non-lucid

Dreamed of having a snail in my mouth and also saw my best friend who was with me with a snail in her mouth as well. I got extremely disgusted and pulled it out of my mouth but my friend still continued to keep the snail in her mouth. Ugh, it's even a horrible thought! I think that I ended up killing the snail as I pulled it out. Then my dream turned into me being at my friends house. I walked into her living room to find these beautiful exotic fish spread out all over the place, out of water, all over the floor

Journal Entry non-lucid #28 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background:
Dream fragment 1, 8:42pm-1:51am."": I helped my sister look for a ride. I think in the parking lot I tried to sleep. I got up and I saw all these people recording me with their iphones and cameras. I saw lebron james running, he had a full grown beard. He was angry because he's not famous anymore, and nobody cared about him. This other guy next to me got yelled at by Lebron about something. We decided to do some sort of exchange. I take picture of him thus giving him his fame back and he did something with other guy to return favor.

Dream fragment 2, 4:01am-6:00amThis guy took over my room and I had no where to sleep. I was angry at first. I looked at his hands and he had this gassy substance with him. I read SO3, I thought it was chemical. It was inside a water bottle, and I thought oh man that is going to convert into sulfuric acid, H2SO4. It started turning black and bubbling. I don't know what color it actually is suppose to be but I saw black. He fell asleep with it and I tried to wake him up to remove it.

As Homestuck's Dave, I've been teleported somewhere else, leveled up some insane amount due to timeline shenanigans, and then was teleported back home, to Bro's apartment, in the middle of the same game we were playing when I was yanked out. I'm really annoyed, because now I'm way beyond Bro's level and I'm not okay with that. I'm looking at some kind of selector switch, trying to figure out how to scale it back from a dealing-with-the-fate-of-humanity level to a hanging-around-the-apartment-with-Bro level.

I'm looking at six cards laid out in two rows. They show ravens and swords, black ones and white ones of each. One large white figure is flanked by two smaller black figures, and vice versa. They're labeled, and I hear the text out loud, "Light and Shadow, Occidanto et Icandis."

(Woke up. Noted that my subconscious Latin is terrible. Went back to sleep.)

A little after a scene in which L. appeared, I'm thinking to myself that I'm going to have to tell M. that she was here, when it occurs to me that that's impossible, I must have been dreaming.

Immediately after that thought, the sheriff from Twin Peaks walks in. He complains to me about this demon thing - all these people involved in recent suspicious events have been blaming it on demons, which is ridiculous, he can't figure out what's going on. He leaves the room, and I follow him. In the next room, there are two other people. One of them has something sticking out of the center of his forehead, like a horn, or like he's been stabbed with something, and I realize he's the source of this rotting smell. I also realize he's supposed to be dead, and the sheriff's been harboring him.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

I'm reading a news article covering ongoing research on the inside of an ancient spaceship that's been unearthed. The scientist in this article says she's discovered that humanity developed on this planet based on the human image displayed inside this ship, not the other way around. I find it bizarre that this claim is being presented in a major credible news source, as opposed to tabloids and conspiracy theory type sources. Then it occurs to me that the presence of an ancient spaceship, which the article treats as an already-established, commonly-known fact, is also pretty bizarre. I start to look up more information from other sources online, but out loud, I talk about the article with someone else, who, without reading it, dismisses it all as nonsense. I try to stress to her that what's really bothering me as unusual here is its presence in a major newspaper.

There was a royal baby, Herbert, who was locked away with his mother and a small staff in an isolated section of the castle for 8 years, after some disaster with his father. Now they're allowing a few more people to enter, including myself. They're still referring to him as "the baby", although it's been eight years, and now I see why - he's sitting in a high chair, being fed by his nurse, treated as if he were an infant in every respect, and apparently he's never been taught to walk, talk, or feed himself. The queen, clearly mad, is referring to herself as Herbert - I think of this as reflecting a desire to take control of the late king's power.

Most of the small group allowed in behave like sycophants, fawning over them, but after we leave, I speak with two of the other people who were allowed inside, both of them as disturbed as I am: two cat-like creatures, brother and sister, one a doctor, the other a scholar or advisor of some kind. They're cat-sized and they walk on all fours, but they're different enough in the face that they're not quite capable of being confused for actual cats; they're striped black and brilliantly dark blue, and they come from a place called Cheshire. They're very kind, very intelligent, very soft-spoken. The brother says that he believes the child carries some infectious disease that affects the brain, and this is what must have caused the disaster with the king eight years ago. Now it's clearly infected the queen as well. He intends to return tonight to examine the boy more closely. I'm thinking no, he's wrong, it's not a disease that the boy carries but madness, and I have a clear mental image of madness as some kind of spirit attached to the boy. I have the impression that I already know how this will end, that this is the past, I'm seeing a tragedy play out and have been forbidden from doing anything to change it. Suddenly realizing, I exclaim out loud, "the Cheshire Cat!" I'm horrified by this revelation, the idea of the madness that will take over this kind and soft-spoken doctor, and I'm so disturbed that the doctor and his sister become concerned; although I try not to say anything more, my exclamation has surprised them, and it's clear that I know something.

I'm climbing a road up towards the mountains, through a landscape covered in snow, along with the two cats and several other people, heading away from the castle. There's an announcement over a system of loudspeakers, the queen's voice stating "We order you to the tower to be arrested." The announcement goes on to scold us, alternately addressing us as if we were children or saying we've dishonored our esteemed positions, and then says "Now place your life squarely in your master's hands!" Obviously we have no intention of turning ourselves over to be arrested, but the path to the mountains takes us right past that tower.

Dream Fragment: I tried to put the milk i poured into my coco pebbles back into the milk jug and some of the coco pebbles went in and I just put it back and tried to hide it, but the next day it was chocolate milk and everyone was pissed at me.

There were random drug test going on at my high school. They chose me and about 4 other people, including my boyfriend. We were all sitting in a white waiting room on wood benches, and i say "Quick, chug a coke!" because i had heard that was a way to cheat a urine test. I picked up an opened, half drank coke and chugged it down. It was flat and disgusting. I saw my friend Dustin do the same. A girl i know said "eww, that is gross."
A doctor came in, i was the first to be tested. The test was very unusual, and did not require peeing in a cup. Instead, i had to make food for someone, and feed it to them by hand. Then part 2 of the test required me to be the one being fed. The doctor opened up a white cabinet, where my boyfriend's face appeared. I could only use what was on the table in front of me, so i put a hot dog on a piece of bread and stuck it in his face. He was very cooperative. We worked quickly, because it was unsure if we were being timed. When i was finished, i asked to use the restroom. Instead, i went out to my car. I noticed a little yellow lab puppy running around, sniffing and barking, and i knew it was a drug dog. I had a decision to make. I took out a little glass pipe (named Ursula) from my glove box, and after intense contemplation, threw it down a hill. I decided to come back for it when everything was over with. I went back to the waiting room for my second portion of the test. I ran into Dakota(boyfrd) and i told him what happened. He said he had to do the same thing with his, except he threw it down a hole.

-in a lecture hall
-left to go to a park
- had to go through a turn style to get into the park
- sat under a tree
-went through the turn style a couple more rounds
- when I got back to the lecture I was convinced people who took my seat stole my sunglasses but they were in my pocket
- in a toy store there was a bear with a hole in its ear where a quarter was
- a man was so excited to show everyone this bear

2.8.14 Saturday

last night bed 11pm-4:40am

Wanted to go to bed much sooner, since had to get up at 5am. Went at 11pm, meditated for 15, but didn't fall asleep till past 12. All Ophelia's fault, for getting me hyped up again. Haha, just kidding?

DR morning
There is a lots of stuff going on with vegetables. Huge house. Now I'm upstairs in a smaller room, looking into a huge room with huge windows. I'm adjusting the blinds. Sun is setting it seems, and it's getting bit darker and I'm suddenly getting scared. So I quickly turn the vertical blinds, so i have full viiew of the outside. A whole neighborhood openes up. Gently rolling hills, one - two story residences, nice suburbs in southwest. I feel a bit better.

1. [Non-Lucid]
I'm at my Nans house playing a game on a laptop on a small brown wooden table next to the fireplace, I for some reason start feeling unwell and go sit on the sofa arm with my legs on the sofa cushions, my Nan and I think Cousin Chris are telling me I should have a lay down, but I didn't want to.

2. [Non-Lucid]
Fragments:
Some sort of castle under siege.
There is an area and there is a vertical tube on each side (It appears team based), the enemy are coming down in their tube, Im stood at the bottom with some sorta gun and sharp poking stick.

3. [Non-Lucid]
Me and a friend are playing about in this area with train tracks, its quite dark, a police car pulls up so we quickly hide, The cop gets out of his car, I then realized giving up would be a better idea so I stood up and put my hands in the air.

Fragments:
Abandoned fair ground.
A narrow street with shops and bars.
A white building with cool looking white pillars. (Bills updated mansion in True Blood)

Possible dream signs:
Nan, Chris

Side Notes:
As I was falling asleep I started moving, kinda rolling a little as if an invisible force was dragging me around. This was strange. (It is impossible for me myself to move like that due to my condition)

Today i dreamt i was playing pokemon emerald, i just could see the screen but it was a bit clearer
than the other times playing. I hadn't anything left to do in the game because i finished it.
But i heard some guy talking about some islands. I was pointing to the map and asking
if it was around there circling with my indicator finger. the voice said it was. so i went there
it was a town with some rocks, and red floor. i went a big up and digged the floor, i went underground
then after walking some time, i found the island. A sailorman was there waiting for me. i tried to go to the
water but some white text appeared in the middle of the screen. they were telling me something
that prevented me to go to the water, so i explored that place, i went up a little then i found some big rocks
there was a guy discussing which attack was better strength or rollout, the guy at my right was saying
"strength is quite useless and stupid, it makes you move around and attack the enemy."
the other guy who was supporting strength said
"Yes, but rollout copied strength, so it is obvious strength is stronger."
and then the strength guy, destroyed the rock in front of me.


Dream elements:

-pokemon emerald


Technique used: ----------

hours slept: 5 hours

first I had a dream of everyone I know becoming an ordained minister so we could all marry people .
this dream made sense after the long talk with my father the night before

this dream was set in a weird apt. complex with corn fields I have dreamt this scene before a few times one with corn popping in the fields but anyways dream
I was walking with some folks and my husband was at another house I was sleeping over at some friends for some reason but couldnt sleep so I snuck back to my own place to be next to my hunny . he is talking with people on a patio he sneaks off and hugs me and asks If I was going to leave him because some guy likes me . I hug him and say of course not how can you even think that . he turns into an ex then morphed back to himself we spent the night together then I get up and go get my blanket from my friends house and hear he has left me and a group of people tell me the guy who liked me heard what I did the night before ( which actually was nothing no fantasy just skipped over to morning ) but that my hubby was leaving me but figured he could get one last night of cuddling . I was shocked and pissed off I did the right thing and he bolted but then a friend said oh here he is that guy who likes you thru a window he was playing a guitar serenading me . I looked up to see who had just ruined my married life without me even meeting him and he was the most beautiful man I had ever seen he was steam punk with black hair and a voice that instantly killed all of my hatred towards him . I never spoke to him and only looked at him that one time before going off to find my hunny bunny
next dream
we were living in the country in tents and the people who lived in houses next to us were having a party in our yard like they were observing me I could tell this was some kind of shared dreaming traveling group I have met before but I couldnt get lucid enough to interact with them I put up groceries in a tent went to the next tent to get my dog and she was in a kennel ( she has not been in a kennel since I rescued her from the pound so this was tramatising for me . but there was a kennel undermeath hers I looked in and there was a dog and a friend of mine whom when I asked said nothing . I asked one of the guests ( for lack of a better term ) why my dog was let out of the yard while i was trying to figure out the friend thing . My dog is running loose she will hurt other dogs so I go to grab her and a water main breaks I knew with the new swimming whole ditch she would just swim and watched her she ran off down the road and as I caught up to her she turned into a hedgehog and balled up a lady came out and asked what is this I said my dog and pulled her back to normal out of her ball pose the lady says oh I guess you are right . I walk off to catch up with her then I see a group of friends and stop and talk with them then up the stairs to catch up with my dog again

next dream
I was at a mall with a pool dacing to gogol bordello then dyed my hair green that got me in trouble because apearently I was famous in this dream ( irl I am a simple leatherworker) but the press went nuts and I ran off to a swimming pool where a vine was growing thru the window and a snake was sneaking in


last nights dream
a plane of stolen art harboring abused children that were being rescued by the art thief

2.7.14 Friday

Last night bed 11pm -4:47am

Short night, plus I took some REM rebound aid (haha, wine).

Had a not so bad dream. Although dreams that start "I'm in a room or house" are, well, I owuld rather have some exciting things happen.

DR:
So, I'm in a room, and I hear a helicopter. I pull the curtain away, that's flying in the breathe. I see a blue helicopeter hovering really close, and I tell someone in the room.

I look again, from another window, and now I see that it's a hummingbird. He is all blue. His feathers are not smooths like you would expect, but a bit ruffled. He has some red strands on his head, hanging down. He is beautiful.

I'm in another room now, and the hummingbird is inside. He flew in through the opened top part of the window, which kinda leans away from the frame. He is fluttering between window and white curtain. I gently grab him with the curtain and lift him up to the open part of the window. He takes a few seconds to make it out. He pauses to look at some fat flies in the abundant spider webs.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) I live in a poor neighbourhood. My family sells clothes in a small shop in a shady corner. Some bullies come to collect money from us, but they get more interested in myself and I have to run through back alleys to escape them. At some point I enter a back door of a building and find myself at some kind of posh shopping center. I continue running, but I have time for some observations. I see, for instance, a lady trying on some jewelry the shop keeper put over the counter and as they turn around for a second, I manage to grab a beautiful necklace, but I throw it away before exiting with it. It would be so helpful to sell it and make some money for my family, but I can't. It's not so much that I find it absolutely wrong, but I believe there's a good chance it has an alarm of some sort and I would be caught and it really wasn't worthwile. So I drop it and keep running. I exit through another door and I find myself crossing an oriental-style spa. It's so soothing, but if they see me there, I'll be caught and jailed, so I keep running. I finally exit the building and get to a non-urbanized area, by a riverbed. The sun is setting and I duck under some bushes. I stay there until it's dark and I sense that there's no one looking for me. I then walk through a dirt road and I find a well. I look at it and see the moon reflected on the water and I feel an absolute sense of peace and detachment. I touch the rough stones of the well and have a strange feeling that they are moving. Scared, I fall on the ground and covered in mud, I see a dragon arising from the well, the stones becoming his scales. Is he going to hurt me? I feel that it's up to me. It all depends if I run from him or if I tame him. So, in a corageous decision, I grab some scales on his neck and I decide to ride it. He turns his head and looks menacing, but then he talks to me and he says something magic I can't pronounce even if I wanted. But I understand he is going to take me somewhere.
He drops me at some big palace like hotel or something. I wonder how I can go inside covered in mud, but then he merges with me and his scales transform into a beautiful golden scaled mermaid strapless dress and I look like a queen. The doors open for me and I'm inside. But I keep feeling a stranger and everytime I cross paths with someone on the lobby, at the hallways, I fear that they will see through me and notice that I don't belong. But they don't.
I see everyone heading to some kind of concert room and I follow them, trying to mingle. Some old rich couple starts talking to me, I have to lie about a few things, and I wonder if I'll be asked for a ticket a the door and look stupid for not having one. They do ask for ticket and I don't have, but the way I look, they don't even doubt I haven't paid for the show, they believe I just forgot and allow me in. I can't believe it is so simple. Some guy offers me a coat and then I see why. The doors open to an open air amphitheatre over a hill and it's a chilly night. We take our seats and we get a package. If we're on an even row we must open it to the right and if we're on an odd row we must open it to the left (or vice-versa). Inside are some kind of 3D goggles and other weird gadgets. I wonder what this show is about. Then I see some kind of gigantic molecular structures with lights floating above us and I'm said the show is about to start.

(Side note: It occurred to me yesterday, lucidity works best for me when I'm focused on a specific task, as with defusing nightmares, and that's probably something I could put to work for me more. So before going to bed today, I tried typing out one of my dream goals with the heading Task of the Day.)

I was flipping through the just-released final book in a series, the Wheel of Time, when it occurred to me that this series already ended. I get online to explain the discrepancy, and there's some explanation that this new book is an optional epilogue with bonus materials and illustrations and so on. I realize this is a dream. My first instinct is to just continue with what I was doing anyway, but right afterward I think, no, what I was doing was boring. There is no way I am going to waste a dream sitting around my IRL home on the computer. (Although come to think of it, a dream computer could probably do some interesting things too.) That decided, I immediately set out to perform the task I set for myself. (Successfully remembered!) The first step is finding a doorway or other way of changing scenes, so I head for the door.

Before I get there, however, I get distracted: I realize I'm holding the t-shirt I'd taken off earlier in the non-lucid part of the dream. But although I hadn't put on another shirt afterward, I'm fully clothed now, which I think of as a convenient bit of dream logic. I remember a previous lucid dream where I'd tried to transform a shirt into something else, not very successfully, so the presence of a spare now makes me want to try again. I decide to just transform it into a robe, that should be easy, I'll just lengthen it and create an opening in the front. I see there's an opening at the front of the collar now, so I take hold of either side and pull as if tearing it, extending that opening to the bottom, seeing that it's grown longer as I go. I hold it up to look at it - it's got the shape I pictured, but it looks like a poorly-sewn costume, like something a child would make. It's got a piece of plastic sticking out of it, as if a price tag's been torn off, and there's a tangle of loose threads and frayed edges across the opening in the front. I tear that tangle off, then realize I'm waking up. (It occurred to me afterward that both shirts had been specific shirts I actually own IRL. Makes me wonder if I'd have an easier time if, rather than just the general idea of a robe, I'd aimed for something more specific. Still, though: a more successful transformation of an object than the last attempt.)

today i dreamt i was on a electronic store, i was in front of a high spec laptop.
I only remembered to see 16 GB ram, a thought came in my head.
"I saw this laptop somewhere, oh yeah! it was on mediamarkt
i wanted to make it as my RDP"
so i looked for the laptop IP, so i could connect to it through my PC.
My instinct told me to don't do that. so i stopped.


Dream elements:

-laptop
-electronic store
-mediamarkt


Technique used: ----------

hours slept: 8 hours

1. [Non-Lucid]
Sitting at a desk in a classroom thinking about being lucid in my dreams and how fantastic it would be.

New we are pulling out the contents of this blue box and having to describe what we are pulling out such as pencils. everyone seems to do ok... now its this girls turn to describe its contents she begins and it becomes apparent that something is very wrong with her as she is off to the side of the box taking imagery things out of an imagery box, this goes on for a few minutes.

Im so happy at the fact I remember thinking of lucid dreaming.

fragments:
I get a starred at in a rather strange way by my support worker sitting across from me, was pretty creepy.
I saw some word written in lime green with a swirly thing next to it.

2. [Non-Lucid]
Me and Emily are playing Minecraft when all of a sudden a wall falls down to my right, on the other side is a secret project I been working on, so I panic and say "uhh...don't go in there please" as she looks through the hole in curiously.

Fragments:
Getting Kye a copy of Minecraft then rushing to my pc to tell Emily the good news.

3. [Non-Lucid]
I'm next to a sweet shop with another guy when my aunt shows up and gives us each these huge pink boxes with Jelly Belly jellybeans in it (saw the logo as well), I was extremely happy about this.

fragments:
I'm trying to get past my aunt sneakily but she notices me and I get embarrassed. (she was holding a weird looking bag)