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I am flying home to Czech Rep. I remember my way through the airport. I was very confused about the organization of the airport. It wasn't very busy, but I had to walk for long and through a complex labyrinth of rooms. I fly home to visit my grandmother. There is my friend Ivan sitting next to me. We chat a little, but I cannot really understand what about.
Next, I am in my grandmother's house kitchen. I can clearly see the room with all the details. It's a good size room, all toned to a light green color. I am sitting by the table on a funny, wobbly chair with a thin cushion. I sit towards the living-room, with the white and blue ceramic clock behind me. I see my hands (!!!!!) holding a cup of tea. The tea is so clear, it must be an earl gray (my grand mum uses water from a well. Anything the water is used for taste amazing). I see the cup in incredible details. It is a small, wide, white, ceramic cup with a line of little green leafs around. It is worn off a bit over the years of using. I can feel the warmth of the cup in my hands. I think I am there on my own.
Suddenly, I hear someone knocking on one of the windows by my right hand. It surprises me, because the kitchen is on the first floor. So I look there.There is a homeless man (I assume that from the way he looks). It is not a winter time, but I can feel that it is pretty cold and miserable weather outside. I stand up and open the window, but not the one right in front of him, just one or two aside. I see he is hanging on the parapet of the window. The homeless starts telling me a story.He is saying the usual story,how difficult his life is... I look at him but I don't really listen. (I saw a homeless man begging in the underground the previous day, but I was listening to some music, so I didn't hear what he said. It might be somehow reflected in this dream). As he hangs,he moves towards me. I can see his dirty hands with long and dirty nails. He is missing many teeth and the ones he has left are pretty randomly scattered in the mouth. I notice one massive tooth in the middle of his jaw. It takes quite a lot of space inside his mouth. I am surprised by this and think for a moment how that happened. (I think I was becoming lucid at this point). I am also thinking to myself, "come on spill out the story and tell me how much money you need". (this is certainly connected to the homeless guy in the underground the previous day. Even though I couldn't hear, I saw him carefully counting some coins in his hand and saying something. I thought to myself, he is probably saying how much money he is missing for hostel or something). Nevertheless, I am still wondering how could he hand or stand there.(I think I woke up at this point,and realized it was just a dream.Then I fell asleep with the intention of continuing in the dream lucidly).
I am in my grand mum's kitchen again. I look at the homeless still hanging there. I think for a moment, and then I tell him to climb in and to tell me his life story. He starts telling me the usual story. (I don't remember details of the conversation, but I was being pretty tough).
I keep asking him very direct questions about his situation, breaking through his excuses to show him that the causes of his problems is no effort to change them, that he is just feeling sorry for himself. In his story, he describes that he was held by Japanese soldiers(:-D) who wanted to pull out the big tooth. He is saying that he cannot learn anything. I am getting annoyed quite a bit. I look him straight in the eye and tell him. "Look, I am not going to give you any money, but I will give you the opportunity to make them". At the back of my mind I am hoping that no one will come in, as that would be quite difficult to explain what does homeless man doing in the house. Then suddenly someone is knocking on the window again. I look there and I see Ivan with his friend 'Filak, Fifka Fiala'. They ask me whether I go out with them, or if I go running. So I show them the homeless man. They say ok, with understanding. (what do they understand to??). I ask them if they want to go running with me as I am going between 3-4pm. The homeless man says "I fuck it", I look at him, thinking that he probably assumed he was invited too.
Then my grand mum comes in. So I start explaining the whole story, they just stand and listen. Suddenly, I feel a little bit anxious whether I catch my flight back to UK today. I am thinking, how do I get to the airport? I am looking for some brochure, but I cannot find any. I must take a coach, but what time does it go? Does it go today at all? I think it's Sunday! I must have an email with all the details about the flight, and maybe there will be details about the coaches too. I feel even more anxious.(I believe I have lost my lucidity around here).
Its 3:30, I am standing in the lobby of my grand mum's house. It is a large cold room,with stone staircase up to the second floor and down to the basement. It always smells a little bit funny in there, thought I have never been able to identify the smell,its just the smell of my grand mum's cold lobby.
I have to leave, so I excuse myself and tell everybody that the homeless guy goes with me. But I cannot see him anywhere. I look around. I am surprised. Then he walks in from the kitchen. I tell him something (I don't know what it was) and his face just all brightens up, with a real happiness. I stand there, staring at him, thinking, what the hell have I said that made him so happy? He also stares at me, realizing that what he heard was not what I said. (I don't know how I know this. It's just a feeling). Then he gets all upset, his body posture weakens. I ask him what happened. He looks at me, and says "I thought, you said you were going to make me a cup of coffee". I can see the disappointment in his eyes. Then, everything stops. I just realize how much it meant to him, that someone would care enough to make him a cup of coffee,that someone would even offer him,in my eyes such trivial thing. I am starting to feel bad. Not for not making him the coffee, but for being so hard on him before... (this must come from the interaction with my friend the night before. We talked about life goals and directions, and as I often do, I was being a little bit hard on her, just to push her to realize what it is she wants to do and not what she is expected to do. I does work in most of the cases, but it may not be necessarily pleasant experience. She told me that even though it was helpful, I should be more supportive. I think she has a point. So I thought about it quite a bit before I went to bed).

Fragment: Zombie Girl
I've arrived in a cavern via submarine or some sort of craft. In it we find a little girl with thick white geisha like make up. There are holes in her make up coverage, and underneath the flesh looks rotted. Another little girl with me accuses the rotting girl of being a zombie and trying to hide it with the make-up. She begins to punch the zombie girl in the face.

Then everyone begins choking on sweet acidic bile.

I wake up with the taste of sweet bile in my mouth. Drank a pepsi before bed, and it obviously didn't sit well. Must have come back up during my sleep and influenced my dream.

1. Something about taking along an old copy of Return of the King to read on the steps of some building while I'm bored. I don't actually open the book, however, and just wander around reciting the "Arise, riders of Theoden..." speech.

2. Something about petting a raven while it nuzzles me with its beak. (A better bird-encounter than some other dreams I've had - most of them end up nipping or clawing me.)

3. I go to a weird casino with some guys my age. The first game past the entrance involves peeing in a container, and if you can fill it up to a certain line, you have the option of paying for a diamond necklace. Otherwise, you can just dig through a big drawer of prizes - mostly coins, bead strings, feather fans, and pocket watches. Then there are all sorts of prize-grabber games for winning stuffed animals (odd ones at that - tribbles, insects, bats...) and various games that call for special tokens. I'm getting ready to cash out, but what I thought was a $20 bill was actually $20 in foreign currency, and I couldn't figure out the exchange rate.

4. Something about misplacing my Ghost in the Shell messenger-bag.

5. Something about puppies in an enclosure that resembles one of those restaurant play-spaces with tunnels and stuff. I also play with a large silvery-colored hamster that lives in a wire birdcage shaped like a house.

6. Something about trying to weave a basket out of pink fleece and sewing pins.

2/4-5. 1130. 520. Home on computer. Desk is more facing the wall than the corner. See some people outside. One is Dave. Talk at computer. Dave seems to have an eye half closed like it’s swollen. Look outside and there are 2 SUV’s crashed (dark blue hit a silver one) at the stop sign. Outside and Sean is there too. Then sitting in a vehicle down at the corner of the field at Xxxxx. Looking at crash. Then feel Pwaves, stay still and feel that it’s just my heartbeat (This actually happens. I think I feel a Pwave, but just ends up being my heartbeat). Looking at reflective objects and see them shaking, so there must be a quake coming up. Quake hits, only a 4ish I’d guess. Get out laptop to post on DR, but post on FB instead as it’d be faster to do. Can’t figure out what I want to type though. Then Heather Xxxx is driving. “How’s it going?” Then I’m in a house in TX. Get out. Drive, in traffic. See some smoke. I think, “From the quake?” Hear the FD. Some guy with us says it’s a Cadillac on fire. Area looks like Norco now. Drive past some cows in the road (There’s a bridge to the right which may be a RR). Then head back home. Walking. Pass some cows again, but one is in my way and I duck to go under it

In WA. Super rainy. Standing on a bridge. Car crashes. Hits a cop car too

At a fast food place, buy something? Then I’m having trouble with something. Then outside in a super lifted truck, no roof. Talking with Chingy and Durr. I buy something? Durr helps me

930. Something, at home I think. See that I’m fat, maybe 220lbs ish, have a second chin going on. Then I’m at the Xxxxx’s. Something with DMZ Tim? We’re all in a hurry for something. We drive around the corner to my house. In a white super lifted truck, no roof (what's with the trucks?). Pull onto driveway, mom there, and I hop out, “Give me one minute!” and go in. Look out my window and there’s a fire engine across the street, but looks like a birthday party going on. Frantic to find what I’m looking for . Many times I go into the bathroom and look at myself, still fat. Wonder how it happened. Think, “Probably because I haven’t been working out and have been eating a lot (And I have).” Trying to get what I need. Still can’t find. Go to bathroom and have this milk in my hair, and it’s blue. My hair is a dirty blonde color, and I’m normal thin. Comb out blue milk. “Come on, come on!” I think. Grab a stuffed banana and apple toy and put into my pocket. Go into living room and tear them out of my pocket and throw a tantrum for not being able to get what I need to leave

I had many small dreams last night in which I found my phone- I stayed the night at a friend's house and lost it before we went to bed, and it was freaking me out. It's still missing
Then, I had a very vivid dream. It was in a modern-day setting, in a large city in spring. The beginning is rather fuzzy- I was maybe a princess? I don't remember, but I was wearing a beautiful Renaissance-esque dress, which I lost when I joined a band of four other random people. We were working together, because the Apocalypse was coming, which we weren't really worried about. We were worried about what would happen after the Apocalypse, because there was this evil Queen lady who wanted to take over the world after it ended and turn it into a Neo-Renaissance new world order type thing. And we wanted to stop her. So we were planning to infiltrate her castle (she had a castle) and to do so, we needed Renaissance clothes. We went to a second-hand store and I found one that I almost didn't get (because I really wanted the beautiful one I was wearing earlier in the dream, but it was nowhere to be found) but I did, and then the salespeople were making fun of me because it was in kid's sizes and way too short for me (but somehow still magically fit). As I was buying it, my group left me, and I was running down the streets trying to find them. They were sitting at a table on the street corner. I guess our plan to stop the new world order kinda died there, because the rest of the dream was spent eating these candy-nut-things made with coffee. I can't have coffee, so I complained about it and everyone ignored me. Then I woke up.

I was on an airplane that was full of women, and all of them wanted to have sex with me. I ended up having sex with at least three different girls before the dream ended. Then I had a FA where I was at one of the girls' house, and she was describing the dream she had to a friend of hers.

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Non-lucid / lucid

I am walking through my old school just looking at everything and how it seems so long ago. Then one of my old teachers comes out into the hallway and yells at me to get back in class. I am a little confused but get excited because it is one of the the best grades, fourth. I enter and the room and desks seem REALLY small. I sit at one and just observe everything.

I wake up and quickly fall back asleep

I am back in the fourth grade room but I am surrounded by some of my old teachers. I realize I am dreaming, but forget to do some reality checks. I run outside with the intention of flying. I think of myself to be like Neo and just will myself that I am going to fly. I am in the middle of a field and I crouch real low and then spring upwards flying like superman. However, I do not have control and fly around awkwardly like a balloon that was blown up and then all the air was released while the balloon spins around the air. With flying now under my belt I see a girl and immediately want to have sex. I run over to a girl and pull down her pants. She does not really want to at first, but then complies. Slowly the dream begins to fade.

Tonight, I got 7.5 hours of sleep, the perfect amount of sleep according to REM cycles. It was the deepest sleep I have ever had I think due to a combination of lack of sleep in the days prior and the sheer amount of walking and activity I did last night due to the pledge activities.
I need to summarize what happened because I don't have any time.

Dream #1: Re-rush

This dream was basically set back in the fall, at night time. I am outside for all of this dream and at first I'm with the pledge people I know, but then I go over to TKE and start enjoying what they have to offer there. Except the guys don't like me and they want to beat me up. One guy says he's going to flip a coin and if it's a certain side (that I don't know) then they will all hit me. I'm scared and they eventually flip the coin, but somehow I teleport away and call Mr. Guirguis on my cell phone.

We are talking about whether I can go back to AGO and rush there. As this is happening, I'm walking in the middle of all the people at AGO. They are sitting in a line of chairs and I am walking literally on the armrests of the chairs, over them. Eventually he says ask them yourself. So I kneel down on one knee and I say I humble myself before you and ask if I can come to your fraternity. They all say yes and I am elated.

Dream 2:

Me and someone I can't remember are driving in this car/convertible without a top. The sun is in the distance and its almost getting blocked by a mountain. It looks picturesque, and isn't blinding to look at.

Dream 3:

I am in a restaurant, thinking to myself. Basically passobs as some woman walks by me and totally doesn't look at me at all, but continually looks in the direction of her husband. I think to myself how married woman don't even look at younger boys and lust after them. They are totally focused on their relationships. I look over to another booth to see the men looking around and the woman leaning in and trying to talk to one of the men. I continue to think about this as the scene turns black

Dream 4:

I am watching this hot anime girl have sex. I become lucid and I try to immediately get a threesome, but I don't stabilize the dream or anything, so it fades really fast as I notice that in my real body I am starting to orgasm from what would normally be a wet dream.

Dream 5:

I have a dream that gives me the realization that my life on this planet isn't significant, just like humans aren't significant to the universe. I see how my "ego" totally consumes my reality and tells me stories through the use of language.

Dream 6:

Mr. Holmlund and Ochoseis fight in a room with other people from AGO. They are fighting on the side of a bed. They throw punches but neither connect and Ocho is starting to get very very mad.

(When I woke up to write this in my DJ as soon as I moved I felt like I lost half of it, but I think I have the full thing remembered now)

I'm in my Dad's office, I wonder how long I will have to wait here...I'm sitting, my mind wanders as it usually does
"Hey can you go get another fish for me? One of them in the bowl died."
"Sure" I go down the stairs and jump the last two, happy to be doing something.
There's a light rain, more of a drizzle it feels nice. I go across main street into a shop I've never seen before (I'm in this area a lot IRL)
I head into the shop it's a cramped library but it has a pet section which only has fish. There's a lot of old annoyed people there who look like they would yell at me for being in here if it wasn't a library.
I need a Goldfish but I see a milky white fish with black spots.
It's called a Star Tailed Bomber. I like this a lot but can't remember if it has to be a goldfish or not so I go back across the street and am reminded it has to be a goldfish.
"Screw it." I'm going to get the bomber, it'll look awesome enough that it won't matter. In the tank where there are supposed to be the fish are more goldfish. I must be lost. I get sidetracked and help these two kids find something they're looking for. I give them a dollar because they're short fifty cents. I walk to the exit of the library to back track to the spot where the fish were, when I get there the fish are gone, wasn't I asleep a while ago? I don't remember leaving the house...

I'm lucid.

The kids smile at me, I smile back.
"Hey I'm lucid do you want to come with me? We're going to have some fun."
They come with me as I wander the library, but I get bored, it's raining outside. I start spinning to change the scene and I imagine an oak forest but end up in a desert that blends into a pasture a while away. Part of this is minecraft so I chuckle to myself, I'm highly aware so I remember I want to increase vividness I remember the feeling of a breeze, the sun on my back and the crunch of shoes on sand. It feels great, the boy tugs at my leg and the girl looks at me.
"What is it?"
"You need to start on your way to the city"
The girl takes of a threadbare brown scarf and hands it to me, I somehow know how this works and throw it into the air, it unravels across the desert to the place I need to go to. I begin running quickly but come to a cliff I begin to walk up the cliff using the scarf as a way up theres another cliff on this one so I begin to walk up the same way. This isn't going to work I fall off about halfway up because the cliff curves inward. I fall twenty feet but assure myself that when I hit the sand it will be soft.
Falling feels fantastic
I get up and begin to shimmy up the scarf itself when I get to the top I'm in the pasture, the sand has faded away. I wander through a minecraft home it's nice I think but I want to have some fun.

I see an old Japanese man who says he'll race me to the other side
"Alright" I said grinning
I run into this city that has a pyramid on the left side (from my point of view) and a series of pipes and old dusty buildings.
It's a bustling place but the race happens 100 ft above the ground on the pipes and rooftops.
I jump onto the top of a wall around the pyramid it's easily fifty ft. up.
"Impressive" the old man says
I make another 50ft jump to the tip of the pyramid and begin sprinting on the pipes with perfect balance, I dive to the finish the sand cushioning my fall and laugh. I feel fantastic.
The man begins to train me in more advanced acrobatics, I fail one of his tests and am no longer aloud to be trained, I realize later he's not very good anyways, surprised I see the little boy and girl. The girl holds the fish bowl.
How the hell did they get up here?
Suddenly it hits me. They're spirits.
This is cool the boy wants to show me something and I realize they were my teachers all along. I ask the boy his name but he's quiet. The only thing I can remember was that it began by making a rolling sound with your tongue and than a word I can't remember.
"I've had fun you guys but I need to wake up"
"Aww"
"Promise you'll visit again"
Why not?
"Sure" I say
The girl hugs my leg and the boy laughs but neither of them is offended by this, I wave good bye and wake myself up.

I am looking at a wall of a cliff. There is a little spider crawling on my shoulder. I pick it up by it's web, like i do in real life. I'm looking at this little tan spider. It tries to climb up the web, but i knock the string a little and it falls back down, like a yoyo. I wrap the gossamer around my finger. The wind starts to blow and the spider is blown to the wall of the cliff and crawls away. Suddenly i see eyes staring at me over the edge of the cliff. It climbs down. It is a huge tan spider about four feet in diameter. It is muttering to itself and is shakey. "My dear... My love..." i can hardly hear through it's mumblings.
It is right above my head. It reaches out its front leg, quivering. I reach out my arm above me. I just barely touch the tip of the spider's claw before i wake up.

So my dream last night picked up where my main reoccurring dream left off with me finding the refugees land...
Its our celebrationg day, the day of honoring all those who died in the fight and those who died from the vaccine, a day of giving thanks to the universe for saving the few that are left.. I come to consciousness as im walking through the field with my dog, she pulls towards the backwoods and back wall of the compound and looks all stressed, so i bend down talk to her as i do this my body becomes less translucent and im solid.. (and for the past 2 weeks or so when i realize im dreaming and i become fully solid i cant do anything to wake myself up, and i loose control in the dream, instead of being able to work with it and work in it, i have to follow it and dont know why this is now happening.) so i sit at the picnic table where peoplei know are sitting, one of them is smoking stolen tobbacco that was stolen from the reserve hutt the week before,( there had been talks of people in power becomming sick like lattened mutation from the vaccine and they were denying it fully, and there were talks of a 'radicals' group comming into existance in the compound because of it) so my love intrest has the tobacco, passes it to me i take a drag, and within 30 seconds i get yolked up by the neck of my shirt and taken into the building where the people who 'run' the compound. i get brought into this room where the 'head' is and her face is all peely and red splotted her teeth have become cracked and jagged like the people who are effected by the vaccine.. in the room theres one way windows so you can see out but if your outside you cant see in.. theyr questioning me and threatening me that if i dont tell them where i got the tobbacco from theyll put me outside the compound, and i look over and slowly the i see mutated people come thro9ugh the forest and then theres this hugh tank that takes down the wall and the trees. everyone freaks out outside, they leave me inside handcuffed to the chair, im stuck untill i see them take down this elder that was close to me, i break the arm of the chair, and run out.. i cant find my companion, or anyone.. so i run to the safe house, and everyones gone, the compound is bloody and burning, i take the tunnel out to the woods, i found some people from the compound who know the way to another one that was myth to all of us.. we had to go through the heart of the mutated.. the city.. the mutated held jobs, had familys, they just ate the non mutated. so we tryed to disguise ourselves as mutated and we made it through halfway, but i was reconized by a malemutant from my other reoccurring dream (i gouged out his eye when he came at me)so we run into this huge skyscraper thats half rundown and used by the homeless mutants..we get to this office thats missing windows and we think we lost him and then he shows up and says how stupid i am to try and get away.. we feel this vibration comming from the bottom of the building and i lookout and in the reflection on the windows of the building next to us i can see i huge wrecking ball that is hitting the bottom of the building were in. the building starts to sway andit falls and hits the building next to it (theres 3 asain guys in black with a little white kimonos staring at us in the window we land next to) we all tried to grab the wall but the building jerked back to upright and swayed back and hit the building again.. i gave up on trying to grasp on the sides of the other building, i jsut squezzed the couch we were sitting on which i guess was bolted on the floor bc it didnt come off the floor. the building stops swaying the mutated guy is gone so we run as fast as we can, we find this maroon van and drive , we get hit on the side and the van flips i came to and the people im with are gone the vans on fire, i guess they thought i was dead, or they couldnt reach me.. but the coast was clear, so i bolt to the old ladys house (from my first reoccuring dream that has to do with this) and theres this woman who said she could take me to 'home' where ide be safe. she takes me to this street that has been filled with brackish water, so we get on this dingy for like a coulpe hours and we just get off at this unmarked street, we walk quickly, i ask thewoman how will i find my way back and she sasys ill show you once and youll never forget, its a residential neighborhood, and theres the concrete block wall thats sideways on a slant with this other wall, right after that theres this huge tree we climb up, we waLK another concrete block wall for about 45 min or so and we come to the end of the wall and jump down to this field and theres this small hut house thats all boarded off and the lands all over grown but theres one tiny beaten down path we follow to the door, and we lift a brick on the ground and the door slides open.. inside theres like 20 cats of differnt kinds and its suuuper dirty and nasty, it smelled really peaty and damp, kinda chalky... all the cats are eating these mushy silverish thinsg on the ground, and we go to the back right thers this door the woman knocks this knock i cant remember and the door opens.. to this massive field...i step through and about 4 feet in front of me theres about 5 lines that are about 3 inches wide and about 3 inches high of this slity dirt stuff and they go all the way down as far as i can see.. i turn to look at the door and theres an old man sitting next to it and he dusts your feet when you come in with this stuff. i go to him and i ask him what the reasonong for this is and he says its ground giant clam shell and oyster shell ground also, it repells, masks our scent from the mutated. i ask him if theres water on the site and he says we back right up to the ocean. and points me in the direction.. i start to walk and someone from the other compound sees me and tells me that my compainion was killed along with everyoneelse pretty much.. i break down crying face down on the ground in the grass i feel like there was no reason for it all, i felt like my world died.. as im lying there sobbing i open my eyes and the grass is all wet and i see the setting sun reflect off snot or tears on this one blade of grass, and it made me feel okay, it reminded me that we are eternal and everything we deal with IS for a reason and i should let the death of someone(s) make me feel like im dead. soo i gather myself and my dog who i couldnt believe of al things made it alive, and we walk towards the sunset throught the woods and theres this huge field, where everyone in the compound has gathered to watch the sunset i see the reflection of this box my mom has, being carried by my companion he sits next to this wooden poll in the ground i run to him he stands and i hugd him he was so skinny and frail still wearing the same thing as the last i saw him, his shirt was dirty and torn i asked him how hes been and he said waitin for you to get here, and then faded out, but the box and the poll were still there and all the other people. and i sat where he sat and cryed, adn i woke up i was crying already my bed was wet from tears and my tips of my fingers hurt.. that was my dream last night.. any imput?

DJ Log: February 5, 2011 – Morning, 6:00AM (USA Eastern)
Text color legend: · NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

(Note: After a long dry spell, I finally have a good lucid and make an attempt at the basic task.)

The early evening air is cool and smells like it has just rained. I am riding a black and chrome Harley Davidson with slash-cut straight pipes. A DC is clinging to my back as I rumble down a main city street, passing a cop in the left lane. The cop moves into my lane and follows me, turning on the flashing lights as I down-shift and speed up a bit. I put on my blinker and move right one lane. Seeing that the cop is glued to my ass, I move over another lane to the right and begin to pull over on the shoulder, slowing to nearly a stop. The DC riding with me taps me on the shoulder and says, “You know we're fucked now.” As I stop, I thought to myself, “What am I doing riding a motorcycle, and why am I stopping?”

I quickly become lucid and decide that stopping is not a good idea. I kick it back in gear and crack the throttle wide open, leaving a smoky trail behind me as I shift through a couple gears. As I weave through traffic, I notice that all of the other vehicles look a lot like the ones in the classic game Frogger; each lane having identical cars or trucks in it which are equally spaced. This makes it easy to slalom through them as I reach top speed. The road I am on turns into a regular 4-lane highway. Some of the cars were crashing into each other behind me as I speed by. There are several bicycles, tires, and other debris laying in the road, which I am running over. I turn off the highway and ride down an embankment to another smaller road with the cop a ways behind me.

As I'm cruising down the road toward another city, I find that I can pull up on the handlebars and make the bike jump and fly for short durations. This gives me enough time to jump over cars and small trucks. Entering the city, I find myself driving down a small alley which was too small for the cop to fit through. The DC said, “Finally, we lost that cop.” I cruise down a few more small streets, avoiding dumpsters and hobos, then I found myself on a long shipping dock. There is a large container ship not far from the dock, so I crack open the throttle, pull up on the handlebars and jump off the dock onto the container ship. I ride across the deck of the ship, weaving around some shipping containers and accelerate as I reach the end of the deck. I pull up an try to make the bike fly, but I end up landing in the water instead and the engine stalls. The DC yelled, “There goes a $5,000 engine. Good job, asshole!” Once I sink to the bottom, I hit the starter and it fires right up. Before I could get it in gear, the DC said, “I've had enough of this shit.” as he gets off the bike and runs away. I ride under the water for a while and find a good spot to get out. I manage to find a familiar road and follow it back home.

As I'm riding home, I notice that there is about 3 feet (1 meter) of flood water everywhere. Once I arrive at home, there are a few DC's working on some vehicles in front of the garage. The DC's look at me for a moment and then continue what they are doing. I figure it would be a good idea to hide the bike in case the cops are still looking for me. There is a large wooded area near the garage, so I ride there and find a good place to hide the bike. I slide the bike under a pile of sticks, between a cement wall and a chain-link fence.

I swim back to the garage and see that the cop is now in the driveway, walking toward the garage. I swim under the water and try to hide under a car in the garage. I couldn't fit under the car, so I go around the car and swim under a truck in front of the garage. The cop walks up and asks the DC's if they have seen me anywhere. One DC who is working on the truck says, “He's here right now.” and points under the truck. The cop gets down and looks under the truck, but he can't see me through the murky flood water. He turns on his flashlight and shines it around. I move toward the other side of the truck to avoid being seen, but he hears me moving and orders me to come out. As I begin to come out from under the truck, two of the DC's knock the cop down and pin him to the ground. The DC working on the truck runs away as a couple more come out of the garage. I stand up and suddenly remember the basic task, so I run over and try to kiss a DC. The DC pushes me away and I lose my balance, causing the dream to destabilize quickly. This is the dream's exit.

Trying to remember a dream is like trying to have a Vietnam flashback, it only happens when you don't expect it to.

Sometimes there are just certain details of my dreams that I don't right down just because there so weird, so off topic, so abstract, that I even ask myself, "Okay what the fuck happened there." Yesterday through today I had three dreams, and they all had some sort of aspect like that. I waited a while to put this down so it's a little blurry so here it goes.

Dream 1:
This was basically a left 4 dead 2 dream, which was actually pretty cool. It's like playing left 4 dead 2 full screen, and by that I mean I was inside the game. I was with 3 other nameless survivors and we basically just made our way through a really really long campaign. I can't remember all of it but I do remember a couple things. We were in a mall. Safe, for now. I saw a man who was in some sort of mall kiosk. At the time I had a chainsaw and a katana. I put the edge of my katana up to his throat.

"And who are you exactly?" I ask him.

I can't remember the details of the conversation but by the end of it he pulls out a revolver. I'm cautious at first, but then I run. He shoots at me three times and I manage to dodge ever bullet. I can literally feel the bullets wiz by my shirt as they just nearly miss me. Me and the other survivors make our way out of the mall. At the end of this dream, it's the final stage, were doing good at first, and then just tank, after tank, after tank just swarm in. We are totally boned. A tank backs me up into a corner. I don't move. It seems to not see me at first. Then it just hits me in the face, since at this time I fully realize this is a game, I feel no pain.

"I'm down, I'm down! He's coming after you! Run!" I call out to my teammate.

He's the last one left. He just starts screaming.

"AAAAAAGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!"

He's down too. We lost, goddamn it.

Everything fades out and I wake up.

I look at the clock. 4:30, what a big surprise. At this point I don't even care, I just fall back to sleep.

Now this dream, this dream is weird.

Here's as far back as I can remember.

I'm in a bunk bed with a couple of my friends. One of them is listening to a song. For some reason the song has something to do with, periods. Yeah I don't know. This goes on for a while, then I start remembering a concert my dad played at once. Snooki (the jersey shore one) tries to climb up on stage, but then security promptly take her off. For the record, I hate jersey shore.

There's a scene change. I'm at school, well, my dream perception of school, which is very odd. I'm in the gym on the bleachers, which are much higher in the dream. Out of nowhere a bright red but small spider (which in the dream just happens to be the most poisonous in the world) comes up to me and bites me on the hand. After this I get into a huge argument with the government, who happen to just be in the gymnasium, about how they wont help me and that I'm pissed. After the argument settles down I wonder off to some book shelf with a row of books that are basically the "laws of everything" and accidentally knock them down. I remember while putting them back up on the shelf, this girl helped me out and I told her, "Well the law sure didn't help me out today." We share a giggle. I walk out of the gym and then it dawns on me.

"I just got bitten by the most poisonous spider in the world, I'm gonna fucking die!"

I run to a small office that has a phone in it. I dial 911. The following message plays:

"If you are in trouble or have been bitten by a venomous spider or animal (how specific) please head over to, london."

"London!?" I think to myself (london ontario not london U.K.).

I feel defeated. I go into the main office with tears coming out my eyes. MY science teacher is on the computer there, looking at pornographic pictures for some reason. I go up to him.

"You wouldn't happen to have the cure for a (insert spider name here [forgot]) bite would you?" I say with tears in my eyes.

"Sure I do." He tells me.

My eyes fill with hope.

"Really?" I ask him.

"Sure."

"What is it?" I'm anxious to here.

"Think hard." He tells me.

"What, I don't understand." I tell him.

"Think about it." He replies.

Then I wake up. Could he have possibly been hinting that I was dreaming? I've never had a DC do that before. When I ask a DC if I'm dreaming they either say no or avoid the subject. Weird.

I wake up at around 8:00 a.m., 5th of february 2011. I decide trying to fall asleep one more time couldn't hurt. I close my eyes and rest my head on my pillow.

My third dream I'm awake. Not lucid, but awake. As in there is no dream scenario I just do everything I would've done if I was awake. I start by calling up my friend Elmer as I wanted to introduce him into the whole lucid dream thing. He tells me that he has to go to church or something. I decide to get on the subway and just go out somewhere. On the subway I bump into Elmer, with his girlfriend. Apparently they're on a date or something.

"C.J., what are you doing here." He asks me.

"Actually I'm just trying to find a place to sleep." I tell him.

"Maybe on the subway or something, is it okay if I join you two?"

I know he's on a date and all, but I'm just kind of pissed that he lied to me so I try to cock block him.

He says it's okay and we get on the train. Then I wake up.

Unfortunately that's all I got today. I know when to admit defeat:

Dream 5 Me 2.

But better luck next time.

Note: Before sleep I watched a lot of left for dead 2 videos, so I was kind of asking for it.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I've been waiting for Sucker Punch to come out since it was announced.
I found a new Trailer for it yesterday (only seen the teaser so far), and I watched it quite a few times
because it reminded me of some awesome dreams I've had.



Whilst trying to fall asleep in the evening I kept playing out similar scenarios in my mind.
I tell myself that if I become lucid during the night, I want to remember Sucker Punch, and I want to go to that crazy and insane world.


I'm in Italy, following a mountain path I have walked a few times before.
It leads to a really good restaurant near the top of the mountain.
I stop to take a look at the scenery. It looks just like I remember it.
But something feels off. I slowly realize that I am in the dream world, though I don't know why.

I engage my senses, feel the wind, hear the noises of the nearby woods and try to see as many details as possible.
Then I remember, Sucker Punch!
Not sure how to approach this task I've set myself I close my eyes and let go of the current scene.
I try to remember the trailer. No specific details, more like atmosphere and how it made me feel.

I open my eyes and feel that I succeeded, though I'm not entirely sure what exactly it is I tried to do.
The scene has changed, I am in some sort of stone castle. There is a big door in front of me, presumably the main entrance.
The corridors are lit with torches. I try to anchor myself in this scene by further enabling my senses.
There is a lot noise coming from outside, a war is raging.
Something is trying to break through the door. Every time it gets hit it makes a cracking noise, it won't hold much longer.
I'm not really sure how to proceed.

I hear steps next to me, someone is stopping to my right. I turn around and I'm quite surprised by what I see.
It's Baby Doll, wearing the same sailor outfit as in the trailer, with a katana strapped onto her back.
Is she going to accompany me?

"You have to believe."
"I do... in fact... I don't just believe, I know"

She smiles and throws me her katana.
I take it out of its holster, it's beautiful, it feels oddly familiar.

The door breaks open. A huge creature comes in, at least 10m tall, wielding a double blade.
I start walking towards him even though I'm afraid.
The excitement and my sense of adventure is much stronger than my fear.
We both start charging at each-other. I dodge his blade and slice through his body with mine.
His body only provides little resistance to my blade, it goes straight trough.

I am outside of the castle, which seems to be floating on some sort of platform.
Yes, the castle is flying in the sky, over a city at war, and there are other platforms floating in the skies as well.
The city is partially on fire, there is smoke everywhere, and glowing shots hit he city and are shot from it into the skies.
To my left is another creature, wielding a minigun.
I can't get to him within time so I just do a slicing motion with my blade towards him.
Energy leaves the blade, hits him and cuts him in half.

Many more creatures are starting to climb onto the platform.
I grab the minigun, which is way to big and too heavy for me to use, but I still manage to do so somehow.
I can feel my muscles drawing energy so they can support the weight.
I start shooting the creatures down with the minigun, but there's too many.

"This way!"

That was baby doll again. I drop the gun and run towards her.
As I reach her she jumps of the platform... what??
I jump after her.

Below the platform is a railway system in mid air and a train is approaching.
I get it, we're going to land on the moving train.
But I'm falling fast, and the train is moving fast as well.
I close my eyes for the impact... believe...

I hit the train hard, but it doesn't hurt.
I open my eyes, we're both riding ontop of it.
The railway starts going vertical.
I look up, it leads to another platform high up in the skies.

Big bullets are shot from the city towards our train, this will end badly.
The inevitable happens and the train is hit hard, but a few cars in front of us.
The train starts to progressively explode from car to car.
We look at each-other... no choice.
We jump of the exploding train.

I flip backwards, so I see the world upside down for a moment.
For some reason this is an absolutely phenomenal feeling.
I turn myself around properly and feel the heat of the exploding train.
We're going down... falling past the castle platform, heading straight for the city.
The faster we fall the stronger I can feel the air pressure, and it's making a terrible noise.

I hear something. Baby Doll tried to tell me something.

"What???"
"I can't fly!"

That's right! I can!
I approach her mid-air and hold her in my arms.
I draw my wings of fire...

It HURTS.
My ribcage and my spine make a cracking noise, and I can feel it throughout my body.
The wings have to carry both of our weight and we're slowing down very quickly.
We fall through the clouds now approaching the ground.
I land on my feet hard, the ground beneath us crackles and the pressure of the impact throws things around us over.
For some reason she's now wearing a white glittery outfit.

In front of us is the city, and hundreds of these creatures are charging towards us from within it.
Suddenly, I have it all figured out.
I hand the katana back to Baby Doll and start focusing my energy as hard as I can.
The tattoo on my body catches fire and grows over my right arm and the right part of my face.
My wings burn hot, the flames become brighter every second.
The heat around me becomes extreme, but it doesn't hurt me, in fact I like it.
I feel insanely powerful.

I'm shot at by some of the creatures, but the bullets burn down due to the heat before they hit me.
My wings grow bigger and bigger. I feel ready.
I eject all of the accumulated energy and focus it towards the city.
My wings leave my body, they are now part of the insanely big fire dragon I just summoned.
It's wing span must be at least 100 meters.

I drop to my knees. This may have been a little too much energy, I feel dizzy for a second and my aura seems unstable.
I quickly manage to stabilize it though. I look towards the city.
The fire dragon has already destroyed all creatures in its path and is now ramming into the city.
The whole city catches on fire, the buildings are torn off the ground.
The war is over.

For some reason I know this war was over a key. A key Baby Doll needs.
I search for the key with my mind and find it in the burning remains of the city.
I draw it towards us with telekinesis.
It's a very simple key, one of those to lock doors within a house.
I hand the key over to Baby doll, because I feel that's what I'm supposed to do.
I get the weird feeling that the reason I'm here is to help her get the key.

She's happy to receive the key and gives me a kiss on my cheek.
Then she disappears.
Nothing happens for a few seconds.
I suddenly remember why wielding the katana felt so familiar...
It used to be my weapon of choice in childhood dreams... in fact I still own it... it must be somewhere in the dream world.
I want to find it... but it isn't in this world...

I don't know what to do next. It feels weird because nothing new is happening, that is very unusual.
I turn around.
A man stands right in front of me.
He punches me right into the face and it fucking hurts.
I wake up.

Note: My next goal is to find the katana I have used in childhood dreams.