non-lucid

For how my routine works go ahead and hit up this thread. Otherwise let's just leap right into it.

Last night I went to bed a little bit later than I wanted to and I think I was a bit too tired to really maximize the effectiveness of my routine. I started to do my "countdown" trick before I went to sleep and I think I almost got into SP (my heart began to race, my body felt numb) and then I reality checked..and nothing. I tried again and ended up straight zonking out. I woke up again at 5:30 (when my WBTB alarm is set). For whatever reason I wasn't tired feeling so I had to make myself go back to sleep. And as I started to do my countdown... I passed out again.

Then I woke up at 8:30 and could only remember one dream. Pro: I could recall it. Con: It was pretty short.

Maybe I'm still recovering from trying to do the Infinity Course. That thing really messed with my sleep schedule...

It always wierds me out when dreams happen like this but I am suddenly in my dream, running down the court, playing basketball. Nobody says anything but I instantly perceive that I'm playing in an all star game. The gym is pretty stark. Big, but stark. Wood floors and plain white washed walls. There are two hoops. I know we are in the middle of a game but at any given time I can only see one or two people and never myself. OK. So I'm running down court and I pass the ball off to this tall white guy with darker black, and blond, streaked hair. He catches the ball and immediately puts up an awkward shot. The guy that came back to D him up gets the rebound and dribbles off. I know instantly that this guy is Darko Milicic. He is sweaty and looks very unsure of himself. I walk over to the guy and start giving him pointers. Telling him to just relax and calm down. And, when he gets the ball, just to slow the game down and put up a confident shot. I don't have a clue why I am giving him basketball tips when he's in the pros.

That's about all there was to the dream. Really short, written out like this, but it seemed to take up a lot of 'dream time'. Again I see my dream sign, basketball/basketball players, I really need to start doing RL reality checks whenever basketball is brought up. Hmm..

Well I don't really remember much

Anyways, I don't talk to my dad but I saw him in my dream and we were getting along really well and it felt so genuine and real until I like woke up and realized it was a dream.

I went back to sleep and then here is another fragment I was at the backyard of my moms friends house and I was running in my underwear (my dad wasn't in here anymore) and then I was flying upwards and I was like woohoo I already knew it was a dream and I was very lucid, the dream was very detailed, I was examining every single detail from left to right but it was kind of hard to keep it going, then I flew down into some persons house and there was a witch there.

Then like in this show called Charmed my favorite show she was trying to throw an energy ball while I was up in the air near the celling of the house and I yelled 'energy ball' and it orbed into my hand (these are charmed terms btw) and I threw it back at her and it didn't hit her so we kept this going for like 4 times until somehow I lost control and I flew out of the house onto the floor.

Next, I really have no clue what this was about, I don't know if I was lucid or not but I was trying to control the dream, it worked very well on many levels to say the least, far better than any other dream I've had so far. Basically it was me and my cousin sort of again, her name is Suzy, she was in one of my last dreams if you remember. I guess this was like some sequel to that dream, and like it was her friend Rat, and I remember we were in the mall, me and Rat, and like I kept trying to find her and yell for her but she wouldn't come so I said a spell from charmed (similar to the spell 'to call a lost witch') and from the top floor of the mall (the mall was really big and distorted in my dream) she vanished in like a wind spiral and came down in front of me, which I was like FUCK YEAH I CAN FINALLY DO SPELLS IN MY DREAMS (this is a BIG accomplishment for me it actually helps me control my dreams better and more detailed)

So then we were walking down this escaltor which was really weird because it was like going up and down at the same time, impossible architecture maybe? then we finally went up for one last time and went out, I don't know where we went but we were basically hiding behind these cars in a parking lot with a bunch of people trying to shoot at us (ala Inception) and I said another spell, something like make me invincible blah blah and it rhymed but not too well, it's funny in my dreams I have a much more fluid vocabulary and easier to make rhyming spells, anyways after I said it, Rat was already gone, and I was like haha I'm invincible you can't hurt me, so I was just walking while they were shooting at me, which was another big accomplishment because usually by this point I lose some sort of faith and they manage to shoot me and I wake up or something, and btw this was all at night time, and while i went all the way in the parking lot I reached Target, and it was already day time, and then I was looking for Tristan and Anthony (anthony was also in another one of my dreams if you read my first DJ), and then they were behind me and there was a bunch of teen gangster around me trying to shoot me, and they tried to shoot me as I was walking in target and it went through me and I was like haha missed me or something and we went in, and they were all surprised and I was like 'Tristan, your comin with me' 'you too Anthony' and I guess I was trying to gather up some sort of army or something to do Time Travel as far as I remember, and then as we were walking down the aisles Anthony asked me a question I forgot what, and I completely lost lucidity and woke up.

The end. Trust me this is all I could remember now it's been 3 hours, I know there was WAY WAY more fun stuff see you next in the next dream!

I have stumbled upon the DEILD technique and I think it suits me very well. Though I didnt have results last night and messed up my recall because of it, I trust it will use both my extremely powerful biological clock while giving me close to nothing to do. I learned that the more a technique is demanding on my part, the smaller the results. In other words, I fuck it up every time. So a quick WILD looks like the right way to go, because DILD is too random. Even when I had my only two DILD, i feel like it was just a lucky shot and id rather induce my dreams. If I get any success with this it may also reconciliate me with the traditionnal slow WILD which has proven a complete failure so far. I also like how you get multiple attempts per night. Even though I have had no results yet, im unaware as of wether the problem is my ability to stay still when waking up or entering a dream. I guess light will shed on this mystery later on. And now, my only dream fragment of the night.

I am in Quebec in my family when I hear my Ipod ringing. I take it out of my pocket and answer. Its Shao but I dont know it. I ask who it is and he answers with something incomprehensible. I go: Ok...What do you want? He tells me to come at his place but im not even at home. I say I am in Quebec and I cant come. Whats funny is that my ipod is no phone, it cant ring!

I went to bed really late.

August14: I was at target with jordan and alex vincent I was looking at videogames it showed the gears pre-purchase and some mk stuff including a movie. I was suspicious because there were no price tags. After that I played with toy light sabers in my dream then my friends came back and we went by a white candy bowl I didn't look at.

Also in another dream phase I was riding my longboard around apparently but Stephen petro offered me a ride that's all I remember right now

august 15: N/A recall got to bed late.

august 16: N/A recall got to bed late.

august 17: only thing recalled was that I rubbed my eyes and they felt irritated and someone random ( DC ) told me my eyes were really red.

I really need to get some sleep because the past three nights have been bad for results.

Edit: This is a partial entry with one dream sequence omitted. See file 0813-0814; recall note: fast food restaurant, black coat.

Just laid down to get a little more sleep when I remembered some more details of what was either a separate dream or a long segment before the previous one (if so, I was myself at this point and not Bruce Willis).

-

And even just now I recall another separate sequence. At this point I'm not sure where in tonight's overall sequence it belongs.

I was riding a bike (with a helmet even, I remember checking--successfully within the dream--a few times to be sure I was wearing one) up 10th street, I think I was on my way to work (noting of course I don't work anywhere going that direction). I turned left onto 19th avenue and decided I move to the sidewalk and stop taking up space on the street, only before I was able to do so I fell into a small crowd (maybe 6-7) of people walking (apparently I was biking really slow?) west down 19th avenue. They were talking to each other about something I wasn't paying attention to. I decided to go along with them as they moved onto the sidewalk and started moving behind some beige-colored buildings where the strip mall would be on the 10th street/19th avenue corner. We kept going and the crowd sorta slowly grew larger; I was still on my bike (I checked for a helmet here for sure at one point). As we reached the end of the buildings heading west still, someone pointed out that there was a large wooden fence blocking further passage west as well as one to our left blocking passage south. The north-south fence was slanted slightly diagonally southwest to northeast, so we turned the corner of the building to the north and kept going. The fence and the building reached a point where the formed a small passage at the building's northwest corner.

I volunteered to go in first and check it out (at some point after turning the corner I'd gotten off my bike). Inside the passage it was very narrow, made out of wood planks like the fence outside, and the passage was uneven (ie not straight, the walls zig-zagged slightly at random intervals, mostly small but with interesting patterns, for instance there were small alcoves where people would be sitting). It seemed like it was not longer outdoors somehow, but there was a really high ceiling. It sounded crowded, like there were a lot of people outside the wooden-fence-passage area that I couldn't see, and even the passage was fairly crowded with random people just loitering of passing through in the opposite direction. It was slanted slightly downhill, so I remember thinking it felt like I was moving out of a mountain passage amusement-park-log-chute-style. My memory of this sequence ended at some point as I was navigating this passage.

PART 1 - MIK HILARITY

At work. My friend Mik goes through a checkout. As they do, they say something absolutely hilarious, in a casual way where they don't laugh at their own joke, offhand as they're passing through. I think it's like the funniest thing ever.

ANALYSIS

Mik has randomly dropped into my work places before, so it would fit with that pattern.

The main element here seems to be how nonchalant they were.

- - -

PART 2 - COLB WC3

Playing an old friend I haven't seen in years at WC3. He is Orc, I think I'm human? It's both of us against the computer.

At one point I use chain lightening and he likes the ability. I say we should start over both as a race with chain lightening so we could both do it (which is odd as IRL orc actually has it and humans don't.) He decides against this.

ANALYSIS

This felt like an expression of their "polarity responder" nature. They're the type of person who, whatever you say, will tend to take the opposite position.

- - -

PART 3 - BINGE LIMITED FUNDS

I'm back and forth between the grocery store and current home, trying to make the money I have last for 3 days of junk food.

I decide against 3 pizzas and go with 2, use the extra money for other things, for "variety."

ANALYSIS

I haven't eaten anything unhealthy in almost 4 months now. I think the idea did surface in my mind yesterday, which may have been the trigger, but was quickly negated as it's an impossibility due my ailment anyway.

I tend to take thoughts of binging as a sign that I'm not managing my emotional state well enough, not keeping occupied enough.

- - -

PART 4 - CEE

Something about talking to Cee...

ANALYSIS

Still an "open loop" in my life, undoubtedly they will continue to surface in dreams periodically until some form of resolution is achieved.

- - -

PART 5 - MISSED SC2 PARTY

I find out that there was a big SC2 party held at the local theatre, but I've missed it. For some reason this is quite devastating.

I think Jo from work may have been there.

ANALYSIS

I plan on gradually phasing out my SC2 playing time (which isn't that much to begin with) in favor of other pursuits (drawing), perhaps this is a metaphor for that, the sense of loss.

- - -

PART 6 - DANCING AND 9/9/09

In a room full of people (one is Melinda, an acquaintance from Jr High), all the chairs and tables have been cleared away to free space for dancing. I "dance" (stepping along in small circles) along with everyone, which I remember finding surprising even in the moment, as I wouldn't normally expect myself to go along with something like that.

Later, the room is filled with tables, each having a computer. I look at mine, and notice a pattern in the time and date - it's 9/9/09, 9:09:09.

I remark about this to the person next to me (Borges?), they simply say "no it's not" because by then the time has passed.

ANALYSIS

The first part could be looked at one of two ways: surprising myself by following along with others, or surprising myself by going outside my comfort zone. It definitely feels like the latter.

The main idea of the last bit seems to be, remarking about something amazing to someone, and them not appreciating it. Borges may represent superficiality, which would also be congruent with the theme.

Sex dream, super odd one. Started at some sort of corporate board meeting. Started mostly third person, apparently I was Bruce Willis. There was some sort of drawn out argument over something, other than that I don't remember anything notable.

Cut to what was evidently my house (but not anything I'd recognize from real life), now in first person, with who I apparently identified as my wife, only it was Jennifer Aniston, who had also been present to a quiet degree during the board meeting (and she had kind of a super skinny build). We were sitting on a brownish couch watching TV for a while, but then I caught a glimpse of her breasts and we started going at it, feeling each other up. During this foreplay, whatever was on the large screen TV turned into a handful of number meters representing various aspects of her arousal, so I was half making out with her, half watching the screen to adjust my technique. At some point, she said, "That was the second time I've ever been satisfied!" We stripped down and were just about to get down to business when I woke up.

I've never been particularly attracted to or a fan of Jennifer Aniston.

Me and my dad are on a large grassy and mountainous islands, when suddenly the tide starts rising. It doesn't rise continuously, but rises by a large increment every so often. Me and my dad climb and swim our way to higher ground, and as the water rises only 4 mountains that now look like islands remain, the only ones not fully submerged. From order of lowest to highest, I will assign them 3, 2, 1a and 1b. We swim across the water from the top of 3 to get to 2, and the water rises again as we arrive. My dad points out to me a dead fish in the water that I don't see, but I realize that all life underwater has somehow died. On 2, an older woman awaits and discusses which mountain we should swim to next (1a or 1b), and I know she won't be coming. The mountains are both in front of us, 1a is slightly lower than 1b and has a dirt path leading up to a dirt plateau. 1b is a large forest. I also notice a large ruined structure connecting the mountains, that looks like it could have been a ruined bridge from Fallout, and there is also a layer of stone and metal wire debris on top of the water directly underneath it. I have a feeling that we should go to 1a for some reason, but my dad and the woman decide on 1b because it's higher, and I agree. As we begin swimming, I see a dead see creature, and then my asshole friends wake me up by throwing pennies at me.

13.08.2010

Managing Databases (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Well, I came from cards around 3 am and woke up at 7:30 am... such a short sleep, but I manager to recall a dream, entirely from daily residue.

I was managing databases, handling clients, contacting clients and a lot more. This dream is about half a page long, all related with my new improvement in my business. Unfortunately, all I dreamed is conditional and I cannot share as I would name stuff that the Non Disclosure Independent Contractor agreement I signed would be violated.

Missed dream signs:
- Unknown.

What I would have done if lucid:
- I would probably try to look for someone to give me some advice to learn even faster all this stuff.

I am out fishing with one of the wizards of unseen university, in a boat on the sea.I think my companion may be Mustrum Ridcully but I'm not entirely sure. I have a horrible feeling that something truly awful is going to happen and the very thought makes me feel miserable. I have a sneaking suspicion I might be rincewind in this part of my dream but really have no way to check. We catcha mackerel each, I remember looking at the colours of the fish.

The scenery shifts and now myself and my flatmate are sitting on a sweeping stone staircase somewhere outside. I pass him a bottle of what I think is Jack Daniels but now that I think about it, it didn't look right. It had huge bubbles in it, like when you go to tip a big bottle of juice down the sink, I noticed these when he was pouring a glass. Also there was something wrong with the label, I cant remember if it said something different on it but I think it was more like hyroglyphics than words on the label. We both poured the whole bottle in our glasses and I can remember thinking that It was gonna really hurt in the morning.

I look down from where we sat and there is what appears to be a skeleton leading an army. He has a big purple cloak on, and he is shouting in genuine surprise at the troops behind him. He is trying to send 4 little mini motorbikes up the stairs to get me and the flatmate but of course, the bikes can't get up the stairs. They are painted funny, like the bullet that used to try to shoot you in super mario is painted on the front. Not exactly like that, but the closest thing I can think of, it's like the bikes had little faces.

Woke up, knowing that there was more to this dream but brain is refusing to produce the details..

Just remembered another dream but it is pretty gross! A cat I'd never seen before is in my house and I'm at the top of the stairs watching the little invader approach. It stops every few steps to take a dump and out of it's business crawl these little grasshopper like bugs that are running up stairs to get me. I run into my room to grab some sheets to hit them away with but they are all gone when I turn back round. The cat, it's mess everything is gone

Remembered another frag while I was brushing my teeth lol.

I was eating some kind of toffee like a worthers original and it totally stuck my teeth together. I tried so hard to open my jaws but couldn't. With one final try I managed to free my teeth but not without pulling out a filling I have in my back tooth!

So I just felt like posting two nightmares of mine from when I was little. The first one is from when I was in preschool and it actually funny now to think that I was scared in the dream. The second one still haunts me, it was the most frightening dream I have ever experienced. It took place sometime when I was in elementary school.


First Nightmare: Lost in the Tubes
I was on a field trip with some people and teachers from my preschool. We went to a place with a huge play area with tubes and slides and things like that for kids to explore. I went to explore the tube but then I got lost. I couldn't find my way out and I remember there was a fake spider with a spider web covering one of the peek holes that I kept seeing. I went to a peek hole(maybe the spider one, I don't remember) and started crying because I was lost. One of the teachers saw me and had to come get me out. At the time, it was terrifying to me.


Worst Nightmare: Sinking Into the Graves
I was on my school playground and it was night time. There were two sides of the playgroud, one was on the side by the school and then the other one was way on a different side. To get there, you had to cross a large area of concrete that had areas where kids would play Four Square and soccer and stuff like that. It was set up just like in real life. The concrete area suddenly turned into a graveyard. There were outlines of grave holes and if you stepped on one of them, you would sink into the ground and be stuck there forever. I had to literally hug the wall and try to get across the concrete to prevent from stepping on one of them. At one point, I accidentally did step on one and it started sinking into the ground. I think I woke up..

Note: I think this might have contributed to the fact that I am terrified of being buried alive. Not quiet sure, but you never know.

1. Mom and I are doing my back to school shopping at the mall. I wander off into the mall proper while she stays in the department store; when I return she has a $150 gift card to the store! We leave the store, and on the ride back she tells me how she saw a fight between a shopper and an employee. She was called to witness in a trial of the employee and got the gift card for her time. The prosecutor in the trial, however, was her former boss as a paralegal, and she expresses sorrow that she didn't continue her own legal career. When we get back home (to our old house), Dr. C from the research station is pulling out of the driveway in the station van. We wait for him to move, then I move in. As I do, however, I scrape the bottom of our new car.

2. The whole family, along with my (deceased) maternal grandma are going out to the movies. The film we see is made from a collection of short subjects. The first is set in the British Museum. In the movie, Mom and I often shop at their gift shop for ice cream and cupcakes. One day, after we buy our sweets, I'm suddenly attacked by velociraptors! I run and flail my arms wildly, still carrying my mom's credit card in one hand. Someone offscreen then throws ice cream at the raptors, which seems to pacify them. Relieved, I move to exit, but as I do I'm told that I owe over 24 pounds. Apparently waving the credit card orders food for whatever I "circle" with it. I refuse to pay, and finally it dawns on me to ask why there are dinosaurs in the museum. The film jump-cuts to a London park, where a young bird skeleton is shown stripped from escaped raptors. The short ends without resolution, cutting to a static screen where the audience is advised to use hand sanitizer. This I do, but the rest of the family looks at me rather oddly.

Soon enough, however, the second short begins. This takes place in Soviet Russia. The camera descends on a snowy provincial capital as a voiceover comments on the permanency of the ruling party. Something to the effect of if 30 members were removed from office, the party would still remain in power. The film cuts to inside the capital building, where the Russian government is in session. A senator from Kamchatka has something to say; one of his counterparts snarkily remarks how a disabled person could take the podium if they had wheels. The senator announces some sort of breakthrough, but promptly falls dead. His aide throws a white sheet over him, then pulls it off with a magician's flourish.

The senator is alive, but as the sheet is pulled further back, we notice he isn't quite right. In fact, he soon turns out to be hideous. He's a hermaphroditic freak, with breasts studding his body in odd places and an extra penis hanging off his chest. Somehow the whole family is now present in the movie and recoils at revulsion towards the sight. My grandma, a devout Catholic, starts screeching "That's heresy!" as I lose the dream.

I'm out of the country. Same place i've been dreaming of recently. It's night time and I'm in a crowded park on the edge of some water, maybe a bay(?) I get taken into a room where people are being tortured. I start getting tortured. While also torturing the person beside me?!?!? We are all peeing on each other and then beating each other up. Eventually we all escape. Somehow i find my mom but she doesn't really seem to care about finding me. She is calling out for a friend, L. Some guy in the park starts shooting arrows into the ground and then reeling them in like they are fish. I don't find this bizarre at all. I wake up.

regular dreams: 8-12-10 and 8-13-10


Falling

I was at some place.. I don't know if it was like a camp or a theater or a school gym or whatever, but there was a large wooden platform in the middle of the dark room and there were some people from my school there. I climbed on top of the platform thing and then lost my balance and started falling. I could hear some of the people from my school laughing at me while I was in mid air falling. I crash landed into the ground while wondering if they would still laugh if I had been seriously injured or died. I don't remember much else.


Pour Water On the President!

I was in a theater with tons of people and Obama was there, wearing his usual suit and tie. I was sitting not far away from him when I started feeling water splashing on me. I looked behind me and saw some kids splashing water all over. It was part of the act I think, and they came over to Obama with a bucket of water about to pour it on him but then stopped because they wanted to make sure he was okay with it. He got up and kind of hesitated a little and then walked out.


Bombing

I was on top of some building with like 20 or so people. Some guy had a bomb and he set it off, causing a fire. I ran away from him, just like everyone else, when I noticed a guy who got hit by some fire. He was just standing there, like he accepted the fact that he was going to die. He didn't bother trying to help himself.


Believe

Me and my mom went to see Criss Angel's Believe show. It was an outdoor theater, and to see it you would just sit on some railings across from the stage. At one point I remember seeing Allie there with some of her friends. I felt bad about seeing his show again because I knew it was really expensive and I'd already seen it once. But apparently we went to Las Vegas for some other reason, not just to see his show. I don't remember why we were in LV though. After awhile of waiting, Criss finally showed up in the back of a jeep, coming down into this tunnel. A bunch of fan girls started chasing the car, me included, until it came to a stop under this tunnel. There were tons of people now, and I didn't want to bother Criss because I knew his body guards would be there trying to get people to move so I just went back up to the theater area and waited for his show to start.

8/13/10

1- Magical Prodigy
I am the daughter of Melinda Gordon from Ghost Whisperer. We are attending some sort of party where a crazy ghost/demon lady is killing off the guests. Whoever goes upstairs suffers her horrible wrath: they are thrown from the banister to a bloody death. My mother cannot stop her; I seem to be the only hope. For some reason I am immune to the demon's power, and I leap at her, clawing at her face. She seems horrified.

"What are you!?" she shrieks as I tear slices out of her skin.

In a bloodied frenzy, I ignore her question. "Die, b*tch!," I scream at her, "And this time stay in Hell where you belong!"

After she is dead, all the guests clap for me. I am more than slightly embarrassed...

On the way home, Melinda and I jokingly talk about the creepy naked ghost that used to follow her around. Our conversation is cut short, however, when we spy her mother and several strange ladies stealing herbs from our garden. Ugh, that's the third time this month!

My grandmother's friends run off when they see us approach, but before Melinda has a chance to say anything, the woman is drug off into the field behind our house by some unseen force. We give chase.

It doesn't take long for us to find her, but we quickly realize that she is now the demon lady from earlier in disguise. This time she is not so easily subdued.

Our battle carries over into some sort of warehouse, where my mother spots a bomb in the corner of the room. "Set up that bomb," she tells me, "and I'll hold of the demons."

"No way! YOU set the bomb, and I"LL hold them off." She begrudgingly agrees.

When I turn around, the demon and her cronies are all armed with chainsaws. Holy crap! For a split second, I fear that I may be in over my head, but bloodlust quickly takes control. I wrench a chainsaw out of the hands of the nearest woman and saw her in half. Blood splatters everywhere. Unphased, the demon lady comes at me. She proves to be more of a challenge, but once I disarm her (literally) she is as easy to kill as ever. She is in several pieces by the time I'm done with her.

After I slaughter the rest of the white-robed women, I get a little carried away and accidentally almost slice my brother Alex in half. (The same Alex from two of my other dreams. Poor guy...) I have also injured my pet shark somewhere along the line.

*time lapse*

I am now Phoebe from Charmed, trying to call for Leo. Why isn't he showing up!? I end up having to track him down myself... some White Lighter he is. "What is it?" he asked, seeming annoyed.

"I think we need to look this demon lady up in the Book of Shadows. I've already killed her twice, and she keeps coming back."

He gives me a you're-so-stupid look and walks off. What the hell is his problem today?

"Wait!" I yell, chasing after him. "Can you at leas heal my shark?" I hold out Pete, my pet shark, who is still bleeding profusely.

Leo rolls his eyes and waves his hand over the shark. "There, he's healed." He hurries off.

*time lapse*

I am now Melinda's daughter again, approaching the demon's greenhouse. She is accusing my other brother, Peter, of using telekinesis to ruin her roses. He looks terrified, and is obviously not the culprit. I wonder if I did that unintentionally? Concentrating, I try to lift a garden hoe with my mind. It flies up and hits my mother in the face. Oops!

I then use telekinesis on myself and sit in the rafters. (Rafters, in a greenhouse?) Alex, who is now a bloodied, severed foot, joins me. "Dude, maybe you should get Leo to heal you. It's sort of creepy with you just being a foot."

"No way," the foot says to me. "I like it like this!"