non-lucid

I was at a school function and everyone was there. Harrison Hogan punched me as a joke or said something that made me mad so I slapped him in the shoulder hard a few times but one got him in the face. He poured Gatorade on me and I tried to punch him hard but missed and then I cursed at him really loud and everyone heard and I got really worried and upset. Because of the disruption everyone started to leave and one kid I recognized from school ran up to me and did a leprechaun jump where you click your heels together and ran away I tried to hit him but missed.

This Sam kid with blonde bushy hair and his friends told me they were going up to North Carolina at the same time as me.
We were in NC on our mountain riding up a road that doesn't exist and Sam and his friends ran by us. I looked at Sam with out saying anything and gave him the nod. He returned it. We continued that way into the trees and then realized that they were full of snakes that Sam and his friends were messing with and one dropped onto my shoulders. I threw it off and ran out of the trees only to find my mom and sister tangled in the strongest spider webs with thousands of tiny spiders crawling around. I climbed around them and got on my phone but everything paused like in GTA V. I called 911 but somehow knew I would have a spider crawl up my nose after. Then it faded.

After a year break, I've decided to give LD another try. So last night I set the intention to wake up at 5 and remember a dream (and if possible get lucid).

Well I woke up at 4.50 and while I didn't remember a dream, I went back to sleep. At 5.50 woke up again, this time with a dream still in my head. Wrote down some keywords in the dark to remember them later and went back to sleep.

At 8 I woke up again as usual, and remembered a second dream. Both non-lucid, but I don't except to have lucid dreams just now when I'm still struggling to remember my regular dreams as it were.

Dream 1.

I was in a very small hotel room with my ex (I do have often dreams about my ex as we were still married). I noticed some money in a glass ashtray, probably left there to the maid from the previous room occupants. As we already took over the room, I took the money, figuring in my mind that it's ours since the maid probably didn't need it. I got a paper $20, some coins and also a Hungarian forint (which is no longer in print for years). In the dream I was also wondering about the coin, and if I were more advanced at it, this would have already been a dream sign to notice.

Small fragment of me going to the balcony and in a neighboring room some guys were in the window, they saw me and started laughing (maybe I was naked? not sure).

Another fragment where we were walking with a girl and her father (?). The girl liked the guy (which is why I'm not sure was her father), she kept putting her hands in his. She had a small black dog, who started to lick my hand and cuddle next to me, and I remember having thought that she would be definitely jealous to see the dog cozy up to me.

Dream 2 after I went to sleep at 5.50

My parents were visiting and I was at school (or work?) taking part in some show. Dressed in some white dancing style clothes and kept looking at my parents to see if they saw me. We left from the building and when we came back, we were changing clothes, but I noticed I'm in house shoes so I was looking for some other shoes to take (that belonged to other people).

I found a brown pair of low closed shoes that I liked, but when I took them in my hands, a girl came and I gave them to her, as the pair were hers. Then I saw another pair of boots, a bit taller, but the owner came as well. So then I decided that I'll go with my parents to shop for my own pair of boots (or shoes).

--------------------

It was interesting how clearly I remembered the brown boots, I liked especially the shorter pair. If I'll ever see them in a shop nearby, I'll definitely buy them.

Also strange how less moral or ethical things were ok in the dreams, as if they were the most normal thing in the world (taking others's shoes, or taking money from the hotel room without remorse).

Also I noticed that my parents (which are living in another country, so we only get to really meet once a year) feature so often in my dreams. My ex relatively often as well. Guess these are dream signs I'll have to start focusing on.

Today i dreamt i was in a illuminated room where it was my racing set
i putted my white helmet on my head, i really felt that i had talent for racing.
i sitted in my white kart. and thought how my life was getting similar to capeta anime series.
I already had my racing white set when the dream started


Dream elements:

-kart
-racing



Technique used: ----------


hours slept: 12 hours

A fragment in which I'm waiting for someone in a subway station and meet an android, though they've been banned. She looks human except for her eyes: they're filled with a constantly-moving white light, and her eyelids are covered in jewels.

Utena's dueling someone, and her clothing's changing as she does so. Other duelists are running up the stairs and arrive just in time to see her win, and Touga says something complementing her on her confidence, that she could trust that the changes going on around her would serve her.

He goes on to say something about those changes reflecting past eras, which transitions into images with some vague connections - something about a limousine, and then something about flight patterns with an image of a witch flying on a broom, which leads into the next scene:

A guy who's just now become a witch is looking out the window at the approaching dawn, and he wants to go flying and feel the world wake up around him; but he has responsibilities to attend to, keeping him here.

Today i dreamt i was in my parent's bedroom.
i was lying down on their bed. on the bedroom door
my dad was hitting Boni with a kitchen paper roll
for some reason i told him "stop hurting her" he seemed angry
and came to me, he strangled me, i tried to scream "MOM! MOM!"
My mom saw my dad strangling me, she brought a knife and snapped
him on the left leg. for some reason i felt ym arm being snapped as well
i felt that awful pain, i wanted to stop that nightmare and i woke up.


Dream elements:

-Dad
-Boni (my brother's female dog)
-mom
-parent's bedroom



Technique used: ----------


hours slept: 12 hours

Jan 4. 2014

Last night bed 12-1 am - 10:15 am

Had a bunch of dreams. Woke up, recalled a dream, but didn't write it down. Then had some more dreams.

DR:
I'm with classmates. My moms kitchen. Sitting down with others for some "orientation". Something goes wrong and I leave. I'm now in some water park. Thinking which water shoot I'll go down to escape. Looking inside some tubes, some are closed off.

I'm walking away by a sea wall. Want to just sit down and be looking at the ocean and sunset. But I also want to go down to the beach to collect seashells.

Classmate is running after me. Giving me some papers. A small kid is pick-pocketing me. I grab his arm and start asking who is his parent. I drag him by some people standing outside their one story houses. From the look on one guys face, and scared look on boys face I know that guy is his dad. Inside of the house a woman laying on bed is throwing up blood. Lung cancer. That's why that man sent his kid to steal. I still don't like it but now I understand. I don't know how to help them.

I am turning the corner into my neighborhood, I'm walking with someone, I don't recognize them but just assume they're my friend. We hear a voice call us from behind and we turn around to see. It's a male who looks to be in his late fifties. He asks us if we want to go to the acid field. We say no thanks, because he has the look in his eyes that there's creepy intent behind them. Then we start to walk towards my house again, but then he says something to us again, he says "let me give you a ride to acid field." I still don't trust him and want to go home, but my friend start walking with him, I don't want to leave her alone with him so I go with them. Then we are at this place in a hidden run down hangar. There's junk everywhere, and junk for seats. He tells us to go sit somewhere, so we do, there's about 30 other people my age here sitting, I recognize some of them from high school. We're all watching these two girls fight, and there's a pair of boy getting ready with the hand wrap to fight next. I come to the conclusion that the guy was collecting people to fight at his fight club and that I would have to fight, I looked around and saw no big competition from boys or girls so I didn't mind, but instead he sent me down this thin path that was lined with jungle, roots, vines and it was night. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, but then I knew without seeing her that my twin flame was here, and I completely submitted and laid down on the path. I was going to sleep near her. Then sudden;y it was day, I got up and continued walking forward and the jungle came to an opening and it was rows of unused farmland and I saw her green tent on the left side of the path and when I saw it move I ran into the field on the right of the path and kept running. then i woke up. [what a coward]

So I did a lot of intention setting prior to bed and when I laid down I was repeating some mantras and trying to remember some of the TOTMs and what else I wanted to do. I was trying to convince myself of all of this and it seemed to just make me anxious and not be able to sleep. When I finally put my mind to rest a bit and start drifting off I could feel myself going to sleep, partial dreams and partial awake, it was very strange. My dream seemed very unstable and very chaotic, I could see buildings and objects just growing which apparently I was causing, nothing vivid whatsoever though.

I woke up many other times with just snippits of dreams but didn't really concentrate on recall since I just knew I was going to have a lucid later (which never happened). Instead I focused on getting back to sleep.

Woke with this one in the morning which wasn't really super vivid but I recalled quite a bit none the less.

I was with a DC in a car. We were headed back from somewhere but not sure where. I was in the buff for some reason but not sure why. I was very upset at my nudity and was just kinda covering as much as I could while we were driving. We ended up in a auto shop maybe a chop shop, not really sure. We stopped by the supervisor who was by a computer or something and asked about how much it was going to be to get a car that we 'aquired' fixed. The price popped up on the register as 12 thousand something maybe a 234 but not really sure about the last three digits. We continued and parked, I think I was clothed at this point or just forgot I was in the buff. There was a couple of guys working on buffing a car with a squirt bottle and small hand held buffers. We turned into the guys who were buffing and the DC I was with found my sun glasses on a motorcycle which I had apparently misplaced. Don't remember this transition but I wound up at home in a kitchen getting breakfast ready for my daughter. my wife showed up and wanted to show my step son the car we got. We went to the garage and there was a white porche sitting in the garage. She told him to take a look inside and he started to drive it, turning out of the garage. I was yelling at him to stop (not yet able to drive), he finally started to back up and I realized the car was just a Honda morano or something not amazing like a porche. He almost backed it into a wall and finally stopped. My wife began to get on him and he ran at me trying to get away, I held out my arms or hands to block him from getting me and wound up making him do some crazy flip backwards.

That was about it. Nothing too amazing, I had really anticipated a lucid last night too. Maybe tonight!

Legend: Non-Lucid , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

Urban Exploration:
Part 1
After playing around on a computer at school and talking to some teachers, i decide to go urban exploring. I arrive at a place which looks a lot like where i live. Long driveway, surrounded by hilly fields and a big house at the top. As i walk up the driveway, i notice about 50 people sitting around and talking (they are all people i know). I need a group to go into the house with so some of these people will do but i can't bring all of them. I start walking around and hitting people on the head with a stick. I knocked out about 30 leaving 20 people left. I could then split these 20 up into two groups to explore the house with.

I talk to the people sitting down and they walk up to the house with me. Once there, we split up into two groups. Ben declares himself leader of a group. (Ben is a guy i know and one of the people that were sitting on the driveway). We walk into the building and find ourselves at a sort of main chamber which splits off into two paths. One path on the right and one on the left. Ben and his group go left and my group goes right. We enter a room which has a shape sort of like a octagon. Small walkways were attached to the sides of the walls which went around almost the entire room. In the middle, there was a machine on a circular platform with pipes attached to it that connected to the back of the room. Around the middle platform, there were waterways which were about 6 foot deep. These waterways went around almost the entire room except when the pipes cut them off.

As we approached the room, my stupid group decides to immediately jump into the water and start swimming. They went left around the middle and headed towards the back of the room. I went along the right wall staying on the walkway. As i approached the pipes in the back, the walkway ended and i had to start walking on the concrete which the large pipes were attached to. as i walked, my group talked about the stories of this room. It's supposedly here to take water from a lake and process it into drinking water but the previous owners used the room to kill people. I make my way to the pipes which connect to the middle machine and jump onto the concrete under them. The pipes here were elevated. They had sprinklers attached to them and constantly sprayed water below them. I quickly pass under the sprinkler spraying the least amount of water but the water it sprayed was dirty so i ended up sticking my head under one of the clean sprinklers. As i do this, i suddenly pass out.

Part 2
I wake up in the same room, except the water ways no longer exist, the room is level. There is no machine in the middle, it was replaced by a table and chairs. There are windows on the right wall letting light in from the outside, those weren't there before. Near the doorway to the room, i see my desk. As i stand up, i also see my jacket on the ground and a girl passed out near the wall. I put my jacket back on and attempt to go get the girl up but i hear footsteps so i get behind the table and look under it. One of Ben's group members is walking into the room. I relax a little and stand up, although i still have a weird feeling about all of this.

Ben's friend shouts some nonsense and Ben eventually makes his way into the room. I subconsciously dislike him now because i get a feeling that all of this is connected to something he did. He starts talking, i think i forgot all of what he said, but a van backs into the room and in it is Ben's friends dressed up oddly, like all of them are about to perform a heist or something. Ben gets into the van and says something about urban exploring and leaves.

I notice a fire in the main room. They kept it alive all night, throwing in old notebooks and paper to keep it burning. I walk over to my desk and out of habit start checking the stuff on it. I notice my wallet and check that to see if anything is gone. It really shouldn't matter since there's no way this could be my actual desk. I then start checking the drawers. One drawer has a dvd about militia from Chile and as i look at it, I enter a trance and picture myself actually in Chile watching events happen. But i shortly snap out of it and put the dvd up. The dream then ends.

A bunch of colleagues and myself decided to go to the beach. We all rallied on a square/market made of different parts of my last block in Zagreb, but somehow strongly reminiscent of Rijeka. I remember Peti, Grga, and the Mihaljevic brothers, but I think there was someone else with us. We walked between the tall concrete buildings surrounding the market, and got to the other side.

We turned left past the buildings on the other side, and we were on a stone/dirt path heading for the beach. It was the same path I walked in Tomasevac, Rijeka, as a kid. The beach was very similar, but somehow different, the water was dark and looked more like an ocean, than a sea. It looked very nice but I didn’t even think about swimming as we neared it, my mind was focused somewhere else.
Suddenly I realized that I didn’t bring any swimming gear, not even a backpack. I hurried back and Grga and someone else followed me on their bikes (which they didn’t have previously).
They decided to wait for me behind the house on the corner we turned last.

I grabbed a plastic bag with my gym clothes, but no sneakers, and went back. Suddenly another colleague, Boltek, was in the group too. We went to the beach, but were in a spiraling staircase walking upwards.
It was the spiraling staircase leading to a billiards club we often went to (and hung out there quite a lot in the past). The stairs were very narrow, and the guys were making their usual snarky remarks concerning my situation.

Then, we were no Prokhorovka, a map in World of Tanks. The eastern side of the map was missing, and instead behind the tracks was the road to the beach we went through prior. We started from the north spawn, and pushed the south (the map was inverted). I was in my VK3601(H). As I pushed over the ridge I found a Sturer Emil confronting me. I flanked him, but he pinned me to the wall next to the road. As I tried to push loose, suddenly I had my hands again and, with help from Peti, tipped the Sturer over on his side away from me. I stepped over him and felt the armor plating beneath my feet bend and twist, as if it was made of tin. I was scared that I would fall through, but I didn’t. It was only up to my chest height, too.

Then we continued to the beach….

Attached Thumbnails

     

Dream 1: [COLOR="#800080"]I'm on the top of a mountain and there is a lot of snow on it. I see a chairlift thingy that you can travel with from cities to cities. I tell mom that we should use it, she's quite afraid but accepts. We get on the chairlift and it's speed is really fast. I fall from it but mom doesn't so she continues her adventure without caring. [/COLOR]
Dream 2: [COLOR="#800080"]I apparently went to search for that "Aura" again. I'm in a sewer and I look around for some tubes. I finally find them and I go through them even though they're small as hell and I have no idea how I got into them. I keep crawling and there are a lot of challenges that someone forces me to do. I do them but then I suspect that if I do those challenges I'll sell my soul to satan(wut). When I wanna do the last challenge the "someone" transforms into a scissor and it keeps giving me directions on where to go and instructions on what to do. I eventually get out of those tubes and I see a bed but right when I'm about to jump on the bed someone screams loud : "EARTHQUAKE" and the ground starts shaking. I jump on the wall and start running up so I can get to the top. I get to the top and jump out of the building and I start laughing and stuff. I somehow got in the front of my high-school and there are lots of people. One of the girls tells me that her parents are really violent and that they have mental isuess and I get really sad so I hug her.[/COLOR]
Dream 3 : [COLOR="#800080"]I get out of my school and I find this green turtle. I pick it up and she bites me. I slap her a little and then she starts to get really violent. I run into my apartment complex and I realize that the turtle can't really come up for some reasons. I look at her and laugh then I go upstairs and I see Lady Gaga doing some weird music videos probably.[/COLOR]
Dream 4: [COLOR="#800080"]I'm somewhere near a river. There are colorful flowers around the river and the place looked just amazing. I ask a girl where we are and the girl says that we are in Japan. She keeps telling me stuff about Japan and then I tell her that there is a huge difference between Romania and Japan.I tell her that I wanted to move in Korea but now I wanna move in Japan. I get closer to the river and there are some weird purple tiny creatures that jump on you. (I also kind of remember something about the cherry blossoms trees, their leaves kept falling)[/COLOR]
Dream 5: [COLOR="#800080"]I'm at high-school and there seems to be a special actvity. People were crazy and kept doing all kind of weird stuff. The school looked extremely colorful. A girl tells me that we need to exchange classrooms with another class. I run fast to the other class and they have an english lesson going on. I fastly pack up my stuff and then the teacher asks if someone knows what "activitate" means in english(Activitate means activity). I tell the teacher that I know the answer but then I'm like : "Wait, I don't belong to this class" and start laughing. I walk out of the class and right when I'm at the door the teacher says: "Anna, you can tell the answer". I get back but then realize there's another Anna in the class and I run out of it embarassed.[/COLOR]
Dream 6(fragment) : [COLOR="#800080"]Something about me when I was in the kindergarten. I think people were ignoring me and stuff.[/COLOR]
Dream 7(fragment) : [COLOR="#800080"]I was in a house that looked like a mushroom and there were 2 girls in it that welcomed me.[/COLOR]
Dream 8(fragment) : [COLOR="#800080"]Talking with Hathor28 and she is sick.[/COLOR]

Didn't sleep well, had a terrible headache.
All I remember is that I dreamt that I sent D another email, asking him to respond to me finally.
During my morning nap I dreamt of grandma visiting my parents. And grandma needed a new phonebook? So mother tells her this special phone book can only be bought at the airport around 200 miles away and therefore we need to drive there next Friday? Weird, I know.
But it gets better. I'm 30 and now I tell grandma "Thanks, no I have to spend my next weekend at boarding school because nobody will be home because of your freaking phone book.

Night of January 4, 2014. Saturday.



This dream, unknown to me at the time, related directly to my wife Zsuzsanna’s dream and memories, as well as an old photograph negative she had been looking at without telling me.

---

I am passive, tolerant, and patient in this dream. (I am not lucid, but it is rather vivid.) I vaguely remember thinking of manifesting a potential scene of romance and love-making, though I do not initiate it. My surroundings seem “wrong” somehow, as if I had come to be in the middle of some sort of fiasco created by a religious person. I am in a public hall at a small gathering of perhaps twenty people or more. It seems to be a group of people in an informal (bucolic) prayer meeting, perhaps in the late 1800s at first, but is more likely in the 1970s. The partially gray-haired preacher is directly to my right and reading from a personal book of sermons (not the Bible) and others are following along and repeating some of his words and phrases. There is no singing. I am seated in the front row and there are three rows of plastic chairs (not pews) I am aware of, of about eight or nine people each. There are also a few people seated on the floor in front of us near the first row only.

I am not one hundred percent sure as to what is in the area before us - as to whether it is a stage (which I do get an impression of and it seems logical). I am not sure as I never look in that particular direction at all (other than the immediate foreground where the girl and a few other people are sitting informally on the floor). There does seem to be an implication of a door on my far right as well as a stage likely being in front of us, but I am only slightly aware of it. All of this, in almost every detail when verifying certain things, matches the area Zsuzsanna was at the age she was relative to the young version of her here, though I had never been there and I did not know what it looked like.

The girl (young version of Zsuzsanna) who is seated on the ground in front of me, informal cross-legged style, seems happy I am there (but seems slightly sad and out-of-place) and turns around to touch my left knee with her right hand. However, there seems to be some sort of strange electromagnetic alteration (invisible barrier) of her intent and she reverses her motion and puts her hand back down as if the act is not physically possible and this makes me feel a bit “off” and both sensually and spiritually denied in my own dream (maybe she is uncertain of her approach).

I am rather annoyed at not jumping into a sensual adventure in my own dream (or even at least comforting the girl spiritually as even that was preferable to this “meeting” as a group, as it seems riddled with dogma and robotic continuity rather than with real consciousness and focus), so I decide to work on some music and start to write the notes down in my music book. The preacher, however, pulls it so that I cannot write properly (but does not touch me directly as if there is a similar barrier as with the girl) and makes a comment I do not recall. Imagine being denied both sensually and creatively - and I see that I have to follow along with the meeting (just to be polite, of course, as if I was viably lucid, I would have changed the entire scenario in a heartbeat) even though I do not belong there. I have no idea why I (or rather my dream self) am this passive. It does relate to Zsuzsanna’s memory and her sense of regret that she shared with me later on. This is more evidence that people can share other people’s memories without being aware of the orientation regarding location and such.

---

Regarding Zsuzsanna’s dream, implications in her dream were very similar to mine and left her sad (again, she had been looking at a photograph negative of the group which I never saw and I did not know of the preacher or the location, but these were days where she felt wrong about being near these people, as well as “brainwashed”). In my dream though, I do not sense any “dark energies”. It just seems a bit unusual and wrong, as if any kind of touching, sexual or not, was somehow seen as wrong and one person was “spiritually in charge” of several others.

Zsuzsanna regrets the influence these people had, even getting rid of some of her artwork and even certain music albums and possessions. It was not a religious cult, but probably close to it in some ways. Promoting the idea of “sin” upon a person doing nothing wrong was something I always felt was truly sick and “evil” in itself.

---

today i dreamt i was in a illuminated place, the floor was yellow due to the lights illuminating it
then i saw ana filipa, carolina sousa, mariana rocha coming near me.
they came but ignored me, ana filipa greeted vitor and goncalo who normally
are ignored at my school too, i found it weird and sad at the same time.
but then ana filipa gave me a kiss on the cheek.


Dream elements:

-ana filipa
-mariana rocha
-carolina sousa
-vitor
-goncalo


Technique used: MILD


hours slept: 11 hours