non-lucid

I'm in Germany at a friends who's trowing a party.
There's a few people there I know, plus a girl I've just met.
Her first question after being introduced is: "Do you believe in god?"
This annoys me. If this is the first thing she wants to know about me, it has obviously got to be very important to her.
I reply with: "Which one?" thinking that she'll get the message and not talk to me for the rest of the evening, or at least drop the religious talk.

I don't mind religious people at all, as long as they aren't annoying about it, and I have a very strong feeling that this woman is exactly that kind of person.
To make things worse, she doesn't get it.

"What do you mean? Our lord an savior Christ of course! Don't tell me you're one of those atheists..."
"Yes, I am an atheist. But I could simply believe in another religion as well, you shouldn't generalize the term god like that. There's other beliefs out there you know."
"Yes, but they are all false, and you are a bad person for not honoring our lord."

You've got to be kidding me...
I roll my eyes and walk away.
There's no point in arguing with such people, I consider them borderline delusional.
I grab some food from a buffet when I notice the girl followed me.

"If you ask nicely I can teach you the way of Christ and save your soul you know... you can be forgiven!"
"Listen girl, what you're saying is terribly offensive. Being religious does not make you a better person than I am."
"I uphold moral values the same way you do and I need no religious teachings to tell me how to do so."
"You should leave me alone."

But she doesn't... instead she tells me that I'm going to hell.
I contemplate explaining the difference between beliefs and facts to her, and how what she's saying is being offensive but I quickly decide against it.
I've met people like her very rarely, but this is extreme.
I look at the balcony and think: If only I could just fly away. This party sucks!
If this was a dream I could just jump and begone.

I feel the urge to try to levitate...
I look at the girl who's now staring at me, looking genuinely sorry for myself.
This makes me angry, I could slap her in the face.
She seems to have no free will, just an empty shell... like a DC...

Hmm... I look around.
Nothing's off, everything seems perfectly fine... still... is this a dream?
I try to retrace my steps... how did I get here?
I have no idea... I must be dreaming!

I approach the balcony with the girl pursuing me.
Just before reaching the balcony I try to RC, but as my hand approaches my nose I finally know that I am dreaming, even though I haven't performed the RC yet.
So I just jump off the balcony and fly away.

It is nighttime, but I can see somewhat clearly.
I fly over a forest, enjoying the nice and fresh air, and not being annoyed by that girl anymore.
Flying... it really never gets old, it's such an amazing experience.
But I feel like doing something different.
I feel like running. Running as a wolf! Just as I did in Dancing with the wolves, Dragon at Stonehenge - Dream Journals - Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

I approach the ground and shift into a big white wolf mid flight and enter the forest fully transformed.
As I run though the forest I quickly notice that it's not the same as last time.
Last time was a magical experience, but this time it is not.
It doesn't feel surreal at all, and the forest appears normal and boring... not to mention it is rather dark which is bad.

Maybe last time I wasn't on earth? Maybe it was because I was with Olivia?
I keep running faster and faster, trying to remember what it was like last time and hopefully teleport into the same scene.
As I reach higher speeds my fur starts to sparkle and my vision becomes distorted.

My vision normalizes and I'm certain that I've teleported back to the location I was in last time.
It feels magical yet again. The forest is beautiful and oddly bright even though it's the middle of the night.
The sensation of the air brushing through my fur is absolutely amazing.
I wonder if I'll be able to meet Olivia or whoever she was yet again.
I attempt to relocate the hill we were on last time and find it after about a minute.

But she is not here.


I howl into the night hoping that she'll hear me and come visit me...

~16/08/11~

i find myself in a theatre full of people and i am about to perform with some kind of school singing group (used to do chorale singing while i was at high school). I am mingling in the audience before having to go backstage and the person i'm chatting with (my flatmates boyfriend IRL) says: "bro look, it's Danger Mouse" (an awesome producer whom i admire).

Danger Mouse:


so i'm pretty starstruck but i'm also freaking out because i think this is my only chance to ever get signed by, or collaborate with Danger Mouse. For a while i panic and try to tidy myself up but my hair is way to messy.
At this point there is a gap in the dream (or recall) and suddenly i'm onstage performing. I appear to have forgotten about Danger Mouse because i'm just messing around and talking to other people onstage. I imagine my principal being embarrassed by how average the performance is and it makes me want to mess around even more
~wake up~

wish i'd been a bit more surprised at seeing DM at the show and had questioned the dream. Could've done basic ToTM so easy!!

I was super tired and didn't do any formal wake back to beds. I also did a half ass meditation. =/ I did wake up at some point and I remember that I had a long dream but was so tired that I couldnt get myself to write any of it down. All I have is some tiny fragments now...
- I was in a car with allen.
- I felt tension or anxioty.
- I was dressed in some type of business attire.
- I went into a grey building and was nervous but it is not clear to me why this happened.
- Color's green and orange somewhere.
This is pretty pathetic considering last nights well recorded dream adventures. If anything, this makes me more motivated to not be so lazy tonight.

August 16, 2011

Dream fragments this time.

Before I get to the dream itself I notice the past few days that I been waking up in the middle of the night without being able to recall anything. This was the case last night but I was lazy and fell back to sleep to quickly have this fragment.

Anyway:

Middle of a forest and there was a Blastoise on his back. He oddly enough didn't have a shell which I didn't notice til I woke up. I rub his head and he seem to enjoy it then I put my hand on his belly. (He lack a shell but the color was the same.) He nodded and approve it. I rub his belly and somehow I knew he was willing to grant a wish.

His wishes was VERY limited...He can transform me to a Pokemon...That it. If lucid I would pick Haunter for his powers, abilities and looks. My dream self pick my favorite Pokemon though so it wasn't all bad. Spent a few secs being a Charmander then woke up.

- I was going to meet up with N because he came to visit. I was wearing a big fluffy black jsk wth shorts underneath. I had to stop at some store on my way there to use the bathroom. But they didn't have any toilets, just these weird public seats with a tiny hole in them you were supposed to try to use. There was a blonde girl with her dad at one, but then I realized the holes were taped over anyway, so I just left.

Then I met up with "N", but it somehow turned out to be E instead. He hugged me and then kissed my shoulder. He was wearing this purple lightning shirt. We went and did some sort of school thing even though it was still summer. I think it was an adventure but I can't remember it. At the end we were outside my grandmother's house, he had to go and I said "okay, wanna hang out tomorrow?" He was like "er okay" sounding like he didn't really want to. I started talking about what we could do and he was backing away slowly, then finally said "okay I wanna get to my home now..." so I let him leave.


- My mom was going to make me drive somewhere even though I didn't know how. I sat in the passenger seat and the car had some kind of semi automatic turning and driving thing, so I just had to steer once in a while. I soon realized I couldn't do it, so I turned around to drive back home, making several cars have to swerve out of the way, and drove on this really wide bike path. Somehow I made it home and was like, "I can't do this".


- There was this HORRIBLE bathroom I was supposed to try and use. It was so dirty, the water went right up on the seats when you flushed and more stuff would appear in it sometimes, all the toilet paper was soaked, and there were slices of roast beef in a bucket you were supposed to use as toilet paper. :| I somehow managed to use it, then came out and it was full of people. I started talking to someone and we both said at the same time, "that was the worst bathroom experience of my life!".

Then I saw a door at the end that said "ANYTHING-KEI" (I understood it was supposed to be like fairy kei) and went in. It turned out to be this nice, empty, clean bathroom that was covered in rainbows and furry things and everything was animal themed. I was annoyed I hadn't discovered it before.

I was in a dream, and I randomly became lucid. I was standing in the middle of a random open area with a few trees. It was snowy, and the sky was grey. I scream "CLAIRTY!" a few times and rubbed and clapped my hands together. When I looked around, I was just stunned. Everything seemed so real and vivid. I touched a few objects, and it felt so strangely sensual.

I had totally forgotten about any dream goals I had, but I was trying to remember them. I decided I should start by getting away from this area. I tried to jump up and fly but it didn't work. Then I spotted a giant fallen over tree. I decided I could use it as a broomstick like in Harry Potter. I hopped on to it, and then I was flying on a giant dead tree.

Steering the thing was quite a task. It was really hard to balance on it. Eventually my dream faded.

---

I was at summer camp like I used to go to when I was younger. We were lined up against the wall of that gym and the counsellors were doing something. We were all wearing the orange uniform shirt and waiting for something to happen. I looked around and saw ZA and JU among all the orange shirts. I was really confused as I thought they were too old to go to camp by now. I wanted to go talk to JU but something was holding me back.

Suddenly I turned around, and this gorgeous guy was standing in front of me and smiling down at me. He had tanned skin (really tanned, the only thing I objected) and brown hair that swooped over his brown eyes. He randomly took hold of my hand, and I went right along with it.

Then we were randomly in some forest area on some sort of trail. We were climbing a huge wooden staircase that went up this cliff. The random guy was still with me the whole way. At some point I started making out with him, and he grabbed me and carried me up the stairs. Then the dream ended.

Dream - Lucid

I was in an airport I think. I saw Chris walking by, and we met eyes. We both couldn't stop staring at one another. I didn't think he was going to want to talk to me or see me, but he came up to me and hugged me. I hugged him back. I felt the old, familiar feeling of my arms wrapping around him, but not all the way because he's big. I was so, so happy to be in that moment! It was a beautiful feeling.

More things happened, I walked somewhere with him and talked to some other people, but I can't remember any more details. The main thing I recall is the feeling of hugging him and the happiness it brought me.

~

I was sitting on the couch in my living room at my house in my hometown. I looked to my left towards the entrance to the room, and saw my friend Jase and some of his friends standing there. More of them started to come into the room. Jase was apparently having some sort of get together with his friends at my house. I felt a little irked, because he never asked me if it was ok for him to do that.

Then, I was sitting on the other side of the couch. Jase and his buddies were all in the living room. I remember Jase sitting on one of the chairs with someone else. Jase saw me and said
"Krista!" He then gave me a big hug.
On the other side of the couch sat my mom. I leaned over to her, pointed to Jase and whispered
"See that guy? He's my communist friend. He didn't ask if it was ok for him to do this."
My mom then started to talk to Jase and ask him questions. The one that I remember was
"Do you still keep up with your journal?" (journal=blog in this context). She said something about reading his journal.

Then, I saw something on the TV. It was some sort of indie political movie.
"Typical," I thought to myself.

Then, I looked at the coffee table, and there was a Scrabble board on it. It was totally full of letters; there were no empty spaces. I started to mess with the letters, taking some of them off the board, and then figured I should ask Jase if his friends and he were done with the game. I asked, and he said yes. As I asked, I noticed that I kept sniffling and my throat was sore. It was like I was coming down with a bad cold.

I then started to play with the letters on the coffee table. I was, for some reason, trying to spell the word "FULL". I couldn't find two L's. I thought I had at first, but realized I had two U's instead. I thought about using a blank tile in place of an L, but then thought that was silly, since I had all the letters right in front of me. I finally spelled it. The tiles looked something like this:

[F]
[ ] [ ] [U] [ ] [ ]
[L]
[L]

I then was in or playing some sort of video game where it was like I was in space trying to jump onto a swinging platform, and I kept falling because my timing was wrong. When I finally made it, I had to talk to some woman and show her a key. I showed it to her, and it looked like this ceramic knife my mom bought in waking life. She took the sheath off of the knife, which looked like a ceramic key now, and said that it was the wrong thing. She gave it back and I re-sheathed it.

I was in some sort of large building, similar to a mall. There were quite a few people around and I, along with several other people, were standing around a kiosk of sorts. Apparently we had signed up for a race, in which we had to write our names using various creative ways. The first one was using a code, but was in the what seemed like a store right next to us.

we all ran inside and noticed there were a bunch of trees. Not small trees like you might see in a landscaping project, but huge, full grown trees over 60 feet high. Some of which were turned over on their side. We started to climb up one of them and, at the top, were various letters and buttons. We had to spell out our name using the buttons, but it was in code. We were each given the translation of the code before, so I pulled it out of my pocket. I set it on the ground right next to me and started to press the buttons in accordance with the code. Instead of spelling out my name, i spelled out "herp mah derp" (Thanks IRC ) Apparently I passed and was able to move on, but the person in front of me, who looked eerily familiar, had spelled out Izaya. That was it! He was a character from an anime I had been recently watching.

Unfortunately, this didn't get me lucid, but the dream went on. We kept climbing the trees and eventually got to a group of them that were hanging outside the store. There were a few pine trees and platforms right below them. I instinctively tore off several branches, enough to spell my name. I was in front so I figured I was all set and could win this no problem. I walked up to a ver elongated branch that overhang the entire hallway of this mall. I figured that we had to spell our name by throwing the branched across the hallway and onto a sticky board on the other side.

I threw the first branch and it stuck to the wall just fine. I figured that would be one line in the B. I threw another, but it didn't stick. Then i noticed that izaya guy was right next to me, and threw a branch himself. It stuck, but he changed it somehow, to show "I <3" and then a window. Apparently he loves windows? I figured that just spelling "I" wasn't good enough to win so i kept going, but now matter how many, how hard, or how soft i threw the branches, they would not stick. Izaya just sat there laughing at me, and it was then that I woke up.

Went to bed at 5 am put alarm at 10 am. I woke up naturally on 8 am. Still tired, headache and i didn't recall a thing. Then i did nomad's trance recall and i remembered fragments from this lucid dream i just had. :O

Dream #1

I recall myself doing very short mantras last night. And visualizing practice. I kind of recall doing a reality check in my dream while riding a bike. Took me about 2 minutes to determin if i was actually dreaming or not. I went flying. At first i fell like i was gonna fall but then i just remembered to float instead of fly and it worked. I flew around little houses . I remember being on the ground again and prowling around looking for stuff to do. I climbed over a wall into a backyard and as i was doing that i was thinking if sex would really be the same in a dream. The last thing i remember is that there was a naked girl with tiny titties sitting across of me. She gave me instructions on what to do. She said, touch my right boob like this and say Yes. If you touch my left boob like this you have to say No. And you have to say it like this ; Noooooooooooooo.
I touched her left boob and said Noooooooo. And i woke up. i think.


Went back to bed after a shower. fragments again.
Dream #2

I was riding my bike and i ran into my friend's dad Hassan who was also riding a bike. He told me "It's about time you get a job already. You can come work at my place we need you there." I said "now? I'm just headed to school right now i can't go with you."
He hesitated and said well it's up to you but we could really use you. I said fine. Nevermind school let's go. I was still contemplating in my mind if i really wanted to do this cus he does have a big restaurant now and they almost only serve meat products. Not sure if i'm up for frying them all day.
Anyway i joined him and the next thing i recall is riding my bike coming from the restaurant's direction towards school. I thought i was with Hassan riding besides me but when i'm thinking of this scene i remember a really big and broad black man riding besides me. Possibly with sunglasses.
There was something really cool about this guy and when i was riding on the Boschdijk there where youth's from school walking around the sidewalks and i saw a lot of people looking at him in awe.

I remember fragments of being at school once. Taking a seat in the middle of the class. Alone.
I was at home and i was telling my mom about my dream with Hassan. I said that he got a job for me. Even tho i only dreamed it im pretty sure he really wants me to work there.

Then i remember going into class again. We where outside going into a Bus. Our classroom was located in a bus. (not 100% sure.. but i think so, atleast something like a bus) I went to sit next to Inge. One seat behind where i sat last time. Atleast i thought i was going to sit next to her cus then i realized i sat next to another girl and Inge was sitting next to her.

This dream was like an animated adventure film. It was a lot like logorama. I repeatedly told myself I wanted to have a dream like lograma.

Everything is kushti I'm walking with characters from Regular Show and I'm Mordecai. We're in New York and getting into a cable car. For some reason the cable car has an eject unit on the side. I'm not lucid at this point but it is wierd.


Something happens and then we get off at the cable car station. There is an evil cat and he wants to take over the world by throwing people out of cable cars. Me,Rigby and some white bird go back to foil his evil plan we went into the car and fought him. We then ejected him but it wasn't over. I was lucid now but the story was too good so I forgot about controlling the dream. Rigby mostly saved the day by throwing himself at the cat.

We foiled his plan by capturing him and taking him to the station (I think).

Notes
Non-Lucid
Lucid

I've had 8 LDs and my dream always ends by the door of any house i wake up in and i just couldn't go outside

I wake up in my bed and my grandmother comes into my room with a tuxedo and a plate which has food on it , she starts telling me something about the food , she picks a piece of the plate , it looks like a wrapped pasta with sauce(?).I suddenly think "My grandmother in a tuxedo, what the hell?" that tells me to do a reality check.
I look around the room and see sun shining outside the window .I won't do the same mistake again , so i open the window.I touch the window glass ,its cold , really realistic.i jump out and start walking towards the exit to the street, it's quite chilly outside.I wake up

Non-lucid

I'm just sitting on the grass near my house , looking at the pictures in an album , when suddenly my ex girlfriend comes and joins , she puts her head on my shoulder , so i put my arm around her waist, she does the same.The dream ends.

[COLOR="red"]Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="royalblue"]Semi-Lucid[/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Dream[/COLOR]
[COLOR="silver"]Thoughts[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]On this Wake Back to bed I were only up to go to the bathroom and I did put on socks to keep my feet warm, then I fell asleep with the timer on. A great tip that helped me fall asleep, focus on your breathing, if you are really good at meditation you might keep awake, but if your not you will black out.
I counted up to 5 alarms before I started to have a dream[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I were on a school and was going to park my bike, but I just couldn't lock it. So I stood there for a long time and raged over my bike.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Then the sixth alarm woke me up, and I blacked out again.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I was watching Tom and Jerry, but not from a TV perspective I was there and I was transformed into a cartoon bear. Some of my friends thought it was a game and I chased them. Then I couldn't find them anyway, so I looked out through the window and saw that they were out on the garden. I climbed out to the high roof[/COLOR] [COLOR="red"]and the phantom beep from the alarm made me aware I guess, because it came from nowhere. I looked down on my worried friends and I thought that I really should try to fly down from here. But how? If I don't believe it I will fall straight down. I thought "I will do it I am AWESOME!" So I took a leap of faith, but it was a bumpy fly attempt, because I didn't really had control over it. And because of that I lost my lucidity immediately...[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]The dream continued and I crash landed on a hill and started to roll down in pain. Then my friends just stopped playing and looked at me with sad faces. I asked what's going on? And then I saw a newpaper with a picture of my mom and the headline said (I don't remember) but for some reason I realised that she was dead. So I started crying, but then the dream morhped into a tv-serie I can't even explain it because nothing maked sense. It was wierd.[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]I then woke up in my bed.. When I wrote this DJ entry I knew what alarm I were on, but while I was doing this I had no idea, so when I woke up I thought I had missed the 20 minute intervalls, so I tried to go back to sleep, but I just couldn't. And I gave up and looked at the timer and saw that I had slept through all the alarms, and the reason to that I became lucid was the phantom beep.
But in the future I have to be more aware of what alarm I am on, and every time I get lucid I have to remember to stabilize.[/COLOR]

Im in a giant tank of water but im not scared. it was quiet and lifeless. then I saw a light gleaming off of a beautiful girls body. After seeing her something in me just clicked. I was captivated and felt a very lucid surge of emotion and purpose(to swim to her). the closer I get the brighter everything gets. I wake up when I get close to her.

notes: very stoned when I went to sleep.

Failed incubation all this weekend. Was taking me too long to fall asleep to keep anything up. Last night I was trying to picture myself at the pyramid beating a drum to attract other dreamers. Just mentioning that in case it had any effect, however unlikely.

School Trip
Recall: 7/10
Sleep: Good
Sleep Position: Unknown

I'm in class in high school, and my english teacher announces a class trip to somewhere tropical. Cool! They trip is in a couple of days. I later realize I don't have the money to go. I show up at school when everyone is leaving for the trip, and chew out my teachers for now giving us enough notice to raise the money, yelling at them. I don't like that they have a special event just for the rich kids.

I see many other people can't afford to go either. Then I see Beaudoin, who hands me a couple of LSD tabs, which I take. I leave school and end up at a party. The party is hosted by some kid who's father is Iggy Pop. Iggy hand hands me nice chunk of weed after spreading honey oil all over it. I smoke it and it's really good. Plus my LSD is starting to kick in.

I see myself in the mirror, and the LSD has caused my eyes to shrink. They are just tiny, way out of proportion to the size of my head. I wonder about them taking that LSD and going on the plane for the school trip. People must notice the tiny eyes!




Fragment: Windy Swim
I go swimming on the river. It;s a windy day, and the water is all choppy, but it's a cool spot with nice beaches and various rapids.


Fragment: Exploring
I'm exploring a little village by bike, looking for the river. I come to the area I think it should be, where someone points out a map on the wall to me. I can see the rivers I was looking for, 2 of them, just ahead on the map.