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Non-lucid: I was at Crazy Daisy's' (AKA my living grandmother that is not a nice human being). But it wasn't really her old house I knew as a kid but it did have the lucheonette type of counter she had. My mom was trying to get me to talk to her & my dad & sisters too. My aunt Jill was taking up for her which almost created a whole other element of crazy going on. I wasn't having any of it. Then at some point it morphed into me needing a dress to go to a family event starring Crazy Daisy. Jill was telling me I had to buy the dress & I wanted to borrow it & bring it back. It was all stupid crap.

Gearing up for Labor Day weekend. I'm hoping for sun all 3 days so we can pool it up!

I'm in an airport. I believe it's supposed to be London. I'm going through the security checks right now. I walk through an area, unsure of where exactly to go. There are barely any people. There's different checks for citizens of different countries. I'm not to sure which one is for EU citizens. In my mind I have a British passport. I finally pick where to go and am submitted to another check. I realise then that I need my passport for this check, which is in my bag. I rummage through the pockets of my clothing, pretending to be looking for it, when a display shows that they already have my passport. I am asked to sit off to the side with a white, male security employee. Of course I am. I always am. I lay down on something. I feel as if I'm at a psychologist on the couch. The guy starts talking and asking me questions. He explains that they're just gonna check if I'm really the person who I claim to be. He starts with my birthdate. "So your birthday is on the 20th of December?". No it's not. I give him my real birthdate. I realise this is a check. Why not just take my fingerprints? He continues talking to me and I reply. They're stupid questions and I realise it's more about how nervous I react to being interviewed than anything else. I stay calm, as I'm totally legit. He's carefully paying attention to my speech and asks me to speak up and be really loud. I reply along the lines of: ah of course, if I speak louder you can more easily hear the trembling and such in my voice. I have half a mind to continue talking softly. My explanation for my soft talking would be that I've lived in Indonesia, where people talk softly.

01.09.2016

(DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Pretty sure this was all one dream and it just changed scenes often. I woke up from it an hour before my alarm was set, so I just wrote down a few notes on my phone hoping i'd remember the little details later.

I was at Bestbuy with my parents. I was looking for a screen protector for my iPad. The layout of the store was a bit odd; things were organized by shape as opposed to by departments. I found what I was looking for in the “Square Department” and went to pay. The store was closing in 3 minutes. My mom went to the cashier and started complaining about something. The three minutes went past and the cashier told me I could no longer buy the item and had to get out of the store. I was mad at my mom because I would have to come back the next day.

I was living in res at the University where I just finished my anatomy class. I was hanging out with Pau and a friend of hers. We went to the gym. To get there we had to go through an underground tunnel, and then we reached an underground cave. The gym was inside the cave; there were hot springs, sauna rooms, showers, and exercise machines; all in a natural cave. I was taking a shower and was trying to cover up as it was all in one common area. There were a few girls showering a few feet away and I tried not to stare. I imagined this is what res life would be like.

I worked out and went back home. It was a huge house with a big backyard. I was living with Koji, Fil, my gf, and a few other people. We heard a disturbance outside. I went outside and there were people gathered there. They were looking for one of the guys who lived at the house. They were part of a racist sect and they were there to kill him because he was black. I started yelling at them; I couldn’t comprehend why they were doing this. I was ready to start fighting them when hundreds of people started running towards us. They were running away from a horde of zombies. I got my gf and we started running. We went through a cave, the cave lead to the beach where there was a pirate ship anchored, waiting for us. We swam towards it, boarded, and left. About 30 people were able to get on as well.

I found myself standing on the edge of an infinity pool; the pool had a waterfall and fountains built in. It over looked the ocean, and at the bottom there was a natural hot spring/inkpot; it kinda looked like Niagara Falls. I took a few steps back to grab impulse and then ran towards the cliff to dive into the pothole at the bottom. As soon as I jumped, I realized I miscalculated and would hit a rock, but I stopped myself mid-air.



I was floating and realized I was dreaming. I flew up and went to where my gf Carolina was standing by the pool. I picked her up smiling, and told her we were dreaming. She seemed confused and kissed me. One thing led to another and we ended up having sex in the pool. I grabbed her and took her flying by the coast. We arrived at a beach and just laid on the sand for a bit. I then went flying over the water again by myself and looked at Carolina. I wondered if this was a DILD or a WILD, my memory was bit fussy and I couldn’t tell. I focused on the spot right behind Carolina and teleported there. She turned around amazed and I laughed. I grabbed a ball and decided to show off by throwing it against the water so it bounced off the water high into the air and then flew after it. I caught the ball in the air and kept flying; I then realized Martin was following me; he wanted to take away the ball. I flew as fast as I could and took away his flying powers. We went back to the beach and ate sushi; my brother joined us. One of the rolls we were eating was tempura and had a spicy avocado sauce and it was the most delicious thing I ever had.

I'm walking toward a sliding glass door in what appears to be the main house on M Street. My awareness begins to raise as I feel 'I've been in this state before...'. I look at the sliding glass door more closely as I approach and see a mist with a greenish hue in the scenery beyond and become lucid lucid at this time. I walk right up to the glass and decide to walk right through it into the yard area. It's darker than usual at night time, and I don't want to waste too much time in this area. I want to get to some dream goals, but want to move to the front first. I consider either going around the house or flying over. I look up and want to do a quick flight over the roof. I begin flying upward quickly while spinning in a couple quick 360 degree rotations. I soon wake up.

(This may be a repost, my previous entry does not to appear to have posted though)

After weeks, maybe months of no Lucid activity finally one has shown up once more. It was basically an accidental WILD.

So I fall asleep and am immediately brought into the dream world lucid. I am sitting cross-legged in a grass field that has been well kept/mowed. The grass is a dark but vibrant green. There is a heavy overcast causing the whole dream to look like a dark cloudy day. I am not aware of the far surroundings. As I sit cross-legged, I also feel the sensation of weight in my lap, but there is nothing visible there. It feels like latex filled with water. When I push down on the invisible sack I can feel it with my hands, the rubber stretching inward and the water moving around and shifting weight. I decide to try to make this object visible. I concentrate really hard on the task and surely enough the object becomes slowly more visible from a faded outline to the full object. Oddly I find that it is actually a condom full of water and tied off. I push it off my lap and it begins to increase in size, now larger than I so I try to open it to pour the water out. When I open it, the liquid stays inside, even when I pull the opening to the ground. The water appears to be held inside by some sort of invisible force. I go to stick my feet into the wall of water but all of a sudden I feel the dream begin to collapse, soon I see nothing but a blank light gray nothingness and I am awake again.

A rather odd lucid dream, it only lasted about 30 seconds but it was fun to interact with objects and play with the dream world's differing physics.
First time creating an object l concentrated on.

Just spent ages writting it up and went back to check something and it all disappeared

So a short write up

Deilds about 4 I think - after a good long wbtb around 3.30am till 5ish. Had things on my mind but sat long enough to clear and get dozy - great !

During some lucid dreams this morning I remember to change the colour of object and have some fun with that~

I see a couch chair I turn from its original brown to blue. I see an object on the side like a plate or something and turn it yellow. I look at a DC's face and turn it blue and another's green.

Did a lucid dance to keep me in the dream and sang a song something like

" I am lucid in my dream hahaha hehehe" again and again

Homed in on object to keep the story going and keep from waking as I felt very close to waking a lot of the time

Great fun ✨ and realy happy about the experiments

I had Men in Black searching for me in a building. I sneak down stairs, and went invisible (influence from Deus EX: MD). They couldn't see me, but I feared they could still "feel" my footsteps on the ground. I accidentally kicked over a bottle (or something), betraying my location. I continued to sneak away. By trying to minimize the "weight" of my footsteps, I discovered I can "glide" right above the ground. This over time evolved into full-fledged flight, and I flew away from the facility. I somehow "knew" I was flying just south of San Francisco, moving from (roughly) San Mateo to the north-west. I was flying quite high, but the environment looked "industrial", like a harbor district. The architecture was surreal. There was a beautiful sunset. I saw a giant cargo ship on land, laying on its stern, leaning with the bow against a huge concrete structure. I flew under it, through the triangle-shaped opening underneath. As always, it felt exhilarating to fly, and I used (as is becoming the custom) the Superman pose, using my arm (clenched fist) to change direction. Again, changing direction was difficult for me for some reason. It's as if even though the laws of physics don't count, the law of momentum just refuses to go away. At some point, I encountered another character in the air, perhaps two. They did something I would prefer to forget.

I'm at my Grandma's house and my mom or I am painting over something near the back door. I could sense my grandpa's presence who passed away a long time ago.

Edit: someone was painting over something.

I'm remembering dreams in the morning for at least a week now. I downloaded a sticky note app and put a note on my phone to remind me about lucid dreaming since I'm on my phone quite a bit. I tried this for the first time last night. I'll try for another week of remembering dreams then try lucid dreaming techniques.

I want to see what happens if I completely depend on catching my natural FAs to have LDs. To LD, all I'm doing is looking at my alarm clock every time I wake up.

1-2 LDs (Caught FA, WILD)
2-3 LDs (Caught FA, 2 DILDs)
3-1 LD (DILD)
4-0 LD
5-2 LD (Caught FA, DILD)
6-0 LD
7-0 LD
8-1 LD (DILD)
9-2 LD (Caught FA, DILD)
10-0 LD
11-2 LD (DILD, WILD)
12-0 LD
13-0 LD
14-0 LD
15-0 LD
16-3 LD (Caught FA, 2 DILDs)
17-3 LD (Caught FA, 2 DILDs)
18-1 LD (DILD)
19-0 LD
20-2 LD (DILD, DEILD)
21-2 LD (Caught FA, DILD)
22-0 LD
23-1 LD (Caught FA)
24-1 LD (WILD)
25-0 LD
26-1 LD (DILD)
27-1 LD (DILD)
28-1 LD (DEILD)
29-2 LDs (Caught FA, DILD)
30-3 LDs (2 Caught FA, DEILD)

copied from summer competition, forgot to post here in the DJ proper:

I'm walking towards a tower with a group of people, we're tourists visiting some attraction, we enter the staircase inside and begin the climb and I have a slow dawning awareness that I'm dreaming. I notice girls among the group climbing the stairs and I stop time and I notice all the DCs have frozen in place. I come up behind a girl and hug her from the back. We all continue the climb again and I hug another girl from the back briefly, but I stop myself and remember there are points to be had! I begin by recalling goal. I recall 3-step #1 and turn and face the wall (grey concrete) and think "there is no wall" and easily push my left hand through the wall up to the wrist, and pull it back out. Then I raise my right hand and think "wall is now solid" and tap the wall with my right index finger, my finger stops at the surface and it feels like I'm tapping solid concrete. I'm really happy at this immediate success and do it some more. I notice my best friend MR and say "Hey, M, check this out!" we're standing on a landing and I push my left hand through the wall up to the wrist again, this time it takes more force and there is resistance like the wall is made of solid styrofoam. MR is amazed and says "Whoa, how?!" MR and I continue climbing the staircase. I turn to MR and look into his eyes, he's standing close, he looks young and his face is accurate. I tell him "You're in my dream, you know!" MR says "Yeah!? Wow!" I give him a friendly hand squeeze of his shoulder and say "I see you in a lot of dreams," and while I continue to explain he gets sort of an expression on his face like he's not sure if he likes that fact, I think he thinks they're gay dreams or something, I quickly then say "we're usually drinking or <some other thing>".
I turn again to the wall on my right and this time I push my left hand through (again like stiff styrofoam), pull it out, tap the surface with the index finger of my left hand, feel it solid, then push my hand through again and pull it out. I feel completely confident that I can produce the solidity/transparency of objects at will.
M says something while we climb, suggesting some activity, but I say "no, I need more points!". I'm thinking a bit about dream duration, it seems completely stable and clear. I think of breath awareness for a minute (new personal goal). We emerge from the staircase onto a large open rooftop, and I hand MR my watch, it's an elegant small analog watch with a ticking second hand, which I give to him to hold for me. The second hand reaches 12 right then and I begin awareness of my breath and breathing on purpose. I realize I don't need to look at the watch because there's a clock right in front of me now, like an alarm clock, with a larger face than the watch, so I just focus on watching that and counting seconds and following my breath. But this is the most bizarre clock I've ever seen. There are multiple dials and devices all in motion over the face of the clock, each "hand" is a different color, it is a chaotic mess of color and swirling movement. The "second hand" swoops randomly from number to number, but still keeping a pace of seconds. I'm standing still watching the clock and following my breath. I get up to 35 seconds, and I feel

the dream fade/transition.

hard time falling asleep initially, lots of thoughts, very stressful day, took 2mg melatonin after about 45mins of trying to fall asleep

+(f) entering (saloon?) with lots of people, entering auditorium with sloping curved seating area [DREAMSIGN] walking along top, playing some sport/game with girls / balloons running/flying up and down over the seats

about 4 hrs:

+ LD#199 in room doing math homework with BF MR, equation, trying to find pencil with eraser, erase extra zero, easy equation, is this only the 4th math assignment all year? Turn page over to front to look. Problems are of medium difficulty stay up late to finish, MR talks of dreaming! (head that pops up, fall into arms of dream girl), I get up and move to curtains all along windows to the right and around the corner of walls blinds vary, some venetian and pointed wrong way, pull-down polarized shade, outside it is night but there's a parking lot with tons of lighting so lots of artificial street-lamp light is shining in, I want to close the blinds so we won't be seen [DREAMSIGN] and move from window to window, some close OK, some won't, as I go the blinds and the polarizing pull-down sheets get rattier and full of holes. I return to my place at the table across from MR and as I sit down I'm surprised to see that there is half of a broken plate on the table at my place. Why is it here/where did it come from? Did MR break the plate? I'm confused/shocked by this and do a nose pinch, feeling a bit embarrassed about doing so since I'm so clearly awake, but I can breathe and I'm now lucid. I get up and go around the table behind MR and say "Hey, M, I'm dreaming! What do you want to do? <something>, <something else>, Get some girls?" MR doesn't answer so I decide for girls . I decide there will be some girls behind the front door. I turn towards the front door and now I'm outside in daylight in a wide open parking-lot like space and the white front door is about 50 yards away on the far edge of the lot. I gesture towards the door and two women come through. A bit old, but I approach them and hug one and while I do I'm noticing that there are people entering a shop to the left, including a cute girl. I move to go into the shop but the crowd interferes so I fly/jump up over the people and the stuff in the way and enter the door to the shop. I look around and see the girl to the right sitting down, I go to her and sexy time ensues (meo 2016-09-01#1)

Very excited by this early LD, very very bright and clear and vivid, takes me some time to fall back asleep.

+ I'm standing on a beach facing an ocean. There are large (1-meter) waves crashing on the shore every few seconds. I'm peering into the water, I'm trying to determine how clear the water is. It is mostly clear but has a little bit of the "Caribbean blue" tint to it. I see that visibility would be very good. I think about going in to the water with goggles or mask and enjoying the clear water. I think I see something in the waves submerged (a walrus head?).

+ billiards get a table only 9-ball rack, will ask for 8-ball rack, look at balls, many of them (the non-9-ball ones?) are not spherical! How can one play with this? Two guys next to me, talking about smoking, I think isn't that illegal indoors now here?, one lights up and stands in area open to the sky not covered by ceiling and I see a cloud of his smoke quickly dispersing up into the sky, he stood there because it's more efficient to get rid of smoke that way

+ basketball, can't make a shot (airballs, even from up close), pull-down temporary basket in addition to main basket, my basketball keeps becoming a pumpkin, sometimes so large it clearly won't go through the hoop, make a great bank shot into a sideways pointed basket, proud of myself, then another guy after me makes the same shot

+(f) ST #1

Spoiler for sexy encounter:

grab the boobs of a woman, perhaps lucid?

+ ST #2 Zombie/discolored Paul McCartney being interviewed, tray of 4 small round tribbles/girl heads/faces

Spoiler for sexy encounter:

pick the cutest of the head/animals in the tray and, uh, make use of it

Go outside and look up at the sign on the storefront, narrator says that your abilities that you use become part of the traits that are passed down to your descendants (talking about game characters?), I'm wondering what my traits are, and on the sign I see different kinds of tea advertised (green, black).

+ ST #3 I'm sitting on the side of a tub next to the toilet in a bathroom (in my house [false]), there are guests over and naked girls keep appearing and getting into the tub. The crowd in the room grows. One (naked too) is kneeling down in front of me leaning her torso against my legs and her arm is draped across my knees. I'm liking this attention and contact but I'm wondering what my wife will think of it so I'm trying to stay cool and not react. I'm trying to peek around obstructions to see the "good stuff" on the various girls but not much is clearly visible.

+ LD#200 walking in crowd, notice cute girls, think wouldn't it be great to be dreaming now? Ah well, might as well check, <nose pinch> HEY! I AM dreaming...sidle up to one but don't engage, keep going, in the distance I see a woman and I'm thinking of Carmela Soprano, get with her and a nice ST ensues (meo 2016-09-01#2)


+ overhead view, it seems to be some sort of video game. There is an above-grond space and there is a (manhole?) leading down to a lower subterranean level, I decide to (click?) to go down to the lower level, inside there is a wild castle with moving parts, and I go closer, I have a view down into a palace of some sort with no roof. There are chests in a room and what seem like some treasures on tables. Aha, if I could get in there I'd get those. As I watch some character picks up a treasure and walks with it down a hallway, I want to keep watching so that I can see which chest he places it in.

+ LD#201 walking down stairs with some short/boy DC and I suspect a dream do a nose plug and get lucid. The moment I'm lucid but still finishing the nose plug we reach the bottom of the stairs and the boy turn his head to me looking over his left shoulder and his head is distorted and strangely shaped (too short, overly wide/round) and has an odd looking face. His expression is not friendly. Decide to get a girl for both of us. Go to a girl and things get very abstract and weird, but continue anyway, I go first and then indicate he should take a turn, then I take over again and wake up.

+ in scene in restaurant people seated at round tables, I'm standing and my [deceased] father in law is sitting at a table, I'm standing behind him he turns towards me away from the table. He's talking about his home town I'm having trouble understanding his foreign language, he says "Sevastopol" [FALSE]. My attention is not on him fully. He chastises me for not paying attention, "looking over there, looking at the hair on the back of the head of that woman there,". Then I'm in a bedroom my wife says her mother [deceased] is outside in the car and thirsty and needs water, I'm sitting on something and hear the crinkling of plastic containers. I reach under the blanket and pull them out. They're filled with water. One of them is the old milk bottle I've been using as a water bottle but recently lost [TRUE!] and think "Oh, there it is." I show them to my wife and get up to take them to her mother out in the car, but I notice that there is some debris/little pieces of junk [dental floss, a flosser?, small white plastic thing] in the water and I go to a toilet/sink there in the room to pour it out and clean it but I think the plastic think may clog the sink.

+ girls/class, paper, registration, the girls are filling out some forms on pads of paper. I'm annoyed that nobody gave me a piece of paper to fill out. I notice that they've drawn their names by filling in square boxes (like graph paper) on the paper. I see the paper is normal lined paper so they had to draw in the vertical lines themselves. They say they filled in one for me so it's OK? I see that there are sections on the form to indicate which side you (use as a computer mouse?) so these forms will be used to customize the keyboard given to you?

Not such good recall this morning. Probably because I jumped up ready for work and almost forgot to remember dreams.

Stood in the street. Looking into a window of my house. My youngest daughter was sat talking to a lawyer, I knew it was about pizzas - something about her ordering a pizza that she knew she was too small to eat. I phoned the delivery company and asked them not to deliver the next pizza becasue she was already in trouble, they seemed ok about it.
Then I saw a taxi drive past the lawyer was sat in it with all his family. I knew it was all getting a bit serious.

Can't remember much else from last night!

0:40 - 6:10

Friend of a monster

I was sleeping outside, on the hillside next to a small dirt road, next to a forest. I got up slowly and saw an overweight kid biking towards me from what I assume is a small town in the middle of this forest. I walked over to him. He was scared of a monster that had been in the area. He wanted to hide in the forest. I joined him.

In the forest, there was a clearing with a house on the edge of it. There was also a massive tv screen attached to two trees not too far away. It had live feed from a camera, but we saw nobody around. Someone was filming us and we couldn't see them. Pretty quickly we figured out it must be the monster and it was invisible. We kept looking around in panic, anticipating an attack. Then I felt a connection with the monster. He was human, invisible and had the ability to move objects with his mind. He gently lifted me in the air and placed me on top of the house. He didn't want to harm me, but the other kid had done something to piss him off. I could sense that he wanted to hurt the kid. I didn't want that...and I guess the monster sensed how I felt. He stopped and instead tried to lift the kid on the roof as well. The kid was too heavy and just flailed in the air for a bit, until I woke up.

WBTB. I was up stretching, drank some water, and visualized becoming lucid in the previous dream. I was up for 40min. Fell asleep with the mantra "I'm dreaming", which has worked fine for me before.

7:00-8:03

LD 81 - Flow

I'm a disembodied observer in the same forest from the previous dream. I wander to a river. There are some sewer pipes that I focus on, because the river was flowing into the sewer and it seemed really odd. I'll skip describing it, but I studied the system closely. I got out of the underground pipe system and I was in a different part of the forest. There was a small abandoned town next to the river, on a small hill.

I manifested a body in the middle of the town. The town was literally just six small houses or something. They were built around a small marketplace with a well. Next to the well were two unusually large apples that had been peeled weirdly. I picked one of the apples from the ground and used the water from the well to clean it a bit. The water in the well was dirty. Then a short monologue happened in my mind.

"I shouldn't eat this apple."
"Why?"
"Because it was on the ground and isn't yours."
"This is my dream I can do what I want!...wait"

Finally the lights turn on in my head. I take a bite out of the apple and throw it away. I continue walking through the empty town. I sometimes question if I was actually lucid in a dream, if I didn't RC...so I do that just in case. I plug my nose and breathe through easily. The dream was a bit fuzzy. I look at my hand to stabilize. Some fingers look like baby fingers, mildly disturbing. I force them to change into normal fingers.

I have my earphones on and I hear music. Outside of the town there is a vast field with tall grass, flowers, bushes and stuff like that. Forest continues in the distance. It becomes extremely windy and the wind changes direction constantly. It's sunny. I just enjoy the view for a moment. I recall all the goals I have: burning building, evil wizard, frozen planet, dream guide etc. But I want to focus on staying in the lucid dream as long as I can. I want to go with the flow, I won't force anything.

A biking trail appears in the field as I walk forward. Then two DCs bike backwards towards me. They look like the mountain guides in the Himalayas. I stop them and ask the one with a funny hat to guide me to the frozen planet. I ask his name, but the music and wind makes me unable to hear it. He starts walking somewhere and I follow. I expect to see a building and one appears on the edge of the field.

Inside the building is a break room and more DCs. Some of them look European. There's a stack of electronic devices on one cupboard. Some annoying noise is coming from them and the DCs don't like it. I just touch one radio and the noise disappears. I ask a new DC to guide me to the frozen planet. He agrees and starts leaving the room. I ask his name, but can't recall it anymore. (Goddamn it! Is it that hard to remember one name?!) The corridor outside the break room is dark. Wait, it's the dream fading...and I'm awake.

Every time I watch through Fringe, my subconscious focuses on Olivia's discovery of her ability to cross to the alternate universe, and how she became trapped there. Then usually jumps to the part where Peter is erased from the timeline but traces of him continue to exist in the minds of those closest to him.
My subconscious seems to have a thing for them heh heh.

In the dream I am the equivalent of Astrid but in this version of Reality I was a cortexaphan subject like Olivia. My ability was similar to hers but while hers was to cross to the other universe, I couldn't cross but could create a bridge. Allowing anyone without an ability to cross, or I could lessen the cost of crossing.
So, I went with her to the other side and witnessed her capture and reconditioning but I remained outside of the story. When I finally met her again she found a way to cast me back to our universe, interrupting the storyline of the show where Fauxlivia had infiltrated our group and instead caused Fauxlivia's early incarceration.
In Olivia's absence, Peter and I became close. On the cusp of being more.
Olivia's return happens in the backyard of my childhood home. It's all washed out, wintry. There's a shift in our dynamic but no one wants to talk about it. Peter's attention has shifted from Olivia to me, and she is bitter because it never would have happened if she hadn't sent me back first.
There's a lapse. I'm leaving my apartment. This part is confusing. I promise Peter that we will go somewhere first but we have to be quick because I have work. I get into the back of the car because just as we are leaving Olivia climbs into the passenger seat. Peter is driving so I ask where we are going, he says he'll drop me off at work. I argue that I'll still need my car to leave work later, and that we should go to get that first. He has an easy-going manner, lazily talking over me.
"No really, just drop me off at my car..."
"Don't worry, you'll get where you need to go."
"Please, just listen to me for two seconds..."
"It'll be fine, everything will work out..."
Then suddenly he isn't driving, Olivia is driving from the passenger seat? Olivia accelerates and Peter falls back, clutching the back of his seat and the door, still smugly iterating that everything will be fine and I need to relax. His own seat is laying almost flat against the back seats. I'm crouching on the ridiculously spacious floorboard in the back, arguing with him.
On a whim I walk to Peter and lean down over him.
I tell him to shut up and bravely bridge the gap that neither of us could before, I kiss him firmly on the mouth to ensure his shutting up.
He sits there blankly, not moving. I worry I have made a mistake and embarrassed, I retreat to the other side of the stupidly spacious car.
"Sorry. I shouldn't have done that." I give him an excuse and space enough to ignore my rude action. Should he wish to. Of course he'll wish to.

Then he is there, standing over me. Damn dashing in his dark red button-up and black vest. He smiles a little and tells me I've misunderstood his shock. He tilts my chin upward so I must meet his eyes, and in sync he drops to his knees as I rise smoothly to mine and we smile a little as he presses his mouth to mine. It's an odd, distant sort of lucidity. I can feel his mouth. His shoulder under my hand as I draw him closer. It feels familiar somehow.
My body molds to his, straddling his thigh. Half lucidity does me a disservice, making his mouth too wet, drawing every second of the kiss out, the scrape of teeth on tongue. I ignore it.

Then I am suddenly aware of Olivia looking at us from the passenger seat. I break the kiss, it is incredibly rude to make out with someone while his once-time girl sits watching.
She smiles and bitingly says, "Don't stop on my account. I know how...charming he can be."
I flush, embarrassed.
"I'm sorry, you know I didn't intend..." I begin, turning toward her.
"Didn't intend what?" Olivia asks.
"I know that you two were supposed to..." I can't finish. I feel like I've stolen something from her and don't even have the decency to acknowledge the theft. "This wouldn't have happened if you didn't send me back sooner."
She smiles a little, she's beautiful even in her bitterness, with her dangerously red lips.
I look to Peter who has retreated to the other side of the car.
Olivia leans forward to kiss my neck and I am so overwrought already that I...react. She pulls away and I fluidly turn to give her a slow kiss. There's so much in this small, stupid scene. She feels brittle and sad and distant, mindlessly pursuing oblivion. I think about offering to share him with her. You know, together, but I think she would be insulted so I keep it to myself.

At length we come to a city square that reminds me of Italy. Except it is distant and empty like a ruin. It's full of stupid restaurants? We observe them with equal amounts of puzzlement and amusement, because they revolve around Suddenly Salad. *snorts, then cackles a little*
"That's an unprecedented number of restaurants." Peter says, frowning down at a patio table, like all the ones around it it has a plate of the stupid Suddenly Salad mix.
"Yeah, it's a little excessive, isn't it?" I say with a laugh.

D1: Non-Lucid: A guy looked a lot like "Chuck" Saul's brother, from "Better call Saul". So I went there w/ the pony & it turned out to be something like a big feed store where you buy in bulk for animal food. He had some stalls in the back. The guy got really mad at me & said that we didn't deserve a pony & that we murdered our dogs. He told me we were criminals. Kept calling me a dog murderer. I was crying in my dream & in real life. I could here myself. So I knew I was dreaming but I still had to defend myself for personal reasons. I told him that wasn't what happened. I was hysterical & he kept yelling. But then he went around the corner which is the exact moment I knew I was dreaming, crying, & screaming. I started back in on him after I rounded the corner. He suddenly stopped & looked at me like I was crazy & said, "what are you talking about, I didn't say that."

I woke up still screaming & crying & Meesha Cat was loving on me. Then I realized all the screaming had freaked her out & woke her up. She had peed all over my bed. This was not a good start to the morning. I had to get up & wash all my shit & console my poor cat. So I finally got back to bed about 2 hrs later... Oh, & the dream was some small guilt I still carry about rehousing our dogs due to my health. They all got homes & yes I now have a cat but she's never under foot like they were.


D2: Lucid- Mike & I were driving to go see my Grandpa Harry. (He passed away 24 yrs ago) We were going around a sharp curve on what looked like the side of a mountain.It was getting dark & I was starting to panic. Something went wrong w/ the brakes & we were airborne. I was driving. I held his hand & said "I love you, Mike." I thought we were going to die! I had this strange feeling right then though. I had to try & do something. Part of me thought this has to be a dream & part of me thought this could be real. So when I told him I loved him & held his hand I went full on lucid. I slowed down time & willed us to be in a bubble away from the car & we slowly floated down.

D3: I had a big fight w/ a guy who was treating like shit. Apparently he was seeing me & another woman. I got really mad & started teleporting all around which freaked him out while I was yelling at him. He was so confused, lol. I started to get lucid but my phone went off & I had to deal w/ real life. Sigh. That would've been 2 lucids. Oh well.

Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown/OOB