non-lucid

-in a lecture hall
-left to go to a park
- had to go through a turn style to get into the park
- sat under a tree
-went through the turn style a couple more rounds
- when I got back to the lecture I was convinced people who took my seat stole my sunglasses but they were in my pocket
- in a toy store there was a bear with a hole in its ear where a quarter was
- a man was so excited to show everyone this bear

2.8.14 Saturday

last night bed 11pm-4:40am

Wanted to go to bed much sooner, since had to get up at 5am. Went at 11pm, meditated for 15, but didn't fall asleep till past 12. All Ophelia's fault, for getting me hyped up again. Haha, just kidding?

DR morning
There is a lots of stuff going on with vegetables. Huge house. Now I'm upstairs in a smaller room, looking into a huge room with huge windows. I'm adjusting the blinds. Sun is setting it seems, and it's getting bit darker and I'm suddenly getting scared. So I quickly turn the vertical blinds, so i have full viiew of the outside. A whole neighborhood openes up. Gently rolling hills, one - two story residences, nice suburbs in southwest. I feel a bit better.

1. [Non-Lucid]
I'm at my Nans house playing a game on a laptop on a small brown wooden table next to the fireplace, I for some reason start feeling unwell and go sit on the sofa arm with my legs on the sofa cushions, my Nan and I think Cousin Chris are telling me I should have a lay down, but I didn't want to.

2. [Non-Lucid]
Fragments:
Some sort of castle under siege.
There is an area and there is a vertical tube on each side (It appears team based), the enemy are coming down in their tube, Im stood at the bottom with some sorta gun and sharp poking stick.

3. [Non-Lucid]
Me and a friend are playing about in this area with train tracks, its quite dark, a police car pulls up so we quickly hide, The cop gets out of his car, I then realized giving up would be a better idea so I stood up and put my hands in the air.

Fragments:
Abandoned fair ground.
A narrow street with shops and bars.
A white building with cool looking white pillars. (Bills updated mansion in True Blood)

Possible dream signs:
Nan, Chris

Side Notes:
As I was falling asleep I started moving, kinda rolling a little as if an invisible force was dragging me around. This was strange. (It is impossible for me myself to move like that due to my condition)

Today i dreamt i was playing pokemon emerald, i just could see the screen but it was a bit clearer
than the other times playing. I hadn't anything left to do in the game because i finished it.
But i heard some guy talking about some islands. I was pointing to the map and asking
if it was around there circling with my indicator finger. the voice said it was. so i went there
it was a town with some rocks, and red floor. i went a big up and digged the floor, i went underground
then after walking some time, i found the island. A sailorman was there waiting for me. i tried to go to the
water but some white text appeared in the middle of the screen. they were telling me something
that prevented me to go to the water, so i explored that place, i went up a little then i found some big rocks
there was a guy discussing which attack was better strength or rollout, the guy at my right was saying
"strength is quite useless and stupid, it makes you move around and attack the enemy."
the other guy who was supporting strength said
"Yes, but rollout copied strength, so it is obvious strength is stronger."
and then the strength guy, destroyed the rock in front of me.


Dream elements:

-pokemon emerald


Technique used: ----------

hours slept: 5 hours

first I had a dream of everyone I know becoming an ordained minister so we could all marry people .
this dream made sense after the long talk with my father the night before

this dream was set in a weird apt. complex with corn fields I have dreamt this scene before a few times one with corn popping in the fields but anyways dream
I was walking with some folks and my husband was at another house I was sleeping over at some friends for some reason but couldnt sleep so I snuck back to my own place to be next to my hunny . he is talking with people on a patio he sneaks off and hugs me and asks If I was going to leave him because some guy likes me . I hug him and say of course not how can you even think that . he turns into an ex then morphed back to himself we spent the night together then I get up and go get my blanket from my friends house and hear he has left me and a group of people tell me the guy who liked me heard what I did the night before ( which actually was nothing no fantasy just skipped over to morning ) but that my hubby was leaving me but figured he could get one last night of cuddling . I was shocked and pissed off I did the right thing and he bolted but then a friend said oh here he is that guy who likes you thru a window he was playing a guitar serenading me . I looked up to see who had just ruined my married life without me even meeting him and he was the most beautiful man I had ever seen he was steam punk with black hair and a voice that instantly killed all of my hatred towards him . I never spoke to him and only looked at him that one time before going off to find my hunny bunny
next dream
we were living in the country in tents and the people who lived in houses next to us were having a party in our yard like they were observing me I could tell this was some kind of shared dreaming traveling group I have met before but I couldnt get lucid enough to interact with them I put up groceries in a tent went to the next tent to get my dog and she was in a kennel ( she has not been in a kennel since I rescued her from the pound so this was tramatising for me . but there was a kennel undermeath hers I looked in and there was a dog and a friend of mine whom when I asked said nothing . I asked one of the guests ( for lack of a better term ) why my dog was let out of the yard while i was trying to figure out the friend thing . My dog is running loose she will hurt other dogs so I go to grab her and a water main breaks I knew with the new swimming whole ditch she would just swim and watched her she ran off down the road and as I caught up to her she turned into a hedgehog and balled up a lady came out and asked what is this I said my dog and pulled her back to normal out of her ball pose the lady says oh I guess you are right . I walk off to catch up with her then I see a group of friends and stop and talk with them then up the stairs to catch up with my dog again

next dream
I was at a mall with a pool dacing to gogol bordello then dyed my hair green that got me in trouble because apearently I was famous in this dream ( irl I am a simple leatherworker) but the press went nuts and I ran off to a swimming pool where a vine was growing thru the window and a snake was sneaking in


last nights dream
a plane of stolen art harboring abused children that were being rescued by the art thief

2.7.14 Friday

Last night bed 11pm -4:47am

Short night, plus I took some REM rebound aid (haha, wine).

Had a not so bad dream. Although dreams that start "I'm in a room or house" are, well, I owuld rather have some exciting things happen.

DR:
So, I'm in a room, and I hear a helicopter. I pull the curtain away, that's flying in the breathe. I see a blue helicopeter hovering really close, and I tell someone in the room.

I look again, from another window, and now I see that it's a hummingbird. He is all blue. His feathers are not smooths like you would expect, but a bit ruffled. He has some red strands on his head, hanging down. He is beautiful.

I'm in another room now, and the hummingbird is inside. He flew in through the opened top part of the window, which kinda leans away from the frame. He is fluttering between window and white curtain. I gently grab him with the curtain and lift him up to the open part of the window. He takes a few seconds to make it out. He pauses to look at some fat flies in the abundant spider webs.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) I live in a poor neighbourhood. My family sells clothes in a small shop in a shady corner. Some bullies come to collect money from us, but they get more interested in myself and I have to run through back alleys to escape them. At some point I enter a back door of a building and find myself at some kind of posh shopping center. I continue running, but I have time for some observations. I see, for instance, a lady trying on some jewelry the shop keeper put over the counter and as they turn around for a second, I manage to grab a beautiful necklace, but I throw it away before exiting with it. It would be so helpful to sell it and make some money for my family, but I can't. It's not so much that I find it absolutely wrong, but I believe there's a good chance it has an alarm of some sort and I would be caught and it really wasn't worthwile. So I drop it and keep running. I exit through another door and I find myself crossing an oriental-style spa. It's so soothing, but if they see me there, I'll be caught and jailed, so I keep running. I finally exit the building and get to a non-urbanized area, by a riverbed. The sun is setting and I duck under some bushes. I stay there until it's dark and I sense that there's no one looking for me. I then walk through a dirt road and I find a well. I look at it and see the moon reflected on the water and I feel an absolute sense of peace and detachment. I touch the rough stones of the well and have a strange feeling that they are moving. Scared, I fall on the ground and covered in mud, I see a dragon arising from the well, the stones becoming his scales. Is he going to hurt me? I feel that it's up to me. It all depends if I run from him or if I tame him. So, in a corageous decision, I grab some scales on his neck and I decide to ride it. He turns his head and looks menacing, but then he talks to me and he says something magic I can't pronounce even if I wanted. But I understand he is going to take me somewhere.
He drops me at some big palace like hotel or something. I wonder how I can go inside covered in mud, but then he merges with me and his scales transform into a beautiful golden scaled mermaid strapless dress and I look like a queen. The doors open for me and I'm inside. But I keep feeling a stranger and everytime I cross paths with someone on the lobby, at the hallways, I fear that they will see through me and notice that I don't belong. But they don't.
I see everyone heading to some kind of concert room and I follow them, trying to mingle. Some old rich couple starts talking to me, I have to lie about a few things, and I wonder if I'll be asked for a ticket a the door and look stupid for not having one. They do ask for ticket and I don't have, but the way I look, they don't even doubt I haven't paid for the show, they believe I just forgot and allow me in. I can't believe it is so simple. Some guy offers me a coat and then I see why. The doors open to an open air amphitheatre over a hill and it's a chilly night. We take our seats and we get a package. If we're on an even row we must open it to the right and if we're on an odd row we must open it to the left (or vice-versa). Inside are some kind of 3D goggles and other weird gadgets. I wonder what this show is about. Then I see some kind of gigantic molecular structures with lights floating above us and I'm said the show is about to start.

(Side note: It occurred to me yesterday, lucidity works best for me when I'm focused on a specific task, as with defusing nightmares, and that's probably something I could put to work for me more. So before going to bed today, I tried typing out one of my dream goals with the heading Task of the Day.)

I was flipping through the just-released final book in a series, the Wheel of Time, when it occurred to me that this series already ended. I get online to explain the discrepancy, and there's some explanation that this new book is an optional epilogue with bonus materials and illustrations and so on. I realize this is a dream. My first instinct is to just continue with what I was doing anyway, but right afterward I think, no, what I was doing was boring. There is no way I am going to waste a dream sitting around my IRL home on the computer. (Although come to think of it, a dream computer could probably do some interesting things too.) That decided, I immediately set out to perform the task I set for myself. (Successfully remembered!) The first step is finding a doorway or other way of changing scenes, so I head for the door.

Before I get there, however, I get distracted: I realize I'm holding the t-shirt I'd taken off earlier in the non-lucid part of the dream. But although I hadn't put on another shirt afterward, I'm fully clothed now, which I think of as a convenient bit of dream logic. I remember a previous lucid dream where I'd tried to transform a shirt into something else, not very successfully, so the presence of a spare now makes me want to try again. I decide to just transform it into a robe, that should be easy, I'll just lengthen it and create an opening in the front. I see there's an opening at the front of the collar now, so I take hold of either side and pull as if tearing it, extending that opening to the bottom, seeing that it's grown longer as I go. I hold it up to look at it - it's got the shape I pictured, but it looks like a poorly-sewn costume, like something a child would make. It's got a piece of plastic sticking out of it, as if a price tag's been torn off, and there's a tangle of loose threads and frayed edges across the opening in the front. I tear that tangle off, then realize I'm waking up. (It occurred to me afterward that both shirts had been specific shirts I actually own IRL. Makes me wonder if I'd have an easier time if, rather than just the general idea of a robe, I'd aimed for something more specific. Still, though: a more successful transformation of an object than the last attempt.)

today i dreamt i was on a electronic store, i was in front of a high spec laptop.
I only remembered to see 16 GB ram, a thought came in my head.
"I saw this laptop somewhere, oh yeah! it was on mediamarkt
i wanted to make it as my RDP"
so i looked for the laptop IP, so i could connect to it through my PC.
My instinct told me to don't do that. so i stopped.


Dream elements:

-laptop
-electronic store
-mediamarkt


Technique used: ----------

hours slept: 8 hours

1. [Non-Lucid]
Sitting at a desk in a classroom thinking about being lucid in my dreams and how fantastic it would be.

New we are pulling out the contents of this blue box and having to describe what we are pulling out such as pencils. everyone seems to do ok... now its this girls turn to describe its contents she begins and it becomes apparent that something is very wrong with her as she is off to the side of the box taking imagery things out of an imagery box, this goes on for a few minutes.

Im so happy at the fact I remember thinking of lucid dreaming.

fragments:
I get a starred at in a rather strange way by my support worker sitting across from me, was pretty creepy.
I saw some word written in lime green with a swirly thing next to it.

2. [Non-Lucid]
Me and Emily are playing Minecraft when all of a sudden a wall falls down to my right, on the other side is a secret project I been working on, so I panic and say "uhh...don't go in there please" as she looks through the hole in curiously.

Fragments:
Getting Kye a copy of Minecraft then rushing to my pc to tell Emily the good news.

3. [Non-Lucid]
I'm next to a sweet shop with another guy when my aunt shows up and gives us each these huge pink boxes with Jelly Belly jellybeans in it (saw the logo as well), I was extremely happy about this.

fragments:
I'm trying to get past my aunt sneakily but she notices me and I get embarrassed. (she was holding a weird looking bag)

So I am bit confused on if this was a wbtb or not. I woke up but I never moved or opened my eyes(this was round 5:30) I could tell because I heard my mother getting ready. I just went back to sleep but I started to have hh's, Gotta say these were fantastic. I heard train tracks like when the train goes over the cross section you here that bump kind click-clack sound. This was very loud. I felt so many vibrations and at one point I felt super light then the next I was sinking into the bed(I got about halfway through). It felt like I was going warp speed through a tunnel as I was sinking into the ground. I saw fractal like patterns mostly circular that were vibrating. I never managed to dream though but this was the closest I came to I believe. However as I mentioned i was not trying or planning to do this. I just forgot how much fun these are and how unbelievably real they can feel, see I have been working on dream recall so that I can do dild's.

Now onto the dream(which actually happened before the failed wild/wbtb thing) :

I was working at my old job cleaning a retail store when an old friend from high school, D, came in. He came over to me and the store morphed into a house. There was a party and we were all in the kitchen. I was sitting at the table. Everyone was drinking and socializing, however I did not want to drink. A lot of people from my public school were there as well, I takes to S a lot about mundane things. Suddenly talking to her made me want to drink so I took a couple shots if whiskey. I danced the mamba I think with D. Then I looked up an the ceiling was all stars. It was controlled by a light-switch that D turned on. I rushed out the back sliding glass door to look at the real stars outside. He came after me and I told them that the stars outside were much better. I then noticed a cluster of stars and said, "I am so sick of those goddamn aliens!" I then went back inside the house but most people had left. It was only 11:30pm so I was kinda disappointed it has ended so soon. Even though it was my house I decided to take a taxi, while letting others stay the night. I remember getting into a taxi with my sister however the interior of the car was a huge room. You could walk around and there were tabled to sit at. I then was listening to a women lecture about the safety hazards of driving. She said that good drivers get in trouble when others drive badly. I said I wouldn't know since I don't have a license. She kinda look at me like I was one the problem drivers( I think she assumed my license was suspended). So I told her that it just expired as I never went for my G2(this is true in wl).

Dream 1: [COLOR="#800080"]I was in a train station waiting for someone to go on a trip. I keep waiting and waiting but nobody comes so I try to call mom. I see mom and I ask her where the person is. She says that the person should be here already. I tell her it's not here and she grabs my hand and drags me into a little garden. I see there a man without his arms and mom tells me he's a relative. He does the split and mom laughs while saying to me : "That was his position when he beat up that nurse because she wanted to kill him" and then a train drives over him and he still laughs. I get on a tube(blue color) and I stay there. The man says that I need to walk away because that's a water tube. I said : I just stayed there because It's so hot outside and that tube is cold. Then my sister jumps on it and it breaks. The relative gets angry and yells at her. Mom runs fast and repairs it. Suddenly, a snow storm comes and everybody flies away except me and my sister. My sister runs somewhere and I stay there yelling for help. I see a guy with a red hat and he says he will help me but then he runs. I try to move and I find this kid who is like 3 years old. She is really scared and yells and I run to her and pick her up saying : Don't worry, we'll get through this. I lose her and I start looking for her but all I find is another girl who looks like 5 years old(She had blonde hair and green eyes). I grab her hand and we try to walk. I see a fireplace and I tell to this old man if he can let us stay there for a night because it's really cold and we can't see. He says yes so I jump the fence and we sit near the fireplace. It's really hot there and there's no snow. I talk to the girl and she says she got lost from her parents and I tell her that we'll find her parents no matter what. I look over the fence and there's no snow so I'm really happy and I tell the girl that we can go now. We jump over the fence and I see my sister. I run to her and hug her. There's my classmate that comes from the back yelling : ALINA!!! and he jumps on her and we fall. Kris comes and he says that we really need to go a building and he points at it. I say okay and we all go into the building. We play some game and then I get into this hall that has lots of doors and walls in the middle of it and all kind of things. I run but Kris grabs my shirt and he says that the game is over. I run to this other hall. I see some the snsd member and I say that they're really pretty but they're so small(height). I get to this room and there are some papers. I look at them and there are only math problems. [/COLOR]
Dream 2 : [COLOR="#800080"]Something about my grandmother. She wanted me to bring her all kind of stuff.[/COLOR]
Dream 3 : [COLOR="#800080"]I was in my classroom and I was playing on my phone.[/COLOR]
Dream 4 : [COLOR="#800080"]I'm with mom and dad on a street. Mom sees an ambulance and she tells us to run because they will kill us. [/COLOR]

Only fragments this night.

I was at a construction site, and for some reason the people there wanted to kill me haha.

I also dreamed that i was playing Pc games..

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) I am at some kind of school. I see western kids practicing Kendo with eastern kids. I realize I am in a dojo. Besides the kendo, I watch some lady playing a really silly sport, consisting of throwing a watermellon and other similar fruits to fit into some very tight fitting baskets far away. It seems hard, but hardly elegant. Until I realize the level of precision and strength necessary to actually fit the watermellon on the basket without bouncing or breaking or anything else. Fitting it with perfection is something that can only happen by chance 1 in a millionth, but she makes it at the first try and I realize the level of skill necessary to achieve it. She is in a perfect zen state. When I realize that, tears start falling from my eyes.
I cross the room to a big balcony and I see a breathtaking view over a hill, a big river below and a mountain right in front on the other margin, with a complex of shinto temples on top.
The beauty of it is beyond words. It's surreal. It's Japan but I can't really say when. It looks both in the past and in the future, but in relation to what?
I am taken by boat up river. As I slide through the waters and approach the mountains, I start recognizing places and emotions take over me. I have been here before or will be here later (it's hard to tell). I pass through a Tori leading to a village, I don't know its name, but it feels like home. I start crying like a baby. We pass by a shrine with homage plaques with names on it. I can't even read what's on it, but I fall on the ground, sobbing, with sorrow, with a sense of unforgiving loss, with memories of a life I don't even know if it's past or future. And I cry for an eternity.

I'm aware T. is going to rob my home and kill me tonight, as if I'd seen the future. I took some steps in preparation for that, but I believed that what is going to happen can't be averted. However, it turns out I'd misinterpreted something: while T. really was robbing the place, the killer turns out to be someone else, a stranger who broke in with a knife. T. and some other people who live here help fight him off. We get to the scene I knew was coming, when the knife's supposed to cut deeply into my shoulder and stop just above my heart, and I wonder if I'll be able to feel pain in a dream. I decide to have the scene go a different way instead, I close my eyes and imagine that T. and the others hold him back enough that the knife turns aside. When I open my eyes again, the stranger is on the floor, dead.

I decide to perform "Deedlit's healing spell." (It's been years since I watched Lodoss - did Deedlit even have a healing spell? - I think this was mostly some generic mental association between elves and healing.) I say something I no longer remember, a phrase in English something like a prayer, and there's a warm gold glowing light around my hands, which I hold over the dead man until he revives, though he remains quietly on the floor. I then repeat the spell with the others in the room, although they don't seem to have any wounds, and they're surprised but appreciate it. I leave the room and go to heal my IRL sister L., who in the dream lives next door, waking her up in the process. I then go down the hall to find T. again and heal him too.

Me and T. talk for a while, and as he talks his appearance changes. He walks into the kitchen briefly and when he comes back, he's become a different person entirely, and he's joined by another man. They both claim to know me and to have been looking for me for a long time, although they call me by two different names. The one who wasn't T. speaks with a heavy Scottish accent and calls me Jack. As I'm speaking to them, I remember that while I'm lucid, I had some things I wanted to get done, and I try to remember what those were. I decide it was the Task of the Month. (Apparently reading the TOTM thread last night was enough to overrule my personal lucid goals.) I remember that the Task was to ask a DC who your true love or soulmate is, so I ask these guys, who's my true love? They both go silent and look extremely uncomfortable, like that's a question I shouldn't ask. I tell them any answer is fine, it's just a task, and I try phrasing it with 'soulmate' instead, but that doesn't get a better response. I feel like their belief that they knew me a long time ago is affecting this, that it's part of what makes this a question they don't want to answer, so I decide to go outside and find someone else to ask.

Outside my IRL home, I'm appreciating how vivid it is. There's a chill in the air, a nicely realistic touch, and there's no snow on the ground, which is a great change. I walk off the driveway and onto the main road, and for some reason I feel like that's an important dividing line, particularly when lucid. My attention is caught by a squirrel across the road standing on its front legs, craning its neck to look up at the sky; and then by the body of a dead deer at the 3-way crossroads. I believe (incorrectly) that this dead deer is always here at the crossroads when I dream, and I think about going over to talk to it, but on second thought the idea makes me a little uncomfortable - I think it'll follow me home. Better not. There's a rock just beside my driveway with some words carved into it, and I start to go over to read it, but a car drives by. I stop it and walk over to the driver, ask her who my true love is. Again, she goes silent and gives me the impression that this is a question I shouldn't ask. I decide to go for a ride, and I climb into the car through the window.

Inside the car, the woman I spoke to isn't the driver at all, she's a passenger. There's six women in the car, all of them working in the fashion industry or as models, and with the exception of the woman I'd spoken to and the driver, the rest of them resent someone who's not part of the industry hitching a ride. No one except the driver knows where they're going - it's a surprise. The driver's name is Audrey, she's someone big in the fashion industry, wearing large dark sunglasses. I ask Audrey who my true love is, and as an answer, she produces a piece of lined paper with something written on it, crumples it up, and throws it out the window. She's not throwing it away - she means for me to reach out my window and catch it. I'm too slow, I just miss it. But I decide - no, I didn't miss it. I caught it. I announce out loud, "Got it!" I 'remember' the feel of catching it, and then I draw my hand back inside the car. No good, my hand's empty. The women in the car look at me oddly for claiming to have caught the paper when I hadn't. I try the hand-behind-the-back summoning trick, but still nothing.

Since I keep failing to get an answer to this question, I decide I'll switch to a different Task of the Month. For some reason I believe that the other basic task is to kiss a DC. I stop to think about that for a minute, since I'm sure that can't be right, that's too basic, but then I decide it's meant as something simple to stick with a Valentine's Day theme. (Was I mixing it up with the kiss-a-zombie one? I had just raised someone from the dead, shame I didn't follow up on that. ) Although I'm not sure how I got here, I'm now following Audrey into an elevator with one of the other women from the car. I ask Audrey if I can kiss her, and she says sure. I can't remember what happened after that, but next thing I remember we're leaving the elevator and I'm thinking that didn't work. We're now standing in a large room with a mirror and a couch, and I ask the other woman, a slightly chubby, very beautiful blonde, if I can kiss her. She says okay. We're standing in front of the mirror, and I'm surprised to see the mirror's actually reflecting her and the room we're in (though not me, as usual), and her reflection looks exactly like her, although it's watching us instead of mirroring her actions. I lean in to kiss her and close my eyes, but perhaps because I was distracted by the mirror, I find I've wound up kissing her reflection instead, through the glass. I move us away from the mirror, focus on the feeling of her shoulder under my hand, and try again. I'm too focused on comparing this to real life and trying to improve the realism to enjoy it much - the feeling of her lips themselves is accurate, but that's about it. I'm thinking that this sort of thing really doesn't translate to dreams well, and I should focus on doing things that aren't possible IRL. So I remember the 'other' (actual) task of the month: I step back and ask her if she knows who my true love is. Again, she seems uncomfortable with the question and doesn't answer. Then I think that asking someone you've just kissed to tell you about your true love may be a little tactless.

There's a cat by the mirror now, yowling. Two people who work here rush over to it to try to get it to be quiet. On the other side of the room, there's a whole row of mirrors and a hairdresser standing in front of them, talking about originality or lack thereof in fashion shows. I lose lucidity and follow him, listening to him for a few moments before I wake up.