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Since two weeks, I have been experiencing a severe dry spell - no recall, WILD fails.
Nothing noteworthy to write here, although I've been filling my paper DJ with fragments.
This morning I finally manage to break the dry spell with one ND and two LDs

26-Nov-2016 - 1ND + Long WILD Minecraft, Office, Gold pot, Tower + DILD Bike, Summon and repel Demon

ND - X-rated, not going to post anything

WILD - Minecraft, Office, Gold pot, Ask help to take the tower
5:30AM, ~1hr

It takes me a long time (est. 15-20 mins) and a lot of visualization to finally manage entering a proper LD

I wander in Minecraft-looking environments. I also ride a horse and touch its mane. I walk through offices, meet and talk with people, both known and unknown, experience many scenery changes.
At one time, while outside, I decide flying upwards, and it works very well, I feel light, and shiver because of the pleasant flying sensation.

After that, I decide to try some dv tasks. First one that comes to my mind is the Leprechaun / gold pot TotY.
I had already attempted it yesterday on a short WILD - saw a rainbow jumping from cloud to cloud. Work alarm broke the LD.

I see the rainbow ending behind a small grassy hill, walk upwards, and see its end on the ground, in a plain before some trees (again, kinda Minecraft-looking)

I reach it, no-one is around. I summon a shovel and start digging. After I remove some grass, I see parts of a black metal pot with gold coins inside. I remove some more dirt and the Leprechaun appears from the trees. It's very small, perhaps <50cms, dressed in green, with a green pointy hat, and a white pointy beard.

When he sees what I'm doing, he jumps, bites my arm, and stays there, hanging by its jaw. Oh well...
I punch it hard with the other hand, making it fly few meters away.
Then, to avoid its next attack, I turn around with my hand open, and summong a fire ring around me and the pot.
I keep spinning slowly, rising the flames around me higher and higher, until they are as high as me. The flames are wonderfully convincing.

I finish the digging, and reach for the pot's handle.
When I try to pick it up, it's very heavy and I do not manage to raise it. I try again, pulling it with more strength and I manage to pick it up.

Then, holding the pot full of gold with both hands, I fly up from the ring of fire. I glimpse down to see the Leprechaun looking angry at me, but impotent.

I reach the top floor of my tower, climb down the ladder and reach the main floor. I drop the pot on the floor. Mission accomplished !

<JUMP>

At the office once again, but now I am more in control, in a stable dreamworld.
I am talking with M, a colleague. My awareness sharply rises, and I ask her to accompany me in some dream adventures, she accepts.
I use my favorite method for exiting the office, phasing through the glass and then walking on air.

Mindful about tasks again, I ask M if she wants to help with some J1kM missions, she's ok with that.
I tell her I heard there is a dangerous tower nearby: a madman is shooting arrows at anyone daring to get close, let's go and take a look from a safe viewpoint.

From behind some trees, we see the tower: it's made out of grey stone bricks, a bearded man at its top. Somehow he sees us, and shoots some arrows in our direction. A couple of them pass really close to me, I can hear the zip of air !

I am wondering how to solve the situation, but unfortunately my recall fades at this point.

<JUMP>

After a bit, I wake up, it's 6:30AM

ND -> DILD - Bike, Summon and repel Demon
~7:00AM, ~20min

ND: I am riding a bike, my shoelace is getting tangled in the pedal. I recognize I am dreaming without the need for a RC
DILD: I keep slowly riding the bike, it's a narrow road, with hedges and low houses on both sides.
I look at the handle, my feet, knees, everything it's very vivid.
Both my children appear to my left side, walking and running alongside my bike.
I turn right, then right again.

Riding is nice, but I think about some tasks - the dv Demon Lord fight
I reach a small alcove surrounded by high hedges / bushes.
I open a small iron gate to one side, and ask my kids to stay there, since I am going to do something dangerous.
They want to see what happens, I ask them to look from behind the fenced part on top of the gate, but they are too eager to stay with me, so I send them home.

I stand in the middle of the square, because of the high vegetation, it's kinda dark here.
Using a long wooden stick, I trace a circle on the ground. Then I start drawing an inscribed star, to build a pentacle.
I genuinely feel I am doing something dangerous here.
While drawing the star's lines, I look up and see an orange demon face above me, I am scared, but a closer look reveals it's a metal water pipe joint.

I finish drawing the line, the pentacle is not visible on the ground, but I know something is going to happen.
I unsheathe my sword, sheathe again, take the bow and drop it again, realizing it's too cramped for those weapons.
I start summoning fire in both my hands, see hands' tips become orange, and feel the heat and pressure build up.
Smooke and orange light appear inside the pentacle. I feel very willing and eager to fight.
I fold my arms backward, with my hands still fiery.

The demon appears inside the pentacle. It's taller than me, dark brown, with curved horns.
It has fire in its hands as well, suggesting it's using an attack similar to mine. We clash our fire hands together. It's a violent strike for both of us. I smash my open hand in the middle of its chest, it staggers back. It hits me back, I fall to the ground.
Then it grabs me by my shoulder, and I say "Hey it's hot !". I hit it again with fire.

Soon after, it becomes a normal man, a woman joins in. I look at his face, he's a middle-aged, grey hair man wearing a light gray suit. He starts discussing about women / seduction. Dream fades quickly after that.

I wake up at 7:45 AM

I did a morning nap today, but I wasn't really used to it and I was a bit sleepy, so I didn't recall much. I had a series of dream fragments which were pleasant, though.

There was something about me and some people playing some kind of Gmod map, it was dark and we were roaming around a city at night. Presumably, it was a death match but we were all pretty chill about it until I climed up a wall and challenged everyone to mob me. I don't remember killing anyone but I don't remember anyone killing me either.

The other fragment I remembered was that I was a... ninja? samurai? With a blade made by Muramasa, and of course it's evil etc. etc. My dream was set in the future, perhaps in Overwatch's setting. I have a romantic subplot with a girl, and I have several run-ins with the law.

I'm sitting on a bus driving through some mountainous areas, behind me there is seated a couple. The girl is telling the boy how she didn't always look this "attractive", before she wore thick glasses and had braces. Telling him about a place called Paradise Falls. About how she never understood the name before she got her glasses, and could finally see how beautiful everything was. That she actually miss that time, and those glasses. She currently got some glasses that looked similar, but they're not quite the same. Not the same soul to them.

I drift off, visualizing this place of mystic beauty, and begin thinking about some of my female friends that i had a better connection with before. Then i realize i have experienced this place before, in some way. I feel a wave of energy rush through me. Suddenly I'm no longer in a bus, but walking on a path in the forest of Paradise Falls. I feel the pulse rising, what the hell is happening. I continue walking, but the path disappears. I feel lost.

The trees are starting to look blurry and loosing their shape. I think to myself "No, now I'm doing this." Things are still fading away, it feels like I'm awakening. I sharpen my intention, and yell of all my strength "I WANT CLARITY!" It worked, I did it. I'm back in. Now another challenge appears, the scare of knowing that the dream "reads" my every though. Small gnomish trolls starts popping up everywhere, but i focus on truly believing that I'm the one in control here and the trolls dissipates.

I'm not sure i have "achieved" full lucidity, so i decide that now i need to really break some barriers. The forrest is dimming away and the color is graying, I'm fading and know that i have to be more confident for this to work. I again demand clarity, then i need to figure how to reinforce my lucidity. "I decide what's possible here and not". So i walk down to the shore, I begin to take a step onto the surface of the water. Jesus style. A split second before my foot hits it, i have a moment of doubt. This was enough to instead of making me walk the water like some demi-god, plunge headfirst into the lake. "Are you kidding me??" I'm thinking, as (and this was far from intentional) I start to rise up from the water and realize I'm actually flying. I laugh to myself a moment at how my mind have a weird way of working, then i take conscious control of the flying and soar to the skies.

Everything is so clear and vivid, and i really feel Paradise Falls to be a fitting name for this place. It feels like it's actually my backpack doing the levitating, as i feel the straps tighten around my shoulders. Then trying to visualize some wings, unsuccessfully.

Now i'm almost just flying on autopilot, like a bird i glide through the valley. Then i remember "I can't get too entrance by the beauty of it all, that's how i usually loose my lucidity." I fly down to a little white cabin, the door is locked so i think to myself that this memory must be a bit corrupt since i can't get inside (still believing i have been here before, but never in my waking life as i can remember). I see a crow up on the roof and head up to greet it. I decide that i want to try something with this black bird, and suddenly it's size changes to that of a butterfly (same with the lift-off, not an conscious decision and i realize this is my subconscious filling in where i lack the intention).

Every spot the crow touches on the cabin starts turning black as a wet paper would with the touch of an paintbrush with some black watercolor. I start to feel entranced again and decide i need to try something new, I make a leap to fly down to the ground. Like a cartoon character hanging in the air for a moment, suddenly I can't fly anymore and fall to the ground. Luckily i maintain the dream although i got a little stomach tingle from the jump.

I walk into the cabin, it's unlocked now. Trying to figure out what to try, and ended on elemental magic. More specifically flame-conjuring, something I'm somewhat successful in doing but can't seem to get 100% control of the looks and behavior of the flame.

Suddenly I'm pulled out of the dream, and kinda puzzled i feel that i have to go to the bathroom so bad that i can barely get down keywords of the dream (before i start getting out of bed and forgetting).
This dream felt like the real breakthrough i have been wanting for some while now, having the possibility to test out some ideas I've had for a while, and realizing that it's a lack of confidence limiting my lucid dreaming. Ironically all my reading about beginners-limits, is the real limit. Free your mind.

I woke myself up in the middle of the night to do WBTB, but I have trouble recalling my previous dream. It had something to do with slicing a pumpkin, I think?

I was having a very happy time in a deep LD, but it was early in the night and I can not recall much of it. So, if anyone says you can remember lucids as if you were awake, must not experience the same things I do. It had a very artistic feel and I was traing with transforming objects by putting my hands on them and then watching as my will morphs the item. The only part truly worth reporting is a part where the object I was morphing became white power in the shape of a large log. I did not make that happen. The energy that is glowing has an amazing feel. I could put my hands out like you would warming your hands and I could feel something coming off of it.

Vacation
I'm in a vacation house / bungalow kinda thing. There's a toilet a few metres away from the front door. The toilet is out in the open and I'm using it. People keep walking by. To poop like this is one thing, but it's gonna be really weird to clean my butt with other people around. The water level is high, causing the area to be flooded. I'm still sitting on the toilet, but I'll have a floating turd issue later. Eventually I have a conversation while still on the toilet. Someone tells me about a job that he has found for a friend of mine. The job comes with housing and variable pay, depending on performance. The guy asks me if I know what that means and I say I do. He hands me a sheet of paper, maybe 2, with info on it. I take it, trying to keep it dry. I finish up on the toilet and don't even wash my butt. I'm in the water anyways. Floating turd. I try to push the water in a direction away from everyone. There's a little girl with her mom present.

I enter the house and smell sausage. I walk into the kitchen and look around. For some reason I'm checking to see if all the stoves are off. Two of them are not. I turn them both off. More people enter the kitchen and I casually mention it to one guy, who becomes pissed off at 2 guys. He gives them a warning card. One more and they're out. Didn't I get one of those earlier on? I kinda dismissed it. Who is this guy to think that he can kick people out?

There's a brown paper bag with bread in it and a mouse/rat. I take the bag, wanting to put it somewhere far away so that the mouse/rat won't bother us. I start walking away from the house. I'm careful of how I hold the bag, grabbing it lightly with my left hand. I don't want to get bitten, cause I might contract diseases. Eventually the mouse/rat almost escapes, so I just chuck the bag away.

Visa
I have left Indonesia and went back home to the Netherlands, together with my mom. Now I'm lying/sitting on an L shaped couch, when suddenly I realise I have a major issue. I didn't get stamped out of the country. That means I'll be slapped with an enormous overstay if I ever enter the country again. What are my options? Perhaps I can arrange it here? No, I think I need to go back to Indonesia and do so before my visa expires. I need to do it before the 18th of December. Daaamn this is going to be expensive. Right before Christmas too. Somewhere during all this, my friend San walks in and sits down on the couch. He asks me what's up and I tell him I'm kinda busy with figuring out this stamp thing. He asks me questions, but this is really not the moment for it. I'm flipping through my passport to find my latest visa and stamp. Some pages are semi see through, which they are not supposed to be. They have a blue colour. Their appearance is slightly similar to a MYR 1 bill, though darker blue.

Fragment
» I walk by a cupboard or something alike and see some pills for my friend Fer. It's her medication.

» I'm outside in the evening. I'm in a well known party street, I think on Bali. The place is deserted though. What the.. is it because it is a weekday? Nahh that shouldn't matter. Further down the road I do see something.

» My friend Fi asks me how I'm doing with the girls. I tell her nothing is going on.

Still no sleep for over 2 weeks now. I'm going non stop w/ cleaning & duties of all kinds that it is surreal. I had to wreck the grand kids room in my house cuz the Dish Network guy needed to go through that room & I had to move heavy shit for him cuz he was too fat to fit under my house. After which I could've saved time by not dealing w/ that aftermath of cleaning if only my daughters had told me the kids weren't even going to be here this year. I'm sorry but those installation guys need to fit in a fucking crawl space. Then yesterday I had some sort of emotional breakdown in the middle of making Thanksgiving dinner yesterday. I'm in so much pain, utterly exhausted, I'm sad my uncle just died, one of daughters didn't come & none of my grand kids came. I'm just fucking glad it's over. All of those who were there did understand though in the end & were grateful for all I did. Of course I get to do all of this again for Christmas, how exciting~ (eye roll) I'm still in so much pain I just can't explain it. I know I need another surgery but my last surgery from last December still isn't paid off. I'm not doing jack shit today. Okay, I'm done w/ my banter. Going back to watching tv & doing a whole lot of nothing.

I was driving my car to school. It was early morning, there was an unusually dense fog all around. I was driving carefully along a road in-between two villages. For some reason I sidetracked to a forest road and instead of driving through one village I drove all around it. I looked at the fuel meter and it was nearly empty. I wanted to take my phone and call parents to bring me some fuel, but battery of my phone was empty. Then my car turned into a lift powered by electricity. I drove some further.

I am in a musty old public house. There is an old storeroom that is boarded up below, we go down and I remove some of the boards covering the entrance and squeeze through. Inside I retrieve some bottles they contain a golden liquid also a bottle of wine which turns out to be very rare.

On holiday I am at water resort, it is made up of a series of swimming pools, some under cover some in the open air, connected by ladders and water shoots and troughs leading to different areas.
I am stopping on this level, even though older people, mainly woman are making there way up to higher levels I am feeling very weak and can hardly move. A small boy is wearing a big overcoat and I wear one too. We go to wear a blind girl with long dark hair cascading almost like a Medusa except she is beautiful, despite not being able to see her eyes.
I am then in a classroom which is very dark and full of fear as there are bullies there. I find out that the blind girl was blinded by them. In this world you can get away with hurting people as long as you do not kill them.
I am back in time to when the injury first happened and the girls is in a room. Her face is covered with wrapped bandages but her hair still cascades around. I sit in the room with her and read her books and talk to her to keep her company.

It begins at my old house. I've already been in this dream for an hour or so but it's mostly lost.

At my place, Chris has just decided to have a tinder girl over. I get cheesed cause of how shit my tinder game is, so I decide to do the one thing I never did at my childhood home. I sprinted upstairs, ripped open the window, and climbed out onto the roof. The roof was strange. It was soft and steeply angled so I could fall off. After sitting for a while I decided it was too strange to contiue doing. There was another one of thoses rare moments where I closed my eyes while turning around and the dream became entirely sensation based for a few seconds. I went downstairs and out the front door. I decided I would walk to the beach at Queens (does that exist) and just take the day off on the beach. I tried to teleport myself there but no luck.

As I walked down my childhood street I realized how amazingly vivid it all was. A pale blonde girl in a white car pulled up to the house next door and parked perpendicular, so strange. I told her she'll get towed and she didn't care at all. Must be Chris' girl.

The street was so beautiful. The trees once again pulled over the road, sheltering the place like one big cozy pavilion, an insulated time capsule where it all stood frozen. Every garden and yard was so lush, and the colours so vivid it was like a professional colour grade was happening in front of my eyes. As I approached the end of the street, my insanely hot neighbor came out. She was an absolute MILF, proabbly based off of visctorias secret angels, but rocking the mom jeans instead. She saw me and gestured around at how beautiful it all was and we started chatting about just how amazing this neighborhood is. She was enthralled with our chat and invited me in. Her house was absolutely incredible. All beautiful wood and massive high ceilings like a church. There were many floors all in one open concept, hard to explain. We walked through the house and then came upon the hot tub and abck deck. She looked at the tub, turned around, smiled, and said "Let's get drunk".

Fuck yes.

I fly downstairs and grab my bathing suit, I guess I've stayed here before. Kitty is chilling on the stairs back up, and I start petting the shit out of him since I haven't seen the little guy for a long time. I woke up petting my cat. Comfy dream.

Achieved a lucid dream via SSILD and an internal mantra of "I will have a lucid dream". Ended finding the dream character I was looking for in the description that I imagined/expected and hugged her tight. Didn't have the joy of completion that I would have liked but better than another failure.

After that, I don't remember what else that happened in the dream. On a side note, finding things to do in a dream is a bit difficult because there are so many things to do yet I only get one delicate opportunity every 24 hours to try and achieve that goal.

This is not a dream but something memorable that I wanted to note in here. This morning I told my friend I was on my way to go run and "soar like and eagle". My husband leaves 20 minutes before me to walk and I try to catch him. I caught up to him and walked with him for a little bit and for some reason I decided he can keep walking and I was going to run around this big baseball field and try to catch him again. He went straight and I turned left. As I was running around this field I noticed an eagles nest with an eagle in it and I was watching it and then turned right to make my way around the field, as I was running down that street something occurred to me to look to my right and as I looked to my right up in the air only about 20 feet came a huge soaring eagle with tree branches in his talons and flew right toward me. I felt a connection to it and immediately rememberer my comment that I was going to "soar like and eagle" as I watched him go over me he dropped one branch that fell right in front of me, and carried the rest up and over to the nest. It felt so dream like AMAZING!!! I feel so charged right now!

There seems to be a fine line between dreams and reality. I am really noticing a lot of similarities in my dream/real life. I look forward to what is next.

Lots of dreams all night long.

+ fighting on a river with a bad guy lobbing "magic?" balls at me

+ yoda overpowers bad thing and traps it in a rock structure and starts crushing the rocks, he stops because he feels bad. I see the (alligator?) evil thing emerge from the rocks

+ little odd beasts rolling on the floor, kicking a tiny "ball" around, for them this invents soccer, I think

+ ping pong [DREAM SIGN] tournament: the net is too high/tall, it's specialized, they are playing with strong spin. I think if I practice this I could play with strong spin, too, and surprise the people who used to beat me

+ in a cage/cell, there are evil black dogs there pulling people out. The dogs or the people when pulled out start to come uravelled like they're made from stacked frames of metal. If you refuse to go out with the dogs, the alternative is that you will have your feet impaled with long iron hot spikes and it will hurt a lot.

+ in the back of a car with girls travelling up the hills to CH, I'm having semi-lucid thoughts, thoughts about dreaming [faceplant!]. Arrive home, there's lots of pizza [DREAM SIGN] around to eat, my wife takes a bite with my fork, I pull my fork back a bit too forcefully/impatiently from her and I think she'll get mad but doesn't.

+ driving on snowy roads, pulling into a forest clearing where a party is happening, rough/tough guys are gathered around and are toasting someone with lots of shots.

+ [fully vivid (awareness, visuals, tactile), long, stable] Walking through corridors with oddly slanted floors, around corners. End up in a room with a girl in bed and ST ensues. She's naked & lying on the bed, I'm kneeling at her head, and I start a long, slow, stable, erotic oral trip from her head and slowly work my way down to her (ahem) and spend some time there. Then I notice that the door to the room is open and there's a girl in the next bedroom (white/blonde hair) just staring at us. I say "I'm sorry, I need to get up and close the door". The peeping Jane doesn't want the door to close, she opens it and now she's sitting at a desk just outside the door to the room. I get angry and go speak to her firmly saying "I'll come talk to you when we're done, but for now LEAVE US ALONE!" and return to the ST girl. She's now fully dressed and wants me to continue, I want to protest and say "but the view is part of the fun!". I say it's time for me to get some attention. The ST girl goes to take a shower. I realize I can't recall taking a shower, I may have a stinky butt & (ahem) so I'd better go take a shower, too. On my way out of the room I spy my things strewn about on the floor and I realize I can't remember where my instrument case is, do I need to go find it? I walk through the oddly slanting and narrow corridors, but all the bathrooms are busy. I come to one room and there's an odd woman there I open the door look in it's not a traditional shower more of a sauna and I go in with quick views of that woman again and I'm trying to wash my butt and I'm digging around in there and I pull out chunks of the typical stuff there and it's really sticky and I'm trying to wash it off of my hands and I'm having a hard time doing that. In the meanwhile there are two girls outside the door which has a window in it not providing for any privacy and I'm now trying to wash my (ahem) but it feels really odd like it's swollen in a strange/bad way and I look down and it does not look or feel familiar: some parts are too large and some parts are too small.

I'm trying to get back to the room and the ST girl so we can continue. I can't find the way back. I'm back outside again in a snowy environment and now I'm walking on top of a snowy hill and I see dad's with kids and the dad's are working with shovels to shape the really hard-packed icy snow into a nice trail for their kids to sled down. I walk around the lip of this hill and find myself drifting backwards through the air, I expect at any moment to hit a tree. Some kids are talking with their dad asking "Will the snow still be here when we get back from Paris?". I'm then standing/climbing up a mountain of toys (hockey games?) which are slipping out from under me as I climb, I catch a glimpse and I realize I'm at a particular intersection of streets a few miles from my CH, I catch a brief glipmse of a park [FALSE] below me down the street. There are some girls here lying down and I goose them a bit and lie on them but I'm focusing on getting back to my beloved original ST girl.

Back in the ST girl hallway again there are people walking past me. One of them I think is her, I can't tell for sure, I look at her face and it's partially familiar, she notices me but walks past me, I take hold of her right arm and turn her towards me and ask, "is it you?" She indicates yes, but says (as means of explanation of why we can't be together), something like "(there is?) a husband". I say "Oh," disappointed, and let her go. I look at her hands as she leaves and I don't see a ring. I realize she probably is referring to the fact that I'm married and I feel a bit guilty.

1. We had some kind of party for work and it was at a lake in the early evening and it was already starting to get dark. I was was wandering around looking for where I was supposed to go to my party and I was alone and in heels walking with my heels sinking in the grass wishing I had sandals when I looked down at the ground sandals appeared and I slid my feet into them and they fit perfectly, and they were cute :-). I heard someone screaming and crying on the other side of the lake and looked over and saw an ambulance lights. A man walked by me and saw me looking and told me a little boy had just drowned over there...my heart sank and being I lost my grandson to drowning I just felt this horrible sensation and wanted to leave when I realized this is a dream and I needed to continue, this would be moving past this nightmare.... I continued on and found my party. I am shy and not big into parties and I am there alone. Not sure why I am there so I asked why am I here? I didn't get an answer but a guy who retired from my work a year ago who I barely knew walked up to me and asked if I needed someone to hang out with because I looked so uncomfortable. I looked closely at his face and it was him but his eyes were not his eyes. These eyes were familiar to me and suddenly this sense of peace came over me. I could feel the love pouring out of him and I got all tingly. Then when we were standing along the lake watching fireworks the man was standing in front of me and he was now my size and I could only see the back of his head, I pulled myself up close to him and just wrapped my arms around him and held him from behind. Great moment.
2. I had this short clip where I had this long electrical cord and I was untangling all of the knots. I was giggling saying story of my life lol.

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