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05/10-11/11
Pre Sleep
-Chest technique (imagine all thoughts/worries etc go into a chest which locks and dissapears)
-Mantra: "I will lucid dream tonight, or very soon" for about 5 minutes
-Visualization: I visualized myself on a nude beach and becoming lucid
-Had music playing while sleeping and doing this, will try not for greater concentration
-During day started to practice some regular awareness, but was not all that successful

Sleep
There is a horrible firefight on the border of 2 berryfarms. Everyone is in military uniforms. I am with another guy who is leading me to the battle, and I have a pistol. I immediately see people being killed, so I dive behind this concrete little wall for cover. I start to fire, and everything is going fairly well. There are a few of them that suddenly run over to our side past us, but I point my gun at them and quickly start making gun firing noises "pew pew" and their run comes to a stop and they turn around to walk back. One man is near me and I mention I am a tourist, then he shakes my hand and goes to his side.

At one point I am being fired upon, and am hiddin behind my bunker. But it is only about a meter or so in length so I can't really move. Then someone comes into view behind the dividing metal chain fence and starts shooting at me. Theres nothing I can do because I have no ammo, and I think Im going to die.

Inside the Barn of the berryfarm there is a Walmart and I am in one of the isles. There is a bunch of gangsters wearing bandanas that knock me down and say theyre gonna kill me. They are the enemy that has infiltrated the barn. I can't just get up and try to fight or run because they'll shoot me. A woman in a walmart vest comes up and asks if I'm okay and relays messages between me and the gangster, like an interpeter. "He says he's going to kill you," she informs me. I think I got up and begged him not to kill me and said I respect him, and then we hugged and he let me go.

I'm walking through the isles and see a group of people from my highschool who are saying they are going to get them back for what they just did. About 4 redheads walk by me, and I wonder if this is a Redhead vs Black gangster battle. I go up some stairs and try to look for a weapon, but mostly I just am too afraid to go back to fighting. I see a desk and look through it and fight knives and short swords. I unsheath them and think they'll be good for close combat but I really need a gun instead. I go back to the stairs and see a yellow lab like my old dog, and my father who asks me why I am not outside fighting. I am way too afraid is what I'm thinking but don't say.

Postsleep thoughts
Reality Check confirms I'm awake. I was surprised how real the emotions were in the dream. The fear was very real. Too bad I didn't realize that it was odd that berryfarms would fight, or that a walmart would be inside a barn. I'll look over MILD class notes and see what else there is to try.

I think this morning I had my very first real conscious experience with OBE.
I think it happened to me before, but I wasn't really aware of how it started.
But really early this morning I woke up briefly in my bed from a lucid dream and as I started to plunge back into sleep, I heard a little buzz announcing sleep paralysis settling in. Two thoughts came to my mind: either I'd go with the flow or I'd move my hand a little bit to stop it, because I really don't like it and usually it doesn't take me anywhere anyway.
I tried to move my hand, but so very little that it wouldn't actually interrupt my falling asleep, just the SP noises. As I did it, I felt like my left hand was indeed made of two hands, the physical one and a ghost-like hand. Always with my eyes closed, I focused on the ghost-hand feeling and soon I started to see my hand, my bed and the wall in front of me, although I kept my eyes closed. My body did enter sleep paralysis but I wasn't really asleep either. I decided to move my ghost-hand and I saw it separating from my physical hand. It was cool!
Then I decided to get up, the whole body. I was lying sideways on the bed, over my left shoulder. So I tried to lift my ghostly head and left shoulder. Then "bam": I felt my "ghost" body separating from my physical body. It occurred to me it was an OBE.
Excitement was taken over by vertigo, nausea and an extremely uncomfortable feeling. I felt like I was leaving my body and as an effect I was dying. Dying would be ok for me: I wasn't feeling any particular attachment to this body and this life. But then I remembered my mom who was sleeping as a guest on the living room and how much pain she and other people who love me would feel if I simply left. So, afraid of continuing with the process and not being able to come back, I laid down again, merged my two bodies and simply entered the sleep and lucid dream state.
Later when I woke up I felt a bit stupid, because rumor has it that nobody really dies from OBE. But at that moment I wasn't so sure! It felt really real that I could die, but I know it's silly, so next time I'll try to go ahead with it.

Well i dont remember the dreams that good..
what i remember is...

there was 2-3 girls 3-4 guys my brother and me.

those guys were from cyprus and some from germany...


so they wanted weed....
i had to go and buy... cus have contacts.

i went i bought like 3-4Grams then we meet and i think i gave to someone that pack of weed and he droped it down
then everyone was scared of osmething... my brother said i go home and when u come i will kick ur ass
rofl...
the girl was screaming at me idk for what reasons

then someone picked up the weed we screamed "hey leave that ganja leave that ganja there"
then my friend picked it up
and half people went home or something and i was with 1 friend and 2 girls and we were walking to a place to smoke...

but i sleeped to much so i woke up after that


damn weird ... i wanted to LD tonight.

Recalled 3 fragments from 3 different dreams. It's amazing how I recalled them.

Fragment I: I remember me studying for my Bar Mitzva (In my files it says i'm a Jew , but I don't belive in God so i'm an Atheist ) but I forgot to bring my Tefilin (something Jewish.). I recalled it when I saw my Tefilin in the closet.

Fragment II:This one's really short , even for a fragment. The only thing I remember is that it had something to do with the kitchen & food.

Fragment III:I remember something with a line of jocks walking outside at night yelling "Allah!" (not the muslim kind of Allah. The kind of Allah you shout to inspire.)

Not much but hey , its 3 dreams!

I am in some church with a friend of mine. I am now sure who it is. Someone is looking for us there, and we are hiding. Then some architect comes there and starts checking everything. He checks curtains also. It looks all very suspicious.
I am in some cooking course in some camp. There are some two Filipino guys presenting the cooking and I am surprised that they speak German. We talk about cooking.

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[color=violet]Another icyjumping dream, should spend less time playing :/[/color]
[color=blue]I am playing and leet a level. The next one is harder and suddenly two DC's avatars show up. They both look like a mix of airplanes and cars, with many different colors. I can hear them talking at there homes. Finally I get the jump and go back where I leeted from.
~•~
The two DCs show me how they gain extremely much speed. I amn't even in the game anymore, I am more like a spectator now, I float around.[/color]
[color=violet]During the whole dream I hadn't got a body, I was just floating.[/color][/center]

I was quite oddly in my house with no shoes on. My house was usual in color and furniture. Mom asked me to take the trash out, I opened the front door and saw the neighbor's car pulling out of the drive way, he was to my right. To my left the tree that was normally there was gone. I jumped down and felt the falling impact from porch to rough pavement on my feet. It felt odd to not wear shoes, very odd. I wondered if anyone would notice. The dumpster was in the middle of the driveway instead of by the car. I walked up and put the trash in. The dream ended.

Good morning, everybody. My sensation of the first dream wasn't quite like any other dream sensation I've had, although the dream itself seems kind of usual.

I had the dream in something close to a waking state. Upon "coming to" and realizing the dreamlike quality of the perception, I could feel the "dream," as if it were sticking to the back of my head.

I took NyQuil last night, as I've had the flu. I think I've had a similar "back of the head" sensation after taking NyQuil in the past. But not the weird "awake dreaming" sensation.

This may partly be because of the book I'm reading, The Measure of Madness, which includes stories of people who committed crimes due to hallucinations or delusions.

I've wondered how a delusion or hallucination would feel different from a dream. I think my brain was trying to accommodate me to some degree by showing me an "awake dream."

Dream #1

I was in some kind of restaurant that looked like it was part of Lever House. There were glass walls on my left side, showing mild daylight. The floors were stoner or concrete. Something about it now feels to me like the lobby of the UN as well.

I sat at a table with someone like my boss. I was told that the reports I had put together provided weird instructions. The result was that people ended up making a weird structure. The structure was now behind me.

I now stood at the back end of the structure, looking along it. It was a weird sculpture made of black iron or some kind of black-painted metal. The metal was made to have the rounded shapes of things like cartoon trees and shrubs. But it was all featureless and black, and it was all tilted 45 degrees on its side. There was also some kind of garbage all over the place, like white packing-styrofome sheets.

Dream #2

I was out in the city very late at night with a group of rich people. The people were all a little bit older than I. There was one pretty girl. The people all felt a lot classier than I.

We were walking near my office. We might all actually have been heading to my office. At least I was. It was like I had to go to work.

As we walked down a side street, some apparently random guy got in my way. He was tall, pale, and white, with a short, red beard. He was slightly overweight. He wore dark jeans, a long-sleeved, striped t-shirt, and a baseball cap. The shirt and cap were some kind of dull green-brown.

The man would walk really close in front of me, slowing me down. I would try to get out of his way, but he would move back into my way. I would try to slow down, hoping he'd just forget about me. But he would walk a certain distance ahead, then constantly look back at me over his shoulder.

The group of people were about 10 meters behind me. They were talking and laughing. I realized they knew this guy, and that they found the game he was playing on me kind of amusing.

I knew the guy was "reverse following" me. I didn't want him to know where my office was. I arrived on the corner with my office. I needed to turn left to get there. The man had already turned left. So I turned right and walked a ways. Then I turned back around and headed to my office. But when I got to my office, I saw the man standing right in the revolving door, waiting for me, staring at me.

I actually recalled a dream, and it was a long one, but I didn't have my journal with me, since I didn't sleep at home, so I couldn't write it down, and I didn't want to wake my girlfriend to go get a paper. And now I don't remember any of it. Bad luck! I'll go to sleep early today and set my clock to wake me up 3 times! No way I won't recall any dreams tomorrow!

Jacob.

I actually recalled a dream, and it was a long one, but I didn't have my journal with me, since I didn't sleep at home, so I couldn't write it down, and I didn't want to wake my girlfriend to go get a paper. And now I don't remember any of it. Bad luck! I'll go to sleep early today and set my clock to wake me up 3 times! No way I won't recall any dreams tomorrow!

Jacob.

I'm with M in a mom and pop type store... The store is closing down for good and there are a lot of people there. Its some kind of crafty place.. like knitting or something like that. The owner is an old lady who is sitting near where I am. When she sees a lot of people she says something about maybe not having to close after all. I see a sign that says "closing due to 10 years of loneliness" and I think its so sad so I tell M. I try to whisper something to the lady but she can't hear me. I try a bunch of times but she just can't hear what I'm saying. Then M and I leave and we have two cars...a smaller car and a Jeep wrangler. He gets in the smaller car and drives away and I am in the Jeep. I start to panic because I can't drive stick and I'm trying to call him to switch cars. We get to a stop light and he seems kind of annoyed, but I am able to brake (I wasn't in the front seat, I was in the back so I had to kinda dive forward). Then we are driving by this dirt trail that's blocked off to "Muslim Hikers" random. I feel kind of sad because its my birthday and no one remembered, not even my mom. Then I get a text from older brother J.

...

I'm at my junior high school walking around by the street. I see DM again (weird! 2 nights in a row!). I want to see what he's doing so I kind of try to be near him without being too obvious. He's with some other guys and they invite me to go along with them. I say yes but for some reason was never able to leave.

I read on this forum somewhere that going to bed hungry or thirsty can improve dreaming. I was really hungry when I went to sleep, and I can definitely confirm that my dreaming was very clear, vivid, and realistic. Unfortunately no lucidity though.

We move into a small flat but it feels to be like it's only a temporary arrangement because I am still actively looking for a better one. I think this is partly to do with the fact that it's haunted, mostly the shower. I hear that the one across the hall is becoming free, and I happen to catch the end of a flat viewing in action. The realtor is a man with dark hair, eyes and Mediterranean looking skin, dressed in an expensive looking grey silk suit. The realtor asks if I was one of the persons registered to look at the flat, and checks his list. My name is on it. I am relieved because I don't remember registering.

He tells me this flat will go fast and leads me in through the door. I am struck immediately by three things, one by how huge and spacious the flat is, how oddly decorated (wood panel everywhere but modern looking) and also by how the realtor tries to molest me as soon as we get in the door. I push him off, no longer disturbed, now eager to take some video of the flat on my iPhone for my man to look at later. The realtor seems to imply that he will favour my application if I do him some favours. I push him away again, and begin my tour of the flat.

It's almost like the walls are made of what looks to be the inside of a cave, together with the modern dark wood panel on most of it as well as the floors. It's beautiful. We go downstairs and it's more cave like, with stalactites and everything, but they are subtle and look very much like they fit to the flat. I ask how many kids the previous tenants have and he tells me they have 5, with one on the way. He tells me he wants the baby.

We arrive at a kind of in flat delicatessen store. There are a few people milling around in there, one middle aged man stops to talk to me as I finish up the video. My son is being a bit of a brat and the man suddenly smacks his head against the wall as if to punish him. I'm horrified at this stranger's cruelty towards my son, and I proceed to flip out on him. The realtor reveals that the man is not only the current tenant, but also his brother, and I should go easy on him. The blow out passes and I dreamskip to asking how much the rent is on the flat. The realtor tells me it's 549 warm. I don't bother to fill out an application because it's too expensive for us.

I leave to go home to deal with my haunted shower.

I haven't posted in a while, and I haven't even dreamed in a while due to stress...

Anyway, this morning I was lucid for the first time. I reached lucidity as I was walking about my house. I walked into my bathroom (more of a shower room, no toilet, anyway...) and looked in the mirror and say I was cleanshaven. As I was stroking my chin and neck I felt bristeld and wondered where my beard went and it kept 'fluctuating'.

It was then that I realised (and was excited) , but I knew I had to be careful and not wake up. I involuntarily leanead against the wall and was very away that it was like my matress.

I had control over myself an I knew I was dreaming. Maybe what I did next wasn't the best advised thing to keep dreaming - I tried to change my dream world but after half a dream-minute or so I was awakw...

Still a pretty cool experience though.

Dream Journal #9 May 10th, 2011

Remember two dreams, although I know I had more lol. Woke up couple of times last night at around 2:00 and 4:00 am.

First dream was me smoking out with ralph and paolo. We were in my room, and I was like DUDE watch this spongebob episode. We all eventually KO’ed, and I as I “reawakened” I saw that paolo had left chicken nugget crumbs ALL over my bed. I woke his ass up and told him to clean it but he wouldn’t, so I got way pissed at him.

Dream fragment: I remember dreaming about hero and my brother.

Second dream was me giving a speech on something lol. All I know is that there were a lot of koreans, and a lot of koreans gave speeches also. When it was my turn to speak, everybody loved me.

Seriously. I'm making a note here, HUGE SUCCESS.
Last week I got lucids too, and lately dreams are being VERY vivid.


Lucid Non-Lucid Awake
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It was a sunny day (or night, hehe). I could feel the caracteristic heat of summer. I was at my highschool (which wasn't really my RL highschool), I was going home, just like everyone else. We all had come from a school trip or something. We were going down a small flight of stairs and we pushed each other. One of my friends almost fell and he yelled at me angrily . We seemed to be in a town near the beach that's nearby to my RL home. The beach-zone was to my right and in front of me were some cliffs, with the sea at the other side. To my left were some white buildings akin to the new "Cultural Centre" they built in my town. I went to the right towards my home (¿?) The place down there was familiar to me, I think it had appeared in another dream. There was some grass and some natural pools. There were also some strange natural bridges like 0.5 mt across which went up to the cliff. My friends and I raced towards the bridges (they were only wearing swimsuits now). I got first. I climbed up and they attempted to throw me off by breaking the bridge. I jumped and held onto the cliff-thing when the brindge fell apart. I got up and walked along the edge of the cliff. At some point I lost balance or something and I fell off, down into the pools. The fall was TREMENDOUSLY HUGE. As I fell, I thought: "Hey, this must be a dream. This wouldn't happen in real life" The dream started to fade, and ended with the splash of the water when I fell. I was very excited when I woke up, it was my first day of trying ADA and I got lucid! Hell yeah.