dream fragment

An old man and a young man have just gone through a portal to another world, chasing someone who's stolen something. The old man asks around after him, but the description he gives, which would have been very unique in the world they're coming from, is almost useless in this one: they're looking for a man about 6 feet tall, dressed "like a warrior." The majority of the men they're talking to here are wearing armor, so that's not very helpful. Bit of a memory gap then, something involving a woman they know and the young man getting into trouble.

The young man's in jail, where another man from another world - not the one they were looking for - is being kept separate, a big blond Viking-looking guy in a large cell full of straw, who seems a little lost and confused. He's being questioned by the jailer, who's talking about that woman who came up earlier; she has a very long series of names, ending with Williams. She's married to someone very respectable, and she's denied that she knows the man in the cell. The jailer is telling him this to try to get him to admit that his story about knowing her was a lie and confess what's really going on, but the man in the cell is completely bewildered. The young man, on the other hand, is aware that there are three versions of Williams, the one that belongs to this world, the one from his, and the one that loves this man in the cell.

Williams arrives in the jail then - the young man believes she's the version from his world. She refers to the young man as Zachary, and she's carrying a fox - when I look at the fox, I'm aware that Zachary is a shapeshifter, and there's some connection to this particular fox. Williams goes to the man in the cell and she calls him "Tin Man," which is a sort of code name, and she's using it to reassure him of who she is and that she really knows him. Zachary believes that the Williams from his world has been posing as the version from this other guy's world in order to get some information out of him. She has him let out of the cell, and when he goes to her, their eyes - the fox's as well - start glowing green, and I have the feeling this means they're about to move between worlds. She looks to Zachary and says something apologetic, and he suddenly realizes that this is both his Williams and the one this guy loves, and that the fox is him - he's looking at their future.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

Just fragments for the rest of the day:

An intelligent species of birds that are dying out after losing all their females to some disaster, giving some other species advice in the hopes of avoiding that same disaster.

Walking down a street, four dancers appear in front of us, concealing an assassin among them.

Something to do with prison and hooded figures "finding their own way."

Describing the story of the King in Yellow to someone.

Morning of January 30, 2014. Thursday.



This dream is mostly uneventful but of some of the same nuances common to all dreams linked to certain types of long-term meditation. For some reason, whenever I use phrasing that relates to “universal” or various forms of happiness or health, I dream vividly about wrapped presents, often Christmas. In this case, though, I believe it is our oldest daughter’s birthday, yet somehow seemingly several years ago - and yet I also see a lot of Christmas decorations and sparkling wreaths (her birthday is nowhere near Christmas, though). There is an idea that we could share the birthday celebrations with my sister Marilyn in America (who has cancer now), but I am wondering about how much time would be involved. It is almost as if I am contemplating whether this is an “instantaneous” potential (in just suddenly going to America with everything in a matter of seconds) or somehow in “real time”, which would take days or weeks to plan and do (although I am not quite aware it is a dream). There are lots of wrapped presents in a few locations.

Later, the landlord shows up (regarding something relating to the grass and the lack of rain and such) and talks awhile in the kitchen, and after this, there are missing floorboards which I am concerned that our younger daughter may get too close to. There seem to be some subtle “practice scenes” at another level where she does fall through (but is uninjured), but not in more clearer dream time. In real life, it would be only a short fall if the boards were missing.

In my dream, there is some sort of strange series of conversations about letters written to my wife from a friend or business associate from the cat club from Maryborough. One scene (relating to the apparent disapproval of the friend or business associate) relates to how we did not date according to western ideas or so-called standards, which is not an issue with us as neither of us are mainstream and are not involved in mainstream culture other than my extensive teaching work which, however, never links to anything “fringe”-related (although I do warn my own children about New Age beliefs, pseudo-science, false systems, and virtually endless Doomsday propaganda which seem to be overwhelming these days, even now in 2014). Still, there is some sort of annoyance regarding different letters of how this or that “was not like the west” or something along those lines.

Apparently, though, I later slipped into a really strange state in the morning. My wife told me I was talking on and on (in my sleep) about the “letters not coming out in order” or some such, something about the alphabet and other patterns. What I remember is that the entire right side of the room seemed to be linked to some sort of accordion-bellows-like construct of alternating white and black waves of some sort (not sound - something else relating to a higher dimension). It was sort of tiring in trying to calculate something in my sleep and I had several false awakenings. I could not quite get my mind working relating to this “object” or “door”; area is one plane (at a time) only - in squared units, volume can only be realistically linked to three dimensions (in cubed units), not more, at least due to supposed morphing from a three-dimensional perspective in viewing a higher dimension - although you could get partial volume, I think, just as with surface area of sides of three-dimensional solids giving you some relevant data. Still, the black and white seemed “even” as if it was meant to be a starting point for more complex patterns, perhaps. Perhaps it had something to do with “folding space”, which seems a fair bet. I am getting frustrated trying to work out what the net (geometry meaning) would appear as or look like, along with other connections to whatever abstract nonsense is occurring.

Or maybe it was just some sort of surreal distortion of Venetian blinds and the highly irritating noise they make when slapping against the window frame every few minutes when a breeze picks up - when I am sleeping or trying to…Perhaps I am trying to calculate how to obliterate them completely…

I finally had my second lucid a few nights ago. It lasted a while (maybe as long as 15 minutes), though this was a result of sheer luck. Every few minutes I woke into a false awakening, in which I was in sleep paralysis, so then moved directly back into the same dream. Throughout I assumed I was waking up and falling back asleep.

It started with me waking into sleep paralysis. This could have been a false awakening, but I’m unsure. My body was vibrating. I relaxed, falling into the vibrations and inward spinning, intent on seeing where these lead me. Eventually I felt myself standing in darkness, and long streaks of purple light began zooming around me. I looked down at my hands (so opened my dream eyes?) and saw they were blurry. I also noticed part of a room with white walls had appeared. I pushed my fingers through my palm and almost shouted out in excitement that “I did it”. I calmed myself down, then rubbed my hands together and tried to shout “clarity”, but my voice broke. The scene remained mainly blurry.

My lucidity levels moved up and down throughout the dream, and this began straight away. I decided I wanted to have sex, so tried to imagine a woman. The darkness was now one of the walls of the room, and “inside” the silhouettes of four women appeared (the woman I tried to imagine actually turned up later). They walked into the room, materialising as I stood amazed. One of them, who appeared incredibly vivid, came up to me and for some reason I now thought she was real. We went through a door into another small room, sat on a bed and talked about my having managed to lucid dream. She was excited, congratulating me. Suddenly another woman jumped onto the bed and asked why we weren’t with everyone else, and I remembered these were dream characters and I wanted to have sex.

I went back into the main room and the other two women were sitting on a couch. I started having sex with one of them, then someone jumped onto the couch. I looked up and saw none other than myself. Again, my lucidity level dropped, and I thought he was real. I wondered why I was also in this dream.

I stood up, confused, and looked around the room. There was a young man sitting at the “darkness wall”. I sensed that he had evil eyes and sharp teeth, so, remembering I should face anything scary, I began walking up to him. I was waking up, though. The scene changed to 3rd person and I watched myself giving him a high five.

Then I woke into sleep paralysis. I lay thinking about the vivid woman and how my “visualisation skills had improved”, then followed the vibrations back into the same room.

There were now only three women sitting on the couch, all blurry. Deciding I didn‘t want to have sex again, I turned to the “darkness wall”. I jogged towards it, wanting to see if I could fly to another dreamscape, and jumped over the edge. Below me, shinning out in the darkness, was a medieval castle (which was incredibly vivid). I wanted to go further, though, so I kept flying. Which was pretty amazing; I could feel and hear wind, and I was flying beside what appeared to be the outlines of tall buildings. After about thirty seconds, I began to worry that I would never reach anywhere, so turned around. Just as I saw the room in the distance I woke into sleep paralysis.

This time I was afraid. Something was quietly growling beside my face. I reminded myself that I had no reason to be afraid and it disappeared. Multi-coloured lights began flashing in front of me and I went through them.

Back in the room either my lucidity level was low, or I was dreaming. Two DCs I thought were my parents told me they had hired a private investigator to find my wife. I believed what they were saying, even knowing the woman was the one I tried to imagine earlier. We walked into another room, with a city behind a large window, and met the private investigator. He told us he would do everything he could then walked through a door into the city. My parents began arguing with me, saying I had been rude to him. I told them it was possible he wouldn’t come back, because I hadn’t yet went through to the city to check with others whether he was reliable.

Woke into sleep paralysis. Followed the vibrations.

I was back with my “parents”, but now knew they were DCs. I decided to see my WL mum, so turned around to a door, said my mum was in the room, then opened it. I saw her standing inside, then suddenly the entire mood of the room changed to one of anguish. For some reason I knew she was in pain because she was only a DC(?!!). Disturbed, I closed the door, and the mood disappeared.

I woke into sleep paralysis, only this time it wore off within seconds. I sat up and tried to write what just happened in my dream journal, but my pen didn’t work. (I checked the paper afterwards in WL and there were no depressions.) I lay back down and either fell asleep, or sleep paralysis hit me. I don’t remember.

Back in the room with my “parents” and wife, but lost lucidity and started dreaming about visiting a museum with them.

I woke into my last false awakening. My dog came into my room and I got up and gave her a pet. Then I woke into WL.

Jan 29-30 2014

Took LD supplements (8mg of Galantamine and 500mg of Choline) and had longest dreams and LDs I've ever had. I preferred to DEILD and keep trying than write them down. These are written much later, so details weren't as clear and some dreams were forgotten altogether.

Why Am I Working at Scottsdale?
* *I was working at a store in Scottsdale, but it was outside, really dark outside, and weirdly futuristic. My manager asked me to help this girl out but I didn't even have socks on yet. I told her to wait one moment, and she was like trying to help me with my socks. I got them on, with my shoes, then help her. She wanted to download an app or get it working or something, so I help her and when it works she opens it and it's a game she wanted to play. My friend SK shows up with ST, just to say hi or something. I ask why she is all the way out in Scottsdale.

Finding an Attractive Girl (Lucid)
* *One dream I was lucid that I have is I'm looking for an attractive girl. I'm outside a house and decide to look there, but realize I should look on the second floor. Keeping in mind it's a dream, I jump to the second floor, but still have to grab on to the railing and hoist myself up.
* *As I land I want to go in the house, but only see windows and no door. I just tell myself I'll be able to go through the windows and then hop through them. I phase right through as if they weren't there. When I get in there, I realize there is a girl actually outside on the second story, so I hop back through the windows and go up to her. She comes up to greet me and she is extremely attractive, with dark hair, vibrant eyes, and around my age.
* *It's like she knows me because we're extremely comfortable around each other, and I'm finding myself turned on. I keep reality checking and stabilizing to make sure I don't get too excited and wake up. She still acts her own though as she doesn't just do whatever I ask, but acts how she wants to.

Creepy Worms, Super Kids, and Levitation (Lucid)
* *I was in a house with 3 other kids, and there were mosquito type things flying around that eventually turned into like flying maggots. We knew these were dangerous so we tried swatting them or something. I told one of them to get me strainers, with small netting, and it takes a minute to find one. Once one of the guys grabs one, I find another and take both to go start catching them. When I run back though, they're all gone.
* *It was slightly eerie, then the doorbell rings. Someone gets it and there is a girl who tells us there are giant works taking over the house. And we see there is a weird slimy material on the outside of his front door frame. We run outside and there is a man there who claims it was he who did this.
* *I run at him to attack him, but notice he is surround by little kids. I didn't care and keep running, but then one little kid gets this evil look on his face and runs at me. I freak out and run away, but this kid is faster and tackles me and is surprisingly strong. I realize all those kids are enhanced to protect him. The one who took me down goes back to the man.
* *I forget some details here but I realize I'm dreaming and am with those kids in a happier setting. We're playing a game of some sort, which is weird cuz it's like football but I'm running with otter pops and have to empty them out at the end zone. I'm running and only one girl is chasing me, but I get just close enough as she tackles me to empty it out.
* *As we're heading back I ask her what her powers are, she says speed and strength. Around here I wake up again and get back into the dream, and want to get my own powers. I try out levitation, but I know it will be slightly tricky to wrap my mind around the concept and believe I can do it. I decide to stand on top of a bench and just trust fall to the ground knowing I can stop myself. I do it and it works, and I swing back up to the top or the bench! Amazed, I try again, and it works a second time.
* *As I keep trying, I fail every now and then, but knew I could do it at that point. I tried floating up to a trampoline, and it half worked. I know I wake up again around this point as I go back in imagining the feel of the trampoline.
* *One of characters says at a point, "well now he's going to get aroused" or something similar, and I take it as a queue they're done doing things and I should do what I want to now. The girl nearest me is very attractive and my age, so I take her hand and bring her towards a pool. She is willing and follows me. Sexy time begins at the pool.

Lucid Fragments
* *I'm in a garage, lots of beat up cars in there, but I know they're supposed to be nice. It's still weird though because they're like glitched like a video game and are half stuck inside each other or a wall.

I am walking on this path that is smooshed in-between a forest(to the south) and highway(to the north). It is a path I walk frequently in wl. It is springtime or summer. I am almost at the part where it opens back up to the road but there are a Bunch of desks and chairs ( it's as if there is a class in this open area). I sit in one of the desks and want to listen to the lecture. The teacher comes up to me and says that he knows me from somewhere. I am a bit ticked off as I say " ya because you were my teacher not but two months ago". I wait a bit and say it was for a different class. At this point I am waiting for him to invite me to listen to the lecture but he never does he just looks at me. One of his student walks up and say that he is new and doesn't know where to sit. I offer him my seat and leave.

I am sitting on a bus with my friend O. In the racks above the seats there is student luggage. When people grab their bags more appear( feels like the kind of ting that happens on an airport). Anyways I don't have any luggage but I don't want my friend to know so I think I will just take someone else's. It doesn't work though because everyone seems to be grabbing their bags. I feel a bit embarrassed. I look out the window and notice the bus is parked on a bridge. I can see the train station and I watch them as the arrive and leave. I am trying to work out the schedule because I think maybe I could sneak on the train.

My class arrive at the destination, I believe it was a camping trip but I am still unsure as nobody has actually told me where we are going. There is a big white building in the shape of a rectangle. The rooms have no doors and are occupied by another class. It is really hot but they are laying in their sleeping bags which I think is pretty disgusting. We are suppose to share these rooms but they are small and so the other class really hate us. I still don't have a room but everyone is gone at this point. I am wearing a bikini with a sweatshirt over top. I walk with C and I tell her we need to be sneaky. I lower myself slowly int the pool so that I barely make a ripple in the water. She just jumps in and I get really angry. I try to get out but it is an above ground pool so I am scared that if I jump out the side it will break. I get out and go into an underground building, which is where everyone is. A bunch of guys give me their skateboards. It's like I am a coatrack but for skateboards and I find it very difficult to carry them. I go to give them back and it talk with this really hyper guy. I asked if he has ADD and he says he doesn't I just really find him annoying though. We all leave to go back to the pool because there is going to be a performance by Christina Aguilera but like how I remember her when I was a kid( think genie is the bottle song).

1. [Non-Lucid]
I'm holding onto a tree trunk/wooden post (unsure), I'm pretty high up, randomly got excited and ends in...sigh...a sticky mess.

2. [Non-Lucid]
I'm watching a guy play a pinball game on a rather small tablet (I can see perfectly what hes playing), and he has zoomed in so he can barely see much of what's going on.
I comment saying that I play Pinball FX and that he should try it as it should fit nicely on his tablet, I said I play it on PC and I turn my monitor sideways to play it in portrait mode (I think I even made a rotation gesture with my hands).

Fragments:
Were now both in bed or something.

barely remember a fragment of this dream

dream fragment: Something about me at my grandmas house, and I'm sitting at the dinner table, and a boy is sitting the opposite side of me. He stares at me the whole time. My grandma serves us soup or something and the boy keeps denying any food offered to him, and me and my grandma are just perplexed by it.

In a dream fragment:

I was walking backstage in my church's auditorium where I saw to guys i know, one was working on a computer the other not doing much. I ask the guy who wasn't doing much a question (I don't know what question I asked him) and he said "uhhhh, no" in a way I've heard him say in real life. And then my dream fades out

Later I the day when I'm awake I walk backstage to look for something, I look and see the two guys. The weird thing is, almost all the details of my dream (he was wearing the same shirt same everything). And I ask him if he'd seen the thing I'd been looking for and he said "uhhhh, no"

Slightly weird in my opinion

In a dream fragment:

I was walking backstage in my church's auditorium where I saw to guys i know, one was working on a computer the other not doing much. I ask the guy who wasn't doing much a question (I don't know what question I asked him) and he said "uhhhh, no" in a way I've heard him say in real life. And then my dream fades out

Later I the day when I'm awake I walk backstage to look for something, I look and see the two guys. The weird thing is, almost all the details of my dream (he was wearing the same shirt same everything). And I ask him if he'd seen the thing I'd been looking for and he said "uhhhh, no"

Slightly weird in my opinion

I'm sitting on the couch. My half sister walks over and sits too close to me. I'm annoyed, she starts trying to talk to me about how in high school she had this girlfriend named Jenny and then she begins to talk about what they'd do IN the bathroom while ditching and I interrupt her because I don't want to hear it, I'm grossed out. I start to walk away and she keeps talking about I'm a prude about and she gets louder so I throw a purple clunk of plastic that was on this table at her head, but it doesn't effect her at all, she just continues to stare at me she didn't even blink, and she's still talking about stuff, so I yell "bla bla bla bla bla" louder then her talking and that goes on for a good 5 minutes.

Me and my sister are walking through door after door after door endlessly, and we're fucking thirsty, like when we were children. One of the doors we walk through my mom is in sitting on a chair, she gets up and takes us by the hand and runs us through the doors faster. Each door we go through leads to a different room or scene. Some lead out to a desert, then a door into a dark purple and green fly infested room, then the next door into a basketball court. Finally we go through a door that has two water bottle filled with distilled water but only half way full me and my sister try to grab it before our mom shove us out the door, we do and we drink it all but it didn't quench our thirst at all. We keep telling her to stop and that we are dehydrated, and exhausted, but she ignores us and makes us keep going.

I am walking aimlessly around this room that seems to be an below the surface room on a ship. Someone is sitting in a chair in the corner passed out snoring. I'm looking at all the shit in here and know that it's a DC's room who will be here any minute. All of a sudden the DC's computer turns on and some guy is on the other end of a web cam, and he gets all excited to see me, and I wonder why, but I block the camera with something because I find it weird, and the guy looks all pervy. Then I look again and he's still there and he yells OMG Miley Cyrus. Then I realize I'm Miley Cyrus, and freak out, the the DC comes in and yells at me for fucking with his webcam, so I run around his bed and sit down and he forgets I'm there. (p.s. I'm not a miley fan, so)

It's just a dream fragment ...

I just remember I kind of got into my home (apartment) by some way I can't remember ... Okay so the place was crowded with people and I just ran to my room for reasons I am not aware of and I am aware, out of the blue, I AM. Okay so, I met my classmate (I dislike her a lot) and I just talked to her for no reasons known and I was kind of scared that I'll lose my dream but my dream appeared to be stable, but my fear was that if I blink then I'd wake up, so I blinked and then I "woke up" and I thought I was awake. I don't remember what happened after I "woke up" but I just know that when I woke up IRL I was pretty sure that the previous wake up was IWL thus a FA.

Date: 21 Jan

Entry 2/2

I thoroughly review in head the previous dreams and get more insomnia

Vaguely recall these two as I fell asleep afterwards.

DILD: I am in this yard like it was in the past, much wider, etc. Know I am dreaming and think of music. It think there was happiness, confidence and possibly thoughts about something before this part.

I start to sing or expect to hear a song. My subcon picks up a dream remix of "heal the world" by M. Jackson. I concentrate on making it sound like sung by a choir and hear the music loudly coming from everywhere and into me. Notice a few instruments too, really nice. I keep singing with the music but at some point I don't know the lyrics so that makes it hard for the music to continue. In addition, the more I become one with the music coming all around me, the more I lose sight of the yard and the dream and become blind. The dream soon fades.

I may have a micro awakening or so, no review, continue sleepying.

DILD:Don't remember the beginning of the dream. I am in this room, talking to bf and open and close a few doors, where I think about not locking them as it is a dream.

Bf is going somewhere but before I can say anything else, he vanishes. There's a stick that I decide to leave outside, should I need it for defense? I also notice a strange gurgling sound coming from a pipe, find it interesting. I go back to the same room, there were lots of bed there before but now it's a single connected bed the size of four beds is covering most of the room.

I remember I wanted to play with my ipad, so I try to summon it by drawing its shape with my fingers. It's funny because I do this instinctively rather than consciously. While there's a rectangular shape in progress, it isn't working to produce an ipad and on the bed just below my hands is my ipad so I grab it and try to stretch the frame. It happens, just as if I was dragging the image of a frame on a PC. I expand the screen to a TV size, then have to apply a bit more stretching as it does not stay in the desired shape for long. It gets small again. I think about trying to control the image.

Then something happens outside and now there are two scary zombi-like DCs and they are about to enter the place. I try to close the door although know they will get in anyways. I decide to face them and affect them. Actually, I feel quite confident and no matter how ugly they are (especially one with something coming out of his mouth), I just feel positivity and so spread it to them. They become quite happy and we just hang in there like drunk buddies. I stare in the eyes of one of them, he feels like a phantom rather than real person and is not looking at me with any purpose/driving force. The dream soon fades.

I black out before being able to journal and have a few other dream fragments.

I'm in this outside hallway, looks that of my high school or middle school or some shit. I'm just standing there with two DC's while all these people walk places they need to be. I tell one of the DC's that I finally cut my nails, and then I show him, but then he just stares at my nails with a confused look on his face, then he looks at my face with the same look and then totally walks away. So then I look at the other DC that is with me and he give me a sad look then walks away, I wonder what I have done wrong, so I look down at my nails, and they're long as fuck but I remember I cut them in WL and also they have dirt under them, I feel annoyed that they grew back or I never cut them or something, but I was more confused as to why it offended those two people so damn much, so I planned to go cut them off.