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I had a dream, but I don't remember it. I did when I woke up, but I forgot to write it down.

Conditions:
Fell asleep: 12:00 am
2400 mg of Omega 3-6 Fish Oil

COMMENT LUCID NON LUCID DREAM SIGN

Edit: This is a partial entry with one dream sequence omitted. See file 0818-0819; recall note: mall apartment, egg achievement, delivery man.

I've got a few fragments to record, unfortunately I ran into a problem wherein I woke up perfectly to remember them, thought about the dreams enough to crystallize them somewhat (or at least for sure the fragments I'm about to write down), but then I intentionally neglected to get up to write them down. This is something to work on overcoming in the future. I was reluctant to get up under the justification that it was sort of the middle of the work week and I was too tired to get up and write for a while to justify doing it. Plus some of the subject matter of the first one made me reluctant to bother to remember it at all (in fact, although I feel it's beneficial to write as much detail as I can remember, I'd still kind of rather any readers skip over this post). I would like to congratulate myself on the noticeably improved dream recall though, it's amazing what just a little effort can do to go a long way towards awakening at the end of dreams and remembering plenty of detail.

So here we go. As usually I'll try to keep it as chronologically in order as possible.

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The next one was a shorter fragment. I was with my immediate family. Everything seemed kind of retrograde; my brother was younger and both my parents were heavier as though it was before they both had gastric bypasses. We walked through a small junkyard into the waiting room of what looked like a car repair shop, but was apparently a combination car repair shop/walk-in clinic. Everyone sat down in a chair to wait but me; I paced around the room being annoyed and angry that once again people I'd known for years had nothing but contempt and disregard for my medical opinion. At some point I noticed my mother was missing a foot, and I thought, "Diabetes." Curiously, she was still able to walk fine despite the missing/invisible foot. She got up to ask the receptionist what was taking so long, she sounded frustrated, in pain, and desperate. She then went and sat down at a different spot. She was trying to partially cover her face with her coat, but I noticed she was crying. I continued pacing around and making mental notes about my family members until the dream ended.

One last quick note: just went to start breakfast and I remembered one more super short fragment wherein I noticed that the free expired 2-liter bottle of Dr. Pepper I brought home from work a few days ago expired in 1995.

Comment Dream Lucid Dream

Had a MILD-1 class again last night. When I woke up after only 3 hours of sleep I couldn't remember much from my dreams except for:

I'm in a huge imaginary city, together with a Highschool mate of mine. We're going to a festival, but I've got a broken bike and he's got sore feet from his rollerskates. Going strong >_<.

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This dream is from when I awoke this morning. Apparently I continued my previous dream.

The festival is over. My mate's gone and so is my bike. On my way home I encounter an old lady that can't seem to find her own home anymore. She tells me she lives in a street called the Bokken (which would translate to Bucks in english, the animals). I tell her I know where that is and lead here home. It felt like quite a time before we got there, but dreams can be deceivable like that. In the end we arrived at the Bokken though, a street on the bank of a gracht. I remember the entire scene had a yellowy sepia filter over it. On the bank were four copper alligator statues, but I didn't pay them much attention.
Fast forward and I'm a secret agent together with two of my housemates. We're still in the vicinity of the Bokken, but at a small public square. No one's there except us. I spot a laptop and a small beamer on a bench and walk towards them. As soon as I touch them I know this is a laptop from a female spy of our 'enemy corporation' and I decide to hack it. We're after an (unknown) item and this laptop could very well tell us where it is. It runs on windows 98 and takes a couple of minutes before I extract the information: that we need to infiltrate the house of this spy and retrieve our item there.
Fortunately, his house is very close and no one's home. We enter, go upstairs to her room and search for the item. One of my colleagues finds it and he leaves together with my other colleague as backup. I'm to remove our traces and follow them later on. Whilst doing that I hear she-spy coming home and going upstairs. The room has two doors and I hide against the wall of one of the doors. She-spy enters through the other door and I try to make my escape. She's too fast though and knocks me down on the head. Game over.

Fortunately I can try again (wtf?!). I find myself hiding against the wall again, but this time she enters through this door. I rapidly bash the door against her head and make my escape. Outside I find myself in a semi-lucid dream where I jump over hedges. I know I can decide what hedge to jump over. Sometimes the dream 'doesn't listen', but I do have the sense of control. Quickly lost that, though.
I reunite with my colleagues at the four alligator statues in the Bokken. Apparently we're to use the item in combination with one of the statues but agent H tells me it isn't working. I quickly check an online FAQ and it says we forgot to rub the statue with a special type of oil. We don't have that though and neither do we have the time, because the enemies have found us. It's time to prepare for the final battle. Slowly the scene around me changes into a psychedelic disco painting. Afterwards it doesn't make sense at all, but in my dream it was perfectly logical. People killing each other of to get that item, the environment turning and twisting around us. In the end, I passed away too and woke up.

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Missed dreamsigns:
- Me being a spy
- Dying and getting a second chance?
- The semi-lucid hedgejumping sequence
- The psychedelic final battle

Spoiler for Psychedelic Final Stage:

I am now officially a 1/5 of the way to the 100th Wave. Yay! No dream. Awww! I did realise that it has only been 20 days. It felt so much longer. Really 21 days ago I was in my Pre Dreams. Now im in my Post Dreams

I am getting more and more scared of fluctuating results when I actually do stuff in the day. Or even worse, when I stress for the next day. I see to always get a crappy day, then an awsum day, then a crappy day. I guess today's gonna be great then, since last night was a fail. Ld perhaps? Dunno. Wel see

Countdown: 12 nights left

I remembered my dream when I awoke, but laziness coupled with being tired from the day before resulted in my not recording the dream until 30 minutes of dozing had gone by, at which time I had forgotten the dream. *dissapointed in myself* But I guess thats life.

Lucidity: 6/10
Vividness: 7/10
Length: ~8 Min.

OK, I can't remember much of this one. But I know that it was really long.

I remember when I became lucid though. And parts after that. I remember that I was a pirate and we landed on an Island, it was very big and was almost completely covered in water.

For some reason I was in a castle and there were three other people with me, I followed them for a minute and then they went through a window and I looked down and when I did it was like 30Ft. down, then I became lucid. When I did, I got the idea of just floating down there. And when I looked down there again there was some sort of wall there. But I kinda floated by it and landed safely. When I walked towards those guys that I saw. Some hot broad was like flashing at me and she wanted me to take her for a ride (sex). But I just ignored her and walked away. Then I found a tree that was all weird and I ran towards it and I started to fly, it was really cool. Then people were walking towards me and saying. "He did it, he settled a tree. My boy, you deserve a promotion." Or something like that. Then I was trying to be Spider-Man by shooting webs out of my wrists, but it kept shooting out all over the place. And for some reason I had a lazy eye like in real life. That's how used to it I am. So I finally gave it up after trying for like 3 minutes and just followed some people that I saw. The next thing I knew I was walking in a big hall way and some guy was forcing me to go down the hall way. When I did I saw three girls in front of me and they were strip dancing. And below them was some guy that I can't recall very well. And to my left was a door. I went in the door and there was a bath tub in the room. I was like "what the fuck. I'm leaving, or maybe I could stay a while." Some broad appeared out of nowhere and started to talk to me. She wanted to have sex with me. I didn't really want to, but if I don't wake up there's not a problem. I went out the door and picked up a hooker and she turned into a bottle? So I told the guy that was sitting there that I would take this one and he could take the other two. He was like "OK." After I went inside I put some of that stuff in my mouth. She said it was for oral sex. Then I looked away and looked back and guess what, she disappeared. That's such a surprise (not really), but I tried to make her appear nothing happened. I tried making little spinner things in the bath tub and it worked, but a human being wont. That sucks. Anyways, I found her in a little Hamitic to my left and she was sleeping. So I woke her up and the next thing I knew I was walking around outside. I was in a small city, like Carson City. With a bunch of stores. So she said that Oral sex was illegal and I said "In this city or in my mind" or something like that. She didn't respond but for some reason my teeth were hurting a lot. I tried to ignore it but it didn't work. The next thing I knew was that I was trying to hump her doggy style and it didn't work. So we walked back and it got dark and I saw some broad that looked OK. So I asked her if she would give me a blow job and she said OK. So I told her to stay there and kept walking. Then it got pitch black and we looked in a store window, it kinda looked like a diner. That was completely lit up. And a bunch of guys in glowing blue masks looked at us. It was really scary. So we started to walk back again and when we made it to her store it was a relief. Then the sun started to come out and the dream faded into real life. This one is my favorite one so far. This just keeps getting better and better.

These dreams happened over 4 sleep cycles but it's difficult to separate when they happened

Flying back and forth for a job interview, staying in a hotel. S,R,L and W are there, something about a TV.

Get the new job arguing with my dad about God and miracles. Find out about troubled person Q. Have a new beach house on a golf estate - WOHOO!! Quad bikes riding around, house was Q's.

i'm engaged in some sordid online chat thing C and R are also on but they don;t know that I am. SV is complaining about cleaning the FS team office carpet. More sordid chat.

M and me were in an accident, he is in hospital in critical condition. Bubba is a DR - lol and looks at x-rays and gives his opinion, M's body is there and B cuts his hospital gown made of lycra with a scalpel to look underneath at his stomach. I explain our injuries. Later I'm comforting M's mom and the operation begins while we sit a a board room table.

I'm at dad's business in kimberley upstairs, there is a n axel for my mom's car, I am extremely tired form M's ordeal (he died). and grab an energy sachet from a bag that belongs to my dad, it feels like I'm stealing it. We go down a car ramp and then C is gonna pull me somewhere on like a rickshaw thing but she can't. We have a discussion with a street kid...

I'm on the back of a pickup, dad is driving. He greats an old friend and then a dog chases us. We go into a bike store, I look at MX pants and then tires and then boots, all the boots are sucky...

It seems that the fish oil is working well. I am able to recall at least a fragment of a dream almost every night.

I am at a school of some type. Somehow, I've gotten into disfavor with the leadership of the school as well as some of the tough guys at the school. I am constantly threatened physically, but I buck up, and face it. I get into several fights, all of which are a blur, but I seem to do well. I have a hard time moving my arms to make a fist and punch, but my rhetoric seems to work just as well. I'm tagged as the bad boy, and put under house arrest. If I don't mend my ways, I'll end up in jail. Sorry, I don't take to bullies, so I continue. I push people to the edge, and attack my enemies with my fists.

The source of this dream is obvious to me. Yesterday I wrote a very passionate letter talking about the terrible state our country is in. I was extremely agitated as I wrote, pissed off by OBama, Pelosi, and Reed. The devil's triad. This dream is a representation of me fighting back against a government that is slowly but surely taking over every aspect of our lives, and ruining our country. This is my opinion, please don't rebut it. It has nothing to do with anything but to form the basis of my dream. If you disagree, so be it, but this is not the forum to argue.

Conditions:
Fell asleep: 1:00 am
2400 mg of Omega 3-6 Fish Oil

COMMENT LUCID NON LUCID DREAM SIGN

The earliest I can remember is trying to fit in and out of a "space station" thats on earth in astronaut gear and talking about how I'm gonna have a real problem with claustrophobia. Later I'm cave scuba diving with A, D and C. We have cool masks that enable us to talk and we're squeezing through these tight crevices with our oxygen tanks scraping and eventually we swim into a cavern where we can surface but it only has the one underwater entrance. The dream is amazingly vivid and despite my fear I'm really enjoying it. We swim back, the caves are lit with underwater lighting and the contrast and colors are awesome. We surface on a wooden jetty that is built for scuba divers. As we're leaving Ross and Nick are going in the opposite direction coming from a scuba class in a pool. They seem impressed that I was in the caves. Later I'm back in the caves with them (could have been a later dream cycle)

I wake up at 7am take the kids to school and go to have a nap at 8am since I'm really sick and off work today. I try to wild and get really close but I wake up every time my body does weird stuff (noises etc.) Eventually I fall asleep and dream about playing soccer at the italian club, apparently Sias from 5fm is gonna show up. One of the guys headers a ball and it looks unnatural so I realize I'm dreaming, I do a nose pinch and my consciousness shifts to my real body (I'm not counting this as it was too short)

This man called me on my cell phone and told me he wanted to hire me to shoot a commercial for him, I was excited and accepted thankfully. He said he would pay me $1500. Instantly I thought about bringing Dan and Rob on to help with audio and such. Since I was deploying this job would be a great and productive time killer until then. I thought about what else to ask the man and finally he went totally silent, I tried to talk to him but he was gone. I remember he was very concerned about the things in his expensive mansion.

I was in this dimly lit room and somehow I acquired this strange object, I didn't know what it was, but when I unfolded it I realized it was a large desk fan that was pinkish and very nice looking. I used it to cool my computer, it wouldn't fit inside the case so I had to just set it under my computer desk. I felt the rush of air it created. I was on the 2nd level of a building.

I fell asleep trying to AP around 8:30 pm. I was way too tired from bodysurfing. I woke up at 2:22 am. I can't remember shit.

I think the key to WILD's and AP is to fall asleep slowly.

I became lucid twice but woke up immediately

I'm travelling somewhere by elephant. Then we're walking on some narrow pathways. We're at the cave churches in Cairo and I'm giving a tour. G was there.

Late morning nap:

I went to have a nap with the intention of trying to WILD. I lay still for more than an hour - no SP . Eventually I just went to sleep. I dreamt that I heard my wife coming home with the kids from school. My daughter came into the room to wake me for lunch. I pretended to sleep and she was pinching my face and stuff. I woke up for real. I did the FILD technique and literally felt something happen in my mouth when I transitioned. I slowly did a nose RC with my dream eyes closed and I could breathe I lay still for awhile trying to calm down. Eventually I slid out of bed there was a moment when I almost lost it cause I could feel my real legs. I remembered the TOTM and immediately went over to the dresser and started looking for colorful objects. I picked up a small bottle with it's lid painted red (I think it was a lip stick bottle) and two female deodorant cans one with a blue lid and one with a yellow lid. I was super happy but when I looked at my objects the yellow lid had turned to green and I panicked. I rummaged through all the items on the dresser and found a glass bowl with a yellow glass lid that was slightly transparent. Happy with that I headed over to the window to either teleport or just go outside, I was planning to find some unicorns. As I approached the window I started loosing the dream. I spun around slowly and felt the wooden cupboard door. It helped and I decided not to go outside but to go and see what my family DCs were up to as I got to my bedroom door I woke up.

12/08

Something about the fundraisers I'm organizing for a trip some young people are going on. Phone call with pastor from Bikers Church about details of fundraiser.

Something about a guy coming for biltong

Dads birthday. Beer and biltong ( google it ) Grandpa - cricket. Sharks are playing rugby against Griquas. Jean Deysel and Juan Smith and Kabamba Floors are in the house. I try to speak to Jean but can't speak (something to do with breathing). Meagan is in the dream.

13/08

I'm travelling of the Kimberley yacht club road with Janet. She is having financial problems and is basically asking me for money. I tell her I can't help her. I'm showering next to the road (in a shower that just happens to be there). P and a lady are walking on the other side. I get out the shower and I'm suddenly looking for a place to get dressed, I go in a cave and suddenly it turns into a warehouse - there are lots of teenagers there we're planning on camping there. There is a trampoline and tents. Piet is in a small office working on a PC. Their are broken forklifts in the warehouse and some working ones. A giant crane/machine comes to life and at first is just randomly dangerous but then it tries to kill us by spinning stuff that we have to jump over and dodge. It turns in to a person and I try to explain that we have permission to be here.

14/08

Walking over a bridge at night
Golf balls in the mud

15/08

Running an event. B and co involved. Event involves dancing and music. B and co supposed to be helping. D is also involved and organises some expensive socks to give away - I get a pink pair . i go to P in an old bathroom attached to a theatre like room. B and co are there I call them down to talk to them and try to finnish p'ing before they get there (I didn't wet the bed which is always a good thing). I eventually get to talk to them and some lady who has higher authority than me is backing me up.

This is bad. Again today I didnt manage to keep still after waking up one single time at seven. My excuse this time is that my cycle was messed up and I was both excited and tired, of course because of Adam Lambert. But as im running out of excuses and my previous success is slowly fading away, I am staying positive. I truly believe DEILD is my key to becoming a dream god, as it fits me so well. But until I manage to keep still in the morning, results will be close to none. What scares me is when I try to focus on a technique like this one, my recall is completely crushed. In fact, the only thing I remember from last night is how Alex sent me a message about what he could put in his luggage. I look on my cell to find out that message was imaginary. Deceptive? Yes. But im keeping my hopes up. I thought that maybe by putting a sleep mask I could control my eyes being closed and focus on movement. But that would include revealing my LD attempts to my parents while putting my hopes in a technique that is far from proven. If only I could recall while practicing at least I would feel satisfied when waking up. That is not the case, however. Using MP3s looks very attractive, as well as vitamin B6 and 12. But until I become a full fledged, dream every night oneironaut pro kickass master, lucid dreaming will be kept far from anyone excluding me. The final countdown has begun. I have only 15 nights ahead of me before school begins again, and until then I must fly. Thats my goal. Until I reach that goal, I will double my efforts and literally LIVE THE DREAM. I will combine all the techniques I have learned and my hard work will prove successful. It has to. Otherwise it will just get harder after school begins. That is why I will put all the chances on my side by doing both DILD and DEILD. No time for WILD and I cant do MILD since I must keep my mantra for stayin still. Whats left? Hope is all thats left.

Countdown to school: 15 Nights

I am in my old childhood neighborhood in England. I am driving correctly on the left side of the road and realize that the road I am on has been changed since I was last there. There is a filter to go left but I want to go straight ahead. As I am in the filter lane, I illegally go straight ahead and am stopped by a female cop.

I am out of my car talking to the policewoman and thinking about how I can get myself out of getting a ticket. I look closely at her uniform and realize that it is strange looking. All the badges are very faded. It suddenly occurs to me that this is a fake cop and I walk away while she is talking and get in my car and drive away.

I should have known I was dreaming when I realized it was a fake cop.