lucid

I had 3 lucid dreams on the 20th. I actually had ONLY lucid dreams on the 20th:

1. I don't recall what I was doing prior to the first dream, but I "came to" in a room near a mirror (mirrors tend to make me lucid - something about looking at myself). I looked in the mirror after attaining lucidity and thought "I don't look like that!"
I closed my eyes and forced my face to conform to non-dream reality, and looked again. This time I actually looked like myself. I inspected my face, and decided I was satisfied.
I tried the "mirror trick" where I close my eyes and pretend a DC is behind me, then check my reflection. I was trying to summon Warlock, because he's a lot of fun to hang out with (lucid or non), but he wouldn't show up. I decided it was because he was busy, rather than it being due to a lack of dream control.
I decided it would be fun to make myself into a cartoon, but the dream was fading. I tried lifting my hand to my face, so I could inspect it and try to make it cartoony, but I felt my non-dream hand move. Interestingly, I "felt" myself bring it up to my face, BUT I know I couldn't have moved it that much with that much coordination. The "black fog" was setting in, and I think it was actually an illusion of moving my non-dream hand created by my mind because it was expecting the dream to end.

I woke up, rolled over, went back to sleep.

2. I dreamed I was in a Cadillac being driven by Buddy from Six String Samurai, and I think the kid was in the back seat. We were trying to find something, but the road was blocked off, so instead we went down a road that said Do Not Enter. I voiced my objections, but we kept going. We were on an overpass very high off the ground. It curved sharply, and was a very smooth and even light grey color, with no highway markings. We were going ~120 mph. I expected us to go over the side of the overpass... so naturally, we did. As we were falling, I realized I was dreaming. I tried to stop the car in mid-air, but when I attempted to exert control, everything went black. I woke up irritated.

I decided to try WILD:

3. I made it through the "wind tunnel", which tends to be uncomfortable.
I was hanging in the void, 3D darkness, aware that I was asleep, but there was no "Stage" to enter.
There were little ribbons of color sort of sparkling but not really sparkling in the void because there was no light. Think of it as being different colors of black, like an Aurora Borealis that is all black. It's black, but it's a color - red, or green, or blue, but with no light. Colored darkness. It drifts.

I saw curls of gray-white "smoke", more physical than the rest. I tried to form it into a dream, played with it, tried to make it into something, but all I could do was manipulate it a bit and blow it around.
Eventually, after playing with the "smoke" for a while, I got bored and slipped back into non-lucidity.

On the 21st:
I dreamed some people (a husband and wife) wanted to buy a timeshare. They were both kind of chunky, with black hair. They spent $1200 just to tour the place, and it was not what they were promised. They were out $1200 and very disappointed. It was basically kind of a crappily built poured-cement condo dressed up a little bit. The mall and pool area required you to cover your head with a towel when you wanted to be there. There were people there (a few) but they were oddly emaciated, looked sketchy, and weren't doing much.

i wandered into some bathroom where all sorts of weird figures were doing stuff and i realized by looking at the mirror that it was a dream . ilooked to the door to some girlboy walking out and i said fuck you for no reason.

then i looked in the mirror and tried to stabalize the dream by repeating to myself this is a lucid dream. i rubbed my hands and tried to see them but it faded fast.

#239 - DILD - October 20, 2012 - 3:38AM

I am in the shower wondering why I never got lucid last night. I feel really odd and sick like I am very hungover. There is a mirror in the shower and I see myself making odd faces like I am going half mad. I begin to soap up while I go into deep thought. I notice that bathroom is a mirror image of what it should be. I don't understand any of this but I begin to feel sexually aroused and think of taking care of it but I hear a noise and I assume my wife is joining me. A strange woman appears and doesnt seem to notice me. She takes something off the rack in the shower and quickly leaves. I peer out and see a strange man just sort of hanging out in the bathroom. I say something to him about the bathroom being backwards. Then I ask, "You see that, bitch?" All of this is too wield so I do a nose plug and blow through.

Now that I am lucid, all anxiety leaves me. Everything makes sense now. I mutter things like, "Ok fine. Now hold on. OK." I forget about showering and believe the soap is gone (it never existed) and I am fully clothed as I step out. To make sure I look down and see that I am wearing my dark blue basketball shorts and some white t-shirt. Ok, good enough. I want to shout out that this is a dream but decide to be more on the mellow side and stay cool; I don't want to wake myself up. The man follows me like he knows me. I feel like he is an old friend so I allow him to tag along. As we walk outside my house looks a bit more normal now and it notice that the color is a little cartoony but vivid. The lighting is good. No darkness this time. I am happy with that much at least. I try to remember my goal this time and for some reason I think of finding two of my nephews but that doesn't seem right.

We reach the front porch and I follow the man into the yard. As I step off I feel like I fall a little too far and and the man seems to grow to at least 10 feet tall. I look him over for the first time and he looks like a modern day cowboy. He actually resembles my nieces husband but I didnt think of him as such then. I concentrate and focus and the man returns to normal hight. I feel like asking the man what he represents but think that might be a little too much for him. I don't know why I think this. Instead I ask, "What is your name?" At first my voice is weak and I feel like something is putting pressure on my throat. I breifly wonder if something is on my neck in waking life but I feel like I can breath ok so I try to ignore it. I clear my throat and try again. This time my voice is clear and my throat feels much better.
He pauses, "Well uh. Well hold on how um."
I interrupt, "No no no no. It's fine don't worry about it. I doesn't matter." I don't want this dream character to start breaking down so I try to take back the question.
He seems to visibility relax, "Well ok. I might be able to tell you in about 4 hours."
I don't know what he means by that but I grin, laughing to myself.

We are walking down the sidewalk and I suddenly recall one of my goals, to find a Yurei, but I can only think of it as Ju-On (The Grudge). I begin looking around and do a full 360. I notice that the cowboy has suddenly vanished. In fact I feel very alone and vulnerable but, knowing that I am only dreaming I hold my courage.
"Hey bitch!" I can't think of what to call the ghost. I turn back to the direction I was originally headed. There is a great white wolf sitting a few yards away looking at me. At first I over look it but do a double take. The wolf's snout begins to distort and I think maybe this is it. I charge forward but as I get closer the wolf looks normal and much more friendly. It stands and begins to pant with excitement. I stop in front of it and let my guard down. The wolf behaves like a domesticated dog and lets out a friendly little yap. I reach down and absent-mindedly pat her head.
"This is the wrong bitch", I muse.

I turn back to my house with my new friend padding along side me. I shout, "HEY BITCH WHERE YOU AT? HEY JU-ON!" Again I say the wrong name but my dreaming mind knows what I mean... right? Suddenly the neighbourhood beings to look very dark and creepy but the amount of day light stays the same. It's almost as if someone suddenly turned on the horror film effects. I begin hear that high pitch screatching music that you hear a lot in those movie. I am quite pleased with the creepy effect and suddenly I feel that someone or something is about to come out the front door of my house. I turn to meet the ghost without any fear and much excitement. At the very moment, I suddenly and unexpectedly wake up.

Fragment-

I WILD straight into a dream scene but I am only half lucid. There is a dead body on the floor and I kick it. It seems to slide. I tell myself that it is only a dream. I false begin to remember another lucid and a false memory I had. I feel like I am forgetting but try really hard to remember. I see Wulman and hear him saying something but I am too focused on remembering. I begin to write on some paper but stop because I know that it will be gone when I wake up.
Now I am sitting in a recliner with a bottle of Jim Beam. Wurlman is talking like Trevor from GTA 5. I tell him, "Dude, stop talking like Trevor." I really want to concentrate on remembering. I soon wake myself up.

It's been over a year, but I'm going to start making DJ entries on here again. I've been keeping them in my own journal but I ran out of space. I will be labeling weird stuff in red and lucid stuff in blue. Also, waking life in green. This dream was extremely vivid and different than anything I've experienced before. (Except while lucid.)

Last night - Friday October 19th

The first thing I remembered was being in a very large super market. For some reason, it was extremely crowded (much more crowded than I've ever seen before, even on black friday.) Most people were in the very back of the store waiting for a certain item to come out. I believe it was some kind of new technology that acts like an inhaler, but is basically equivalent to eating a full meal. I was immediately interested so I got one, along with the crowd.

After I bought it, people were trying it out in the store. Inhaling meals. The mist from these things quickly crowded the air, kind of like second hand smoke. I breathed in some of course. I went home with my new item. My house wasn't the same and most of my relatives were there, even a few of my friends. I told them about the inhaler and how great it was.

Later on, we turned on the news to find that there was a break out of some infectious disease that turned people into cat like humans. They grew in size and had large claws. These were more along the lines of big cats than house cats. The TV was showing live footage of the supermarket I had bought my inhaler from. It turns out that the inhaler meals were defective. The footage was brutal and showed people transforming and killing other humans inside and outside the store.

I realized I had inhaled some of it and I suddenly started convulsing and puking violently. The hair on my body began to stand up and started growing and changing color. I grew claws and felt like my brain was changing shape inside my head and my vision began to change. I had become a sort of werecat? I don't know what to call it, but it felt insanely weird.

My family and friends quickly tied me down, else I'd go on a killing rampage. I roared and kicked to get out because I wanted to kill and unite with my cat friends.

I woke up around here, about 4 hours in. I went back to bed and the dream felt eerily similar.

This time I was outside in a very hilly suburban area. It was cooler than where I live and definitely seemed like Colorado or another mountain state. There was another supermarket like the one from before, but on a hill with a different name. I went inside, and like before there were a lot of people. There was no inhaler this time though. I didn't buy anything, and walked home.

I got home and it was the same house as before, but my good friend and his family lived there. We'll call him C. I talked to C about what happened with the inhalers and stuff before, but he didn't know what I was talking about. His dad seemed to be listening to the conversation under his nose. Out of nowhere, the same thing happened as before. I felt the urge to puke and my legs got extremely unstable. I ran to the sink and puked up this white liquid, which quickly hardened and turned into a thick film in the sink. The feelings somewhat died down and C's dad told me I would be okay.

I went to the airport with C and his dad. I watched them get on the plane and fly off. Suddenly, the feeling came back and I fell to my knees and began puking all over the airport floor. Nobody noticed me. I decided it would be good to get home and get away from the people before I transformed again. As I was running and stumbling around the giant airport terminals, I noticed other people began convulsing, falling, and puking as well. I made it out before I could transform.

I thought it would be a good idea to hit the super market before going home, so I headed there. What I saw was horrifying. Cars were on fire and there were dead bodies all over the parking lot. I decided to check it out, so I went inside. Inside there were tons of people, screaming, transforming, killing other people. It was chaos. Different from before though, the people were transforming into bear-like humanoids. Not the cats from before.

I ran home and locked myself inside. Blocked off the doors and windows as best as I could and turned on the TV. All the news stations were talking about the developing infection. I overheard that the army was on their way to suppress the situation at the supermarket. Outside my window tons and tons of Humvees and other military vehicles sped past. I ran outside my front door and watched as they drove down to the supermarket. I followed them down the road as best I could eventually getting to the supermarket.

I watched as they unloaded troops and weapons. Helicopters were in the air. They got into position to enter the front door. I was standing on the opposite far side of the road in front of someones house. A little girl came out from the house and ran to me. For some reason, I realized what was going on and became lucid. Her mother came outside as well. I told her the army was here to help and that if the army failed or didn't come back she should run as fast as she can to her mommy. Her mom agreed with me. We watched the army breach and clear the supermarket. We heard lots of shooting, screaming, and explosions. After about fifteen minutes of waiting, the sound finally died down. It was awhile before the army got a response from the soldiers who went in.

It turns out the source of the transforming wasn't from the inhalers, but from an invisible pathogen in the atmosphere during this time. Anyone is susceptible to the pathogen, but after being subject to transforming once, you develop resistances to it. After a half hour of waiting for the army to come out, I made my way to the front door. The army warned me not go in due to the risks, but I showed the commander my scars from transforming before, and he let me pass.

The sliding glass doors were broken, opening and closing over and over on the body of a dead soldier. Upon entering, there was a pungent odor in the air. Death. It was completely quiet with nobody to be seen, not even any bear-people. Weird. I started walking down one of the aisles, stepping over corpses of civilians, soldiers, people that failed to completely transform, and creatures that looked just like grizzly bears. While walking down the aisle, the dream slowly started to fade out, and I woke up.

Thoughts

A very interesting dream nonetheless, but I have yet to figure out how to interpret it. I'll edit this later tonight after some thinking.

20.10.2013

Graffiti on the Great Chinese Wall (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up in the morning and lost a long dream, so I told myself I needed to come up with something and started to focus on another task of the year.

I was in some sort of school and I believe I was younger that I was. Suddenly, a guy and a gal who wore old clothes came and tried to abduct me. They claimed they were going to ask for $1,500 in order to release me. I found that it was a pretty much retarded amount for all the trouble they were going through and I tried to play it smart. I told them I would tour them around the school and show them the areas were rich boys were and were they could ask for more money. I had a plan to save my butt and get to call the cops.

The school was very long and it had two restaurants, which one of them was very fancy. I showed them it was a good place. The school now looked like very old school and it had like different stories. We went to the arts class and the music class. We went through different places until one rich looking kid appeared out of nowhere. The guy grabbed him and started to run, leaving me alone with her female partner, who was not over 5 feet tall, very slim (and hot,) blonde with very clear eyes and very clean skin.

We entered in some sort of Auditorium with Opera and told her that the school had gifted children with a lot of money. We existed the school and went for a walk. As we were outside, I started to question the realize and realized I was in a lucid dream. I did not do any reality checks, but I knew I was dreaming. I asked her if she wanted to have sex. She agreed and we started to make out. I focused in trying to not wake up, but she was so hot and good looking I did not care really if I woke up. I did not, but I lost reality. We could have sex because another car pulled next to us, and an exact replica of her, just a bit older stepped down to the car. There was a guy in the car that looked that the abductor from before and they had the children he grabbed. I knew there was some sort of jump in it time and she told me that we needed to get going.

We just went down the road and we stopped in a street that only had houses around, so we wondered were to have sex. i tried in the car without success. I realized it was snowig and the grounds were snow covered. I told her it was amazing that it was snowing in San Diego, California.

We went inside to where I believe it was their house and I could hear the cries from the abducted child. I needed to wait outside and i start to feel worried if they did not try to abduct me, since I was inside their house and they had low lights. A door opened and I saw her dressed in a very sexy pajama, and that is all she wore, She smiled at me and called me, pushing me inside the restroom and looking the door behind her. We had some amazing sex.

As we were done, I exited the restroom and the house. I was in a different place now and some guy asked me, "How was she?" I told him, "She is a amazing, easy to handle as a doll." I started to realize that I was again dreaming and while I was thinking about it, this guy was telling me that the tree above him had amazingly beautiful animals... I looked up and all I saw where huge bees. I indeed knew I was dreaming and looked at my hands and even though I had five fingers, one of them started to grow and stretch and then, it started to become wider, but only on the tip.

I decided to take off and fly away, while the guy kept talking about the bees. I was on the top of the roof of a store and told myself I needed to get down another Task of the Year. I took off and flew high, the dream could you a bit more clarity, so did the same technique about pulling my glasses out of nowhere. It worked again. I kept flying until I saw the whole Earth, so that way I could travel easier to the target country. I flew down and I entered in Italy. I told my self, "No, no, no... I do have nothing to do here." I recalled the Great Chinese Wall thing. So I started to look for a Chinese restaurant and use it for a portal. It was easy to find, as I entered it a Chinese guy greeted me and told me if I wanted to dine with an accent. I told him, "Yeah, sure, sure." I kept looking for a door without any success. I saw that the restaurant at the end had a garden. so I pretended that the garden would be China, but all I found was a small garden and a tiny replica of the Wall. I doubt that would work so I started to fly and glide above this garden. I could hear a voice telling that I had to ay to be there, but I ignored her. I saw another door and flew through it. As I did, I was stepping on the real Great Chinese Wall.







I was happy but i knew I was not done. I tried to start to tear down the wall, but as I tried to pull out a rock, it wouldn't move. I tried to brake it with energy balls but neither worked, so I decided to pull a Red Spray and do some graffiti. That is vandalizing after all. I wrote, "I rock" and as soon as I ended, I heard voices. I saw Chinese guys coming towards me with assault rifles and riding horses. I got in fighting stance and as they came I started to knock them out of the wall, until I finished a ton of them. I told my self I was done with the task so I was going to do something else, but i lost focus and so lucidity.

Now there was water around the wall and some female Chinese people like making photos. I started to grab them and fling them to the water, but there were a few steps of concrete before the water. I grabbed a light one and flung her. He fell on the ground hitting her head and I started to feel bad, I did not want to injure anyone.

My wife came out of the blue and made a photo. She told me that it was the girl that Fabian like and told me she was going to post on Facebook what I did. I woke up.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1:

I am at home in my room, i spontaneously realize that i am dreaming but the dream is highly unstable, i try to stabilize it by focusing on senses and it works, then i go to balcony door and open it. I take off using my wings but dream quickly fades.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing various creeper world 3 maps.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing some RTS and there was hero unit that had ability to turn into a dragon.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was in subway on platform and trains were stuck apparently, there were some other people one of which started exploring subway rails and another was saying that we need to find a driver? Then out of nowhere another train came and 'very softly' crashed into one of trains that were stuck.

1 st lucid
I was in a cave and walking on the water, understood that its a dream, made RC. Draw a portal on the ground and wrote RACE on it. Made a step and soon found myself in a big covered stadium. On the other side teams played football and in the middle there were many tables. I found six DC s near me, explained them that i need them for one cicle race, put them on one line. And began to think where can i get seventh one, and my alarm for DJ awoke me.

I wrote dreams and fall asleep again thinking about stadium.

2nd lucid

I was walking in the stadium and in a minute understood that its a dream, made RC. I up my hand and said : all DCs!!! Come here!!! 8 DCs came to me. Perfect! I put them in one line and said START! They ran so fast that i could hardly saw there backs in a few seconds. It was so difficult for me to run. I thought about flying or super speed and awoke.

10/19/13*

Many dreams and fragments tonight. Slept in and perhaps the day journal also helping.
Go to bed too late, 1 a.m. Wake up approximately 3 a.m. Probably too early but do some SSILD cycles. Remember a dream about dream control someone is teaching it online. Another dream fragment something about nobody wants to look at homes in B when they can just look at the homes in A. Something about the former has some areas that are not as nice where is the latter is pretty much all nice. Wake up at 6 a.m. do proper WBTB and try the cycles again. Some of these dreams are before 6 a.m. And some of them are after 6 a.m. Fragment no one wants to play on this field or they are the tennis courts? because the lighting is too low. Walking away from the courts and it is night time. There seems to be apartments or some other buildings around.
Something after some kind of gathering with people from the office. I say hey D good to see you as always they have some leftover cupcakes and it looks like something was in the middle of each of them but its gone now maybe like a candle or some kind of
decoration and there does seem to be some wax that burned off from the candle onto the cupcake but the cupcake taste delicious(unfortunately not lucid here).
There is some kind of gathering at a house and there's a group of people sitting around a table including me and it seems mostly women but when I think that I look over to see at least one other guy sitting around the table. One of the women is either A from my recreational sports team or just reminds me of her. We had a game last night. After chatting for a while I say well I better get going and the person to my right gets up so that I can get out I'm kind of at the far end of the table farthest from the the exit from the table because it is backed into a corner. Someone on my left mentions I could have let you out this way and I said no that's okay if I went that way three of you would have to get up where is this way only one person has to get up to let me out. I say well thanks for having us over but then I realize I'm not talking to the homeowner here just some of the visitors and as I head towards the exit I wonder if I should look for the
homeowner or sneak out. As I'm approaching the front door I see some other guests in a living room area and then the homeowner comes out and it looks like the guy I see walking his dog in our neighborhood and who used to work at the same place I did. I say to him thank you for having us over and he seems to nod his head in agreement I don't remember him saying anything specific until I'm starting to go out to a sliding door. At this point there are three Bulldogs two smaller ones and one bigger one and he's trying to open the sliding door in a way that I can get out but the dogs do not get out. I attempt to help him by stepping over the biggest dog and keeping my foot in the way as I go out the door. The biggest dog is barking but more excitement he doesn't try to bite me or anything. The homeowner did kind of jump like he was worried that the dog was going to bite me. As I go out the door the bigger dog is putting his foot and claw through some part of
the door and homeowner says oh I need to remove that last claw so he can't do that when he says that I look back and he has a silver piece where the back claw would be kind of like someone might have a silver tooth and I notice it. I see the dog examining it as I walk away. I think it's strange but it doesn't seem to make me lucid.
I'm walking down a street and there are two women in front of me maybe early twenties. I can hear one of them tell the other one I know I look cute. They enter the building probably an apartment building what flat and I can see them walking up the stairs. Continue on and next to the left of it there's a big open window with all kinds of art interesting art and its up on the 2nd or 3rd floor...someone's home. I see two other women coming my way and I don't want them to think I was just checking out those two women that went into the apartment so I pretend to stop and admire the art and then really start to admire it forget all about the women. Some of the art looks like stuff I may have seen in waking life somewhere but I'm not sure. Now all of the sudden it is like that homeowner is selling a bunch of stuff on the street out front. Someone mentions how he has a piece called Marilyn in Paris or something like that and seems to be Marilyn Monroe. Before
I get a chance to go check it out someone has it in her hand as they walk around looking at the other stuff . Too late for that one. I'm looking over miscellaneous stuff on the table and it seems to be a series of DVDs on the table that seems to be some kind of racy artsy movies they are all in black boxes with plain riding no pictures and the total includes the word mind. Also there was some nice older paintings that look like originals and it seemed like he wasn't selling anything for too much money.
Some fragments about a strike and alternatives .
Me and J from my recreational sports team are in the downtown area. It seems like where in the city north west of where I live. I'm not sure why would be hanging out with him. He's the one teammate I do not get along with very well. We are leaving someplace and heading down the main road by the water when I say over should go back to where we came in to make a right up the hill and then another right up the hill and then all the sudden we are walking and making our way through the city scape . At one point we have to jump down of a Ledge down to a landing below and when I drop down there such an away and I seem to be able to grab it and move it as I'm landing. We continue weaving in and out of some alleys.
I am in a kitchen that is probably supposed to be some mix between my sister in laws house and my mother in laws old house. My brother in law and his brother are sitting in the eat in kitchen area and I and my sister in law are in the kitchen. There's a little divide where you can't see directly from the you didn't catch in area into all parts of the kitchen and were tucked away a little out of you of those people in the eat in kitchen area. For some reason I say to my sister in law you know you want some of this. And she or I says well do you want to go in the bathroom. It seems like the suggestion is she's going to give me a blow job. Very odd! She's not even attractive anymore. She used to be somewhat.
I am sleeping in today and I get up maybe around 9am after 8 hours of sleep go to the bathroom walk around a little bit have a quick snack and then lay back down and do the cycles once more. It seems like I have a little trouble getting back to sleep but eventually I start to get the vibrations and I enter a dream lucid. I'm looking into a window I think I am and floating because it seems to be an upper floor and I am outside and there is a woman in a flowing white gown more like a night gown than a dress but it's fully covering her. She looks somewhat ghostly but I do not take her as a ghost and I do not see her as a sexual mate but rather I want to get closer to her for some reason.Unfortunately this is when my wife tolls over and says hey do you want to go to the farmers market? This was definitely in waking life because when I eventually got up, sure enough that is where we were heading even though we have not discussed it the day before. Because her
timing is sometimes so terrible waking me from a lucid dream I sometimes question whether or not it could have been a false awakening but this one I'm quite sure was for real. I even asked her in that moment if I was moving or something why did she wake me if I look fast asleep and she said no I wasn't moving. I asked her to please just let me sleep until I roll over or something. She doesn't really understand lucid dreaming aspect and doesn't really like me focusing on dreams except when I tell her of the seven or so dreams I've had with her father who has passed on. Somewhere during this late morning sleep in period I was able to see in my room even though I had the sleep mask on and I realized that I'm dreaming because I could still see despite the sleep mask but I think I woke myself up trying to sense if the sleep mask was still in position over my eyes and sure enough it was unfortunately I was awake by then. For my lucid dreaming count on TV I
only feel comfortable counting one tonight even though there were two events both of them too short. Not sure how to count it for the competition.

YES, LUCID! LucasPotter, thanks for passing some of that goodness my way just like I asked . Now this is more like it, dreams more bizarre / wild / wacky than last night. Got to bed 2 hours late, woke up for the final time 9 hours after bed. I went on a long fast jog/walk today to make sure I'm ready for lots of sleep tonight.

legend: comments, normal dream, lucid dream

00:00 Saturday 2013-10-19 (country)
02:05 bedtime at last, way off schedule of 00:00, couldn't be helped, had to heat the place. With the long day including intense exercise Friday morning (swam 1km in 30 minutes), I'm falling unconscious on my feet.

07:22
1) Whale friend, I'm holding on to him in the turbulent water, I don't want to get lost in the water. I'm scraping barnacles off of the whale with a knife, sometimes I mistake a tiny piece of the whale for a barnacle. The water is beautiful blue. The whale communicates to me a feeling of safety, he won't let me get lost in the ocean. I feel a great love for this whale. I'm looking all over the body for barnacles. I'm holding on to the whale's ear (!!).

F1) I waited a long time for someone to arrive.

F2) Playing guitar.

08:59
2) Mother says "What's that red thing on your neck?" I look in mirror (face fuzzy), don't see anything at first, look again, then see a large red blue black swollen area under my right jaw. Some blue veins running through it. I'm looking in the mirror confused by this (DS). I look on my body and I see dozens of brown marks, and then snails, snails everywhere. I open my shirt and see more snails. They're arranged in lines on my body. I pluck each on of them off of me with a "pop" feeling and throw them to the ground. (WL, went to dermatologist).

3) Video game in sister's old room in parent's house (DS) in liquid. JM (former work colleague) has constructed a video game system in my sister's room. The system contains liquid. It is not finished. He wants me to help him finish the system, to provide something. I don't want to do it, because I don't want him playing loud video games in my house. The system starts working and produces a deafening sound, everyone has to shout just to be heard. Some visitors arrive and are taking a tour of our house. They don't approve of the loud sounds. I take them into my old room where it's quiet to show them around. They like this much better. "That's much more like it" they say. There are two men and a women. One of the men is freakishly tall, like over 7 1/2 feet, his head is scraping the ceiling.

F3) Toby (PR guy from West Wing) arriving to meeting another guy at a restaurant. I'm sitting in a table opposite. He says to the other guy "are we here to chat or to chit-chat?" He doesn't want smalltalk, it's an important meeting.

F4) Say goodbye to STch (family friend), she doesn't even look at me or respond and just walks by with a disapproving look on her face. She doesn't approve that I think she's hot.

F5) Playing a water-filled video game system (different than the above one) with a woman. She says how it's her favorite game and has great graphics. We're looking at it and seems like plain/cartoon graphics. I see them, it's like slowly animating cartoons. She says they're good, "they're enhanced."

F6) Body parts in a mixer/blender.

09:07 temperature 10C

10:36
4) Consulting company (I work with them sometimes) is holding a seminar in how to make money as a freelancer (WL discussion). They recommend that one great way to make money is to sign up with the "Mr. Hensen" project. This is a man who is trying to map out every major league baseball (DS) stadium in the US so he can visit each one. They say we should use Google (calendar?) but unfortunately that doesn't integrate with Google maps so we have to do some work to provide the same functionality. Mr Hensen is standing in a baseball stadium, it's night and the lights are on. He's trying to visit each stadium in the country. Somehow he needs to pay a consulting company to make them out for him. I walk by him and he pats me on the shoulder and offers some sort of reassurance.

F7) There's a woman whom I like but she doesn't like me so I'm going to be alone tonight.

F8) I'm with people sitting in an open area. The people are out of focus to my right in my peripheral vision. I think "they're making a fire".

11:09 DILD #3!!
5) A group of people are dancing. One is a young lady, very attractive, short brown hair (DS) and brown eyes. All the people are doll (large) sized. Then I reach for the doll-lady, and I'm holding the lady/doll in between my hands, one hand on each side of her body on her ribs. (Her name is Allison?) I say "I understand that you're going to be dancing with this guy over here, but when you're done dancing with him, come find me ... " while I'm saying this she grows to be fully life-size, I continue, ".. and then we'll dance ...", I begin to pull her close to me, and say, "... or ... something! ..." and we start making out. As I'm kissing her my awareness slowly grows. and I become lucid. I know I'm dreaming. Continue kissing ...a few seconds later: "I'm dreaming," I think to myself. I'm calm, no running around for me this time. I have things to do, goals to achieve. But this is so nice... (continue making out)... I'm calm, I feel aware of my waking life, I know I should stop this to achieve some goals. I feel quite pleased with myself, I have achieved lucidity *and* I'm making out with a beautiful doll-lady. I have a feeling like I'm grinning/smirking (like the "Kirk Smirk" from Star Trek when Captain Kirk is especially pleased with himself at the end of an episode). Still making out, I think to myself "Do a reality check" and I become increasingly aware of my body in bed..., and my awareness slowly transitions from the dream into WL. I'm in bed with my eyes closed. I want to go back in to achieve some goals (yeah, that's the ticket, to achieve more goals...smirk...). I try to DEILD, I haven't moved and my eyes are still closed. My shoulder hurts from my position and my other hand has needles from numbness from the position. I try for about 2 minutes but I'm quite awake, I'm already in the 9th hour after bed, and I'm very uncomfortable so I figure I'm not going to make it and reach for my phone and journal the experience. I was making out the entire time of the LD up through waking up with lips still moving . Total elapsed time lucid, about 20 seconds.

11:46 temp 9C

19.10.2013

Crash Derby at the Colosseum and learning a new Stabilization technique (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in bed, it was night and my wife was awake in the living room. i went to the living room and it looked very dark, it appeared to be a starless night. My wife was in the kitchen and I wondered what the hell she was doing in the kitchen. She started to speak fast and she appeared mad at me.

I realized I was dreaming as it made no sense that my wife could be in the kitchen at the middle of the night and mad at me out for no reason. I realized that we had a balcony and I recalled that I do not have a balcony in my house, so I opened the doors and I stepped on the edge of the balcony, above the safety bars. My wife told me what I was doing and I told her that we were in a dream. She started to become more angry saying nonsense and told me I was going to kill myself and that I was crazy wanting to go back home to the Pleiades (very long story here, PM if interested) I told her that nah, that we did not even have a balcony and thus, we were dreaming. I jumped off the balcony and realized I did not even do a reality check, but I knew it was a dream, looked at my hand and confirmed.

As I was about to touch the trees, I glided and started to gain altitude. My dream was very bad quality and I was loosing it fast. I have never been good at stabilizing dreams, usually flyign does it. So I tried to typical "Dream Stable" but it only went to get more blurry "More Clarity" but it did not help until the dream started to fade even more.

I had a false awakening in my bed and I told my self that I had to do better, so I woke up and went to drink water. As I was going to drink water, I felt the dreamy feeling and looked at my hand. One of my fingers was about a foot long and very thin. I also touched it and followed it with my hands. I laughed at my mind trying to trick me again. Now I was in my regular home, typical place where my lucids starts, so I opened the door and took off.

It was night and the sky was full of stars, as if there was no city lights contamination. I was in awe as I love the stars as I am never able to see so many. I also saw the moon and a clock with 7:83 time, the clock was like a modern alarm clock, floating around.

As I flew to the stars, I saw a huge weird mall and decided to land. As I landed, it became day again. I realized that the dream was blurry, so demanded for Clarity with a bit of success. As I went inside the mall, it looked like a Costco store, but I realized it was outdoors, as I felt the wind and the sunlight.

The dream started to fade,and asking for Clarity did not work. So I told my self that I would pretend to put my glasses on and so, have a better view. I had to do this a few times, and I went from very blurry to a bit more clear, like when you visit the eye doctor. This was not working, so I told myself I would pull my actual glasses out from my pocket, I did with success and the dream went very clear.

I was walking by some tourist area and there were families having coffee in a terrace and kids running. I went to an area that were selling wine and I saw a bottle of "Vina Tondonia Rioja" labeled as "California Wines" I was like surprised and then reminded myself I was in a dream. A dream Character told me, "Drinking american wine is like drinking water with sugar, this ain't no wine and you know it, go European." I laughed and left.

I was now next to some expensive liquor and jewelry and there were some security guards looking at me and saying in a whisper that I was suspicious, but I could hear them. I just kept exploring the mall and reminded myself of the Task of the Year... I realizing that being mid October is late to get started, but I wanted to push my self, so I recalled I had to go to the Colosseum and fight a Gladiator.

I went through some doors and told myself I would find the Colosseum, to only find the female restroom! I tried twice and only found toilets and the janitor room. However, I saw an older door, very rusty. I focused on it and opened to find the colosseum.



It was kind of buried and in a much worse shape than it is right now but the roof kind of blew away and suddenly, I was in the real Colosseum. I saw a chariot with two horses attaced to it standing in the middle of the Colosseum







There was a gladiator looking at me and there was a second chariot that was empty. There was no one else and I said out loud, "Public!" And the Colosseum started to fill up with people, cheering at a high volume. I was surprised to be able to summon so many DCs, as that is not one of my best abilities.

As I was going to jump on the chariot, some other guy did first, but I knocked him out as I had to do the fighting. Rather that the usual Colosseum fights, this one was more of a crashing fight. The horses were gone and even though I was still in a roman chariot, it had now an engine and we started to drive, hitting each other and forcing each other to crash, until his chariot blew up, giving me the victory.

I was happy I completed the firs ToTY and decided to wake up myself to write it down.

First lucid : [COLOR="#008080"]I'm in a supermarket, I do a RC and realize I'm dreaming.I think about what I should do and suddenly remember to stabilize.I stabilize and the dream becomes clearer. Kris suddenly appears and we look for some kind of shoes when mom comes and drags me to a cake shop. She tells me that she ate some really nice cake and that I should try it too. I tell mom that I'm too busy. I look a bit inside the cake shop and I see a cake that I actually ate in real life before. I change my mind and tell mom that I'll eat that cake to see if it tastes as in real.The dream skips to the back of my apartment block(It's night) and I see that purpleish portal in the sky, I try to fly to it but couldn't so I give up. I walk more and notice there's a party not far away from here. I check my pockets for things and I find my katana.I tell myself : Yes, One of my goals is to fight a monster, I should try it. I walk faster and see 2 rocks on the ground. I grab one from the ground and feel the coldness. (I know I did way more things but this is pretty much all I remember)[/COLOR]

2nd Lucid : [COLOR="#008080"]All I remember is that I woke up and made a RC. I realize I'm dreaming so I go to the window and rip off the curtain. Mom comes to me and tells me : What the fuck you think you're doing? I respond: Mom, Don't ruin this lucid, Please, Go do something else. She's like : What are you talking about? This is not a dream, go back to sleep! I listen to her and lose my lucidity.[/COLOR]

Dream 3 : [COLOR="#800080"]I'm in some kind of a mall and there are many slides inside it. I see a guy from real life and I try to pretend I didn't saw him while laughing at mom playing at the slides(All of us had the same hoodies). He comes to me and asks me if I remember him. I say yes and then the dream skips to a playground. I'm sitting on the ground near the guy and mom is also here(fu). I'm for some reason in my bra and his friend tries to get it off. I put it back and the other guy tells him it's not funny and then slaps him. The guy says sorry and I nod. [/COLOR]

[COLOR="#008080"]I stand up from my bed and the first thing that comes in mind is RC. I do it and realize I'm dreaming. I look around the house and then the dream skips to a really nice place(Cherry blossoms, benchs etc.)I go and sit on the bench when a purpleish portal appears and 2 girls come from it. They looked like twins, One of them had blonde hair with blue eyes(Sunny) and the other one had black hair with red eyes(Dani). They had their hair tied up in a ponytail and they also had straight bangs. They asked me if I remember them.I tell them that I don't remember them so they fly away sad.I try to fly to them but couldn't. [/COLOR]

It was raining and i was in some station among the high mountains. We stood under umbrellas and waiting for the train. I understood that its a dream, but in the same moment the train came. I was so intrested where this train went, so i caught it. There was a lot of people inside, but i went to the window. In a few seconds i awoke.

Wow, just had one of the most vivid lucid dreams ever!!! :O

Right, so I was in the middle of a dream (which I'll describe later), when I realised I was dreaming. I was in a kitchen with my cousin, and I decided to do different things. I looked at some plates and glasses, raised my arms a little and said "you'll levitate now!" and they did!!! First time I've ever done that!!!

Then, my cousin was looking at me. I pointed at her and said "I need you to be..." and she changed into Lea Michele. I shook my head and said "Dan". She turned into Daniel Radcliffe. Then I remembered that no, I had to summon myself. I pointed at him and said "be me". He was me. A male me. It was AMAZING!!! I pointed at him. I figured I should ask him/myself if I really am trans. When I asked the question, though... it was him who was asking! I was staring at him and then I said "wait... YOU are the one who asked the question!?" and he shrugged and smiled. So I told him that yes, I AM trans. So he smiled even more and said "so now you know".

After that, I started panicking and thinking that there was so much to be done. I saw a wall and thought that I should go through it. When I jumped against it, I thought it looked so real... and then I crashed into it. I touched it and it was super solid. Then I thought that I HAVE to expect that I'll be able to go through it. I tried again and it worked.

I was in a weird building, I could look down and there was a swimming pool there. It was like a hotel, I guess. I didn't hesitate and jumped down, trying to fly. My flying was terrible. I ended up falling in the pool. The water felt amazing and it was... it was wow, no other way to describe it.

Anyway, I got out of it and there were like four swimming pools there. I saw a dog walking around. For some reason, THAT made me remember that I had to scare a kid. I started running around, poking people's backs and shouting "BOOO" at them. I did this with four people. A woman, a man, a kid and another man. The last man wasn't wearing anything, so I was all "BOOO oh, no, don't turn around, never mind, I'm leaving now"...

I got inside a pool again, but it looked more like the sea... except that it was still a swimming pool. I was still pissed off I hadn't been able to fly, so I tried again with my eyes closed. I felt like I was really high, so I opened my eyes. I was about five inches from the ground. People around me were all staring at me, waiting for me to really do fly. When they realised I couldn't, they all laughed at me.

I looked at the sky and there was this really ugly thing up there, like those family crests things, but super ugly. I turned to the girl next to me and said "wow, that sun is ugly as shit, I want it to change", she shrugged, shook her head at me and said "I kinda like it".

I looked up again, and it had changed. Now there were many of those things, but they were all pretty. They were silver, the sky was black and they looked a bit like the Game Of Thrones family crests. I remember seeing one that was a lion (which reminded me of Gryffindor), one that looked like it was the fire symbol thing from The Hunger Games and one that I couldn't see very clearly, but I knew somehow that it was from Divergent.

I heard singing and realised there was a concert going on where I was. I was like "nah, sing a cool song!" and the music stopped. Then, they started playing "Suddenly I See". I shook my head and said "No, I was expecting the song to be 'Let It Be', play that one!" and the people around me were all booing me. The girl who was next to me shook her head again. Strangely enough, both times she did that, it was like she was amused with me. I could see that she thought it was hilarious how hard I was trying to control my dream.

Anyway, the music stopped. A big screen showed up so that us in the back could see the singers and it was a couple. Behind the huge screen, I saw a tower or something. I wondered if I could move it, so I thought that it should come a bit closer and... I moved it!!!

They started singing "Let It Be" and there were even subtitles! I remember being impressed with everything, because I don't really know the lyrics to that song all that well (I don't know the parts that don't go all "Mother Mary lalala something" or "let it beeee, let it beeee"), so I was all "wow, I may not know them when I'm awake, but it's amazing what the brain really knows!". Well, the lyrics were so damn wrong. Like, at one point, they were singing about the Lake Black Morwood.

Once they got to the chorus, the guy started crying and said "I'm sorry, but I love this woman so much!" and they hugged and kissed and cried together. I turned to the girl next to me and started panicking again. "THERE'S SO MUCH I WANT TO DO WHAT DO I DO NOW WHAT!?" then I remembered I wanted to go to Hogwarts. I figured that it might be too hard so I started running around and shouting "QUICK SOMEONE GIVE ME HARRY'S WAND OR HIS BROOM GIVE ME ANYTHING" and I woke up.

BUT OH MY GOD THIS WAS AN AMAZING LUCID DREAM!!! I did things I had never done before and it lasted quite a while!!! And I even got the basic TOTM done!

EDIT: adding now my other dream and the fragment from this morning!

My fragment is about cats. I remember cats everywhere and it was creepy.

The dream!

It was kinda crazy, cause parts of the dream were actually flashbacks... but okay. I was outside of this country-like restaurant. I was talking to someone who, in my dream, was my cousin. They (no idea if they were a guy or a girl) were friends with this weird girl. She would go inside the restaurant and steal food. It was disgusting food, though, like she'd take the food thrown in the garbage.

I told her she was stupid and that I didn't like her. She got really defensive, but really sad at the same time. I was going to say something else to her, but I was suddenly at the top roof of a building and it was night. There was this important meeting happening and everyone was waiting for the "mayor".

And then the guy enters. He's smiling and waving, very charming, very gracious. For some reason, I don't like him. He seems very fake. The people who were there were mostly journalists and they start an interview with this mayor. I do not remember what he says, but we're all shocked at his answers, like he did something truly awful. I remember the awful thing being related to his daughter.

I'm back to outside of the restaurant with the weird girl. She looks at me and she's been crying. I ask her if she's the mayor's daughter. She nods. And I go back to the top roof. Everybody's freaking out about the mayor said. Someone asks him about his wife.

I'm again with the weird girl. I ask her:"hold on... what DID happen to your mum!?" and then she cries some more and I'm back at the interview. The mayor laughs and says that he killed her after they got divorced. Everybody gasps!

Back to weird girl. "YOUR FATHER KILLED YOUR MUM!?", the girl nods and I feel shit for treating her like crap earlier. I then accept to go inside the restaurant to steal food with her.



Oh, and my lucid dream started like this:

I was at this building and my cousin was participating in some competition or something. It looked like a model thing, but who knows? Anyway, she was talking to this guy and asked me to get her stuff upstairs. I went there and I couldn't really find her things. There was so much crap everywhere, it was hard to tell what belonged to each person. Still, I found a bag that I was sure it was hers.

I went downstairs and the guy she was talking to told me that she had gone to the kitchen. I walked into the kitchen and. Whoa. DREAM!

So that's how my LD began.

While I was seeing a psychiatrist, I had this weird dream of an odd place.

Dream Sequence

I woke up on the floor in a small room next to a bed you would see in a hospital. I got up and looked across from the bed and there was a wall missing which opened up into a sort of lounge with people wearing bath robes(dressing gowns). I looked down on the bed and saw two things, first I saw was a magazine open on a page where I saw my face in it. The second was a chart broken up into days of the week, it had all sorts of unusual drug names, like clinical trials use. The last entry on the chart was cyanide. A man entered the in the room wearing white clothes, he had a chart and a pill cap in his hands. I approached him and the dream ended...

I found this dream really strange, I couldn't sleep for the rest of the night after that.