non-lucid

Forgot to write my journal this morning so my memories are very muddled:

1) Wandering around a large greenhouse with corridors, getting ready for visitors, standing by a large wooden table doing something. Lots of very famous people were expected. I remember that Saddam Hussein was there. Then there were more famous people arriving it was a hot sunny day and they were all extremely rich. I watched a couple get out of a very expensive sports car, they were both dressed in designer clothes with very expensive gold watches, the wife was having a go at her husband about something I thought they looked extremely rich and spoilt and didn't like them. Everyone was arriving and walking to the building opposite which was a hotel. Then I was sat in a corner and I had a small radio, I think it was a walkie talkie but I was playing with the aerial and trying to tune it in.

2) Sitting in a chair reading a newspaper, I dropped something into it (?food) and folded it in half. I remember thinking that it was good to feel my emotions, I can't remember why though.

Vegetarianism

I was hanging out with my friend who has kindof dumped my recently IWL partly because he is going through some serious stuff with his own family and he is having a change of lifestyle. I am kindof happy this is happening because his attitude is different from mine. He likes fast cars, alcohol, cigars and women whereas I do admit I like all those things too but would rather not go there. So he was there and I think this hightened my awareness in the dream because he was running after wasps hitting them and then squeezing them but they would not die properly and were flying over to me to sting me. I was trying not to get angry even thoough the situation was crazy. I started telling him that if we are nice to beings in the world we can make a big difference but he just continued on. The next thing the same story just magnified into a full on War. I was protecting a group of people while a chopper landed in front of us. A load of men came out with full armour and some kind of machine gun I had never seen before. They captured the people and I managed to get away. They were not looking for me they were looking for the indigenous people to wipe out the spiritual culture and bring on the industrialisation. It was an Avatar type thing. I was suprised at how brave I was and not a bit scared. This makes me think that I must have had some level of lucidity but not recognised it was a dream. This is still taking things a little too seriously and fighting for a cause. I have a sense still that there is something to change and not fully in the dream. I then ran up a number of floors in an office block to let them know and try and find someone official. Of course this is a classic dream sign of running around in circles and not becoming lucid.

Some big catastrophe happened & I was living in this big mansion & it had beautiful grounds. The only person I recognized was one of my twin daughters, Ashley. We were trying to deal w/ a lot of people trying to get us to give them supplies but our supplies were running out. I felt terrible that I couldn't give more because they assumed that we were lying to them due to the big house but we just didn't have very much left & this was about survival. It was a constant battle to try to keep these ppl out of our house & off of the property. I had this sense of dread that we were going to die if they managed to get in & take the last of our supplies. I was very glad when I woke up but I wish I had become lucid so I could have used this nightmare to my advantage.

I do not know why, but I have to drive a car to go somewhere ... I drive a car on a highway with little traffic, I have no visibility and I move without knowing what I'm doing. The situation overwhelms me a lot and I wake up

With a group of classmates we drove to a course of some kind, which was conducted in a school on the other side of country. We were there with a teacher - an attractive blonde woman. We left our stuff in rooms - they had a bed and a wardrobe for each person. These rooms were suited for two people. Then we went to the classes - there were more groups from other schools. Everyone took their seat, I found a nice spot behind a column within my group, but the lecturer - a dark haired woman in late thirties, told me to sit down someplace where she'll see me.

It was evening after the lecture, my group went to a local bar. I decided to go back to my room. Going through the hallway I saw the door to teachers room. It had small windows through which I could see her room. It was the same as mine, though it was suited for one person. She was sleeping in her bed, lying completely naked on her bed sheets.

I realized that I have my laundry scattered around bathroom and went to take it. I got a dark blue hoodie, jeans trousers and a purple t-shirt. I took them and tried to go to my room, but then the door to teachers opened. I hidden behind the corner, though I dropped my t-shirt. Someone wandered on the upper floor (stairs were nearby, I could see a woman from room service), teacher looked at the t-shirt and complained about incompetence of room service.

I went to my room and got surprised - someone added five more beds to my room. There were people sleeping there, and a man in a gray suit. We started to argue, in the end I called him an idiot and threatened with throwing him into a bear-pit.

Dream
It was me, a girl and a group we belonged to. The world had a certain feel to it and I had the perfect analogy before but I've forgotten... Like sort of steam punky but very 21st century, possibly like Shadowrun? Though not quite as dark.. The girl in our group got captured, she was in debt and some mobsters had taken her slave to pay it off. I think it was about $50k? I tracked her down to a club place and led her outside, she hopped on a motorbike which was driven by another girl from our group. She drove her away back to our base while I stayed. I turned to head back into the club, I had to talk to the boss man and sort out paying her debt off. The man was easily recognizable, he slightly resembled my friend Jareth in his facial features but not quite. He wore a yellow jumpsuit with white lines down the side, it stood out quite a bit. I think I lost him at one point and found my friend Daniel who pointed me to the downstairs area of the club to find him. I head down the steps, the guy is hiding from a steam-punk swat team that showed up. I start talking to him, he's go blood dripping down his face from an encounter he already had with the cops. "About the debt of my friend... I want to help pay it off. I can.. Be hired, to take out people for you" I felt a bit bad about it, I'm apparently quite powerful and I didn't want to kill anyone. "Uhh shit, yeh she's got a big debt to pay" he responds. I point over at the nearing swat team, the scene is a bit different now since we're outside and he's hiding in the back of a truck that has its door open. "I can take them out, how much will you give me per head?" I think we come to an agreement, so I hop off the truck and draw a futuristic looking katana into my left-hand (I'm left-handed). The swat team lines up and slowly encroach towards me, I'm just walking towards them at a casual pace now.. I dive forward swiftly and slash at the man, the swat team members all wear this incredibly thick black metal armour. I'm able to cut through it at the joints, I aim at the mans legs and dismember them both in one swipe. I move on to the next and draw a second (normal-looking) katana into my offhand. I start hacking and slashing wildly, they've opened fire but the bullets just seem to miss me completely. I'm completely unafraid of the bullets, as if they're bending around me by my will, allowing me to brutally murder the entire swat team. I then wake up

I liked this dream, had a cool theme to it and a pretty awesome story. Like how the main character had an interesting perception of good and bad, he was willing to protect his friend and pay off her debts by killing for the bad man who she was in debt to, rather than just killing the guy. Shows that he was willing to resolve the issue in an 'official' manner (despite it all being against the law, which he clearly doesn't abide by). I just found him interesting, even though I was essentially him in the dream. I wonder if I'd make decisions like that?

4/3/16
Dream 1: I was underwater or diving into water I feel. I am pretty sure this was related to some sort of video game playing but the details escape me.

Dream 2: I was walking around my dream version of Sydney road with my Chinese teacher as we were going past a whole bunch of chinese shops. I started talking to him about names, and how they were different or not different or some dodgy stuff like that. He didn't seem to get what I was saying, and neither did I tbh.

Dream 3: I was basically on the set of Top Gear as they were doing some sort of stunt. They each had an old sports car, a Ferrari, a Lamborghini and something else, maybe a Porsche, which they were drag racing in. James May was driving the Ferrari and expected to win easily however the other two shot past him. He complained about it afterwards, saying the car was broken and stuff but the others were teasing him. It then transitioned to them driving along with a zip line overhead with a camera attached, a sort of behind the scenes into how they filmed it all.

Dream 4: A woman was making her kids do chores in preparation for dinner. As they complained she told them about how she used to do much more when she was a kid. It then jumped to 20 years in the future or so, where she was now the grandmother and her grandkids were being made to do the chores. She rolled out the same story as well as how she made their parents do the same sort of work.

Dream 5: A sort of FA where I thought I wrote stuff down in my DJ and then went online but it didn't actually happen :/

Fragment: Playing basketball

Fragment: Tony Abbott and Malcolm Turnbull both in serious trouble

Fragment: I was at a museum of some kind.

I recall only blurred and brief nightmare fragments,

Preface:
Lately I have been having a lot of dreams where I am a third party. I am watching, listening, floating around...but when I attach myself to the main character I am able to empathize with him/her.
Tonight was the Season Finale of my favorite TV show, The Walking Dead. It was a show that ended with a crazy cliffhanger, and since I am so into the show I was emotionally charged, going on and on about it with my mom after it aired.


DR 1

I am floating around re-living scenes from the TV show. I am listening to conversations and running around with people. The colors and mood are dark in my dream, just like the TV program. I attach myself to a few characters but I am unable to recall the situations.


DR 2
I am in what seems like a dark room. I am concentrating on my breathing, practicing yoga breath. I feel lucid for a moment but I fall back into a dream after letting go of the vibrations. Can't recall where I went.

Preface:
Busy day today. Assisted my friend with activities around her book signing. Lots of coming and going, and the day ended with a dinner with friends. Many positive ideas exchanged. I went to sleep around midnight.

DR 1

I am telling my ex-boyfriend's mother how much I LOVE the heart shaped bath sponge she gave me. (A year ago she gave me a gift bag for Valentine's Day which had an assortment of cosmetic items in it, one being a heart shaped bath sponge that had soap already in it, good for 20 washes. Sounds weird but it worked.) Anyway, the conversation starts off over the phone, but I can see her face, she's holding her cell phone. Ironically, as a third party, I can also see myself holding my own phone and talking.

DR 2

I am in the bathroom of what seems like a dormitory or college apartment building. There is a blonde girl, kind of tall and dressed very neatly. Her hair is straight and her face is crinkled in disgust. She can't see me. I try to find out why she's upset, and then it hits me. She is staring at the toilet seat, that's been left up. Her boyfriend has left the toilet seat up, and he's peed, like everywhere. Pee is all over the toilet seat and the wall. Someone whispers to me, "She's from the "Clean People"...", and I think..."hmm I would be disgusted, too." She grabs tissue and instantly, her hand is my hand. We are attempting to clean pee from the seat and I am disgusted- WE are disgusted. The pee is dried and it doesn't wipe off easily. Gross. The boyfriend is somewhere in the background in the apartment, and he totally doesn't care. Ugh.

DR 3

I am at work. I am at a different desk, which is near a window. There is a small crowd of people around, looking at something, either outside the window or on the computer screen. One of the guys (this nosy guy in real life) is trying to read a paper on my desk. The paper is a brochure, which is closed. When I look back, the brochure is opened so I KNOW he has been snooping. Nosy ass.

DR 4

I am in the hallway of an unknown house. There is light brown carpet on the floor. There is some debris, not much, on the carpet. I am holding a broom. I am super excited about sweeping the debris along the long hallway and out the front door. I tell someone that I am going to do it. I start to sweep the carpet and the front door is open. There is a very bright light shining from outside the door! I am so excited to begin sweeping.

I wake up! Yeah, totally weird.

Dream # 2 this morning... My husband & I went to a house which belonged to my ex brother & sister-law (they are married to each other, not siblings) they've been in my life for about 27 years & have remained friends w/ me & like my current husband. ... Anyway, we were there to wait for some impending news. So we were frequenting this small town store waiting on the newspaper to come. The store was one w/ a front porch. If you're old enough you can remember what this little store/gas pumps look like but it was one made of wood. Like a log cabin kind of wood.... So we were going back & forth from their home to the store repeatedly. But while we were at the house my ex sister-law was mad at me & I just didn't understand why. SO she took me into her laundry room & told me to change my shirt because she thought it was inappropriat & she proceeded to have me change 3 times... I felt horrible, like I disrespected someone somehow but there was nothing wrong w/ my shirts & my husband told me to ignore her because he thought she was just maybe in a bad place in her life right now & was missdirecting her frustaions on me.... This whole story had meaning in my life right now, referring to my current sister n law who has been having a difficult time w/ decisions we've been discussing about my mother n law's current situation now that my other sister in law just died & was caring for her. The newspaper refers to my daughters children's baby daddy. He was just sentenced to 20 years & my husband & I were just watching "BLOW" w/ Johnny Depp last night & his daughter was about my granddaughters age when she was visiting Johnny Depp in prison. I had made a remark about this last night saying that that will be our granddaughter & grandson for the next 20 yrs & it was a very sad thought.

Dream #1. I was with my daughter & we were taking care of these house cats & leopards & they were beautiful & serene. It was just spending time w/ them as if they were very docile do to us caring for them & showing them affection. The cubs were just so sweet & the mother was just fine with us being there. Touching them was very vivid to the touch & the feeling of contentment & bonding was surreal. My daughter & I were experiencing a very unique experience.

I'm at the enemy's base and there has been an attack on it. I get a view from outside and there is a big, grey chapel looking building and the top part where a clock was supposed to have been there, but the attack left it in shambles and I was fakingly grieving over it. Now I'm back inside with the evil person named Sergent something. He is steamed about was has happened and plans on bringing them down. I have lost some detailing here but I believe that I have seen the Astro Megazord back at the base, just returning from his mission and docking at the hangar.

I giant monster has been deployed and is in the city causing mayhem and Thunder Megazord (Dairenoh) is there.The sky is an orange color and there is black smoke in the air. He is dropped in from a ship and lands behind a building in cover. As the camera pans towards him I can see the tip of his foot the rest of his body was blocked by the building the shot changes and when it shows him again the tip is no longer there and I rewind to see it again. This time he is dropped down again but as he is approaching he is getting attacked and shot at. He did front flips, back flips and dove back into the buildings he was at before.

Turbo Megazord appears and he is looking at the situation that Thunder Megazord is in. It shows a good shot of Turbo's face and as it did that another zord appears from behind him. It is a female version of Turbo and she has weird things on her face like little stones around her mouth and cheeks, this was Turbo,s wife. He looks back at here and says something but the subtitles are in Japanese and I don't know what he is saying to her.

Had several other dreams early on but cannot now recall, I tried to use a technique to remember them but gone.

D1 - Had one dream where I thought I was dreaming and had just been in a meeting room but something was wrong. i dreamt that I went back into the dream to change something. But it was a dream

Tried to WILD but just found myself in dream, don't remember any vibrations or anything.
D2 - Went up to hobbits round front door and I kind of got stuck there for a while, I was totally phased by how the door opened. Did it open like a notmal door or did it open in the middle like two half circles or best of all I decided open into the hillside by rolling, like a slidy door. with the door rolling round and round, and back, cool!
On entering the house I was immediatley drawn to the kitchen to the left of the main hallway. I went to peek in the kitchen door and that was as far as I got. The kitchen looked nice, wooden shelves with stuff on them, and shafts of sunlight. But completely incongruous to all I had expected there was a motorcycle lite by the shaft of light Oo wt...worse still was to befall my eyes on the old fashioned silver and black motorbyke was a dog, a sheep dog :/ what has the world come too
There was much activity in the kitchen, I know not what of but I left, in disgust and woke myself up outta there.
I woke up and tried again.
This time I was out in a field of thick high corn near a path, and there was Sam Gamgee or so I imagined. (In what I remember of the hobbit he had been collecting vegetables and took them back round to the house so I tried following him). I could only see the back of Sam, if that's who he was.
He sure enough went back to the Frodo's house (?) but instead of being able to enter via the big back window, I was confronted by big white framed double glazing, and no sign of a way of entry.
So I went back round to the front of the house to try yet again,
standing in tall in old green robes with a hood, was Gandalf....nope it was another ... dog!
this time it was a big grey (gandalf the ...grey evidently) long haird dog, standing on it's hindquarters, with it's face showing
at this point I felt quite insulted at how my subconscious was seriously taking the piss out of me, and gave up.
Dog Gawn it! for sure.

Note to self, next time remember I want an authentic hobbit house not some weird fabrication.
And then I remembered, seeing my neice's new godamm pooch and that he must of been the cause of this mess up!

1) In a road looking at a building which appeared a bit unusual. I realise it is an old hospital with an imprint of the new planned hospital on a big frame on material hung around it. I went into the building but can't remember what I did in there, I think I might have thought about dreaming. then I was in a car and I had to get home, I drove north through the city and started heading out on a very long road, I looked at a map and realised it was the wrong direction and turned around, I think I was with other people and said goodbye.

2) I was at the start line of a half marathon. I was with my wife and worried that I was wearing too many clothes, it was my best coat and I knew I would have to drop it off later on during the race. We were called forward to another start line and I was right at the front. It was a false start, I dawdled getting back to the start and got back just as the race was starting again. Now it was a tight funnel and I had to climb in over the top of metal railings, a friend was marshalliing the start and he help people up so I could climb down. I remember looking at my watch and pressing the start button as I crossed the start again.