non-lucid

I don't remember much, but what I did remember was pants-wettingly scary.



I am walking down a street near my house. I em nomming on a brick of cheese.

That is all.

14.08.2010

A dog gets mad (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Finally a rested night after two nights of little sleep. I sleep through the entire night. This never happens to me because I was really tired. I woke up at 8 without recall, even more odd for me, I did not want to wake up with nothing, so I was determined to recall one dream. I did. Morning sleep saved my 3 month streak.

I was outdoors. It was sunny and I felt the wind in my face. I was in a big park, however, I did not see that many trees. I did not see a lot of DC either. I was alone almost in the middle of nowhere. I could see a metallic fence several feet away from me and some people beyond it.

A German Shepperd approached at me, so I placed my hand in front of his face for him to sniff it (I do this on waking and every single dog, even the most scared or aggressive ones like me) A few seconds passed and the dog started to bark and attack me. I did not move as I knew it was impossible for a dog to get mad at me. However, the dog kept barking and attacked me a few times, so I started to run and the dog followed me.

I left this park and I was next to the street. A rottweiler approached at me and once more I placed my hand. This rottweiler was a friend of the first dog that attacked me. The rottweiler kept sniffing my hand for a long time and he did not attack me, however, he did not ask to be petted either (like all dogs do in waking) He started to growl and he did not look happy at all.

I had a False awakening at home. It was a different place from waking. My parents were with me and four made up family, plus my two waking cats. I was in a bed with three kids. They were about 12-14 years old. One of my cats was in my pillow and my second cat noticed I awoke, so she jumped to my pillow as well and started to get comfortable. My cat said, "Please, pet me a little more before Mew kicks me out like she always does." I laughed and said to my wife (now she was there too) "I knew it. Finally Skitty protested about getting kicked out when Mew wants some love!"

I was about to get out from bed when the three kids I had started to say, "I grab silly people!!! I grab them! I grab silly people like Marc, I grab silly people like Ismael Serrano! I grab silly people like you!" Two kids were grabbing me and it was hard to get away from them, but I did.

I went to my living room and my mom was mad. She said, "McDonald's again for breakfast! I am not cooking!!!" I was surprised because we never went to McDonald's for breakfast. She said, "We did not buy paper towels so we cannot have breakfast at home!" I saw a roll with no paper towel. I threw it to the trash, went to the bathroom and washed. I then went to the living room and I sat at the table. I wanted to make sure I wrote that the scenario with the dogs was a missed dream sign and I did not turn lucid. I saw a few small colored papers with notes for me. One said that they would miss me, other one said to me to have a good flight. There were some blank ones as well. I remembered that I had to fly all the way from Europe back to home in California and I was not looking forward for such a long flight. I woke up.

Missed dream signs:
- The dogs that got mad at me. (In waking a dog NEVER gets mad at me. I approach at them, they sniff my hand and they like me. Even dogs with traumas from puppy age like me)
- That odd family I had.
- One of my cats talked.
- My mom saying we were going to have breakfast in McDonald's due a stupid excuse.
- Thinking about lucidity within a dream.
- I was in Europe when I never left home.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Talk with the dog and ask him why did he attack me.

I remember very little.

1. I got a demo disc that was supposed to have Gears 3 on it, but when I started it the only thing I could play was Skate 2.

2. I was building two giant water slides. One out of ice, the other out of fire. (there's that fire again. I have to realize that fire is obviously a dream sign for me.)

In the first dream I was doing something (but I can't remember what), and started to realize that it was odd (I think it was a FA, and I was getting up and doing something). I then realized that I might be dreaming, and so I did a RC to confirm, and I was lucid.

I can't remember what I did at first, but I ended up in some restaurant at the upstairs of some building, sort of like the dining area at TR. KA and some others were there. I decided to try to persuade KA that she was dreaming to see her reaction:

"KA, you're dreaming!"
"Oh, that's nice."
"No! I'm lucid! Wake up! You're in a dream!"
"Huh?"
"I said you're not in real life!"
"Um okay then?"

At this point the dream faded.

The next dream was mighty long. I was with summer camp again, but yet there were people from school and some teachers too. We were going on a long trip. We had arrived at some cabin. I had gotten bitten by a few mosquitos, and one of the bites really hurt. I asked the teachers/counsellors if they had afterbite, and they said they didn't, but maybe they could go get some from a nearby store. I told them that I would pay for it if they could get it for me.

Then we ended up on some bus or train.

Later I was at the "school" again, though it wasn't my school at all. I had apparently brought my little guitar, and I was searching frantically for it. Once I had found it I carried it off with me and into the building. It was a grey and white colored scheme, mostly concrete. I went to one of the top floors. There there was my big guitar, and I started fretting over it, and totally forgetting that I had the little guitar. Then there were some more guitars, one of them purple, and I admired it along with some other guys around it. Then we were apparently supposed to go to music class, but I wanted to play the purple guitar. So as another class entered the room and my class gone, I was still playing the purple guitar. When they had settled I started to rush off to the music room with my own big guitar and hoping that the music teacher wouldn't be angry at me for being late.

Then I briefly remember being on the highway with my grandmother in the car.

Then we arrived at a Nofrills and we bought some food.

After that I had a FA where I woke up and decided to make a milkshake with fruits in it. I poured some blackberries and some other random berries and grinded them with food processor. It turned out a bit watery, but only half of the glass was full, so I could add other things. I thought about how ice cream would make it thicker, but I didn't have any of that. Then I thought that maybe bananas would thicken it. We had two left, I thought. I remember grinding it up and seeing the peel lying in it, but that was the end of the dream.

Dream starts off in a light temperate forest by a rivers edge. There is a Japanese settlement by the water's edge at the bottom of a cliff. Most of the people there dress in traditional Japanese clothing and are miner's and fishermen but lately they have been complaining about wolf sightings near the settlement and claim that the fishing huts are being raided at night by the wolves.

I am sent in with two other people to search the forest and do an zoological study of the wolves and alleged behaviour but we search the forest for many days and find no sign of them at all. When we tell the Japanese settlers this they start claiming that they are being haunted by ghost wolves. That same day active but undetonated bombs are unearthed around the village, leftovers from American bombing during World War Two. The village shaman says that the spirits of these hidden bombs were what the villiagers saw as wolves. The people believe that they will no longer see the wolves now that the bombs have been removed.

My team and I are not convinced that the wolf sightings were just apparitions and search the forest again. We split up to cover more gorund and in the middle of one sunny day I am on a mount or a hill or something deep in the forest when three grey wolves appear and surround me on the hill.

They do not growl or otherwise threaten me but also do not let me leave, blocking my path whenever I try to back away or run. They do not speak to me directly but I sense that they are trying to communicate with me somehow. I use my digital camera to take pictures of the wolves and after I have done so they finally back down and disappear back into the forest.

I contact my collegues and we reconviene at the settlement but when I try to show them the images I captured on my digital camera, my camera will not work despite having a new battery in it. My collegues said that they did not see any wolves themselves but felt that they were being followed.

I cannot remember anymore of this dream.

Dream starts off at Lake Whittaker, the trailer park my parents frequent in the summer on the weekends. There is a forest behind their trailer and I am there with my mom having an argument about shopping or something. She said she was going to take me shopping for several weekends but when the time comes she makes some excuse and never follows through.

We argue for a while and she finally agrees to take me shopping and we follow a path through the forest behind the trailer that leads to an outdoor store selling mainly office supplies, but also some dollar store odds and ends. I become upset because I am pacing the aisles looking for something specific and cannot find it. My mom is getting upset and wants to leave but I absolutely refuse to leave until I find what I am looking for, which turns out to be shoes and accessories for my Barbie doll (even though in the dream I think to myself "I'm almost 30 years old. What do I need Barbie doll shoes for?")

After paying for the toys and returning to the trailer I become upset again because the shoes we bought were the wrong onee and I want to exchange them but my mom has had enough of shopping and tells me that I have to go exchange them myself. I walk back along the path to the outdoor store and find it deserted and many of the aisles are a mess like someone has been violently rummaging through the items and tossing them about.

I decide that I am just going to leave the old package and take the new one when just then I hear things being scattered about in one of the far aisles. Upon investigation I find a large black bear knocking things off the shelves and scattering things about. It is growling and foaming at the mouth but thankfully doesn't see me because it's back it turned. I run towards the path in the forest but that catches the attention of the black bear which then starts chasing me.

A dryer maching has appeared in the middle of the forest path and I jump inside of it and slam the door shut. It is sturdy and thick enough that the bear cannot get inside and it eventually loses interest and takes off into the forest. I slowly and quietly make my way along the forest path trying not to draw attention to myself lest I come across the bear again.

The path back to my parent's trailer seems much longer than before and in the middle of it a wide, shallow river has appeared. There are minature houses built along the water's edge and a waterfall nearby. On the path across the river I see something dark lumber across and think it is the black bear waiting for me so I throw myself into the river out of fear and let myself go over the waterfall.

The dream ends there.

No lucids last night, but I wasn't actually trying that hard for another one yet, anyway. I need to get my recall fixed up first and foremost, else there's not much point in going lucid, since I won't remember the experience anyway

Again, I didn't remember more than one dream, but the clarity of that memory has noticeably improved. All the same, since I don't have a ton of time and the dream was a pretty simple concept, I won't go into much detail about it.

I was sitting in my basement with a dissected Wii remote laying on a table before me. I was messing around with all the parts, modifying them, attaching them in new ways, etc. When I was done, I had created a motion-based controller that relied only on hand motions. I strapped the device onto the back of my wrist like a bulky watch and then was able to use it just by pointing different fingers or moving my hand around.

I'm very tempted to do that IRL. Like I said, the memories are pretty clear, so I remember how I did it in the dream, and I'm confident it would work. The creativity of the sleeping mind is rather cool

For how my routine works go ahead and hit up this thread. Otherwise let's just leap right into it.

Last night I went to bed a little bit later than I wanted to and I think I was a bit too tired to really maximize the effectiveness of my routine. I started to do my "countdown" trick before I went to sleep and I think I almost got into SP (my heart began to race, my body felt numb) and then I reality checked..and nothing. I tried again and ended up straight zonking out. I woke up again at 5:30 (when my WBTB alarm is set). For whatever reason I wasn't tired feeling so I had to make myself go back to sleep. And as I started to do my countdown... I passed out again.

Then I woke up at 8:30 and could only remember one dream. Pro: I could recall it. Con: It was pretty short.

Maybe I'm still recovering from trying to do the Infinity Course. That thing really messed with my sleep schedule...

It always wierds me out when dreams happen like this but I am suddenly in my dream, running down the court, playing basketball. Nobody says anything but I instantly perceive that I'm playing in an all star game. The gym is pretty stark. Big, but stark. Wood floors and plain white washed walls. There are two hoops. I know we are in the middle of a game but at any given time I can only see one or two people and never myself. OK. So I'm running down court and I pass the ball off to this tall white guy with darker black, and blond, streaked hair. He catches the ball and immediately puts up an awkward shot. The guy that came back to D him up gets the rebound and dribbles off. I know instantly that this guy is Darko Milicic. He is sweaty and looks very unsure of himself. I walk over to the guy and start giving him pointers. Telling him to just relax and calm down. And, when he gets the ball, just to slow the game down and put up a confident shot. I don't have a clue why I am giving him basketball tips when he's in the pros.

That's about all there was to the dream. Really short, written out like this, but it seemed to take up a lot of 'dream time'. Again I see my dream sign, basketball/basketball players, I really need to start doing RL reality checks whenever basketball is brought up. Hmm..

Well I don't really remember much

Anyways, I don't talk to my dad but I saw him in my dream and we were getting along really well and it felt so genuine and real until I like woke up and realized it was a dream.

I went back to sleep and then here is another fragment I was at the backyard of my moms friends house and I was running in my underwear (my dad wasn't in here anymore) and then I was flying upwards and I was like woohoo I already knew it was a dream and I was very lucid, the dream was very detailed, I was examining every single detail from left to right but it was kind of hard to keep it going, then I flew down into some persons house and there was a witch there.

Then like in this show called Charmed my favorite show she was trying to throw an energy ball while I was up in the air near the celling of the house and I yelled 'energy ball' and it orbed into my hand (these are charmed terms btw) and I threw it back at her and it didn't hit her so we kept this going for like 4 times until somehow I lost control and I flew out of the house onto the floor.

Next, I really have no clue what this was about, I don't know if I was lucid or not but I was trying to control the dream, it worked very well on many levels to say the least, far better than any other dream I've had so far. Basically it was me and my cousin sort of again, her name is Suzy, she was in one of my last dreams if you remember. I guess this was like some sequel to that dream, and like it was her friend Rat, and I remember we were in the mall, me and Rat, and like I kept trying to find her and yell for her but she wouldn't come so I said a spell from charmed (similar to the spell 'to call a lost witch') and from the top floor of the mall (the mall was really big and distorted in my dream) she vanished in like a wind spiral and came down in front of me, which I was like FUCK YEAH I CAN FINALLY DO SPELLS IN MY DREAMS (this is a BIG accomplishment for me it actually helps me control my dreams better and more detailed)

So then we were walking down this escaltor which was really weird because it was like going up and down at the same time, impossible architecture maybe? then we finally went up for one last time and went out, I don't know where we went but we were basically hiding behind these cars in a parking lot with a bunch of people trying to shoot at us (ala Inception) and I said another spell, something like make me invincible blah blah and it rhymed but not too well, it's funny in my dreams I have a much more fluid vocabulary and easier to make rhyming spells, anyways after I said it, Rat was already gone, and I was like haha I'm invincible you can't hurt me, so I was just walking while they were shooting at me, which was another big accomplishment because usually by this point I lose some sort of faith and they manage to shoot me and I wake up or something, and btw this was all at night time, and while i went all the way in the parking lot I reached Target, and it was already day time, and then I was looking for Tristan and Anthony (anthony was also in another one of my dreams if you read my first DJ), and then they were behind me and there was a bunch of teen gangster around me trying to shoot me, and they tried to shoot me as I was walking in target and it went through me and I was like haha missed me or something and we went in, and they were all surprised and I was like 'Tristan, your comin with me' 'you too Anthony' and I guess I was trying to gather up some sort of army or something to do Time Travel as far as I remember, and then as we were walking down the aisles Anthony asked me a question I forgot what, and I completely lost lucidity and woke up.

The end. Trust me this is all I could remember now it's been 3 hours, I know there was WAY WAY more fun stuff see you next in the next dream!

I have stumbled upon the DEILD technique and I think it suits me very well. Though I didnt have results last night and messed up my recall because of it, I trust it will use both my extremely powerful biological clock while giving me close to nothing to do. I learned that the more a technique is demanding on my part, the smaller the results. In other words, I fuck it up every time. So a quick WILD looks like the right way to go, because DILD is too random. Even when I had my only two DILD, i feel like it was just a lucky shot and id rather induce my dreams. If I get any success with this it may also reconciliate me with the traditionnal slow WILD which has proven a complete failure so far. I also like how you get multiple attempts per night. Even though I have had no results yet, im unaware as of wether the problem is my ability to stay still when waking up or entering a dream. I guess light will shed on this mystery later on. And now, my only dream fragment of the night.

I am in Quebec in my family when I hear my Ipod ringing. I take it out of my pocket and answer. Its Shao but I dont know it. I ask who it is and he answers with something incomprehensible. I go: Ok...What do you want? He tells me to come at his place but im not even at home. I say I am in Quebec and I cant come. Whats funny is that my ipod is no phone, it cant ring!

I went to bed really late.

August14: I was at target with jordan and alex vincent I was looking at videogames it showed the gears pre-purchase and some mk stuff including a movie. I was suspicious because there were no price tags. After that I played with toy light sabers in my dream then my friends came back and we went by a white candy bowl I didn't look at.

Also in another dream phase I was riding my longboard around apparently but Stephen petro offered me a ride that's all I remember right now

august 15: N/A recall got to bed late.

august 16: N/A recall got to bed late.

august 17: only thing recalled was that I rubbed my eyes and they felt irritated and someone random ( DC ) told me my eyes were really red.

I really need to get some sleep because the past three nights have been bad for results.

Edit: This is a partial entry with one dream sequence omitted. See file 0813-0814; recall note: fast food restaurant, black coat.

Just laid down to get a little more sleep when I remembered some more details of what was either a separate dream or a long segment before the previous one (if so, I was myself at this point and not Bruce Willis).

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And even just now I recall another separate sequence. At this point I'm not sure where in tonight's overall sequence it belongs.

I was riding a bike (with a helmet even, I remember checking--successfully within the dream--a few times to be sure I was wearing one) up 10th street, I think I was on my way to work (noting of course I don't work anywhere going that direction). I turned left onto 19th avenue and decided I move to the sidewalk and stop taking up space on the street, only before I was able to do so I fell into a small crowd (maybe 6-7) of people walking (apparently I was biking really slow?) west down 19th avenue. They were talking to each other about something I wasn't paying attention to. I decided to go along with them as they moved onto the sidewalk and started moving behind some beige-colored buildings where the strip mall would be on the 10th street/19th avenue corner. We kept going and the crowd sorta slowly grew larger; I was still on my bike (I checked for a helmet here for sure at one point). As we reached the end of the buildings heading west still, someone pointed out that there was a large wooden fence blocking further passage west as well as one to our left blocking passage south. The north-south fence was slanted slightly diagonally southwest to northeast, so we turned the corner of the building to the north and kept going. The fence and the building reached a point where the formed a small passage at the building's northwest corner.

I volunteered to go in first and check it out (at some point after turning the corner I'd gotten off my bike). Inside the passage it was very narrow, made out of wood planks like the fence outside, and the passage was uneven (ie not straight, the walls zig-zagged slightly at random intervals, mostly small but with interesting patterns, for instance there were small alcoves where people would be sitting). It seemed like it was not longer outdoors somehow, but there was a really high ceiling. It sounded crowded, like there were a lot of people outside the wooden-fence-passage area that I couldn't see, and even the passage was fairly crowded with random people just loitering of passing through in the opposite direction. It was slanted slightly downhill, so I remember thinking it felt like I was moving out of a mountain passage amusement-park-log-chute-style. My memory of this sequence ended at some point as I was navigating this passage.

PART 1 - MIK HILARITY

At work. My friend Mik goes through a checkout. As they do, they say something absolutely hilarious, in a casual way where they don't laugh at their own joke, offhand as they're passing through. I think it's like the funniest thing ever.

ANALYSIS

Mik has randomly dropped into my work places before, so it would fit with that pattern.

The main element here seems to be how nonchalant they were.

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PART 2 - COLB WC3

Playing an old friend I haven't seen in years at WC3. He is Orc, I think I'm human? It's both of us against the computer.

At one point I use chain lightening and he likes the ability. I say we should start over both as a race with chain lightening so we could both do it (which is odd as IRL orc actually has it and humans don't.) He decides against this.

ANALYSIS

This felt like an expression of their "polarity responder" nature. They're the type of person who, whatever you say, will tend to take the opposite position.

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PART 3 - BINGE LIMITED FUNDS

I'm back and forth between the grocery store and current home, trying to make the money I have last for 3 days of junk food.

I decide against 3 pizzas and go with 2, use the extra money for other things, for "variety."

ANALYSIS

I haven't eaten anything unhealthy in almost 4 months now. I think the idea did surface in my mind yesterday, which may have been the trigger, but was quickly negated as it's an impossibility due my ailment anyway.

I tend to take thoughts of binging as a sign that I'm not managing my emotional state well enough, not keeping occupied enough.

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PART 4 - CEE

Something about talking to Cee...

ANALYSIS

Still an "open loop" in my life, undoubtedly they will continue to surface in dreams periodically until some form of resolution is achieved.

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PART 5 - MISSED SC2 PARTY

I find out that there was a big SC2 party held at the local theatre, but I've missed it. For some reason this is quite devastating.

I think Jo from work may have been there.

ANALYSIS

I plan on gradually phasing out my SC2 playing time (which isn't that much to begin with) in favor of other pursuits (drawing), perhaps this is a metaphor for that, the sense of loss.

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PART 6 - DANCING AND 9/9/09

In a room full of people (one is Melinda, an acquaintance from Jr High), all the chairs and tables have been cleared away to free space for dancing. I "dance" (stepping along in small circles) along with everyone, which I remember finding surprising even in the moment, as I wouldn't normally expect myself to go along with something like that.

Later, the room is filled with tables, each having a computer. I look at mine, and notice a pattern in the time and date - it's 9/9/09, 9:09:09.

I remark about this to the person next to me (Borges?), they simply say "no it's not" because by then the time has passed.

ANALYSIS

The first part could be looked at one of two ways: surprising myself by following along with others, or surprising myself by going outside my comfort zone. It definitely feels like the latter.

The main idea of the last bit seems to be, remarking about something amazing to someone, and them not appreciating it. Borges may represent superficiality, which would also be congruent with the theme.

Sex dream, super odd one. Started at some sort of corporate board meeting. Started mostly third person, apparently I was Bruce Willis. There was some sort of drawn out argument over something, other than that I don't remember anything notable.

Cut to what was evidently my house (but not anything I'd recognize from real life), now in first person, with who I apparently identified as my wife, only it was Jennifer Aniston, who had also been present to a quiet degree during the board meeting (and she had kind of a super skinny build). We were sitting on a brownish couch watching TV for a while, but then I caught a glimpse of her breasts and we started going at it, feeling each other up. During this foreplay, whatever was on the large screen TV turned into a handful of number meters representing various aspects of her arousal, so I was half making out with her, half watching the screen to adjust my technique. At some point, she said, "That was the second time I've ever been satisfied!" We stripped down and were just about to get down to business when I woke up.

I've never been particularly attracted to or a fan of Jennifer Aniston.

Me and my dad are on a large grassy and mountainous islands, when suddenly the tide starts rising. It doesn't rise continuously, but rises by a large increment every so often. Me and my dad climb and swim our way to higher ground, and as the water rises only 4 mountains that now look like islands remain, the only ones not fully submerged. From order of lowest to highest, I will assign them 3, 2, 1a and 1b. We swim across the water from the top of 3 to get to 2, and the water rises again as we arrive. My dad points out to me a dead fish in the water that I don't see, but I realize that all life underwater has somehow died. On 2, an older woman awaits and discusses which mountain we should swim to next (1a or 1b), and I know she won't be coming. The mountains are both in front of us, 1a is slightly lower than 1b and has a dirt path leading up to a dirt plateau. 1b is a large forest. I also notice a large ruined structure connecting the mountains, that looks like it could have been a ruined bridge from Fallout, and there is also a layer of stone and metal wire debris on top of the water directly underneath it. I have a feeling that we should go to 1a for some reason, but my dad and the woman decide on 1b because it's higher, and I agree. As we begin swimming, I see a dead see creature, and then my asshole friends wake me up by throwing pennies at me.