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Manuel

A very low recalled dream where Manuel and his DD are teaching me something. Can't remember what it was but i know my dream self always remembers these things. i may find myself using them in later dreams.

Long WTF dream

Started out.... I was in my inner world house... but seeing it as I did the very first time that I tried to visit my inner world. I was in the kitchen and there were asian twin males that looked like rednecks. I was folding strange sandwiches for them. I gave them the sandwiches but they didn't like them.

Then I remember being in a living room and watching TV. i was watching a show about Asuka? I think. and me and the people in the living room were jamming out songs. I wanted to play the songs with them live... but they said no.

we took off somewhere and wound up in some inside parking lot. I heard music from a band playing in the distance and then I saw a bulletproof sheild in front of the band. I saw bullet marks on it. to my left was plastic poly hanging around. I really wanted to get to the band but the people I was with wanted to go elsewhere.

We walked through some doors and wound up in a theater. I was walking down a very long hallway and was going in and out of different theaters. One was a typical movie theater. but in another that i walked in there was it was shaped all weird. I was walking along the aisle and suddenly there was some anti gravity force. Me and some woman (asuka?) were running over the anti grav parts and having fun floating from one side of the room to the other. My memory ends here.

Asuka

Asuka is pulling me down a hallway and saying that kaomea is outside and pounding on the sheild waiting to be let in.

Kaomea

Kaomea is saying something to me like "I can't believe I Just called you neevok again. What's wrong with me?"

Healing

Very vague memeroy of me lying in bed with Raven and Kaomea over me. They were doing a healing thing on me. Kaomea was asking what the bug on my chest was doing? Raven said it was feeding me negative energy. They kept talking about the bug.

Starfox

something about Chris Highestridge at first, but no details recalled. But I remember being in a starfox video game. The graphics were like the super nintendo version.



It was a space level and there were gigantic ships I was flying through. I would blow them up and stuff, then they would explode all around me. But in some parts only parts of the ships blew up, and it seemed to take forever the part of ship to blow up.

My dad goes black and never goes back

Had a dream that I was standing in a room when my dad walked in. He had black skin and was kind of fat. He looked a lot like the black dude from the family guy. There was another dark guy with him (data) They were talking to me about something. But I couldn't remember.

Kaomea's Inner world

Remember being in a bed with Kaomea. Her hand was on my chest again where my heart was beating. This time I was doing the same thing as her. We were talking about ???? She made an important decision that made us both happy. Can't remember, but we kissed with the intent of that decision in mind, and when we did.... we both turned into light and I woke up from the dream.

Strange WTF.

first I remember walking along side a school with a fence. I remember being in this place before when I was with a group of people hiding from a zombie apocalypse. I remembered that we all got killed, then it occured to me that we shouldn't have given up so easily. I mean don't zombies die after a few weeks of eating nothing? Don't all the bugs get at them and eat them eventually?

With that in mind I walked around the school fence and turned the corner of the building. A black yappy dog (Asuka!)came out of nowhere and I decided to follow the dog.

We went back the way I came and then oticed that on the other side of the fence, that elderly people were gathering at a hall. I saw them getting out of cars and stuff. I followed Asuka down some steps and through a door.

Asuka was in her normal form now, but she was behind me so I only felt her presence. I was in a mall of some sort and a bunch of boxes of books were floating in the air. Some man was trying to get them to stop floating. I jumped up and smacked the boxes down. I noticed that the man was Mike W. from my childhood. He said he worked for the book man and set up a book man table in the hallway of the mall. I remember heping him set up the table. He started saying that he came here to alberta to help celebrate Thelma's birthday or something. Then he started reading from a card.

Lonewolf

I logged into Lonewolf's Private dream forum and saw that he had moved "The Nagual Manuel" thread over there so that no outsiders could read the thread.

I was in a house that clearly isn't my waking life house, and in the dream I knew perfectly well it wasn't my house, but I didn't realize I was dreaming. I thought I was over to visit some friends for the day, and that would explain that there I was somewhere I have never seen before IWL. I was sitting in the living room on a comfortable couch, looking around the room, waiting for someone. My mind wasn't completely clear, so I just stayed silent and I was hoping I would remember what I was waiting for before I ended up making a total ass out of myself. There was a bowl of cheese dip and a bowl of chips on the coffee table, I decided to try some, so I dipped a chip in the cheese dip and ate it. The cheese dip was on a warmer, so it was warm, and it was very good. I was sure my friends wouldn't mind if I helped myself to a bit, so I ate a few more chips… then I found myself wishing for something to drink… which I also found in a cooler beside the table, so I popped a coke and drank some. I was beginning to wonder if I might have been forgotten, but finally someone came down into the room and greeted me.

I looked over towards the stairs as I heard people coming down, and then they came into view. Serena, followed by Vegeta, then the twins, Gene and Amanda. Serena led the kids over to me, they both looked like they were about 12 years old… was that right? I couldn't think if that was right or not… Both the girls were in bathing suits and had towels, it looked like they were all ready to go to a beach or a pool, and they seemed excited to get there. Serena pointed at the one girl in the blue suit and said that one was Amanda, and the one in the red suit is Gene, don't get them confused, they don't like that. I made a point to remember Amanda was in blue and Gene was in red, though I couldn't think why I would need to know that since I'm not usually around them that much. Serena was thanking me for agreeing to take the twins on an outing today, maybe she could steal some alone time with Vegeta for a change. Wait… take the twins on an outing? When had that happened? Where was I supposed to take them? I'm no good with kids… Serena saw the puzzled look on my face and said I was dreaming, and I had agreed to take Gene and Amanda to the water park along with MoSh, Asuka, and their kids. I did a nose pinch RC, and I realized I was dreaming.

I still didn't remember actually agreeing to taking the kids to the water park, I just remember Q suggesting I might want to do that so all of the kids could get together again and have some fun. He had said I could take advantage of the situation and also have some fun. I figured Q had probably agreed to this for me, but I wasn't going to argue about it, I didn't want Amanda and Gene to think I was trying to worm my way out of spending time with them… even if maybe I would have been…

So the twins and I went outside to where Q was waiting, he said he had found a very nice place for MoSh, Asuka, Kaomea, and their kids… the youngest named Michele, Shel for short, a girl named Chantaral and her brother Alenard, and Shawna, of course, to enjoy themselves without being bothered by anyone. He said he would personally make sure we didn't have any unwelcome guests, but since there were several of us there, he didn't think that would be a problem. Q opened a portal and waited for the twins and me to go through it, then he followed us through and closed the portal behind us. He pointed over to a really nice area with a crystal clear pool of water, I couldn't see it very clearly yet, but I could hear splashing from over there. Q said to go and enjoy ourselves, he said everyone deserves some R & R sometimes. With that, he disappeared.

I went over towards the pool of water, the twins went running ahead of me, yelling something about the last one in the water was a Britron turd… whatever a Britron was… they tossed their towels aside and jumped right into the water. I went over to a small beach area and found the only people there were MoSh, Asuka, and Kaomea, and they were all sitting together and chatting while watching the kids in the water. Asuka had a small child with her who was no doubt Shel. They seemed a bit surprised at having someone else arrive, but then they turned and saw me there, and smiled. I was wondering if I might have a strange reaction to Kaomea's energy again… but I wanted to test that, so I went right over to Kaomea and the other two. While I was talking, saying I had brought Vegeta's twins Gene and Amanda with me so they could all play together, I was feeling around to sense what might be unique about Kaomea's energy. I was feeling a bit disoriented already, so I felt around a bit more carefully, and I could clearly see an irregular frequency there. My Penticon computer implant checked it and said this frequency wouldn't cause any problems for either dark energy users or light energy users, just someone who uses both. The computer said it had run simulations (that was fast) and found this frequency passes harmlessly by someone using either dark or light energy, but with someone who uses both, it causes the two energies to mix in such a way that they cancel each other out… thus leaving little or no energy behind. The computer reported that could easily account for my inability to use spells when I had been fighting demons with Kaomea. And it would also account for the difficulty Walms had been having with his powers lately since he had gotten this frequency through Asuka, who had gotten it from merging with Kaomea. The computer said that all that is needed is a technique to channel this frequency through without mixing the dark and light energies, the technique is simple, and after using it for a short time should become automatic whenever it is needed.

My lucidity was still a bit too lacking to quite understand all of that, but after I waited for a couple minutes while hearing what I should focus on… a narrow channel through myself to keep the strange energy from mixing… any disorientation left me and I felt fine. I turned towards Kaomea, "HA!" I said, startling her, MoSh, and Asuka into silence, "Your energy trick won't work on me anymore! I am now immune to your energy nullification effect," then I did a very bad imitation of an evil laugh, which made everyone laugh. I faked looking hurt, saying people aren't supposed to laugh at my evilness… but then I started laughing, too. Kaomea asked if I meant I had found a solution to the way her energy affected mine, and I said yes, I had, so there was no longer anything to worry about… or at least there shouldn't be. I told her she would still want to keep her distance from Walms until he either learns this technique or comes up with one of his own, though, as well as anyone else we meet who uses both dark and light energies that is an ally. Kaomea said Vegeta seems to use every kind of energy she has ever heard of, and a bunch she has never heard of, and a few she didn't think could possibly exist… Serena said Vegeta is unique.

So now we all spent some time having fun at the hidden springs. There was a large waterfall that concealed a hidden cavern, and in the cavern there were several piles of sparkling crystals. It didn't look like they could have ended up there on their own, so I wondered if someone else had collected them there. There were also several streams flowing into the pool from a hill on the far side of the pool. The streams flowed over some rocky ground, but the water was moving at a quick rate, and it was perfect for riding tubes down into the pool as if they were waterslides. The longest one was quite a ride from the top until it got to the bottom… I saw Gene and Amanda using pieces of wood as surf boards, and riding those down the water slides… it looked like they were having fun, and soon the others were doing that as well. I spent some time playing with the kids, lying out relaxing, and exploring the place before I finally woke. This turned out to be a very relaxing dream.

Our last 2 dreams are not exactly shared but we both encounter a woman who says "this is the past, present and future"

My dreams.

The Fight.

I am battling Kaomea hand to hand. We are basically punching and blocking but at super speed. I begin my Hyryu Sheten Ha. I begin backing up, she asses me and then comes at fuller force, almost in a rage. I begin backing into a spiral. Everytime I back up she gets more aggressive and mad, and it's getting me harder to feign off her attacks. however this only speeds up the spiral. I can hear her thinking, "Is he stupid? he's doing exactly what i told him NOT to do, he didn't listen to me,,, gah this makes me mad" at the middle point of the spiral I have captured enough of her aggressive energy and form it into a beam of fire and plazma. I almost hesitate because i don't want to hurt her, but then i realize she must learn this lesson, so it's nothing personal. i throw it at her and she's now all crispy like a piece of toast.

I go up to her and say, "your agressiveness is strong and powerfull, but because you can't control it and don't know how to use it properly it can be used against you. I lured you into a false sense of security and you underestimated me because of that. This was your first lesson."

Waking up

I wake up in bed. I'm in a large white bedroom with a large window overlooking the sea. It's bright in the dream but there seems to be no definable source of it. Next to me is a woman. She seems really familiar, she's also waking up and smiles at me.
I go, "huh. what? what is this place where am I?" or something. The woman shushes me. She smiles. I say "I thought weren't going to..." She cuts me off and tells me it's not time to get up yet. She says something about this place we are in exists out of space time. This is the past present and future she tells me. I'm confused. She tells me to just sleep, and that it's going to be ok. i lay my head back down to sleep. The woman is fiddling with a piece of my hair and humming softly as I fall asleep.

Kaomea's dreams:

Night Club

I remember wanting to find a night club so that I could party (LOL). I was thinking, ‘Oh! I’ll go to the one Paris Hilton goes to’. So I open up a portal and BAM I’m at a pretty hippy club in Las Vegas I think, haha. I walk in, go straight to the bar area and I see my man! (sorry, that’s what I thought in the dream). I walk over and have a seat at the bar, I don’t think he notices me cuz he hasn’t said hi. For some reason he looks like Danny McCoy from Las Vegas (see picture below if you’ve been living underground for ages ) So I just have a seat, soak in the energy from the club, and reeeeeelax. Then a blonde bartender walks up, starts talking to the guy I’m sitting near, she is fully coming onto him, I get mildly annoyed and try to ignore it but she continues in this manner until I can’t ignore it. I put on my sunglasses (in a dark nightclub) and try to think of other things to push through my mind. I even take sips of my Vodka/juice drink that appears in front of me. That doesn’t work either.

So finally I just get annoyed enough that I tell the bartender in a very smooth manner, “You are a beautiful girl, attractive, intelligent, good with people, (I continue giving her compliments until..) However, you are a little shallow and it shows.” Then I gesture to the man to make my final point, “You see this man here? He and I may look like we’re just friends, but it goes deeper than that.” Then I say really flattering things about him and I then repeat that she is shallow. (She wants him for his money and looks, I could feel it). (LOL! Oops). For some reason this hurts her greatly and she walks away from me to the other side of the bar. She’s crying (awwwww) and I start feeling kinda bad now. She starts leaving the bar area, walks past where I’m sitting and heads for the door.

I feel really bad at this point and I turn in my chair (LOL I didn’t even bother to stand up?!) and I start giving her a very sincere apology. She doesn’t really believe me, but I finally persuade her to come over to me and we chat for a bit. I’m explaining why I told her what I did and she’s slowly coming around and I feel her energy has stabilized and she’s feeling almost back to normal. Somewhere in this scene a weird chick walks up. (see picture). The chick says absolutely nothing, she’s wearing a long flowy white cotton skirt, a long sleeved Stevenson Middle School shirt with blue text, and she kinda looks like her head is empty (maybe a DC?) During the conversation with the bartender she keeps referring back to this silent chick and getting answers from her about ME. What it looks like to me is the bartender just is staring at the silent chick, then gets answers from her about me, and I’m left standing there like wtf am I missing? I hear squat. It’s like the bartender is referencing what I’m telling her and matching it up with the silent chick. Like seeing if I’m lying to her or not. I’m thinking, ‘I don’t lie, I have no reason to lie’.

We make our way to the door, we’re both just about ready to leave (I assume Mosh has just popped out at some point). We get to the front of the club and I turn around and the silent chick is freaking following me. I get kinda annoyed/curious as to who she is and why she’s like attached to me with an invisible leash. As soon as I think that the bartender chick explains it to me. She informs me the chick is me. It is everything that was, the past, present, and future.” WTF does THAT mean. That is not a valid explanation in my mind. All I could gather from that odd statement was that the chick was me and it’s either my subconscious, a double, twinner, extra, I don’t freaking know. So then once I learn that it’s me, I take a closer look at the silent chick. All I can think is, ‘if that’s me, why do I look like that? That’s not me, how is that me? Why do I look like that?’ It would seem that I miss entire concepts and all I care is how she looks different from me (facepalms at my own stupidity).

Next thing I know, it’s obvious an idea hits the bartender upside her head as she blurts out a question to the silent me (yeah, and then I wondered why the hell the silent me was dressed like that at a night club, or anywhere for that matter). Something odd happens and the bartender is now staring at the wall (wtf). She’s like half a foot away from the wall and just staring at the thing. I’m left feeling like what did I miss again? Then two red glowing dots start to appear on the wall, I was getting a bad feeling about whatever was happening and the bartender is still not moving. Next thing I know, my double appears to have unleashed herself from me (remember the invisible leash I mentioned earlier?) yeah, so now she’s walking briskly away from me and the bartender. At some point the bartender snaps out of it and the both of us try to chase after the silent me. Silent me turns a corner, we’re trailing behind her and finally turn the corner too and it seems the silent me has poofed. All I can gather is the silent me has information which wasn’t meant to be shared with whatever question the bartender had asked. Oh well. So me and the bartender just sit down on some stairs, she’s lying down in jeans with studded red accents on them.. I’m wearing a red outfit myself, and we’re just hanging like two friends.

At some point while Mosh was there, I kept looking at the receipt for my drink. I couldn’t make sense of it. My shot of vodka with some sort of yellow juice was $7.78. I had no clue why it was so cheap. If we were really at a club in Las Vegas, one that Paris Hilton goes to, my mind kept fighting the $7.78 because drinks should be more expensive than that. I think I looked at the receipt about five times before I let the issue go.



Sparring

I know I met up with him, I know we fought, and I know ….. I almost want to lie and say I kicked his butt, lol, just for the sake of it. Unfortunately that is not the case. He handed me my ass on a silver platter. Grumbles. I’m sort of glad I don’t remember the dream but at the same time, I’d like to remember it so that I can adapt to whatever tactics he uses. Pffft’ness.

I woke up and my entire body hurt. Shoulders, legs, especially my lower back. I don’t know what the hell we did in the fight, but Mosh you owe me a massage damnit.

Lucid?

I remember being in a lucid dream, but all the details are lost.

Trying to find Chris: Highestridge.

I remember Chris inviting me and Kaomea to a lecture of his. We wound up in some big city at night time. The place chris wanted us to find him seemed to be in a really bad area. Kaomea was following behind me and we kept walking. We were nearing chris when we came across a bunch of crack addicts. They were smoking it all over out of glass pipes, and the smoke was putrid. It really stank. I decided to go back, and I think I lost kaomea at this point . when I started bck a few of the craxck addicts tried to attack me, I remember running away and everywhere i went were more crackheads. Some were in withdrawl on the ground in convulsions. others were asking me for money. I finally remember finding my way out of the hell hole.

Bonnie

I remember finding bonnie, they psychic, However in the dream she was a different person. I was trying to talk to her but she kept shrugging me off. She didn't seem like she wanted to help people anymore, and just seemed to be doing readings for her own ego gratification.

Umm

Note: sorry to kaomea, my dream self often gets amnesia.

I was in a dark room with some shady people. We are all gathered around a woman with an ugly face. She's sitting on a couch, naked and some guy is using a vibrator on her. He pulls it out and she looks at me and says "Do something." I am kind of uncomfortable but decide to perform oral sex on her. I won't give details... sorry.

Cannibal

I'm in the woods on quite a number of trails. I come across a Cannibal, He is all dirty and has matted brown hair. He is eating off of some dead person. I suddenly have a picture album of him at the scene. I then run into my cousin Kari, she says she is on her way to meet this cannibal. I tell her that he will eat and kill her, but she doesn't believe me even when I show her the picture album.

Interpretation: This dream forsee that my cousin will have a disease that will eat away at her, maybe cancer or a flesh eating disease. Even if I show her this dream and warning she will probably refuse to accept it.

Guitar queero

I'm in some place where I see an asian guy playing a guitar. There are guitars behind him so i inspect them and pick one up. At first it is a full six string guitar. But when I play it, it turns intoa guitar hero guitar. I can still play it and make music with it however... LOL

Kaomea visits

I had a dream that she visited me suddenly in waking life. I told her that her coming is absolutely crazy. The is in agreement with that and laughs. We are supposed to go out somewhere but All I find are bagy and torn pairs of pants. I yell at my brother for mixing my laundry with his (again). Kaomea returns from shopping with three pairs of pants. The dream diverges.

In one dream the pairs of pants fit me. In the other dream the pants are baggy and torn and are for her to wear so that we both can go out looking stupid together.

Dog WTF

Asuka and Kaomea merge and turn into a small dog that is multi colored. The dog surprises me in the backyard and licks my face. Then it tries to stick it's tongue in my mouth. i laugh and say That I can't make out with a dog... LOL

Note: Tonight I pulled a Walms! FA, get out of bed, RC… continues to have a nice lucid dream… *does the happy dance* I just wish I could make myself do a RC every time I wake up in the night or in the morning, I would catch a lot more FA's… Yay for FA's!

I woke up in bed, got up to use the bathroom, and for once I thought to do a RC right away… and it turned out I was dreaming! Awesome! I was in the middle of a real FA!

For some reason this idea seriously excited me at that point in time, almost as if I had never had a FA before, and I had to focus to calm myself down a bit before focusing on remembering what my goals for the night were. I remembered that one of my goals had been to go meet Erik's guide with MoSh, but that was already done. So what was my next goal? I didn't have any other goals for the night, so that meant I was free to figure out what I wanted to do. I thought I could check out the house in Oblivion, the one in Skingrad, and even though I hadn't been in contact with Tigress I could still do something there on my own. Hmmm… instead, maybe I would try to just try to open a portal to get somewhere I was needed. I focused on Through the Never and on opening a portal, then I went through that portal…

I found myself back in MoSh's inner world, which took me by surprise since I had already completed the goal I had with MoSh. So maybe there was something else I had to do with MoSh tonight, which was fine, but first I had to find him. I looked around MoSh's inner world for a bit, taking real notice of it for the first time, and realizing things there were far from normal. Things were quite dark and creepy, like used to happen quite often, but it hasn't happened much recently, so what might have happened to create this problem? Since I thought that might be why I was there, to clean up the place, I started focusing on cleaning up the dark energy and replacing it with light energy. I went into MoSh's house and started cleaning up in there, I saw Asuka in there as well. She was clearly not well, she was cackling like some kind of a mad woman, and her eyes were solid black. She was throwing some kind of strange energy bolts at me, they seemed to be made of solidified dark energy. I could tell she needed serious healing, so I focused on the song Silver and Cold to pull dark energy out of her and Touch My Heart to replace it with light… and she disappeared.

I didn't know where Asuka had gone, but I figured I would find her again soon, as long as she hadn't left MoSh's inner world… and if she had left MoSh's inner world, I would track her down then. I continued through the house, absorbing dark energy from the place and replacing it with light, then I went back outside and continued doing that. I walked around for a bit absorbing dark energy, I wondered where MoSh might be, and where were the kinds, Data, the EMH he recently installed? Was this really MoSh's inner world? Or could I be in the wrong place? Well, no matter where I was, Asuka had been there and she had been seriously infected. Maybe I should find Asuka next, then check to see if I was really in MoSh's inner world or if I might be in the wrong place somehow… after all, I hadn't focused on reaching MoSh's inner world, I had just focused on going somewhere I was needed.

As I was about to open a portal to track Asuka down I saw that I wasn't alone, there was someone else there standing not too far from me. I went over to investigate and see who it was, it looked like he was surrounded by an aura of dark energy, but it looked stable and I didn't sense hostility… So I went over to investigate the person closer, to see what he was doing there, and when I got closer to him I recognized him… it was Walms! I went over and said hello to him, I asked if he was here to clean up some of this dark energy, after all it would be just a midnight snack for him… He didn't answer me, instead he looked at me with a puzzled look on his face, if it wasn't for the fact that he is lucid in 99.9% of his dreams, I would have thought he wasn't lucid there. But then he does have a few non-lucid dreams… occasionally. I told him he was dreaming, maybe he should do a RC, check out the gravity of the area or whatever it is he does for a RC. He looked at me strangely, making me have serious doubts that I had identified him correctly, I was having serious doubts that it was Walms at all…

I felt I needed to clean the place up, so I continued absorbing dark energy, and I saw that Walms, or the person I had first thought was Walms, was doing the same. I continued cleaning up dark energy, Walms and I got separated while I was cleaning the place up, and I ended up wandering into the garden area out behind MoSh's house, where I found Asuka. She looked just as nuts as she had before, she attacked me with dark energy bolts again, I dodged the attacks and jumped up into the air, sending a couple of tendrils of Witchblade to hold her and keep her from disappearing again. I looked around, and the area that might or might not be MoSh's inner world was much cleaner than it had been, it looked a lot brighter and was clear of dark energy, so now I had to get Asuka healed. I focused on the songs I had tried to use before, Silver and Cold to draw dark energy out and Touch My Heart to put light energy in, and this time it seemed effective. After the song spells had completed, Asuka looked like her normal self and seemed quite confused at the fact she was tied up, so I let her loose.

The first thing Asuka was wanting to know about was MoSh, she said she didn't know where MoSh was, she might have done something to MoSh, she said she should have known something like this would happen, she knew she would never be able to keep control if she tried to fight, why had everyone insisted she try to fight when we all knew she would lose control again? Why? I told her I thought Vegeta and Tuvok had helped her with that, but she said there's no way either of them would ever understand the force inside her, that there is no way she could control it… I saw she was crying, saying she was sure she'd done something horrible, and it was MoSh she had done it to, so what now? I told her MoSh can't be seriously hurt in a dream, but let's find him. I opened a portal, focusing on finding MoSh, and then I led Asuka through the portal.

On the other side of the portal I found MoSh was there, and he was there with Kaomea, he looked quite worried about something. He seemed glad to see me, he said Kaomea needed healing, he said he had tried to heal her as best as he could, but she really needed to be taken to the healing glen for healing there. I said Asuka could probably use the extra positive energy, too, as she had been really badly infected somehow. I focused on opening a portal to the healing glen, and then all of us went through it, MoSh, Asuka, Kaomea, and me. I telepathically contacted Basara even as we were going through the portal, so when we exited into the healing glen, Basara showed up there soon after. The Crystal Golem was there, and we did a group healing spell, Basara, MoSh, and I did healing spells along with the Crystal Golem, the entire area was filled with golden energy. The golden energy was very relaxing, and it is here that I woke.

Note: I fell asleep tonight with a couple plans with MoSh, though I didn't have any actual plans with Tigress since I wasn't able to talk with her today for some unknown reason… I fell asleep with my light / sound machine as usual, and I was once again successful in slipping into a WILD. Each time I do this it is amazing, since I went for so long being unable to do it or even have a lucid dream or even remember many non-lucids!

As I entered my WILD, I found I was in MoSh's inner world as I often am, I looked around but I didn't really have enough time to really see anything before MoSh was beside me saying he knew where to find Erik's guide. He said he really wanted to see what EG had to say, so he hoped at least one of us would remember, and by one of us he meant me… I said he should at least try to have a positive attitude, but didn't go any farther than that. MoSh opened a portal and the two of use went through into a wide green field, there was a stage at one end of the field, it looked like an outdoor concert venue. There were people on the stage setting up musical equipment, getting things ready, but they didn't seem to be in any kind of a rush. I saw the man I have come to recognize as Erik's guide not far off, he came over to us and said he had been expecting us. With that the scene around us changed, apparently EG had teleported us somewhere else, I now saw we were in a small but comfortable room, I couldn't tell much about it other than there were seats for everyone and a small fridge from which EG took three beers and tossed one to MoSh and one to me.

EG sat down and took a drink from his beer, then said he also knew why we had come here, that surprised me a bit, but it didn't seem surprising to MoSh at all. I figured it was normal for EG to answer questions before they had even been asked? Was he reading our minds right now? Puppies lift their legs so they can fly from the force created when they take a piss… that was what I thought… no reaction from anyone, so either that wasn't as weird as I thought it was or no one was reading my mind. Instead of acknowledging my thought in any way, EG started talking on a different subject, he was talking about what we had come to ask him. He was talking about MoSh getting together with Kaomea, he was saying that of course it was a possibility, anything is possible, but that doesn't make it easy. He said anything worth having is worth fighting for, and if it works out like it should, this would definitely be worth it.

MoSh wanted to know why this would have to be so difficult, why couldn't something be easy for a change, hadn't he earned it? EG said a life of ease isn't something you earn, it's something you create… and it is also almost always considerably less rewarding than the lives of those who choose the more difficult paths. EG said that MoSh was wondering why there would be resistance to him getting with Kaomea, but he had already noticed the reason even though he hadn't acknowledged it as such. He said that MoSh is not really supposed to be in this world, this was not where he had been intended to go, something had sent him here anyway. He asked MoSh if he hadn't sensed this at numerous points in his life, that he was an outsider in his own world… before MoSh could answer, EG said of course MoSh had felt that way, this is also one of the signs that a person is likely to be a nagual.

My mind wandered a bit, making me wonder if MoSh was an outsider like I am an outsider, maybe there was still a chance to find someone out there that would want to be with me? Or maybe my one chance was gone, having turned out to be with a complete asshole. Now I found out that EG could read my thoughts. He said that yes, an outsider can indeed find a soul mate in a world that wasn't meant to be their home, it just doesn't work easily. He said he knew of the events I was talking about, with the one I call James (my ex boyfriend), and when it had started it had the potential to work out fine. The main problem was that negative energies poisoned us, created problems between us, then eventually consumed the weaker of us, which was James. That made James into an asshole, trying for quite a while to push me away as I was still fighting the forces to stay together… until it finally worked, until he had finally done so much hurt to me that there was no way I would… or should… stay with him. He said it might not seem like it, but I was actually the one to come out on top in that situation, I was currently much better off than James.

MoSh wanted the topic back on him and Koamea, he said he wanted to know what he had to do in order to make things work out with her. EG gestured towards me, he said that meeting me might just have given MoSh the added knowledge he would need in order to make this relationship work, to overcome the forces that would seek to force them apart. He said when I had been trying to hold on, and even when James had wanted to hold on as well, neither of us knew much about dark and negative energies, when James acted like an ass I would get angry and send his negativity back, multiplied, then James would send it back to me multiplied again, until it reached a breaking point and we separated for a while, both of us both furious and depressed, wanting to both punch the other one in the face and cry at the same time… it usually ended up with me crying and James punching the nearest wall. Towards the beginning, it seemed James had accepted and understood that negative energies were frequently the cause of our problems… but over time he stopped accepting that as a reason and placed the blame fully on me, or sometimes on himself, but usually on me.

EG said this wouldn't have to happen with MoSh and Kaomea, because MoSh knows about negative and dark energies, and Kaomea would also seem to know about it. With both of them knowing what dark energy is and the effect it has, they would know better than to just multiply it and send it back when their partner got negative. Each of them would be able to understand that the other one was acting out of reaction to dark energy infection instead of just being an ass. So instead of having the dark energy and negativity escalate until it exploded, they would seek healing for each other, a way to get rid of the intruding dark energy, to set the other one free of it. This would rob the forces seeking to separate them of the most dangerous weapon they had. He said as long as MoSh and Kaomea couldn't be turned against each other, no force in the universe could separate them against their wills.

MoSh wanted to know who was seeking to separate him and Kaomea, and why were they seeking to do that. EG said he knows the nature of the forces, though not the exact identity, because the identity of those opposing MoSh and Kaomea would change… The nature of it was that which seeks to keep everything on a perfectly ordered path, the different timelines themselves seem to have a will of their own, and they don't like being interfered with. He said that is why it takes a significant event to alter any timeline, significant as when someone from outside the dimension interferes and makes considerable changes. That will inevitably create a ripple in the timeline. One of the inhabitants of the timeline changing their own timeline is very difficult, usually this just gets done from outside the dimension. So when an outsider such as MoSh or me enters a dimension and tries to find a companion or even just tries to find a place for themselves, that creates a ripple, which the timeline will fight. He said I already knew that, and for a while James had known, too, but then James had somehow forgotten that as he got consumed with negative energies.

MoSh seemed to be lost in thought about something, I wondered what he was thinking, EG waited for a few minutes while MoSh seemed to be muttering to himself incoherently. EG finally said that MoSh and I are more alike than we know, that saying we are like brother and sister isn't by any means incorrect. He said we had both gone through hard times that had left us fractured, but not broken, he said neither of us would be broken by any force in this world no matter how unsure of that we ourselves might be, he looked at me when he said that. EG looked back at MoSh and said MoSh and Kaomea have a very good chance of making things work, a very good chance of avoiding the fatal errors that James and I had made, although most of the errors were James' mistakes, and to keep the negativity from pulling them apart. He looked directly at MoSh, and told him that as long as both he and Kaomea are willing to hold on, they cannot be pulled apart… as long as BOTH of them hold on. This is where my memories end.

My mind was in some chaos last night. Went to bed not focusing on lucidity or remembering dreams much, just wanted a good night's sleep. now my dreams won't leave me alone.... but in a good way.

Kaomea

Saw Kaomea at school. She was sitting at a desk writing diagrams about twinners, doubles, and energy fields. She kept theorizing about it to no end. She was using a calculator to try and solve her problems. I just laughed.

Truck driver

I had a dream that I was a truck driver. I remember pulling into a pit stop. As soon as I parked I was like "WTF?!?!!? since when did I become a truck driver?"

I was becoming lucid but woke up too fast.

Market

I was at some market with my brother. I saw him in the hallway and said I wanted to get a few things to myself. I found a bag of chips I like. Then I started looking for a particular brand of instant ramen.
found a place in the store that led to a party hall. I saw my brother leaving with a couple of girls. I followed him outside. He got in a car fast and started driving away. I got distracted by some other guy pulling out of the parking lot, he almost ran me over. I had to run a few ft. to avoid his large swerve. He wasn't even looking ahead. By then My brother was on the highway speeding away. 'You forgot about me!" I yelled. Thunder crackled and it started to ran. It was a long way to walk. I felt abandoned and tears started welling up.

Kaomea's inner world.

I was in Kaomea's inner world. I think we were in the same bed having a discussion. Can't remember the whole discussion, but she had her hand on my chest where my heart was beating. She looked at me and said "You have every right to have that/this" or something.

I said, "I have been with Asuka for almost a year. I never gave up when things got really bad time and time again. You really think I'm going to let this go just because we had a silly little fight? do you really think i'm going to give up just because of what might happen? If I did that, i'd be like everyone else who has nothing but a sop story to tell. remember, i've been at this for a long time with asuka. and We've only known eachother for a few days. to give up now would just be stupid."

"You're so right Neevok, Thank you."

I woke like "WTF?!?!?!?!? NEEVOK????"

I thought I was about to wake up, so I told MoSh and Asuka that. MoSh asked if I couldn't dilate time, I said I certainly could try that, so I focused on Allura's method of time dilation. That seemed to work, the dream became stable again, so I figured we could keep going. I focused on opening a portal to find Kaomea, then MoSh and I went through the portal.

As MoSh and I stepped out of the portal, I looked around to see we were now on a beach next to what I thought looked a bit like a lagoon, or it at least looked like the lagoon I used to see when watching old reruns of Gilligan's Island… I looked closer and spotted Kaomea on the beach, she was looking out over the water and didn't seem to have noticed us yet. MoSh said her name, and she looked over at us with a weird smile on her face. She climbed up on a rock and slipped off all of her clothes, so she was now standing up there in the nude… I wasn't sure what to make of that… She looked directly at MoSh and then jumped into the water, turning into a mermaid on her way down and entering the lagoon with a splash. She surfaced and looked over at MoSh again, then proclaimed she likes swimming naked with men who have old souls… uh… I wasn't sure what to make of that, did it confirm she needed healing? Was that her normal behavior? I had no clue…

MoSh apparently took it as in invitation, as he waded out into the lagoon, I'm not sure if his clothes disappeared, but if they did, they didn't vanish until that part was underwater. Kaomea giggled a bit, it appeared to me she was a bit amused by his modesty, which I figured was because I was there. Kaomea hadn't really acknowledged my presence at all, and if she was going to want to get hot and wild with MoSh, that was something I didn't really want to hang around and see. But MoSh had seemed so sure that she needed healing, so I figured I would stick around for a bit longer and make sure nothing bad happened.

As MoSh and Kaomea moved farther out into the lagoon, I saw there was a whirlpool out there that hadn’t been there just a moment before. There were figures coming out of the whirlpool, too, which didn't seem too likely, and the things coming out of it were butt ugly. There were zombies coming out of the whirlpool, zombies that distinctly reminded me of the evil pirates in the first Pirates of the Caribbean movie, the ones that turned into zombies when the light of the moon shined on them. Of course right now it was daylight, and these zombies looked every bit as disgusting as the ones on Pirates of the Caribbean movie, and the strangest thing was a couple of them were whispering something to Kaomea. She was listening intently to them, then she turned towards MoSh and smirked. She said if he was her soul mate, she was going to kill herself right now so she could spend eternity with the zombie pirate to her right. My stomach churned and I thought I might vomit when she kissed the thing, kissing a zombie? That was truly disgusting, and when she pulled away I could see the slime of decaying flesh sticking to her face, though she seemed completely unaware of it.

First MoSh looked stunned, then he looked mad, leading me to wonder if he had somehow forgotten the reason we'd had for tracking Kaomea down in the first place, to heal her from dark energy infection. Apparently she was still infected, and those zombies weren't making things any better. And she was getting nasty, too, she was telling MoSh that there was no way that any woman would put up with the likes of him, that he would grow old and die a complete no one and when he did die, no one would give a shit, that all that would be left is for him to sink into the realm of the forgotten souls and rot there for eternity, she was laughing in a nasty manner…

While she was coming up with nasty things to say to MoSh, I had turned into a mermaid and swam out towards her, she still wasn't paying any attention at all to me, I figured that was fine… she didn't need to be paying attention for me to do a healing spell. She was saying more nasty things to MoSh that I didn't catch, and then I was focusing on Touch My Heart. Before the spell could really get started, however, MoSh was charging at Kaomea, getting mad at her for deceiving him, for playing games with him when she knew perfectly well he was seriously looking for Asuka's twinner in his waking life. I did a brief double take, but then I swam away from Kaomea and grabbed MoSh, I saw all the zombies standing around Kaomea laughing at us, she was laughing right along with them, I told MoSh to quit it, we had known before coming here that Kaomea was infected with dark energy, this was just a symptom of that. He didn't seem to quite get that, so I told him that I would take care of healing Kaomea if he could just keep the zombies off of us while I was doing it. He finally agreed to that.

So while MoSh was attacking the zombies, I went over to Kaomea and focused again on the song Touch My Heart, using it to pull dark energy out of her and replace it with light energy… if she was Asuka's twinner, then she should be using light energy… This time the song played through without interruption. I saw MoSh off to the side a couple of times doing an interesting version of underwater martial arts… and kicking serious zombie ass with it. One of the zombies got almost close enough to interfere with my spell, but MoSh interfered with him and kicked him so hard in the face that his head flew off. I was thinking MoSh had been acting a bit negative himself, so I finished Touch My Heart, directing some of the healing energy at MoSh, as well. After this was done I woke.

Note: I don't have any solid memories of when I was going to share a dream with both of them to try to remember music, but I am remembering some music that I don't think I've actually heard IWL.

Note: I had even more plans tonight than last night, it seems that when I have a lot of stuff planned that I have an easier time remembering the goals and remembering the dreams. That might be one reason my drought went on for so long, when I couldn't count on a lucid, I didn't really make any plans… This night I had plans to meet up with Kaomea, MoSh, and Asuka, and we were going to try to play some music and then remember it IWL. In addition to that I had a Law and Order: SVU dream planned with Tigress, so I figured I would be able to remember something and accomplish something… I started by using my light sound machine and slipping into a WILD…

I entered the WILD, the scene around me slowly became solid as the patterns of colors solidified into a consistent scene. Once the scene had resolved itself I realized I was in the front yard of MoSh's house inside his inner world, I was thinking that hadn't happened much lately and it seemed a good sign that I was appearing there now. MoSh was outside the house, I'm not sure what he was trying to do, but when he saw me he stopped and came running over to me, something was clearly wrong. He said now they were both infected, both Asukas were infected. Both Asukas? He said yeah, both the Asuka he has known for a long time and the dream self of the waking life twinner of Asuka. Kaomea was also infected with dark energy. I wondered who had been attacking Kaomea, but I figured that didn't matter until after she and Asuka were healed, cleared of the dark energy infecting them. I asked MoSh where they were, he said Asuka was in the house being kept there by Data, but he didn't know where Kaomea was right then. Ok, then, Asuka first. Both MoSh and I went into his house.

Inside the house I saw the normal place I am used to seeing, though I knew it had been a while since I had successfully visited there, MoSh indicated the stairs, so we went up there. Data was at the door to one of the bedrooms, I could hear Asuka in the room getting all kinds of angry and letting out expletives that might even make a drunken sailor blush… that was definitely not the Asuka I know… So I went into the room, I saw Asuka lying on the bed by herself, but as soon as she saw there was someone coming she summoned a naked DC and started making out with him. The DC was one of those guys that is pretty good looking, but looked like he was all good looks and physique and absolutely no brains. Of course since it was a DC, that was no doubt true. MoSh came into the room behind me and saw Asuka making out with the himbo, Asuka looked over at us as if she was just now noticing us. She told us to leave, she was making out with a real man for a change instead of the loser she normally hung around with. She looked over at MoSh as if she had spotted him for the first time, then she said there the loser was right now, maybe if he took some notes he could figure out how to be a real man, too.

That was just absurd, suggesting that her stupid DC was any kind of a real man, so I used my own dream control to alter her DC into a little wimp who got up off of her and revealed his 'manhood' was about the size of a small earthworm and just as floppy as a dead worm, too. He chuckled at it as he played with it for a bit, then he shriveled up and blew out the window on a light breeze, I told her that was how much of a man her DC really was. Now to take care of things, I went over to Asuka, who was a bit annoyed at me for bursting her illusion of the hot DC boyfriend, and I focused on the song Touch My Heart, drawing the dark energy out of Asuka and into myself, replacing it with light energy which she was supposed to have. The song finished with no difficulty, and Asuka was sitting on the bed looking at me, then she looked at MoSh, then she had tears in her eyes, though I wasn't sure if they were tears of sadness over what had just happened or tears of rage at the assholes who had done it… Asuka said this couldn't happen again, not right when MoSh might be meeting the girl he was meant to find, no one could be allowed to fuck that up…

MoSh said that Kaomea had been infected, too, so we should go find her and heal her. Asuka was apologizing to MoSh, and she was also cursing whoever had infected her, and she was fluently cursing them for infecting Kaomea… She said it wasn't fair for them to start attacking Kaomea, before Kaomea even had a chance to get used to the idea of shared dreaming and finding MoSh in dreams and that MoSh was her soul mate and… and… She said no only was it unfair, it is just flat out wrong, there was no way they should be allowed to do that. MoSh said we needed to go find Kaomea, then we could heal her and make sure everything was ok. I thought I was about to wake up, so I told MoSh and Asuka that. MoSh asked if I couldn't dilate time, I said I certainly could try that, so I focused on Allura's method of time dilation. That seemed to work, the dream became stable again, so I figured we could keep going. I focused on opening a portal to find Kaomea, then MoSh and I went through the portal.

… To be continued…

★★★★

Waking up

I wake up in bed. I'm in a large white bedroom with a large window overlooking the sea. It's bright in the dream but there seems to be no definable source of it. Next to me is a woman. She seems really familiar, she's also waking up and smiles at me.
I go, "huh. what? what is this place where am I?" or something. The woman shushes me. She smiles. I say "I thought weren't going to..." She cuts me off and tells me it's not time to get up yet. She says something about this place we are in exists out of space time. This is the past present and future she tells me. I'm confused. She tells me to just sleep, and that it's going to be ok. i lay my head back down to sleep. The woman is fiddling with a piece of my hair and humming softly as I fall asleep.

town wtf.

i'm walking along a street in Olds when some guy in a van drives by. I recognize him, he tells me it's time to go to work.
I hope in the vehicle and now it's a white car with no roof. There are 3 others in the car that I know. I recognize one as Gino. We drive on the highway towards disbury. When we arrive in Dids the car stops at some farmer's market. I begin questioning why I'm in the car. What work am I supposed to do? Why a farmer's market.

missing time

I'm in a large truck being driven by Sho. We are in didsbury still and heading towards the old run down fourplex condo's that bears the nickname "chicken coops". Sho keeps telling me that we have to arrive here and leave before the police come. Apperently he's making a drug run and decided to drag me into it unwillingly.

We turn into the coops and I tell him that I'm not interested in doing any illegal favors for him, so just let me out please. He says ok and Drives on the lawn. i jump out of his truck which is now a big garbage disposal truck. I am standing on the lawn and see another truck run and hit sho's truck. He ges out of the trucka nd starts running. The other truck chases hima nd runs people down. Sho finds a dead end wall and the truck runs over him. His body isn't crumpled, but the truck keeps rolling back and forth over his body. I am mortified. I hear sirens nearby. Soon an ambulance crew arrives and tries to aid all the people that got run over. The have large scissors and are severing off useless body limbs from the people. sho is clearly dead. I get sicka nd run into one of the fourplexes.

when i arrive in the fourplex I realize I am at an apartment of some kind. I try to fly to confirm I'm dreaming. I only manage to jump and float a bit. I do the Nose pinch RC, but can't breathe. I'm still positive i'm dreaming, I try to think how I got here. I remember the ride to the town, the farmer's market, and the thing with Sho. But I can't remember waking up from my house. so i must be dreaming.
I look around my scene a bit. Every time I blink the stairs I am looking at alters. At one point it looks impossible and i feel myself losing the dream.

I wind up non lucid. Somehow I get into my dad's truck and we start driving towards Olds again. He tells me I should work on my long weekend since we have 3 new houses to coat. i think he's lying because I don't remember us starting any new houses.

pre dream hypnagogia.

bunch of mini lucid flashes of seeing my hands, and then some of me holding various objects.

what is the question?

I am on facebook chatting with M. I can't remember the conversation much. Our convo boxes are on the left hand side of the page instead of the right. I get an answer to a question that I forgot I asked. I even forgot the question. all I know is that i clearly saw her answer as "Yes." not expecting that, I woke up suddenly.