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Shout out to Sageous for his writings on the fundamentals of lucid dreaming, self-awareness and memory. This morning, I woke up and stayed awake for 50 minutes to meditate. The key thing about the meditation was to keep my mind - my awareness - HERE AND NOW. My mind continuously got caught up in thoughts that were in the present moment. Every time that happened, I shifted my awareness back to present events like my breathing, my hearing and my sense of touch.

This leads me to believe that SSILD so effective because it forces the practitioner out of his or her own head and into the present. The mind is quieted from thoughts that have absolutely nothing to do with the current moment of just sitting, hearing, feeling and breathing.

I went back to sleep at 6:50 am and still meditated to keep my awareness in the present moment. Some time went by and I saw a giant image that looked like a webpage in front of me. I focused a bit on the image and I felt my body go numb. Then, a false awakening happened and my reality check was looking at my bedroom window. I noticed that there was a towel being used as a curtain so I knew for a fact I was dreaming. I got out of my bed and began to explore.

I went out into my hallway and looked at the entrance to the kitchen which was pitch-black instead of usually illuminated, further confirming that this was lucid. I woke up and repeated the relax-meditate steps mentioned earlier to get back into another lucid dream. That ended too and I looked at my alarm clock to find it was only 7:10 am.

Aside from the reacquiring flying and falling dreams which I do not like to talk about there are my dreams with animals. These get forgotten very quickly because I do not give them too much meaning.

1. Crocodiles in the living room.
In this dream I have thousands of crocodiles and alligators down in the living room. I run many times down to the kitchen to get things to my brother but once I slip and almost get eaten by the animals. I do not have a fear of alligators and their cousins, I do not live in a place here I could ever meet them. I remember joking about the situation to my friends through the phone and they too visited me in my dream - although I do not remember if it was at the first part or at the last part - and dodges the crocodiles skillfully to get to the floor we were on. But in the end it was me who needed to get food from the kitchen and run. That's when I slip. I almost died because of my friends.

2. Giant spider.
At the top of the stairs there is a little hall that divide the two upstairs rooms. In this dream my house is accurate, and since it was made by my father it has nothing that resembles the stereotypical house structure. That's how many rooms are in the top floor, two bedrooms and a hall dividing them. My brother and I need to go through from one room to another but the way is blocked by a giant spider that leaves little room to move in the square hall. But it is docile and I feel the abdomen brushing to my stomach as i squeeze through the spider. Disgusting.

I had many dream when I was younger that were fragmented only remembering pieces of them. I decided that now is a good moment to write them down. At least the ones that I can remember.

1. Prince's guard
This dream happened two different time, and I had a strange feeling that it happened more than that I'm just unable to remember. In both dreams I am a knight, a personal body-guard of a young prince who is exiled from his country. In the first dream the kingdom, Persia - that's how I recall it, way back in the old days - was attacked and conquered by Roman soldiers. I remained at the young prince's side and managed to keep him safe. While we were running, a princess from a foreign kingdom joined us, which meant more work for me. I do not remember who it ended. The second dream was shorter. Again a personal guard, but now I just stand in the back ground and watch as my prince gets betrayed by his own blood brother and sentenced to death. I'm the only one who steps up and defend making us both traitors. I don't know how this dream ended either, but while the other was pretty positive this one was devastating. I think we both died. But what remained from the dreams was my undying loyalty to an exiled, banished prince.

2. Serial killer
This dream too happened two times. I'm a serial killer. The first doesn't leave to much impression, it just the way that I used to dispose of the bodies. I buried them with pig carcasses. The second time, my actions is not my own. I kill people then behead them. I do it because I was ordered to by a supernatural entity which face I could not remember. It was tall and slender, imagine it like the Slenderman, the only difference is that he had a face, I was the one unable to remember it. (Just for saying, I hate the Slenderman myth, it's not scary... And I certainly don't want to think of myself as one of his proxies or what not.) It's like there was nothing that could remain in my mind and while I acted in the dream I felt my mind being foggy. I do not know how I wake up.

3. Train hijacker
In this dream I try to hijack a train with an engine already ready to explode and the people on the train either screaming or trying desperately to stop me. I remember a certain rush that I felt when I climbed a top of the train and felt the wind as the train rushed with more speed that was necessary and the view. There was a bridge and the ocean lighted up with orange light by the sunset and I thought "This is a good day to hijack a train."

4. Wolf father
This is one of my childhood nightmares. I do not remember much, just that I watch myself from third person. I sit on the top of the stairs - maybe four years old - and my father is yelling at the room below. I don't cry, but I am scared. Then suddenly my father sticks his between the frames of the stairs and bangs his head hard in the ceiling. I remember that I was surprised, my father is not that tall. But then he is starting to transform into a wolf, not a werewolf as in half man and half wolf, but a full wolf and I remember crying that I need to escape while I can. I do not however and I can not remember how this ends.

5. The ghost detecting hair-dryer
Let's end this on a happy note. In this dream I possessed a hair-dryer that could detect ghosts which ever direction it was blowing the hot air, when it detected it the machine started to beep loudly. I chased a ghost through my room while jumping on furnitures.

Thank you for listening. I started to have more dreams recently, but I keep forgetting them. It is time that I record my old dreams and try to remember the new ones too.

No development in the lucid dreaming section. But I'm working on it.

Morning of August 26, 2016. Friday.



My dream’s setting is a unique variation of our present home. There is an ambiguous perception of bilocation, though the essence of my primary environment is extraordinarily vivid. I seem to be in bed, yet I am also looking down to my right at what appears to be the open storage area in the bottom of the couch I slept on as a teenager. (The back of it dropped down for it to serve as a single bed.) This layout would not be possible in reality. It seems to be on the right side of our bed and perpendicular to it. The size orientation is wrong despite the amazing clarity. (Certainly, no couch would fit in the short distance from the right side of our bed to the wall.) It seems smaller than it should but my dream self accepts this feature.

Our youngest sons are present in the room. There is a small yellow snake of about a foot long that I consider as possibly venomous. It had somehow crawled inside the couch. The area is perceived as being about a foot below the top of our mattress. There is a horizontal section of the storage space that is slightly apart near the bottom that allows the snake to crawl out through it. I keep touching its head with a stick and it moves back into the narrow space. I feel confident that I can keep the snake at a distance. I use the stick to bump its head and it retreats about four times.

Eventually, it somehow jumps out from the area and hits my left shoulder fairly hard though does not bite me. It seems to vanish after this. It is so vivid that not only do I wake up slapping my shoulder in reality, I shuffle around a short time before I am fully awake.

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Specific colors in my dreams, when they dominate my focus of attention, sometimes correlate with an aspect of consciousness I am most aware of during the waking process. Yellow or gold often occurs where there is more perception of movement and emergent consciousness awareness that serves to dissolve the illusory nature of the dream state in activating viable consciousness. On the biological level, a snake dream of a more vivid and realistic rendering as this is often only reticular activating system modulation to more quickly alert the dreamer into waking up. Being biological autosymbolism as a derivative of RAS, there is no reason to force the pretense of waking life symbolism into such a dream, especially as it was a factor in making me aware that my left arm would have become numb had I slept in the position I was in any longer.

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Bed 9pm - 3:30am

Finally a cool dream.

I'm in spy agency's HQ. I'm a spy being trained or prepped for a mission. Bunch of paperwork. Then trainer takes me with him to a prep room, sits me down and gives me a syringe. It's full of light yellow liquid. He tells me to inject myself. I know it's to prepare me for pain if enemy takes me and tries to hurt me. But I hesitate, so he gets fake mad and jabs me in left shoulder, then few times in the right shoulder.

Still at the agency, looking through a manual/magazine at the desk. Last page has a add for a movie. It starts to play. The redhead from X-Files and a blond take off their shirts, one stands behind the other and they start having fun. I'm surprised and I worry a child could be in the room and I don't want them to see it. So I close the magazine. (saw the commercial for new X-Files movie just before bed).

Wooo cool dream. Thank you, come again!

Very strange night -- woke at about 2 hrs with a quite vivid, generally coherent dream. But I couldn't go back to sleep after this, and ended up getting up for about 4-5 hours, then falling asleep exhausted, and having some decent dreams, sleeping for about 4 more hours

~2 hrs

+ music, interview? I'm reading sheet music at a desk across from one person, I'm quite confident I can play this. I'm wondering what cleffs they will give me to read, I can read generally all of them so I'm not worried. I look the music on the lower right corner of the right-hand page of the open notes and I see bar-long whole-notes of slurs from the mid-range up to the high-range, I think it goes very fast and I recognize the melody as a famous piece, I know this will be hard to play. There is suddenly a second guy there sitting across the desk from me and I turn the page and I'm feeling the music, reading the notes, and I say "this <piece> has/requires a lot of dynamic energy!". The 2nd new guy turns the pages to find another place but the first guy says "don't lose my place!"

I'm walking outside and I see TZ coming out of a buiding, I ignore her at first, but then I realize that I have a folder for her back inside, I waffle between getting it or not, I decide I should just go and get it and give it to her now, saving a trip of driving to her house later. I (get it?) and follow her as she's gotten a bit ahead of me. There's a woman following her who I'm looking at and trying to decide if it's T's mother, PZ, she has sort of dreadlock-y hair, she turns and speaks to me it's not her, it's some other woman who says that PZ is (not here?).

up a long time, 4-5 hours, something weird in the atmosphere? Nobody can sleep in my house tonight

BTS

+ calling the conductor on a rotary telephone to see if they want me to play in the concert, I could do it but since I haven't been at any of the rehearsals I expect her to tell me "no." I have a small pamphlet with her phone number, I go to the phone and I dial a 9 on the rotary phone and immediately I'm connected to my cousin (KeR?) and she's telling me something. I'm confused by that and I hang up and try dialing again, I get KR again after the first digit of the number.

+(f) DO watching some golf tournament, they're teeing off from an outcropping on a very high cliff

+ (f) long-ish sequence going upstairs and downstairs, something to do with a fish?

+ running in to a house where there is a fire burning but I realized I had left all the windows closed, I get in to the house and there is some smoke but it's not nearly as bad as I thought it would be. Returning to the entrance room my dad is there and he says something.
There is some conflict going on, something in the garden, we're fighting with someone else over a path of growing things, I look out the window down on the patch and see that the other party has pranked us by replacing the plants with something that looks like large hot dogs in buns with mustard on top? My dad says something about the inevitable escalation.

Returning from one area to the building there are a bunch of guys in "bank robber clown masks" and someone is warning me against of the guys in that gang, I was going to go with them but I think I should get a mask, too, but I'm concerned that they've already seen my face

+ (f) entering some fortified castle/building, the guards are checking ID

Study
I'm with a group of friends. We're on the streets somewhere in Indonesia, running somewhere. I lose my flip flops a few times. I don't pay too much attention to it, though when I find the exact same flip flops a bit further down the road, I slide them on.

We've arrived at a study centre now. I have an exam I desperately need to study for. I decide to leave my phone and my wallet in my bag. I know my bag is unattended, but if I take my phone with me, I'll just get distracted. My Macbook is supposedly on the table, though disassembled somewhat and totally misshapen. The keyboard is huge. The very annoying mom of a girl I know tries to assist me somehow. After this, I go into a study area.


Party stuff
I'm with a big group of people. There's a teenage girl who took 1 drink and already disappeared into the bathroom, presumably to throw up. One of my friends wants to help her, cause she is the little sister of a friend.

I'm the assistent to a DJ. I just stand beside her, looking freaking useless, while she does all the actual DJ work. She's spinning vinyl records, though she sucks. Her transitions are worthless. She eventually ends with the Pokemon themesong. I respond in a "really?" type of way, while the crowd loves it.

My friend Lin is also present at this party and he's so drunk that he decides to pour beer straight out of the bottle into his ear. He then hits the ground. He falls down twice and you can see the blood splatter on the ground, from his head. I seat him in my friend San's car. I ask San if he can drive or if he is too drunk. He tells me he is too drunk. Ok, guess it will be Sven who will have to drive him to the hospital.

The party is over. I walk off to some place to grab my bag with phone and wallet in it. I pass a girl walkling in the opposite direction. She is wearing a Spongebob outfit.

Sceptre
Scarlett Johansson (as Black Widow?) has to steal a sceptre from an evil god. The room in which this is in looks like it is in outer space. Scarlett has either the superpower or has been genetically modified to be able to be pierced by sceptres without dying. I think she's also able to teleport. The god is in a different room or building, flying somewhere. The moment Scarlett touches the sceptre, he knows and teleports to the room. I feel like it happens 3 times. The first time she gets stabbed in the stomach. The second time.. not sure. The third time the god has turned into a giant Deadpool and she is hanging on while he is flying.

Woke up at 6am and stayed awake for about an hour, taking some notes and then mostly reading a book. Stayed in bed the whole time.

Lucids
I had a dream within a dream. Not sure what happened, but I decided I needed to perform an RC. I manage to push my fingers through the palm of my other hand. The dream never really becomes stable, because I don't properly take the time to stabilise. I keep performing the RC over and over in an attempt not to lose lucidity.

I'm riding my motorcycle on one of the main roads in my city. I nearly get into a collision with an orange/red car, which approached from my right. We're good though. I take a left to the gas station. The line for the motorcycles is to the far left [it should be to the far right]. I put my motor on the standard. While looking down I notice that I'm wearing a necklace. Heh, necklace? I never wear a necklace. Hey! I perform the same RC again. Success. I'm a bit skeptical, because everything looks so real. Plus, I'm afraid to accept it given the circumstances. I am with my motor after all. I don't want to do anything stupid and find out I'm not dreaming. I perform the RC several times and each time it's a success, reinforcing my belief that this is really a dream. The sensation of my finger going through my palm is weird. I walk around while performing the RC. I remember there being a girl somewhere to the far right, next to a car. She was really pretty due to her eyes, though I know it's due to coloured contacts. I still want to see her again though. She's in the car right now.

I wake up in a different bed and a different room than usual. I perform the same RC again and I become lucid again. My mind is not completely clear I guess, cause I'm worried about how my real body will react to my lucid activities, thinking of my real body as the body in this bed. It's as if I'm having a dream in a dream and both dreams are connected. I perform the same RC over and over. I also sort of whisper 'stabilise' throughout', cause I'm afraid of how my real body will respond. The first time I whisper stabilise, it reverberates throughout the dream as a shockwave. I don't know if the other times had much effect. I think for a second what to do. Waterball? No, I lost that challenge already. Summon someone. Summon who? Nina. Instead of willing her to just be in the room, I decide to look at the door which is straight in front of me [I'm still in bed]. It's a brown wooden door and quite solid looking. I will it to open and for Nina to be behind it. It takes a few seconds before the door starts to move, but eventually it swings open. The area behind it is quite dark and I can't really see that much. I haven't been able to make Nina appear yet, though I can see that something is beginning to form in the dark.

Still Sick

I continue down the stone walkway, and to the front of a two story gray stone building. I understand that I need to enter to attend some sort of committe meeting with several other people. I approach the front area, and am standing between two brick pillars in the front when something feels strange. I see a DC cross the path and noseplug. I become lucid. The vividness of the dream becomes very very high, and is close to waking life. My awareness becomes very high as well. I clap very hard twice and hear the sound reverberate throughout the dreamscape. I shout 'stabilize' right after in a commanding voice. I briefly have the idea of heading into the building, but immediately reason that the plot is a complete waste of time. I begin to work my memory for some dream goals, and am very happy with how easily I can recall all the goals I wrote as well as thought about before bed. I have quite a few at this point, and even think about my previous LD of the night and consider finding another dream beast to tame. I begin walking, then take flight to look at the surrounding. I'm in a large outdoor plaza area, mostly made of light colored stone, during the daytime. There are several tall palm trees in the area, and a two story building in the middle of the plaza qutie a few yards away. Large buildings sit on the outskirts of the plaza, and a few cars are off in the distance. I begin flying a bit higher, and am loving the feel of my control; I can really feel the movement of my dream body gliding effortless through the air in the direction of my choice. I decide to incorporate some slow back flips in order to practice flight skills. I take one, and am impressed by the spinning of the dream scene, and the feel of my dream body as my sense of proprioception raises slightly. I take another right after. I land back on the ground, and begin to think about a couple of sivason's dream journal entries from the previous night. I look down at my vivid right hand and begin to get ready to cast a fireball. I try to feel energy charging in the open palm as I raise my hand. Nothing. I try for some lighting with an outstretched arm, but no luck. I decide I'll probably need more visual work for impressive effects. I decide to reach for an out-of-sight dream item figuring it'll be easy. I think about a crossbow, but reason that it's too big. I go for a gunslinger's revolver, and reach to my back pocket. Nothing comes out, but I make a shooting motion anyway, and see a bullethole appear in high up on the wall of the the gray building in the distance. I fly for a bit longer, toward the other side of the plaza, and skip forward to the interior of the building on the outkirt of the plaza. I find myself coming into a large room of what appears to an elementary school. I see all the students sitting in wooden chairs in group of four at a table. I begin engaging my sense of awareness very strongly. I repeat to myself 'I'm aware inside of a dream right now!' as my awareness comes to a very high level. I remember another goal of simply simulating one of my frequent DILD occurances of simply levitating upward. I recreate the experience, with very good control of the levitation. I continue excitedly telling myself that I'm aware inside of a dream as I look around, really being blown away by the level of awareness, and wanting to reaffirm it to myself I decide to what the 'dream feel' feels like in the present moment and enter a very mindful state. It feels very similar to practicing Sageous's reverse reality check. I continue for a moment, then remember another dream goal I wrote down. I think breifly of going to a lucid chocolate shop, but ignore that goal. I decide to go for another. I begin to ask a child DC what my greatest source of happiness is, but the dream quickly ends midway through the question. I have a very brief semi-FA experience where I hear the re-creation of my alarm going off for work. I ditch idea of initiating a DEILD and decide to get up right away. I look at the clock with a RC, and realize I still have about 30 mins to sleep.

I find myself in a white void with heightened awareness. I do a noseplug and I become lucid. I understand that a dream is about to begin from this state, and want to give it a jump start. I begin trying to visualize some shape and colors, yet nothing vivid is created. I few darker curved figures begin appearing as I try to envision a DC, but nothing solidifies. I decide to simply meditate for the time being. I cross my dream legs that I become aware of, and enter a mindful absorption. A thought goes through my mind that this feels like a waking life mindfulness meditation. After a few minutes, I begin to see a rectangular figure appearing. It gradually begins forming into a sliding glass door. A dream scene eventually fills out, and I have the thought that the sliding glass door probably leads to the backyard area in M Street. With the brief thought, I phase through the glass, and find myself in the backyard of M Street...of course. I'm really enjoying the moment outside on the back patio. The vividness of the dream is very very high, and my mental presence is quite high. I'm very happy just being there. I decide not to stabilize. I remember one of the dream goals of simply walking through a dream-scape slowly, without flying, and simply taking in my surroundings. I feel very grounded and stable in the dream, and love the feeling of actually walking slowly and deliberately through the lucid. I appreciate the small blue tree in front of me which resembles a pine. As I wind around the right turn by the pool, I stare at the dark blue water and the ripples. I think back to sivason journal from the previous night and decide to simply lay down a bit farther down on the pavement and stare up at the stars. I head a bit farther, lay down, and simply gaze up. It feels very similar to stargazing in real life, just more...surreal! It's very relaxing. I get up after a few moments and continue walking around the pool. I reach the other side and lay down once more. I see a small black figure several yards ahead and think of how great it would be to have an astral animal companion in LDs. As I am nearly in a supine position. I am aware of a stealthy,lithe, dark beast - resembling a panther - growl in a deep tone with low volume as it comes by the left side of my head. I notice very thin, light green swerving patterns throughout it's body. The head does not have clearly defined eyes. I actually feel my heart take a sudden pound. I'm aware it's my waking life body responding to the powerful presence of the beast, and quickly affirm to myself that it's just a dream and my entire body calms. I begin to raise and intuitively understand how to tame the dream beast. I stick my hand out and to the right to where the beast is making its way around. As my hand comes out, I intuitively change a two syllable tribal chant in a commanding tone. My head turns as I say this, and I catch a glimpse of the beast. I understand the taming command has been successful. I find myself a few yards up the path all of a sudden, yet the beast is no longer present. I enter a white void for a short period wake up briefly.
*and go for a DEILD

I have met up with a friend, and we are about to head home by car - at first we are in some form of rural area, but the dream then switches to a local car park that occasionally appears in my dreams.

(I'm pretty sure there were other dreams last night but I can't currently remember them)

I'm gathered with a tribe at a beach and standing near the edge of the water. There is an elder that stands in the water to his waist. Behind me there is a row of people coming out of a line of trees, holding giant bundles of bananas. They carry them to the water and toss them in. The elder then inspects each one of them and decides whether or not they are safe to eat. But then he disappears and really big waves start coming in. Everyone on the beach backs up, but I stay fairly close, fascinated by the big waves. There's still bananas to inspect so I find my little sister and tell her that she's the best when it comes to knowing when to eat bananas. She agrees and goes into the water. The big waves stop and everything is calm again. I gather a large bundle of bananas and toss them into the water for her.

Fragment 1: A baby duck is being attacked by a turtle in a small pond. I freak out and hurry to save the duck. I grab it in my hands and hold it to my chest. The turtle disappears and then random people tell me that it's probably ok to put the baby duck back in the water. I'm too afraid that the turtle will come back though, so I try to think of something to do, like calling a shelter or something.

Fragment 2: I'm outside on a beach. There's tons of people and family members. Someone comes up to me and says that I should meet my other Grandmother. I stare at the person, confused because I don't have another one. But they insist that I do and say that she'll speak to me and like me because of what I did. I walk up to the woman. She's very old and sitting in a rocking chair. I get down on my knees in front of her and she smiles at me, asking me if I'm Melissa. I smile back and say yes. She talks and questions me about what I did.

Had another lucid dream this morning featuring me attending a football game and running around with a clock in my hand. I felt my left foot was asleep in the dream. Saw many people like I was on campus again.

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Non-Lucid
Half-Lucid
Lucid
Nightmare

Tornado

I was at school, I remember interacting with my friend Adnan. I leave class and goto some waiting lobby.
I sit there for minutes, I hear a siren. People start to come in the room ask me "You heard the siren?"
I start to piss myself, didn't in real life thankfully. I look around, I see my brother on a scooter he gets in to the lobby.
Suddenly I'm in a bus, he turns it around and we go in circles around the school.
He tries to grab a handle of a door (I don't know why) I open the emergency door and try to help. The bus driver says "Don't do this kid."
Later in the dream, we go to a cubfoods thinking it is safer than the High School for shelter.

Sorry, I had some dreams past few days but they were either private or kind of sexual. Still haven't had any lucid's, I tried FILD but I just can't do it, sometimes I'm either lazy or don't have alarm clock: I have people sleeping next to my rooms.