lucid

its been a long time since i have posted in my DJ on this site, i had been recording my dreams in my voice recorder before but i sorta slacked off there for a few months. anyways this morning i woke up at 6:00 and since i was still sleepy i went back to sleep and slept until 8 something in the morning. i had a short slightly fuzzy LD during this time.

the dream started with me in my house, i was looking out of the front window and i saw a large strangely shaped space ship that was colored red white and blue. i have recently in waking life been interested in UFOs so i was quite excited about seeing something so plainly and something so big. but then i thought "what if this is just a dream?" i did an RC but i had to do a few of them before i really believed i was dreaming. in fact i did the nose plug RC so much that i started to feel dizzy and felt i might wake up from breathing too hard so i stopped. but just to be on the safe side i did two more RCs one was to look at some text on something sitting on the counter and looked away and looked back a few times, i was almost convinced i was dreaming, but i needed just one more thing to truly prove it. i tried levitating, at first it didn't work and i was about to conclude that it might not be a dream but i eventually was able to float a bit above the ground cross legged while holding my feet. funny thing is i had read on DV that someone couldn't fly very much so they just floated everywhere cross legged like a, i might have somehow remembered this in my dream.

anyways i was now convinced i was dreaming (that took a lot of convincing huh?) i think the reason i was so skeptical is because i tend to do a few too many RCs in a row in waking life just to make sure i am actually awake. maybe i should bring that down a bit cause it makes me skeptical in my dreams too. anyways after i was sure i was dreaming i went out into the backyard, someone else was with me, possibly a friend of mine but im not sure. i found that i was getting around by grabbing things and pulling myself along with my feet off the ground. at some point my friend challenged me to climb the side of my house on the side where the gate is which is a lot higher than other parts. i climbed up the gate and tried climbing the side of the house which was just brick, i dont remember if i was able to do it or not. i dont remember how i got there, maybe as i was climbing my surroundings changed, i found myself in a building of offices and there were people around. i remember talking to them although i dont remember what they said or what i said. to try and stabilize the dream i was touching things, i picked up a small block of sticky notes feeling it and i took one off and felt that too, but my touch felt slightly numb and i knew the dream wasn't stable and i was losing lucidity or the dream was fading into another. i eventually lost lucidity, i dont remember much after this, at least nothing worth mentioning that has enough details to put down. the only one i remember being more vivid is i was over at my neighbors house, the one whose house i had never been into in waking life but oddly i visit it occasionally in my dreams. my and some other people were having a sleepover and there was food and i was making some sort of chocolate dessert, my mom was there.

thats all i remember but its a start to getting back into lucid dreaming. the lucid dream was a short lucid to medium length lucid dream. i can never tell how long i am in a dream by seconds or minutes, i cant even ballpark it oddly enough. to me it was maybe a few minutes maybe five maybe two so i really dont know. didn't achieve any goals. still like i said, its a start.

Not much success. All I did was run in front of a short 15 foot cliff, up a small trail leading to the top of the cliff. Ran full speed to the end of the cliff, down a small trail back to the base of the little cliff then did it all over again. Lol I was literally running in circles. Omg. How ridiculous. Lol. The only thing that was according to plan was the full moon. I need to practice Moore lucid dreaming I guess.

A little update.
I decided to try to go to your Bosnian Pyramid WN.
This was my first experience.
I saw a field of dry golden tall grass and began walking to what seemed to be west. Up a little rise, I saw with my big horse eyes (I put myself as my Avatar...a black horse) a flag waving in the wind. I thought, O.K. this must be a sign. Upon closer inspection, the flag was about 4ft x 6ft. The background was white, and the fill was thin golden and black stitching in a pattern like handwriting. I tried to make sense of the "writing or pattern", then something else caught my eye and I was distracted, dream faded.

I saw a little hole under a mound of sod. The mound was about 6, maybe 10 feet high, but this little opening beckoned me. As I stick my head in, I can see that there is a tunnel. I go in and as I am walking along, I feel the sides of the tunnel. They are dirt, but hardened and compacted. This is not a pyramid. I walk on. Thinking about the little blue vial of lucidity potion that I am looking for and wondering about the pyramid and if this tunnel will lead me to it.
The tunnel takes a slight turn to the left and becomes wider. I can stand at full height now. I think "there needs to be light" and torches appear spaced intermittently and wala! I can see bricks! Large rectangular blocks! This must be a pyramid!
After walking along for a bit more and not finding any other passages, the tunnel turns to the left again. I walk into another larger chamber and immediately notice there are DC in here. I stand back in the shadows and just watch them. They are in blue coveralls and pushing a hand cart over newly turned earth. They do not see me, or at least they don't let on that they do. On the cart is a HUGE drum of who knows what! Probably a 500 gallon drum of something and they are really struggling to keep the hand cart on track. I cock my head to the side all of a sudden understanding comes to me. I smile as the DC's finally straighten out he cart without spilling the huge drum of....LUCIDITY POTION! The one in the front turns to look at me. I guess he was expecting me or something, but he stands aside and

Woke up.
So yeah, I had seeded my dream with the image of a little blue bottle of potion and the DC's bring me 500 gallons of it!
I guess that means I REALLY, REALLY need help with my lucid abilities.lol

LUCID
*I remember getting off an elevator thinking this is a dream. That is it.

NON LUCID
*Victor helped me started up an old car.
*Frontier Communications get together while this Indian girl flirted intensely.
*Congratulated Beth and her husband for her success as directors.

It started off in the band room of my school. I was having a strange conversation with someone, so i knew i was dreaming. Even though i was already lucid, i still did the finger through palm check, and it went through. I started hearing the loud voice of my friend, but it seemed to be coming from no where, and was only directed to me. I looked around for the source of this voice until I found my friend Andrew. I kept feeling like people were touching me, which inspired me to punch someone in the face to see what would happen. I punched Andrew, and he got a little upset and punched me back, but i told myself i wouldnt feel it. I floated around and found my boyfriend, and told him i loved him. I got piggy back rides from some friends. I asked some DC i couldnt recognize why they were here, and they replied, "To wreck your world." I made my old friend appear like i usually do, but this time i decided i didnt need him anymore, and i pushed him down through the floorboard. I decided i wanted to change the scene, so i became a monkey hanging on a tree branch. This didnt last long however, because i soon found myself floating around the band room again. Everyone seemed to be in slow motion but me, and i felt like i had complete control. It was extremely vivid and the whole dream felt somewhat abstract, like time didnt exist and we were all just a picture being painted with each action. At some point i decided it would be really neat to have a dream inside a dream, so i decide to test it out. I lay down on a couch and try to close my eyes, but i got distracted because i started to feel like my fingers and toes were falling off, like they were losing circulation in my waking body. I started to this my whole body was falling apart because i wasn't breathing in real life. I started to hurt everywhere, and i felt like i could hear myself gasping for air, but not receiving any. I started to panic because it did feel 100% real, so i try to wake myself up by slapping myself and thinking really hard. I went through a few short false awakening until i was in my real life bed. I fwlt fine, but i was not sure if i was actually having problems breathing or not.

I’m in the street under a train line and as I’m walking I’m thinking about it being morning already and I haven’t had a single lucid tonight. Then it occurs to me - what if I’m dreaming right now? I look at my hands and I realize that I am in fact dreaming, even though my hands look quite normal...I just know. I do a couple of RCs - finger through the palm and pinched nose and they both work. I start rubbing my hands to stabilize and then I spin but it feels uncomfortable rubbing my hands and spinning at the same time so I stop the rubbing. I spin one more time around and it gets a little bit more stable but not completely. I start walking around a little bit and realize that I have a very heavy book-bag on my back and I drop it to the ground by just taking the straps off my shoulders. I turn around and I want to kick this book-bag really hard and I see up ahead about 30-40 feet away there is a doorway with a sign on top. I kick the book-bag real hard in that direction (this thing is huge and heavy) and it goes flying but just off target and I use telekinesis to aim it and hit the sign. The sign explodes and a piece of it goes flying at me and almost hits me in the face. I then see a woman turned away from me. She’s close to that same doorway and I decide I want to throw her against the wall for some reason. I try to do it but it doesn’t work. I then levitate her up in the air and try to do it again but she just floats down to the ground. I then levitate her up again and I start moving her around doing funny dance moves like shaking her butt (she’s wearing a short skirt...like very very short). People around me are laughing and it’s pretty funny how’s she’s floating around and doing funny dance moves. Anyway after a few seconds of that I wake up. I try to DEILD back in but it doesn’t work and I give up to record my dream so that I don’t risk forgetting it later.

Journal Entry Lucid #2 Dream,Lucid Dream , non-dream (Comments)
Background: I woke up around 3 and I tried to make some music on my computer. I read just a little bit. I did 2 or 3 reality checks just because. I didn't read Stephan LaBarge's book like I usually do. I was very sad. I tried to go to sleep at first and failed. I read my vows then I tried to go back to sleep. I started listening to some music. As I was listening to the music I imagined myself crushing all my problems. Destroying it from the Earth. I told my self it wasn't good that I am destroying but it was for a noble reason, freedom. I kept doing this. I didn't know that their was some emotional tension because I began to cry while doing the visualization. I went to sleep wanting a lucid dream but accepted the fact that I may not get one and I just wanted to sleep.

Dream fragment 2 from 4:40am-5:22am"": It was pitch dark and I found myself in the hallway of my house. I started hearing these loud vibration sounds. I thought who could be making all those sounds. Fear came in my mind. I then saw my grandma's room light so I thought maybe she is brushing her teeth in her room. I was about to use bathroom but it was too dark to pee, so I tried to turn on the light. It didn't turn on. I thought, "that's odd it took it a while to turn on" then realized it didn't turn on. I became lucid. I then ended up on my bed I tried to stay in dream, but it was pitch black so I gave up. I then awoken but I did WBTB right away. I didn't move my body. I started feeling the vibrations along with some nice sensations. I wasn't too scared of the vibrations this time. I thought to myself I can go back into this dream. I was in my room again. I knew it wasn't my physical body so I tried to wiggle out of this paralysis that I felt in the dream. I tried furiously and failed. I tried to move, nothing. So, I thought to myself I should just try and keep my awareness. I then heard these two guys talking outside my room. I tried listening to what they were saying. I was scared and I found my body on the floor next to my closet. I could move now, so I started to move my hands. The dream started to fade. I woke up in my room and the light was on. I looked at my hands, not reality check. I thought since I could see the room it was not a dream and with that thought I woke up.

Wow, last night was the most productive dream night I've ever had. Throughout the whole night, the same dream stretched chronologically and completely context logically. Rare indeed. The whole dream was spent with me either hanging out with or texting my friend Celeste, who I haven't seen in years. There was a bit of romance but mainly it was just a refreshing dream about friendship.

My first lucid came about while we were driving around hanging out.

I am in the passenger seat and Celeste is driving. Its a warm summer day and we have the windows rolled down, Celestes hair is playfully being tossed by the wind. I look outside and we are driving on a dirt road, completely surrounded by tall wild grass, wheat fields, and cornrows. We make our way up a slowly slanting hill and she finally pulls over. "This is it!" she says excitedly as she gestures out the window. A lone tree sits upon the hill gigantic and majestic, looking older than god. I laugh and run up to it and begin to climb, when suddenly I become lucid. I hang on to the tree and feel its rough bark as clarity slowly comes to me. I remember wanting to try spinning instead of hand-staring as a stabilization technique, so when the dream begins to fade I use it and find it incredibly effective. Celeste laughs. "What are you doing??" I wave to Celeste, and keep a promise I made to myself do nothing sexual.

The field oozes summer. Pollen floats in the air, heat raises from the soil, and I can feel the sunbeams on my face. Absolute heaven. Remembering another thread I commented about flying techniques, I decide to try flying as its been a while since I last did it. I jump high in the air and slowly float down, most likely just psyching myself out. I laugh at myself and know I can do it, so on the second attempt I leap forward and stay elevated. I begin to levitate just over the wheat field, letting the wheat tickle my legs.

After a few moments of flying around, I come to the edge of the field and see a construction site through the thin forest. I land and begin walking around the construction site. I see a cement foundation filled with dirt that will be used for a house, and to make sure I'm still in control I will flowers to grow. I turn away briefly then look back, and the foundation has become overgrown with beautiful wild flowers. I walk deeper into the construction site but lose lucidity before I can do much of anything else. I check my phone to see that six hours has passed and Celeste is worried. I tell her I'll be there in time for dinner and the scene changes.

My second lucid was super brief.

I attend dinner with Celeste and a husband and wife are there who my dream self recognizes as the owners to the small movie theater in town. Evidently we have history, as we laugh and talk for hours. Finally dinner is over, and everyone hugs and says goodbye. As the husband and wife are leaving, I feel a crunch in my mouth and pull out one of my bottom teeth. I look in the reflection of a car window and another falls out next to it. I smile to see if its noticeable, and, no surprise, it is. I begin to panic, then realize that strange dental things happen to me often in dreams. Bingo! I become lucid again and try spinning, but I'm aware of myself already waking up. I just stand there and enjoy how strange it is for your body to wake up when you're already "awake".

1.22.14

woke up 7:20, nap around 1pm to WILD

Got about 3 rounds of vibrations. I told myself to just stand up when they hit. So I did and counted 6 fingers. Woke up.

I hear some animal growling just 2-3 feet from me. I'm thinking"come one kitty, take a bite out of me". because I didn't want to be scared.

non-lucid:

I'm sitting in a back of a church, in the kids isles. Not participating in prayers. I see pews in another room ahead of me, facing right. I only see last few rows, don't see rest of the church.

I freak out, when my vision changes. All I can see is on the perimeter. Center of my vision is blocked by gray. I grab a hand of female sitting next to me, because I'm kinda scared. But I also know I'm safe, and this is just a game.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I am revisiting my kindergarten. It is now fully modern and totally different. I see one of the teachers from my time. I avoid her before she sees me. It connects directly to an art school. It feels familiar, but why should I know it? When several guys in the common room start looking at me, like they know I don't belong here, I hide behind a book shelf and pick up a large comics book. A boy appears and talks to me. He knows me, says he didn't expect to see me there again, I do feel like we've met before.
We go for a walk. A semi-rural area, it's pretty, but he says the surprise is still to come. At the top of a narrow street sided by old stone walls, we encounter an entrance to an old castle. He introduces me a couple of hippies who have reclaimed this abandoned site and are slowly making it their home and reconstructing it.
I leave and find myself floating through the air down to the urban area. I become aware and watch an open area, with concrete floor, a few trees, people walking in a hurry in different directions, heading to their jobs. It's a grey, rainy day, people look somber and mindeless. I am lucid and don't have a clear goal, so what I decide to do is reverse time. Don't know why, but I do it. I watch people walking backwards, the wind blowing backwards, the clock moving anti-clockwise. Then I stop it and time resumes it's course, forward. Most people don't react to what just happened, they do exactly what they had done before, repeat the same steps. But something amazing happens, a few of them remember! And whatever they are feeling changes their perception of everything. A couple of friends who is crossing paths again, they walk slowly to each other, with lucid understanding in their eyes, they stare with a smile in their faces and then they hug, with no rushes. Others stop walking and swirl around, like dancing, or stare at the sky or look at others admired that they haven't seen what they saw. They experience a small enlightnement with the realization of the relativity of reality.

1/21/14* hearing about a riot in (2nd city south of here) after a "(something) & Dreams" event. Hearing this news apparently takes me to the event. Controversy over some of the displays made. I then find myself in a classic dark ride going past these displays that participants apparently made. We are all hanging in air from long ropes as we go through the ride. One of the early displays was obviously controversial because it was an animatronic creature that looked like a stylistic hybrid of a penis and a vagina (the shaft had a vagina like opening part way up and the head was more pointed like a dutch hat with the flaps curved inwards, kind of a stylized directional arrow)...odd! (day residue? heard about siblings last night that each took the other's gender-as if their gender was confused at birth). Another animatronic display was a mythical-hero-looking, rocky-dark-gray-statue-guy kissing what looks like a male mythical-human-shaped creature. A girl in front is scared and grabs onto me and I hold her from behind. We are going past a long grayish curtain and something is just bound to pop out at any moment so I close my eyes a couple of times and I realize that this is a dream. We're still going by the long curtain for a while but then I start seeing black cobblestones or similar and wonder if the dream is fading but somehow I keep the same (though somewhat boring) scene going for what feels like another 20 to 30 seconds (using something very similar to the way I nudge on the vibrations) before I finally end up back in bed and needing to get up to go to the bathroom. This all happened 5 hours after going to bed and *before* my wbtb so it was more of a spontaneous dild that I tie to my self awareness work. 99

I'm looking at some kind of travel ad with a picture of a bridge and a quote calling it magical. A woman's complaining about the misuse of the quote - apparently it's a line from the end of a long poem about a more literal variety of magic, and the way the ad is using it is going completely against the spirit of the poem. She summarizes the poem, saying something along the lines of 'magic's one and only purpose: getting us outta here.'

As I think about what that means, I become lucid. I'm floating above the bridge from the image in that ad, high over a river, surrounded by trees; I fly along the road, over the trees, flying higher until I can see that this is an island, and I fly out over the water. It's all very beautiful, but I'm still thinking about what that woman had said, and I associate it with a quote from Tolkien in defense of escapism. (The quote: Why should a man be scorned if, finding himself in prison, he tries to get out and go home?) Thinking about Tolkien, I think that while I'm lucid, I'll go find some elves. But suddenly I feel a desperate need to, as the woman said, get outta here - rather than flying peacefully over the water, now I'm thinking of the sky as a barrier I have to break through; I'm very worked up about it. I fail completely.

When I stop trying to break through the sky, I find I'm now flying outside my IRL home. I land in a tree. My IRL neighbor's on the steps outside with some people I think of as her cousins, and she sees me. I feel embarrassed, a grown man climbing trees. The branch I'm sitting on breaks with a very loud crack, and although I don't fall very far at all, they run over to me. She scolds me for climbing trees when people are trying to sleep. We go inside. I'm still vaguely aware that I'm dreaming, but I'm thinking that I'll have to wait for these people to leave before I can do anything very interesting.

I 'wake up' on a bus. I think about the lucid dream I just had, but am distracted when Danica Patrick starts making out with the woman sitting next to me. (And yet it doesn't occur to me that I might still be dreaming...)

I'm in an office, talking to someone about the android I've been monitoring. The guy I'm talking to is the same model, and I'm asking him about some of the skills he was programmed with; I think there might be something wrong with the one I've been observing, she seems to have let some of her skills decay. He hints that maybe I've got an ulterior motive here, and he's right, but I insist I'm only concerned about my employer (their manufacturer)'s reputation. I'm thinking I'm going to have to download a training program so I can pose as a servant and infiltrate her owner's household.

(Woke up. Had an unusually difficult time getting back to sleep, I was up for at least an hour.)

There's two men sitting in front of a fireplace, a young man and an old one. The young man's saying, "Don't you want to help me?" There's a long pause. The young man isn't aware of it, but the person he's speaking to is his father-in-law; his wife, the old man's daughter, has recently passed away, and for some reason the old man thinks it's to his benefit to keep that connection secret. Now the old man says, "Your wife... Very sweet creature."

(Woke up. Back to sleep without difficulty this time.)

I'm on a train named after a greek goddess; I've just changed from a train called Autehna (which is meant to be Athena - my dreams have mixed up that name in a similar way before, again pronouncing it with a 't' instead of 'th'), and I'm thinking of the naming of the two trains as pleasantly symbolically appropriate. I'm writing in a journal. As I write, I see an image of what I'm writing about: a very powerful and morally dubious man offered me a position, and I turned him down, and I can't for the life of me figure out why. In the journal, I write that I must have learned in another life to refuse to get tangled up with the wicked and powerful.

Continuing as the same character from the train, I find my wife and children asleep around/under the Christmas tree.

Still the same character, I'm standing on a dock next to a rowboat full of men in red uniforms, casting off. I'm in the same uniform, as is the man beside me, but the two of us aren't going back to the ship with the rest. I'm thinking about that position I'd turned down, and the possible ill will resulting from that refusal, and I start to feel suspicious about the guy next to me. When I look at him, he takes off running down the dock, reaching for a rope. I reach for the weapon I've concealed in my false leg, and as I remove it I hear someone say "mon dieu!" I'm thinking about the various bits and pieces of myself that I've left behind.

(Woke up, once again couldn't get back to sleep and eventually gave up on it, even though I'd gotten only about 5 hours of sleep. Unusual.)

So I have only been journaling my lucids on here. It was pretty tedious doing journal and electronic for every dream.

This one may have been supp induced but it wasn't intentional.

Bed: 1000 pm.
Supps: 500 mg valerian, 100 mg 5htp, 3mg melatonin, multivitamin.

I was up working and needed to get to sleep but didn't feel tired at all. So I took these hoping for some great sleep. I had never tried this combo before either.

I woke around 130 or so and went back to sleep while I was thinking about different dreams where I saw my hands and became lucid. More pictured it than anything.

I was walking through a neighborhood with some huge houses. I was admiring one house in particular which had some huge stones and looked very rustic, not really like a castle more like stone henge but a house. It was pretty amazing. There were a few other houses but this is the one that caught my eye the most. I saw a kid walking up the street and I asked him if it was his house, he said yes. he ended up going to a different house and I thought it was funny he thought i was taking about that one. I also thought that he would be impressed with the house I was going to. I wound up on another street and realized that this isn't where the house I was going to was, I thought my environment was weird and I did a RC, hand wavy fingers and think I had 6 fingers. LUCID: I looked at the ground for something to stabalize on and saw a leaf. I picked it up and had some clothing kinda blocking my vision. I had a coat or hoodie or something on and struggled a bit and got it off. I looked at the leaf and started to really look at it. It was a small green brown leaf with 5 or so points on it. It was getting dark out and I tried to will it lighter and think it lightened a bit. I focused more looking for imprefections on the leaf and found a black spot on it. Feeling steady enough I put it down. It was dark out now and I decided I would go back to the cool house I saw and look around it. I passed an outdoor eating/siting area and kinda patted a lady who was with another lady on the chest (because I could). I got the the area with the houses but it was now houses with sheets/white walls that you could see shadows through. The first one I approached had two shadows of a male and female. I continued on and found one with a female in it. She was getting un-dressed and layed on the couch to take care of herself. I approached the curtain and peered over and said "hey" which freaked her out and she hid. I went around since it was just like a room divider and she was hiding under the couch. She was dressed in black leather type pants and the dream ended here.

I didn't do what I had planned so it was a kind of a waste of a dream. Should have stabalized more and longer. At least it was a lucid.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

Before falling asleep, I invoked the dakinis that watch over our sleep and dream, asking for awareness and protection against the darkness we can encounter in the dream world. Later I woke up and I saw a tiny dot of light, of the kind that I so often see during the nights, above my forehead, gently dancing like a firefly. It disappeared soon after - they never last more a few seconds visible - but the feeling of seeing them is just indescribable.
Then I fell asleep and started dreaming that I was laying in a dream version of my bed. The dakini also materialized in the dream. She looked like a moth butterfly with a humanoid body, but she wasn't pretty, was a bit more monstrous like. Anyway, she flew around my dream bed and fought away two dark clouds of energy that entered the space. Then disappeared, dragging away that darkness.
The dream continued - I don't recall a chunk of it - but then I was on a car with Riverstone down a winding road. The car starts speeding and he loses control of it. He panicks, but I take over the control of the car and tell him not to worry, because we're just dreaming. He is surprised. I insist so, but he only believes after seeing me landing the car safely after it flies out of the road and over a cliff.
I keep aware as the dream proceeds and then I am in a situation where I meet two ladies who are also freaking out with something and once again I remind them we're just dreaming. They never heard of such thing as being aware in dreams and want proof and explanations. So I provide a short intro on lucid dreaming to them and tell them I am considering making workshops on the topic and give them the names of a couple magazines and websites where I might announce the coming workshops, so that they come and meet me in person.
Now... I don't know why the hell I committed to organize such workshops to two DC's [potential other dreamers] but should I keep my promise or ignore it?