non-lucid

All I can remember is something about going somewhere important, having to do something important and a lot of people were counting on me to do something but I can't remember who or what. Also dreamt about the ex, talking to her again and (for some reason) talking about getting back together - scares me, I completely hate her but is this a sign that my subconscious doesn't? I really hope it's not the case - however talking to her seems to be a reoccurring dream sign and I really just want to forget everything but its like my subconscious won't. Maybe next time I'll remember to RC and it will lead to a LD and I can change my surroundings. Maybe my recall will get better. hell, maybe i'll win the lottery.

I can't even remember what happened in the dream, but I know for sure it had something to do with JO.

I haven't been posting my dreams to my DJ lately for the reason being they are too random, non interesting, and irrelevant. I really don't feel comfortable showing them to the general public (no offense to anyone) but I will start posting my dreams again once they start being a bit more well normal. Thank you.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

20:30 GMT – sleep

Planes crash
Two airplanes crossing the sky right above my head are clearly going to crash one into the other a bit further ahead. I m with my dad who starts running to see it and I grab my camera to film it when it happens. I think we’re maybe being morbid and cold-blooded but the fact is there’s nothing we can do to prevent it from happening.
When we reach the crash site, we only see smoke and pieces of metal scattered all over. Later I learned a few people escaped alive but not when it crashed on the ground – they had been rescued when the plane was still on air, by some team who entered the plane in distress and gave some parachutes to selected people. They couldn’t save everybody – maybe not enough parachutes and I tried to imagine being one of the persons being left behind and the despair these persons might have felt.

Cousins
Staying at some place and waiting for my cousin Cris to join me there. She arrives all excited about a new job she has. Later, our cousin Rui also appears and strangely the crush I had for him as a child, rises up for no reason at all.

Storm
I’m at some apartment in a strange circular building on the outside, which funnels down in a spiral with inner verandas and terraces on the inside. It’s a very stormy weather outside and I close down the windows and shutters and it gets really warm and comfy inside. When shutting the last window I see someone outside who is either in danger from the storm or with whom I want to talk, but either way, I decide to go outside on purpose for this person.

Wounded horse
When I go outside, the building becomes a hill with green grass and lavender and many forest animals roaming around. No more stormy weather. To go faster to the bottom of the hill, I fly there. Other people are trying to do the same and fly up or down, but they are flapping their arms and look exhausted, so I try to show them how to simply glide effortlessly. When I arrive down there I encounter a huge biodiversity and also lots of animals which are alive, others that are dying and others already dead. I see a horse with a wounded leg and I really want to help but don’t know how.

2:30 GMT

Stalker
Now I’m in a same kind of building as before, but this one goes underground so to go from top to bottom, I have to go down a spiral staircase so I just jump all the floors to the (under)ground level. A guy who’s down there gets absolutely amazed by that. I then mingled with people but notice that he is following me. He finally stepped into my way and asked me if I was such and such person. At first I didn’t know what he was talking about but then I realised we had met before many times already and we had a world in common. He was totally obsessed with this idea we were soul mates. And he was cute and all but I didn’t feel anything special for him at all. He was getting touchy and holding my hands and I had to tell him I have a boyfriend, but he wasn’t letting himself be discouraged by that, so I had to escape from him.

Mafia war-like game
I disappeared in the crowd and found a group of faces I recognised from prep and high school. They were among a group of people organizing a game which I joined. Each individual or couples were given documents and/or objects representing a company or a business. Then we had to either steal, buy or merge with other companies and the person with more businesses in the end would win. The game could go on for days and people had to go around doing fairly normal lives in this common space (building) where there were a cantina, a gym, rooms, and everything else we needed to hang there.
In the beginning I was stealing documents from the most naïve persons, but then I started feeling bad about it and decided to instead make friendship with them and establishing agreements to merge or buy. I decided to only be aggressive to those who were aggressive to others. As aggressive and violent players were forming alliances between them, the game was getting more serious, because they would step on no matter whom to get control of others businesses, like a mafia. I had made merges, but in all agreements I kept the ownership, because I was stronger than my partners and businesses would be safer with me, but I was also being badly hunted down because so many businesses were concentrated on me. As a lonely wolf, I thought the docs would be safer with me, but only if I was not caught, so I was mostly hidden and attacking these bad guys whenever I had a shot. I managed to steal the documents of one of the biggest baddies’ group. Then they were infuriated and hunting me down and I wondered when the game would end, because they were taking it extremely seriously and would resort to violence if they'd catch me.

6:00 GMT – wake up

★★★☆☆

I finally got to move away from Saskatchewan, so I'm happy about that. Haven't really been concentrating on my dreams, though.

Also, Halloween is the best holiday ever.

10/31/10



An angel and I talk economics.

"You gambled my soul away in a poker game?" Bobby growls, his voice growing louder with every syllable.

Balthazar raises his hands in a peaceful gesture, as best he can while I have him held up by the collar of his two piece suit.

break

"Look at that man over there," says Balthazar, pointing across the street. "What do you think would happen if you said to him, 'Give me your soul, and you can have anything you want in the world'?"

The sun is shining down on us; the crisp autumn breeze brushes leaves through the gutters. The man pulls his overcoat more closely around himself, hurrying his steps towards the church on Eleventh.

"He'll say no." I say in a low voice, my arms crossed over my chest.

"He'll tell you to fuck off, is what he'll do. Pop culture's done more to harm the trade than religion ever did. He probably doesn't believe he has a soul, and he still won't sign it over." Balthazar takes a breath, grins. "Look, the trick is to ask for something smaller."

The man is out of sight, now.

The trick, apparently, is to plan for the long term. Get someone to agree to a small price, a small favour in exchange for their needful thing. These agreements, they're bound to the bloodline. If the man doesn't pay back the favour, rest assured that his children will.

Chances are, we'll get our soul eventually.

break

When Dean comes to, he's leaning against a concrete wall in an underground parking garage. He doesn't know exactly where he is or what he's doing there, but he knows it can't be good.

Dean stumbles up the exit ramp, blinks a bit against the cool night air.

Click. Look up.

Sam's at the top of the ramp, pointing a gun directly at his brother.

"Sammael," says Sam Winchester, his voice cold.

Dean fades to black, and I smile up at Sam.

break

In which I try to solve a puzzle involving time travel.

Standing at the ticket counter, drumming my fingers impatiently against the arborite. The ticket-seller has my passport in her hand. She glances at the name, up at my face, at a poster I can't see behind the glass, and her face goes white. She hands me back the passport, slides two tickets under the glass, and tries not to meet my eyes. I smile and thank her, and I take my thinks and walk into the parking lot.

I open the driver's seat door to an Oldsmobile, my parents' car when I was younger, and start the engine. Zoe is sitting in the passenger seat.

"They're already onto us." I tell her. "Buses aren't running, cops'll be all over the place within an hour. We have to drive."

break

And now it's real life, and I tell Zoe I'm leaving Calgary. It's two years into the future, and I've been in one place too long.

break

"Where are we?" I demand. My voice is quiet, but the threat is there.

Daniel smiles, suddenly nervous. "This is one of the last human settlements on Earth."

"I'm waiting."

"From your point of view," he says slowly, "I suppose this is the future."

Zoe stands quietly behind me.

break

I step through the sliding metal doors, out into an oasis of footpaths and greenery, quiet places for meditation and training. Above us is a dome, given away by the subtle waves in its surface, the way it refracts the light from the bright skies above. Beyond the dome is the endless desert that the earth has become.

break

"When you say this is the future," I ask Daniel, "Exactly how far do you mean?"

He hesitates. "Well, it's been at least... it's been tens of billions of years."

He's expecting me to freak out, but I simply nod, having had my suspicions confirmed. "And physiologically, humans have remained the same for the last... tens of billions of years?"

Daniel frowns, and looks at me, searching. "Physiologically? You mean evolution."

"And there have been no significant changes." I state, daring him to contradict me. "You know what this means?"

"Someone's been breeding us."

Scare Factor: 2/10

Bunch of HI about talking to L on MSN. Just various questions and what not.

Frag about going to someones house, when we went inside, I was trying to decide where to sit, but I ended up adjusting all of the seats in the living room. Ended up having hypnopompic SP right after. It had me thinking that something was on my arm, when in reality it was just the way the fan in my room was hitting me.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

21:30 GMT – sleep

Japanese stuff again
Remember anime girls, kimonos and being in some sort of wooden kiosk, asking for directions

22:30 GMT

Dream within a dream
With mom, aunts and uncles at my father-side grandma’s house. Telling mom to hush cause others were asleep. I go to front door and I’m thinking of how I had so many dreams (usually nightmares) about this house and this door (not able to close it when a werewolf or thieves or ghosts were coming, etc). But now that it is just fine, I close it, I lock it and consider I’m putting a stone over this ridiculous fear I had. Then I go to sleep and I have a dream within a dream.
As I lay down on the dream-bed I think about Nighthawk and how I should invite him to go out some of these days. I visualize ourselves going to the movies, holding his hand. Then I fall asleep in the dream and I dream I’m really at the cinema. He is not there but I recognize many other people in the audience, including his brother. I engage in conversation with some persons nearby and then try to say hello but he is some rows to the front.

Sex with unknown lucid dreamer
Then the cinema auditorium transforms into a cliff with carved platforms serving as rows. First I feel vertigo, but then I become lucid and loose fear. I have the feeling other DCs are actually dreamers and I sense that some are even lucid to.
I cooperate with someone by sending objects through the air by telekinesis. Then I meet this guy who is showing me proudly some trees he created – they are beautifully arranged, almost like a forest ikebana. He also feels melancholic because he is aware they’ll only exist as long the dream takes place, but that ephemerality only makes it more beautiful. We vibrate at same wavelength and we connect immediately and I feel crazy attracted to him, so we end up making out and it evolves into hot steamy sex. Noticed that he had captivating eyes and a really deep look.

2:50 GMT

Meeting my guru
On some huge empty building with pink walls and no one around. I am lucid and playing some tricks like swelling the walls or closing them in. When I closed the walls in I saw movement through the tiny slit left between them and I open them again to see what is on the other side. It’s just a tiny rat but then I also see mirrors, lots of mirrors, which weren’t there before. I see my face reflected in detail, but then the mirror becomes non-reflective and my image becomes just a blur. I look for another mirror but before facing it I think about what I want to do so I can jump through it right away. I remember I wish to meet my main guru again. When I jump through the mirror I feel the dream fading, but I hold on and then I find myself in a similar building, but this time it is full of people. I go around and ask people if they saw my master. Many don’t know but one guys points vaguely ahead. I then find a young Tibetan monk but he doesn’t speak a word of English. I keep going to end of the corridor and then turn right to another corridor. Then I find a room with 3 people sleeping on mattresses on the floor (futon-like). I hear some muttered words in German between 2 people there and then realise the 3rd person is my guru. He raises his head, looking sleepy and surprised. “Here again?” – he asks. I see his face and it is clearly him at the beginning but sometimes it flickers and becomes a bit different, so I’m not totally sure it’s him or mind projection. He looks groggy so I say I didn’t mean to disturb but really wanted to see him. I tell him I’ve been a very bad disciple but will do my best to compensate. Dream starts fading again, but I hold it.
He lays down and I just lay down by his side, saying I will not bother him with questions for now, but just being there close to him, being able to touch his robes, is already good enough.
Later when the sun has risen we’re outside with the two other persons that were also sleeping on the room (2 german ladies) and they are the three working with plants. My teacher is discoursing a lot of information about different species of plants they are tendering after and I just listen and watch. Then the dream fades.

7:00 GMT – wake up

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

23:00 GMT – sleep

Fragment: Sexual content, two guys (must have been interesting)

01:30 GMT

Fragment: Earthquake, falling bridges.

3:00 GMT

Flapping kimono wings
Escaping some place through the window, while wearing a kimono, which doesn’t help. End up in a field and decide flying away. At first use my kimono long sleeves as wings and then realizing flapping them is not helpful and decide to just shoot myself through the air (bullet like), as I normally do - much faster, less exhausting.

Intro to a game
Then with some group being introduced to a game. The leader is speaking Japanese but there is translation for those who wish and I choose French.

Thinking about dreams
Sitting in almost perfect lotus position and meditating an thinking how dream practice is having “real” effects, even physically.

6:00 GMT – wake up

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

23:00 GMT – sleep (huge headache, after 25h of no sleep and jet lag - supposed to be 7 am)

Japanese house
On a big house with sliding doors like Japanese houses. I’m worried because I left the garage door open. Then... forgot the rest.

3:30 GMT

Make up sex
My friend Zilla and her new boyfriend are not so happy together, but she is trying reconciliation, so I leave them both in a room, expecting there will be make up sex, but when I come back later on, the guy is leaving with an angry face, so I assume it didn’t work. He had actually left her for good. Then I go inside the room expecting to find her there and give her some encouragement, but i instantly step on a condom box still closed. When I get up again I see another couple lying in bed and they look totally surprised at me like “WTF are you doing here?”.

Sexy boss
Sitting at the end of some large office meeting table, on the boss’ chair and all my employees gathered around, so I figure out I'm the boss. But instead of making some speech about workplans and deadlines, I just opened a box I had in front of me on the table and took out some lingerie from the box and asked my employees what they thought about it – If it was too sexy? Too revealing? Should I wear it?

6:00 GMT – wake up

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

0:00 GMT+9 – sleep

Mission on a foreign planet
Part of a team of explorers. There was me, a geeky tech-expert and some chunkier guys and a hot girl with long hair obsessed about her looks, even when surrounded by enemies. We were on some mission, doing separate jobs in some foreign planet.
I was near a forest, close to the ship which was hidden, when I saw a little girl being chased by a huge guy. I’m hiding out so I just watch without interfering, but then the guy grabbed her and threw her violently against a wall of an abandoned house that was there. She knocked her head and looked in bad shape. I couldn’t just do nothing so I jumped in to save her, but the guy was really chunky and I couldn’t beat him up, so I just tried to pick her up on a moment of distraction of the guy and run away with her.
Behind me, hidden under some holographic cloak, was our ship, so I took her there and just had time to close the doors behind me. I immediately started the launch procedure. But the guy was trying to break in and causing major damage to the doors, so we had to enter an escape pod in the center of the ship, to garantee our safety. I was trying to reach the others on the radio but they weren’t replying. The pod entrance had to be zipped up (WTF?) but I was having trouble zipping it up. I was getting really stressed out and yelled “f*****ck!”.

5:00 GMT+9 – wake up

The dream starts off with me leaving what seems to be like my dorm room. Even though there are two sets of bunk beds, only the bottom bed of one of them seems to be occupied. This one seems to be mine since I recognize my stuff near it and on it. I leave the room for a while and my dream either time skips or I can't remember this part, but then I'm suddenly walking back into my room. There's some girl I don't know lying on my bed and another girl on the bed above her, and all my stuff is thrown randomly on the other side of the room.

I quickly get angry with this girl on my bed and ask her what she thinks she's doing, that that was MY bed. We easily get in an argument over the situation as I start looking for my stuff. I'm furious at this point, because I can't find anything of mine including my cellphone and my iPod. Then I notice that even all the drawers of my dresser are pulled out and that this girl is wearing one of my shirts, so we begin arguing over that as well. Frustrated and not knowing what else to do, I leave the room to go find some management because I don't feel like I was supposed to be sharing my room in the first place. I find administration, and they tell me that my stuff was never on that bed and that I should stop being so worked up over it. After this, I wake up from my dream.

I dreamed I was at a large amusement park. Their were large rides everywhere! They all looked so fun and enjoyable. But not to me. I was glued to one ride: The Water-Log Ride. I rode on it countless times. Fun, even if it was only a dream(too bad I didn't notice that it was a dream). Finally, when I was like on my fiftieth ride, the log flew off the track! What the hell? Luckily, I had a parachute. I scrambled around for it. But while I wasted time looking for it, I neared my doom. I finally found it, and opened it. I safely floated down to a little innocent pond...or did I? I landed in a pond, but not an innocent one. Pirahnas began dashing towards me! They began biting and chewing me up! I managed to swim to shore. On the otherside, was more water, with no fish. I fell five feet and landed in three-foot deep water. But I still wasn't safe. Now, I was on the water-log track! I could hear the log ride coming. So, I tried jumping back up to shore, but as I said, it was five feet high! I failed, and failed, and failed. Now, I only had one last chance. I jumped, and made it. At the same moment, the log ride soared by. I was safe. Then, my little brother woke me up.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Woke up earlier than usual today, and tried to WBTB, but I couldn't fall asleep. Anyways I had a few cool dreams last night, and even a very short lucid! No B6 taken for a week and I can still dream lots. Yay!

6.00: Flying DILD
I'm on a field with my relatives. We're all fooling around with these large plastic handheld fans, like they have in China. I decide to let the wind take a hold of my fan and I'm blown like twenty meters away. Everybody laughs. It felt awesome and I want to try it again. I wait for the next gust and jump as high as I can when it hits me. I direct the fan towards it and I fly atleast thirty meters up. I become lucid by the super high jump and I stay in air. "Yes! My flying ability is still there!" I say and fly around in circles, happier than I've been in a lucid for a while.

10.00: Local drunken adventure
I'm walking around at night in my hometown, talking to my friend Eric on the phone. I tell him I miss him, and that I miss the times we had back in the days. I don't remember what his reply was but there's silence for a long time. Suddenly I'm on a bus with my other friend Henrik. We talk about all kinds of things and I realise I have to get off the bus soon. I just miss my stop and decide to jump off where he lives. We exit the bus at the next stop and say goodbye. I walk up to the bus stop on the other side and look for a bus home.

All busses are going the wrong way, so I walk to the next stop just up the hill. A bus is just about to leave and I run towards it. A small kid is trying to lock up his bike infront of me so I miss the bus. "Hey Patric, having trouble locking up your bike?" a man asks him. The boy nods and I ask the man if there would be any other bus coming soon. "Yeah I think so..." he tells me and we wait. It's getting really dark outside and I can barely see the cars going by. Suddenly I see a light coming up the hill.

The light is coming from a cigarette in the mouth of an old hag of a busdriver. The bus doesn't stop and several metal platings roll down to cover all the windows. "What a bitch!" I yell and the man agrees. We're both drunk for some reason and I decide to walk home. We walk out on the street and I almost get hit by a car. I throw a snowball at the next one coming up. "Oh shit that's right, I haven't told Monica where I am" I say and take out my phone. "I'll send the message to her haha!" the man tells me. I ignore him and start walking, trying to send her a message. It doesn't work as usual (actually my IRL phone SUCKS, and I figured I was drunk, so no dreamsign).

Finally I get it right, and I start running, saying goodbye to the man. I notice I've recieved a message from a girl I used to hit on before I met Monica. "If you need to talk, I'm here" she tells me. "What? Why would she type that?" I ask myself. I figure something must have happened to Monica and I run even faster. I think about dreaming and that I just had lucid. I never become lucid though. I decide to try to get on Facebook on my phone and I look her page up. There's no sign from any posts from her. "That's strange... She usually writes all kinds of things.

10.00: Survival game
I'm ontop of a cliff overlooking the sea. I can see a bear walking around on the beach below and I don't feel very comfortable. (I've had alot of nightmares about bears) I remember a guy testing a home made parachute and it didn't work very well. Suddenly the bear disappears and I look around. Only to see him just a few meters away. I take the big plastic bag I have next to me and I jump for it. Aiming for the water. I fall for a long time but I land in the water, very close to the beach. On the beach is a large robot and I know I'm dead.

He shoots me dead with laser and I lose all my equipment. Also my saved "Survival ship". I have to start all over again so when I spawn, I run into a shed and start looking for things to build stuff from, and things I can use for survival. I find several nails, tape, plastic bags and alot of other stuff. "Do you wanna join me?" I ask Monica but she doesn't look very enthusiastic.

Amount of sleep: 9 hours

Food before bed: 2 x Omega-3

That's it! I also remember having like electricity going through my body. I'm pretty sure it was vibrations you get before you fall asleep, since I had trouble sleeping after my 6.00 WBTB alarm. I remember alot of strange images and feelings, so that was cool! Never had that before.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Hours of sleep: 8 h
Vividness: 3/5
Recall:2/5

I'm in my childhood house. I want to go to the attic to have a better view on the garden. I'm in the staircase to our appartement. I'm between the ground and the first floor. I look outside the window. I see my dad watering flowers. I start going upstairs. While I walk, I see that there lay a few stones, I pick them up and put them in my pocket. I keep on going upstairs.
I'm now on the last floor (It's floor N. 4). I loo outside the window. I still see my father watering flowers, but it seems that I'm still on the ground floor. I think: WTF is going on?!?
I look at my right. There is my brother: he says that he loves garlic. I realize that this is a dream. I want to confirm it with a RC.

I awake, because someone knocks at my door!!

Hours of sleep: 6h
Vividness: 2/5
Recall: 4/5

It's dark outsides and I'm standing on a bus-station. I know that the bus is late. Next to me is a friend. She looks bored and stares in the sky. I'm not in a mood to get involved in a conversation, so i keep looking to my right and look at the driving cars. Suddenly I hear a voice through a microphone. It sounds like those lines which are repeated at train stations. It says:
- To all passenger, please look at your right, because the bus 7.3 finally comes a few minutes late. We apology for any inconvenience, but it was impossible for the bus to come in time, because it was involved in a terrible accident. Thank you for your attention!
I'm confused and look to my right. A bus drives at the street. It has no top, it still burns a bit. the driver isn't hurt and drives happily on the road. I think that this might be a dream. I'm really confused, because all this doesn't makes sense at all. I realize that this is so impossible and I'm convinced that this is a dream. BUT for some reason I loose lucidity and I walk away from the station.
I meet my brother. Next to him is a weird guy. We walk to our old childhood house. We enter it and go to the 2nd floor, where our apartement used to be. It's still there, but it's really dark inside. We enter. I run towards my old room. I know that I've forgot something. I search in the dark and find finally, what I'm looking for.... It's a box with cornflakes I go downstairs and open the door.
Suddenly I'm in my old school. It's biology class. Our teacher is angry. We asks who has not forgot his box with the cornflakes. I answer and show him the box. He gets more angry, because it's not the right brand. He shouts at me and he makes now a surprise test. I look t the floor for a second and than look in front of me. The surroundings have changed again and i'm in the cafeteria of my university. I see tons of people.

I awake.
Note: WTF?!