non-lucid

Ok so i was in my elementary school's...um... recess area, i guess, and i remember that there was like a random kitten. and it was like running around and stuff, and i was trying to catch it. Then one of these mean kids picks up the kitten and like... drop kicks it ;_; ...then a few other kids are like throwing it around so next thing i know, its on the ground away from all the kids, and it looks like its dead.......... but its not.... i look closer, trying to imagine it breathing, and it works. i start to see its chest expand and contract a little. so i pick it up, and i go to take it inside the school. to do that, i have to walk past all the kids. And i remember as i'm walking past, i said something like "Try to hurt this kitten again, and I'll rip off your head and stuff it down a f*ckin toilet!" ...so i walked in the school, and went to the office to ask if they had a box i could put the kitten in to take home with me. The kitten was small, and had a mixture of black and grey colors on its fur. I don't remember what happened after that.

i was in a airport type place and there was a midnight showing going on. i started tearing up lmfao and the receptionist girl told me she didn't feel bad, because if I really wanted to go I would've bought a ticket. I agreed, but a few minutes later she came back with a ticket for me. skills! I said thank you and I wouldn't go if anything would happen to her. She assured me that she only gave me the ticket, because it was available. She was a lady from youtube.

M came and told me that her boss was selling books, which is really competitive and they had compromised her job after she made a mistake. I told her "at least, you weren't fired."

i was at my aunts, and she offered candy and some other treats. I took a purple nerds box . Then mg, jazzy and I left. We were writing something down and it was soo hazy in my car. I asked Jazzy if she had tape. She said ya, but I don't have. "scissors?" she needed scissors and tape to replace some text. She was upset because she thought she blurred the text .mg wanted to get home to eat...said if got home any later, g would not give her enough food. ha.

Had a false awakening. Woke up and had ~932091 notifications from M

Awareness - 8 / 10
Control - 7 / 10

I was at my house and it was night. I heard a commotion outside and decided to go investigate. Then I saw these two huge robots running towards me, trying to kill me with these giant hammer things. I started running as fast as I could go to try and get away. As usual however I had the running speed limitation thing when my dreams aren't lucid. Anyways, I kept on running but they were closing in. I circled around a tree and one of the bots went one way and one went the other and they collided on the other side. This gave me some time to make a break for it. However, they quickly got back up and resumed thier chase.

They were super close to catching me and then out of no where Sonic came in. I was like "What the heck??" But at that point I was desparate to get away and went along with it. He grabbed my hand and we went zooming away from the bots. Have to say it was kind of scary moving that fast but at least I wasn't going to get pancaked by those robots. Then we went out over the water (cause you know Sonic can run on the water) and the robots follow us, leading to thier demise (caus you know huge ol' robots CAN'T run on the water ) That is about all I remember.

Awareness - 7 / 10
Control - 6 / 10

Well, I was in this huge city and there were a bunch of people walking about on the streets. Then a huge storm came in over the city and settled over the bay. (The city was a coastal one). Anyways, then this HUGE, and I mean HUGE typhoon came in and started sucking up the whole city! It was wierd though cause it seemed to be just teleporting them to another dimension rather than killing everyone and destroying everything.

Anyways, I went to see how I could stop this. Then Sonic came along, seeing if he could help. We went around behind the storm and found out it was actually a giant machine sucking everything up!! We made a plan that I would go deactivate the machine and shut off the vacuum mechanism. It turns out that it had a self destruct if it was shut of though se we had to be careful. Anyways, once I had done this Sonic would dash in and help people get out before the machine exploded, while I continued attempting to shut the rest of the machine down and try and keep the self destruct from going off.

Anyways, we went about our plans. I went and foud the controls and and shut it down. With the vacuum safely turned off, Sonic was able to go and start helping people out. I then said I had found a way to shut it down for good without it self destructing, however, anything still left inside the 'vacuum bag' you might say would be lost. There was a timer however so we had to be fast. Just as the timere was at 00:30 left Sonic said everyone was out. I shut down the machine and the day was saved, although now half the city was gone, but at least eveyone was safe. Only way to make that dream better would be to of been lucid but oh well, still an AWESOME dream.

A somewhat exciting beginning which involved con men and being in a group of men working together to pull off some job. Few details I remember as all of the men were lost but myself (not in my own form) and Hugh Laurie. Our ventures had led us to an old summer cabin only it was winter, with slow snow falling and the warmth of our breaths hanging in the air. Hugh had aged rapidly and also had a medical condition he knew was not curable (definitely wasn't lupus). He and I both knew that our company was the last he would ever know, so I spoke personally to him. Asked him about his life, what he enjoyed most, what he would change if he could. Over the course of our conversation we grew close, attached almost. We laughed, reminisced, and did everything within our power to not acknowledge the coming inevitable end. Watching his condition further, along with his age increase, I was pained in my heart. I did not want to lose this close friend I had made, his joys were my joys, and now his fears were my fears.
I fought tears several times as the emotion of our interaction was greatly increased. When the time finally came, I could hold them in no longer. I shouted for him, by his side I knew I could not lose him. In a moment of brief insanity there was a bright magnificent light, coming from both of us, surrounding the room we occupied. Great harmonies were heard similar to trumpets and a chorus's of thousands of choir members. The colours swirled around us as I saw his face.. Straighten. The wrinkles I had watched form for hours before were now being taught. His eyes were livening and I could feel my energy flow through him as his age flowed through me. He was getting younger, while I was slightly aging. When lights faded and the sounds dulled we sat in silence staring at each other. We were now the same age. He, younger and able, I older but still able. He smiled, and tears streamed down both our faces. He stood from his deathbed, stretched, and yawned. 'Lets go have some fun' he said.
We left the cabin and walked in slow motion side by side through the snow to one of the vehicles in the lot. High-fiving before entering a larger white van. He was driving, excited and full of life we decided to speed and reality shifted to that of a GTA video game. We were being chaotic and destructive. His laugh was infectious, one by one police joined the chase, close call after close call we narrowly escaped. He asked me how to shoot the gun, I told him to hold down the right joystick
We gained speed and ramped off of a highway into city streets, shooting the fuzz as we went along.
By the time there were 5-6 coppers surrounding us, our vehicle had been immobilized. Just as they were surrounding our car guns drawn shouting, Hugh turned to me, and scoffed 'Well, that was a blast' He winked and I woke up.

Soooooo I'm guessing all these fragments are from different dreams, because none of them connect ;p

I'm going on a trip with my family. Road trip i think. We're packing up and then we're off.
I find myself in a hotel with them. Maybe different dream, not sure. And in the lobby there's a dentist. He asks me to lay down on the floor of the hotel lobby and he starts to give me stuff to brush my teeth. So then i brush him. He has a little can that sucks all the spit out because there's no sink or anything. I think later on in a different dream I find that can in my bag, while i'm unpacking it in the hotel room. I'm not sure the order of the dreams, but then i was with some girl and she got on my shoulders so I could fly her up to the Stratosphere here in vegas. I think there were sexual intentions, but I can't say for sure because i don't think they happened ;p

I was in class in high school with all my old friends. I dont think a teacher was their. We all were just having fun, talking, and watching a movie.

Katlynne talked to me casually. Which was nice and odd, because usually she felt repulsed by me. So I joined her group of friends for the last 10 minutes of the movie and we talk and had fun.

The bell rang and we all left. On my way out I talked to Devin a little. It was nice to see her again, because we were always on good terms. I go to my locker and grab a couple things, then headed down for lunch. It was a lonely lunch since I had no one to sit with.

Katlynne

I thought I'd take some time to go in-depth about katlynne, just in case my future self forgot. She has blonde hair, a perfect body, and has relationship issues; on account that everyone wants to hit and quit her. We've always had a weird relationship, in the physical world and dreamworld.

Back in middle school, I put myself out there for her and she rejected me, pretty harshly. And I had never went for a girl before. She ignored me for a while. Then our friends hung out so we kinda got put in the same situation a lot. We'd say a few words to eachother then kinda ignore eachother. She was the most complicated girl I knew. I couldn't tell if she just wanted to be friends or was kinda being nice because of how hard she threw me down or because she felt sorry for me. No idea. Then for 3 years we are seperated, as in, we are not put in the same situation. Then we get history class together and she starts to laugh at jokes I say in front of the class. She even approached me one-on-one a few times and put casual conversations out there. As if she would like to be my friend. I would talk back to her, but also kinda brush off her conversations. I was still confused and hurt by how she acted before. I feel like she may have been interested in a romantic relationship with me, obviously if we hung out more and she confirmed that she liked me. But I wouldn't put that theory on record. And at this point I had undergone a lot of changes. Something had to have appealed to her to want to be my friend. I more or less brushed her off, dropped out of school and went on to do other things with my life (highschool is pointless and I didn't need to go to a good college for my career choice). Anyways, I've seen her 1 or 2 times since I dropped out. A part of me wishes I didn't drop out, I now realize that her friendship would've meant a lot to me.

Now the tie-in. Ever since I left her 1 and a 1/2 years ago, Ive had dreams of her. About every two weeks I'll have a dream about her. Im not exactly sure why, Im assuming its a mix of her having a big impact on my life and that we have a spiritual connection. Of course I wouldn't say that on record, but I kinda feel that connection with her. Take that however you want, but... whatever. Anyways, these dreams are always about being rejected by her or just kinda watching her. In my dreams, her form basically represents rejection (especially from the feminine), the love that wont be, and just sitting on the sidelines. Always she acts out those themes to me in my dreams, up until last night, when she accepted me.

Afterthoughts

Katlynne usually represents feminine rejection/disconnection for me. And I've probably have had 20 dreams over the course of the last 6 months of her consecutively representing those things. So her having a casual conversation, trying to repair our relationship, means something big. Now I couldn't really tell if she was looking for something romantic later on in our relationship. But one thing I do know is that her form now accepts me and were on good terms.

I can't say that I know exactly what this means. It felt really good to have her acceptance and be able to have a nice conversation with her. It could mean that I've conquered my fear of rejection. But it could also mean other things. Im also not sure if this was a shared dream or not. If it was then it could've been just as much of her getting over what I represent in her life as what she represents in mine.

The lonely lunch definitely puts a twist to things. Like, I'm accepted/not scared of rejection yet Im still lonely. Shiitt, that's right lol Though I'm still a bit scared of rejection. There must be more dimensions to what she represents than I'm realizing.

I can't help but feel that one day Katlynne and I are gonna meet again one day and have a great relationship (friendship, possibly romanctic relationship, whatever happens). I just get that feeling out of no where. It could just be the dreams and resentment of how I left things. I guess time will show if its true.

08.06.2012

Baseball Killers and Sakyo (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm watching a Baseball game at the lower levels of a stadium, and it seems that you could go under the stairs and watch it as well. It's bright outside, and the whole baseball field is colored with light green.

Teams would be lined up on opposite sides, and apparently, there seems to be umpires on each side as well? Guess this Baseball game had elements of Tennis in it as well. The players looked like those small cartooni-sh looking baseball figures.

They were mostly round on the edges, wore caps, and apparently had circular shields as well. I pondered on why they would need shields in the fist place, but after some time, I think if a team wins, Sakyo from Yu Yu Hakusho would show up at the top levels of the stadium and scream,

"Kill them!!"

And gunfire would be aimed at the winning team. I look at this nonsense in awe, wondering what is the point to shoot the winning team in the first place. There were a couple of dream resets for sure, and each one made me feel as if I'm a baseball player as well sitting on the sidelines....

I could see these people's wickedness, and the thoughts that I would be next started to overwhelm me. The dream shifts to where I'm with a group of older people, and these look like people who would be orchestrating this sick act. The more they are talking to each other, and the more they are in my proximity, the feelings of fear faded away.

Sometimes I wonder if I was part of this vile act...

They were talking about how a lady managed to escape in the hallway they were in. The flooring was just one big gray surface, and it feels this area was well ventilated. For some reason, there was an opening between two people, and I wanted to just dash through them. But I felt that if I would do this so sudden, something would make them suspicious of me.

I honestly don't know who this woman was, but I just wanted to get out of this area. I waited until they were in the middle of a sentence, and quickly dashed towards a door behind them that they declared was opened. I wanted to know this for sure before I ran, because I felt they would shoot me, even though they didn't have any signs of weaponry on them.

I pulled on the door as if my life depended on it, and continued to run like a madman, looking at all viable options I could take in escaping through the random doors generated. I went to one door, and it didn't even have a door knob. I didn't take any time to wonder why, because I still had that feeling I'm being chased.

I quickly went down the mini-stairs to get up to that door, and kept running until I found a random door. I can't remember how it looked like exactly, but I just placed my fate that this would be one step out of this place.

I can't remember what I do next....

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08.06.2012

Sakyo and Toguro (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I see a house, and I'm in spectator perspective. The exterior is made of white or gray wood layers going horizontally. It looks fairly small, and had the style of it conforming to what you see in pop-up books...

Except that it was 3-D, and there are two windows, one right above the other. I look at the bottom window, and I see someone slowly walking down the stairs. The lighting inside has a yellow-orange type of hue, and I see the person is wearing a light gray suit with a blue tie or some dark color, and light grey dress pants as well.

He's pretty tall, maybe 6-7 feet from first glance, and I noticed that it's Sakyo from Yu Yu Hakusho. He looks at me with a smile, a stoic smile, or just.....it's hard to explain. He clearly had confidence in himself. This picture pretty much is how his facial expression was.

After looking at me for a few seconds, he looks up, and it seems the Younger Toguro brother from Yu Yu Hakusho is inside the level above him. Toguro rests his left arm on the side of the window, and peers down at Sakyo. He's wearing his dark green jacket, just like in the series, and has his shades on as well.

They exchange words, though I can't remember what exactly, and there seems to be a bunch of shaking on Toguro's level. It doesn't take them long to finish talking, and they go their separate ways.

Then it feels as if I'm being teleported into the inside of this house. In order to get in though, I had to go from some underground cave. When I get into the main base of the underground section, it's reminiscent to the area where Yusuke and Sensui fought each other in Yu Yu Hakusho.

I think I was interrupting their battle, but it's hard to say because I was running too fast, bt I do remember getting a quick glance of Shinobu Sensui looking at me, and he looks irritated, but he doesn't do anything to retaliate my sudden appearance.

(Kinda between these two pictures)


and this, except with his body on the same side as his head above

I keep running up the slope to get up to the door to get out of that place as fast as possible.

I slam the door as hard as I could, and then a bunch of random things happen that I can't even remember which one occurred first. Hiei from Yu Yu Hakusho is wearing his black cloak over his main fighting outfit, and is using his sword to slice random demons generated from a small section. Someone comments on how impressive Hiei's performance is, though I can't pick out where this voice is coming from.

one o the first things i drempt about was taking a bunch of ecstasy tablets thinking they were acid. I got some from my sister's ex boy friend casey. Later i traded the neigbors kid for some. None of the pills did anything and i plugged in the black light in my room for no reason. Also i traded all my bags of weed to the random neigbor kid named matt for one stupid pill. i was also mad that i relapsed but mad that there were no effects.
Later in the dream, ironically enoug, i drempt i was back in my old rehab but this time it was like out in the world rehab and was in my house and around the hood. but before that katie became my sponsor and we did a couple steps at her house. and then i showed her a picture of the young me at some aquarium or somthing. pretty much random dream

Dream - Lucid

I fell asleep and found myself in a mix between my current house and one I lived in briefly as a child. It was daytime outside according to the lighting in the room. I think I was in my room, but it looked different. I immediately knew I was dreaming. I examined my hands so I wouldn't get too excited and wake up. I then remembered my most recent lucid goal: To confront JP about being in so many of my dreams. I started to call out his name, trying to get him to appear, but he didn't. I kept looking at my hands to keep the dream from fading.

I kept losing the dream and then going back into it (it's been awhile since I've been lucid), but I regained lucidity each time this happened, and I would remember my goal as well. Every time I'd "wake up" somewhere else in the house, and I'd start to call JP.

I finally ended up somewhere that didn't look like the house anymore, but I think it was still supposed to be. I was standing in front of some stairs, and I called on JP. A man in a suit then appeared on the stairs, but he didn't look like JP; his skin was a bit darker, and he looked older. He didn't say a word and kept a strange, small smile on his face as he walked up the stairs.

Regardless of his strange looks, I treated him as if he were JP. I forcefully asked him something along the lines of "what are you doing here?" or "why are you in so many of my dreams?", but he kept on just walking up the stairs with his little smile, staying silent the whole time. Things then started to get blurry, and I tried to examine my hands to keep the dream, but I, again, lost it.

I then "woke up" somewhere else, I'm not sure where, but wherever I was, I decided to try to fly since its been so long. I took off into a blue sky dotted with clouds. Below me was green grass and trees with lush, green leaves. At a certain height I felt a little resistance, but that's normal for my flying dreams; I was glad to even be flying at all since I haven't had many LDs lately.

As I was flying, I passed by some kind of tiny flowers, and I reached out to touch them.

That's all I remember from that one, though I know there was a bit more to it than what I can recall.

~

I was in my bedroom, but, of course, it looked different than my actual bedroom. I was talking to someone on the phone, or myself, I'm not sure, but I was worried that the sound would carry through this weird window in my wall that went into the hallway, and my mom would hear my conversation. Later on, she said she didn't hear me, but I knew for a fact that the sound carried extremely well into the hall; I even heard my own voice coming from my room when I was out there.

This one is sort of vague, but I had a dream that I was Neal Caffrey from White Collar and I stole a freight train somehow. Peter was suspicious of me the whole time.

another one that I initially remembered a lot of, but didn't have time to lie there and hold on to it after waking, so most of it was gone before I could write it down

*****FRAGMENT*****

So, I'm apparently someone fairly high up in an army, and the commander is William Wallace. He tells me to collect some plants from my back garden, because he wants to make something he calls 'wolf-gas'. We then find ourselves on a large field- our army is there, but I couldn't see the enemy. Wallace then gives a speech- similar to the Braveheart one, but not exactly. As far as I can remember it was along the lines of the enemy being just like us, and just as scared as we were.

-There's then a large chunk that I can't remember-

I'm on a hill with William, and there's a farm nearby with smoke rising from it. He tells me to be careful, because it's wolf gas, and we then run in to rescue the people inside (the wolf gas seems to have a similar effect to mustard gas). I'm then walking around after the battle, and I see a man dressed as a clown fighting with someone over loot. I turn a revolver on him and tell him that neither of them have the rights to loot.

*****END*****

So, yeah, disappointing recall, but that was more of an external issue- I woke up because my father was shouting up and needed to speak to me, so I had no time to remember much or write anything down. There was certainly more of it, but it's too faint.

This requires a lot of explaining. So in other words, a lot of reading, but please bear with me ._.

Ok so about 6 months ago, I lived in a nice house... Everything was normal. Then, out of nowhere I had this one dream where it felt like I was awake. But what happened was, I was laying down with my eyes closed... And I could feel my bed float off the ground a few feet, and rotate 360 degrees before slowly falling back to the ground again. ...It didn't stop there. A few days later, I had another one of these dreams, except it was a bit more intense. Instead of slowly floating, this time my bed floated a bit faster, right up to the ceiling of my room. My eyes were open and I saw the ceiling like 20 inches away from my head. Then it dropped quite fast onto the floor. I started to have these dreams quite often, and they kept getting more and more intense with each one. Eventually I was at the point where I would have a dream like this and my bed would either skyrocket past my ceiling and into pitch black darkness, or carefully aim itself and dive into the floor at breakneck speed. It felt like I was on a roller coaster, except way faster. After about a month or so, I actually started to discover on my own that I could kind of control where my bed was going using my mind. Although it didn't work as often as I had hoped, it still helped. Then I had this one dream... This one specific dream that really freaked me out.
My bed floated horizontally in this dream. All I saw was darkness, but I could feel it moving. And then my bed floated by a white fireplace. I didn't have a fireplace in that room. But the thing that really freaks me out about that is, there's a chimney right outside my room, as part of the house... There WAS a fireplace in my bedroom... 200 years ago.
The fireplace that I saw was white, and there was a small fire in it, and it was brighter than it should have been for such a small fire. Yet, the light didn't go anywhere else. The light itself only surrounded the fireplace.
Eventually these dreams started to happen less often. Then I had to move out of that house. I left my old bed there because I already had a new one ready for the new house, the one I'm living in now. After I moved here, those dreams stopped ENTIRELY. I think those were lucid dreams, though. Because I felt awake in all of them. Even though these events happened not that long ago, at the time, I knew what a lucid dream was, but... I don't know... I have no idea why I didn't take control. For some reason, now, it's harder for me to fully LD... Anyway, thanks for taking your time to read this, it was pretty weird.

Well, I can really only remember one fragment from last night.

I was with a friend and we were in San Diego. I asked him why he had asked me to come on this trip with him and he said I would see once we got there. We walked downtown to the House of Blues for a concert. It wasn't any concert though, it was Sonic Boom 2012! I told him it was awesome he had gotten tickets for it and invited me. I was ecstatic! Anyways, we went inside and stood near the front with cameras in hand. Then the concert got under way and it was awesome. I woke up at some point when the concert was going on.

I was running with Lestrade (from Sherlock BBC) and we ran back to save this girl (a really annoying girl from school). Lestrade was ahead, and I'm running behind the girl to look after her... she was blow drying her hair while running. I thought it was weird how it could work without electricity but figured that it's connected to the backpack so it's fine. --- We were in front of a beverage machine, it sells coffee, hot chocolate, etc. Another person and the girl started calling Lestrade by the names on the beverage list...

08/05/2012
1AM - 11AM