lucid

Longest LD I've had yet, lucid for about an hour real time, felt more like three in dream time.

So I'm riding an ATV in the arctic on snow packed so hard its basically ice. The further I ride, the rougher the terrain gets, climbing small hills and jumping crevasses. Eventually my ATV gets stuck in a small crevasse. I climb out and work my way up a ridge. When I get to the top the ground stops in front of me and clouds stretch out as far as I can see. Just barely poking through the cloud cover are flat topped pillars of ice about 6-ft in radius. These pillars are constantly moving from side to side, ascending and descending as they go. I decide to jump on one and ride it as it goes down. I descend through the cloud cover and break through the other side to see a city sprawling out before me. The pillar I'm riding on starts to topple over, so I jump to another. Then another, and another, until I'm close to the ground. On my last jump I slip, falling about 30 feet into a snow berm below.

I wake up in a hospital on the outskirts of the city. Winter has thawed, all traces of the ice are gone, leaving behind only green grass and a rocky mountain in the distance. The hospital staff tells me I have been in a coma, and when I look in the mirror I look about 30 years older. I start freaking out, and decide to perform an RC. Sure enough, I'm dreaming and lucidity begins.

I don't have time to dwell on this though as my subconscious has turned on me and the DC's are now chasing me and attacking me. Still lucid, I start using my superpowers against them. Though it doesn't work every time, my telekinesis is stronger than its ever been. I'm able to lift DC's with ease, moving them around in the air, force pushing them into into each other and clear over buildings. Attempts at conjuring prove unsuccessful, except for the fire bomb I produced at one DC, setting him ablaze, then telekinetically slamming him into another DC. With more and more chasing after me I try to fly away. The first few attempts are unsuccessful, but once I get into the air I swim around with ease.

The dream calms down here as I'm swimming through the air. I sporadically perform RC's to keep myself lucid, but don't really take advantage of my lucidity. Instead, I spend the rest of the time exploring the surreal world I was in.

During the day (Tuesday) i was coming down with something, towards the night it was getting worse. Took a few flue meds and went to bed, woke up around 4 am becuz of my loud brother, but I was still able to find sleep again, although I felt really sick for the few minutes I was awake. The dream begins now: I’m at work, minutes away from my performance review with my boss. And actually I have performance review coming up this Thursday. But anyways, so in my dream I’m sitting there, really afraid and nervous, and I’m trying to go home early cuz I’m sick, but my boss gets angry becuz of this and I have an axiety attack and storm out the workplace, I go home. After an unknown period of time, I recover and my family decides to take me out to dinner to help me unwind. They take me to this bar/restaurant, in the middle of it all I get up to go to the restroom and I excuse myself. I go through the door of the restroom and I’m suddenly somewhere else. I don’t even know where. (And I don’t like telling this part at all, cuz I’m not that kind of person, but here it goes..), I’m in a place where random men and women are touching, kissing,…each other. And this one beautiful woman comes up to me and starts to talk. It doesn’t take long before we’re kissing and touching, even though we started a verbal fight a minute into our conversation. She leaves suddenly, I still manage to give her a card with my number on it, I remember begging her that we keep in touch but I’m a in a panic mode, I’m asking everybody I come across on my search for her if they have seen her or know her name. I didn’t know her name.



This is where it got twisted for me. I want to go back to the bar/restaurant cuz I realize I’ve been there for a long time, I find a door and I go through it, and I’m suddenly in a haunted house. I just felt it was a haunted house cuz the inside of the house looked condemned, abandoned for at least decades, and you just feel the aware stare on you the minute you set foot in that house. The walls, everything is grey or black or darkish, nobody cleaned for decades..well you get it. I see this lil stool in the center of the room with a device in front of it. It looks like one of those big walkie talkies. But I hear voices coming through it, and I see parts of legs creeping away behind the corner of whatever room I’m in. I push the button on the thing and start talking, basic things like “hello”, and sometimes I get responses, like you would play back evp’s or something, cryptic responses that have no meaning at all. And then this female voice comes through, but this one’s different, she doesn’t just speak words or broken up sentences, but she speaks full sentences, dialogues if you will. She starts talking: (these weren’t her literal words, I don’t remember everything, what I’m writing down here is all I remember) “There is no honour in this, you need to let go, find a way. I know there’s a lot of anger, confusion, despair and pain you have. But this isn’t the way, taking your own life isn’t the answer if you don’t find a way you’ll end up like me, away from me. She talked pretty clearly and straight forward but I don’t know why she said these things, I have been suicidal in the past, but the past few weeks I’v been feeling good actually. I ask her who she is, she tells me her name is “Mess” (or something that sounds like you pronounce “mess”), and she starts telling me random (bad) events that happened in my life, like she was there or something and I start crying cuz how could this dead person/woman know so much about me, and why does she tell me this? But at the same time I feel …comfort…a familiar feeling, like somehow I know her. Then she’s gone, and I start asking questions. The random voices come again and then there’s a male/almost demonic kind of voice that comes through. I ask him where “mess” went to, who she is, where she is?....all he says is that “Mess” her name is Kim and she’s in an unknown place by herself cuz she took her own life. And that’s when I’m forced to leave the house. I go through the door again and I’m back in the restaurant, and my family is angry cuz I was away for so long. And I start crying and throwing things at them and yelling that I’m sick of this and sick of that,…and then I wake up in a complete state of panic and exhaustion at the same time.



The dream doesn’t sound like all that much but..it made such an impression on me, normally I’m always aware even that I’m dreaming, but now it was like…so real, and it didn’t make sense at all, but at the same time it did. Cuz when Kim/Mess talked I felt like…I was talking to someone I had known for a very long time but somehow I forgot her and she knew..And no I don’t know any kim in my life. When I woke up it was like…if anyone has experience with fainting and suddenly opening your eyes and gasping for air…that’s what it was like. Im wondering if I was visited by a spirit..it felt so much more than a dream.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1:

I am on my PC and i am browsing some stuff, i get onto some site with lots of images of dragons, i look through images for a while and then decide to leave but can't, it keeps opening new tabs instead. Then i see that i have looooots of tabs open already, i think that i would not even had so many tabs open, and then i feel that i am dreaming. The monitor starts showing some red image, i decide to ask dream about my dragon form and monitor starts cycling through dragon images, then dream fades.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was apparently watching some kind show which was based on minecraft, but with actual people instead of players. People were having problems with redstone in their factory.

I am sleeping on my couch. I wake up. There is something stuck in my teeth. I start to pick at my back teeth. Three of them fall out into my hand. There is blood everywhere. I get up and walk to the bathroom. I see the bathroom window is open.(It is never open. There is even plastic over my bathroom window) I look in the mirror at my missing teeth and it doesn't seem too bad. I start to think about how weird it is that the window is open and think I need to text my boyfriend to see if he opened it before he went to work. (He works nights) I all of a sudden hear my boyfriend talking to me from the kitchen down the hall from our bathroom. I realize none of what has been happening makes any sense. I run out of the bathroom screaming his name and saying oh my god! this is a dream! I am literally jumping up and down screaming at him this is a dream I grab his arms and shake him. Yelling don't you understand! As soon as I acknowledged it being a dream he didn't make any eye contact and grabbed my shoulders and laid me down on the couch. I then wake up. On the couch he laid me down on........
This has only been my second lucid dream and it is funny because after the first one I had (about 2 months ago) I knew that I had to work harder to control my emotions. But I was completely overwhelmed. It was almost as if the dream figure of my boyfriend was the consciousness behind my dream and he was really annoyed that I was being so obnoxious. Next time I will moderate my emotions. The feeling that I had upon waking up is indescribable.

#238 - DILD - 5:00AM

I am wondering in an elementary school looking for my class. Several kids rush to a room to be in a popular teachers class. Once he accepts the 13th student he has to turn everyone else away. several kids walk away looking disappointed. I wonder why the school just didn't schedule people like they usually do. I come to an empty classroom with a young female teacher. I really have to pee and I think I see a really small toilet with a door acting as a partition. I mumble something about finding a toilet but as I get closer, I see it's actually just a white trashcan. I can feel the teacher looking at me and think I better say something. "I thought there was a toilet in here." She says, "No." And mumbles something else as I walk away. I pass the popular teachers room and wonder outside.

As I make my way to the other school building across the street I notice that I am wearing a backpack and I feel like I can barely move. The effort is making my tired and by the time I reach the glass doors I feel that I am moving ridiculously slow. The feeling reminds me of SP and I suddenly realize I am dreaming. I decide the backpack was the problem and I take it off. I freely move inside and see a younger version of my mother standing there. Instead of doing a task, I decide to just go with the theme of the dream and see where I end up. I hand mom the backpack and say, "Hey mom take my backpack."
She asks why and I tell her, "Because, you know where my class is and you can take me there. I hook my hands around her elbow and I feel her drag me down the hall. I the the ceiling and my vision gets jumbled. I feel my mom suddenly sling me around and I come to a stop.

I am now looking into a classroom with only a handful of kids sitting a desks. For whatever reason I decide to act like a totally asswagon now. I shout out the ever cheezy, "Whats uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup." Then, WHAT UP BITCHES?!" I see a boy who has a bald shaved head and his black hair begging to grow back. "Hey baldy!" I rub his head and then slap him hard in the back of it. I see no seats to take but there is a comfortable looking beanbag chair in the corner. I go sit down.

I can't see the teacher very well but she is talking to me, "I don't want you here. You are a mouthy kid and mouthy kids make me mad."
I let out a loud giggle at that, "Well, too bad. I am number 13 and you have to have 13 in your class. Besides, you'd have to deal with me eventually. You might as well get it over with now."
The teacher seems to accept this but clearly doesn't like it by the way she is mumbling under her breath. I realize I am not sitting idle and I think of my body in bed. I suddenly wake up.

#237 - DILD/DEILD/OBE - 3:48AM

The first thing I can remember is laying in bed next to my wife. I look over to my right and see my mom lying on a smaller bed. She tells me, "I was laying here and I thought my body had not moved but it felt different. A cop came and said this was a dream and that I was having a lucid dream within a lucid dream."
I feel excited that my mom finally experienced a lucid dream. I say, "Oh wow that so cool!" I hope my wife heard about this and will have a lucid dream too. Then it all dawns on me. I think I am the one dreaming. I do a nose plug and blow cleanly through.

At that instant, I am on my back in the dark. I feel the vibes and transition out of my body. It is dark but I can barely see where I am going. I strain and there is a breif flash lighting up the room then dark again. I head to the front door while rubbing my hands and concentrating on seeing. Just before I reach the door. I feel a force sucking me back to my body. I try to grab onto something and fight against it but it is of no use. I slam hard back in bed. I realize that I was never on my back but am on my left side.

I feel vibes again and am encouraged to try DEILD. Suddenly, I am gripped with fear and feel that there is a presence behind me. I can feel something like large cat claws lightly digging into my back. I roll over and blindly point at whatever it was and say, "Go away in the name of Jesus." Then, "Jesus help me." Immediately the fear lifts and the presences goes away. I am lying on my back and I begin to float upward. There is a slight sensation as I feel myself moving through the ceiling and rafters in the attic. Then I see a bright light as if through closed eyes. A feeling of total joy and peace envelopes me. I begin to hear music. A sitar plays something beautiful while a choir of angels sing a wordless tune. I relax and let the feeling wash over me as I enjoy the music.

After a few moments I ask, "Show me a past life." At that, I float back down to the bed. I get up and head outside still in the dark but this time unhindered. The front door looks different this time. It has a window in the middle of it with blinds. There is a small window above the door and I realize I must be floating along the ceiling since I am eye level with it. I try to phase through the glass but get caught up in the blinds. Rather than make a big deal about it I just open the door and step out. My body is light and I can't help but fly. I float up the roof and push off making swimming motions. Once above about the trees, I look at the ground in front of me. Its still really dark but I can see that there are no other houses next to me but I see some colorful lights along the horizon. Against it I see the silhouette of a city on a shoreline. I still feel that the dream can show me a past life and begin chanting, "Show me a past life." I make more swimming motions toward the city. For I moment I it looks like I am looking at a nebula and stars around it. I look down and see more stars. I think this is not right, and focus harder on getting to the city. I am quickly sucked towards it.

I hear a swooshing sound and find myself coming in hot to a parking lot. When I plant my feet down I realize I am barefoot and though there is no pain I feel my feet skidding on asphalt and gravel. I think that I may had gotten road rash but try to ignore it. The feeling of this gets me thinking about the surgery task and I totally forget about seeing a past life. I look around in a parking lot and see several people walking next to some parked car that look like something from the 40's or 50's. There is a man getting out of something like a Studebaker. I stop and for some reason show him my left forearm and ask, "Have you ever had surgery.... On yourself?"
He looks at me and roboticaly says, "No I have not had any type of surgical procedures." I suddenly wake up.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps. Getting back to consistency hopefully...

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing minecraft apparently and there was one level with huge moving elevator full of zombies and creepers which i was fighting through with a team.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing spiral knights with SilentEternity and for some reason weapons didn't worked properly. We were doing some kind of variation of RJP level and had to attack enemies with vials.

Dream 3(fragments):

I am at home and i randomly realize that i am dreaming, dream is unstable but i manage to keep it reasonably stable, i go to balcony but door's closed, i touch it and it comes off the hinges and falls, i take off and fly with my wings but then shortly dream fades.

Dream 4(fragment):

Some talk on skype.

Dream 5(fragments):

I was at home and many things kept me distracted from nap, family decided to make alot of noise and then everyone was interrupting me...

I've been lazy recording my dreams so I may as well catch up now. I've been listening to the Inception soundtrack, which has inspired me!

A couple a days ago I had my longest dream I've had for a while, unfortunately its been a few days so I've probably lost some details. I remember going to my local paintball course and finding out that they had new paintball guns. These guns could hold a much larger amount of ammo, but we were not allowed to take any extra ammo onto the field when we used them. I fired off a few shots from the edge of the course to test it. It looked and felt just like the regular guns. There were only a few people with me at the time. None of my usual paintballing friends were there.

Later on...
Something was happening. I think I was in a house. I remember thinking "This is probably a dream." That caused me to pause and realised that this was definitely a dream! When I became lucid I was standing in the laundry of the house I was in. At this point I paused to take in the incredible clarity of the surroundings. I'm usually bad at maintaining lucidity, so I tried to engage my dream senses as much as possible. This seemed to solidify the dream, but I was still scared to close my eyes in case I lost the dream. This wouldn't be a problem for most people, but my most reliable way of teleporting in dreams is to place a portal on a wall and travel through it to my destination. I can only seem to do this with my eyes closed, hence my dilemma.

Instead, I decided to try a few other tricks that I have heard about. I had a look in the laundry cupboards to see if I could find anything awesome to help me teleport. Unfortunately I only found normal laundry stuff. Another technique I have heard is to reach into your pocket and pull out a button. The button is then able to do anything that you want. I tried reaching into my pocket, but again had no luck. By this point I was getting annoyed at my complete lack of dream powers. Not too much later I woke up. I'm pretty sure I woke up into another dream, as in the morning I had nearly forgotten that lucid.

Last night:
I had a few dreams, but this one is the most clear as I was still having it when I woke up. I was at a beach with a few of my friends. We found a place just behind some sand dunes to chill and hang out at.

Much later I returned to the beach with my friends (I think they were still the same ones). We tried to find the same spot behind the dunes, but the tide had come in a lot. We found the spot, but now we had to wade through water to get there. We climbed through a tunnel in the sand dune to get there. I ended up climbing into a sand-dune-cave (which was not what we were at before). One other person climbed in too. It was very cramped (you had to crawl to fit in) and we were unlikely to fit anyone else in there. I saw a small snake in the cave. It started moving towards me. I told the other person in the cave to get out of the cave, as I couldn't get out while they we still in there. Then the snake then crawled into my pants. It looked like a diamond python, but I didn't want to take any chances. I slowly and carefully crawled out off the cave so that I didn't disturb the snake in my pants.

When I crawled out of the cave I was back in my room at home. I got the snake out of my pants and threw it on the floor. The snake grew to about 50cm and turned into a rattle snake. I was unsure what to do about the snake in my room. Someone (who was also in my house), told me I should just take the snake outside and kill it. I didn't want to try that as I was concerned that the snake was deadly. The person grabbed a shovel and killed the snake in my room. I was happy that the snake was finally dead. I think the person then asked if I had any more snakes in my room. I said I didn't think so, but they had a look any way. As they looked at the foot of my bed a huge (at least 3m) yellow-bellied black snake reared out from under some boxes at the foot of my bed. The person leapt back in surprise and started fighting the snake. At this point I woke up.

For the next 10 or 15 mins I kept checking behind my back for snakes, even though I knew I was awake!

In this dream today is my birthday (it's actually next week). I "wake up" and I am in a house that has wooden floors. There are pieces of ribbon scattered about the floor in all different colors. I see my cat Luna but she looks different. Her hair has been styled and cut, but it looks cute. I actually really like it. Apparently I have a pet rabbit too. It hops across the floor next to me. Ray is in the house with me. He tells me to grab a leash...and then we decide to head out. He leaves really fast and I forget the leash....I'm not sure why I needed it or for what animal it was for so I chase after him. I tell him I forgot the leash and he rolls his eyes at me.

"Well..." I say, "What did you want me to bring, the cat or the rabbit?"

He doesn't respond.

"I SAID, what did you want me to bring?" I start getting louder, "HELLO?! Answer me! The cat or the rabbit?" People start staring at us...but I really couldn't care less. I just repeat myself over and over....

Until I realize that this situation makes no sense at all.

I become lucid.

"This is a dream! You know what SCREW YOU! I'm leaving!"

I walk away from him and come to a market. There is a lady in a booth selling pizza.

"I'd like one slice of pizza please. And if you can please hurry, I won't be here much longer. I can tell I am going to wake up soon." I say.

I realize I don't have any money and then visualize a dollar in my pocket. Sure enough, when i reach in I can feel a dollar in there. I hand it to her. I look around and people are celebrating something in history having to do with the civil war. Everyone is dressed up in old clothing doing reenactments.A different younger girl pulls me away from the booth by my hand. Then the dream ends.

Time Lucid - DEILD (30sec), False awakening 1 (30sec), False awakening 2 (2min)
Non lucid - grey text
Semi Lucid - red text
Lucid - blue text

Dream Fragments:
I'm watching TV at my house, and I see my Dad.

I'm looking into the trees/ditch, where I used to run around the c-town football ground.

DEILD:
I'm at my primary school, on the oval at night. I was thinking of having a wank on the oval (right.. getting my creep on I see.) I see a girl walk passed the fence, and she was dragging a sheet along with her. I wake up and begin the DEILD process. I've been on a bit of a dry spell and got a tad excited and got up too early out of my dream body. My vision was pretty messed up looking, so I decided to take off my glasses which worked for more clarity. I check my hand for a reality check, but just do it out of habit, due to the fact I know I'm dreaming. I double check by levitating myself up to the ceiling of my room and touch the roof. I walk out of my room and notice that my Dad is making his bed, but the room looks different. I try and piss him off for the hell of it as he makes his bed. I then wake up.

False Awakening 1:
I get out of my bed and look at my hand, and notice I have 3 fingers. I'm dreaming. I look around for a pill in my draw, expecting it to be there and being LCD. I keep coming up empty, but I do find some empty medication tabs. I look towards my bed and see that there is another empty tab. I decide to fly out of my room, low to the ground. I fly through the kitchen and passed Dad's lounge room. I notice that someone is in the lounge room as I pass and I pull on the brakes and slide across the floor. I begin to wake up and I prepare for a DEILD chain. The scene re-appears, laying in the exact same spot. I rush through the transition and fail the DEILD *shakes head* so impatient lol.

False Awakening 2:
I'm in my bedroom standing up, I do a RC and realize I'm dreaming. I begin to stabilize the dream by rubbing my hands together, and taking off my glasses which helped a lot. I look at my hands and really study them to get the scene even more vivid. I walk out of my room into the lounge room where Dad is. I see that he's half on and half off the couch, asleep with a blanket half over him. I try and wake him so I can talk to him, but pushing him a little. He awakens and still looks half asleep, and doesn't want to make convocation. I give up on Dad and walk into his bedroom, and walk towards his bed. I look to see if Mum is under the blankets (or anyone else). As I lift the blanket up, I see a dog walk out from under the blankets. It's not my dog Rex and it is a lot bigger then my dog. I look at my hands again to try and keep this lucid dream going, as the recent lucid dreams have been very short). My hand looks as if they are cracked. I continue to really focus on them. I felt confident the dream would last longer now. I figure I should leave the house (I usually never make it out of the house). I walk towards the door, intending to go across the road to the neighbors house to see who I could meet and talk to/have sex with (my penis gets the better of me a lot). As I reach the door, my alarm goes off and wakes me.

I've never had more then 2 lucid dreams in 1 night. I'm wrapped with getting 3. What made it better was it was coming off of a dry spell

Just wanted to say I was particularly pleased with myself this morning. I am still very much learning and normally I realise I am in a dream when something bad happens; being chased, ghosts, deaf. At which point I would take over Lucidly and change the nightmare. However last night I impressed myself by becoming Lucid by noticing something much smaller - See I can drive but I don't have a car. In the dream I had forgotten something and was driving rapidly back to my house to fetch it, then It dawned on me that I couldn't be driving if I don't own a car, and became Lucid from there. Good progress!

October 13, 2013

A side-note
A lucid dream
A dreamsign

These dreams came after insomnia kept me awake from 1:30 to 4:30. Before going back to bed, I listened to the dreaming self-hypnosis files I made for myself.

Drugs at a wedding
I'm at a wedding with my wife. We're walking around "back stage." Lots of people are moving around, getting ready. We pass the photographer's area and see at least half a dozen giant camera lenses - they're inches wide and at least a couple of feet long. I think ruefully back to the few weddings we shot with our "cheap" DSLR.

Now I'm standing above the seats. The place looks like a concert hall, with the seats in a semicircle around the stage. The floor is incredibly sloped, going down at at least a 45 degree angle. There are countless rows, so the stage is far, far below me. The curtains are still drawn. My wife is sitting on the top row, which is still a good 10 feet below me. Her chair is all by itself, with a table and lamp next to it. I realize she'd expected that I would sit with my friends while she stayed in the back to feed the baby. Now I'm next to her, seeing if there are any seats nearby we can move to and sit together.

Now we see a group of her old friends a few rows beneath us. They see us, too, and are waving at us to come down to them. Now we're with her friends. They're in a roughly circular area that's clear of chairs. I don't know any of them, so I'm staying at the edge of the clearing, near the chairs. I want to sit down, but even though this area doesn't have many people sitting in it, they're sitting in such a way that no three adjacent seats are empty: if I'm going to sit, I'm going to have to sit next to someone. I finally resign myself to it and sit by a stranger.

Now my wife is gone - I don't know where to - and her friends are acting very strange, very loopy. They're trying to give me something that will make me feel really good. I don't know what's going on, but I want no part of it, so I start to walk away. A girl from the group comes running around in front of me and tries to slap something on me. I don't know what she's doing, but I'm sure it's nothing good, so I dodge. I think she missed me, but then I notice there's a small sticker on my nose. With horror, I realize it must be some kind of drug patch. I try to peel it off, but it's too late. I feel the drug start to take effect, and the world slips away.

Now I'm on a pool deck. I feel very strange, and I'm not myself. I think I'm a mouse, though I'm really just very small. A tiny dog is nearby. The deck furniture towers around us. We swim out into the pool and make it to a small floating platform, which we climb onto. I manage to tie the platform to the dog, then we both jump back in and swim back to the pool deck, with the dog dragging the platform behind itself.

Now I'm in a dusty town. Something is wrong, though I'm not sure what. I see the town sheriff and deputy go up to a large door with two keyholes. They each take a key, insert it into a keyhole, and turn at the same time. Somehow, I know that they were given these keys by a stranger, and that by unlocking this door they've corrupted themselves and unleashed destruction on the town. Now I'm running from something in the town.

Now I'm running down a wide hallway when giant yellow squash, a.k.a. Squashers, come bounding in from the other direction. I hope they didn't see me and try to get out of their way, but one veers off towards me. As it's pushing me towards the back wall, I wonder what it's like to be killed in a dream. That stray thought gets me lucid.

Candy and flying
Now I'm in a small room, the size of a small closet. It's kind of like a little tiny cubicle, since it's not actually closed on all four sides. At this point, as is usual for my lucid dreams, I'm still following the dream's plot. I decide to make the room bigger, so I point at one of the unconnected edges, then move my finger, and the edge of the wall follows my finger, growing longer. I make a similar gesture and push the wall back.

Then I remember that I have 2 goals I want to accomplish (flying and one of the basic tasks of the month, eating candy) and I should be doing those instead. I decide to tackle eating candy first. I start to think about how best to summon some candy. I remember that most of my attempts at direct dream manipulation in the past have failed, so that's out. Believing that something exists behind me, then turning and finding it, has always had a great apeal to me; unfortunately, it's also always failed in the past. Then, I remember reading that ordering DCs to change the dream tends to be very reliable, so I decide to try it. I walk through the gap in the wall into a living room. A few women are sitting around on overstuffed chairs, some with ottomans, some without. I walk up to the nearest one. She's in a tan chair next to a small round side-table with a lamp, with her feet resting on an ottoman. She's wearing an intense blue, maybe a purple. I tell her to give me candy.

She looks up at me, and I see that she's a friendly middle-aged woman. She gives me a motherly smile, grabs her purse, and starts to look through it. It's packed full of odds and ends, but nothing looks like candy. She looks up at me, then points to a long, narrow, zippered bag (also a violent blue) on the ottoman. It's already open, and it's packed to overflowing with all sorts of candy. I pick it up and look through it. I remember that in the waking world I'd been planning to try to eat some chocolate, so I look for a chocolate bar. I manage to find a "Fun Size Snickers" bar near the top of the bag, so I take it. I tear off the wrapper and look at it. It looks just like a tiny square chocolate bar, with smooth brown sides and a wavy top. I take a bite through the middle; it tastes like chocolate. I look at the section I bit through and see that it looks like a Three Musketeers bar, but with a thin ribbon of dark chocolate running through the middle. It actually tastes about as it looks.

One goal finished, one to go. I leave the house through a sliding glass door. I find I'm at the top of a grassy hill. In front of me, the hill leads down to the ocean. I can see the waves lapping against a rocky shoreline with just a bit of sandy beach. Off to my right are a few trees. To my left, the grassy hill just goes down with nothing in the way. I turn to the left and start to run down the hill, then jump up and spread my arms like wings, holding them straight out to my sides. At the height of my jump, I'm three or four feet off the ground, but I quickly come back down and stabalize in a glide just a foot or two above the ground. It's not quite the flight I'd hoped for, but I'm still moving quickly through the air.

I'm half pleased, half disappointed. Gliding in the air was neat, but I'd really wanted to *fly*. Now I'm back at the top of the hill. I get another running start, jump, spread my arms, and start flapping. I have a clear picture of the roofline of the house - I believe I managed to hang in the air for a few seconds this time before coming back down. This time, I'm gliding so low that tall pieces of grass are hitting me in the face.


Motorcycle seat
I'm outside with Andrew, looking at his small motorcycle. He's trying to fix it, but he needs to go get something. He asks me to hold the bike while he steps away. Now I'm holding the bike, but I don't know why. Don't motorcycles have kickstands? I look down and see not one but two: one on the front-right, and one in the normal place at the back-left. Both kickstands are already down, so I gently let go of the bike to see what'll happen. The bike starts rolling forward, pushing the front-right kickstand back. The rear-left one is holding. I stop the bike and try to reposition it so that it'll stay up on its own.

Now Andrew is back out with another man, someone who looks at home on a motorcycle. There's something wrong with his seat. It's a piece of leather with a plaid pattern inserted into a square wood frame. During the cut, they removed the sealant keeping it watertight and pulled it up from the frame, away from the glue that held it down. They've fixed whatever the problem was and have re-glued it, but now they're worried about how to reseal it. They keep talking about using tape, but none of us likes that idea, since it wouldn't work very well, not to mention looking very tacky. I suggest using more of that same acrylic sealant that was used on it originally, but they shoot that idea down. They're fixated on trying different kinds of tape. I'm still convinced the clear sealant is the way to go, but I suggest they should call the motorcycle company and see if they can order some of the original compound. They consider the idea for a moment, then realize that it's a holiday so the company won't be open, and later in the week is an important company event, so they'll be too busy to talk to people about fixing broken seats.

Dream recall from today"s WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was reading someone's dream apparently on a side that looked vaguely like DA, it was about an island and a blue dragon.

Dream 2(fragment):

i was talking to friends on skype.

Dream 3:

I wake up in bed but i am in different room. There's a collection of dragon plushies in front of the bed and some of them are a bit changing so i am dreaming, i try to phase through window but dream destabilizes and i bounce off, then it fades out.

I think I attempted a DEILD or I may have had a DILD, it's very fuzzy. I remember nose plugging and straight away being in a gym to meet Kai Greene. I think I imagine him and he appears and walks up to me. We talk to each other and dream ends.

What made it strange, is that it felt like I was in a non lucid dream through out the whole dream. I had incubated this scenario before, but somehow It didn't click with me.

Sunday 10/13/13

Last night bed 11pm - 8:45am

I frequently have dreams from very shitty years in my life. They don't really upset me because of the content, but they upset me, because they are taking up my valuable dream time, and I would rather forget. But these make me remember and I alwyas feel like crap after being reminded of that.

I had another one of those last night. I wasn't gonna right it down. Until I realized, it was somehow different. In all dreams, I always just took what was being dished out to me. But in this one, I turned the table on them and I think I prevailed. So I'm gonna write it down, since it seems like a breakthrough dream.

DR - I'm told I did a crappy job. In front of a large crowd of people gathered for a party. I know I'm being unjustly accused. So I stand up and say to everybody sitting at the table - "If anybody wants a hard working person, I'm available". And everybody laughed with me, on account of the stupid person accusing me of not doing good job. I felt like I could leave at my leasure, and I don't have to take shit anymore.

NAP 3pm - 5pm
I layed down on my sofa with intent to wild or else. I knew I'm having something.

Started by some breathing from head to toes. I wasn't even done yet, and I was getting flashes of dreams.

Next 2 hrs were a mix of HH, dreams with high awareness but not lucid, transitions, and LDs.

Every time I woke up, I didn't really wake up. I stayed in the "between" stage. I really have no idea what was what.

1. All I know, that I had a massage on a table, while I was holding my cat. I was on my stomach in little bit of warm water, to make me comfy. I thought cat will freak out, since he hates water. But he also loves warmth and he fell asleep so peacefully. I thought how funny it would be, if I had a LD while getting a massage. At that moment I feel like I'm sitting up, laying down, sitting up... But I hope it's just my dream body and the masseuse will not notice.

2. I'm getting out the window into the night. Glass is only on the edges and has a yellow stripe. I'm high up in the air, over 30 stories high. I'm looking at the highrise buildings in a large town. I figure I fly to the police building. Windows are dark, after office hours, but I wanna do it anyways. I get there but can't stop the flight at their offices.

3. I'm sleeping, my mom is also in the room. I was telling her previously about my ability to see with closed eyes. Now I'm already asleep and I'm talking to her, that I can see what's on tv, and I even read her from the screen. But I also know, that tv is off.

4. I'm outside again. Daytime, sunny. I'm deciding where to go. I look up and I decide to follow some commercial airliners. But I can't fly. I hug a missile and imagine it's engines on. Still nothing.

5. Something sexual. I was done in 5 sec or less.

At least once, I was thinking, which sensation to envoke, to get into LD, but then I realized I can just stand up and so I did.