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I thought of start write down my days here. I first write down my recalls (if I had any) in a journal entry. Then I write another entry where I write about my day, and if I had no dream recall I may write down times I went to bed and woke up. To see the 'failed' attempts of recalls too.

Here is how my waking life was today:

I woke up in the morning, looked at the clock on my phone that I have in my bed, and it said 07:20. I wrote down the time in my dream journal and then I just layed in bed for a while.
I felt quite tired and wanted to continue sleep, but I knew I had put time on 8am and were going up then, and felt useless to continue sleep as I will just get more tired probably.
However, I half slept and also recalled the dream I had. Wrote down the dream recall and then I layed in bed for some more minutes.
I probably went up from my bed around 07:40 maybe.

Went up to my computer as always, started it and went to bathroom where I probably had a pee. Can´t remember really.

Anyway, I went back to the computer with 500g quark as use to be the first thing I eat in mornings the past couple of months, as it's great with proteins in this. To this quark, I put some Fun light strawberry (sap/juice). It makes it taste like yoghurt.
While eating I listened to music on YouTube, read around at flashback (a forum), and watched news. Was around facebook time to time too.
I had in mind to start walk to the gym already at 9am, but somehow I got quite late for that. I had to write up the jobs I had been searching the previous month, didn't remember them all but wrote down enough.

At 10am I started walk to gym, with my earphones on listening to albums from "Bullet for my valentiine". The songs makes my anger boost, something I like. Especially great for the gym as it feels like it motivates me more and more.

I was quite angry this morning, as yesterday I had knew that I missed a meeting at the employment service, I had got the letter too late. I got it yesterday afternoon, and the meeting was yesterday morning.
And meeting felt important to me, as it was a job application I had passed and I thought I lost chance for it, which made me very angry on them.
Additional to that I also were very angry because I bought skullcandy lowrider headphones yesterday, and those didn't work good with my laptop, sound quality were worse than $1 eBay earphones.


Walked towards the city with my plans to first go employment service, then gym and then the other part of the city 5km away in order to possible buy a new phone. I had in mind of an Xperia acro s or an Xperia v. As I hated my HTC Wildfire so much and really I never buying anything for myself other than food and clothes sometimes when it's needing.

When I came closer to the city I thought more about me losing this chance of getting a job because of the employment services sent me the enveolope so late and also that they cannot use the fkn mail or text message.
While thinking of that I also thought about the headphones that what if I don't get back my money.
I also started to think about the boss where I made internship, the mad boss that just asked me to continue do slavework/internship at his store, something that I didn't want to because it felt like he really didn't need to employ me, that he just wanted me to work for free.
All this at once and I felt VERY angry.

However, I got into the employment service, and had calmed me down some but still very angry.
Told them straight off that I've got a late letter and missed a meeting yesterday. Went to their working computer where they wrote it up and also tried to contact some person but didn't get in contact.
But they told me they're not sure if I still got chance for the job, that they don't know any much about it. But that I will be contacted during the day probably.

So I left there, and thought that I might need my bank account information when buying the phone. So I passed by the bank and asked there, but as I started talk to them I remember this is going to be on a bill and not take money directly from my bank account, so I didn't need anything from there.

After that, I walked to the gym. Did about 40-45 minutes strength workouts. Chest, shoulders and triceps. After that I did 20 minute cardio on the bike. Sweat a lot like always.
When done I drank my protein shake and had a shower.

When done at the gym, I thought I'm too tired to walk 5km more to the other part of the city and then walk back home, that total would be probly a 12-15km. So I refilled my bus card, and took the bus. I actually haven't been riding bus for like 2-3 months as I am always walking into the city because it's just way cheapier.

Once at the other part of the city I walked to the store I bought the headphones at. Went in there and stood in a queue.
Told the woman that the headphones had very bad quality for my computer, that I had to push a button to make the quality good. She called somebody and asked how she would do, and well, it got accepted and I got my money back.

Then I was gonna go to the store where the phones are, but I felt like I had to go toilet. So I walked towards the place I know where they got toilets. While walking there I also felt I'm quite hungry.
Thought that I can go take a hamburger meal, as time was around 13:45 I would have time to order the days meal that's served between 10:00-14:00, which is somewhat cheaper.
So I did that right after I been on toilet.

When that was completed, I walked towards the store with the phones.
Went in there, straight to the Xperia acro s, was looking around on the phone, checked if it really had 11gb free in storage etc.
Then also looked at Xperia v, noticed that indeed it only have 3gb available space.
Tried the camera on Xperia acro s, liked the physical shutter button it has.

So well, after a small while an employee came up to me and asked if I needed any help or had any plans. I told him that I think of buying a phone, that I've been thinking of an Xperia acro s or an Xperia v, but that I really think I will pick the xperia acro s.
He said alright, and we went to make the purchase.

Once done, I went straight to the bus that lead me home.

At home I went to my room instantly, nobody where home. I unpacked it and tried to figure out how to put in the sim-card.
Was quite hard to understand the manual as it didn't say how to really do.
But searched on YouTube and found out how to open up the tray in order to put in the sim-card.

Once that, charged the phone 30 minutes as the instruction said.
And well, when that done, launched phone and installed some apps that I need. Facebook, twitter, instagram, facebook messenger, facebook page manager, skype, dropbox and some more.

Time probably was around 4pm when I were home. And ever since then (time is like 00:00 very soon), I been on my computer and also been looking around on the phone.
Around 7pm when noticed my dad or anybody hadn't got home, I went to store to buy some food as I were hungry.

I bought hamburgers and french fries.
Made some french fries and 2x90g burgers, ate it. Still hungry so I made 2x90g hamburgers more, ate it and done. Made dishes.
Then been on computer ever since.

Dad came home like 23:30, for like 30 minutes ago.
He doesn't even know I bought a phone yet.
My family is very economic. My dad buys cheapest thing and both my parents want me to spare money, while my gf says I never spend any money, that I only buy food etc. Which I do.
Felt that I needed a better phone, will make days more fun too. And also I promised myself to not buy any more sweets, soda etc that I use to do time to time. Because that surely costs more than my phone does each month anyway.


Well, that's what I did today.

Location: dads home

Bedtime: 00:28
Final wakeup: 07:20

Notes before bed: I dreaming. This is a dream. Reality check.
+About a 15 minute WILD attempt

School gym (dream)
I was at some athletics/physical training at a school.
I'd my gymbag with me and a rugged paper with jobs I had searched. I were going to employment service after the done at that school physical training lesson. I put the rugged paper on some weird brown wooden chair that looked like some horse saddle.
We made abdominal exercises mostly. Crunches and jackknife.

That's it. Wasn't sure if I should count it as a dream, but I think it's over the line of counting it as a dream, so I do count it as one.

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The non-lucids from last night.

Minecraft - 12:04AM

I only remember a fragment. I am walking in a green field that looks like minecraft while reading about dream recall on the forums.

Artichoke Noodles - 2:46AM

My wife and I are getting married but without any ceremony. Just the preacher. I start eating a bowl of stir fried noodles with artichoke hearts in it. (I have no idea what that would taste like) I see some artsy lettering on a door that reads Mr. "my last name", "my first name". My wifes sister is going on about it. When I read it out loud it sounds funny and wrong.

Dream1: I was strolling in this large park, the plan of which was similar the one I went to when I was a child. I can remember that I do go back to this park quite a lot in my dreams, though I can’t seem to find any entries about it in my DJs. I enjoy the scenery in the park, it feels as if summer is just turning into autumn, with some of the leaves already looking rusty. I see this pond and there are some frogs around at the edges. I know in the dream that these frogs are dying out and will soon become extinct, there will be no more frogs there. That makes me feel sad. I think I fly over the pond, because I cross it without stepping on the water, or maybe I just zoom in, looking at frogs of various sizes. I decide then to move on, moving along the edges of the pond. Now, I seem to struggle a bit because there are some rocks that are hard to climb, or maybe steps, these seem man-made and of concrete. I look and to my left side there is something like a concrete cage where there are supposed to be some pigeons. This is starting to look more like a zoo, but just the section where a particular animal is kept. And right there is the animal – a tiger. He is being held by something like a strap, I cannot see it, because I see only part of the tiger outside, his head and neck. There is something purposely put on his eyes so he cannot see me. All I want to do is cross and move over to wherever it is that I am going, but this tiger is here. He can hear and smell me, and is on the verge of jumping on me. While naturally disturbed, this is nothing like the paranoia of the previous night. Yet, I am cautious, trying to get out of there as fast as possible. After I looked away from the tiger the surroundings incorporated some housing blocks, yet there still were elements of a zoo present. I started climbing upwards on a fence, which was supposed to protect people from the animals, as it had electricity running through it. Didn’t feel anything of the sort. Around me, quite close were at least 2 lions casually lying on their sides. I managed to reach the top of building and someone threw my hat back down where the lions were. Now, I had to go down and get it back, which I did, because it was separated by some kind of plastic, so it was actually above the lions. (Animals are supposed to be a DS for me, but it hasn’t filtered through my subcon yet)

Dream 2: After watching a demo of Simcity5 a few days ago, my brain seems to have remembered the shape in which the guy in YouTube built his roads. In my dreams the shape was actually a modern railroad that I watched as if it were a map of China, yet real one, so this railroad connected the southern part of China with Beijing. I have never been to Beijing, and in my dream I was not planning on going there. But there was the possibility to have a peek through the railroad, and that’s what I was doing. So, travelling over the country, I was now facing Beijing. Think there was a sign in English. Initially, it looked really beautiful, around this building was the Chinese countryside, greenery all around, and the air was rather pleasant. Then I focused on Beijing, it was a yellow administrative building, that didn’t make much sense. I wanted to take some pictures, but this Chinese woman with her 20 something daughter already took 8 pictures, they were standing in front of Beijing. I told her that she has taken enough pics, and to go away because I hadn’t taken any pics yet. Then I went back to the subway, which was quite unpleasant. There was very little space inside, it was really tight more like a mining tunnel than a subway. There were also lots of people. This Chinese guy kept on following me, trying to convince me to taste some kind of dry round piece of food, which I did not want to consume. I was getting claustrophobic with the little space, too many stairs to walk, and the crowds everywhere. I think it was my alarm clock that put an end to this.

Mood after final waking: Pleasant, relaxed, satisfied.

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*If you fall asleep on the mother tantra then dream yoga is easy.
*Planning to go to the horse racing and make a living.

Not as much recall, but oh well.

I was playing a MMO video game of some kind with LV, there were a few in game updates that i don't really liked and global chat was annoying me a bit, but later i said that the game was ok by itself.

Last night I had my first lucid dream. As I entered into the dream, I realized that I was in a place I didn't know. So I closed my eyes and imagined I was at my new house I am staying in, in real life. When I opened my eyes I was there. In the house I stay in, there is a room with a whole bunch of space, so I thought I would try and levitate around the room. I did and had fun with that for a while. Once I got done doing that, I went to the bathroom just to look in the mirror. As I looked, I remembered that you could use a mirror to transport you somewhere else. I tried to step through the mirror but I couldn't. So I attempted the spinning technique to change my environment. I believe I got to excited and I woke up.

When I went back to sleep I tried the same method and ended up in another lucid dream. This time I was at my Mom's boyfriend's trailer. I started walking through his house and normally he has pictures up all over his walls. Well ever time I passed one, they would change into something compleatly new. They even changed into people I did not even know. Well as I got to the end of his hallway, I was walking into the living room. When I got in there I was no longer at his house, but I was at my house in the living room. I looked around wondering how I got there, and as soon as I looked to the right, there was this bald headed kid in a black cloak with a blue head looking back at me. He screamed, ran, and then dove behind something. On the other side of this thing he dove behind, a little blue rabbit, or something like that came out. I just srugged my sholders and decided I wanted to try something. I asked for a girl that I imagined was there to come to the living room from the back room. Nothing happened. So I tried calling for my sister to come out from the back room, and all of a sudden she did. I just wanted to see if I could manifest a person into my dream and I could so I was happy. Then I woke up again.

Since my method had worked both times, before I thought I would try it a third time. Sure enough, I went right back into a lucid dream. I ended up at the foot of a huge mountain, so I started heading towards the top. I was going to try and fly off the top of it. As soon as I almost got to the top of the mountain, I started seeing signs that said things like, "Do not attempt to fly." I kept double taking at these signs and the words changed,but they all had the same idea such as, "Dangerous," and "Flying prohibited." I started thinking to rationally, forgetting that I was causing those signs to be there, and decided not to jump. Then I woke up this morning and was so happy that I finally had a lucid dream.

At the start of the dream i was in sort of like a wood cabin house and i was jumping around the place, when i jumped i would jump really high and float back to the ground. It felt nothing like jumping in real life.

After jumping around i stumbled across an old school mate who i didn't really get on this, i said his name to his face and ran of jumping around again. I came to a halt and found big bags of popcorn and started to stuff my face with them until i could not swallow them because i had too much.

After that i was outside and all i could see was an image of Baby cows being born from what looked like a lighting cloud. Early that day i watched a video on facebook about animal cruelty and that must have been why i saw that image in my dream.

First dream was my dad and siblings going into this big rest stop place with restaurants and shops. I walked around and found my old restaurant job there, even though in real life it is not in a big rest stop place. I looked and instead of my old coworkers there were just a bunch of old people in their 30's and 40's that just gave me the vibe of incredibly boring people. I found one girl that used to work there named Antwanette and she asked me to sign her out, I said hey I don't work here anymore so whats the big deal, then Kelly comes to check and Antwanette realizes she forgot to check "the equipment" or something like that. I wander around and look at the bartender, don't know him but looks boring as well, makes some sort of cringing face like he knows he is boring. Then I walk around and I can't find my family, so I walk outside and they walk outside as well, I get in a separate car from them and wait for them to pull out so we can continue on the road trip.
Second dream I had I was racing my high school friend Andrew. I keep trying to catch up to him but every time I get close he just seems to have slightly more energy and he pulls ahead a bit further. We are racing on this asphalt path but I have never been on this path before. The trees are green and the sun was shining, it's winter in real life and all the trees are leafless. I keep running and following Andrew through this almost jungle like area. I kept trying to pass him but I just ran out of energy every time I caught up with him.

Part I: "Tough Love Tactics"

Through the whole dream, there was this buzzword that had kept coming up. Something along the lines of "Tough Love Tactics". In the waking world, I still haven't a clue what that means.

Anyways, the dream was rather vague. I don't remember too much of how it began, though what I do remember is this man, perhaps me, who had been walking around, two orange-yellow figures appearing next to him every now and again. He kept saying those figures were important, though I for the life of me could not tell why. They seemed almost transparent, but fully solid at the same time. One moment we entered this house, and in it was a chair, a computer and a radio. I then saw him use those two figures, and it was rather interesting.

One was using the computer, the other fiddling with the radio as if they both knew what they were doing. I asked the man who might have been me "How did you do that?", he replied with "It's Tough Love Tactics." which boggled me even as I woke up minutes later.

Notes:

I never saw the guy's face, but he was about as tall as me, wore a blue shirt and had blonde hair.
There was something having to do with dragons in this dream, but I can't remember for the life of me what they had to do with the dream.
The room with the computer and the radio seemed very foreign to me.

Interpretation:

Perhaps, the two figures represent different sides of me, and the term "Tough Love Tactics" pertains to a sort of mental state where I must think realistically yet praise myself at the same time. Perhaps, it has to do with self-loathing.

I was with a gorgeous, fit girl and we were taking ecstasy when her family and friends turned up, they were really angry that I was with her, I think 2 were her brothers and another was her partner, we evaded them and I woke up.
I tried to DEILD, failed, however I did return to the same dream, assuming that I actually woke.

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I was then having sex with her, she was laid on her back with her legs up over her head whilst I performed oral sex on her, much to her delight, we then proceeded to pleasure each other in the 69 position until we both climaxed together, I can recall the taste of her and the feel of my mouth on her vagina, for some reason we were joined by another girl, she wasn't as pretty, but she was just as fit and what she lacked in looks, she made up for in experience, we continued to pleasure each other in various ways until once again her friends and family turned up.

She expressed her love for me at this point, they were most unhappy with this confession and so they bundled me into a car, I was naked and I still had an erection, which I tried to hide. We went into a shop and I lost them in the isles, I was looking for an escape route when she turned up once more. She had packed all of her clothed and stated that we were to run away together. Just as we were about to escape, they found us again and were just about to kick off when I woke once more (I assume). I tried to DEILD again, but to no avail. I woke up proper at around 8am. I'd like to add that I didn't write any of this down until 12.40 and I still had amazing recall.

I quite liked this one.

I was swimming in a lagoon as we lived on an island just off Jamaica. Someone took or bought Dutchess (my other dog) much to my dismay.

Woke again later on, I had recall, but fell asleep before I could record it.

I was walking down the road with someone and telling them how we used to scare people as kids by climbing the trees and springing from the branches. My Mum and Dad stole my lotto card from me and I had to go in disguise to retrieve it. My Dad was going to stab me, but I called his bluff. We then noticed that my Mum was just sat there reading a book even though she was the main protagonist. There were lots of people about, so we decided to research them, it turned out that they were form years ago and we noticed that they were all in the black and white photos that were scattered around.

I went to bed early and meditated. I don't know if the nights dreams were affected by this, but what I recalled was extremely vivid.

I found myself in a group of lads, but I only knew Mini-me, although it wasn't his likeness. At one point we were smoking weed and I was telling everyone that I didn't usually smoke weed. I remember talking about Spacey and drugs and that I felt stoned. We were then in knee deep water, Mini-me had lost his weed and went looking for it in the water. At one point we were in the grounds of a church and the fence or gate had been half cut to allow access and capture of immigrants. I was shooting a Chinese boy at some point and his mother started to fight me Kung-Fu style. I told Joy to tell my Dad to get Bruce Lee to come and help me. I don't recall the order, but at some point, I found myself amongst alien technology, ships etc'. We were working for them, I had to bring ships into the dock and take other ships out from the docks. I was driving along a coast line and there was a huge whale and I mean huge as in a Jumbo Jet sized whale, that had beached itself and had started to rot away. I asked someone where we were and they said it was Grimsby. Water was flowing up inside it's body and making it's flesh ripple, lots of people were milling around it.

I was in a house and having a party, some guy started to convulse, he then proceeded to perform his party piece, which consisted of him sitting down on nothing, like an invisible chair or something and then lowering himself, in robotic movements onto the sofa. It looked amazingly cool and I asked him to teach me, which he did. As I was learning, Joy came in and asked if it was ok to skin the geese in the garden, at which point I fell over laughing. I woke up laughing and saying out loud "Your kidding, I've seen her try to skin a rabbit."

I'm recovering from an illness so it was a coughing, uncomfortable, rough night. I finally had to take 1.5 mg of melatonin to tip myself into sleep at around 4 am to get this LD (which explains the melatonin reference in the dream.) Given all that, I'm really pleased to have gotten lucid. I just wish I'd gotten more than 4 hours of sleep!

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Lucid #75: Floodlights

Wife and I are staying in a hotel room and having some disagreement about the use of melatonin in cooking and laundry. She tells me that she will never bake melatonin into bread or use it to wash our towels. Peeved, I hide around the corner out of sight, and sulk about how unreasonable this ban on melatonin baking is.

Then we're in bed trying to fall asleep. I roll over to my right side and find that there's a hammer in bed with us! I think about how horrible it would be if REM atonia malfunctioned and one of us had some kind of combat dream. (I've had a vague but long-standing fear of REM behavior disorder since I was pretty young.) I'm pissed that the hotel staff has left this in our bed and I get up, deciding that I have to get rid of this hammer.

I slide the hammer flat along the floor and throw it into the hallway through the gap under the door. It spins round and round then clonks into the wall on the opposite end of the hall. It suddenly seems ludicrous to me that the hammer would fit under the door like that and I become lucid.

Vividness looks good, so I'm excited. I head for the window of the hotel room, passing two more double beds on the way out. (It occurs to me that the bed I was just in was crammed into the kitchen nook.) As I approach the window, I notice that a four-foot metallic cube is shoved against the wall. It's vibrating ever-so-slightly and there's a strange voice coming out of it saying something about "Orcs Must Die!" (I played this game before going to bed.) I think that the voice is telling me to "insert a coin". I'm really interested in this but I start feeling confused. Worried for my stability, I turn away from the cube and turn my attention back to the window and my goals.

I want to make my way to Angel Falls for Task of the Year, so I plan to phase through the glass. I halfheartedly try to push through it, but I know that I'm doing it wrong and my hand is stopped at the window. I struggle to remember what I'm supposed to do. Oh right -- the glass isn't even there. Just do what you want. I simply walk outside into the night, paying no attention to the glass, and find myself standing on a ledge looking out over a nighttime city scene, many stories off of the ground.

I don't feel like I can Hulk-jump from this tiny ledge, so I allow myself to rise up to get a better look at the city. I'm high up now, and I see a distant tower topped by a turning searchlight, clearly visible in the night sky. It intrigues me, but I decide to stick with Task of the Year. After floating upward for a while, I land on the hotel roof. I look to the sky above me and see a strange array of floodlights shining down on me like I'm in the middle of a sports arena. The lights are blindingly bright and my vision first goes completely white, then fades to black.

For some reason, I don't think of readying myself for DEILD but instead become fixated on asking the dream scene a question. While I'm fiddling around, everything collapses around me.

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Prebed: 2MG Melatonin
Bedtime: 10:45PM
WBTB: 2:46AM / 20MIN + 20-30min insomnia,
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Taken? 4:57AM - DILD

I am in some "country" hospital that looks more like a house converted. Or a doctors office. I am with my wife and son for some reason. There is some woman in the same room delivering a baby. The room reminds me of a kitchen area and I am standing next to a built in "island". The woman seems to be propped up on the counter top. There is a bloody mess coming from her and her really young and nervous doctors is saying something about getting the tongs. The woman giving birth becomes very anxious and scared. I think this is going to end badly.

I try to be respectful and not look at the woman like a freak show. I see puddles of blood and gore on the floor. Some little girl that I assume it is the daughter of the woman picks up bloody paper towels off the floor. I become alarmed at that but her father makes her stop before I can react.

Later, I can't seem to find my wife or son. I go room to room. The house is like a maze. Pause at some doors in a hallway. I think they could at least put some room numbers on the doors. I don't know if I have been here already or not. I see the woman who was in delivery with her newborn son, husband and daughter. They are crouched on the floor next to a pallet. There are no beds. I notice the hospital is sparsely furnished. I ask them if they have seen my wife and son. The man shakes his head no. I become frantic and keep looking. I become suspicious and go back to the man. I mostly want to get a better look at the baby. From a distance he looks older and resembles my own son. I look closer and think they are hiding his face on purpose. He slithers all around under a pillow, in a blanket and then in the womans long black hair. Finally, I get a clear view of his face and decide it isn't my son after all. I ask the man once more if he has seen them. He tells me they left.

I feel panic and decide to find them. I feel like something is terribly wrong. Suddenly, I am in my car. For some reason I think they left in my brother's car. I try to think what car he was driving and get a vision of a black Nissan Altima.

I peel out and go to direction I think they went. I drive incredibly fast. I see a white sporty car passing and coming my wat. I flash my lights at him and it get back over before we collide. I start noticing how odd the car sounds and how blurry my far away vision is. I feel my foot has the gas petal all the way down. I see a slow semi and a motorcycle in front of me. I don't want to slow down but feel I have to.

Then I suddenly become lucid and relax a bit. I go to pass but see on coming traffic. I think to just plow through them for fun but decided they should veer off instead. The cars do just that. I notice one is a white Ford Ranger.

Now I have a clear road. I see pasture and country side. I pass a mail box on my right and reach out and slap it. Its spins like a top and I drive on. There is some daycare looking place on my left with huge playground equipment. I wonder what my lucid tasks are but I feel bound to the car and can't think of a way to change the scene without destabilizing. I decide that I am truly curious about the dream and want to continue the story line. The idea comes to me that I have no way to find my wife and son. Suddenly I see glowing yellow wispy tire tracks pointing the way. I start to doubt this and it vanishes. I think maybe I want to drive off and embankment into a valley. I see a small cemetery down there and change my mind.

Now all excitement is gone and I feel really bored. I try to just enjoy the country side. A car ride with no rules is always the best. But I lose focus really quickly and I suddenly wake up.