non-lucid

Friday: A mountain "full of fog, 'wolves' and 'sheep'", where a woman who'll wind up becoming a historical figure is setting out to show the other side that some of their 'wolves' have deserted and are now helping her guard the 'sheep.'

Today: A guy in space, traveling toward Earth along with many, many other ships in some kind of race, the ship he's in seems made up of many different old parts, pieces are falling off along the way but he seems to have expected that. He's full of rage. There was something to do with lots being drawn, and his younger sister had been one of the winners, which would have meant she was safe and wouldn't have to take her chances in the race with the rest of them, but her parents (from whom he's estranged) had convinced her to give up her slot, that she must live or die and "become ashes" with them, so that they wouldn't be separated in the next life and lose her forever. She told him about this as he was looking over her ship for her, and he found something wrong with it, something that had been sabotaged, that would prevent him from communicating with her after the journey even if they both survived. He fixes it, and is furious.

Still the same storyline - there's a woman somewhere "left behind", the place all the people in the race and the lottery were abandoning. She wakes up with a gun next to her - not hers - and sees someone who says something to her. She, outraged by what he said, says "I don't look like a nice person to you?", and shoots him. Her logic being that if he couldn't recognize a good person when he saw one, he must be a bad person. As she shoots him, her face changes in some subtle way, something to do with her teeth, and I'm aware that in this place, now, people physically change to reflect their actions, and this is part of what the others were escaping from.

A conversation between a man and a woman in a bedroom as she's tying sheets together into a ladder, preparing to escape:
He: "I thought you might have missed it."
She: "Missed what?"
He: "The window."
She: "I can't miss the window. You're my destiny - war."

After an incident with a robot - it appeared human and was programmed to act as a caregiver to a group of four kids, something had gone wrong with it and put the kids in danger. Now someone's complaining to someone else about it - one's in law enforcement, the other's in politics, not sure which one is which. The one listening to the complaint responds, "I believe I oversaw the (something). And (something) to call in some backup." But when she says 'backup', she's not talking about something official. I see an image of two guys, not in any kind of uniform, one's scrawny and one's a little overweight, they have some connection to photography, possibly the press - they're the 'backup' she was referring to.

1. I was walking home trough some grass field. I was not alone. And i saw some mole holes on the way. And on one there was a triangle paper box and it said.. baby computer. It costs 500eur take it if you need it. And i was thinking well i could give it to my cousins daughter, she is 2y old. I tried its functionality and it was all about sounds. i pressed a button and a sound played. i listened to only 2 tracks. One was very dark. And i walked further and i saw some stands from the same company, and here they were offering dipers and baby food..

2. fragment! i recieved an email from ebay. They said that it is possible to repair my guitareffect for 30eur. And later my father´s co-worker asked me if i can develop some software for his firm. It was all about data entry into a base and to sort it alphabeticaly.

Read about the SSILD technique and tried it. Not sure if this will be a good one for me. Woke up without any alarm. Tried the relaxation cycle. Fell back asleep. Nothing. Tried again and again as I kept waking up during the night. Nothing to report here.
In the early morning hours I dreamt I was back in FL. I met all my friends again. It felt wonderful. We were at Winghouse. Suddenly we were all living in a medieval house (more like a castle). My friends all dressed up as if they would go to a re-enactment. They looked great. It was funny. They all were part of a procession and tell me to go with them. I just stand there and watch them. Suddenly I'm back at the house and the maidservant is telling me in an evil voice "Maybe they will never return from the procession!". I think something might be really wrong and something bad will happen to my friends. So I run through the house, open all these old fashioned locks and when I finally reach the last door I wake up.

Journal Entry non-lucid #4 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I went to sleep hungry for the first dream.
Dream fragment 1 from 8pm-11pm" Disturbing mediators ": I was entering a car race. The authorities at the race were doing background check to make sure that terrorists don't get in. Once we were allowed to come in, they gave us tanks. We had a sargent, and he told us that our mission was to defend a basket of cookies & milk. I didn't complain because I was hungry and I wanted those cookies and milk. All these people appeared and they had cookies and milk. They were from a meditation group. We came out of the tank, and greeted them. I was getting prepared to meditate, but the people that came as a meditation group disturbed everybody else; they played loud and obnoxious music, this horrid version of some dub-step. The girl in charge kept telling them to calm down but they didn't listen.

Dream fragment 2 11pm-3am" Eavesdropping Spider": The earliest memory I have was with me and my dad we were on top of a hill and this women was drunk. A successful women, drunk and belligerent. We didn't want her to do anything reckless and kept telling her not to drive drunk. Later on while we are walking. I found this piece of contraption, it was suppose to control everything in the world. My dad asked me if I could teach him how to work it, I told him I don't know yet and I will find out. There was this manikin and I commanded it by the machine to move back and forth, simple commands at first. Then I started making it dance. My dad said, "what is this? you made it too complicated. How can I learn that?" I kept telling him that he will not understand. I made couch, located in the middle of the street, levitate. I found a key inside of it and I gave it to my dad. My dad's face lit up with happiness. As he was celebrating a spider from the couch ran across my body, a big spider maybe about an inch long. The spider was covered with eyes and its legs were red. It didn't bit me, but it squirmed around me. I finally flicked it and it tried to run. Luckily, I trapped it in a bottle. It stuck it's eye out the bottle like those old unrealistic classical cartoon shows. After the incident with the spider, the environment changed into my house. My sister walked through the door and told me that she was going to see old church friends, and she asked me if I wanted to join her, I replied yes. She had an argument with my dad before we left though. I tried to break the ice by mentioning the eavesdropping spider, which had his little eye popping outside the bottle looking at us. They laughed and forgot about the incident. Me, my sister, and old friend, Big Am, were walking together. We met this random enthusiastic man, we walked with this man and met the couple from "Never Let me go" the guy from Amazing Spiderman worked on that movie. Well I said hi to the couple and we walked away with the enthusiastic man, he was so happy to see us that he introduced us to his wife. She was waiting in line at the post office. For some reason they gave out post office like movie tickets from a window and you wait outside. I said hi and quickly moved because a lot of people were waiting in line. This women asked me if I was in line I said no. She then started handing out grades like teachers do in school. I saw some old friends there and they were upset that they didn't do so well. I was now inside my room and Bt was in the room with me. I was talking about mathematics with her. I told her about the complexity and flexibility of mathematics, precisely Calculus II. she told me she knows. She said it used to be one step or two step to solve a problem, but now you have 5 steps to solve one simple problem. I told her about the class I am going to take Calculus III and how the teacher is a tricky old Asian guy. I made a joke that she didn't quite get I said, "he presents problems like Confucius, a riddle".

today i dreamt i was on a mountain with many vegetation
it was a sunny day, i looked to the mountain peak, and decided to try
to climb that. when i arrived there, i think my mom told me
there was a higher peak than where i wanted to climb.
i looked above again, and i saw there were 2 ways, 1 for a lower peak
and one uphill way where it had more vegetation, that was the highest peak.
so i planned to go there this time. my mom told me it was very hard to reach there.
but after i got there i saw some group of teenagers. sitted under a red umbrella.
they were playing, and i saw 2 kids playing, trying to catch each other, 1 jumped
the high peak to the beach, and i thought to myself. "they are crazy!"
then i lay on the towel and on that shadow, sun wasn't brighting my eyes anymore.
A girl sitted between my legs, and this dream transformed into a wet dream lol.


Dream elements:

-mountain
-sun
-group of teenagers



Technique used: MILD


hours slept: 14 hours

today i dreamt i was rubbing my hands on dream, i was walking somewhere
and telling myself "i want to feel my body here" i was walking somewhere in a random home.
i was touching things and trying to felt them with my body, after trying to touch a few things
i think for a few seconds i was between life and dream world, it was a very weird experience.
it was like, a part of me was a bit on the dream world, but other part was on the real world.
i was in a bedroom with 2 beds now, i wanted to spawn asuna from sword art online.
i wanted to give her a handshake, i thought to myself "Asuna will spawn behind me."
then i turned around and didn't work, she wasn't there.


Dream elements:

-rubbing hands



Technique used: MILD


hours slept: 14 hours

I took a nap yesterday since I was beat from barely any sleep the night before and decided to try to WILD. I was very relaxed and had many scenes and thoughts drifting around my head. All of a sudden I found myself somewhere and I 'knew' where I was and what was going on, that feeling you get sometime in a dream that you just know something even though there is no evidence to support it. Anyways WILD: On a hillside with big rocks almost buried. We were fighting waiting to fight the Germans. They would run down the hills and sit on our heads and necks and either fart or pee or both. As soon as the motion started of the dream I woke up realizing what was going on jolted me from the dream. I wont count this as a LD though since it was probably less than 5 seconds.

Last night I tried 5htp as a sleep aid and it seemed to work, I slept a little restless but peacefully. This morning had this pretty vivid dream.

Game of Thrones setting/time. I was in a kingdom and we were on a very steep hill trying to conduct business. I had a couple of flags from other kingdoms I was trying to get up hill. We were the step children of the kingdom, I guess we didn't have it very good. So we were getting made fun of thorough a window from a girl/queen of another kingdom. I went down to the window and ripped the screen off and grabbed her head and pulled it through the screen (game of thrones style). I got a little trash talk out of the way when the body guard came up to me with a spear/weapon, I released her and shut the screen. The lord of our kingdom just got back from the store, he had gotten some portable flooring and some outside chairs I guess to spruce the place up. There were a lot of people sitting around and I helped him get things set up. Moved some of his wood flooring parts and some IKEA chairs onto it. That's about it.

My friends JT and Tom were out front of my house yelling up to my window. I followed them to some weird abandoned building and we looked around. Nothing interesting really happened.

01.11.14

Last night bed 10:30pm - 7am

Had a lots of dreams.

Dream before last:
I'm in someone elses household. I have my 2 cats with me. The lady of the house tells me, she got a kitten. I'm mad, because they already have 2 cats and those will not like a kitten. Then I see the kitten, and another one, and then another one. So she brought 3 kittens to the house.

There is something about some people that just came being witches. They look normal, but I sense something sinister from them. I don't remember much else, only that they finally showed their true nature and I was fighting them somehow. Or defying.

Last dream at 7am:

I'm in a dark room. It's large and it could be a cellar, or some underground place. The only light coming in is from the stairs going up, on the left.

I'm laying down on some low platform. There are monsters around me. I'm being accused of something. I say yes, I did that, but it was not the way they think. One of them says that I have to die for it. I plea with them, or at least think about pleaing. But then I think that I have never experienced death in dream before and I wouldn't mind experiencing it. So I'm trying to think where I would want to direct him to place the spear. He has it against the middle of my chest. I'm thinking if leg would would be sufficient, but somehow I know it would not.

I was in a marsh kind of area. There was a girl who was making surf boards out of stretch insects and sea creatures. I took one of her surf boards and she became angry. I spent some time fiddling with the board, basically it looked like a large spikes caterpillar that you had pry open. The girls anger towards me seem to increase but I was confused as to why she didn't like me so I finally chased her down and talked it out with her( I don't remember any of the dialogue).

Then I was in California watching from a distance people surfing. There was some discussion about which is the best kind of surfboard and mine was not one of them. The tourists jumped over the barrier and kind of got in the way of the surfers. Then some of them headed down the cliff which was past the ocean they were at. Then in an instructional film style( like ones you see at a resort) it explained why the surfers were up in that water. It started where the surfers were then panned out to show that they were on a body of water on a huge cliff. Then it panned out to show the coral reefs by the cliff and where a huge long drop to bottom of the ocean began. Then it went back to the tourist making there way down the cliff. They jumped from one platform to another. They made it to the bottom and were at the waters edge. One of the tour guides was bragging and then she slipped of the cliff and fell in the water. She jumped back up but was embarrassed. The tourist were angry they couldn't physically see the drop. Then I piped in and explained that it was because of the perspective. Giant waves started to form and the tourist were scared they would get hurt. They asked the male your guide and he said "I sure hope not"this made them pretty mad.

1. [Non-Lucid]
Visited my best friend/love interest, I got to her house and couldn't get in because there where huge steps at the back and front door, her dad decided to rip 1 of the brown wooden doors off a cabinet and placed it over the step at the front door the, {I felt shock and embarrassment after he destroyed a piece of furniture for me} honestly I barely remember anything about this dream but, I saw her and that made me so happy to remember that.

Fragments:
I'm on a passenger plane waiting for an ambi-lift thingy so I can unboard I think

2. [Non-Lucid]
My nose started to bleed out of my left nostril {I thought to myself that this is odd because I never bleed out of the left nostril} so I held a tissue against it, now I appear to be laying down and my Nan & Uncle are holding tissues on my nose to stop the bleeding, it stopped after a few minutes, I'm now at College in a classroom worrying that my nose will bleed again.

I was on my way to school, walking down the road. But there were no cars on the road, just people walking in the traffic lanes as if they were cars. Also the world felt a lot smaller. That or everyone else was bigger, and therefore had replaced cars with their own bodies.
Whatever it was, I was arriving at school, where I came into a big crowd of people. These people weren't walking around the road like cars.
There was this one dream character who I just took one look at, thought she looked too strange to be real. She had like this bright red lipstick and this ponytail that went straight up from the top of her head. (Because walking down a road as if you are a car isn't at all strange.) So I reality checked by pinching my nose. But I wasn't really paying attention and didn't notice that I had just been breathing through my nose.
I proceeded go into one of these open holes in the road that led down into this huge complex beneath the school, where I proceeded to put on a pair of lime green tennis shoes and look for my friends before waking up.

Red - Non Lucid
Green - Semi Lucid
Blue - Full Lucidity

I was somewhere out in the wilderness. I explored for a couple of minutes and found a massive spaceship crashed into the earth - the shape was similar to that of a frisbee. I touched what seemed like the entrance of the spaceship and it opened. The interior was purple and green. The floors were plain purple and the walls were green with paintings on them. I looked around and saw an old man with a turquoise skin colour. His hair was grey and he was sleeping on a broken brown arm chair. I walked through a blue door to see a hole in the floor of the spaceship which lead to the ground outside. I looked down the hole to see a woman with the same turquoise skin and wearing a green dress. Her hair was purple and she was holding a blue sword. She was slashing at some weird monsters that seemed to be part tree. She saw me and gave me a weapon. She did not like me and in fact she gave me a look of disgust when she looked at me. As we were clearing out this deep cavernous hole from monsters a monster attacked me from the back and killed me.
It was another dream, and I woke up in a village. I was in a bed, almost as if I'd been resting from the adventure I had.

I started thinking about my other dream and wondered what happened.

I lost my semi lucidity and was looking around at the room. The walls were made of wood and had various paintings about. There were chairs, a desk with some notes on it and a window which I looked out of. Through the door came bursting through the woman in the green dress. She was caressing me and worrying about me. Not because I was injured but because of something else which I do not recall.

Journal Entry non-lucid #3 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: "A Boy and his dog" dream, was dreamed up because I watched a YouTube clip called "Don't hug me I am scared-time". The rest of the dreams I have no Idea where they come from. I am not a paramedic and I have no actual problem with people in waking life. To come to think of it I had some problems with people on GTA 5, I kept killing them they got mad and started calling me names.

Dream fragment 1 "Paramedics saves lucid dreamer": I was driving an emergency vehicle, as a paramedic. Me and my partner got a call for a job. As we were in a freeway we see another paramedic respondent. The other paramedic starts ramming our car. I was shocked at first thinking that we were going to help each other, but since they kept ramming, I started ramming back. We beat them to the spot. My grandmother was at the scene. We asked her where is the person that needs our assistance. She points us to the body, it was a child just laying there. They put a blanket on top of his head because they thought he died. I opened the blanket and said, "people should stop calling with false reports. He was just trying to have a lucid dream". I woke up upon realizing what I said.

Dream fragment 2 " Uninvited guest": I was at the school and I was hanging out with my friend, just for my own reference I will call him Ed. I started walking to him and I noticed all these people watching me. They looked pissed off, as if I did something to them. I was talking to Ed and I started speaking loud so that they could hear. I said, "Yeah remember that guy, I heard (this...and that)". Basically it was to intimidate them. If they knew that I knew a guy that was tougher and more "gangster" than them they would just leave us alone, since it was like 5 vs 2.

Dream fragment 3 "A Boy and His Dog": (I was a spectator in this dream, I am only watching what is happening.) This dog and this boy were together. The boy tells the dog that he is going to die. He takes the dog upon a mountain. The mountain was red from the flaming volcano inside of it. The boy picks up the dog and raises him up high. He tells the dog that this is good bye. He tells the dog you will be a mayan god. He looked at dogs eyes and said, "you will die and burn ". (I think he tossed him in volcano or something) the dog skin got incinerated, and i could see the tendons and meat on his face. It was pretty gory. Even though this happened to the dog, the dogs first and last words to the boy was "I still love you". The boy felt guilt for what he has done. He was now inside of his house. He was a dog or dog like (I don't remember exactly). A dog investigator showed up and started asking him all of these questions. The boy tried to act like he was doing some calculus problems. I really wanted the boy to get caught and pay for his crime, but I got zapped out of the house and was now spectating outside the house. I saw this old 1930s car pull up and here comes Harry Potter and the cast. The old man, the weird creepy guy, all of them were there. They were trying to get the blond creepy kid from Harry Potter, to commit crimes such as stealing cars. The old wizard said," I don't even know who's car that is?"and he started laughing.

Fragment#1 I was observing sharks ( well I didn't actually appear to be in this dream) but there were researchers watching sharks. One shark would eat another one then sink to the bottom. This happened three time in a row and each time the sharks belly would expand and become larger. This is just a side note but I am pretty sure they were bullsharks. The whole scene if viewed like within a picture plane took place on the bottom left side. If felt pretty smooshed to the bottom left side( this is kind of difficult to describe). Fragment#2 I was walking in a mall and had a plate of food in my hand. Went to the centre on the mall and there were two picnic benches. I sat down and began to shovel corn nibbles into my mouth. Just kind of gazing up and eating the corn. The next table to my right had two children and there parents and they were whispering that they knew me. They had the debate for a while and finally the little boy said I know you. Then scene panned out to where I saw myself from the Boys perspective and all I could see was my eyes black covered the rest. I then started to pick corn pieces out of my hair( I thought this was pretty funny). Then person at my table said its because I was only eating corn and she pointed to a huge platter which I got the feeling I was supposed to eat. I declined and left. I categorized these as fragments cause I felt there was so much more that I left out.