non-lucid

6/9/2011

I had a dream that the #1 of 2011 of a school I've been to invited me to a party. I wasn't too clear of this purpose, but we were talking about it for sure. I also remembered my friend Marisa whom I was talking to. After that, we had the party, but I didn't see them. It seems as if it was my biased thoughts on parties since I would go to adult parties with my parents. There was food, and the most of I can recall of it was cookies, and this party experience was pretty short. Then randomness happened.

I remembered being on a mission with no weapons to use, just hide and run type of a mission, and suddenly, I just came out to a battlefield. I was telling the others on this field to try and shoot me! And with confidence too! But I think I was too fast for them! Then suddenly I was trapped by two soldiers I believe, and was challenged to use some objects that looked like Sok-em Bopper (or whatever you call them). Then some girl I knew from another school was holding my hand after I didn't want to
accept this challenge.

I felt the grip of her hand as she told me a few things and then walked away. After that, I think that was it. xD

I had another dream that I had these sex toys. I'll try to be a bit appropriate but they were mostly for a woman to use for anal and vaginal playing, most likely because of a little fetish for anal I guess, and I'm a male.

But I didn't even touch these things.I could smell the type of lubricant used for the toys for some odd reason, it had that odor you smell from the rubbing alcohol.

I was could feel the possibilities of using these things, but again, I started to see the dream slowly fading away. A parent of mine also found me watching pornography, but they didn't react, they just looked as if it were nothing. I think it was a imbalance of an AMV I watched on youtube on a JaraiyaxTsunade pairing video( I can give the link ---> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnQ152CIFR8 <---) and somehow seeing random ads on pornography (mostly involving hentai) . So I was trying to close these tabs, but they kept coming up when I was watching that same pairing on youtube.

I was trying to see if it was back to normal, only to see several videos of hentai showing up. But then it went back to that pairing, during that epoch of frantic closing and refreshing, my parent left the room haha. Then I remembered I still had the sex toys there, and was willing to try them out, but like I said in the first sentences, the dream faded out and I woke up with an erection.

Then I woke up with an erection, most likely because of the effect of the male REM cycle. And I had this dream AFTER another one this same day! I slept at around 7:00 AM after suggesting my body to wake me up at 6:00 AM (First the first time, and I woke up pretty darn close to it too).

I had another short burst of dreaming before this sex toys one of helping my father with repairing something in the house, and we where below the attic, but I just remembered helping him pick up a few long blocks of wood.

When my mother passed by to give us something to drink, I could see how my father would react to my mother just randomly coming in, like it was annoyed, since we were working. After that, I had the sex toys experience, but I don't know how I transcended from the prior I just explain after the first one. But I did SMELL, which has to be some sense, and I didn't have any kind of rubbing alcohol with me, but I did remember using lotion.

What's funny is that I could smell the lubricant that was alcohol based, I didn't realize I was dreaming, I thought I WAS experiencing the trauma of a parent finding out their child watches porn LOL, but it didn't feel so bad xD.

Slept !2:00 AM
Woke 6:00 AM

I am outside in the beautiful Florida weather with my grandparents. They are annoying like usual, and are resting on beds outside in the middle of a street. They ask me, "What are you doing?" I tell them that I am about to go to school. Then I say, "Fuck high school, I'm going to the University of Miami!" I start walking down the road, and in about 5 seconds, I am by the University of Miami. I see that today is orientation because many people are walking up this giant hill to the school with bags of luggage. While we are walking, I hear the song, Aliens Exist by Blink 182. I look for my roommate, but can't find him. I see my friend S.V. walking by, and I say hi to him. He completely ignores me and continues to walk. I say hi again and he doesn't acknowledge me. I see another friend, Alexei, and I say hi to him. He starts talking to me casually about a bunch of stuff. Very friendly person.. Someone next to me sees the head of orientation who is on top of a slope about 1,000 ft away, and asks, "Hey, are we supposed to listen to what you have to say." Immediately, the entire group of about 500 people stop and see what he has to say. The orientation guy responds, "Nah we can do that later, for now just go to your dorm and drop everything off." I magically teleport to a street and see this blonde preppy kid. I say whats good? and he starts telling me a story about how a cop pulled him over and asked him for money. The blonde kid says, "I told him I had two quarters and two pennies." When he said that, I picture the incident in my mind and see the two pennies and two quarters in the cup-holder of his car. The cop says, "Where'd you get that money from?" The kid says, "Some Spiritual guy." I start cracking up.

Then I awoke

There was a dream that kept repeating so I thought I was dreaming because I thought that I just saw it. So there was this one guy who was supposed to run up the hill and kick my ass, but since I was lucid this time, he didn't. I threw a bag over his head and went ninja on his ass non-stop. But he still didn't die.

Fat hobbit boy was walking around our school and he was dressed as santa.

Slept at 12:00 AM
Woke at 4:30 AM
Special Notice: Didn't use the computer before bed for the first time in a while

Late at night in Brooklyn, me and my friends, Mark, Justin, and Mike enter a really small restaurant, a bit larger than the size of my bedroom. I have a medium sized bag of cannabis in my pocket. We order our food, and it doesn't come. Then these two women around their 40's walk into the store by these bar stools. I notice that there are three bags of cannabis next to them. One of them is definitely a pound of uncured stuff, and the other two are also quite large. Somehow my cannabis gets mixed up with the ones on the ground. I take either one or two of the bags on the floor, knowing inside my head that they are the property of the owner's friend, who happens to be Jewish. The two women are staring at me when I take the bags, and I feel a little nervous that they are watching me. My friends and I then leave the store and start walking to my car.

Then we see this blonde preppy-looking kid and his Indian friend on our pathway. The preppy kid walks past us and the Indian kid is just standing there. I see the owners friend walking by, and I say "There are bags in your store, and I think that preppy kid is about to take your stuff." The owners friend says, "I know," and starts running after him. We proceed to walk to my car, crossing an intersection. Right after we cross the intersection, a car goes speeding by. I think to myself that it was a cop. I then feel my pocket, and notice that my wallet isn't there. "Where's my wallet," I ask. I start wondering if the kid will find out that we took his stuff so I tell Mark, "Yo, can you call him up and ask him how many bags he had?" While on the phone with the owner, I hear Mark say, "We almost got away with it." I freak out and say, "No what! Let me talk to him!" I put the phone up to my ear, and ask the owner, "Yo, can you ask your friend how many bags he had? I don't know if I took an extra.

Then I woke up

Apparently I was Jewish in my dream. Anyways, let's get started! Non-Jewish part first.
I went to bed around 2:30AM and woke up abruptly at 8:40AM or so.

I was walking down my street really, really slowly. Like, there were a few seconds between each step, and then maybe I'd stumble forward a few in a row. Anyways, I look to my right and see some property at the end of a long, gravel driveway. They've got partial fences everywhere, like they left gaps in what would have been a complete square, and their yard was filled with mock-orange, a plant my mom recently bought. There was also tall grass everywhere and patches of weeds and buttercups. I had the idea they wanted me to come and clean their yard up but I had been avoiding it. I continued walking and a little boy passed by me on his bike, making a comment about how slow I was walking. He was incredibly pale and had very, very blond hair. He was wearing a brown jacket, black pants, a dark blue shirt and he looked to be about 12 or so. I didn't really respond or think much of it until he passed me by again a few minutes later, going the other way (the same way as me). I could hear him as he was riding up behind me, saying things like, "I can't believe you're walking so slow, I'm passing you again!" I stared at him as he biked past me and stopped to lock his bike up and go into some big temple (possibly the Buddhist temple on our street but it looked kind of different). I said, "Well, you're on a bike." and he laughed and replied, "But I passed you like 10 times. You're walking very slow." and he ran off towards the temple. I was suddenly very angry and yelled after him, "I was meditating!" but he couldn't hear me.

And now for the Jewish dream.

Me and my brother were laying on a couch together, our heads at opposite ends and legs beside each other. I realize now it was the house I lived in when I was in grade 5. Anyways, we're both on laptops and our mom let us know that we're doing a Jewish tradition where we all have to give my dad a kiss on the cheek before he goes to work. We weren't really looking forward to it. So I'm doing something on my laptop, I can't remember what, but I switched to something else when my dad walked in to the living room. I never actually gave him a kiss as the dream switched suddenly.

I was now watching a woman run around and do some kind of military training. She was dressed in a white muscle shirt, camouflaged pants and boots. I remember thinking, as she was running around and lifting/carrying things, how a woman's movements or positions often seem inherently sexual whereas a man in the same position just looks like he's working hard.

My tripod (IRL) fell over and made an awful noise at it slid against the wall, so I woke up in the middle of the dream. I was going to go back to sleep but it's already 10AM and I'm p awake. Oh well.

Side note 1: This was the night before my english exam earlier today.
Side note 2: When I went to bed I tried using a FILD technique which didn't exactly work.
Side note 3: This dream was very vivid.

Tonight I dreamt that I arrived at my school 5 minutes before the exam started. But then I was on a bus. I got a call from my teacher reminding me that my exam was starting, so I was like "oh fuck oh shit", stood off the bus, and told my teacher that I was "taking a shit, it might take a while". I looked at my phone which said the clock was 10:35. I then looked at a bus plan to see that the next bus driving back to where my school is, would arrive at 10:35. Then I saw my parallel-class' teacher and a sensor. They asked "what are you doing here" but didn't wait for an answer. I drove with them back to my school, which the dream skipped.
When I arrived at my school, I had somehow lost my t-shirt. I really didn't mind, but apparantly people on the hallway found it amusing and laughed at me. I arrived at the exam 15 minutes late.

* This was lost in the crash, I'm just re-posting. *

I went to bed around 6AM and got up around 10AM so everything is very foggy.

I was standing by my desk, talking to ♥Mark on Skype. But like, I was literally talking. He was typing but could hear my voice despite not starting a call, and I think my voice was turning into text on the screen. So I'm standing there, looking at my laundry hamper to the right and thinking, "Oh my god, I have cockroaches."
I lifted up the hamper and there was a cockroach crawling around, like the bugs in Ocarina of Time. It was trying to eat my carpet and I felt so embarrassed that I had cockroaches in my room.

When I woke up, I realized no one ever makes penis jokes about cockroaches.

It was lunch time at school, I was washing my hands, and saw some money just as I was about to go and sit back down at my usual table. I picked up the money and went back to the table. The school was the same, but filled with different, unrecognisable people, apart from my table which had three people that I do know sitting at it. At the table was a person who I find irritating and annoying (not saying why), a good friend of mine, and sitting where I normally would is a girl who almost always appears in the dreams that I can remember. I sat down next to her and started acting like it was a normal day, and told them about the money that I found, she said something which made me realise it was a dream. I was confused at first, but decided that I should really continue the conversation until it ends, then my plan was to leave. As I was about to leave I woke up.

* This was lost in the crash, I'm just re-posting it. *

Zebrah gave me the urge to restart my dream journal and I just happened to have a long, amazing dream this morning. Here we go!

The setting looked very much like my high school, which was designed after a prison, as far as I know. So the cafeteria was in the center and there were four wings of classes extending from it, like wings of cells. There was a huge hole in the center of the second floor so you could see down into the cafeteria, or jump down if you felt like breaking your leg. In real life, there's bars and railing that go around the second floor but in my dream, that wasn't there, just a ring of large, painted cinder blocks at the edge. People in the dream were sitting on them and no one seemed worried about falling backwards and dropping 25ft.

Anyways, the beginning is a little foggy. I'm sure there's something there, but I mostly remember things really taking off at this point:

I was sitting on the cinder blocks with a girl in a large, white winter coat/trench coat. She looked a lot like me, now that I think about it. She also looked like this girl. Her face kind of varied between the two and I'm almost positive she was actually me and I was someone else hanging with her, but that comes in later.

So we're chatting it up, I'm telling her a story and she's listening pretty intently, but at some point, she starts looking around frantically, gets up and runs off. I glance at another friend nearby and we're both pretty confused, so we run off after her. When we catch up, it's clear she's having some kind of panic attack. We lead her back to where we were and she sits down again and I start firing questions. By now, I'm the other person so I'm going to refer to "my" actions as, "X [action]..." while her actions will be, "ShI/HIr/etc [action]...", okay (the I is to help you remember that she's actually me)? So I was actively playing X in the dream, but the girl was me.

Anyways, X says, "Are you okay? What happened? I was telling you a story and.. and you were doing that..." The gIrl had started looking around frantically again, but shI nodded as if listening, so X continued, "Are you freaking out because of all the people? What's going on?" There were more and more students/people gathering around on the cinder blocks and it seemed to make hIr panic attack worse, to the point that she was hyperventilating badly. X crouched down and got on their knees between the gIrl's legs. It was a pretty intimate moment but I don't recall it feeling sexual, more romantic in a platonic kind of way. X put their hands on hIr lap and said, "Hey. Look at me, just me. There's me and only me, just me. You're fine." ShI looked at X and held eye contact for a long time. Everyone in my/X's peripheral vision began turning red and the space behind the gIrl's head was turning black. We stared for a long time and eventually rested our foreheads together, still holding eye contact. ShI was obviously feeling much better as she embraced X, who was sort of rubbing/stroking hIr thighs but it was still mostly non-sexual, though the feeling of intimacy had certainly heightened. This went on for a very long time, just a loving embrace and a bit of friendly groping with nothing but the sound of breathing, I think X whispered something but I can't quite remember. This moment in the dream was saturated with very genuine happiness and I felt upset when it was over.

Now things get a little weird. The gIrl fell asleep against X but everyone assumed she died. It didn't seem to be a big deal though, like no one really cared. X cradled her and laid her down on the cinder blocks, which sort of reminded me of my dog, so for a few seconds, the gIrl was my dog. X gave her another hug but overall wasn't feeling very much remorse and no one else around seemed to notice what happened. A few minutes later, shI woke up/came back to life and ran towards this giant gash in the wall which led to a rocky tunnel, but X grabbed her, held her back and said, "You know you can't go in there!" The gIrl smiled and nodded and we/they sat on the cinder blocks again. X continued explaining, "There's.. sort of like.. another world in there. You know the robots from the movie iRobot? They're like that, very advanced, humanoid androids, but they were banished to that world. We can't go in there or we'll affect their way of living." The gIrl grinned and said something, X took note of how straight her teeth were. ShI ran off yet again and this time made it into the tunnel, so X and the friend from earlier flipped out and went after her.

I can finally get rid of the X/ShI/etc! Everything was back to normal now, the girl was a different person and I was just me again. So we came to the last corner of the tunnel and I was afraid to be the first one around it, so I turned and grabbed "orange" behind me (for a few seconds, we were colours. I was red, maybe, behind me was orange and behind them was blue) and pushed them to the front and they went right away. I followed quickly after because I was also afraid for them, that they would get hurt because of me not being the "leader".

We entered a room that was so white, you could hardly make out any dimension. There was a stream going through it and even that was such a light blue, it was nearly white. A blue MS paint styled salamander popped up and this was apparently the girl from earlier. It was missing a hand and wasn't animated and I couldn't even hear it, but I was under the impression it told us not to be in that world.

[some kind of transition]

Me, the girl, and a few other friends entered a grocery store very late at night. It was dimly lit and there were only a few people purchasing goods. I'm not sure what we were buying, I think it was pet food of some kind. Anyways, everyone in the store is kind of.. staring at us, like they know we're not from there and shouldn't be there. I heard some "wooing" behind me and turned around. This man in a suit carrying a leather bound book was walking funny and was slightly crouched, staring at me and yelling, "Woo! Woo! Wooo! Woooooo! Woo!" He kept staring at me and continued walking weird until he approached his desired aisle at which point he abruptly started walking in a very calm way with good posture. I whispered to the girl that this place was a little strange and we should probably leave soon. She nodded and we didn't even bother buying anything after seeing this one guy at the cash register. He stared at us with such disgust and anger, had vivid blond hair and looked kind of like a redneck from a beat up trailer park. Feeling pretty freaked out, we left.

It was only me and the girl now. We were walking down this alley outside the parking lot, which had a wooden fence on one side and a chain link fence on the other. I could barely make out a guy in the parking lot staring at us and was creeped out when he started making duck/bird noises. The chain link turned into a wooden fence and I somehow knew we'd be safe if he couldn't see us. So we're walking and she's way faster than me. I grabbed her sleeve and said, "I can't believe how fast you walk! I guess your strides are bigger than mine." We laughed and she said sorry as we came up to a corner in the alley. It led to a dead end/the back of a building. There was a street lamp in the corner and we both walked backwards to it and squished ourselves into it (the corner). I was slightly behind her but we were mostly beside each other, somehow able to totally relax without falling down. I could see a bed "growing" out of her side in my peripheral vision. I was staring ahead and wanted to put my head on her shoulder, but was nervous. I also wanted to put my arm around her, still too nervous. I said, "Are you comfortable?" After a few seconds of no response, I glanced up at her face and she was looking at me. She smiled and said, "Yeah." in a very warm tone.

Fragment: Watching a movie with some other people. We're drinking in the theater so I end up slightly tipsy at the end.

Fragment: Playing some sort of game online with a friend Russel. Morphed into Warcraft 3 (old game). 1v1 Heroes fighting and I was at an extreme disadvantage (lvl 4 v. lvl 7). I lose a bunch.

Walking home from Chris's house. I notice that the high school was having some sort of a convention/meeting/gathering. Nothing notable there so I keep heading back home. Somehow some older guy and his girl end up over at my house, in my room. I want to call someone, but my phone is dead. So, the guy shows me how to charge it directly from the socket. He disassembles the socket, sticks some paper clips into it, then attaches my battery. After I make my call, I find him on my bed, with his dick out, preparing to jack off to some movie on his computer. His girl is in the bathroom. I walk out to ask my dad if he'll drive him home. My dad comes back with a google maps that shows that he was close, but there was roadwork so it would take 50 minutes. We ask him if its okay if we drop him off halfway and he says yeah.

Band Room, sitting next to Ben, I have no instrument so when they start I just sort of follow along. After playing for a little bit we go to studying something. Melissa comes over and sits on my lap. Not wanting her to get poked, I get up to go get my textbook. I have to fight Sam Brannen for it, because he claims its his. When I return, Melissa is in the chair in front of mine and I sit down. We study diseases eradicated by medicine.

Outside, at a table. Turk (from scrubs) and some people are there. He orders a Turk beer for himself and a round of Bud Lites for everybody else. People bitch that he's being stingy. Then, he orders everyone a Turk beer and they bitch that it's a crappy beer. People start leaving. We have a conflict because some people are just tossing their trays in the garbage. I try to help put them away correctly.

Dark bar, some people and Brita (from Community) are there. We are having a good time. Brita starts being a drag. Somehow we find out that she's dying from cancer and that she's started a new religion. I look over and there's a glass counter that I didn't notice before. I head over to it. Behind the counter is an African guy passing out free dessert and scriptures. The dessert tastes like nothing, I can't understand the scripture and Brita starts bitching. I tell her to go die faster and try to walk away to another table. Our previous table is empty and the other table is full. I see Senor Chang toss a spinner.

I was at some sort of high school playground. Wierd for a high school. We where going into the building, but suddenly I realized my shoes where gone, it coulda been the elvs. I worried about who I could steal shoes from. We where entering th building, oddly no one noticed. I then found my shoes. I was suddenly in a hallway where there was an inch of water on the floor. I ran and fell on my stomach sliding down the hallway. The other kids cheered me on. They then got a teacher we knew and he watched me do it again. HE thought it was wierd but interesting. A few minutes later he watched a second time, I looked at my shirt and wondered how it was possible for my cloths to dry like magic. I slid again, wondering if the same thing would happen again. Then I was somewhere els in the school, talking to Synthia. She was not happy with me. I do not know why. She told me I was annoying, and would not leave her alone. Again I had no memories of such event. She then got mad and bared her arms. I noticed that oddly they where skinnier then normal, usually they where abnormally buff. The dream ended.

1. My family visits MGM studios at Disney World. One of the main attractions seems to be a large kissing booth with "famous people," but all one can see of these people is a pair of lips. There are text descriptions of each person under their lips, from Einstein to Disney himself and more. I explore for a bit, then head to the exit area, where a friendly Disney employee offers Purell hand sanitizer and a station for making PB&J sandwiches. As I exit into a garden, I look up at the sky and see two missiles streaking down towards the ground. I remark to myself how much the missiles look like breasts, then run to the impact site. My dad is nearby, pissed off, because the missiles were aimed at his bicycle as punishment for trying to enter an attraction through a forbidden doorway. He mentions he might not have been on best terms with Disney, as they caught him littering before.

2. Some sort of four-color version of the webcomic Cyanide and Happiness. The characters are attacked by a shark while on an ocean raft, and they hold it off. The dream ends when the characters start to peel layers off of themselves, revealing different shirts.

3. Vague account of bounding like a dog through a streetlight night...

1. It was the end of the summer, and I was going back to school. My cousin walked with me. To get there we went through this really pretty forest. The school year was going to start with our class going on a train ride and having class with snacks in the train. Everyone was supposed to bring a couch to sit on. Even though my cousin wasn't part of the class, I decided that he could tag along. We picked out a couch from several that were just sitting in the forest. It was royal blue, and the seat cushions were very light yellow. Pretty hideous. I picked up the left end, and my cousin picked up the other end, and we started carrying it to the train. We got to the train, which was sitting just outside the forest. The track went for a little ways where you could see it, but then it curved into a gorgeous canyon full of fruit trees. The non-forest place was lighter than the forest. The forest was like a night but with really bright moon and stars. The outside place was like a day but with a really weak sun that had very yellow light. Anyway, I told my cousin to put down the couch and I went into the train to scout it out and find a good spot. It was already really crowded, and the only spot to put a couch was right in the doorway. D was sitting on the left side of the couch that would be to our right, and I wanted to sit next to her, so I decided to orchestrate the couch placement so that I would end up next to her. The problem was, my cousin had the right side of the couch, which was the side that would be next to the left side of her couch. We picked up the couch, and I hurried forwards so that I would be the first one in the train door. Then, I maneuvered the couch so that it was backwards. That way, our left side aligned with her couch's left side. The downside of this was that our couch was looking at the wall so we wouldn't be able to see the professor, and also we would look weird. I wasn't too worried about that, though. I sat down on my side of the couch and sure enough, I was right next to D, only on a different couch. I expected my cousin to sit down on the other side of the couch, but I guess he didn't want to sit backwards, because he wandered off. I thought he would probably be able to find a seat somewhere else. The next thing I knew, I was on the right side of the couch. I kind of questioned how I had gotten there, and my mind said that the train had lurched forward and that I had slid. Someone got up to close the train door, but they left it a little open, and since my couch was facing the door, I could see a silver tree with pink leaves out the doorway. I looked around and saw Cassie to my left. I started telling her about some interesting tree I had seen in the forest, but she interrupted me and said, "We haven't seen each other in like three months!", the point being that I hadn't even said hi but had just launched into telling her a story. We both started laughing and hugged each other. Then she started rubbing her shoulder against me, like a cat. At first I thought this was weird, but then I decided that it was a reasonable thing to do, so I started rubbing my shoulder against her.


2. I am in the car with my family, pulling out of the driveway. My brother asks, "Where are we going again?" and I tell him, "We're going to California to eat, because that's where I picked for my birthday." My friend texts me, only my phone beeps differently than it does irl: sort of a short-long beep that's the same pitch both times, and the tone reminds me of the color blue. The text says, "Hey, happy birthday! We wanted to come over and make art with you, how does that sound?" My vision switches to him and Cassie putting glitter on masks. There are about six other people with them, but they are all wearing masks so I can't recognize them. I think, "aww, that's really sweet" but I tell him "Sorry, I'm going to California with my family, and I won't be back until tonight, so we can do it then." I don't text him or even call him to say this, I just say it out loud, but I know that he heard it.

Dream - Lucid

I remember I was with a group of couples, and we were all getting married. We had previously had to pick who we wanted to marry. I saw the other couples get married. It wasn't really a normal ceremony, but a quick ceremony. It was in this dark, stone room.

It was my turn to marry who I picked. I think it was a girl? I don't remember. But we got married underwater in the weird stone room.

I then remember being in a crowded room. I was looking for who I married, who wasn't a girl anymore, but a guy...Carlos Santana to be exact. I remember seeing the other married couples in there, but I couldn't find Santana. I think he was late meeting up with me.