up.